November 24

10:05 Don't know if i can include the cyclicity of the seasons (given by the Earth's rotation around the Sun) in an explanation about Amaterasu's myth but November 23 is close enough to the winter solstice, at December 21 when daylight time starts to increase again.

But by reading the above linked article i figured other important things.

In the myth, the birth of music and shamanic dance is attributed to the temporary missing of the goddess, when daylight disappeared. In contemporary music, there are numerous examples of songs speaking of that, and comes to mind the verses "she got down but she never got tight/she's gonna make it through the night" from Blinded by the Light by Manfred Man.

Music and dance are now so ubiquitous in media and we never take the time to stop and think. How was life before the century of the lights? When it all started? The Renaissance? One thing we don't recognize. The shamanism of dance and music that surrounds our lives nowadays. And we all seem to ignore the source.

Modern music seems to have taken these days the role of a (shamanic) teacher, instructing us all the time (against the old order) with words repeating obsessively over and over. Having in mind another influential song by Pink Floyd.

Calculated deception and use of force for our good. Taking matters into own hands. Extrajudicial justice. Devine trickery. The Book of  Ninja (Bansenshukai) is full of it. But also comes to mind Maya, the world of illusions or mother of Buddha, which is part of Buddhism. Could it be the reason of the happy marriage in Japan between Buddhism and Shintoism, which seems to be a term linguistically derived from "Hinduism".

Own cave. Could this be the (Devine) model for Hikikomori? There are millions of young Japanese people who retreated in their own room, some for years. They also call it "social withdrawing". Though i suspect some of them are secretly enrolled in ninja training and Japan not having more hikikomori as percentage of the total population than any country.

I did that once. Been in the apartment for months if not one or two years, never going out. Angela had to go alone to buy groceries. In a year or two my body started to atrophy. Gained more and more weight.

One day it snowed a lot (like it happens once or twice a year in Oregon). I mean, one foot of snow and i ran out of cigarettes' and Angela could not drive to 7-11 with the Nissan.

I went outside, i was high all the time during that time though not realizing. I tried to put chains on the rear wheels of the truck, the chain on one wheel got entangled, i broke the truck. So i had to walk the half mile to 7-11. But after walking for like 5 minutes in the snow i realized i cannot walk no more. Me who when i was young i was walking 30 km or more in one day on the trails in the mountains surrounding the city i was born and lived until 14 or during vacations until 18.

In that evening i went outside to take pictures with the snow, again, the same difficulty moving around the complex.

So it cannot be. Those people will atrophy and not be able to do anything anymore in a year or so. I mean, some of them could be real, like in any country, and others using this as an opportunity.

But it has gotten out of control. For decades after the appearance of radio and television people accepted those as carrying new, unheard of before forms of speech and entertainement. More and more allusive, then with more and more sexual content, to the point one simply cannot listen to them anymore. How many curse words in a song by Doja Cat?

They for as long as i can remember used a lot a type of figurative speech when the singer speaks at first person actually casting attributes to another together with obsessively, bullying appellative "baby" that nowadays has turn into "b...h" and "ho" (Doja Cat, Doechii) in extraordinarily offensive songs.

Paint the Town Red has been on tops since release, with of course the help of all DJs in the world cause actually i and probably many others don't find that song so appealing to be played like 20 times a day on a hip-hop local station. Actually i ignored it for a long time though i was listening to it while driving and it came to my attention by chance.

Will people ever start to realize this is not western culture anymore but pieces of Amaterasu's mirror that shattered and covered the whole world?

They own most everything in the US. Though the graphs shows other countries "as well", their are present with finances in those countries as well. .7 trillions direct investment in US in 2021, must have been one trillion in 2023. It's all the money American pay for cars and other goods. Now they are pushing their singers disguised as Latinos and/or Blacks with their media networks in our ears.

11:42 Bullied by Republic Services.

I was writing the above when the thunder of the garbage truck started. I ran to the bin to pull the old garbage sacks from under only to see the bin being set again on top of those. And BTW there is a new one but fortunately was not covered yet.

I tried to talk to the driver and he said "why don't we do this next week" and i told him "i don't know if i can be that fast or even present" and then i asked him kindly "if he could do us all a favor and pull those two bags next week from under the bin (when he lifts it)" and he said "i should talk to the management and have the maintenance team be there to do that".

Then i told him i cannot tell the management what to do (i actually don't believe this is my job) and then he said "i see were you're coming from" and shut the cabin's door and now i feel guilt for even asking him that.

Wondering. Is there any procedure he has to follow or just continue to put the bin over old rotting garbage sacks.

12:08 I was driving yesterday to Grande Ronde on 18 around 5 PM. I think it was just before McMinville on the variant when i saw some flashing lights in the mirror. I was planning to pull as soon as those get closer, however they got closer much sooner than expected. It was dark enough not to see  the outer margin of the shoulder or the beginning of the ditch so like many times before, about one ft of my car remained in the lane.

Right in that fraction of a second i saw 3 State Police cars literally flying by. I think they had more than 100 mph. First one was far enough but second almost shaved my car. I haven't seen those again and haven't seen anything further down the road and i know State Police only have jurisdiction on freeways, or outside cities and towns.

12:22 Before that. Yesterday afternoon i added two more hundred milliliters of ATF in my car. I went for a test drive and yes, that was the case. I was low in ATF and the car was now shifting much better.

But it was like that since i got the car. I remember i saw on the plastic panel under the transmission and engine a pink gel. Is this what ATF turns into after a while?  Though there was no leak, then and later.

Obviously had to bend over to do that. But there was no one behind me.

Soon after i did that went to take the garbage and saw yet another trail of litter dust coming from the same place and going to the bin. I immediately went and grabbed the broom but several cars already passed over, milling those beads. I swept what i could, however i inhaled some of the dust. It was this choice. Let it there and slowly inhaling the dust over several days or sweep it and only inhale some once.

However it was not without consequences. Hours later i started to have weird daydreams, almost hallucinations when i was trying to sleep in the car. (Then i tried to drink from a broken plastic glass and spilled the drink on me. Then i had to rain inside with my pants wet because i had an urge to go out).

Thing is we were both under influence of that dust, for about a week. Angela was really mad these days.

12:32 Yesterday i first drove to Lincoln City. I was planning to hang around while Angela plays there. But i came 5 minutes earlier to the meeting point where i was supposed to pick her at 7:15. Tried to call but like last time her phone (we turned both phones on for a short time) wouldn't work inside  the casino. 2 minutes after, or at 7:12 a Security SUV came by. I was at the very edge of their property and not sure if inside or out.

However i was on the outer side of the street that supposedly is the border. The Security SUV entered the parking lot of the building of the Commission across the street and then left. However i left too and i could finally talk to her as she got out. She had to climb about 100 ft to the place i was cause i did not want to take a chance. Last time i talked to those guys they said i would be arrested if i come again on their property.

Question. Why there are not signs showing that your are on a private property, gates of fences? Is 4th street a public or a private road? How can i find out?

3:02 Ok i found something. I don't believe 4th St. is included in any of the properties. It is a bunch of properties belonging to the Confederation but i don't believe it is even a reservation. Unless the whole Lincoln City is.

But they don't need to be a reservation. Anywhere they act, the tribes are not taxed. Further research. What is the legal definition of a tribe, and how many members are left in Lincoln City and surrounding areas.

4:38 When the came today to empty the bins mold and bacteria from bins spread into the leaves. Because the leaves, in some areas up to 18 inches deep or tall or whatever are wet under. Some have tiny bubbles of bacterial growth.

That's why i found myself out of breath especially after Angela went to Walmart. Cause our digestive enzymes combined spread with opening of the esophagus/stomach or lower esophageal sphincter (the so called hiatal hernia) fight better the spores in the air.

Here came this matured tall guy with a goatee and two dogs (after children yelling like possessed by a mischievous kami) and chose to stop to get a better view of me from behind exactly when i was about to bend to fill a laundry basket. That would be basis for a later retaliation bending over which synced with some other stuff like noises, will make me sick for a half day.

6:33 Yeah i'm almost done with the leaves. I almost filled a whole bin. Yes the bin that sits on top of bags with old garbage, in a position where not many people throw their garbage on (it never gets filled, not even half of it). But the leaves are very loose, if enough people throw garbage over they will give in and pack. No evil done. BTW the person who used to throw blue doggy bags next to the bin now turned to pink.

John 14:6 "I am the truth" vs IN VINO VERITAS. Can a sinner tell the truth, on occasions? Do you have to be a martyr to give a good advise?

In Shintoism and Hinduism "there are no absolutes" like good and evil, each kami or devi is a mixture of them just like humans. Kali (the demon god, the fierce mother, the fury of Durga, the feminine counterpart of Shiva) kills (destroys) all evil doers etc. She was born enraged and even rebelled against her husband, Shiva.

8:10 PM. 817 DEU is the LPN of a GM black SUV that was parked next to the bin tonight. I saw that before but  never made the link. I longtime suspected the old man who dresses like a clown or homeless (suggesting modesty) is some religious figure from Romania.

After i caught my breath and wrote a bit in here i went to finish. They were two big piles that i squeezed in three laundry baskets and i grabbed a round piece of wood the size of a basketball bat to make more room in the bin.

A very thick smoke and the woman at 4 talks again in the balcony.

While i was trying to pack the leaves with the big stick a blond guy who lives with the old man came and threw provocatively from a distance 3 improvised doggy bags and one of them almost landed on my head, one next to the bin, saying something and then he left. BTW some people threw a few bags and now the bin smells like dog poop.

So bad it got into my clothes together in the parking lot.

All these happened after picking leaves for 2 hours with no one around and then spending one hour inside. Which means they were all celebrating their holiday which now i'm sure they believe in and had to call them over. Sorry guys for disrupting.

8:22 Here is a typical example of bending over. In an empty parking lot during a holiday, this woman stopped at a stop sign, got out of the car in a place she was not supposed to, even though there was no traffic, went on the right side and did something for at least a minutes so i had the time and opportunity.

From that distance it is also less offensive to viewers. The stress was provided within a minute by a cop who was patrolling the area, stopping at every shop. Yeah i was at the Mud Bay next to Michaels.

9:18 Mi-am zis eu mie însumi. Cu prima ocazie când gătesc orez fac o poză. Cel mai simplu lucru de gătit. 2 căni și jumătate apă, una cu vârf orez. După ce fierbe apa, pun orezul, amestec o singură dată, dau la foarte mic, pun capacul și urmăresc să bolborosească nu prea tare după care pun timer-ul la 12 minute când opresc aragazul și îl mai las să stea să tragă toată apa dacă mai are.

Se poate adăuga și lapte, zahăr, la sfârșit, când e fiert.

Total timp de lucru, 5 minute, timp total, 20. Da știu capacul e de la altceva, puțin mai mare, are mânerul rupt dar așa cu ele cum le vedeți am făcut eu mult orez.

10:38 I knew the smoke outside does not come from a wildfire, by the smell. It took many hours for the smoke to get here, 13 miles away in the wind's direction.

October 3rd

4:12 I was doing google searches on Alexa's blog IP number and i found a list of blogs associated with and when i opened the second in the list i found this, which could be my upstairs neighbor. Born in Philippines, writer, degree in English, also from San Francisco, journalist, food critic, Reiki practitioner, operating room nurse, etc.. I think i talked to her last Saturday at Lucky Eagle Casino not knowing who she was.

Also in the section with followers on goodreads i saw someone (second picture) that could be Alexa but there is no name and is not clickable, even after i signed it in with fb.

Could have done this long time ago but did not have time and patience.

5:37 Oh... My... God... Did i just criticize Stevie Nicks' eerie clothing style?    

Been to Fred Meyer to get the stuff i din't get at WinCo yesterday. When i came back they were here, doing gymnastics moves and yelling like crazies.

6:20 Like anything in this crazy world we live in there are of course fake Sadhus. The reason i searched and wrote this was this guy in red t-shirt with deformed hands that passed on the street in front of me twice, when i started my walk and when i came back. I saw in a video last night a Sadhu that held his hand in the air for 50 years and the hand was deformed but i think he was real. Just to prove his dedication to Lord Shiva.

And i remembered a couple of things. The check-stand i saw first yesterday had no line so i went there and there was this short Indian woman (a rare sight) and i was intrigued that she didn't greet me or i didn't hear, she was holding her head down while checking stuff and in the end she asked me if i needed bags and i looked at her and said i have my bags in the car. Got next to car, moved my stuff in the bags, it was raining and then another older woman came and ask me to give her the cart and then she said 'thank you'  and i said "you welcome".

Lately i became so emotionally pissed with everything i sometimes won't answer to hellos in the park and here is an example. Today there was a woman with a dog who said hi, i made eye contact and nodded my head but didn't say anything as she started talking to her dog. "Come on. No! Leave it there. Come on".

11:43 Minciuna zilei. Cea mai mare sursă de venit al bugetului de stat (fără contribuții asigurări sociale) e TVA. Toți plătesc TVA chiar și când cumpără o pâine.

August 27

2:22 AM PDT. Was watching the news with Biden saying this is Trump's best picture and that straw tipped the carriage (yeah just made this one up). This is surreal and don't really want to talk about now. But when i saw the picture the first time i was distracted by other things and didn't realize the obvious.

The picture should not exist as such. The guys in the court should have known how to take a mugshot. An angle with head tilted forward to near 45 degrees distorts the picture and defies the purpose of identification. Yeah of course we all know who Trump is but a mugshot should be a mugshot, if all this is for real.

They (the court, the prosecutor) besides being unprofessional are accomplices to Trump defying the American people. It's all a sham, a fabrication, a stunt (heavily missing English vocabulary in this area, wish i could say what i feel but can't without using certain simple words...) and it illustrates perfectly the surreality of the situation we're all in as nobody said nothing yet.

Or maybe they did on forums or commentaries with limited audience.

3:36 One more time media has pushed a ridiculous accusation and people didn't take a look for themselves. A very long, "consensual" hug followed by a short kiss on the lips whatever and she taps him on the back one more time after that.

8:08

Primarul din Caracal. Totul a fost o înscenare. Dacă foloseau stația ca loc de parcare, atunci demisia lui este inutilă, deși spectaculoasă. Totuși, nu cred că e bine să parchezi mai multe din alea la un loc ca idee de bun simț dar poate sunt și ceva norme.

Ce au crezut cei ce au văzut, auzit, până în momentul când s-a lămurit ce a fost.

Cineva totuși a dat foc la cisternele alea, pentru un spectacol pirotehnic vizibil din București.  Sunt acolo camere de supraveghere?

9:05 Can't open a news site without seeing the echoes of my posts anymore. Raiji (Raichu, Pikachu, remember) and the black goddess. What escapee. It has been brought there. Reasons are obvious. They dig deeper convolutions in people's brains to make go away previous ones.

9:09 Conclusion. People with strong multimillennial convictions with no clear delimitation of good and bad, act into implementing their beliefs in today's world and generally we can't perceive what they are doing because of our monotheism and our God is generally a good god though sometimes He gets angry and jealous too and that is why we deserve our fate.

There is a lot more in this world than west and US, a whole lot more.

Polytheism gives a lot of flexibility in a religion as they can be myriad of interactions and collusions between the different gods but i suspect in Japan by example Buddhists are manipulating more simple minded Shintoists to achieve their goal which might be itself a delusion born from misunderstanding Buddha.

Generally, it's all a big confusion.

9:30 Is that a Shiva linga in the middle of the stage? (Cause it can't be an onion).

Yeah i got tired too of posting videos but it's all in there and i bet they are not doing it for fun as some might perceive and it's a lot of hard work on the world's stages going on right now.


11:05 Can accute inflamation due to infection lead to narrowing of blood vessels and cause a heart attack? The inflammation in the tissues adjacent to heart including skeletal muscles that usually accompany a heart attack.

11:55 Prigozhin. Kali.


12:15 Kalima

August 13

12:20 You only have to imagine how it would have all been if Trump only had a chance to go forward with his MAGA(r) concept. However some most times a slogan is just a slogan. 

1:18 Mircea Coșea

12:00 Theoretically it's a Spanish couple that moved upstairs about a month ago. He leaves around 9 and comes back after 12 hours with the only car and she stays here all the time. Saturday, Sunday too. How is that possible. Stepping and stumping all the 12 hours, depending on what i'm doing. I wanted to get some more sleep, exactly when i fell asleep she woke me up with big noises. Trying to get back to sleep, she keeps it like that for an hour now.

6:37

9:50 Pancha is the same as paJka, just a different Latin alphabet transliteration, same pronunciation of the same Sanskrit word which means five. Apparently Buddha knew 2500 years ago that the five forces are in fact just one which means he knew of a theory of unifying those.

11:10 Shiva lingam represents the first manifestation of void from which everything was created. Best analogy i can think of.

Satisfied, everybody?

1:07 (14) Back to the future.

November 5

10:02 Two images to prove my morning was not completely wasted. Though i can't find what i'm searching for. Proof in one lost image that the snakes (nagas) that are so much documented in Hindu history, culture, archaeology and even as present people are somehow genetically different from the people in the rest of the world and they are still here and kicking. So ruthless they will wipe out generations so they can continue their march to this time o completely dominate the world. Their two underground cities may not have be underground at all but only down under.

In this image Shiva, lord of snakes, is threatening to kill Arjuna, a main Mahabharata hero, (though he was defeated by him many times) under a figure that represents a snake with many heads.

In this image from Ancient Egypt the cat Bastet is about to kill the snake Apep, under the three of life which however reminds of the multi-headed snake figure in the first picture. But the cat has such long ears and interesting posture it resembles a kanga_roo.

11:19 To further complicate the story, there are the good nagas, or the naga sadhus. Now became the 2 million beggars roaming the streets of India, "burning bad karma" for the Indians.

While doing dishes, was thinking. Could this be a historical case (of the snakes of course) of "forgotten what they started fighting for?" and they are nowadays going by feeling or momentum only (the genetics have been drastically diluted after 1000 years in Europe). Could very well be but the momentum must stop now.

1:00 Further proof that snakes were universal in ancient world. Pharaohs' (and Sphinx's) masks, not only the snakes on their forehead, remind of erect cobras.

1:32 Chelului, tichie de măgăritar. Bogdan Ardamica. Mai potoliţi-l pe Aurescu! (dacă mai puteți!).

2:15 Still have not found that image, found something similar that shows the nagas genetic traits seen on face of many Asians and Hungarians.

2:53 Chiar și...

9:09 Nile Rodgers Pharrell Williams

September 15

12:49 And everyday the paper boy brings more... Faces that is. Looking frantically for a new Putin ally i didn't know it existed until they ran out of others and dragged this one into international spot light. While doing so of course my attention is increased and see more things i otherwise wouldn't. Like this author that attracted me with her legs instead of her books' covers. Also because they poured a new batch of fresh she dog in heat poop on my head, tonight. This cover says more about continuity of Australian culture in Asia and Europe and America than one million words. Clear as daylight. Australian cave art. Dreaming. Shiva. Jainism. Judaism. Neo-Zoroastrianism. etc..

1:21 Just remembered something really bizarre i saw on America's got talent tonight.

September 14

10:05 Din Boto_sani, cu prietenie.

10:23 Nu, Fuego nu este fiul.

10:23 Și praf se vor face, la fel ca bugetul, fără nici o dare de seamă (sans autre forme de procès).

10:28 De la unguri în schimb, numai psihologie (inversă).

12:07 Billy Rose.

 

9:08 I once put the recipe for Romanian "zacusca" in here. It is very close with the French ratatouille  that also doesn't have a very flattering name, without the zucchini.

Anyways cutting eggplants and peppers to small pieces requires some labor and was doing that when the "man" upstairs worked on his motorcycle which involved starting it and shaking the building for minutes at the time. Today it was Wednesday, the blew dust on the building, dust is also falling from some newly created by replacing the windows cracks. Somehow dust got in here (from tiny openings around door) and now i feel it in my throat and teeth.

Two days ago i've done an experiment with the car, adding 80% silver conductive epoxy in the threads of the battery's connectors, i drove the car  yesterday or after 24 hours, the car never ran better

I'm thinking, the most overlooked problem in modern cars, the battery contacts are not good enough to smooth the fluctuations after rectifying the voltage coming from alternator that may influence sensors, fuel pump, electric power steering, etc.. There can also be fluctuations from alternator's regulator and even from car's vibration.

Battery works as a huge capacitor and can smooth those out, however, if the contacts are not perfect, the voltage is not going to be perfectly smooth DC but pulsating DC. The very expensive silver epoxy i bought is very slow to cure though, still soft after 48 hours, and very expensive, 20 dollars for a few grams. The cheaper ones are only 60% silver. So i'm wondering if they're not going to sabotage this. I remember a year ago, just before the accident, when i discovered this, i put some adhesive on top of the nuts that were loosening selves after tightening battery connectors and that again improved mpg and drivability visibly so i was wondering if they're gonna let me run like that, at least for one long trip.

Was thinking at the 24 carat gold covered chocolate statues done by Wolfgang Puck and if i could find some of that gold dust to make a paste and put in the threads. Yes it is worth it (and a much better use of the gold than going down the toilet LOL) the mpg increase is at least 10%, which means one gallon out of ten at every fill-up bur it's not only that. Car runs much smoother, drives better, has more power and less gas burns in the catalytic.

9:54 Nevermind, this can't be gold dust, is too cheap. No prices here.

12:49 And everyday the paper boy brings more... Faces that is. Looking frantically for a new Putin ally i didn't know it existed until they ran out of others and dragged this one into international spot light. While doing so of course my attention is increased and see more things i otherwise wouldn't. Like this author that attracted me with her legs instead of her books' covers. Also because they poured a new batch of fresh she dog in heat poop on my head, tonight. This cover says more about continuity of Australian culture in Asia and Europe and America than one million words. Clear as daylight. Australian cave art. Dreaming. Shiva. Jainism. Judaism. etc..

September 13

1:28 In retaliation to my last posts, they poured in the walls so much dog litter dust it stinks from the outside. It made me of course really sick, with constant stomach pain. Every time a vehicle with modified exhaust or a helicopter passes, more of it gets on my head.

3:10 The reason i woke up at midnight and can't sleep. I open the sliding door trying to air, it was better for a while, then smoke concentration rose and had to close it.

3:11 Ok poate nu am ales poza cea mai bună pentru asemănarea cu Simona Halep, pe vremea aceea nici eu nu luam asemănările astea prea în serios și oricum mă concentram pe nume mai mari. Ce ziceți de asta, pe care nu am chef la ora asta s-o decupez și să fac altă asemănare Se pare că tipa a avut o carieră lungă în Ungaria, ca modelă (de lenjerie intimă), chiar și prezentatoare TV înainte de a fi reciclată în tenis și trimisă în România.

La fel ca Țiriac, un cântăreț de operă din Ungaria (nu sunt sigur cine, am mai mulți candidați), care a făcut carieră (scurtă, un singur album și un turneu, dar se mai aude și acum din când în când) în SUA ca și cântăreț de folk, pe numele Jim Croce (country whatever), "a murit" într-un accident de avion și a apărut în România peste câțiva ani, doar pentru că semăna cu Dracula. La fel ca Irina Loghin (Patsy Cline) etc..

LOL stau și râd singur aici în noapte.

3:38 A trecut o săptămână de când am reușit în sfârșit să trec de testul de compatibilitate a telefonului pe care l-am cumpărat pe Amazon în ianuarie cu 120 de dolari, unlocked, neștiind că nu era făcut pentru SUA. Telefonul (cu cartelă, prepaid) a funcționat 6 luni la Hello Mobile, intermitent. Adică dacă mergeam dintr-o zonă în alta, nu se lega automat la turn, trebuia să-l repornesc deși internet aveam pe el tot timpul. Am închis contul într-o zi când m-a enervat, nu am găsit ceva mai bun și m-am întors la Hello Mobile (T-Mobile adică Deutsche Telekom). Dar acum nu mai treceam de faza de compatibilitate pe site. 

Puneam IMEI-ul și nu mă lăsa să deschid cont. Am mai încercat peste un timp și acum trecea de faza aia, am pus adresa, card-ul și ei mi-au spus că au trimis sim card-ul, care trebuia să vină a doua zi cu Amazon. Avem în complex locker Amazon, adică un dulap cu uși care se deschid automat când pui un cod care-l primești într-un email. Dar cred că cineva fac pe nebunii, sim card-ul nu mai ajunge la mine de o săptămână. După mai multe sesiuni de chat din care una am pus-o ca postare de blog, azi am vorbit la telefon cu un tip din India (multe firme au serviciul clientului în străinătate) care vorbea o engleză puțin diferită și părea prea șmecher ca să fie un angajat obișnuit, era mult zgomot în call center, vocea se auzea distorsionat iar eu trebuia să ghicesc cuvintele.

Cred că unul din scopuri este de a încerca să demonstreze că eu nu vorbesc engleza chiar așa de bine cum scriu, altul să simuleze rasism din partea T-mobile, care apare că mă șicanează intenționat, iar azi în media românească mai apare și articolul acesta, care chiar m-a enervat și m-a făcut să scriu rândurile astea deși nu prea aveam chef.

4:07 Mi-a venit o idee ce să mai fac ca să scap de greață, m-am dus în "bucătărie" să dau un măr pe răzătoare aia măruntă, ca pentru copii mici (mere din alea verzi, acrișoare și tari ca lemnul, e nevoie de ceva efort ca să-l razi, treabă de vreo 5 minute) când tipa de sus, de data asta fără să facă cel mai mic zgomot de pași, a dat drumul la duș, timp de vreo 5 minute, care la ora asta din noapte într-o clădire de lemn se aude normal ca o Niagara, iar vibrațiile aduc mai mult miros și praf din pereți. Ok am terminat de curățat mărul acela, dar din cauza stresului și a iritării pe esofag de la praf și acid din stomac, mi s-a oprit, așa dat prin răzătoare, în esofag, după care speriat, am luat niște ceai și a trecut cu greu și dureros.

5:32 Tipa seamănă cu fosta nevastă a lui McCartney cu care el a scos niște melodii chiar bunicele. Mda și reacția burselor la postarea asta. No intention, sorry.

10:37 I was feeling like paralyzed when i too some almond  butter with grapefruit juice. Slept some more, awoke with dog s... taste in my mouth when delivery knocked on my door. There is still some smoke outside, though AQI is near 50. Got my sim card, put it in the phone, had some emotion because on the envelope was written Be part of the 5G revolution, my phone is 4G, now the phone works and i don't have a funky number except for 8960. 60 is my birth year, easy to remember, 89... etc.. Unlimited talk, 4 gigs of data for 15 dollars a month, i hope i have enough data to play music from youtube (where i have coverage) in car's stereo.

10:40 Yeah it looks like many of the cathedrals have inside lotus motifs. Some have spires. Some, or those with one tower look a lot like a version of Shiva's lingam. Television tower in Hamburg, where i climbed at the rotating restaurant in 72 when i was 12 etc.. I would assume because Goths were of Chinese origin. Don't know if these are real Gothic medieval characters, but some of the Gothic letters seem to have been Latin letters touched by Chinese calligraphy. Zic și eu ca fraierul, oare academicienii nu știu chestiile astea, ori le e frică să vorbească ori sunt din tabăra învingătorilor, care au scris de mult istoria?

11:19 Faptul că are pe cadranul vitezometrului 310 sau că motorul poate sau că ei îl promovează așa nu înseamnă că poate atinge această viteză pe o autostradă obișnuită, care de obicei mai poate avea denivelări, cu un șofer oarecare sau în general. Autostrăzile sunt rute de transport foarte convenabile, fără intersecții, fără opriri, fără prea mari aglomerații dar nu sunt piste de curse sau de aterizare decolare pe un aeroport. Eu am condus mult pe autostrăzi în SUA (27 de ani, 32k km numai în ultimul an) și nu am văzut pe nimeni inclusiv eu conducând mai mult de 150 kmh. Mașinile autorizate la vânzare au în general o limitare soft la această viteză dincolo de care nu mai accelerează, ca să nu mai vorbim de încălcarea legii, facilitată chiar de producător. Și atunci pentru ce să cumperi o asemenea mașină? Ca să atingi primul viteza maximă legală când pleci de la semafor.

2:03 Obstinația asiatică. Ei nu se vor opri niciodată din a încerca să vă convingă, pentru că e mult mai ușor să convingi pe cineva ca să-l poți fura. Lumea cumpără de Crăciun cu bani trimiși din afară. De ce nu dați cifrele bugetului, câți bani s-au cheltuit până acum și pe ce. Pentru că jumătate din banii din buget pleacă în Ungaria.

2:41 I wouldn't have posted the paragraph with the Chinese origin of the Goths if i didn't receive this today. Somehow Amazon printed on a regular Amazon envelope a lotus motif and sent it to my door. The market crashed for the rest of the day, though the crash stopped when i went at WinCo where  they have  their people who move around me to create incredible situations. Market always goes up half percent when i go there.

2:50 În SUA faptele se pot prescrie doar până în momentul depunerii plângerii. Dacă ancheta a început înainte de prescriere, prescrierea nu se mai aplică.

Ciudățenie. Un cetățean obișnuit nu poate face plângere penală, asta este doar la decizia poliției.

La fel de ciudat mi se pare că în România o anchetă și în general procesul judiciar să poată fi oprit, odată început. Ce te faci dacă ancheta începe cu câteva zile înainte de termenul de prescriere, o zădărnicești?

Termene de prescriere (statutes of limitations) în Oregon.

7:36 Now i know why it was stinking yesterday on the outside. Next to kitchen window they didn't seal right the new piece of vertical siding they installed. Stuff from the wall released from upstairs was falling and depending on wind, was getting on the deck and back inside from under the door.

10:50 Deci totul a pornit de la o eroare? Corina Chiriac are într-adevăr vocea foarte asemănătoare cu a lui Tony Tenille, dar nu am verificat niciodată îndeaproape asemănarea fizică. Astfel am aflat azi că există o cântăreață de operă corespunzătoare lui Corina Chiriac în Ungaria, dar cam atât. Deci prima mea asemnănare reușită a fost a Angelei Similea. Sau Anda Călugăreanu. În 2011. O postare de blog incompletă, cu link-uri sricate care dovedește data la care am început cu aceste asemănări. În fiecare zi spun că mă opresc, apoi apare ceva în știri și mă enervez și mă apuc iar.

September 12

2:30 Cuckoo (proudly) calls his own name. A Shiva's lingam on a cover of Time magazine? Looks to me like his whole architecture was inspired by the lotus flower. Minoru Yamasaki. Gyure.

Lotus petals, tridents on the cladding of WTC.

Lotus petals and a Shiva's lingam on top of the new one.

2:40 (AM) After i just ate, loud, deep base in the parking lot shakes the walls and litter dust falls from cracks. There is a van outside parked in a spot with no visible LPN.

3:40 One hour later. Nausea and pain all over.

4:13 WT...

2:20 A number of local and Romanian fake news are trying to erase (from memories) things i just posted.

I don't know what to do, to re-post them or not. If i re-post them, more people are going to see them, if i don't those who saw those will forget what i just posted. Many other "news" you should be aware of.

Yakima girl missing.

A young woman gravely wounded in a motorcycle accident.

Calling sick and old.

Simona Halep is a big star in Romania, occupying a good chunk of the news, surpassed maybe only by the war in Ukraine. Mainly because of nostalgia, Năstase and Țiriac where some of the first people of Romania to break through the iron curtain (with approval of authorities on both sides of course), tennis remaining a glorious symbol of freedom in Romania to this day. But she plays for money and though playing tennis for money has its advantages, but i don't believe it deserves so much national attention.

After divorce a few days ago, now she's got nose surgery. Could it be a direct allusion at the differences at the nose level in many of my matches? Those pictures are picked from the internet, they were not intended for identification purposes, we are lucky enough to see them as they are. Some are done at different ages, lights, with different cameras and position of the head, focal distances, etc..

Emma Răducanu is not Romanian or British, she is just another Japanese model. On top of that, she resembles a bit the woman upstairs as well, could make a good double. BTW, Jacqueline Cristian passed my sliding doors again this morning.

I wrote a few days ago about being puffy all over, and blaming it on exposure to insulation dust, or inflammation causing litter dust.  However there are two other major causes and i strongly believe dehydration is most common while most common cause for dehydration is drinking regular coffee and alcohol on top of inflammation due to exposure to pollutants. I can't believe a guy in his position, whose mother had two valets and a cook just for her (majesty) dogs, doesn't have the necessary nutritional advisors at any time near him. Or maybe he ignores them. The pain he has to endure.

8:06 There is a vehicle with big loudspeakers playing loud base outside for more than half hour, asking for it, i just can't ignore no more.

August 25

4:00 Here they come, flooding with tons of fabricated news. This time, a Chinese woman in front of a bus that was added by Photoshop.

4:12 That's what i thought. Not like a jubilation or anything, more like a Shiva debt clearance. Jubela, Jubelo, and Jubelum.

7:27 I just called Angela because i'm feeling really sick (drank too much last night on pain from dust).

There is another guy that can do SMT (who actually trained Angela) but he didn't come to work today. (like Angela's ex supervisor, he's coming when he wants, half of the day missing, he's got other jobs).

There is an engineer that can do it too. Parts came in for a prototype and Angela had a hotel reservation tonight and approved day off for tomorrow but they're trying to force her to come tomorrow. The brain (team lead) is a guy named Steven Eaton (coincidence with the name of the company).

11:00 De când se muncesc ăștia domle să distribuie niște amărâte de carduri. Cât sunt, 700 de lei, o singură dată la un milion de persoane, adică 700 milioane? În bugetul Ministerului Muncii apar undeva 41 miliarde cu titlu "Asistență Socială" care nu am înțeles niciodată unde se duc. (Pensiile au buget separat, Asigurările Sociale, de 100 miliarde, care atenție, este gestionat tot de Ministerul Muncii). Citeam ieri, în Italia peste un milion de oameni sub pragul de sărăcie beneficiază de un fel de pensie de venit minim care este de 780 euro pe lună.

1:49 Now i know why the guy upstairs took a vacation while they were working at the building but can't say yet. Same reason market went up today. Clue. Not because he didn't want to be here but i bet he'll be back as soon as they're done. BTW, they've been inside, almost finished, but he said they didn't have materials to seal the sliding door on the inside, a one hour job, all that's left. All i can say is i was very tired, almost falling asleep standing while he was doing those windows. I asked him when they're going to be done, he said they don't know yet, don't have the materials, like they didn't in the day they installed the windows. Notice expires today, but she said in an email i will be notified again if they come in another day. However i won't be here tomorrow.

August 19

11:53 Motive șerpești, lingamuri. Practic, lucrarea apare ca un templu al lui Shiva, iertătorul de datorii LOL. Dar Buda acela îmbrăcat pe banii dvs. care apare printre muncitori cine-i, a ok Artilla.

1:45 Fascinating. Extreme mechanics resurfacing parts, modifying, rebuilding a transmission with a few tools with methods that at first seem chaotic and a speed that defies imagination. No, it's not on fast forward, this is how some people work. Is it going to work after? Most likely, cause they would go out of business if not. Thinking of scratching of head, bolts and nuts and parts i would misplace if i tried. Most likely, skills gained after doing it daily for a lifetime. My favorite part. Minute 13, turning without cooling, red hot temperatures, that cutting tip must be Swedish. But was thinking. Is the movement of the hands of a woman cleaning and preparing meals for a family for a lifetime less precise or important? Don't think so.


4:17 Some fog lifted of my brain. Where did i know this guy where did i know this guy. The supervisor of the team working at my windows, and BTW the firm is not SAGE anymore but BZ Construction looks like Emperor Naruhito himself. BTW just got another entry notice extending the presence of construction workers through Thursday next week.

4:15 120, 160, 200.

5:05 Amadani

5:10 Up until today i thought Russians were the most isolated people on Earth, but i changed my mind, it's the Japanese. Of course their emperor is working, he's not real, he's a ninja, since before Edo period.

7:30 Generalized pain made me go outside and hose the AC. However that was not the problem. The problem was in the back they unnecessarily gutted the siding to the point they exposed the insulation under. They put some tape over that twisted. Was thinking. Even if they put a piece of siding to match the whole, it will never be sealed. Let's say i can seal it at my level with silicon, but what about the level above? How about the other apartments?

It was a trap. they put that flashing over insulation and a few hanging pieces of bituminated paper which had no chance to hold and they left a huge amount of dust on the wall, that came from cutting the siding.

Tonight i went and hosed the AC, balcony floor, screen, and saw the dust and directed the hose towards it. On the upper side flashing have been stretched when it was applied (that became apparent only after i taped it to the edge with duck tape, lower image) which made it twist, not being taped to anything (or loose insulation). Again, flashing cut too short or too much of the siding have been cut. I looked carefully and i'm not sure if the insulation is mineral or not. Most likely not. The dust and pain came from somewhere else. Ironically, they left this time the flashing falling from above too long.

On the right side there is a 5 mm edge that allowed taping the self adhesive flashing. On the left side i put some duck tape over it to get to the edge of the siding so i can seal the hole with insulation exposed, until Monday when they can decide what to do. I would have been a genius if i took a picture before hosing, but 4 days of hammering thin wood got to my head.

9:22 Few people ever took the time to think, thinking it does not concern them, or it's fantasy or a "tradition" and it doesn't signify anything to them. About being a god, like the emperor of Japan.

First thing. A god is not human and can be benevolent or malevolent. Being a descendant of Amaterasu, who hid in a cave and took the daylight with her, gods can be moody or even egotistical.

A person's will, including his/her servants, will pale when compared to a God's will. In fact, nobody can have a will except him/her.

Whoever serves a god on this Earth can't be friends with other humans. Or they can but at a lesser degree. Definitely not friends with those who don't serve their god. But some do their best.

9:35 I knew about the significance of self scarring for aboriginal Australians (and yes, the famous American "blinds" design might also have something to do with). Yesterday i discovered something that may prove the Australian descendance of Hungarians. Ornaments on military closing resembling that type of body self mutilation. However today i've been forced to think and discovered something else that may also be related to body scarring of those people.

Art(ila)

August 7

1:05 The only way i can keep the car running within parameters is if i tighten the two extra connectors i added at the battery's terminals every time i go for a ride. Today i did so however, as soon as i started i saw a warning light on the dashboard. It was the central light for brakes, under the rear windshield.

Today is the day when 27 years ago i landed in New York with the flight RO13, in a DC10 plane leased from Belgian Airlines to Tarom, because the Tarom plane that was doing that route, a brand new Airbus, crashed earlier that year. I'm sure they would have leased a DC8 if they could find one, but in 95 nobody was flying those anymore. 8 drivers, 5 Greyhound buses brought me to Salem on August 10. I think back then Tarom, the Romanian airlines only had one flight a week to New York or only room on Sunday's flights and it wasn't much of my choice, it was the first i could find and book. If i only knew what i got into.

So they made a little plan that started with that light. I stopped in an intersection just before entering 205 at Stafford to check the brake lights, given the mishaps lately including the accident almost year ago on August 22, and a snake woman promptly stopped after us, to see what we're doing. The central light was coming on when hitting the brakes, but not flashing.

After a few hours at Indian Head i hit a small jackpot and with my earlier "wins" got all together 185 bucks i think after starting with 20. I knew it could have been a bad omen, cause every time we won something happened after. I bought a hamburger at the Tule bar and went into the car where there was an open can of beer with some beer in it. I ate the burger and sipped from the beer watching a scene next to me. One girl and one man got into an older truck in the rear seat while another one was watching them.

Since they wouldn't come out or move the truck within the next 5 minutes, i backed up to move into a different spot i saw earlier. Like last Sunday here in the parking lot, someone backed up as i was approaching him rear first.

Thinking about that woman who could have said actually my rear backup light wasn't working. I remember last night i saw a guy on the street (even took a picture of him) with white lights instead of red ones in the rear. The fact is, i don't know if i have rear backup lights right now, i'm gonna check tomorrow. Was lucky, seen the guy, stopped and the man who was staring at me and i'm positive he saw me earlier and could have stopped, entered back into his spot and nothing happened. But if i didn't see him, i could have ended up being arrested, for DUI (the open beer can in the cabin), on August 6. Later on my way back the warning light disappeared.

Just went outside and checked and got the white rear backup lights. BTW, the car is smelling again like a dead animal, about 6 months ago i found a mummified mouse in the radiator's fan housing.

1:42 Angela a pus săptămâna trecută castraveciori la murat din recolta proprie (un teren de 1,5 pe 4 metri închiriat din curtea unei biserici, unde sunt pe aproape și o grămadă de saci de plastic cu gunoi de găină doar parțial fermentat, care put și puțeau și castraveciorii proaspeți). A urmat știrea cu gemenii Muraru (aluzie la asemănări, cu palatul cu piscină), tipa moartă în Lacul Morii și accidentul din Bulgaria cu autocarul Muratoglu.

9:04 Aproape 7 ore de somn. Ora locală, 9 dimineața, la 10 fuse orare față de România, 3 față de coasta de est. Mă gândeam ieri în timp ce conduceam, în pauzele dintre hărțuirea continuă la care sunt supus și în acel timp. Am mai scris despre aparigraha, principiul ne-atașării, atât de important pentru budiști.

Tradus în creștinism, păcatul cel mai apropiat este cel al idolatriei.

Oamenii adeseori se atașează chiar și de o idee. Unii se și obsedează. Astfel apar miturile. Într-un fel, budiștii au dreptate, ne lăsăm prea mult în voia sentimentelor atunci când e să judecăm ceva. Prindem ideea și o transformăm, datorită limbajului nostru adesea primitiv, dar și emoțiilor, într-o obsesie semantică.  De aceia ei sancționează foarte mult sau mai bine zis folosesc (ca în judo, dacă vreți) această pornire împotriva noastră, dezvoltând pe acea idee, însă în sensuri opuse, care obsesie se transformă până la urmă, ca orice obsesie, într-o pagubă. Și am să vin cu exemplele, care iată, m-au înfuriat și în această dimineață.

Am postat ieri o melodie cu Pittbull, un cântăreț latino ale cărui hit-uri au fost destul de cântate pe posturile de radio cel puțin de pe aici din Portland. Și aici ar trebui să amintesc o altă idee care îmi stăruie în minte în ultimul timp și nu găsesc nici un prilej adecvat de a o exprima. Cum să o numesc, aglomerația de cântăreți de origine japoneză nedeclarată pe posturile cele mai ascultate, și mă gândesc la Z100, postul de R&B de serviciu aici în Portland. În particular, Doja Cat, LIZZO și Weeknd. În scădere, Ariana Grande, Bruno Mars. Nu prea mai am capacitatea de a mă revolta în mintea, mea, sunt destul de uzat din punct de vedere emoțional, dar totuși mă gândesc. Ce este America, ce a ajuns ea dacă toată cultura a fost confiscată de aceștia. Dar oare a fost mult diferit în trecut? Jimi Hendrix și urmașul lui, Prince. Ceilalți, albii, de pe celelalte posturi sunt toți unguri. Elvis Presley, Ricky Martin. Rihanna. Justin Bieber. Și ăștia sunt doar cei care îmi vin în minte acum, nu știu de ce.

Nu cred că există nici un artist în panteonul american de origine locală. Dar dacă până acum japonezii s-au conformat unor stiluri existente, ca de exemplu Bruno Mars, care cântă într-un stil latino romantic, au început acum, prin LIZZO și Doja Cat să-și dea drumul la propriile lor pentatonice. Adică, oricine ascultă și-ar putea da seama că sunt asiatici. Dacă ar mai avea cu ce să compare. Iar Doja Cat aduce pur și simplu porno-ul în mainstream, cu melodii care sunt întrerupte odată la câteva secunde pentru a cenzura cuvintele explicite, ale căror versiuni necenzurate se găsesc însă pe youtube deci oricine poate avea "traducerea" spațiilor goale în minte.

Deci a venit sancționarea. Ei probabil au senzorii lor, știu ce gândește lumea, într-o țară sau alta și cum reacționează la anumite informații, scoase la suprafață de vreun blogger. Abia din aceste sancțiuni îmi dau seama și eu de dimensiunea unor fenomene. Aspiratorul robot Roomba. Însă eu am încercat să pun în evidență mai mult decât aluziile lui Pitbull la un individ ipotetic, care are camere unde petrece cu femei ușoare și nu-i pasă de nimeni și nimic, adică legătura cu Ruuu-sia. Steaua roșie ce apare discret pe fundal. La un moment dat, silueta lui apare pe roșu.

Și totuși nu mă pot opri să nu mă gândesc aici că cei care formează aceste adevărate curente în melanjul porției de cultură servită zilnic sunt cei care formează trend-urile sau obsesiile noastre iar Biblia are și acest păcat prins într-un verset, citat din Iisus însuși. Nu știu în acest moment dacă budismul are un echivalent, voi mai căuta.

10:20 Pe "muraru, morii". Doi marocani au ucis un tunisian.

11:50 Went outside to chase the stink at the car. At once, an Amazon van stopped by (though there is an Amazon locker next to the office). A Chinese looking woman who looked tired and excited got out, frantically looking for an apartment number. I got back in. Later i figured she could have been Ariana Grande. These celebrities can change a lot of the features of their appearance or "look" as some may say. Then i removed the grill and washed the mud under. Hosed some areas inside engine compartment like left wheel mud cover that still had the original dog food dust on it.


1:02 O altă expresie a lingamului lui Shiva, de data asta în China comunistă?

10:45 PM. We got home. Though it wasn't present in the morning before i started the AC, now the apartment smells like dog s...after the AC ran all day. It comes from the back, from the apartment next to ours, where small dogs and big karateka live and go to s... in the back by themselves. The "man" upstairs at once started to move on top of our heads in the kitchen, like he always does. Like he knew what we were doing (getting something to eat).