November 4th

12:00 Hostile. We just came home and i opened the sliding glass door to air cause there is a mixture of ozone and dog s...t smell in here. Or Dimethyl sulfide the same. Within seconds an exhaust started to purr, just to shake dust from walls and attic. Like they always do lately. I remember the Thule Roof Box on the truck that passed me on 125 when we left.

Basically all the people around, in the complex, on the roads are involved. But i won't try to remember and write down everything that happened on the road on my way to Spirit Mountain. We left early under Angela's protest cause at those hours the machines were very tight. Had some fish and chips and in there i have to mention a few people that were making noises to the point i almost chocked. A short episode of dysphagia though it's hard with freshly deep fried fish and chips. Then we spent all the money and left.

But about half hour before that. We went back to the old non smoking area (now the whole casino is non smoking) and tonight wildfire smoke entered the heating and cooling system and there was a live band made of three people on the podium there. A Black guy with some Asian was singing Green Green Grass of Home. At which point i "half sat on a chair" and fell together with the chair on the floor in slow motion.

I thought it was the same old reflex from practicing Judo falls learned from a book when i was a kid. I think i stopped at the throws when i fell from a tree and tried to do a fall and hit a rock with my left elbow and that got me into two surgeries, a screw attached and only 60% percent mobility left in that elbow which i believe was done in purpose by the surgeon so when i sit or even sometimes when i walk i keep my hand bent and sort of like in front of my pants if you know what i mean.

And yes we were practicing the falls (me and other kids and even a couple of mature people) in the grass on top of soft soil. Without much confidence because we didn't know if we got it right just by using that book. I remembered that right before i hit the floor however it came out more like an Aikido half roll, unextended right arm first. Something i learned subcontiously while watching a video? Nothing broken, despite my age and weight (over 200 lbs).

Within seconds an Asian guy with blue shirt came and aggressively offered to call medical help which i declined until i got so pissed i forgot to look closer at that chair.

I know those chairs well (i've been there for years, remember) and i sat on them in every imaginable way. A few minutes later i went to look but that particular chair was taken and no matter how much i tried with another similar one, i could not loose balance or "tip the center of gravity".

When about to leave, Angela stopped at the restroom next to smoker's room entrance and i was waiting and saw a group of about 1000 people passing on that hall coming from the hotel towards the casino. Of which some of them i saw earlier inside the playing area.

Somehow Angela got outside and didn't see her and we met there. But then when i tried to leave, the warning sign for the lights came back on (it was on this morning when Angela went to work, then off when she came back and when i drive in there), so she bought a bulb from NAPA on her way home.

When we left the casino i was feeling "stoned" and i remember i felt earlier vaping smell in the main non smoking area and i wonder if that smoke present inside was not mixed with something.

So tried to replace the bulb it in the parking lot (and security came promptly offering a jump start) but when i tried to pull the old bulb from the connector, the light came on (yes it was on).

Trying to drive back home. Had trouble seeing the lane marks under the rain, both of us. Even on newly paved areas. In the two intersections in McMinville near the hospital he lights are always red though there is no traffic in the crossing direction. Trying to get used of the car's new way of shifting after i added 200 ml fluid in the transmission (after let all the surplus flow out last summer).

Getting better while closer but in Tualatin there is an area on Tualatin Sherwood near downtown where there are no lane lines or reflecting pads or nothing) and now i'm almost cleared of whatever i drank (soda from the soda machines) and breathed (wildfire smoke mixed with something). Nothing hurts in the orthopedics line. Congested nose like most of the times, trying to breath on mouth.

1:24 I know what happened. It was not the chair, it was the floor. When i sit on a chair in the casino many times the chair moves under me on the soft floor when people pass buy. Must have been an irregularity or weakening of the floor. But given the synchronization with what the band was playing, i don't believe it was random.

First or second row of machines on the left after passing the new women's restroom after coming from main entrance.

I remember minutes earlier i sat at a machine, got up and did not set the chair back in position (because of being tired, high and a bit confused). They were two attendants that ran at the chair and put it right, again within seconds.

2:00 I was sipping some tea (after i ate) and a door got slammed in the distance and i chocked... on tea, and now can't stop coughing.

It's 1:25 AM and the robot upstairs is squeaking in the rhythm of my thoughts when i curse the Jeeps in my mind.