January 19

10:00 AM Today Freud is largely dismissed in western psychiatry.

He was was replaced with what i call "bottle psychiatrists" which comes from the little orange (in the US) bottles with prescription pills which is a glorious recognition of failure of any philosophy or generally science in the way too complex field of "psychiatry" still seen today as a collection of socially disconnecting disorders while it probably should be a mixture of advanced neurology and IT.

However, Freud had his major contribution to the field. Much of his work which derives from a vast clinical experience centered on empathy of which observations resulted in revealing the role of associations in memorizing (processes) and his major, forever contribution is the term "transference" which goes beyond the therapist-parent transference observed and documented by him today mostly downplayed probably because of its great strategic value in today's media wars.

10:30 Modern psychiatry started maybe with the introduction, before Freud, of the term schizophrenia, an attempt to conceptualize in one term a broad spectrum of symptoms which today it seems an obvious attempt to reconcile the continuing shift from a normal operating mind to a psychotic one a and back in the same patient.

Psychosis being an altered state of mind operating when protections within the brain try to disconnect it from immediate, extremely traumatic to the patient reality.

The problems begin when the patient can't recognized the psychotic trips, trying to "rationalize them" or integrate them into their lives and decision making processes, which may lead to need of isolation or institutionalization.

While the term itself is a very unhappy marriage of two Greek words which basically mean "split mind", that sounds bad in most languages, the diagnosis becoming a social stigma, the term itself is part of a naive early attempt to categorize mental diseases, though if not for lack of better ideas or advancements is still largely used and recognized today in mainstream in clinical diagnosis and treatment.

As with any vague concept used this time for diagnosing patients, it leaves wide open gates to abuse while modern "medications", discovered as stated above, by chance, do the job of psychosis in schizophrenia and that is partly disconnecting the patient from reality and/or sensorial input, though in a more "controlled" way.

However there may not be other way out for many patients, since their permanent psychological trauma arise from social and financial problems.

However it is way better now than in the past, when such patients were often mistreated and mutilated like performing lobotomies, while electric shock "therapy" (under anesthesia) is still being performed as "treatment".

12:16 PM Transference. Jesus and Buddha. Jurnalist Ana Maria Simion.

January 18

7:35 AM If you didn't have time to read it all...

January 17

8:30 Grija Partidului (Național Liberal) de a nu pierde cioara de pe gard. Cu 10 miliarde de euro se pot fac 500 km autostradă (la 20 milioane / km), 20 de spitale (500 milioane / spital). Etc..

Dar știe cineva cine aplică pentru acești bani? Care sunt proiectele (firmele)?

Nu e nevoie să vedem bugetul pe anul acesta fiindcă știm cât va fi dacă ne uităm la estimările puse cu grijă în fiecare fișă din Anexa 3 la Legea Bugetului pe 2025 (grija multianuală pentru stabilitatea jafului și a sinecurilor).

Astfel misteriosul minister al Dezvoltării va avea 18 miliarde de lei sau 3,6 miliarde de euro, în scădere de la 4 pe anul trecut (2025). Apropo, știe cineva ce s-a făcut cu acești bani? Cele 40 - 140 miliarde lei (buget variabil discreționar) de la Transporturi etc..

9:00 Ok m-am prins. Articolul e un semnal pentru tagma jefuitorilor. Veniți de luați PNRR, proaspăt! Cât mai ține, neamule!

January 16

After i last done the engine head cover gasket, i looked at it every day for leaks. And the more i looked, the more things i saw. And today i saw this. The after market head cover i bought (because mine had a defect i still don't understand  how it could occurred, an entirely missing area  but with smooth, finished edge, allowing gasses from engine to blow in the engine compartment and some reaching the cabin) is bent.

Between every two bolts there is a bow because the material is not strong enough. It is called polyamide 66 or nylon 66. But after i checked the original i saw it was not the fault of the cheap Chinese though well done part i bought on Amazon. It is made of the same material as the original which had a permanent bow after i removed it.

I remember two things. One is the intriguing smell of ammonia of the exhaust (since the first Elantra). Second is about 6 months ago i was chasing the exhaust smell that was actually due to that missing area and tried the bolts of the cover and they were all loose. No visible oil leak but certainly vapors and leaks that dry being to small.

A while ago i searched and found an aluminum one for my car. Fond one, looking well done, anodized in black to look the same with the plastic original though with a plastic on the inside because they could not cast in aluminum all the intricacies of the nylon one they attached a plastic part with a large number of wood screws like screws holding it with the risk of one falling inside the engine.

So yeah, the engine head plastic cover (not to be confused with the engine removable plastic cover used for soundproofing) are now all made of polyamide, with two inherent problems. Are not as tough as metal one and they bend. They are leaching ammonia. In time, they will create small, invisible leaks.

At the second cylinder (spark plug well) there is part in the shape of a ring, missing. It is present at all the other three and all 4 at the new one i had to put in there.

The edge looks finished, so i just don't know how this could have happen (injection mold defective, maybe). There is a serial number for the part, unfortunately only the last digits are readable but it looks OEM since all the parts inside that engine compartment have similar labels.

The result is blow by gas from the engine (that usually gets recovered through PCV vale) escapes. Besides polluting the air in the cabin (gassing), it corroded the contacts by the coil they were arching and turned into a (metal oxide) dust, also polluting the cabin.

The spark for that cylinder was different from the others, resulting in a retarded ignition and a vibration that destroyed many things, including bending the right half shaft, cracking the McPherson struts, destroying the engine rubber mounts all resulting in problems with steering, etc.. Could have been the cause for the two accidents that car was into before i bought it.

The car initially belonged to a car rental company. I remember after my accident with the first Elantra which was caused by a crazy guy hitting me with a big Ford truck from behind (i might have an idea who he was) i rented a Kia Forte from enterprise (not my choice of brand) which had a huge problem.

Every time i was releasing the gas pedal, the car would suddenly accelerate for about a second which also almost got me into at least one accident. I take it Hyundai might have deals with rental companies to give them discounted cars rejected after the final QC checks? 

January 15

8:48 Trump (adm.), in competition with FED in influencing the stock market.

9:22 (Early) dreams of cali fornication.

9:28 Talking about Chili Peppers. Since i took the liberty to talk about chocking yesterday, today they are administering a chocking smoke in here, probably based on cayenne peppers (endless "cooking" since at least 2 hours ago). Macy. Counting every breath. And yes, they evacuated their own (there was no audible activity upstairs this morning, which is rare).

3:50 PM

6:50 Postare re-editată și completată.

8:35 Transference of the day. Let them eat burgers broccoli.

8:42 A superman dictator always needs a standing nemesis. Trump talked-out.

10:30 I am not saying my feet are healthy, got blue stains (that disappear overnight) and some numbness on tip of my fingers but i don't believe they are supposed to fall apart like this. Today i got again blisters after i walked a bit in the yard (you know why) again but this time i figured the cause.

Inside i got filters and stuff but still had shortness of breath for a few hours this morning, until i had the inspiration to report it here. Imagine how big the concentration was outside that the capsaicin or whatever it was got stuck on my shoes which i keep outside the door (because they are full of mud from the Battlezone, other zones where i go) and they were wet both inside and outside and the stuff stuck on them.

Started some fries in the oven, the smell got me irritated on my face and respiratory ways because i am sensitized from earlier today.

Just switched to edge for my now. They way i post, i use a google owned site called blogger which is free with the gmail account. But tonight it quit working saying... i should chose another browser and gave me a list including chrome which i was using at the time. Tried and downloaded again chrome, it was the same version i had, tried to update, it says it is the last version.

Restarted chrome, powered down and back up the computer from the power supply, nothing. I remember yesterday i had a big Windows update. I went to the other computer, the same. I don't know what's happening so i just reported it to google.

Could had been just an attempt to delay what i wrote above about the blisters on my feet, who knows.

9:45 Ok it works now. What did i say. Or maybe to delay my post until someone was able to climb upstairs.

The chocking smoke this morning also came after i cooked bell peppers in the oven two days ago.

10:07 Evelyne "Adeline" Kandech. Circumstances unknown. Hungary is a fictional country with world class con artists as elite, disguised in a dictatorship which exists with the only purpose to serve Japan and blackmails its own citizens, "killing" them and then sending them to do shows in Tualatin, US. Or Washington DC. Or Ukraine. Or Russia.