Septemeber 11

5:05 AM Eu urmăresc Bugetul României din 2017 deci de 9 ani. Ieri am spus că se fură din Buget, și au făcut-o toate partidele la vremea lor, de cel puțin 10 ani, pentru că m-am gândit că așa a fost și în 2016, însă sumele deturnate erau mai mici și au crescut mereu până în zilele noastre, odată cu creșterea exponențială a datoriei externe, de la 75 miliarde euro în 2016 la 250 astăzi.

Însă în loc măcar să se folosească acești bani la ceva în România, a fost invers, banii s-au furat de la buget, de la ministerele mari, pentru a plăti dobânzi exorbitante "investitorilor". Deci practic au fost virați banii de dobânzi, căci nu se știe ce s-a făcut cu "principalul" adică sumele obținute pe titlurile de stat emise.

Am postat prima dată despre deturnarea bugetului pe fb în August 2021, iar la 2 săptămâni am avut un accident când un tip cu o camionetă uriașă m-a lovit din spate pe autostradă. Ministrul de Finanțe de atunci, Vîlceanu, a fost implicat, cu concursul firmei regionale Les Schwab.

Postarea nu a mai fost susținută de altele, am avut alte griji, de la a cumpăra o altă mașină, tot daună totală (după buget), de la o licitație și a o repara, acțiune ce continuă și în prezent fiindcă mașina a fost sabotată la greu. Jaful a continuat și s-a amplificat. Organizarea accidentului și-a dat roadele.

Azi au venit cu următoarele evenimente care să se plaseze pe cuvintele cheie din acel paragraf.

Eliberarea la 10 ani a lui Omor Hai s-am care fusese condamnat pentru terorism la 24 ani chiar pe 11 Septembrie (spre gloria lui Băsescu pe o înscenare cu jurnaliști răpiți), Ieri seară am văzut o persoană care arăta exact ca el când am fost să duc gunoiul la tomberon (apoi m-am culcat și am uitat să blochez ca de obicei ușa de la intrare, dar m-am trezit cam la jumătate de oră și am blocat-o).

Nu cred că Hayssam a fost la închisoare pe bune sau acela este numele lui, după cum nu cred că vreunul din VIP arestați de-a lungul timpului au fost pe acolo.

Declarațiile de presă ale lui Grindeanu, concepute pentru a mă contrazice. Numai ultimele luni au aruncat țara în faliment. Aluzii: Contabil de CAP. Însă nu România a în faliment ci doar Banca Națională, care are același "guvernator" de 35 de ani.

Dacă AUR și PSD doreau să colaboreze, o puteau face acum, prin suspendarea Președintelului care nu a reușit să propună un prim ministru acceptabil în 4 luni și organizarea de referendum pentru demitere și alegerea altui Președinte. Însă intenția este de a organiza anticipate pentru a da AUR controlul țării spre o posibilă dictatură.

Bolojan și-a bătut joc de România timp de mai mult de un an, pentru a crește (a dubla) AUR în sondaje iar acum PSD vorbește despre alegeri anticipate. Dacă ar fi alegeri anticipate, PSD ar pierde 4 procente. Nu este asta blat? Nu este asta același tip de teatru absurd care ni se servește începând din 90 când au venit minerii chemați de Președinte să atace pe bucureșteni?

11:25 Și au venit ei imediat cu un alt sondaj care să arate că PSD nu ar pierde procente la anticipate. Mă uitam la silueta rectilinie a știristei încercând să-mi imaginez cât de mult din picioare nu au încăput în poză și nu am zărit în dreapta sus (că mai există și) un Partid al lui Călin file din poveste? Ok un ipotetic partid al lui Georgescu (tot din cauza știristei nu m-am prins).

Care dacă se adaugă la SOS și AUR (iar mi se pare că m-am trezit dintr-un coșmar în alt coșmar, cu numele astea de partide în față) s-ar apropia de o majoritate absolută ce în curând ne păstorește paște?

Poate atunci Nicușor Dan s-ar îndura să-l desemneze pe Grindeanu Georgescu sau Simion Prim Ministru? 

11:30 Aluzii... PNL Aripa Căzută Orban fâlfâie în cu totul direcție decât Aripa Ascuțită până la nori Bolojan. Nicușor Dan, un alian extraterestru care așteaptă mothership-ul să vină să-l ia pe o rază de lumină?

1:05 PM Ok a venit și lickuriciul Băsescu să leviteze deasupra tuturor și să ne liniștească. Nu va fi AUR+POT+SOS+Georgescu adică extremiștii și suveraniștii, va fi AUR+PSD (care deocamdată nu se prea înțeleg).

Parcă vrea să spună: "Stați liniștiți ce dreq suntem și noi pe aici, avem biznisuri" "O luăm iar de la zero, 7 ani de foame pentru plata datoriei externe cu bani de la diaspora, îl împușcăm pe dictator, mergem la televiziune cu Dinescu, o plimbăm pe Ana Blandiana cu tab-ul (nu am impresia că aia era Doina Cornea)?".

Dar ce ne facem fără Iliescu? Ok Băsescu poate să-l înlocuiască pe Iliescu. Că numele lui tot se termină în escu, ca tot românul. 

1:50 Houthinis hit again. Is that guy in white robe and a jacket holding a phone? Wondering what providers he has ha ha. More guys in bright white clean robes on the right. Is this a parade or a joke? (It cannot be a parade, see how funny that guy on the left walks)?

1:55 If it's Friday, it must be up, for good weekend sentiment of course.

9:00 Ok here comes the juicy one. I was driving southbound on I5 together with a bunch of outworld guys who were all been trying their look with me.

I was thinking this morning what are they gonna do next, and the only thing i could think of was they are going to plainly hit me.

Since after first exits in Salem traffic started to chill a little i asked Angela for a slice of that pizza i baked from frozen in the morning (yeah i am doing much better right now, after i fixed that exhaust leak i didn't know i had and the proof is after i got accustomed with the tiny keyboard now i can type fairly fast), and found myself driving with one hand only while passing a semi withs speed limit+10.

One guy in a black Honda at once came ft behind me and started to push. But he didn't hit me from behind as i was first expecting and then i accelerates and then i hit the brakes to make him slow down cause i was going way too fast, still on the left of that semi. But after i passed the truck, i pulled in that lane and let him pass, and could not see anything through his tinted windows.

But then i saw a finger next to that window while myself i was fingering him and for that i must have put the pizza aside but then i saw that window coming towards me and than the rear of his car entirely into my lane towards the front of my car as i maneuvered out of his way with less than 1/100 of a second to spare.

However at an autopsy they would have found undigested pizza in my stomach.

Then he moved back into his lane and when i pointed the phone to take a picture about 30 seconds later he went... on the left shoulder, trying to prove, i don't know, he was just crazy and not a self driving or robot targeting me? It was me i almost hit him because i was eating pizza?

And so i passed this September 11. Didn't i say all anniversaries are bad for me, because they always try to get me in synch with some event, so they can prove it was an act of god. Or goddess whatever.

Time stamp on the picture was 5:11 PM. He of course exited at first exit and then they were no more exits for many miles. 

September 10

7:40 AM Pe cuvinte cheie. Niculescu a fost doctorul care m-a operat la Iași. Pe atunci aveam 13 ani. Satul Câineni. Am spus că o marcă germană e sinonimul calității. Oare chiar spulberă mitul? Am spus că frica poate fi un motivator. Liliana Alexe face un show în știri (singura chestie e că nu dă ochii peste cap). Tot mai multe vedete își consolidează trecutul fake din România. Psihoza cu sondaje fake. Astfel, la eventuale alegeri nu ar fi o surpriză (cine dreq votează cu un partid care se numește Aur Aoleu?).

PSD s-a transformat în partidul de "bad boys". Au răsturnat guvernul, acum nu vor decât Grindeanu.

Dar dacă tot m-am apucat de scris (am spus că nu mai scriu nimic despre România, fiindcă nu vrea nimeni să citească ce am pus în dreapta sus, Datoria externă și Bugetele pe ministere). Dar dacă tot m-am apucat, hai să spun ce îmi stă în minte de mai multe zile.

Oare cine ar fi nebunul să vrea prim ministru acum și să vină să spună: ok, avem 250 miliarde de euro datorie (60% din PIB), o cifră confirmată de site-ul BNR (au rapoarte până în iunie) și furăm de ani de zile (vreo 10, furt la care au participat toate partidele) jumătate din bugetele ministerelor pe principiul las că se descurcă ei ca să plătim dobânzile și scadențele? Să vedem ce putem face.

Nimic nu se mai poate face, decât poate să declarăm falimentul BNR și să o luăm de la zero cu toate. Și să nu mai vindem titluri de stat cu dobânzi fantastice "investitorilor".

Da chestia era mult mai simplă dacă eram pe euro, dar așa depindem de BNR pentru schimbul valutar.

Și iată vine Nicușor Dan, într-o culme a naivității prostiei cinismului și spune că trebuie să alocăm bani mai mulți în învățământ? Banii sunt alocați dar bugetul lor ca și al altor ministere cu buget mare este deturnat pentru aceste plăți care anul trecut au fost 84 miliarde de euro. Da știu acum vor veni cu vreo știre ceva care să conțină numărul 84.

Banca Națională s-a transformat într-o instituție caritabilă (un Caritas) care vinde bonuri de trezorerie cu dobândă de 7%. Da de unde scot banii să plătească dobânda? R: Din alte împrumuturi. (nu era asta definiția Caritas-lui?)

5:55 PM

7:40 It is also very interesting how the Latin syntagm Domine Deus evolved in Romanian into Dumnezeu.

Why the first d was kept and the other not. How in modern Romanian Domine taken separately evolved into Doamne and not Dumne. How in modern Romanian they add one more Domine (Doamne) in front of it all etc..

I am not sure it came entirely from Sumerian but it could be a hybrid of two cognates as it is also possible that the word Domine in Latin was inherited from Sumerian.

The Lord is my shepherd.

8:10 And yes, AI is very dangerous. For liers.

9:39 Yesterday i posted about a blow by gas (raw exhaust and unburnt fuel) leak at the spark plug wells' seals. The next day i think i figured why and wanted to share it here. First a minimalist conceptual diagram showing a cross section of a spark plug well, cover etc. There is some pressure under the cover which pulsates in the rhythm of firing of the cylinders which makes the whole composite cover surface to vibrate up and down. There are two bolts in the middle of the cover to prevent just that. Those bolts were not properly torqued or got loose in time. (one of them here, painted yellow and oil at the last well seal that came with the gas).

The vibration of the seals on the spark plug wells was releasing blow by gas which is normally captured by the PCV system, in my case with a catch can added, but that one does not restrict flow.

So after i tightened those two bolts the next day i saw oil only at one seal, i re-tightened it and and now i have to look again, but every time i go outside same people show, basically ostensibly overseeing me. While other people, kids pass by "casually".

There are three days since the last drive and i am still recovering. Yes, the driver gets more exposed because he/she breathes more due to driving activity. When i got back home Monday evening the whole engine compartment was smelling big time like exhaust which indicates the problem suddenly escalated last weekend. But today i could not pop the hood, there are people watching me all the time.

10:45 Cu 20% nu poți dar dacă s-ar face anticipate și AUR ar câștiga 40% conform sondajelor, poate. Pe de altă parte, ar fi mult mai simplu să alegem un nou președinte. Călin Georgescu abia așteaptă, iar alții nu mai sunt în campanie.

După decenii de furt organizat din buget, acum ei cu toții în același blat general complicat ne înghesuie spre ceva prin care să scape de răspundere sau poate să continue într-o formă sau alta. Dictatură poate? Ceva gen Trump?

September 9

Last night i was watching Star Gate Atlantis, one Sci Fi series i haven't re-watched since i got Amazon, Netflix and Paramount, i forgot which episode, the one with the three Wraith ships getting closer, one was destroyed by the "satellite" and then Earth reinforcement came through the worm hole.

Yeah in normal Star Gate movies, they usually dial with 7 Chevrons to open a wormhole (like the number of digits in a regular US phone number without area code) at a certain address (BTW i believe this form of traveling is possible), in this one they need 8 for that intergalactic address. Like the number of rays of Scientology cross or Ishtar star or years for a complete Venus cycle. And then i had a small revelation which helped me go to sleep. Pegasus. Atlantis.

6:25 AM About 2-3 weeks ago i found an open hole in a wall in a corner of the living at about one ft from the ground. I have done it myself years ago when i squeezed baking soda inside the walls. Back then i temporarily put a cork in it but forgot to plug it with gypsum like i did with the others and he cork fell ("due to vibrations"). But it was somehow covered and out of sight behind some cardboard boxes and a storage bin full of old VCR tapes and CDs and i assume all that most of the terrible wall dust settled on the items and the box itself.

I took it away and plugged the hole however i never dealt with the box. Ever since i started to have esophagus pain and my hunger increased, ate a lot, my BS got elevated regardless insuline dosage, etc..

Today i threw the big VCR tapes though i kept the 8 mm ones which may contain personal stuff. Also kept the CDs and put them all in a shoe box, though i should take them individually by hand and wipe the dust with a wet rag.

How many holes i found in the walls here and plugged over the years? In the walls they were done supposedly by nails from past occupants, but why were they always coming by two, and new ones were popping every time we were away? Must have been in the hundreds.

The stuff in the walls in apartments with mineral insulation is some of the nastiest of all pollutants a human has to face when living in an apartment built in the 70s. I don't know who was the genius who invented mineral insulation, and yes, it may have good thermal insulation properties and be fire resistant and stuff but it is a death sentence to live in one of those. And not only death, but endless torture and illness.

If you have holes in the walls and breath that stuff, it gets eliminated slowly from lungs and reaches your esophagus, stomach and colon. Imagine verh sharp microscopic pieces of "dirty" glass. Wall dust also contains paper fiber from the drywall sandwich which is soaked with mineral sulfur in gaseous form (SO2), the next nasty thing that comes out of those. And the fact the air stays inside those walls for decades, mixing with nutrients like dead skin that get in there through the same holes.

No a regular medical grade HEPA filter even with electrostatic elements cannot stop those particles, they are too small and the electrostatic filters still on the market have very low flow (efficiency). The negative ion generators that help bring the dust to the floor work but not (did not try a high capacity one) a lot and the ones that collect dust particles do work a little, better than nothing. Mine has broke and did not get another one yet. I believe this is the only brand on the market.

But all filters are useless if  you have the tiniest active hole in a wall and sometimes they are hidden behind furniture and appliances.

The ceiling has actual cracks. Over the years, the drywall panels became curvy and cracked in places all because of the speed bump in front of the building. I finally painted it with some really tough stuff, which is not a paint but a primer that has lots of polymer in it which is very strong, plugged every crack and is even helping the ceiling structurally (a bit). I remember of jocke at Steve, the Korean mechanic. At my question, what is really holding the drywall panels together in an apartment, he said: The paint!

Can't remember the brand right now, i bought in store, could have been this guy. I also bought a roller with pump which really helps with painting (did not move anything, did not cover anything) but the primer was too thick for that roller, start and stop button was not working as intended, Angela had to stand next to me and plug it and unplug it when too much paint was coming through that hose.

I believe it can cover cracks like those at the corners of walls/ceilings. But for bigger cracks and nail holes, you have to buy some gypsum and plug those first.

As for the power roller, it was a german brand, which is synonym with quality.

Apartment buildings with central AC? If they use water for heating/cooling like i saw at Peppermill, they must have a heat exchanger inside the wall or ceiling and that usually has a paper filter. Filter can be replaced but the radiator itself is usually soaked with dust that went past the filter.

Not talking about efficiency but bacterial growth. I have this window AC that i hose every week after the guys who blow the parking lot pass by and both radiators are clean. But if i started it right after they soak the building with dust, dust will come inside, though there are separate ait circuits for inside (hot) and inside (cold) part with a very small common part (yes the condensation pan inside).

Yes my hands did swell a little just by manipulating that crate (box).

Under the fridge. Dust of all kinds stick on the coil under your fridge and there is a fan there to spread it in the room, at vibrations from outside like slammed doors from your neighbors which also help dust from wall being pumped though all holes and at the joint drywall/floor.

And yes i believe many of so called mental illnesses and addictions are caused by those, not only colon cancer and stuff. Some of the antidepressants are actually helping with the pain caused by the sharp mineral dust. Probably street drugs too.

Nose congestion. The very irritant sharp mineral dust inflames the mucous membrane inside the nose, making breathing harder. Some people do not realize and keep breathing though the noise which is 90% closed. This at first causes anxiety and then a vacuum inside lungs that raises your diaphragm muscle that separate chest and abdominal cavity, raising your stomach (hiatal hernia) and twisting your heart, resulting in at first palpitations.

May these guys rot in hell.

9:50 Got this job offer from indeed, I believe their AI started crawling on blogs and select candidates. Could there be finally some justice in this. They said i have strong writing skills LOL. If you All start blogging on anything after a while you might get this.

September 8

11:00 AM 911

1 :11 Mda creierul săracul e programat să functionate în acest ciclu motivație-recompensă. Dacă stăm tot timpul pe telefon recompensă în creier nu se mai întâmplă nimic. Ok poate o ușoară încălzire de la undele care sunt emise de telefon.

Dar nu cred că în majoritatea cazurilor anticiparea răsplatei declanșează ciclul. Frica poate fi un motivator mult mai puternic. Un exemplu. Frica de examene.

Sau furia care mă face să postez în cele mai multe cazuri. Lembke este un nume german, Ana apare de trei ori în postarea mea autobiografică unde sunt numeroase referințe la Germania, germani, și pot continua pentru mult timp despre aceste conexiuni ne-întâmplătoare.

Dar așa cum arată și titlul cărții, psihiatrii nu mai fac de mult psihanaliză care costă foarte mult, nebunii s-au înmulțit iar psihiatrii s-au specializat în a prescrie medicamente din care unele nu fac altceva decât să crească nivelul de dopamină, ce poate duce la pierderea motivației (adică ești ca un zombi al cărui creier nu funcționează, deci nici psihozele) iar nebunii se liniștesc dar în final  devii atât de dependent încât nu mai poți scăpa de ele și îți tot cresc doza etc. și îți aduc asemenea schimbări de personalitate (lipsa ciculului motivație - răsplată) încât nu mai poți face un job.

Scientologia folosește un tip de psihanaliză numită audit care la ei este obligatorie (pentru perfecționare, nu că ar fi toți nebuni) dar și pentru a strânge bani pentru biserică, care este mult mai ieftină fiindcă nu necesită un doctor cu diplomă și a declarat de mult război IRS medicamentelor psihiatrice. Este doamna?

Cred că doctorii ar trebui să se concentreze mai mult pe cauzele psihozelor, însă nu prin psihanaliză ci prin analiza mediului de viață sau cantitatea de poluare din viața unora generată de viața modernă, ca de exemplu noxele din locuințe sau în mașini pe stradă, iar în majoritatea cazurilor nu au ce face.

Normal că o internare în spital unde este mai curat conduce la liniștirea temporară, însă nu ne putem muta cu toții acolo.

Normal că persoanele cu activitate mentală mai intensă sunt mai vulnerabile la acești factori poluanți.

3:15 Neural circuits are made of axons and neurons and they are electrically conductive but not all in the same time because that would be crazy. Though per whole brain temperature does not raise a lot under exposure to microwave (cell phone) radiation, the circuits themselves might at least selectively get overloaded.

One must understand. Even in convection or thermal radiation heating, the heating of a mass like the brain is not done uniformly, with surface being heated first and getting much more heat than the core. But with microwave heating, there are electric currents (called eddies) induced in the most conductive parts of that mass.

As i said not the whole brain is conductive at a certain moment, that would be again uniform distribution of the energy but only the selected circuits or engrams firing let's say during conversation and that would mean overwhelming, re-writing or simply losing of some synaptic gates every time.

I think most people at least once accidentally put a piece of wire or foil in the microwave that uses same frequencies as cell phones.

I once had a set of China i got from Goodwill with 2 bucks and they had two rings painted with gold close to outer diameter and they were flashing every time we were heating food and tiny pieces were missing bur since i didn't have a microwave before, it took me a lot of time to figure, so yeah, they were attracting much more energy that the food.

September 7

10:10 Fuego

September 6

2:15 AM

2:22

2:37 Till Eulenspiegel, Tule camp, Tualatin. 'Tula-i Doamne!

8:58 Or they could just watch the image above one minute a day.

9:00 MGGA. But it does not have the same maga.

BTW. These guys with moustache reminded me of the blond cook with moustache at the Tule grill at Indian Head last night who gave me a weird look while i was in line there. In the car i discovered he burnt my burger again. It was black (on one side only). One more thing.

As soon as i got there, (the real) people started to leave, there was a line at the end of parking lot. When i looked through the window from the only parking spot left what did i see. Yes at some point they were two cops from tribal police in the casino, but this was the first time i saw them patrolling among the machines. They were both taller than me also looking Indian.

Yes could have gotten back inside to ask for another one but it was raining, i was tired and all of the people there including the cook looked unfamiliar. It was like some task force took over the whole place and were acting like locals.

In the end i ate it and there was also some loud distorted bass pegging the subwoofer in a nearby car and the smell of cows from across the street and almost chocked (dysphagia). Also because i was was sort of paralyzed by the mole gas coming from a new hole i discovered under the deck when we left.

Sometimes i do spend time in the car because of being tired from the dangerous trip there.

9:07 If they were serious they would have picked a serious candidate against Trump.

9:55 In the car while going there we listened to music in sequence from my 6000 songs stick. Here came this funny song and we both started to laugh at also to release the tension after three accidents i avoided on the road, people pushing real close with modified high beams from behind) and i turned the volume up.

After i got in the parking lot at Indian Head i went to check the spark plugs, they sometimes get loose after replacing them though i wiped the threads with cotton balls before putting the new ones. They were ok but i had to go first thing to the restroom to wash my hands and two guys one after another came in with cups of beer raised at their head's heigh.

10:10 We left after midnight to avoid traffic but they were more than ever and all comming from the opposite, nobody was going our way. They did not get fewer not even at 2 AM. All blinding me with modified high low and fog lamps, must have been in the hundreds. But how come they always came in the most critical curves of the road when i had to guess the direction to go?

Yes it was raining and cold which lowered pressure in my tires. Traction control lamp came on many times and i got bad mileage. I made 39 on dashboard for the whole day (230 miles) which would be about 37 at the pump. But i have more power at the gas pedal after replacing those spark plugs.

When i got back to Gresham on 212 i saw a BMW comming from the opposite with stock lights and high beam on and it was like nothing, i could just stare right at it, it was like ten times less compared to what i faced up in the woods of Mount Hood where at times i could barely see the yellow line on the right of the lane due to blinding from incoming.

11:11 When i went to Romania in April 2004 (the only time in 31 years) it was all over the news. Still awaiting trial? Which reminds me of... Also of... Narcis Tarcău is from Bacău and was working in an office next to mine at xIMU. Most likely there are not real Romanians but Hungarians. No, Julian Mart, my colleague at xIMU was not Gregorian Bivolaru though he looked somehow similar. He did yoga too in college.

 

I personally was initiated (i think) in ascetic Sadhu yoga by my roommate Gabriel without me knowing or willing after one day he put me in a trance after he forced me to sleep only 4 hours a day for months, reading books, both walking naked in the room, eating little food, he gave me a new, secret name and asked me to do a small job for him every day etc. I will come with more informations in my biographic notes, chapter II, High School.

Interestingly enough in historical Bukovina there is a place called Sadagura (which may stand for Sadhu guru which might have been called millennia ago, when in Romania it was spoken Sanskrit) and another place called Sadova within walking distance from where i was born (and where i almost had that bicycle accident).

The grandmother of my grandmother who built the house we were all living in was sort of a healer, including immobilizing broken bones with flat pieces of wood (splints) and in Bucovina existed a tradition called Solomonari. 

But if you'd ask me, i'd say they are just part of an ancient culture and genetic group with deep analysis capability of establishing cause-effect relationships.

12:15 Angela has 50 dollars free play, 40 dollars food and one free night at Three Rivers and tomorrow she got a day off (Labor Day).

12:30 Do all country songs sound the same? Is this a gay song?

September 5

12:12 AM Krisztián Vranik White God

6:18 Human consciousness is very small. Probably the reason it can be tricked so easy by the occult that relies on misperception which can be a form of magic though not devine magic.

It may seem that way only because of the degree of abstraction of concepts they trick your mind with and the stakes. When high values are at stake, our judgement capacity becomes even smaller than described below. But this is not want i wanted to discuss right now. I don't want speculate further as why but i think i know.

As i said a few days ago our consciousness may not even reside inside our brain and the communication with it is what makes it so slow. The alignment with the Universal Consciousness.

As one would say, this is what we got, this is what we parade with.

That was the reason even for myself is very hard to encompass in the conscious part of my brain things i have written not long ago, because my emotions nowadays keep me in a different area. The reason they can easily and effectively erase one or entire people's memory with (fake) semantics. The reason i write so poorly and make so many mistakes when i think of things really important.

So yes, i was wondering where i've seen that pose in Botticelli's painting that was generously reminded to me by someone i don't really know and this morning while cooking some breakfast after 4 hours of sleep i had this revelation.

Ok i feel guilty because i'm not being honest. I was cooking those eggs thinking in the same time at her and what i posted last night. Hitler was a (twice failed) art student and obviously not a Freud's patient.

Which proves again and again the deep connections in our pre-history between the far west and Europe etc.. Or was that an infusion that accompanied or triggered the cultural and religious revolution known as Renaissance? 

7:47 I have recently read about the possibility of enlarging one's window of consciousness through magic sex acts in which time they may have answers through revelations or wishes come through by putting "commands" to the Universe. I read once kuji kiri induced deep meditation may do same or even better, attaining what they call in Japan shin shin shin gan or eye and heart of God through which they may shyncronize with other (targets), read their minds or put commands into others' mind.

September 4th

12:30 AM

I have a long time to go (and many fishes to fry) in my semi-chronologic autobiographic notes until i reach the end of college. So i have to come here with a preview i need to prove something.

Under the suspicion that sex magic is an ubiquitous practice in media, cinematography and even news, with more and more sexy "anchors". But first an example. Dee Dee Gatton and her colleague who is even sexier, i forgot the name.

With Dee Dee Gatton i once met at a Walgreens pharmacy recently, she acting as a pharmacist and performing and act of arousal on me. She seemed very open and accessible however she had this peculiar accent, maybe Asian, not present on TV.

But ABBA. There was this woman at CPL Bacău (again, wood processing) where Angela worked in the IT first and then became head of the accounting department while i was still a student, who was a data input operator. However she looked exactly like Frida from ABBA and also seemed not very happy to be there. That attitude made her sort of unattractive though she had a body of a model and everything.

I remember the head of IT department, her female boss was affectionately calling her Baba Nela (old lady Nela), apparently a an allusion to her age and still being unmarried which could have been a play word for me to remember. There was an engineer in the maintenance department Virgil Atonoaiei from Brusturoasa who looked (and talked) like the artist known as Boy George.

Together they once came to a party in 4 in our new apartment. We had a brand new stove in the kitchen and they brought a... whole rabbit and she was very suspicious of the way Angela was handling it to cook, she was looking over her shoulder with an obviously concerned attitude, which surprised me given her official social status. (In other words, very fussy).

We only had furniture in the bedroom and we danced together in there around the bed. But as some point which was pretty early in the evening they chose to leave and in the door he made an allusion, like maybe we could do other things (like swapping maybe).

No it's not only those two songs. There are many others, can mention now though i'm pretty tired, Does Your Mother Know, which is about underage activities.

Truth is, through these guys and many others we are/were fully immersed in sex symbolism, all the time as soon as we start the radio or open the TV or go online. Is that the path they chose for us in the 19th century? Self developing through sex magic?

Talking about ABBA. Yes, i had an encounter with the pretty girl from Ace of Base too, she was acting as an accountant in an Italian timber firm i worked last time in Romania teaching them how to use my accounting app i was selling to firms in Bacău. After the first, probably real accountant left one day and i had to start over.

We were all talking Italian because of the owner and were cooking and eating pasta every day.

Together one day we walked from one end of Bacău (beyond city limits) where that firm was all the way to the other end or Energy street where we lived (yes, this is an occult keyword, see above).

Some 10 miles i guess. We talked and talked and i lost track of time and distance (was i in a trance?).

She was nice and social and easy to talk to and seemed genuinely interested in me. But when we got there at our building i did not invite her in. It was pretty late and Angela was one hour from coming home from work. I didn't want to, she was too nice, too much, would have fallen in love with her.

I remember the day before i got in the plane to leave for the US they called me for a modification (yes i was afraid something could go wrong and did not tell anybody except a few relatives) and Mihai Clivetti, the chief or president of whatever of Bar Association was having a heavy argument with her (yelling at each other) while i was in the other room. Blackmailing was common during those days in Romania.

1:25 Talking about sexual energy. Anybody heard about Wilhelm Reich?

9:30 Ok now i remember. One day the always percolating French teacher (who might have been a real Frenchman) came into class with this theme. "Faites l'amour, pas la guerre". I think he had some postcards of which one i remember, it was with a gorilla or something. He even asked us to write down a one page essay about it (yes of course in French). Yes i remember what i wrote about.

Yeah i guess no matter what and how it's always better to. Make love and not war. I think i stuck with that idea from that day on. But i was just a stupid, overgrown kid with no money and one set of clothes on me. No way he wouldn't have known that.

6:00 Pe când spălam vasele mă gândeam. Cred că a fost corect să spun că pe vremea lui Freud, toată lumea bună din Viena a dat cu subsemnatul subconștientul pe la el?

Ăsta nu e răspunsul pe care l-am cerut, dar e interesant și îl pun aici. Am să reformulez întrebarea pentru AI.

6:15 PM Talking about the golden age. Anybody remembers Gustav Klimt from the news? Ok i think i figured why Klimt was not seeing Freud. Klimt was an alchemist and Freud was not. 

6:45 Sincer pe mine Nicușor Dan începe să mă sperie. Mai este legitim un președinte care nu respectă Constituția?