April 21

3:07 Like yesterday, got awakened by something at 2:30 AM. Came at the computer to read the news. About 10 minutes ago i started to feel a mold smell and then sneeze without stopping. Then i went outside and found another hole under the deck in front of door and one in front of sliding doors at the living or in front of hottest areas where air squeezes in under door and by the sliding doors. The hole under door is a few inches away from the yesterday one which was a few inches away from the one the day before etc.. No other holes in the whole yard. I poured about half gallon of water with borax in each. Closest perceived smell, both inside and out. Heated stove. Or whatever is coming out of those exacerbates my own sense of smell and i actually feel the smell of the stove. I read about the trick with borax on a site, but from what he was saying, and the amount i poured in a large number of holes (about 20) the moles should have been long gone.

Last night i wanted to take a bath. I was sitting there watching the tub getting filled (it takes about 2 and a half minutes) and then i saw something dark coming from the faucet, for about half second, and that cut my appetite. So i just let the tub cool and heat the apartment instead of letting it flow.

3:32 As usual in the "news" most subjects are related to what i just posted. I'd be safe and warm if i was in LA.

3:50 One hour later, the smell outside is long gone, still present inside. Or maybe there is one more hole at the bedroom. My keyboard or hub (that let me turn the Chromebook into a PC) seem broke. I restarted the whole system and that didn't fix it. If i think of something one day like "how well this work" usually the next day it brakes. Aparigraha? Anyways it's enough distraction to make me forget things as what i had in mind to write next.

3:57 Right shift doesn't work (hackers, humoristic). My cold is not completely gone. Wanted to make some tea but the electric kettle broke two days ago. Again i was thinking that it worked nicely for me over the years. Tried to fix it, but the screws at the base are rounded. Was it me, did i fix it before? In the microwave it takes twice longer to boil the same amount of water and it's noisy. Stove is out of the question. Ordered a new one. Switched keyboard in a different port in the hub, the same problem. Num key doesn't light, right shift doesn't work. I had one more... USB port in the Chromebook, plugged the keyboard directly there and again it's not working. So they hacked the Chromebook. Nevermind, it started working now. For how long? Lost about 15 minutes and all my momentum.

4:14 It looks like alarm didn't sound at 4, Angela is still sleeping. It means her overtime ended, like her training yesterday. I wanted to say a few words about and now that i got pissed by the keyboard i found the courage to say it.

About a year ago a new temporary handyman showed here to fix something. He told me he was born in Germany from American parents stationed there and went to HS there and there was one thing he liked. "In Germany, you have to go to school for everything".

As opposed to the famous "on the job training" institution in the US. Which also opposes the equally (in)famous "job security" institution.

On the job training means you get trained to do a new thing like a different workstation, by a colleague, who sometimes has training skills and sometimes doesn't, he just knows how to do the job but can't teach others.

Job security means people competing unfairly at work, even outside work hours. Rumors, secret complaints and alliances, blackmail, short-cutting chain of management, secret or open alliances included.

One makes everything possible not to show selected colleagues what he/she knows, that brings him/her and their friends more chances of keeping the job. Which means your colleague that trains you can pretend he can't teach you. Or worse, that you are untrainable.

4:32 Went to pick some pieces of garbage from the red mulch that are known (to me) to create a mold smell. One was next to a SUV's left front wheel (again, humor), like many times before, but when i went to pick it i saw the red SUV had a flat in the left rear. Once again, they laid a trap based on my previous behavior. BTW ever since i took that IR picture of the building, keep asking why there is a fan in a closed window and why the wall was hot in that day which prompted me to buy the IR camera. On August 20 last year i had a flat again in the right rear at my old Elantra that triggered a chain of events that ended in me being hit from behind on I5.

BTW, Tuesday afternoon i fixed again the car's battery connectors. Not long ago i doubled the connectors by drilling holes in battery's terminals. Angela said in the morning voltage was again low. No heat, no vibration, from evening to morning the connectors got loose. Two connections per each terminal that both get loose? It only works for one trip no matter how long but if i make that trip right after i fix them. Thinking to fix them right before she leaves.

4:46 And one more thing. Now that i reviewed yesterday his picture, i started to believe the guy that was yelling at me two days ago from the back of the alley, who replaced him, was again Pitbull (or George Borlai), while "his wife" could have been a man in disguise, like maybe again Tom Cruise, hiding his hands behind cars.

5:04 Angela awoke a while ago (used at 4 AM for weeks now) and started TV. Biden is coming to Portland today. Nevermind, i won't fix anything today. Angela passes this place every day in her way to work and back. And BTW, i believe besides nitrogen, they also make (scavange from air) Xenon, one of the most expensive gasses as well. Nitrogen in elemental gas or liquid form is inert, in fact it is used as fire extinguisher.

Did you notice the symbolism in the above video? Blue for cold, which will freeze you, red for hot which will thaw you back in the spring, silver for the morphing metal. See what i mean? 12:11/10:11 Nimic original sub soare.

1:40 Was thinking. Aparigraha applied to war. We go to war for attachment to one idea or another.

1:56 About 15 minutes ago was getting ready to go for a walk. Grabbed my coat, phone, looked at the temperature, looking for a cap. Opened the door and saw the "child" of the "family" with the dog at the mailboxes. She made a pirouette, acting like she saw me. Then she went one the lawn on other side of the building to leave her signature. Waited for 10 minutes, thinking if it's not too late too ready. Tonight, Tom Cruise with a gun will be again behind some cars, ready to shoot me down while Biden is still in town and "Air Force One security took over all law enforcement agencies". Thinking. Is she still outside the building?

2:51 Besides numerous hidden (subliminal) gay messages, this video has an obvious pro-alcohol theme. Or even mixed gay and pro-alcohol, the way he throws the bottle by his back. (Always missing his kisses, falling back first, grabbing  her by the back).

It's been bothering me since i first saw it, because Scientology claims it is against and has this program for addressing drugs and alcohol. It thought i made sense since Xenu brought them on Earth frozen in ethylene glycol, which is an alcohol.

At the apartment. After i posted two days ago those IR pictures showing empty buildings and kept asking myself if that is not the situation in other complexes or maybe the whole Portland area, though rents go constantly up, they sent us yesterday the offer for lease for one more year, with a 100 dollars (ten percent) rate increase to 1140. However, it is still much lower than other complexes in the area. Today i got an email saying the office "was closed due to unforeseen staffing problems", got a power washer at the building, unannounced, making a big noise.

Jiffy Lube in Lake Oswego

At Sussex, the first manager, Cindy Dunster, Christine, Carol King, wouldn't let me change the oil in the parking lot. Back then you had to do it the old fashion way, that is remove the plug, drain the oil, etc.. Over the years it's always been a terror to me to go to change oil. Every time something happened, if not only the show.

When i was in there last time in November i thought i saw in there Mnuchin. Last time, last Friday i thought i saw in there Prince and Gerald Butler.

I told them wrote on a piece of paper and handed it to them to put 5W20 oil (as required) an OEM filter, .3 quarts less (that car has a tendency to "spit" oil through PCV valve), other indications.

In the same day i noticed the oil was above the upper limit on the dipstick. On the paper they said they put 4.2 quarts. I went to O'Reillys and bought a transfer pump and removed through dipstick hole unexpectedly easely almost one quart of oil. When i saw how easy it was i planned to change next time oil myself. (have to apologize for coffee stains on the invoice).

Anyways. I was in a hurry (in the manual oil change interval is 7000 miles, i was at more than 8, i went in there and during the weekend i noticed a decrease in performance, like 2-3% mpg drop, a drop in power. Then i looked and i saw they put an aftermarket filter. With a dried oil stain on it. Could it be they put an used one? In the end they charged me 47 bucks, most ever. The guy who printed the invoice pulled the mask and let me see him, and he looked like Prince.

So i decided to change the oil one more time myself, just for piece of mind. I went and ordered online the filter (9 bucks cause i was in a hurry), a tool (10 bucks) together with oil, 15 bucks, Quaker State, Hyundai's prefered brand.

I went to the Amazon locker to pick the items, when i left there was smoke in the parking lot, had to cover a (man made) hole (moles don't come near the building anymore since i put the buzzers), there was a group of Australian looking people from Hungary, with several women and a man and the man released two kids with pink pants who ran in the light of the car, giggling. On the street more than half of the drivers were blinding me with high beam.

However when i went outside to check, i saw the filter they put in is smaller, probably with a different material in it which may explain the flow resistance, decreasing performance and possibly damaging the engine. So the tool i bought doesn't fit.

While i was outside, there was smoke all the time, that change into cat litter smell. Got nauseated right away, now my stomach hurts. The curly kid from the picture with Tualatin Police, also looking Australian passed twice, throwing arrogant glances at me.

Now i got to go somewhere, get a star shaped tool, remove that filter or go back to Jiffy Lube. In a different place. But where? If they won't screw something, there will be a show, like anywhere i ever been too.

Last time when i was in  Tigard on Hwy 99 i saw in there several guys from the Hungarian extremist party Jobbik.

But over the years, they never did what they did this time in Lake Oswego, only from what i figured out.

I said i'm going outside, they had like a 1 minute notice, they organized another show. This time i looked for thickness and i don't think oil is 5W20 which will explain also the drop in mileage.

Follow up 4/23

I asked Angela to get a tool at NAPA, based on what i measured last night (it's on her way from work. However that didn't work i think because of different flute numbers).

Went at NAPA myself but i could not find a tool to remove the no-brand filter they installed at Jiffy Lube. After many trials, i came with this idea and taped the tool that i bought with Gorilla tape to the filter and cracked it open.

With this i think you can open any filter that has a reasonable close diameter.

In that moment i thought i heard some people (kids) cheering on the alley (do i have fans).

I was right. Filter is smaller, has no anti-drain valve as  the OEM has and probably a different flow rate.

I haven't change oil by myself in a long time. So after i cracked the filter open, i tried to unscrew it and oil started to flow. Good think i had a pan under. For some reason i thought it was above the oil pan level. Or it was and there was some residual oil on the lines on top of the engine. Anyways i gave up and came with the pump. Pulling the oil was harder then expected. Pump did not work as easy as the first time. Next time i will use some PVC tubing which is larger than the thin rubber intake line i used (not the one shown in picture). That one is very thin and it takes a lot to pull the oil with it.

At this point i was explaining (yelling) to Angela who was watching TV and could not hear me, the door was one inch open and i heard outside the "veteran" yelling in the alley. "Should call the Inspection! He's working on car!" So i went near the door without opening and he said: "Yeah! To you i'm talking! Come outside!", while his "wife" was pulling him aside. He was obviously drunk. Haven't seen him in one year or so. Since there is a woman dressed in black who smokes at that entrance outside, i figured he passed away.

People in here work on cars all the time, there is a guy with a garage that works inside and outside the garage, i myself hate to change oil but this time i had no choice because of what Jiffy Lube has done.

Had no problems installing  the new filter, tightened it by hand, tomorrow i'm going to torque it (spec is 10). Finally went to pour in the oil. 5W20 Quaker State synthetic. On the previous invoice Jiffy Lube said they put in 3.7 quarts (i asked them .3 less). On the last one, 4.2 and was overfilled. So i first poured 3.5 quarts and was under the low sign. I put one more quart and after i started the engine to fill the filter it went down in the middle of the signs. Another surprise here.

Then i decided to take out half of the paper towels i used at one bin and half at the other. They predicted this move too. I passed by the truck and found a towing notice. Due today (Friday) at 1 PM. Reason: Stationed vehicle.

Since they cut my catalytic earlier this year, i tried to avoid using the truck. I go in (near) the park on foot. I keep it in one spot only. I saw many people doing that. I think i last moved about a week ago.

However truck was still there. I went to move it at the street. Brakes work worse than last time (had to purge the front circuit, purging screws are damaged), braking mostly on rears. i was squeezed between and SUV and a Nissan Z on a non-standard 8 ft spot. Steering wheel was moved to the right and i was about to hit the Nissan but i figured on time. In the back, the same sliver Tacoma that makes the biggest sound around here. I had to go back and forth about 4 times, it was almost impossible to get the truck out of there. Then when i finally did, to the left there was the bearded Hungarian painter who lives in a one level building, carefelly watching me, etc..

From this morning to this point there was smoke in here and outside big time. My brain is on slow motion.

4/24

I went to NAPA and O'Reilly's to buy a 3 inch 3/8 extension to attach it to the oil filter cap wrench i bought online. The 10 inch was the smallest i had and could not squeeze it together with the cheap dial torque wrench i got. with the 3 inch one i got to see the dial and everything. The guy at O'Reilly's thought i was joking. "Torque the filter? I do it by hand ". And i told him, "I don't want the filter to get unscrewed and loose all oil" and he said, "Yeah, it happened to me a couple of times".

On the filter it says 10 (actually around ten, it's in meters, have to convert) or 4/5 of turns until you meet resistance (after you oiled the rubber ring).

It was under ten when i put the torque wrench on it, i was again a bit surprised. After about half turn it went to 15 when i stopped. I must have done at least one quarter turn by hand, so i think i'm a bit over, but i think it's ok.

BTW, i know remember, i only had to turn it less than one quart of a turn when i took off the old one (with the Gorilla tape cap). It was way loose, probably dripping small amounts of oil on the exhaust.

I remember when i first looked at it i saw the logo of the "no brand" Champ or something in a different position then when i took the pictures. Could it be it was slowly unscrewing by itself?

October 7

1:53 Just remembered something. When i walked over 2 miles to pick the car that i rented at Enterprise rent a car location, so i can have something to drive Angela at work while my truck is in the shop for alternator, possibly radiator, at @3:30 yesterday, i was on the right side of Tualatin Sherwood heading for the green light button and when i was exactly at the corner a big empty trailer took a right turn from Tualatin Sherwood to Teton kinda fast and his rear wheels briefly climbed, about one foot on the sidewalk, feet away from me, but now i know the lesson, i only walk on the outer side of the sidewalk. Until i brought camera app on my phone it was gone. Noise disturbances? A guy whith a big base in the trunk just drove by.

2:20 A modified exhaust.

2:52 Ran into a face that could again have been the cop last night.

3:20 Wouldn't have find her if i didn't look at this guy first... Tomorrow i will try a match, i'm too tired, got to wake up in two hours to drive Angela to work...

6:16 Slept two hours, coming back from Eaton. They switched back to 8 hours, 6 to 2:30, so there was some traffic. Almost got into 2 accidents with the rented car, (a 2019 Kia Forte with 40 k and water in the headlights), of course, when alone in the car, with no witness. Coming out of the back alley at Eaton on Avery, a big SUV or truck came from my right @ the curve real fast so i didn't see it at first, a car coming from opposite direction, still kinda far, so i just didn't go into the lane, staying in the middle of the road, both could have pass, however, they both stopped, while i got honked by the vehicle coming from the opposite. Further away, they were some cones on the right white band, a jogger dressed in dark clothes choose to pass those on my lane while i was kinda blinded by cars coming from the opposite so i just stopped and let him pass.

11:58 The Noongars (by expression of recessive genes - if i believed in DNA theory).

3:21 Coming from Eaton. I remember i once went for one day trip in Turkey, probably in 92 and for the first time i saw trucks carrying anything were covered. Probably the same in Europe. However this fashion never made it in the US. Though the trucks have covers, they never use it. Dust from all kinda materials, notably gravel, flies for the people in vehicles behind to breath (picture was taken during a stop). Though the trucks do have a cover, which in this case is rolled on top of the truck, they never use it.

As i got closer to home, at the hospital one guy in a black Prius came onto the road, simulating cutting in my way, made me brake real hard but he stopped in the middle lane. The whole thing was a weird recreation of what happened this morning when i left Eaton. They always do that, at the earliest opportunity.

Differences like night and day, the man in the truck coming from right this morning was speeding, i was not, this morning he came around a curve with no visibility for me, they were 3 cars involved, here i was in a line with many cars going real slow, here there was a middle lane, there it was not.

I call these type of "doubling" events "ingannare" which in Latin and Italian means deception and in Romanian mocking and i believe the word comes from "Noongars", an ancient people from Australia which probably were the ancestor of Huns (Hungarians) who invaded the Roman Empire in the 4th century AD though they "spared" Rome itself (saving it for later, which is around 1000 when they started to infiltrate the Catholic Church) and lived to this day in the area where Hungary is, their main occupation being exploiting the rich gold mines of Transylvania and infiltrating the whole world by replacing leaders, elite. Mongols, another wave, a branch of the last original migration wave that first wondered in Asia, coming late? Magyars, the last of them? Ninja of Japan?

By mocking a certain event they introduce confusion about it. It is one of their most powerful tools, which can effectively destroy information about the first event and create confusion to any casual observer.

4:44 This guy eludes me. Also because in the lists of their actors there are many of the same generation who look much alike, or like (half) brothers. A breeding program? After many searches during the last years got 6 of them who look close but he is none of them. They must have been real careful when choosing the guy, given the importance of the function, especially now during the "pandemic".

5:56 "No bigger than a golf ball", the guy at Enterprise said. Just discovered another barely visible dent about that size under driver's door handle, there are a couple more on the other side, done by grocery carts, opening door next to something. Caught them both on phone camera, at the site. Water in the left headlight, and some sort of film on the windshield that is visible only in sunset when it blinds you. At Fred Meyer, a brand new card wouldn't work with the chip, done it three times than striped it, at the Liquor store they tried the chip like 10 times, in the end it worked. They gave me the estimate for the truck, pending radiator arrival from Amazon which now had changed schedule from 6 to 7-12 of October. Which means i'm going to drive the rental through the weekend and next week or until radiator arrives. Though i'm soaked into car's deodorant, it smells like dog poo, i went outside, bumped into the lady with yellow coat. Got to go back to finish searching.

Also. Have you ever been ashamed of using things that you don't know how they work? Do you know variable valve timing is? How about VW TSI. Or GDI, used by many manufacturers. Do you know what timing is? Do you know what a crankshaft or even a piston is? A strut or even a ball bearing?

I am ashamed of having to use all these technologies bought by dealers from Japan or Germany. Mostly because i don't know how they work and i will never be able to contribute to designing or perfecting those.

August 1995

A day i should celebrate. As Yolanda said. Yolanda is a friend of Mart-Maerz-Mârţ family. She and her son came in Oregon just before us. They stayed at the Marts just before us.

With borrwowed money and some little other money i had i went to Tarom with my yellow envelopes with the Green Card Lottery documents to buy two tickets to New York. They only had tickets for a Sunday at the beginning of August. Tarom flight nr. RO13, with a DC10 rented from a Belgium airline replacing the Airbus that crashed at Baloteşti. Captain Michel.

We arrived in New York on August 6. They kept us for 3 hours at the INS. Ron, my new friend from the plane was still waiting for us. With a native american guy. But i already made up my mind. We're still going to Oregon, at my ex-colleague Iulian Mârţ from Bacău. Ron was really disappointed. I still had $600 dollars. (There was a guy in the plane that said he had 100.000 dollars and needed help into smuggling those money through the customs but i refused).

I went to an airline counter in the airport. The price to Oregon, tickets bought on the spot was double of the $600 we had.

So the next day we took the Greyhound, as Iulian told me on the phone. After all i've read the book, Greyhound America. It should have been fun, we're gonna see lots of places. I remember the face of the woman at the counter when i bought the tickets. She gave me a look that in a way defined all that happened later. Bad sign.

Three days, two nights, 8 drivers, 5 buses. And the accident that almost happened that night when i and the guy behind the driver were the only people awake in the bus. The driver fell asleep the bus drifted on the freeway's shoulder and the black guy behind him gently taped him on the shoulder awaking him. He didn't panic and brought the bus back on the second lane. I remember something that really shocked me. He started laughing! Never stopped to catch his breath. Now i know why, the fear of being fired was bigger than his need for a comforting break.

On August 10 there we were, at the Greyhound station in Salem. Veronica was waiting for us, she took a little time from her work at that high tech silicon foundry (i forgot the company name, Wafertech i think), gave me a hug and another bad preview, whispering condescendingly in my ear: Gigi, Gigi... And then she took us directly to the Social Security office in Salem, watched everything we wrote in the applications, went with us at the counter and told the clerk that we're only temporary here... Although we had on the passports the stamp from INS at the airport that said "processed for I551", that is permanent residency... Which i told the clerk in plain English. The Mexican woman at the counter with the passports and applications in her hand looked at me, looked at Veronica, at me again then wrote something on the applications and two weeks later the cards came with the inscription "No right to work" on them. Veronica said something that she had a friend somewhere who's gone help us to get permits for work but the next day under some pretext i secretely went with Angela to Portland (fearing that they wouldn't let us) straight to the downtown Social Security office, i explained them the whole situation, they gave us new applications and in another two weeks new cards arrived, this time the right ones. And i was exercising my signature in English with the first name first on some yellow pieces of papers at the Marts so i could sing the cards...

And since then, daily, hourly and weekly hundreds, or thousands of similar situations... Yesterday i called Oregon State Bar Association asking for a referral. Every once in a while i do so. They asked me what i needed a lawyer for. And i told them, in any area of non-violent crime, i think there is no law that has not been broken in our regards.

And then yesterday at the WinCo store, this younger athletic tall blond guy standing at the other check stand checking in the same time so i could see him, with a 6 inch blade hanging on his waist belt. By the way, for many years after we came here WinCo was called Cub Foods...

And i just remembered while staying at the Marts, one day Veronica received the negative result for her breast cancer test...

And i really made my attempts to work around here... Until August 2000 i had 23 jobs... The longest one year... The shortest one day... Some of them are in the Resume with the link in this blog on the lower left area... But that is another story, hope i will be able to share it here...

08/14/2013:

1996, George's (Hirsovescu) House, Salem, Oregon. Cloe (wife), his daughter, Dan Onu, son-in-law (Boeing), Julian Mart, Angela.

Later i found out he was also associated was Associated with Aristotel Popescu, Iaşi, possibly with Peter Kiss, Portland Oregon.

November 20

4:30 At Lucky Eagle i went to the Main Street bar and asked for a double brandy (which i later shared with Angela) and poured it in my cup with soda. But the bartender gave me a plastic cup because they don't let people drink alcohol from paper cups. My paper cup which for a few seconds had the soda-brandy mixture in it remained there. But it was red and i didn't like it and i put it altogether in a white paper cup. Later i went to the other bar and asked again for a double brandy (i didn't have any with me in the trunk) and she gave me a triple of the same brand i usually drink which i didn't mix with soda and charged me accordingly. At a certain moment i thought a drop of rain fell in my brandy (i was inside) and threw about 1/3 of it in the garbage. So i had a total of 2 shots of brandy at maybe 8 PM and left at 2 AM.

Just before we left Angela was playing at her favorite machine next to a "Chinese" woman while i was having another cup of soda (drank a lot of that tonight). An Asian woman dressed in blue uniform came and took my cup mumbling something i didn't understand but it didn't have any alcohol in it, haven't been drinking alcohol in hours. The "Chinese" woman went to the restroom, left 850 dollars and a card inside the machine and asked Angela to watch it.

In the parking lot was smelling heavily like cow dung and when we left like coal smoke. At gas station there was a receipt for 5 gallons of gas that came together with mine for more than that (can't remember).

There was heavy smoke in the smoking area, brought some on our clothes, had some difficulty breathing (shortness of breath) but as we passed Terwilliger curves we met with a van with black luggage box on top that was putting a smell like unidentified animal dung that combined with the smell inside the car gave me palpitations (probably atrial fibrillation) that got worse when i got closer to home. I passed it at 70 but a few miles later when going downhill he passed me at high speed and the smell and fibrillation started again. On the radio they were playing You can call me Al with that ridiculous hu hu sound and reverted bass line.

10:41 Slept 5 ours, maybe. Woke up in smoke. Installed new brand of filters yesterday advertised as 0.1 microns but are the worst i ever had. Previous were unwoven electrostatic and much better. My monitor later showed 4 micrograms of 2.5 inside and 11 outside. Can't understand why 4 micrograms smells so much like smoke. I thought my heart was sort of vibrating after the first contraction. Like shaking the whole body. Again waiting for the rain next week to see if that's gonna fix anything.

I gathered my courage and listen with the stethoscope. I thought the second beat is kinda quiet when compared to the first. I once read somewhere that is normal in elderly but it's worse than last time i heard it. Went to sites and listened to atrial fibrillation sounds, nothing like it. Could have been like that last night when i came. However my blood pressure was so high i don't have the courage to write it here.

At a certain time in the casino i started the phone and read the news. Within the hour i had pains in my face, hands and all areas that were closer to the phone. Not as much as other times, i used only 4% of the phone's huge battery. And yes i had regular coffee when i left home.

Went outside, covered a number of mole holes but that was not it this time. Smoke is wildfire smoke. Part of the reason i have heart problems is i haven't been for walks in months because of smoke. Believe it or not i have an old unpowered treadmill that i bought at Walmart i guess for 100 bucks 15 years ago. I installed it and started to use it. Particulates in here are 3 times less than outside anyways. I'm gonna check my blood pressure later again.

However, two things. Noises again like flushing toilets every time i go to the bathroom. Which reminds me. Last time i went to the toilet at Lucky Eagle i used for some reason paper towels instead of regular toilet paper and it didn't flush (though the same one was working minutes earlier).

BTW last night (early morning) the passenger airbag sensor wasn't working again. I fiddled again with one of the connectors and made it work. Thinking about shortcutting the whole thing, making it work all the time even when there's no passenger. That car has been totaled twice already anyways.

Temperature when i left there was 26 degrees (-3 C). On the two lanes road to freeway i passed one guy that was going 10 under speed limit. But it took me too long to pass and i had to come back on the right lane on the continuous line. Within five minutes two vehicles passed me on high speed on continuous  lane.

On the freeway i was staring in the mirror to see if that vehicle i saw earlier was still approaching. In that moment i touched the right line. No other cars were within one mile. Within a few minutes a Dodge resembling those of Police came and passed on the right at high speed while touching the line or even crossing in my lane. Instant justice in both cases? Except one all male drivers including of semis i saw last night where either Japanese or (poorly disguised) Mexican looking Japanese. Same in the casino.

One more thing i forgot to say about last night. I figured the steering problems (pulling left or right with any side slope due to road irregularities) come from the EPS (Electric Power Steering). The alternator connector was loose and after i tightened it is was steering much better.

Outside an engine is idling at high RPM for 10 minutes now. It just stopped before i had a chance to finish this entry.

11:50 Oricât de dureros ar fi. Da în România există o adevărată cultură a minciunii care este, a fost promovată timp de decenii de de media, politicieni și oamenii de cultură vizibilide pripas. Un mic exemplu recent. Impunitaea plagiatului care-și face și reclamă, aproape zilnic.

După multe generații de muncă intensivă ea acum a pătruns și în familie.

Vreți alte exemple? Păunescu, poezia Rugă pentru părinți (multe multe altele din cele 50 de volume pe care le-a scos din care probabil nu ai ce să alegi). Strofele se contrazic între ele, într-o strofă poetul se roagă pentru o întârzâiere, în alta pentru o grăbire cu referințe la reîncarnare.

Marea majoritate a lucrărilor literare sunt similare. Misoginia lui Eminescu, Sorescu, alții. Viața inversă la Blandiana. Corola lui Blaga îndeamnă la ignoranță și închiderea ochilor. Viața absentă a la Minulescu. Contradicții și îndemnuril la ipocrizie dar și multe alte păcate la tot pasul.

Da, nu am știut de toate astea pe vremea când am făcut traducerile din acești poeți prezente pe blog. Știam poeziile pe de rost dar niciodată nu le-am privit în felul acesta. Între timp am mai îmbătrânit și m-am mai deșteptat. Prea târziu pentru mine.

Toată cultura românească dar nu numai (nu există alte refugii) este virusată. O pot demonstra cu orice lucrare, aproape în orice paragraf. Nimic serios. Nimic care să urmărească o logică de la cap la coadă. Nimic care să construiască pe solidele idei ancestrale ale românilor care între timp au devenit o amețeală generală.

7:06 180 million dollars "bureaucracy".

9:45 Aztec decorations.

11:05 Today all day i kept wondering who who that black guy at the bar who gave me my first drink. Until i saw a show on ABC.

With thin lips indicating loss of collagen in his body, thinner face, he was unrecognizable to me. Especially after 2 hours driving 120 miles in hostile traffic with all kinda crazies or simulated crazies blinding me, and one drink of wine in the car.

I won't say much about it, but one word. Circus. Also need to emphasize, it happens all the time when people are about to pop in a show. They come around me the day or night before. As i told Angela, wouldn't have gone to that place if i wasn't under the influence of that smoke from outside all day Saturday morning.

I spent some time today at Angela's computer from where i type right now and was ok. She put her phone to charge next to me in the same place where she always does and i paid no attention to it. About one hour later i started to feel pain again in the right hip, right abdominal, hands, face. Then i checked and realized the phone was on.

Was thinking of buying of a more preformant device for checking microwaves (wi-fi, phone, etc..) but then i thought there's got to be some apps that does the same since the phone has a wi-fi microwave receiver. So i found the app but then i thought how the phone is going to measure its own emissions.

Anyways i used my microwave detector which i built myself with a ME type of volt-meter stripped of everything and a GHz diode which i never used on this phone (Motorolla e7 power with 5000 mAh battery). All passive, no amplifier, no nothing. One has too imagine how strong a radio microwave signal has to be to move the needle of an ME (magneto-electric) type meter with no amplifying. You could have bought one of these 20 years ago at Fry's for 7 bucks under the name "microwave leak detector". I believe a new brand appeared recently.

The thing would move a bit when close to microwave oven when working, especially empty, a bit less next to a phone (barely moving the needle). But today when i tried next to Angela's phone, it went off scale. Which means there's something wrong with our phones. Here i used my phone to film Angela's while starting it up with the voltmeter next to it. I think this is crazy. Phone has either been hacked and wi-fi has been turned to max or works over the max allowable by FCC.

The video played in drive only once, then i got an error message. I tried to film another one, shorter, it happened the same. If you want you can download it from drive and play it on your device.

By starting the phone twice, i feel now pain the known areas. But i think it affects my vision (everything went darker), my brain and probably my heart, after such a long exposure (got them since January this year). On top of that, the laptop.

November 10

6:17 Și replica la ce am scris despre aurul dacilor. Și apropo, corectez a doua oară în fraza cu link-ul spre Tratatul de Aderare din 2005, formulării în loc de forumulării.

Ok i figured why there's an annoying fan running at night in his bedroom in November. So it can't be listen to ambiently, the fact nobody is there at night. Also note the fact "they" never talk and there are never two persons in the same time walking upstairs.

6:30 Un coșmar. Am spus de mai multe ori că partidul AUR, George Simion au fost create pentru a interfera semantic cu postările mele despre aur, similarities/asemănări. Acum, în contextul a ce am spus două zile despre o formă ciudată de polarizare a luminii.

6:35 Delir. Anul acesta se plătesc pensii de 110 miliarde în total. When you turn black...

6:40 A sărit și Isărescu, cel care spune că rezervele de aur ale României nu trebuie să depășească 100 de tone...

7:15 Ghinion. După cum spuneam, o țară cu 10 milioane de locuitori (Ungaria) sau Austria cu 9 are același drept de veto în Consiliul UE ca una cu 83 (Germania). Și România are, dar nu l-a folosit niciodată. De fapt cred nici Germania, care a devenit un colos economic și un pitic politic.

Am văzut recent retragerea Nissan din Franța. Poate s-au prins și francezii că mulți din funcționarii Nissan care se foiau pe acolo erau de fapt ninja. O situație asemănătoare este și în Austria, unde un sfert de locuitori sunt străini, care pot fi și asiatici.

7:42 Perfect storm. Among other things that prepared me for the crossing of the hospital alley event yesterday were the city leaves pickers. It took them several hours yesterday morning before i left and after to pick leaves from the tiny park with a gigantic vacuum on wheels that vibrated most of the dust from the building.

Just went outside to dust the door frame and mat  which i haven't done in two weeks and there was not much left. BTW keep hearing car doors being slammed, must heave heard 20 in one minute.

Much of that dust came inside and got to breath some (forgot the ion generator off the night before) while i was still sleeping at 8 AM and that got me sick and it continues to this moment. Got some very bad microbes in my gut and i was late with the charcoal and now i am dizzy and nauseated, breathing and vision problems.

11:08 I slept (8:37 to 11) but i remember someone climbing the stairs... Then leaving within half hour.

The market just got another purrrfect oil day.

1:10 Are you sure that is a... pussy (riot)? (the only time you are allowed to use the word pussy on (social) media is if you talk about pussy riot, right?). And i bet easterners don't know what that word means. BTW i figured a new etymology for it cause puss sounds too weird. 


Yeah my browser crashed again last night when i tried to put the above timed link and i was too tired to do a workaround but today it didn't so i start asking myself if this is not some sort of dynamic timed censorship.


Have a nice weekend yall.

5:35 "get ready, 'cause this s...'s about to get heavy" (Eminem).

As we're about to eat the kids are back in the back, after an absence of almost one week I guess they didn't want them to see people agonizing. So the ninja do have some moral ethics though not as much as the samurai. Cause daimyo would hire ninja to do the things samurai wouldn't, as per Bushido, remember. Samurai were more into killing, and ninja more into stealing (information) and influencing (lying).

But why am i not agonizing no more. Finally after at least since last vacuum, or about 2 months ago, today i did so. Got my electrostatic bags from Amazon, i already re-arranged some of the stuff and i did it today. But something wasn't right. So i started to sweep with the electric sweeper the kitchen area (it does a very good job and lately i was tempting to just use i and not mop) and what did i found. Right next to Angela's desk a line about one feet long one inch wide of organic fertilizer.

Made of ordinary chicken droppings but also some from some exotic birds from an island (forgot the name) complete with shrimp shells and other goodies (if i remember right).

In spring i bought a bag for 10 bucks at Fred Meyer, i think it was on sale, didn't use it all at the garden and i put the rest in a jar with sealable lid for the plants here. And today i found that jar next to entrance door where i left it ever since. My fault. But the lid was still sealed.

Then i remembered about one week ago Angela found something under her office chair with wheels that to her looked first like mold, then ground coffee and to me, that i remember now, the same stuff from the jar. I swept that one right away without bothering to figure what it was (i was in a hurry to go somewhere, probable). The whole idea was that when she moved with the chair the stuff was ground finer and finer and gain flight capabilities.

I was getting sicker and sicker and today i started to cough as my lungs started to get affected and i think i was about to die, if it wasn't for large amounts of charcoal caps probably again saving my life my life.

No i did not give a key to no one. No one was supposed to enter here period.

Yeah i think it got something to do with the gasoline smell that was covering it.

I have only one question. For how long this was happening, best answer would be, since last time i swept which i can't remember but could be more than a month, but Angela did it last time maybe 2 weeks ago but only the trails (narrow passages between boxes and empty water bottles and stuff.

And yeah i started to believe the videos youtube google, whatever, pushes to me are all made up by people with something in their minds, i don't know what.

7:15 I once was talking to a guy who fixed something in the apartment and he said he lived in Germany and over there everything is taught in schools. As opposed to the US and Japan where everything is taught in companies.

But how and at who's expense?

People working in big corporations like Angela are supposed to train the newcomers. That is while doing their regular job. And the trainee is supposed to do the job he/she is paid since the first day at work. Easier jobs first. And the trainer is responsible for the quality of the work of the trainee period.

All at no extra pay. And BTW due to inflation and everything a new temp trainee now has just a few dollars less than her who worked there for 9 years.

And you know what? Most of them quit after training because they find the job there is kinda difficult.

Angela just finished training for weeks a deaf mute and she done a great deal of effort because while doing this and working her normal job in the same time she had to write down everything cause the deaf mute of course could not hear the instructions and now she's got another one after one in between who acts kinda burned out and screwed something and put it in the stack without giving Angela a chance o verify.

Now, at the meeting, Steve (Eaton, coincidence of name with the company), the always acting supervisor, the man who schedules himself overtime at the easiest jobs, because last supervisor (out of many since Steve and Angela is there) quit in April, brought the issue in a meeting with pictures and everything. Without telling Angela first.

Angela took a day off Monday because of her birthday but she is already emotionally screwed up for the weekend and her birthday while i was already screwed up emotionally. And yes, he always does this before weekends, holidays and vacations.

For a while i tried to keep up with her mishaps. Some of them are written on fb, and i centralized in this spreadsheet but i quit doing this in 2020 and now i have to try and gather in that file everything i wrote in the blog ever since. But i can do a search since the name Steve Eaton, the big man who knows everything there but never accepted a supervisor job because then he could not schedule to himself overtime appears in any of my entries on the subject.

Biggest problem by far is not Steve though but the sisters. Two Vietnamese sisters that are friends with Steve (for reason of food, small gifts) were bullying Angela who was so happy to get rid of them while working in SMT). But since she cannot work there anymore because of the enormous amount of walking required and her legs problems, now she is facing them again and one of them retired at 70 but is coming back from retirement in December.

I can do a query on the name but then you have to sort and search the results, again Eaton with CTRL/F.

9:22 Malta is the least populous country in the EU with a little over 500 thousands citizens. However it has the same veto power in the Council Germany has, with 83 million. The Council configurations that vote on specific problems unanimously are made by unelected ministers from each country.

9:54 Speranța de viață.

January 23

10:22 I knew it was going to be bad luck when Angela won 1000 dollars last night. After she just pulled 90 dollars from a card, she played by mistake one hand at 25 dollars and that hand brought her the whole amount. That made it for the last 2 or 3 times, not last 20-30, cause we didn't leave with a positive balance in long time. Also because i took the money in my pocket, leaving her with 100 bucks which she lost. Me too i won 50 bucks catching 4 deuces at poker which didn't happened in years where i lost continuously (except for Indian Head where i was holding even). However, Angela lost last week at the 401k because of market crash more than she lost in a whole year at casinos. The number of guys and girls who bend backwards right when i was looking. The never seen at this level nervous frenzy with many people rubbing with us, trying to create scenes, making me look like the super bad guy. Here, so obvious intentionally "casually" blocking the main alley at Spirit Mt, forcing me to go between machines (and behind a number of people) while they were raising drinks, to make me salivate in my subconscious. I wouldn't dare but since i had the courage and this is the type of scene it repeats so oftenly, here it goes. Here's a link for full quality of this video. Have to use a different player than the one on google drive though.

The woman vacuuming next to my table at the food court were i went to eat some fries i was craving, with me and the two cops from Tribal Police in line, at Spiritus Mountus "Food court". I remembered when i choked (dysphagia) that year after i saw "chew back ah" at the UFO festival, when a guy, again was sweeping there as i ate rice and teriyaki dried all day in those hot trays and i drove like that all the way home (with a break at the hospital parking in McMinnville), where it took some baking soda and  then vomited.

The guy and gal from the truck next to me at Chinook Winds. While Angela was playing, i went back in the car for another drink. I ate all the remaining potato salad not caring about the diabetes. And there they came. First simulating hitting me when arriving, than veering off and parking rear first. After 15 minutes of idling with their modified exhaust diesel, i was drunk enough to go and confront them.

Inside, a little boy with a little girl who came onto me, aggressive. I told them about the law (i read somewhere) that says in Oregon you can't idle for more than 15 minutes at a time in a parking lot on upper level (regardless of how big or small the sound is). He said it was only 12 minutes and they were from Utah. Then when i called security they finally stopped and went inside, wished me a good night while i gave them the finger. From enough distance, she was looking like 2 points on a scale from one to ten better than she should. Super model quality with here extra long legs in leather pants. Then, scared by my own courage of what i've done, i went to move the car, and while driving in the other parking lot the car in front of casino started beeping at me, because i went over 10 mph without seatbelt. I was curious to see what happens if i slow under 10, if it stop, so i hit the brakes, kinda hard, engine was cold, lots of vacuum, car almost stopped only to see an Asian guy jumping in front of my car from between two parked cars, whom i probably would have taken on my hood if i didn't brake, absolutely by chance.

Wondering all night if it was just some AI predicting my behaviour as it happens more and more (obvious to me only) as i believe they keep updating their hardwares and softwares and getting better by the day (probably simulating my whole thinking process). Just others to say. "It was the will of God himself!" (For me not to be arrested and "continue to do what i'm doing", that is deepeng in a bottomless pit of sin). Just a few examples out of many. In fact, it's continuous, from one scene blending into another. All professional actors moving around me.

Smoke at home. As soon we made it home, i guess around 5 AM, a sulfur smell, similar to the smell of landfill area we pass through on Hwy 18 close to McMinnville. (Why they had to make it so close to the town and 18, for anybody who go to Lincoln city to pass right through it?).

April 2nd

7:35 Yeah i guess it was google's way to celebrate April 1st. They changed something in google searches that my blogs was heavily relying on. I tried to fix it manually in similarities post by post and went all the way to the beginning of February but then i told myself i should be smart and do it on more rational basis.

Thinking of all the links affected by google's change (thousands) that won't work anymore in my main blog (friends) that i will never be able to fix. But who's gonna read the old posts.

So i downloaded the similarities blog, edited it in Notepad with search/replace all, and imported it back.

It is where the surprises started. Blogger (google's free blogging platform i use) imported all modified posts and kept the old ones. I duplicated all the posts. Did it one more time. Then i tried to delete them all and import again. However it didn't work.

Then i tried to create a new blog by importing the theme which i also saved and then importing the modified posts. That didn't work either. Then google told me i exceeded the number of imports for the new blog, "try again later".

Then i tried to restore the blog by importing the unmodified version (first, before editing which i kept just in case) and that didn't work either.

Then i restored my deleted old blog (had the option for 90 days) and started to manually delete the duplicates, one by one, trying to keep the newly modified ones with search/replace. However the addresses of the duplicates are not the same anymore so all links in my other blogs won't work anymore if i go with those.

I have two options. Either to manually delete the duplicates and triplicates (a few thousands posts) and keep the old ones with the addresses and then go and manually do the necessary changes according to google's modifications to search on images, or keep the duplicates which have been modified (but not all work, some needing more manual adjustments).

But for now i will keep everything, the first 100 or so manually modified, with the old addresses, the duplicates and triplicates and go and try to get more sleep cause they started to make noise right after Angela left so i could sleep no more after that.

I think i'm up to go and modify manually all the posts (as i said, a few thousands) and then manually delete the duplicates and triplicates during my free time.

But for now the impact on the reader of all this roller coaster is minimal and most important i did not loose any content.

8:02 Eu nu înțeleg o chestie, dacă banii suplimentari se dau pe carduri care se reîncarcă în momente ca atunci când le scade rating-ul, de ce nu are fiecare pensionar un card cu care să-și scoată banii și care să fie reîncărcat cu pensia în fiecare lună. Astfel, ar ieși poșta din circuit, cu tot ce înseamnă asta (mărunțișul).

Gândiți-vă câtă pierdere de timp și energie pentru poștași, cu încălzirea planetei, ca să meargă în fiecare lună acasă la pensionar, să se așeze și să numere banii. Da bine cu opțiunea ca la acei care nu vor să meargă să rămână pe sistemul vechi cu poștașul.

9:55 So they tried to parr my post with US Ambassador to Romania being a (now disappeared from the scene) local politician with different ID with this event involving US Ambassador to NATO (as for why member states have ambassadors i have no clue).

I would go and search for her right away if i knew her age. Amazing how for second rank politicians, such as sheriffs, local chiefs of police, ambassadors etc. it is nearly impossible to figure their age, even though they have Wikipedia pages like this Julianne... Smith. Shadow Government?

Knowing the age limits the search to an area of about 5 years in the lists. Very few are outside this magic interval.

September 14

1:10 Was our beloved Beau de l'Aire on absinthe when he wrote the poem? I don't know, maybe only when the ideas hit him, i know it takes sobriety to do such a job. I will try to work a decent translation until tomorrow though the guy upstairs just hit me with a kami of smoke and one of dust. And the coincidence. He is the only French poet i ever read from, except one or two fables by Jean de la Fontaine.

This poem now almost translated, features one of the most famous important quotes of all times. "The Art is long and The Time is short". However a major in Art or French only takes a few years (if you have your own money or win a scholarship, i don't get any stats from google, i don't know how many people are reading this) while doctors in the US work like slaves. Canada is very close where you can be taught by native speakers.

2:42 Tristan Tate got this one right, in Romania indeed family bonds are very strong.

3:30 Other business. That i can remember from the long list today. They scheduled an empty cistern to pass right in front of me at the stop light in Lincoln City. One more black truck with no LPN in front or rear and was too dark to even see the brand, passed after that one. So i got to drive behind those too all the way to the first passing zone which is in the middle of the forest with no other traffic.

The cistern went on the right though (as usually) accelerated and the black truck passed it, slowly and i passed both but i think the truck accelerated after got into my blind spot when i changed lanes cause the passing zone was ending anyways.

It was no small surprise when i saw it in the mirror ft or even inches away, right after making me thinking the surprise could have been much bigger, like finding myself in a rolling vehicle with broken limbs after in an area with nu much traffic and far from hospitals.

The guy tried to stay behind, i slowed, he accelerated, i matched speed, wanted to see at least the brand of the truck but guess what. At Spirit Mountain, i stayed behind in an area with more light to let him pass and take a good look, but he pulled... inside the casino area. Then he casually went to pick someone and it was  the perfect situation to go and see the guy but Angela didn't let me to. Now i think he could have simulated a road rage incident and do whatever.

At food court. Angela had a coupon, bought one fish and chips which at that hour was enough for both. They gave us a pager and we were waiting when i saw something really weird at the check stand. They were two stacks with pagers figuring two towers and somehow they got synchronized and they were flashing all one after another creating the illusion of light moving upwards.

Then i remembered what i saw in Lincoln City. Angela went inside, i am banned and not interested to appeal that decision. Tried to go for a walk, changed my mind, went to Grocery Outlet, was with my mind somewhere else like usually and grabbed a 6 gallons box with Crystal Geyser (we did that many times, and bought water from that store). The store now was moved and i asked the cashier why, i thought because of the tower that was in their lot but now they had a bigger one on the hill across the street, and she said no, for a different reason.

Forgot to get the only decent brand of bone broth which BTW has many benefits in any healing process, i started to climb stairs again with no pain after a severe tendinitis at the knees, the results are visible after one serving and a day passed, got instead some soda and nuts and went at Roads End round about, accidentally saw the sunset, then some cars moved, i was the last in line, i advanced and now i could see the hill and on the highest position and tallest building i saw a fire on a roof.

First i thought it was a reflection of the sunset in a window but it was still there when i moved a bit. After 10 or 15 minutes was not changing intensity and though could have been a BBQ in a balcony or whatever and left. Could be this one but for some reason i thought it was higher. No, it was this one.

Believe it or not that kami worked me all night. Constantly thinking now and forever of other types of business and names and persons and veterans i saw at the beach and how people come to the US.

5:23 Începând din 2000 Tratatul Schengen a devenit parte integrantă din Tratatul de Aderare la UE. Toate țările care au aderat după sunt membre în Schengen, cu îndeplinirea doar a unor formalități. Consiliul nu trebuia să mai voteze încă o dată pe acest subiect. Chestia cu declarația de dragoste față de România a Ursuley von der Leyen e o vrăjeală menită să șteargă această imagine.

Just figured something important weird. Americans with Disabilities Act varies from state to state. Not all questionnaires regarding a potentially disabled employee are the same in all states. So far i can tell the one in Florida by example is much more complicated and precise than the one in Oregon.

11:45 Got chills and pain from an infection that started because of the kami dog.

I wanted to write earlier but i forgot. A possible explanation for the belief of the Japanese that not having sex before battle is bad luck. Because nutrients accumulated in prostate and seminal vesicles for a longer time are constantly under assault from all kinda pathogens and there is an extra burden on your immune system and heavily using your body's resources.

Getting rid of those seems an easy solution.

Also a storm of hormones also get released in your blood stream during sex with a woman making you way more alert and motivated.

However, in the first hours your prostate goes in overdrive trying to replenish those again stealing precious resources especially proteins from your system and in a few days you are back at the starting point. Producing sperm is an absolute priority and a burden on your system especially during wars or  in people with poor nutrition that i was during my youth.

But when you got diabetes things are much worse because of the presence of sugar in all organs and tissues that feed pathogens that may easily enter during unwanted pre-secretions through unscheduled hyper stimulation creating infections beyond your body's defense capabilities especially when living in an unsanitized environment. Infections in prostate may quickly spread around to adjacent organs and the whole body putting you at risk for sepsis.

11:52 Haven't looked at the stats of my blogs in a long time. It all started when i put a DIY post about painting walls years ago using lime which is much cheaper and a much better choice than "latex" water based paint, if you know how to do it that was very common in Romania before i came here. However there was an unknown factor i could not figure, materials here are different, could not get (at the time) lime in paste (CaOH) used instead CaCO3 in powder, sometimes the paint came hard as rock, sometimes soft as a piece of chalk.

Looked at those and i was getting like 100 hits per hour. However after 4 hours it all stopped and never saw since more than a few hits at every post. That is good because it spares me the emotions, but bad because i can't make any money from it. Today i started again google analytics to see more.

Also in my particular case making money from commercials or sponsorships may not be a good idea because they may alter in subtle, unintended ways the perception of my posts, especially in areas that critical, with ideas that in time got so radical (wasn't planning, just got carried out).

Latest and most important, it is my constantly inevitably renewing perception that at least Oregon, the west coast of US is occupied by millions of foreigners and all the politicians are again actors from a different country.

With those present and running things around here nothing is going to ever work for me or other people like me or ordinary Americans though the US is one of the richest country in resources and debt to those in the trillions.

And BTW real time conversations in English if they go beyond light still give me enough surprises to freeze me at times and twist my intentions interfering with the process of choosing my confessions which may at times be very embarrassing. As for play i am still considering the other hypothesis case in which it may prove a catastrophic unrecoverable mistake.

Word play here online where it's safe is the only possibility. 

Besides. I live surrounded by them. They knock on walls when i go to the the restroom to block my transit for God's sake. Or simply when i get excited by something. It's hard to catch a window to view a movie online. Same happens to any hotel i've been during my trips. They call it "influencing".

Nevermind just figured. We usually go at least once a week, mostly Saturdays at Indian Head. However 90 to 100% of the people there is THEIR people, playing different roles. I saw somebody with a girlfriend there before. Longer road, safety concerns. Usually a last minute decision done together.

1:00 I looked again today and i am puzzled by contradictions between different reports even on the same page though some have changed a bit, i see now hits in the thousands per day in one report, still insignificant if you intended to make money of it. I re-started data collection with google analytics and will check in a few days.

I know is hard to understand but money making, negotiating, was not part of the culture i grew up with. While other people, skeptical of the system, secretly and partially passed it to their kids, though it was too outdated when the revolution hit us in 89, and didn't really worked for them, (as the world in the meantime turned into a one by the known model), i am simply illiterate at it (or there are too many watching every of my move and sabotaging me) and one of the reasons i moved to the US was hoping to learn however THEY had different intentions with me.

I even had an Ameritrade account where i put 2000 dollars and tried to use some common sense algorithms to make very short term speculations. It worked only a few times at first and then i sensed some intervened and totally changed the evolutions of the stocks i was picking. By the sheer number of people and resources i sense they use around me, i think for them doing that would have been nothing as they regularly manipulate the market during one day, spending trillions in high freq trading, with fake news, Musk's perceived mood, manipulating oil price and live shows with Dracula and Xenu.

More than that. Oregon DMV gave me a LPN in 2018 that was saying JKB i din't pay attention to. Ever since, everywhere i go i see around me an unusual number of cars with different similar combinations. One of my bosses in Romania resembled an ex KGB director. The reason i have a personalized LPN in the line ipsum lorem bla bla (ERGO), that still has some significance to some (pretty girl Era).

1:17 An alternative way of seeing reactions to my posts (and especially seeing when i screw up) besides numerous indirect responses in official media is by looking at the stock market reaction. Unfortunately market goes down when i'm not making mistakes. Because all companies listed are mostly owned and run by THEM and everything i write down is coincidentally against them. However they tied the mass of people to the market through retirement funds. Could this be the time of her last post? But can she even see my posts? I have no proof of that.

1:30 Now we're simply fighting to keep Angela's job. They were at least two more letters in her myChart from her doctor to HR recommending limitations that may qualify as disability by ADA definitions but never treated as such by the company though they accepted the limitations. There was never an ADA questionnaire before last week.

Those are now gone and instead there is only the more recent ADA questionnaire Angela had to give to her doctor last Friday that basically when returned said she is disabled by ADA definitions. However we have downloaded them. However doctor said Angela may recover from her foot problems within a month which we think is possible and the lifting limitation to 20 pounds never changed in 5 years while the company accepted it, until recently when they asked her to do a job lifting more than 40 pounds.

However walking more than 5000 ft or one mile every day without rotating every few days or the way that work station was manned before her is not acceptable by any standard, disabled or not. She did that for more than one year and a half, and that started her feet problem.

2:10 Coincidence of the day. Mitt Rom-nay. Welcome to my silly life, quantum dragă fly.

2:50 Asta e faptă penală, trebuia arestat imediat

5:23 There are a few "children" in the yard and yell as Angela is sleeping. Got the AC unit and a foil in the open sliding door and sound gets in here like the door is wide open. I went in the kitchen to grab a drink and a snack and they were yelling every time i was grabbing or biting or sipping something. Like they knew. Or like getting commands from AI via ear-prompters. I did record it and saved it but there is nothing in that file.

6:00 Writing here today was most difficult. Having too many things on my mind and with all the noises i made numerous mistakes. As anyone may see, i write through re-editing or by adding time stamped entries in the same post during one whole day, and had by mistake at certain times several tabs open with the same post and got lost in versions, writing one thing in one tab and one in other, ending loosing some of the notes etc..

I feel like i'm drunk though i'm not. Some sort of weird mold smell coming from rapidly mutating microbes due to tanins of the redwood mulch coming from all kinda "casually" thrown garbage, the bins are full, they will be emptied tomorrow, combined with animal waste make me feel that way. Considering of going and buying liquor because with that one at least i know i'm drunk.

7:22 Like in many older people, General Petraeus's appearance has changed as he got older and predictably, by his fast (healing) metabolism and high energy, thinner, especially when looked at from aside for half second  while finishing climbing, at the top end of stairs at the beach. Now i know who staged the chase with the cistern on hwy 18 last night. Some of the other times? August 20/21 2021?


8:30 Angela did not approve a run to the liquor store, it smells like hell in here, wanted to go outside to throw those, any time i tried the child actors were eyeing me. But i'm pretty sure they will bring more right away as things got very intense these days, they are throwing at me everything they got.