December 11

4:22 Ok and now the good stuff. A while ago when was writing about the possibility of reversing entropy inside heat pumps i ran into something. The polarity of water molecules. Water molecules are asymmetrical, with three lobes. A bigger one, for the oxygen and two bumps for hydrogen close to each other looking pretty much like the head of Mickey Mouse. Because of that it is said the water molecule has a polarity.

And because of that a water molecule may act as an electric dipole.

About those, i'm a bit confused. It is not clear to me if  the electric field(s) of a dipole is open or closed. Or better said, fields are... what? I believe the correct term would be... satisfied. Positive and negative ends of a dipole satisfy each other, cause an electric field can never be closed, right?

A dipole field lines also bear a striking resemblance to those of a magnetic one, right?

Ok i will not say anything more until i sleep over this.

BTW, you know what i'm trying to find? If the tiny electric dipoles within materials orient themselves just a tiny bit with other dipoles from other materials? Still don't realize what i'm getting at? (Being satisfied, they won't interact with nearby electric fields).

So maybe gravity is not a fundamental force after all but just and attraction between a sum of distant orienting dipoles. Probably the reason they can't "unify it" with the 4 others which after all may not exist except for what we call electric.

11:13 Nevermind, i never got a chance to really start thinking today. I think they got some device that detects when my brain heats up or has electric activity or something. Thee was a continuous roar and rumble and squeak all day. Had no place to hide. And it's all done because of vanity or loyalty towards their religions and that is really really hard to beat.

They may even be thinking they interrupt the "sinners brainwaves" when they detect some and interrupting those is like doing me a favor. It is so hard to separate influences, cause they can cause the opposite effect at the wrong time (like trying to separate the two poles of the magnetic field). Some would say they are trying to help me and give me clues to take the credit in the end so they can continue their influence that BTW lasted long enough for everybody while doing the exact opposite.

Some of them will stand to the end cause they really don't know anything and don't think for themselves.

But the noongars know. So they are manipulating the Dominicani of Philippines into doing this.

11:54 It's getting more quiet upstairs but still the unexplained, occasional squeak when my brain activity spikes. Is that a crime, stopping one's brain activity with otherwise "acceptable in an apartment" levels of noise, except for synchronicity?

No, molecules inside solids do not stay put as one many think. Temperature of those prove it. Temperature is a measure of movement of molecules. Molecules of solids do vibrate as much as of liquids and can spin a little.

They do not  have to spin much to create gravity.

Just a little out of normal (or random) orientation for each (just like in case of fluids) would combine to form a significant result. They won' get parallel with the attracted object.

Gravity is a weak force, unmeasurable between small everyday objects. It is the enormous mass of Earth that makes objects be attracted (fall into it).

At very low temperatures. Near zero absolute they should stop moving altogether but that does not mean they do not have the same freedom to move (and orient as dipoles in an electric field) because they are held in place by the same electrical forces, that is by sharing electrons.

12:12 One of the effects of  the above considerations explaining gravity as sum of electric attraction of polar molecules would be gravity shielding, a subject of much discussion and controversies. Large celestial bodies would shield some of the electric fields of the dipoles on the other side from the direction of another celestial body and anomalies should occur.

Sun is a very large celestial body and Mercury would be most affected. How about satellites or probes next to big planets like Jupiter. 

But we may also have to re-thing the mass of all planets in our solar system as it may not be accurate as measured by their orbits.

Anyways there is little doubt that polar molecules orientation in all materials has to account for something.

And we might need to change our opinion on how materials electrify. It could be again an orientation of the dipoles at the surface.

There is no notable effect on weak electric fields on gravity of big objects as they cannot pass the surface, but how about very small ones? I have a lot of experiences with electrified silica dust which seems to float in the air for hours as defying gravity.

When i was working at Epson during the one week initial training they gave me an inflated balloon that was getting electrified by rubbing against freshly washed and dried hair which stayed stuck on a wall for a month by means of electric forces (again gravity effect cannot pass the relatively thick skin of the balloon).

If it was for electric charges on the surface only, those would have been neutralized by the charges in the air in no time.

Then some of the most commonly misunderstood phenomena on Earth. The floating of rain droplets and then the final condensation into rain. I always believed clouds and fog which are droplets of rain stay in the air because of electrical forces. Earth's potential gradient. But by condensation, the bigger droplets will fall to the ground though they should not lose their electric charges, except maybe for... thunders.

Could that potential reorient the water dipoles so they cannot be attracted by those of Earth?

And what on Earth is that suspended sphere of metal (besides the pyramid cage and antenna) at "Tesla's" isolated lab in the middle of nowhere at Colorado Springs?

Was they trying to measure the influence of electric field (tens of millions of volts with some amperage enough to charge the sphere thoroughly) on gravity, as it looks while making sure no one is seeing it? In this case the small cage like tower is built for rigidity so a movement of the sphere can be observed.

Anyways that was easy. My purpose for the day was to see if it's possible to design a practical device that could do what the warp engines were doing in Star Trek but the day has passed drowned in unnecessary noise a and stomps and s...t which was a reaction (with many misunderstandings) to what i wrote.

No, usually people who misunderstand things don't react like this. I don't believe there are stupid people, there are just misinformed people who lose patience. It is the numerous conditionings (engrams if you want) already implanted in their brains by secret Buddhist influencers all around while pretending being politicians and journalists that subtly (unconsciously) program them act like this to their own destruction and those around them.

October 26

11:12 Can't believe what i just heard at Z100 about 3D printed houses. "First project of the kind, built by students at a university in 13 months ... 425 sqft". Asking myself is they use text to speech software and there's nobody in that studio. Then they play Doja Cat Paint the Town Red for the 100000 time... Ugh. Feel like vomiting.

11:52 No google answer can confirm right now my strong suspicion that all music listened on the radio is made or processed (broken down and recreated) with AI.

Some of them songs even have breathing sounds like Eilish latest or finger rubbing guitar string sounds. Listening right now to Running From the Daylight, all tremolo and vibrato periods that fit entirely within in a note seem inhumanly perfect, with fabulous inexistent instruments in the background.

But i believe all it takes is listening with much attention for small too perfect imperfections like no breathing time for the singer between notes or overlapped notes where there shouldn't with voices that are as fresh at the end of of a phrase as at the beginning.

Second voice in the chorus of Paint the Town red follows mathematically precise the main one.

2:04 Wicked.

6:07 Let me make one thing clear. I never ordered or paid no one ever for any reason except i paid commission a couple of times in Romania to get programming work 30 years ago but it was small and legitimate. If someone chooses to cosplay in areas where i go (Tualatin, Oregon) should know some other entities are paying them and stop doing it.

All hypothetical red riding hoods and their supposed relatives wearing red Safeway aprons should stay home and safe and film barista videos and stop doing porn and playing victims and should get satisfied with the enormous amounts of money for clicks on links on my blogs (judging by the dozens or hundreds of live memes i see around me like when i go to a store or something) and if they don't want them should give them to charities. I got carried away and i put those links because i thought it was funny as intended and now i'm sorry about it.

Though i think they started coming before discovering their tiktok accounts or before i put those links. But who knows. It could be they don't count or pay for clicks on links coming from my blogs like they don't count the real number of visits on my stats page.

BTW last time when i went and ordered food at Spirit Mountain they applied an old trick from Chinook Winds and put the receipt for me to sing on top of another soft piece of paper "because the counter surface was so hard".

8:04 BTW remembered something else. I was making some pizza and doing dishes and stuff and went in the bedroom to ask Angela who's binge watching TV at this hour something and got hit by a smoke smell that seemed familiar. Went outside and plugged too holes in the ground under bedroom window and remembered where i smelled that smell.

8:38 Ok i pulled the second and last pizza from the oven (i put it in the fridge and then heat it in the mw for the next 2-3 days) and came here to finish the idea.

Spirit Mountain has 3 entrances, and one of them is between the casino and the hotel, closest to the big and more quiet parking lot in front of the hotel. Many times i ate, slept and drank in the car in that parking lot though recently the security is patrolling a lot (in some days, depending).

They have recently done some remodeling, built a new smokers section between the hotel and the casino, and the entrance has a double glass doors and walls, like the others, and they put of course a new plastic of course carpet in there that stinks (out-gases VOCs) and always thought that was the normal smell of a new carpet that is closed between doors but now after many months i start do doubt it. Like when you just enter the casino everybody who used other entrances can smell that smell coming out of you.

Could they have done it on purpose tonight so i write here so they can ban me from that casino as well. Cause tomorrow there is a drawing and during drawings is the only time we can win a little some machines are loose during drawings, when there are more people in there, to get them addicted, if you can find one of them, last time (Monday this week) i won 250 dollars playing over Angela's shoulder who was tired anyways of pressing buttons after i caught a free games sessions.

October 23

11:55 Why i stopped writing with no explanations. It is a form of protest, though to me writing was a form of protest. A protest on top of a protest.

Though i frequently listen music on car's radio during my trips (my fingers do not follow the same way my brain after a 5 days pause), i never realized or payed attention to Doja Cat's song Paint the Town Red (until i heard it on tiktok of course were else, thank you Alexa for this one too).

Maybe because it is has fewer profanities than others. However when i saw the video it was shocking and really underscored the conclusion i already made. The song is about me. And it's currently number one in 15 countries. A way of subliminally counteracting most of my themes of my standing protest.

Then in the same time i discovered yet another possible avatar of Seri Iwahori, other then the ones i already wrote about. And this one is threatening.  And didn't and still don't know how to describe it without triggering the underpromised retaliation.

But i broke ranks of my lone strike to write about only one thing. (Yeah i've been thinking if i had a chance to write about one more thing what would be the most important one to write about).

It is about yawning. Yeah i like to shock people hopefully drawing attention while exposing contradictions. Let me explain.

There are a number of "social quirks" that are contagious. To sympathetically synchronize behavior, some say. Yawning is so inducible you may yawn while reading this. Maybe the reason that long time yawning was considered impolite and unaccepted (semiconscious) behavior. But there are others less obvious. And more others nobody has ever written or spoke about it.

That is how i could explain the unconscious physiological changes that occur to me when i see a person usually with black pants and a considerable butt bowing backwards (the reverted usual social Japanese or Korean bow) at me while calculating or made aware (signaled) of the moment i look. Sometimes all the way to touching ground with hands. Under various pretexts, like grabbing dropped keys, things like that.

I still don't even realize something is happening and it took me a long time to make the link, and only because of the very high frequency they deliberately used it on me, thus making it statistically remarkable. 

Now i know the effects occur instantly with lowering of blood circulation in pelvic area and intestinal gas blockage and it manifests within minutes when pressure starts building up and propagate all the way to the diaphragm muscle that is also part of the breathing apparatus, with lowering of breathing capacity and twisting of the hard which is attached to through connective tissues and there goes your panic attack.

Diminished blood circulation (and intestinal absorption) starting with lower abdomen, pelvic area and legs, for a longer time may get you chronic constipation, weird, persistent, hard to cure urinary infections and possibly leg ulcerations. Other unknown effects.

And of course heart benefits at first of the lowering of blood circulation in some areas of the body and gets used to it making it "addictive" and when the condition lasted a long time and it reverts, you may go into partial heart failure. Easiest to diagnose. Coldness of hands and other extremities by closing blood circulation in non essential areas to compensate.

Also yoga poses done in public, or intimacy, and especially the lotus pose may have also weird, sometimes submissive effects on others. The rubbing fingers gesture.

An area modern western medicine never went to because they don't see any reason to. Spiritual, non contact martial arts, old magic, some would think but it's nothing but an (ancient) exploit of the so vulnerable human nature and physiology.

What scares me the most. It is most likely done also through mass media, during clips, movies and reading the news on TV and with any opportunity THEY through all kinda of poses and postures related to plain words can mass spread all kinda diseases and behaviors.

And BTW i already got one (type of panic attack) because all the time i was writing the above a dog was barking with crying accents and a big engine with small exhaust was revving in the vicinity).

Another one i wanted badly to write every day during my hiatus. Always thought they were saying come down or something... Or maybe they did and the lyrics are wrong. Rema? Rama? Roma?

10:15 About 12% of the Brits have supplemental private insurance, the rest go with NHS. Angela's insurance at Eaton cost the company 500 dollars and she also pays 150-200 her share on the payroll.

11:00 Metsubushi. I think it started after i came from my trip to Canyonville or after i moved the ozone generator in the bathroom (BTW i took it back, there is no more sewage smell coming from the floor space).

Now when i use the bathroom fan huge amounts of insulation dust are blown outside through cracks in the wall and some come back inside from under the door every time i use the fan. Upstairs noises stopped dramatically which means they are affected too. I think dust particles are too big to be quickly neutralized by the negative ions.

Or there is a big hole in a wall somewhere.

Or it's been like that for a long time but only now i feel it because of cessation of the smoke.

11:33 What do you know, they were two major holes in the walls i forgot about because of the smoke of course. As i said before, writing it down makes me remember. BTW, this is what i saw also during my walk on by today...

And the weird fog bank like cloud 20 miles inland (crazy jester followed me, found me in the fog, now you all can panic), and there was this guy looking familiar in a black Nissan that stood in my left blind spot in a passing area and tried to pass me when my lane ended and there was this woman with a dog at the next machine where Angela was playing and i was eating the remaining of the fries i didn't finish in the food court. 

Angela won a little to cover most of Saturday loses and we went to the bank to deposit it so she can pay the bills and next to her there was this Tesla driver with black shorts who dropped his receipt... Yes it works best with black shorts. But now that i know, i meditate a little and i'm fine.

11:58 Fortiter et recte. În premieră guvernul nu va mai face rectificarea bugetară. E greu să rectifici ceva ce nu știm exact cât e, cat a fost, cât a mai rămas.

Septembrie 18

7:06 De SRI auzim numai în contextul "scandalurilor și intrigilor" de show menite să demonstreze că dacă există lupte intestine, totul e real. La bugetul lor de aproape 5 miliarde (din care 1.6 salarii) sau un miliard de euro, nu sunt în stare să urmărească niște bieți traficanți de droguri care au împânzit România.

Apropo, oare ce fac cu restul banilor în afară de salarii, își cumpără echipamente?

1.6 miliarde, la un salariu mediu de 5000 de lei ar ajunge pentru... Chiar la un salariu mediu de 10000 lei pe lună, tot ar fi destul pentru peste 10000 angajați.

7:28 Collect, disseminate. Like most casinos, Chinook Winds has a number of cameras that is comparable with the number of slots and casinos, typically they have 2 slots per camera. I would say, one camera per 10 machines would be an overkill if for security purposes.

I don't know how many people are needed to look at those monitors but i would think one person per 20 cameras would be a hell of a job to do. 25 people per shift would double the personnel expanses and the need to get more money for the players. I never saw, in about 7 years since i go there a single security incident (except mines of course).

And one time when i dropped a 60 dollars ticket and the same short bald guy came to give it me (and made me fill a lot of paperwork). I once maybe 5 years ago i found an over one hundred dollars credit at a machine at Spirit Mountain and they came right over like they knew and told me that was theft and had to fill out paperwork. Angela once forgot a similar credit inside a machine and could not retrieve it.

However there are cards in the machines and cents forgotten in the machines almost everywhere i go. Last week at Spirit Mountain after i sat i pulled a card from the machine and threw it between machines like i sometimes do.

One Japanese looking woman (acting as such) came at the machine next to me, asked the guy next to me but not me, talked on the shoulder walkie talkie like cops to like pressing a button and bending  head and then ceremoniously pulled a 2 cents ticket out that machine and tore it to pieces while looking at me. All to dissemitenate.

They would say, the presence of the cameras prevent those. Whatever.

Obviously the cameras have a different reason and that is watching in real time the faces of the players, feeding the stream from hundreds or thousands of cameras in the AI which calculates the level of emotions and other parameters for each player and generate each hand in the machine, with the purpose of keeping you there the longest time, mostly by giving you something back when you are about to give up, etc..

Things got out of control because most of the people don't go there and don't care and probably say in their mind that the players deserve their fate. That is, most of the people gave up interest in lawlessness in their own country and they collectively don't care for the vulnerable.

Some would say, it's all for a food cause, it finances the tribes and stuff. I would dedicate some of my time in the next days to see if that is the case and i think this would be a good place to start. BTW i wish i could go to a "commercial casino" in Oregon but they only have "tribal casinos". Like the ones Trump lost. Like in Reno or Vegas. All the big casinos in Oregon are tribal on tribal territories with their own jurisdiction and law enforcement.

BTW every time i go to Indian Head i hear on their radio complaints about how they can't arrest white people, because tribes have jurisdiction only over their own. If that is the case, why they told me yesterday at Chinook Winds that if i don't leave their property, which included the parking lots i would get arrested?

But disseminate? This incredible declaration is a blow in the face though typical for what i personally encounter daily and shows the total disrespect for the people who go in there and total dis-concern for privacy and laws. Disseminate where? Leaked on the internet? Probably. And that is because there are no laws on their "territory", only security who does whatever it pleases whenever it pleases serving the political interest and purposes of their foreign investors.

I shall add here the screenshot just in case they think of changing it.

And the Blue Lake incident. There, i did not have to deal with security, i called Police but they asked me if i was on a private property and then the guy left with his van and i hanged up. But i pumped so much adrenaline within that minute, my kidneys were hurting.

And i didn't even get to talk about the biggest problem. Biggest problems is i see in those every time i go a number of Japanese people, some acting as such and some disguised in Mexicans and other latinos, fewer in Native Americans (mostly at Indian Head), either as players or staff.

8:50 I have been thinking for the last hour or so if to write the following or not because it might bring more confusion to the one i already created in may people's mind with the above. Mostly because they do not hear every day this stuff, especially from the official media.

So here it goes. All the people in the casino, starting from whites (fewer and fewer) and ending with very short Japanese old women disguised in Native Americans and playing.

They all move around like driven by an invisible hand and create the most awkward situations like the one with the ticket at Spirit Mountain, others, mostly involving me passing other people. They make me look on cameras like i' m a villain chasing either their open bags or unprotected necks. Nothing ever happens (except the encounter with their own coordinator, the movie director) but the mere seconds where they see the potential is enough for those possibly watching the stream on a dark web site.

They had all summer long at Indian head these huge fans with ice behind to supplement the IC, I haven't see those in other years before, never. My guess is they are supplementing the AC to spare electric power, and with that and more and more machines down they are diverting more power to the upgraded AI. The part of each that control the actors and extras that make for all the people present there when i go.

At 7 Feathers last time i went they simply shut a whole section of the casino and also started the backup generators, to make up for always increasing AI demands.

The actors and extras receive moving and more rarely talking instructions in ear prompters like they do in reality shows.

This is my perception and to me was confirmed hundreds of times, i have no doubts about it but i can't bring any proof other than my testimony.

9:06 Mole mounds popped back after last rain, and there is a couple right at the corner of the building. I keep plugging them and they pop back up in a few hours. But i always have to bring soil from somewhere else cause somehow it disappears under ground, leaving just the hole. Then some smell comes out of it which may be smoke or concentrated mold or whatever stuff from the mole galleries. I already plugged those 3 or 4 times today and it's useless and will just go back to sleep cause i only slept a few hours last night (2 to 6).

9:40 Iar m-am pierdut în versiuni și am pierdut o însemnare destul de lungă.

Playback este un termen din limba engleză folosit în România iar în dicționar se scrie play-back. În SUA se spune lip sync.

Problema era cu versurile. Nu înțelegeam versurile și din cauză că persoanele care cântau nu erau vorbitori nativi de engleză și mai ales nu știam cum să le dansăm. Dar dacă aș fi știut ce știu azi, probabil nu aș fi dansat pe această piesă de Boney M.

Eu am avut mari surprize când, prin 2012 am început să înțeleg masiv cuvintele din melodii, și asta numai după ce am început să scriu în engleză. Multe din versuri sunt de natură religioasă, filosofică și nu sunt intenționate pentru dans cred.

Melodia Funky Town a fost cântată de altcineva. Funk este un jazz syncopat, repetitiv, direct precursor al disco însă melodia de mai jos este 100% și emblematică pentru era disco. Lipps Inc. este un joc de cuvinte (lyp sync) abuziv, de natură sexuală.  




12:40 L-am văzut miercuri seara și ieri seara (8 ora locală 17 septembrie, 6 dimineața ora României 18 Septembrie) jucând poker la o mașină aproape de unde jucam eu). Mi s-a părut curioasă fața lui în contextul unde eram eu, faza cu japoneza care a rupt tichetul de 2 cenți care era în mașina dintre noi. M-a deranjat suficient de mult ca să fac o poză la mașina aia după.

Nu putea să fie în România la ora la care a fost arestat. Sau poate l-au adus după, într-un avion special poate militar care poate ajunge aici în câteva ore, cu realimentare. Sau poate au alte mijloace de transport gen hyperloop-ului lui Musk. Sau poate arestarea a fost fake ca la toți ceilalți iar el a fost aici cel puțin de miercuri. Teleportarea solomonarilor? Genică?

1:42 Over the years i saw in my vicinity people that were officially in jail in Romania but i don't believe i wrote much about beause of risk of become not credible for the other stuff i write. Elena Udrea is one i can remember, i once saw her at the beach.

I remember one thing, i don't remember if i wrote about, At Chinook Winds they once tore the floor apart in the middle of the casino were table games are now and poured some liquid adhesive that was puting out VOC, while people were in there, not at a very late or early hour, on a rather wide surface (about 1/4 od the whole floor) . Can they do that? Or before the ban, or maybe the same day a couple of women rubbing the machines with something that was emanating a very strong smell. I tried to move out of their way, they kept coming in the same driection. Could it be that stuff drove me nuts?

BTW i read on some forums about bannings and stuff, what i did to that Japanese guy and that was after his karate move was i told him he might pick his glasses from the floor. Though faster than me, he was much thinner and less muscular and about the same age. But i didn't do one single gesture towards him and left. For that most casinos would just have kicked me for the night. But they didn't do nothing until i got in the parking lot where they were few people. But in that day i refused to identified. One month later and several times being there, they told me about the ban again in a corner with very few people. Yesterday they again waited for me to clear the areas with people and cameras.

2:27 Or this guy. Why was this guy there dressed as a security officer, for months if not years? I even talked to him once not knowing who he was, complaining about the smoke on the beach. Ok i got it another genie and he left after i recognized him. Got it. Cosplaying.

Or him. I saw him one day before or after his "accident" and arrest in the parking lot at Home Depot. Yes i was mad that day, he was staring at me and i yelled at him.
4:54 I thought i had at least ten more 500 mg tablets amoxicilin and they were just gone. So i asked my doctor and in the same time i went to Beaverton and back and passed three big towers two times each and now i really do feel it on my whole body but mostly the infected areas. No it wasn't the AC, it started before i turned that one on.

I think it's all personalized. Last night at the Grocery Outlet in Lincoln City. This time i had the meter and Angela went inside and thought i would say there and wait for her but as soon as she left the meter was showing me levels in the 20s so i went inside after her.

When i got home i found the prescription.

On my way back i remembered something, i once out of many times had free lodging on a Sunday night at Chinook and was watching TV and saw a younger guy featuring a credible picture with an oval shaped but fluffy like a cloud thinking fitting the description here and searched for it but could not find it though i found something better.

Angela went to sleep (they upstairs didn't let her sleep last night) and the well trained remote controlled Japanese child actors are making a big commotion in the back. Big one this time. To me is continuation from this morning. 24/7. Relentless.

6:28 What a pig. Oink oink. I hate tainted windows too but... He was a real black Latino by the way. Not the ninja i see around. Earlier this year a cop pulled me in Newberg for a missing sticker. Now i think he could have pulled it himself. Or stolen by my neighbor. He kept telling me that i turned into the far lane which i didn't. He let me go with a warning.

Almost two hours after passing by those towers i feel pain almost like i was pepper sprayed.

9:05 Ok. In the video with the UFO there's an actual weather balloon deflated and falling. They were not weather balloons during the time of the story in the link and it seems the peasants knew or heave heard about it.

Another idea. Could it had been a flying dinosaur, or a giant bird, now extinct (in the area)? Something that could actually catch a human?

10:38 Doar un mic exemplu în care apare cuvântul Ottawa, și ceva cu India, precum și cuvântul cheie sikh, subliminal pentru sick. Apropo mi-am amintit de o fază. Bucovina, București.

June 17

2:41 Slept 4 hours. Woke at 2 AM by a strong smell of sulfur (could be dog pooos) and probably some noise  and took another half Zyrtec that usually knocks me down. Not having anything to do at this hour i read the news, then was intrigued by the timing of this event as it was trying to combat my recent theory on Deutsche migration and started to do some simple searches. I had no idea bronze (arrows on the map are misleading, they represent the amber route and red dots represent gold) swords were of such level of sophistication.

4:38 Ciolacu și ciclonul.

8: 36 I like that.

9:38 Cheetos

11:00 Had to go to Fred Meyer (Kroger) on MartiNazi mainly to buy water. I'm used to drinking bottled water, yesterday ran out of it, i'm hesitating to drink tap water and got dehydrated. 100 scenes were unfolding during the 1 mile trip and inside the store but i can describe one (and the fact the store was full of Hungarian but German looking people, strong built, taller than me).

At the self check a Japanese supervisor showed me with a quick rude gesture at which stand should i go. When i pressed the "No bag" button, a screen came up and she had to come to unlock it. But had to call her as she was talking to all the Hungarian actors present there all acting like they know each other from the neighborhood.

They know. When i looked in their faces they were showing guilt. But they have no choice. Since they don't know how to do anything else in their lives except acting, most of them are caught in the network of blackmail laid for them and their families in their own country by Dominicans. Few are are doing it willingly.

11:23 Before i left i went and loosened the nut and poured about one ounce of 90% rubbing alcohol on the alternator connector assembly and then wiped with a few paper towels. When i tightened it it squeaked and the voltage at the plug is now 14.5 steady. But first i took a picture to show. The manifold was cleaned not long before the long trip. There is a cap on the nut cover but is not even tight, not to talk about sealed, there is mm large space all around that little cover. Dust with grease will get on the not and trickle between joining surfaces, sort of like WD40, loosens the nut and contaminate the contact.

Strangely enough, other connectors like for the regulator above are sealed with rubber seals.

1:48 The woman in the security van?

There are a couple of Japanese little girls, sometimes with a smaller boy that roam around the building all the time. Now it's not hot anymore and they don't bathe in the sprinklers in bathing suits, but yesterday when i drove from the liquor store they got in front of the car making calling gestures. Sometimes they yell for hours. They are always there in line of sight when i open the trunk or pull something like strawberries from the fridge.

Earlier when i came out of the bathroom and went to bedroom to get my clothes the window was open (i didn't know) with the blinds a few inches short of closed all the way down and they were advancing hidden by the bushes, i'm sure, on purpose. They could not have seen me as inside is much darker than outside, especially because of the blinds, but it still counted for something.

About 15 minutes later through the same open window came some sort of ninja dust or smoke that sticks on my throat and creates shortness of breath that lasted for at least one hour and is still going on. That is the reason i got mad and searched for "Drew". Also to forget. But it's still on. Angela doesn't seem affected.

When acting in public they will never do anything unprovoked. So the girls run around trying to catch chances. The smallest possible reason for them to act.

But if they are justly accused of something, they will never let it uncovered. So they provided one more episode of me choking, so they cover what i described it happened at Spirit Mountain and in Reno.

I call it instant democracy. The public accept waving or shortcuts any legal process, substitution of authorities by Captain America because they feel it would last too long or justice could be obstructed and afterwards it's them who voted the laws. Like Trump who could have declassified the documents. So they collectively accept in their minds for the laws and processes to be broken so instant justice can be done.

Justice that may come in the form of torture of an innocent person. Torture that would provide enough distraction for him to make more little mistakes, inconsistencies etc. and maybe enough discouragement for him to stop plain sight disclosures.

1:39 As i said, there's trails of fertilizer leading to other vehicles and apartments. But every car that passes including mine grinds them more and get traces on wheels and body.

March 23

12:27 Oto peni.

12:54 Yet another post modern disease (yeah i know it sounds a bit like post mortem). Could it be linked to the use of cell phones? A while ago i came up with a test that involves rubbing the same two fingers from the same hand at same distance (closest possible, under one inch) next to both ears. I thought i was getting better but it looks like it's now permanent, three months after i stopped using the cell phone. I hear higher frequencies much better with my left year, the one i didn't use much for my cell phone.

Think about. A cell phone has enough radiating power to reach a tower several miles away.

There are consequences. I have spatial misperception (difficulty locating the source of sound) for those frequencies, can't stand someone squishing water through their teeth like during rinsing after brushing, which only started to happen within last years. Last could be from conflicting perception between location of high and low frequencies. High frequencies are not heard with the eardrum but with hair like sensors.

Modified exhausts during times of maximum concentration? Power blowers? Someone yelling or walking upstairs on a flimsy one inch wooden floor? Who could possibly stand those?

1:12 When i look at this picture with Yoko Ono it's like i'm seeing a block neighbor from Bacău who used to be also Angela's roommate during college but she was supposed to be our age or 27 years younger then Yoko. This one's since 1990 or 6 years after i met her in 84 when Yoko was 51.

1:59 Two days ago Angela bought some beef that expires on 25. Today i cooked it making a brisket (As per Angela). However during rinsing the meat with cold water i felt a smell and it felt kinda soft to touch (though it had the red color of meat treated with CO2 what else). Also after 2 and a half hours in the oven, so we let it more half hour or until the cabbage was partly burnt. It still has a weird taste (or my taste is changing). More meaty, more... bloody? Could this be a consequence of the fact that i forgot to look at the door sign today? I ate a full serving being hungry now i wait to see what's happening...

2:40 There is an unprecedented perceived leadership crisis and leaders crisis in the whole world and i think i know why...

8:13 Nu știu sigur cum se votează în România, sunt plecat din 95 dacă cei fără drept de vot (temporar) sunt scoși de pe listele electorale dar bănuiesc că te bifează pe o listă și îți dau un buletin. Cei care i-au dat buletinul și i-au permis să îl introducă în urnă sunt la fel de vinovați.

Mulți se vor mira că-i iau apărarea însă greșesc. Nu îi iau apărarea, doar încerc să arăt adevărul. Este foarte deranjant să vezi cum se ignoră și încalcă legile chiar de cei care trebuie să le apere, iar media vine și tândălește (exact ca în Păcală și Tândală, Păcală mergea înainte și păcălea iar Tândală din urmă tândălea, adică îi confirma minciunile sau chiar le dubla) iar în cele din urmă chiar marele Gigi tace, nu își ia apărarea, participând la minciună în timp ce își asumă chiar un rol de martir.

Dacă nu ați observat încă, trăim într-un univers al minciunilor, în care fiecare  minciună confirmă o alta sau mai multe (confirmă una) etc.. Asta nu ar fi posibil fără o armată de mincinoși profesioniști în fruntea țării care pentru noi țes o lume a iluziilor. Însă dacă mergi pe firul logic până la urmă poți să găsești și pietrișul din fundul lacului.

Chiar mă gândeam. Într-o democrație poporul este legiuitorul suprem. El votează Constituția și pe cei care la rândul lor votează legile. Pe de altă parte sunt sigur că majoritatea celor care votează la referendumuri nu cunosc Constituția (bine, la acest referendum s-a votat doar pe un articol, însă la celelalte ca în 2003 s-a votat în întregul ei). Cât despre legile votate în Parlament de cei pe care i-ați delegat (le-ați împrumutat puterea dvs. legiuitoare), când v-ați uitat ultima dată pe listă?

Pe site-ul Camerei Deputaților (cdep punct ro) în stânga mai jos există un link ce se numește Repertoriul legislativ. Acolo să clic să vedeți. Un exemplu.

December 31

4:20 One of the first pictures done with my new Kodak camera. f/3 0.038 4.9 mm ISO 400 WB Sunny. What do you know, it's a real (pocket) camera!

12:06 Here is the project i've been dreaming at for months and is the result of more than two years of thinking. It started when i bought the plug in USB adapter with digital voltmeter for the car. It was then when i started to understand how things work electrically.

The initial reason i bought it was to be able to play music in the parking lot without having to search for a jump start (later i bought a jump starter the size of a book for 40 dollars which is very good and only after that i realized the battery was too old and bought a new battery just before that accident in August 2021).

Then i saw. It's not a 12 volts system as many people say. It's a 14.5 volts system. This is what the digital voltmeter shows all the time while the engine is running, at both cars i used it on. 12.5 is the voltage before starting the car. Similar to this one but now i regret mine it doesn't have two decimals. BTW it shows 14.8 in the pictures which on a car means battery doesn't get charged. It has to be 14.5 or less.

Most people think batteries are only good for starting  the engine. But they also act in a way similar to a capacitor for filtering the pulsating DC that's coming out of the alternator diodes which again is 14.5 and not 12.5 as most people would think and for that is required very good contacts. If  you don't have a smooth voltage, all your electric systems and most importantly fuel pomp will not work properly.

Second, i noticed that when i freshly tighten the battery's connector the voltage goes down like 0.1, which means better contact and charging the battery. I also noticed, less vibration at the engine, improved driveability by several points on a scale of 1 to 10 but most importantly, improved mileage by at least 10%. But the contacts wouldn't stay long that way. The connectors are spring like devices and the terminal is soft lead, and after a while that usually was one trip the lead would give in and the contact force would settle to a value that is not sufficient.

And me could not settle for less mpg since i knew it can get better by one simple thing. For two years i tried different methods of securing those contacts, including drilling horizontal, vertical holes and threading in the lead terminas, with the same results.

Right now it drives so nice i regret a lot i didn't do it earlier. But couldn't have, it required lots of thinking to get at this point. Soldered bolts on top of connector and on car's chassis to double the car's original connectors.

It's copper connectors enlarged to 10 mm holes (3/8 whatever) sandwiched between two serrated nuts tightened against each other on the 3/8 bolts with two wrenches (for avoiding apply rotating momentum on the soldered bolts). In the right it's a similar bolt soldered on car's chassis.

Battery is a (not so) cheap 100 dollars Walmart one because i didn't know how the soldering of the bolts on top of terminal will end. They have cheaper ones (59) but not in the store i go to.

It involved filing the outer hex surface of the bolt until removing the stamped 3D marks, filing some more using flux on the file or sandpaper to keep the oxygen out of the metal surface, using clean flux on a paper towel to remove the flux with filings, heating the bolt set on a side on a red hot stove's coil and applying solder, filing some more while hot by holding the bolt using long nose pliers on sand paper covered with flux sitting on a flat surface, wiping against a paper towel again soaked with flux again sitting on a flat surface, repeating until the entire hex surface of the bolt is covered with shiny solder, adding some more solder to make a small round melted drop, heating some more and applying.

Prepping the target area in the same way, with flux on a piece of coarse sandpaper, cleaning the filings with flux on a piece of paper towel, applying the heated bolt with long nose pliers and cooling immediately with water from a glass.

In the second picture you can see shiny slightly irregular protruding solder at the joint, under the bolt's hex end that is darkened by the heating with flux.

15-30 minutes project for a bolt if you have the tools and everything ready. But it's worth it. You can save 10% of gas money. Drive better, have better acceleration, save engine's life by eliminating vibration.

Materials. Connectors. A 3/8 drill bit to enlarge those. 3 bolts 3/8 by 1/16 one inch long from Lowes or Home Depot. 6 serrated nuts. Electronics solder. Flux. One medium size file and a few pieces of coarse (80) sandpaper. A few paper towels. A plastic glass for water.

The idea came to me after i saw the marine type batteries (for starting boats engines) that have both bolts and terminals. But i couldn't use one of those because they have the terminals the other way (plus on the right). But now that i searched for those to put a link i think i found one that could have worked.

Already thinking on how to improve it. One version would be soldering copper bands or wires directly to terminals and chassis (with no bolts) with a big soldering iron that i can heat on the stove again with keeping in place the original system just in case. Have to do it fast and cool the terminals within one second of starting soldering. On the plus i will need a short copper band with a hole at one end and solder it directly on the terminal.

And here is a crop of the original picture yes done with my new camera.

2:26 One of the reasons they won't give us a yearly report on budget spending is because the fiscal year like the water year starts on October 1st. My bad (that doesn't mean they couldn't, even itemize a bit).

I once wrote a post containing comparisons of charts for spending budget for several years. 5 years later, the spendings budget grew by more than 20%, deficit (borrowing, red) now is 1.37 trillion or 21% of the same budget.

There are two things i don't understand. Where it fits the recent "anti shot down" 1.7 bill (trill whatever).

Is it on top of the budget, part of, increase of deficit for next fiscal year, whatever. Same with the infrastructure bill of which i don't see nothing going on yet. Still digging but i doubt i will find it.

Got it. Temporary continuing resolutions, omnibus spending bill. As for the infrastructure bill, i don't know yet.

3:00 Figured that one also. 1.2 T for 8 years, melting somewhere in the annual budgets or in parallel, it doesn't matter, seems insignificant over the 7 T yearly budgets in both cases.

An average of roughly 3 billion per year per state. California is spending that amount a each year for high speed rail projects. Yeah i believe Oregon could build a much needed freeway to the beaches.

4:31 It looks like they never thought of that. There are other priorities.

5:08 There was a large amount of microwave radiation on the top level at the new parking at Chinook, between 10 to 20, and i moved the car in  the other parking lot. Didn't look until i felt it though i heard the meter that beeps above 1 because i didn't believe it was much bigger than that. Much more than near the tower at Grocery Outlet.

The meter fully charged works for about 24 hours, i tried to measure something in the other room and i saw it shut down with 11% battery left (sometimes it shots at 20, i don't know why). The USB plug was half way pulled from the charger and not working, though yesterday it charged  the meter completely. In the same time i started to feel something in the known places like i was recently exposed (within the last hour). And that did not come from our apartment.

6:06 Cute weregirls for the New Year celebrations on the streets of Romania. 

7:23 The pain was quite intense, lasted for about 2 hours and now it's going away. Minutes earlier i said i wanted to go check at the car to see of the last nuts i added didn't get loose, like the first ones, they weren't however they waited for me outside with a scene, all they have to do is figure what i'm going to do next and wait for me in that point in space and time with something.

8:10 Iar văd o gură strâmbă și un nas pe partea de roșu a drapelului în mijloc, alta jos pe galben roșu, care pare să înghită soarbă stelele, un Z întors pe galben, etc.. Nu vă mai jucați cu drapelul României!

În Tratatul de la Amsterdam, 1997, implementat în 1999, toate țările care erau membre UE au devenit automat și membre Schengen iar lista a fost inclusă într-un protocol parte din Tratat. În 2007 sau după aderarea României la UE în Protocolul de mai sus al Tratatului, care a devenit Protocolul 19 al Tratatului UE a fost adăugat în listă și numele României și a celorlalte două țări, Bulgaria și Croația.

9:20 Maria Bateria, o altfel de știre de anul nou. În legătură cu ce postez de mai multe zile despre bateria de mașină.

11:45 15 minute până la anul nou în Oregon. Am căutat sursa imaginii de mai sus și am văzut că este o imagine de stoc (site-uri unde fotografii își pun imagini la vânzare, nu știu de ce pentru că un drapel de țară este proprietatea statului respectiv). Toate imaginile cu steaguri care sunt în mod evident fotografii și nu photoshop sunt ok, cu excepția a încă două. În asta în care soarele bate din spate dintre nori dar steagul apare iluminat din partea opusă sau dinspre cameră, apare pe roșu jos ceva ca o tipă foarte tânără ce execută un dans sexy. Pe cealaltă, unde steagul este încrețit la partea albastră, pe galben apare o imagine greu de descris în cuvinte. Un șarpe care intră într-o peșteră?

2:26 There's hope for me in 2023. It's been maybe 20 years since i stopped hearing high frequencies with the right ear. How do i know. I check both ears by gently rubbing the same two dry fingers from right hand next to each of them. Yes i checked with frustration from time to time for all these years thinking on how my body betrayed me who i like listening to music so much. After a month of not using the cell phone today i started hearing those again. Not totally equal yet. It happened overnight cause a couple of days ago i still didn't hear them. Also pain in the fingers that i got so used to started to fade away. Balance problems are much smaller, almost gone.

Will my pancreas and colon heal as well?

Lucky to have right now an old cable modem with two Ethernet ports (and wi-fi) but i need one more port (i guess i could silence the wi-fi from its page, but not sure). Found a cable modem with no wi-fi on Amazon but it only has one Ethernet port (for a wi-fi router of course). Because people stopped using Ethernet long time ago.

So i guess i'll have to use one of these for the three devices i am moving on Ethernet and completely get rid of wi-fi with 60 dollars plus the cables and two adapters (another 50, the new TV has a port). Also stopped using the microwave except for absolutely necessary situations (5 meters distance for several minutes like a frozen dinner is still not enough, i can heat a burrito or a hot dog in a pan with a bit of water i guess). Maybe looking for a microwave with no stupid glass door (completely metal).

2:50 It never rains in Southern California.

August 23

12:00 O ciudată legătură între două știri din România și una din Marea Britanie. Faptul că descrierile nu coincideau și poliția nu l-a găsit sugerează, la fel ca și în cazul lui Jack Spintecătorul, apărut cu o sută de ani mai târziu, o acțiune de curățire a prostituției (prin sperierea prostituatelor). Un lucru e sigur. Briții au o lungă tradiție în benzi desenate (cartoons). A și în România pare o campanie subliminală de discreditare a trotinetelor electrice care sunt foarte mișto. Am văzut odată pe o plajă în Los Angeles, luai una, mergeai unde aveai de mers și o lăsai acolo. Le poți comanda cu un GPS integrat în electronică (care nu poate fi deci scos) și găsi în caz de furt.

12:42 Ăștia mimează incompetența prostia pentru a jefui. De atâția ani și nu se prinde nimeni.

12:47 Am avut odată un aburitor care îmi părea mișto. Făceam și mămăligă cu el. Avea o cuvă mică, un capac, puteai să faci cartofi întregi sau tăiați în două, în funcție de mărime, în vreo jumătate de oră, etc.. S-a stricat, nu am mai luat altul, am încercat să fierb cartofi de exemplu în abur într-o oală cu capac cu 1 cm de apă la fund, și ieșeau exact ca în timpul de fierbere normal în apă de 15 minute, dar nu mai trebuia să arunc apă cu posibili nutrienți minerali. Metoda merge mișto la broccoli (5 minute) sau morcovi (10 minute). Poți să faci garnitură "ca la IKEA" adăugând succesiv cartofi, la 5 minute morcovi și la încă 5 minute, broccoli, timp total, 15 minute.

Și m-am apucat să comand unul de pe Amazon, ca românul, cât mai mare, cât mai ieftin. S-ar părea nu are aceeași putere ca cel vechi, face de exemplu păstăi (ultra low calories) din congelate în 40 minute timp în care consumă mai mult de un litru de apă (ceea ce îți crește umiditatea în interior, poate fi bine sau nu, depinde). Azi am tăiat cartofi ca pentru cartofi prăjiți, am pus puțin ulei și paprica să pară colorați și am făcut ceva care semăna cu cartofi prăjiți, french fries,  cum spun americanii. Dacă aia mi-a ieșit, după 30 minute de aburit, mai târziu mi-am încercat norocul cu pasta. Dar nu așa, în tăviță, ci direct în tava aia cu găuri, ca pe legume. Am așteptat, am așteptat, în vreo jumătate de oră erau pe jumătate albe în interior, deci am panicat, am pus repede o oală cu apă la fiert, am fiert "clasic" vreo 5 minute și am salvat pasta. După care am citit online. Nu poți face pasta uscată la aburi, doar în tavă, ca pentru o orez, cu un inch de apă peste nivel. Chestia ciudată și motivul pentru care am scris toate acestea e că după fierberea de la sfârșit... a ieșit pasta mult mai bună decât de obicei. Tare, "al dente" dar mai gătită, nu știu cum să explic. Nu ca și cum ai mânca făină uscată fiartă în apă. Deliziosa. Umami.

9:22 Da, am vorbit despre scufundarea pastei în apă, după aburire. Am pus link la faza cu înțepătorul din Londra, a venit și Ciucă să spună o chestie similară. De fapt, ce fac ei toată ziua, în afară de declarații? (ei nu apar niciodată obosiți, după atâtea discursuri).

9:23 Da bine dar după injecția letală organele alea mai funcționează? (O scăpare a scenariștilor).

9:31 Am citit pe un site că Dugina ar fi ars complet fiind în mașină, pe altul că ar fi fost dezmembrată. În orice caz, acest eveniment a venit într-un moment când războiul începuse să stagneze iar pe unele site-uri apăruseră știri că Putin și Zelenski ar putea să se întâlnească.

12:00 Woke at 8, fell back asleep, woke at 9 again. Noise of a compressor, dust, didn't close the balcony door all the way because of AC cable. Later i realized there was exhaust smoke from a compressor or generator. (I did not awake fully not even one  hour later). They started working at the next building, before finishing this one, making extra noises.

So after i wrote above, eat something, decided to walk the 2 miles to Angela's work to pick the car so i can move around, go in the park, library, whatever, to escape all this hell that lasts for 10 days now.

But when i cross the street at Best Buy plaza, a guy in a gray KIA coming from the plaza almost hit me, breaking the 6 ft rule (shouldn't have attempted to cross a crosswalk while a pedestrian is in it or 6 ft away), i was on  the sidewalk just starting to cross the second lane when light turned to red with 21 seconds to spare) and, read carefully, a cop on a motorcycle watched the whole scene, while mumbling at me something "...takes time".

I was thinking about walking on the south sidewalk because of more shadow, however, can't go on it on the overpass, crossed at Fred Meyer, but forgot at Martinazzi there is no green light for pedestrians, though there is sidewalk on both sides, so i had to cross again and walked in the Sun bla bla.

I think after Teton there is a construction area, with some lanes blocked, i was walking on the crosswalk where traffic came from behind and i met with some blackberry vines. Several vehicles came real close to the sidewalk, with one big truck actually rubbing against it. But i was so nervous i dropped the phone and didn't catch it when it was close.

12:30 I can't believe they sell in the US on Amazon phones that are not US compatible. I can't belive the phone was found compatible by T-Mobile back in January, but then later started to malfunction ("nework busy" error, need to restart many times, but still working after) and then after i canceled that account (that was canceled days before billing cycle) it was found incompatible by all carriers (Verizon, ATT, T-Mobile).

12:23 Angela had one day free lodging at the Chinook but on Thursday, she took Friday off, however, an unexpected work order came and she doesn't know anymore. The guy upstairs also took a vacation while they make most noise and dust here.

12:44 Răspunsul la "Got a man but i want you".

What's happier than hairy styles? (Saturday, Lincoln City, Liquor Outlet).

California, Crescent Bay

Kalama, Cowlitz, Kalapuya, Camas, Clackamas, Klamath. All ancient Native American toponyms on US west Coast with an indisputable link with the root Kala or Kali. That may come from the Sanskrit name Kali or from Australian aboriginal word kylie, the name for the tool known as boomerang.

Klamath river is home of the California most populous tribe Karuk. Karu in Sanskrit means among others artisan, but we also have Kalika and Chamunda, other names of goddess Kali. And Kauravas.

Some Karuk women wear a tattoo or make up that looks like a hanging tongue. In this picture the three young adults' appearance is Hungarian, who are a mix of Ancient Australia Noongars and North Eastern Indian Magars. The woman with face decoration looks Asian.

Some women wear a shells necklace that look like Kali little skulls necklace.

There are boomerang like stone tools at the Museum in Oregon City. Oldest known boomerang was found in Poland and was made of a mammoth tusk, but in India boomerangs were made of... iron.

Crescent is one of the attributes of Lord Shiva, as he is known also as god of time, with Moon being the oldest measure of time known to man. However Kali stepped on Shiva's chest and thus took this attribute from him. As the trident.

In 1997 while working at Epson i started to have breathing trouble, severe insomnia and in the end hallucinations. After several attempts at other hospitals, due to my insurance from Epson i was taken to a place called Pacific Gateway. I was so dehydrated that when i peed in a jar half of it precipitated as salts. They gave me to drink some water and asked for another sample. Finally they gave me a pill, got to sleep, eat and drink. But the biggest problem of them all. Could not fall asleep in the evening because i felt like chocking. Problem was given simply by a congested nose and me not being able to breath on my mouth because i forgot how to since i was in grade school and my teacher was punishing me if she was catching me breathing on my mouth.

After i got out of Pacific Gateway was better but still the same problem. Finally got better after working 4 months at Les Schwab in open air. Problem was caused by indoor pollution and me not breathing on my mouth when could not on my nose but could not figure that for the next 15 years. Pacific Gateway was specialized in treating drug addicts.

Pacific Gateway was closed @year 2000 and demolished after the doctors and nurses there called Police because they could not control a Mexican patient who was threatening them with a pen. So Police came and shot him once in head and once in chest. A similar situation happened in 2002-2003 at Woodland Park Hospital where i called 911 (112) from a payphone because i had difficulties breathing. In there, one of my doctors' name was Collier but my first doctor there was plainly Harrison Ford (together with his assistant, therapist Carrie Fisher). In January 13 2004 i went again to that hospital for one night and i was the only patient there. The hospital was closed in 2004 after doctors again called 911 to transfer a patient. It's been re-opened many years after, under a different name and ownership.

But there was this picture reproduction on the wall outside my room at Pacific Gateway of a serigraph by painter Thomas McNight. It was representing what i thought it was a mythical place called Crescent Bay, with a fish in a basket hit by a trident and still trying to breath next to a breathing apparatus in form of infinity sign, and on the picture lower it was written with big letters Chalk and Vermillion (an art reproduction firm) New York. Every time i was reading that and obviously feeling like chocking all the time, i thought of how the word Vermillion means in Romanian viermele (the worm) and the name Ion, my last name.
21 years after, can't remember how, i figured Crescent Bay existed and at first opportunity i went to California, South of LA, a 1000 miles drive to see it. In that day water was warm and people were bathing in the bay, and we went and grabbed some bathing suits and went into the water. I had a body wide infection starting from teeth, and as soon as i got in the water i started to shiver. Then i saw this guy who looked familiar (Angela was binge watching the movie those days on Netflix or something), asked him a question, went into a conversation and told him the purpose of me being there. Then he told me to go in the water.

In the bay there were even two scuba divers, like in the painting, and on shore, about where that pool should have been, a woman was reading a book. A group of what i thought then were Arabs, though could have been Indians were watching something carefully, maybe counting waves.

Angela was sitting there in the shallow water on her knees, some 30 ft away from the shore when a freak wave came and pushed her 30 ft towards the shore in one second, leaving her with some wounds that turned into scars on her knees from rubbing against the sand for all that distance.

There must have been a reason when they came here Europeans called them Indians.