March 6

12:48 I think it's a subliminal semantic campain against Trump and Fox and everything but in the end it's against republicans. It's use of profoundly unfair media techniques that bypass normal perception of reality and that is the reason i made the effort. Also take a good look at all the guys and gals behind him in that courthouse and be afraid. It's all actors.

1:52 Din-escu

8:26 Low explosives like gunpowder need a shell to create pressure for explosion (deflagration). High explosives were burning occur at several times the speed of sound (detonation), like TNT, do not. I was wondering in a barely over critical device where critical density is achieved through implosion by conventional charges all around it, increasing the density (are solids compressible?), what speed of reaction will you have and will detonation occur or will you have a fizz (like a meltdown) or need a shell of a size according to the yield to allow more time for the reaction to occur.

Maybe Spruce Goose was not useless after all.

10:15 Inside the Sun hydrogen at a certain pressure due to mass (gravity) starts to spontaneously fuse into helium. There is no extra pressure caused by energy of fusion because pressure is maintained only by gravity. There is no chain reaction in fusion.

I'm wondering how they do it in 3 stage Tsar type devices. How they create such a pressure around the heavy water or liquid deuterium tank at the core, as the necessary pressure would be much higher than at the core of the Sun or like inside a supernova ... and needs to stay at that value long enough for all the material to explode. Nevermind, in their design the core is 3/4 open (no, the flimsy outer case does not count as a shell for conventional not even talking about the fission or fusion "stages").

Wouldn't the deuterium "core" blow before exploding when the conventional shape charges around the fission stage core explode? In a supernova the pressure is created by inertia of the enormous mass (10 times the mass of the sun) of the material of the outer shell when the core collapses or explodes in a fusion reaction) and gravity. That happens only in the lower areas of the outer core, near the inner core. Not all hydrogen turns into helium, only about 25% near the inner core. Rest is blown away.

I apologize for editing live this entry for so many times but as i was searching i kept discovering new amazing things as my head was filled with BS (both from college and media). Much of it is a surprise to me though i had my doubts it's all fake, because i already saw how they fake everything.

10:47 After the smoke at the casino Saturday night, i found a bunch of cigarette filters at the door, so it smells like cigarette smoke inside, wondering what type of coincidence is that. Picked those, went for a walk, perceived smoke index in park was 70 so i turned around. Smoke index at the nearest station is 0 right now. In the parking lot there was a single car, a Subaru, next to the place i usually park. Neighborhood is full of banners that are a smaller version of this.

4:10 After i wrote the above i fell asleep and slept 4 more hours, mainly due to presence of open mole holes in the yard that made me lethargic. It smells like smoke but not the one coming from the ground. It's cigarette filters. There is a team of yelling kids outside and they are yelling so i can't concentrate while i'm still editing the above.

March 5

2:30 For a long time i kept telling Angela i wanted to go back to Lucky Eagle Casino, some 88+ miles north of Portland. Greatest disappointment tonight, never seen maya in action so strongly. One scene wasn't ending yet and another one was starting right from it. I figured all actors and extras are promised Nirvana if they participate cause no one in the world would do what they do for other reason. However they don't know there are many definitions of nirvana, from extinguishment (the original sanskrit meaning) to enlightenment and unification with god or godhood.

I am wondering how they do it, i think they rent the whole casino for the night.

I will never go there again. I can get the same treatment much closer here in Oregon.

The gas level was very low for the miles. At one moment i went to buy some brandy from IGA 5 miles away, the brandy at the bar is about 5-10 times more expensive and bartenders also can make all kinda jokes. When i got in the car i saw the gas gauge was where it should have been for the miles or 3 gallons up then when i got there. Did anybody stole gas from the car and they added back up there? The point?

At Chevron station at Ilani they got at least one pump that says it has alcohol free gas. The blue lines. Looking very similar with the pumps with an extra diesel line (green and nozzle is bigger, won't fit in gas cars). I tried last night, selected the category but it didn't work. No error message no nothing. It could be that state forces the retailers to give a choice. I guess they were out of it.

At IGA i didn't know where the brandy was and asked a red headed woman at Deli department and she told me she can't sell me liquor because she's 16. She didn't need to, the brandy was on a shelf in the store, all i asked her was to let me know where it was. Taylor Swift is an ice skater (swift) in Hungary and in reality she is 33 years old. And let me tell you a secret. That is not music what she's doing with all the gear and Watson and stuff, that is just a cat meowing trying desperately to get attention.

I spent some time in the smoking area. Put all my clothes in a garbage sack, will wash them tomorrow. My hair smells like smoke so bad, it still stinks after i took a shower and washed it twice with shampoo, don't know if i can sleep because of the smell. Probably the reason i like to go in there, i'm missing it already. Not exactly cigarette smoke.

10:38 Is this for real? 20000 a ticket or is just my perception of reality? Metlife, why not TryMeth?

How many times the guy upstairs interrupted me while doing last two matches? About 100 times. This is his job, the reason why he's here always.

11:13 So they pulled the regular driver off. Too many coincidences. I start to believe more and more that nobody was on that train, the event was designed to cover something else much more important.

5:33 It started a couple of hours ago. There has never been so much smoke in here period.

6:31 I think he was the guy who dropped a casino card right in front of me. For those who don't know let me tell you what you can do with it. You accumulate points. For every dollar you cycle through the machine, and some have high returns, bigger than 90%, like poker (if you make no mistakes) so you cycle 1 dollar about 7 to 10 times before you actually lose it, you get a point. If you are lucky you can get between 50 and 100 points at a machine loosing between 7 and 14 dollars maybe. In other words you get back on the card about 1% of the real money you play.

It's not much but if you play with the card you can get all kinda perks. Free play on the card. Some casinos go as far as giving you 50 dollars or more per night, but usually is 10 to 20 per week. Free lodging (sometimes). Free meals (sometimes). Object prizes you won't need, up to 20 dollars twice a year. Free entry in drawings i don't believe in, etc.. You can't transfer money on a card and especially can't cash money from a card, you have to play it. I can recover 90% or more (depending on luck) from a card by playing poker. 

However can't cash winnings of more than @1200 dollars, which happens usually when you hit a jackpot. If you win more the guys will come to pay you and they will also retain the taxes and your name of course.

In other words, can't use one of those or a cash ticket the machine gives you when you stop playing to transfer serious money to another person period.

March 4

12:00 Greierușa

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11:20 Ate, grabbed myself togther and went for a walk. Didn't go very far. At the end of the building, many pieces of garbage in the grass. Thinking of the smell of mold and shortness of breath in the last few days. Threw those in the garbage but next to the garages there were these piles of needles from the trees that first fell on the garages, then about two weeks ago or more one day the handywoman came and pulled them on the ground (and left them there).

Piles and piles, i counted maybe ten laundry baskets. I saw back then and thought i would end up throwing those but i said i should leave them for a week, maybe they will or maybe the Wednesday blowers. But they didn't than freezing and snow came and it was ok because they froze too but when they thawed and been rained upon they started to stink big time. Like in the case of leaves under the bushes that i picked in January, there was black mold at the bottom of those and wind was blowing from that direction, everything inside smelling like that kinda mold.

12:50 Food for weekend thought. Many think the religions are pretty much all the same. One god and many saints (or one god and many deities, in Hinduism, Buddhism), sins which usually mean breaking the rules of gods, repentance, life after etc..

Then let me show you the major differences between Christianity and Buddhism by example. First. View of world and relativity of truth.

In Christianity truth is one of the most important values. It comes from the ten Commandments of Old Testament, "Though should not bring false testimony", and New Testament, John 14:6. Truth is at the center of Western Philosophy and everyday thinking.

Buddhism teaches that we are not capable of distinguishing truth from illusion in the surrounding reality thus we can never operate in the space of logical truth. How they function though. Never questioned social hierarchy (employment in Japan is for life bye example).

But we for our own sake we have to realize that after a couple of thousands of years of buddhism or even before that, and buddhism was a consequence, their brain is wired differently and there is no mutual understanding of the way of thinking.

March 3rd

8:55 There was a whole safari or petting zoo last night next to Roads End Park in Lincoln City.

A total of @10 deer, including those who crossed (very slowly) the street further away one minute after i took the picture. My tiny camera flash is very week and can't be used as sole source of light, just maybe like filling.

Too pissed off to enter the casino, i sat in the car, drinking. My microwave meter was discharged and in that area there is a lot of signal (over 10 mw/cm2) and got exposed and now i got pain in the sensitised areas (around where i used to keep the phone in pockets), ears etc.. Feel the pain right now. Finally did enter, played some pocker, too pissed and buzzed to recognize anybody and i don't care anyways.

5:38 A party with big base in the one level building.

7:35 It's been weeks since Russia is threatening every day in new ways The Republic of Moldova, of which the majority of population is Romanian, used to be part of Moldavia, a founding state of today's Romania, in 1812 became part of Russia, back to Romania after WWI, Soviet Union after WWII and independent after 89 with the easternmost region, Transnistria being pro-Russian (a situation very similar to Ukraine before war with only difference Transnistria has no border with Russia).

These threats are making everybody nervous in Romania. It is true that media and politicians in both countries (Romania and Moldavia) are also pouring gasoline over the fire so to speak.

Was wondering what kinda responses NATO has when one of the allies is falling in a situation like this.

March 2nd

E mișto și ieftin să poți să faci mâncare în cuptor dar sunt unele dezavantaje în spațiul ăsta îngust. Ieri s-a ars grăsime pe folia de aluminiu și au căzut câteva picături jos în cuptor și au făcut un miros iute care mi-a creat greutate în respirație (shortness of breath), sever. Bine am respirat eu pe gură o oră și mi-am pus decongestant după care am spălat cuptorul și am aruncat folia, dar mirosul încă persista când m-am trezit dimineața și am făcut iar shortness of breath și mi-am pus iar decongestant, cam la 12 ore.

Chestiile astea însă mi-au apărut după Electronic Specialty. Țin minte că în Vancouver în ianuarie 1996 am făcut odată friptură de porc (cu carne cumpărată de la Sheridan). După Electronic Specialty nu am putut dormi timp de o săptămână, cred și din cauza mirosului care mai ales dacă nu cureți cuptorul persistă timp de săptămâni, Angela fuma parcă pe atunci și nu a fost afectată, și eu neștiind ce se întâmplă am ajuns până la urmă la spital unde m-au băgat la COVID (1996) nebuni.

Chestia este mult agravată de mersul pe tavan ce provoacă praf să cadă din vopsea. Și acolo am avut niște vecini deasupra ce păreau să mă urmărească cu scârțâiala oriunde mergeam în apartament.

Am scris astea într-un email, dar când m-am gândit să le scriu pe blog, tipul de deasupra, care de azi stă acasă a început să scârțâie ca un nebun.

10:00 Ok a plecat, cred că după tot ce am scris. Oops. Azi e joi, Thurdsay, de la Thor, zeul tunetului în mitologia nordică. Au venit ăștia cu camionul lor de 20 tone să ia gunoiul. Ambalează motorul de 500 CP și cu niște furci uriașe, ridică tomberonul deasupra, îl scutură înăuntru și îl pun trântesc înapoi jos, ceea ce crează un minut două de zgomote ca de tunet cu scuturături. 4 tomberoane în jurul clădirii, totul durează mai mult de jumătate de oră. Deși săptămâna asta au mai fost marți tomberoanele sunt aproape goale fiindcă joia trecută a nins și tot orașul a fost blocat.

3:52 Ok i think i slept 3-4 more hours, until 2. Wanted to go for a walk but i was not ready until 3. First think when i got outside i noticed the smell of smoke, similar to the one inside. I thought maybe the smoke got into the (empty) walls, but when i got back there was none (outside). Which means some other smoke must have come in today from outside. I can confirm, like always when i leave for walks, i was dizzy, sleepy and careless.

Some guys were maneuvering with cars on the upper alley. One guy with a black car was moving back and forth on the left side where i was going, pretending trying to align his car while parking rear first. However after i passed him he made a sharp left, ft away from me. But when i looked he started to pretend he was moving for the next spot. Then why was he trying to align with the first spot was into if it was the wrong one?

Right after the bin there was hidden this black SUV. After i passed the bin a white girl popped in front of me, smiling. (It was hailing, i was wearing an umbrella and she was).