November 6th

7:00 But maybe it was only me who i was surrounded by a bunch of people that had "missions" in screwing me up. Influencing, mostly making me saying things, making a fool out of me as i grew up in a bubble created by those.

That's why i'm saying, maybe my life was completely different then otters'.

I wanted to say a few words about how my previous life was. The one before "del mezzo di camin" when i crossed the ocean.

Everything was calm and predictable. For decades all people had jobs and a cheap quality place to live in. However in the end, sadly, nothing much to do.

The industrialization that took place after WWII was reaching the end of its life cycle in the bubble created by the iron curtain. Everything in the world has evolved but we were stagnating. Many of the numerous production factories were creating gigantic backlogs of stocked products.

Everything was dictated by the party but the party and the party members were just a bunch of ambitious idiots and their only care was to get dwellings, food and everything better than others. They had no knowledge on how the world has evolved and didn't need or wanted to know. They thought everything would stay the same forever.

Nowhere to sell our outdated products and nobody from the outside world didn't want to buy nothing from us except for food. So we went in a food crisis.

Most of us has beaten that by getting food from their relatives left in villages. They didn't have much land, which was all caught in the cooperatives and state farms that were selling for very cheap prices, and it was all going to export to make currency to pay the debt created by the last wave of imports of machinery in the 70s. Just a little around the houses that they couldn't take away. With that they were able to raise a few animals.

But above all there was the boredom. Nothing was on TV except old movies and HIM, a couple of hours a day. They stopped bringing in new movies after Star Wars. The domestic movies where plainly stupid. And then the video players started to be smuggled in but the smugglers were bringing only the stupid stuff like sex comedies.

So we the men of communist Romania were spending lots of times in bars and restaurants. Restaurants didn't have any food but beer and liquor. But me again i had a special entourage.

They were so many engineers at the production factories that they didn't have anything to do. Me out of curiosity have managed to bring in from Bucharest some computers that weren't far from the ones in the west. However nobody knew what to do with them and how to use them. So i voluntarily out of curiosity and boredom dived for 8 hours a day into the universe of computer languages and operating systems and stuff and i even succeeded in making some useful programs (apps).

By doing so i managed to scare a lot of people who were thinking they will lose their privileges of abusing their position of getting more money to the workers by falsifying documents and getting bribes for it and to me that was kinda fun LOL.

As i said we (me) was spending most afternoons and evenings in the so called restaurants, drinking barrels of beer and talking non sense. Not knowing what the world has become, or what we have become we were imagining things and talking hypothetically, mixing casual with important and facts with fiction.

But it seems the world i came in is not much better. There is freedom and access to knowledge but most people don't really know what to do with it and there is no time for it and they are living with the constant fear of losing jobs and not having money for mortgages and cars. Most of them that is. And the housing is terrible.

So this is who i am. When talking with me you will never know when i speak hypothetically and when i can really grasp some of the surrounding reality or just guessing but i became good at it because that is all i've done all my life. I am a broken person coming from a broken world surrounded again by people with missions trying to make a fool out of me. Everything i put here are just reactions to it and first hand "insider" testimonies. The obvious contradictions and things did not match my dreams.

8:02 Reply to @. Not everything in this world is related to (sex and) money. For that i was waiting for 12 hours? Is she part of the same making fool entourage?

BTW i used again some of the decongestant i bought at WinCo but they beat that by pumping in here cigarette smoke. Though i miraculously slept 6  hours, waking with no palpitations, they managed to create some right now after i watched a video and cigarette smoke was pumped in here with vibrations from an exhaust.

BTW i was thinking these days. The Pacepa myth. Theoretically "Pacepa" "defected" in the 70s coming here with all the big secrets of Soviet Union and communist block and wrote a book. But he is nowhere to be seen or heard. The second book was co-authored with a casino lawyer which made me believe he wrote the first one also.

Nobody in Romania (except for English teachers who were also outdated and teaching basics from a version of English from England (maybe) as we were only taught stupid outdated things in schools) was speaking English, especially the idiots from the party. How about writing. Impossible. You have to be immersed in a culture for a long time to be able to write like that.

The Soviet Union was not beaten by Pacepa. The Soviet Union was scheduled to be put down as non-functional. Probably as functional as North Korea. When you are looking at ridiculous images with minimalist command posts of Kim in the fields you should imagine all those big screens and rockets shown at parades are coming from a well established economy with a matching infrastructure.

Why they opened up China for world trade and millionaires party members? Because they didn't want it to have the fate of Soviet Union.

11:03

12:00 There's been what i thought cigarette smoke from upstairs in here all morning, however smoke slowed my reactions to almost none and i was eating my noodles soup in that moment and it still stinks in here and never finished cleaning the apartment. But definitely not 5'3" and not seen before as i thought. Black hair? Looks a bit like Ayesha which sends me back guessing.

3:20

6:52 Ok. Let's try this one more time.

10:50 Oana Lasconi este o față...

11:12 Another groundhog day has passed.'

11:22 Ok so the holes at the roots of the little trees next to the closest garages are actually rat burrows, not moles...? Never seen the first door open... Can't remember now... Smoke from number 4 and gas smell cover some other stuff, right?

1:00 Cu câteva minute înainte de a posta eu video-ul de mai sus. Oare de unde au știut? Homo sapiens de seară.