April 7

8:17 Diplomatul Belicos

8:38 This is a first. Got a back pain so severe i just can't sit so i write while laying in bed on a side. It's about officer Sparkle from Lake Oswego. One day i could not stand the smoke no more and called the Police. It was then where i met him. While waiting for him i popped the hood of the truck ad dropped the keys in a hard to reach place. When he came he just reached and grabbed them for me. In that moment the dog of my next door neighbor (Apt.9) came and he got nervous and asked me if it was mg dog. Anyways, he left and he said the smoke was from leaves.

In a different day again i was working on the truck and got so much of the smoke and irritating dust i just left and drove around like crazy on Boones Ferry. But he was not ready that day. The day after, again i went to get gas from Chevron at Boones Ferry and I5, i was driving normally that day, but when the attendant was supposed to give me the receipt officer Sparkle gave it to me instead. Then he pulled me out of the truck, gave me a sobriety test and a frisk when another cop came, a woman, and he finally left me alone.

I wrote this because yesterday i discovered another possible etymology for Lake Oswego. Widow is a major theme in Freemasonry.

8:54 Carmen Bejan?

11:32 Had a pair of jeans that i used for at least a week before i finally threw them in the washer and put some water on top because they were stinking. Today i wanted to wash them, put more stuff in the washer to make a load, but when i tried, nothing. The washer wouldn't start. Then i remember the whole process i went through a couple of times since i moved already. Shall i call them? It would probably take at least one day. I would probably have to remove the water and the laundry to let them fix it or replace it. So i just went and looked at the lid switch which was broken and temporarily fixed by me about 5 years ago. The spring in there jumped or something broke (a piece of plastic came out). I shorted the switch and started the load, however, have to fix them better. Or call them.

Also last time when i fixed the water heater (after inspection, the distribution box was full of water) i set the thermostat to 125 degrees and today i saw the water is a bit too hot from what i was used to but when i went to adjust it i saw it was already down like 10 degrees from my last set, so i wasn't sure what to do, i moved it a little lower anyways.

Both water heater and washer/dryer are 20+ years old but since i messed with them i'm afraid to call them to have them replaced. Water heater had some sort of mud under, i lifted it and partially cleaned it in the first year or so, but that was after i replaced the thermostat and was again afraid to call them.

All these might have something to do with the fact that last night i forgot the door completely open? I mean, it was closed but not all the way, unlocked and without the block (i use a piece of wood) but if somebody would have pushed it with a finger... Also yesterday when i left for the walk i forgot to take the picture of the two rotating bottles at the door. Those bottles rotate when i open the door and set in a different position every time and if i take a picture when i leave i know if somebody's been here when i come back and take another picture which i do every time except when i forget.

8:28 I'm kinda late with this post. Figured it too late. The reason for the construction site was the public toilet. It started a few months ago, not sure, maybe last year.  A point on my 3 miles loop. A big mystery to me. What were they trying to build? There was even a small excavator on the side of the road, for the same amount of time. Then about two weeks ago i became intrigued and took a picture of the site. The next day teams were working. First they cut the asphalt. Then they poured asphalt. What they did was a couple of gigantic speed bumps, maybe 30 ft long each. Both on the right side of the road as leaving the residential area. Then i realized. Every time i passed that public toilet there was a man walking towards it (and then passing of course). Today instead they made me rendez-vous with that plane.

8:45 This "fitness trainer from Ukraine" landed in Romania a few days ago and became an instant star after an older man who realized who she was gave her a small amount of money for her to fill her car with gas.

9:31 No there was not that sort of damage at the car, only optical illusions created by the puddle of water created by a clogged sewer the car's been sitting on for weeks before they started to work on it (until i got the parts i ordered myself). I washed upholstery, vacuumed the dog food from heater core but the AC got contaminated with mold and/or bacteria. I accidentally releases some Freon when i refilled it and it was smelling like mold big time. Ever since i've become sicker and sicker especially after walks upstairs. In the morning solid tiny pieces like sand come from my eyes. This morning my tonsils were so big i started to have breathing problems. Keeping Augmentin in my mouth ever since and i got even better than before in half day. But when i tried to stop, after a walk upstairs, my eyes, throat, ears and everything started to hurt again.

Buddha's (Super) Bowl

So i was right. I mean, it was brewing in my mind for a long time. Besides Judaism being monotheistic (with lots of heroes though) and Hinduism being polytheistic but with one supreme God, like Freemasons would require, in fact, Abraham do sound a bit like Brahma, but that is a different story for another day.

I was thinking more of Buddha. And the uniqueness of points of view which makes us all different and sometimes hard to understand each other. I was thinking the other day how different my life is from a normal person's and then Buddha example came to mind.

He was a rich prince who never knew the worries of life until that day when drawn by curiosity and disobedience he ventured outside the palace to view the world. It is known that Indian (Nepalese, whatever) princes were kept apart from the world so they would not know what suffering is because then they would not be capable of ruling. As predicted, he then became so disgusted with the rich life, he just left the palace, wife and everything to "search enlightenment". However, wherever he went, his previous life and most likely fame and education would give him a preferential treatment. Even when he was begging for his bowl of food on the side of the road. He confounded this karmic advantage with his own mindset which was also different from of most people. He thought people simply don't know how to live (how to keep away from suffering) because of ignorance and then he started his famous teachings which might all be a bit not for the ordinary people. In fact, no educated people thus nobody can understand the ordinary people which in turn never know how to express themselves, like Madonna says. They instead label them stupid, emotionally driven, manipulate those emotions and make (sometimes existential) decisions for them. Could this explain the existence to this day of secret societies notably Freemasons who work secretly for the good of the mankind? Though the idea of Freemasonry is much older, it is said that after the flood sibling Fuxi and Nuwa (Noa) rebuilt the world with a square and a compass and also square and compass are similar to two different types of boomerangs.

There is a small minority in Romania called Szeklers (Secui, Romanian) who have a flag very similar to that of Nepal where to this day there is the Sakia (in Sanskrit) population, the clan in which Buddha was born. Living close to the larger Hungarian minority which nowadays claim the name Magyar, which could also come from the larger Magar Population in Nepal of which Hungary capital was called until a hundred fifty years ago simply Buda.

It is said that masons comunicate with the rest of us who they call prophans in a variety of means, one of them simple gestures as (unnatural) steps, that may be inspired of those of pinguins or moles but can certainly induce certain psycophisiolgical responses.

April 6

5:15 I tried today to go outside to do stuff on the car (first i want to check if there's not another mouse in the radiator, then finish the mods at the battery). However children were present next to car, waiting (for what?).

10:09 Foxes are red.

April 5

Până și pe vremea lui Ceaușescu primul ministru era diferit de președintele partidului. A ajuns un înotător cu paralizie cerebrală din Ungaria să conducă și guvernul și PNL. Da bine știu nu conduce el nimic el numai dă din buze cu ce îi șoptește Iohannis, scriitorul. Bineînțeles după ce i-au făcut loc Orban și Cîțu. Spre ce victorii mărețe ne va conduce conducătorul unic? Asta e și nu e din vina mea că s-a întâmplat așa.

Atrocitatea comisă asupra lui Horia și Cloșca în 1784 a avut un efect profund asupra conștientului și subconștientului românilor de atunci înainte. După ce au adus câte 3 tineri și 3 bătrâni din 400 de sate ca să vadă execuția și să spună acasă, nu am mai fost probleme majore pentru stăpânire, până în zilele noastre.

Nu știu ce e mai rău. Să fii zdrobit cu o roată, versiunea de jos în sus, adică de la picioare, poate sub anestezie cu opiu, (ca să rămână conștienți spre groaza audienței), să agonizezi ore în șir cu picioarele zdrobite de vreun obuz pe câmpul de luptă (o imagine de război) sau să mori după ore de resuscitări urmate de stopuri cardiace succesive în urma unui atac de inimă masiv cum am văzut odată așteptând la urgențe să fiu internat o noapte întreagă sau prins în fiarele unei mașini cum era să mi se întâmple de atâtea ori.

Budismul se declară o religie compasională. Poate li s-a făcut un bine românilor, care după, "s-au dat la roată". Dacă a mai rămas ceva din mândria, personalitatea poporului care se aduna să asculte povești în jurul lui Cloșca, sau să danseze o horă după fluierul lui Horea? Să fie asta cauza pentru care până în ziua de azi, "mămăliga nu explodează", iar "românul pune botul la orice"? Oare nu era sepukku la samurai (care aducea iertarea rudelor apropiate) menit să bage groaza în alți amatori de trădare?

În orice caz, un lucru e sigur. Schimbarea scenariului angrosiștilor de știri spre "crime de război în Ucraina" este un răspuns acoperitor la ce am scris despre torturarea inimaginabilă în public a celor doi, care nu a fost urmată niciodată de scuze.

1:32 Nu știu dacă cineva mai are clar în minte momentele tulburi ale împărțiri în două a politicii românești.

Adică time-share guvernarea PNL-PSD. Încă de pe atunci cu izul suspect al unei dictaturi în schimburi cu neamestecul fiecăruia în treburile celuilalt. Adică ok ne lăsați să guvernăm nu știu, un an doi, după care vă lăsăm pe voi.

Însă situația de atunci s-a clarificat mult. Din PNL au plecat cei mai mari purtători de imagine și acum generalul Ciucă roșu galben albastru se ițește practic ca un adevărat dictator, preluând președenția partidului (cu derogare de handicap) în timp ce e prim ministru. Te-ai fi așteptat de la PSD dar ei acum nu par a avea oameni de imagine mai acătării în timp ce Colacu nu a făcut altceva decât promisiuni sociale.

Unul din avantaje este că ei au de scris, gândit, armonizat și eliminat contradicții evidente mai puțin pe scena aceasta din cauză că nu se mai face opoziție, deci politică prea multă (unde-i dictatură nu-i politică, nimic de spus/scris, nu-i așa). Pentru că politica cu strigături practicată până atunci avea prea multe neconcordanțe care erau greu de șlefuit și ușor de atacat de opoziția reală rezistență.

Went for the necessary walk. Outside, a constant, uniform, subtle, invisible haze that put me in a light trance. On the last legs here comes this guy that reminds me of the Japanese actor Watanabe wearing a large umbrella with red and white spikes pretty much like a dharma wheel or a version of the Japanese flag, a painting of Japanese main goddess Amaterasu or the rays on the head of Statue of Liberty.

2:16 Yesterday i tried to access an old online account for a credit card but don't have the phone or the computer i was acessing with anymore and could not get the code and did not have an option for an email. So i tried to speak on the phone as indicated and ended speaking with a person in India of whom i could not understand half of the words. But she could not help me either, i gave her both phone numbers and "they were not showing in her system" and she said in the end somebody will call me within 24 to 48 hours, not sure exactly. I knew it was going to be trouble attached to it and today i saw this Indian woman, rather short (could be again Japanese) jogging on the street next to me and then again in the wooded area next to river, giving me either scared or threatening glances.

2:28 Ce-i mai mândru pe la női...

3:20 Vestă antiglonț cu tot cu decolteu (se desprimăvărează pe frontul din Ucraina), regula treimii aplicată cu sfințenie în orice poză HD de război.

April 4

6:31/4:31. Iliberated again. Care e culmea conspirației? Să te conspiri singur (hush baby).

10:30 Are you ready for another one? I knew bacteria can live in the gas tank. But believe it or not, my car's having mold inside the AC pipes. Neither the refrigerant nor the oil is anti-fungal enough to prevent it and R134a refrigerant that my car uses is far less toxic to both humans and mold than previous types "that were harmful to the ozone". Though the system is pressurized, when enough leaks occur, there is an exchange of gases with exterior. That is for every 1 million molecules of refrigerant escaped, one molecule of water from ambient gets in. For that, it has by design a can hooked on refrigerant's circuit with desiccant material, like beads of silicon. The way silicon deals with humidity, is it absorbs it, being porous. However, the water stays in there.

The car has been sitting in a puddle of water for weeks, though AC was not completely depressurized, building karma before they started to work on it at the shop and it was then where it got contaminated.

When i refilled it i accidentally released in the air some refrigerant and felt it was smelling like mold, but i thought that is the "normal" smell of the used oil and refrigerant. Now that it has been refilled to specs has more pressure and tiny leaks like any AC (pressure on the low side is actually higher when the AC is off), (mostly from being dry after loosing most oil), every time i drive that car (and sleep in it like i did Saturday) my tonsils get bigger to the point now i almost can't talk. I think this happens on any AC system, on bigger or smaller scales and that is the reason many people get sick by those. I'm also exploring the possibility that the PAG oil i added as per manufacturer's recommendation may be a not anti-fungal but a nutrient for the mold.

12:12 It is not the first time i think when he squeaks upstairs he's synchronizing his brain waves with mine, something that can happen when people have sex. Anyways, i finished the posts for this morning, wanted to write about he being here for now three days in a row, go for a walk and he just left before me. So it can further create the appearance of living together.

Also a video was playing in a different tab, continuing with Robert Magyar. Now i understand that people in Romania did not recognize the Hungarian actors, writers and singers leading the Romanian high life because they were not known in Romania before that, but this in case of Hungarians seem inexcusable. Unless the're all in some sort of trance, like watching them from a baby's cradle.


12:28 Din în când în când tot ei, ne vin și ne dau drumul la presiune pasiune ca să nu se ridice prea mult.

12:32 He's back, was wearing a red and blue cap. Got back out the door and back in.

12:48 Now this is a bit too much for my intuition. A faster jet stream on top of the already faster than normal one that brought us the storm?

3:00 Is Zelensky growing a goatee as well as biceps?  These two pictures are taken a month apart. The only way he could do this is if going to gym (or digging trenches which is more likely).

4:41 Fast jet stream today. Close to max or 250 mph, average being 100.

4:32 Just went and plugged a few holes. Seems like there was a very... bad smell in here, not the usual, maybe cocaine.

5:38 There is cigarette smell coming from the apartment upstairs and there are mole holes in the ground at the apartment down stairs, both around the corner. I went again to plug the holes and now they brought in a scooter, right next to where the holes are. I remember i had a plywood box with two tires on the balcony, last spring when they gave me a notice to move them. As i did, i threw them away. One of them was unfixable, one was still good. If i had that tire when i got the flat in August, would have just replaced it at Les Schwab in the same day (new tires were ordered and came Saturday, after the accident). In that night i drove at Ilani with a spare (40 miles, crazy, i recon) and when i got back i was doing 60 in a 60 area, however he came and rammed me from behind, but i saw him approaching for several seconds, he couldn't say he didn't see me and then he got surrounded by the rest of the pack and left, without giving me a chance to see the LPN.

5:55 Another smart mole threw some of the pieces of onion out and there was this guy (again around the corner) who was coughing. So i went and took those and found two more holes again under their wall but much closer to our bedroom (on my side of the corner). It was those who filled the apartment. They have a few kids ready and send them either if i work in car or in other situation. Right now i had those 3 pieces of onion i buried around the corner in my hand when he passed. Onion, to stun them.

6:03 Kids running and yelling under our window as Angela is trying to fall asleep.