August 3

It looks like the wind has shifted with easterly winds pushing the northerly ones aside, bringing some smoke over the valley. Storming my brain to see where to start searching about alchemy based esoteric.

What is esoteric alchemy.

Both from philosophical and scientific point of view it's all wrong, from so many points of view i can't even begin to enumerate, however practitioners claim effectiveness and we are all witnessing the results of their aggressive imposing upon us. We the survivors are all suffering the results of errors done centuries ago and taken upon all humanity.

There are things in there based on observation and coded with alchemical symbolism (early science) in lack of proper conceptualization that work and that give them enough motivation to persist but i bet they already started to ask themselves.

Biggest inconsistency. Turning cheap metal into gold, failed on physical level and transposed at spiritual by applying that "principle" towards "self purification" while soiling selves with dubious practices (like sex magic, plain, ordinary magic tricks (see real life disguises of Tom Cruise described in this blog, others) as opposed to magick and sometime torture of single stubborn hopelessly inherently flawed individuals) is all based on greed, a lower, "flawed" human emotion.

Yes, they claimed to have finally achieved their dream of "transmutation" at CERN, with great costs and total ineffectiveness as predicted by science but that keeps them going.

But i had no idea this is the hidden force behind the conspiracy i am currently actively hunting for.

1:25 PM But i am wondering. What wicked alchemic principle (or feng shui whatever) tells them to place their poops in a certain point on the lawn, probably according to ever changing seasonal air currents?

For a few weeks they put at least one but usually 2 or 3 on a line on a certain point behind a shrub close enough but unseen from inside, from dogs big and small, dry or with diarrhea, shiny stinking (from oils from anal sacks of dogs stressed or dragged during pooping), etc..

I just took a picture before picking 4 from that place, all in a single line. I found only one or two on the other side of the building which was their preferred spot.

But i bet it's the dogs that choose the spots, to best neutralize or hunt the prey inside, according to their instincts that could take into account the air currents and microclimate.

2:25

10:48 Kept straining my brain when upstairs they started a rehearsal (with base, amplifiers and drums) to remember things that impressed me regarding rose symbolism. So after about half hour i forgot everything and since i did not want to loose my time i went and started to fix kitchen's faucet, following the recently adopted principle: One thing a day, till the place will look clean again.

While working there, i kept dropping the parts i bought on Amazon on the ground, lost some, i realized my hands were not listening me like they weren't mine and after a while i realized i had a stroke i became really old i remembered the mole holes i saw earlier near the door and porch. So i went and plugged them and things got better.

It was part of the triple alchemic assault this weekend, starting with dust (not sure the exact source, could be either the recently renovated casino in Lincoln City or damaged balcony upstairs, dog poop with both diarrhea and pheromones and now mole gas. I was sitting there in the car in the lot at Lincoln city, too tired to go inside, i tried to sleep, they kept awakening me with car beeps and starts all around me, paralyzed by the smell of pheromones earlier at Road's End.

I am not sure what is my status now regarding those, got to go outside and look, there is nothing in my mind like the few ideas i had before the bass, so i did the only rational thing i could do and that was google. And i found like always new and surprising things i need to share with you all guys and girls.

But nothing regarding my lost ideas that i think were related to music.

August 2

1:30 AM Rozacrucianism. Să nu uităm nicicând emanația...

Inițial frunzele, mai apoi cei trei trandafiri ar putea să sugereze brațele unei cruci. 


1:45 Rose symbolism in Oregon

True will. Just do it. Willamina. Willamette. Hubbard.

2:00 Adidas logo, the Sciento chevron or should i call it tripundra?

2:35 Hubbard. Dianetics.

9:15 I filled with gas yesterday at Spirit Mountain on my way to Lincoln City. A guy looking like him came out the convenience store and walked towards the RV parking area, carefully synchronizing with me who was driving towards that area and back on the road.

At the first corner there was a crosswalk with fading markings which existence i ignored since i never seen in ten years someone crossing there. Though he was walking parallel with the street, he suddenly turned and made a step towards the crosswalk, without looking.

Would have made an emergency stop, violent, but in time, but he did not proceed when he looked and realized i saw him, claiming surprise and then looking at me with much disgust.

Half of the people going to Spirit Mountain are Latinos working in surrounding area.

In Scientology everybody has the potential to be a god. No gods at all is atheism, no need for protecting bills, but since when should we expect consistency from Scientology?

Reliogious freedom was recognized as a core human right long time before bill 52/2025 (obviously dedicated to Scientology, see the reaction in  Freedom magazine above), but the rest of it is interesting, as opening the way to Scientology penetrating in other sides of the world with the help and under protection of State Department.

11:22 Balzi Rossi, Rosgvarda.

11:24 Fading like a rose. This song was playing in my mind all evening. Finally i searched for Rozette on my jukebox (on wheels) and played their greatest hits however was still on in my mind when i got back home. I think my subconscious was trying to tell me something.

11:44 I listened to this song a couple of days ago, saw the video, posted it and did  not realize. A great hit of the year 82 by a French-Arab guy with thin voice, saying mainly his verses are simple and have no hidden meanings (probably because English was not his strength). But there's a catch. They made a video using the theme of the song to emphasize... the power of allegories.

Bee Gees begged to differ some years before. However. Who wants her heart taken away?

Why most pop bands have most of the times 4 members.

La mom Piaf...

Pink, the willing perfectionist victim...

Choosing my Confession

Tom Cruise said he got healed of dyslexia (though it can be just a trick to cover his accent). Others say other things. I believe some of the claims are true, especially those related to substance abuse. Otherwise they wouldn't keep getting new members. Scientology auditing is comparable to a a psychoanalysis session (questions and answers vs free association) though it does not require a licensed psychiatrist and the patient (called preclear or PC in Scientology) holds two metal cylinders in his hands that are hooked to an ohmmeter, that basically shows how tight they hold them.

Of course when the questions trigger traumatic memories, the preclear unconsciously clinches his hands against those and the resistance read by the ohmmeter decreases so the auditor has a direct measure of the level of stress triggered by certain memories.

Both are very expensive and to Scientologists is a mandatory religious duty that needs to be done on permanent basis so a sizeable part of their income goes there..

And i got where i wanted to. Periodically confessing means you will sooner or later give away things related to your profession or finances or other personal things which may include confessing crimes that may be used one day against you. There are high profile Scientologists that quit and said that.

But these are all things known (at least to some) for a long time. What i am trying to bring to attention here, though is still a speculation, is really scary.

First, they must have not stopped with the e-meter, that was invented more than 75 years ago and if they keep up with technology, including real time face analysis they could have gotten very far.

I also have reasons to believe they are involved with partial or total ownership of the so called tribal casinos which are on reservations and also need not comply with state and federal laws.

Some of them have over one thousand cameras installed on ceilings or about one camera per one or two slot machines and i think ten percent of those cameras would have been enough for security purposes.

In about 10 years since i go to those i have not witnessed one single security incident Also could not possible have enough people to watch all the feed, and i thought artificial intelligence may be involved if only for security.

Basically they have everybody's face at any time on at least one camera.

From now on we can only imagine. What if. What if they can actually trace what's in people's mind according to their facial expressions, using the slot machine for calibration purposes (knowing if they loose or win, serving wining or loosing hands, in a certain sequence to calibrate the reaction) and then extend the reading.

Everybody playing at those slots at certain times start thinking of their own problems before and after going in there.

So yes, i am afraid they are actually do the psychological evaluation of everybody who goes in there. As for ID, in the state of Washington you are IDd whey you enter one of those but they could use databases like that of DMV acquired with the help of one of their Church members.

So yes, we heard of many conspiracy theories about mind reading and stuff, and yet people go in there willingly to have their evaluation done and who knows, maybe interventions like during and auditing session, with rewards and punishments (winning or loosing hands).

I also wanted to write about the Snow White incident. I started to believe it was a deliberate act of reverse psychology, "they got caught, punished so people can forget about any future possible infiltration". They are probably everywhere by know. Or an entity one layer above them. What's up with his accent, he is not dyslexic is him?

Building of Parque Las Casitas

Here are some of the pictures from my camera's card i took last year during the building of the park Las Casitas, formerly Stoneridge.

It has never been a purpose to build a timeline. I just took pictures in days when i was annoyed by noise, dust, etc.. I have no words to describe how inconvenience this whole think has been to me. Many hours a day, many days with noises over 60 dB outside and that was for a year. And when the main construction phase with noises ended or after pouring the concrete, they started the alley on the other side of the building, with an excavator excavating for more than 4 months.

At some moment in time they were three projects going simultaneously, uphill (pictures below), downhill and sewer. They were many times when i simply had to leave the apartment because of noise and dust (i believe the legal term is called loss of use).

Some of the following pictures have already been published in different blog posts of mine.

Last one is on July 1, i think i have some more after but there are irrelevant for the purpose right now, and that is trying to prove there was room for something underneath, construction lasted i think till December.

First, the notice. (Be aware, the logo of the City of Tualatin may contain sexual symbolism).


March 14 2025

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March 28

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June 26

I believe the space underneath that zig-zagging walking path is empty. But i think there is a way to verify. I could stick a camera through that hole. Looking like the Great Wall of China. 

I measured the width of this ramp, at this point is 5'8 at base level (not including the curbs).

There is also concrete poured on several areas of the park itself including the half court. And yes, i don't see many people there.

Also i believe that if they dug a little and lowered that ramp in the ground here, extend the rails for safety of the players, they could had cut the cost and construction time by 1/3 or even 1/2, shortening the ramp, maybe not needing the zig-zag, an L shaped would had been enough. Thinking of the many tons of concrete they put there.

I always believed there is aesthetics in efficiency. The way it is right now it looks nice on the upper side but ugly when seen from inside the complex.

And hey! It's tax money.
The water fountain and the 5x5 square metal lid next to it (left in the picture).
I also believe there could be one guy in the whole complex who would climb there in a (electric) wheel chair to play basketball (yes all the Mexicans kids in the neighborhood forgot about soccer and now play basketball) and that could have been me if i had my leg amputated.

However, the name Tualatin does not come from Latino. It's just a coincidence and it also may be a recent fake.

So the name of Martinazzi street, where  the City Hall is located does not come from nazi, though the founder of the city is of German descent. He first claimed 320 acres of free land (taken from Tualatin Indians) and then sold or donated part of it to found the city.

However the last version of the young and energetic couple upstairs whose job is to perpetually drive us out of here or insane have Native American appearance. But so did the previous occupant, who had KKK signs at the door. And the previous ones and  the previous ones etc. all the way to Fifor and Pacepa în 2015. 

I believe their real purpose, like of the previous occupants is to keep us in a state of stupor, with few hours of sleep, wanting to leave in the weekend, etc..

But even that might not be real, cause they probably just climb upstairs and leave through the attic and robots take their job because nobody can really leave here because of overwhelming smell of dog poop and other garbage. It's all a show with actors and extras as it is this whole city and probably state etc..

3:05 PM I went and measured the ramp from the pictures in my post. Children were present in the park, but i never got close. However one of the maintenance guys came flying in a cart while i was leaving anyways.

They do this all the time, here, in stores, in casinos, everywhere i go. If i get close to someone, someone else comes and cuts my way. Even in the parking lot, if i walk past someone, a car comes always in between.

If i get at the trunk at the car to pick a thing, a car passes by, etc., but especially when i come home with groceries. In the past, kids would come and stare at me unloading those, until i complained here.

To me all these, the way the guys upstairs walk show a high level of coordination, only possible through AI.

Up until a few years ago kids would come to play for hours in the "back yard" while i was high on some smoke coming from the mole holes. As soon as Angela would fall asleep in the afternoon, they would come yelling and then Angela would open the bedroom window and yell at them too and at times they were leaving.

As i aggressively pursued the closing of the holes with concrete, complaining, they stopped, however i believe they built for me the image of a predatory pedofile, among the Latino undocumented population here.

As for my wound, it was all scheduled. On December 23 i went to dr. Bedolla's office (Legacy Bridgeport, yes, the heart of Tualatin). A masked Asian assistant came and said she would do a foot exam and asked me to close my eyes. I believe he used a concealed dental laser to open a blister i did not know i had on my heel (previously had several others) on my left foot.

3:40 I once found a Japanese actor who resembled perfectly dr. Bedolla but i am too tired right now to search for him again. But when i googled the name today i got an European face forgotten in Google cache and when i click on that face i get the Asian face again. Not the first this has happened. I once went to see a dr.Bertani (urgent care, no appointment)  name and was seen instead by Lady Gaga.

3:46 PM Upstairs he was briefly gone, did not realize and someone else, heavier came instead.