July 30

12:00 AM Like Viktor Orban (Victoria Oropsiților de Trianon) i can't stop. Not right now. Have to keep posting or... Here are some pictures with Trump swinging (like in golf swinging). You think those tiny arms can propel a ball more than 25 yards (aprox=meters)?

It is said Hitler was on a vegetarian diet...

12:45

18 A DAY. I saw a couple of times this LPN here in Oregon and could never figure what it means but today i think i had a revelation. Could it be... 6+6+6 = 18 bags with dog poop a day? The Dominicans (Inquisition) do just this every day, after their prayers? The same number as the holes in a golf course?

1:45 There are a number of Egyptian tools that have inspired modern objects. Of them i could mention the well known tennis racquet. But there are other lesser knwon tools like The Setesh Staff (was sceptre) that might have inspired the microfone on a stick (Freddie above), golf club, hockey cross, telempromter, etc..

2:05 Someone reading a cell phone while frying themselves with microwaves.

2:15 Chrysanthemum Throne of Japan vs 2024 Olympic medals.
2:27 Kabuto, was sceptre, Wow!

7:32 Don't know what the name of the bowling pin like thing on top of the head of Horus (no matter how much i searched) but it looks like it has inspired the Olympic torch of this year 2024 (no, it is not a rolled joint as some may believe, just because it is carried by a dog whose name is not Seth).

Yes i believe the name Seth of the Egyptian god of chaos is at the origin of the name Satan in the Hebrew bible. (Not to be confounded with Seth, the third son of Adam and Eve).

2:18 Read my lines. It is not logic, science, justice, economics or even politics that run this world. It is sorcery, witchcraft, ancient mysteries (in the sense of secrets transmitted from generation to generation in a parallel world of the initiated).

Some are just simple tricks, like by example, the dog seth. There is something in it that comes from evolution. Parasites, pheromones, name it. With it, the wolves, big cats and then dogs and cats hunt. The so called marking of the territory is actually infestation, to make the prey weak and vulnerable.

Humans have learned of it (thinking is magic tricks, sorcery, witchcraft) not knowing what really it is and use it against other humans. Is that simple. But how can you get this out of the simple minds that dedicated their lives to cults or fraternities which are based on this kinda seth?

Think of Trump's advertisement. Top dog, he'll get you top dollars.

Some prefer just to use it no mater how moral or immoral is. They have been initiated, spent all their lives gathering degrees, got old, who's gonna stop them playing the same tricks over and over on the whole world. It would mean they should give up everything.

Is that simple.

4:30 Another common trick they use is replacing of the officials in the countries they control (all) with their own people, usually trained actors. Initially a ninja trick, i believe this tradition started with the Tokugawa Ieyasu shogun and all the shoguns that followed in the Tokugawa dynasty, and then the emperor himself, during  the so called Meiji restoration but it could be older, since like the Chinese Imperial dynasties.

Can't find right now where i read Tokugawa Ieyasu character was played by 3 different ninja that changed over the years. Ieyasu lived 73 years in a time when average lifespan was 50.

5:45 I know how cops are. I simply cannot believe this. But if they saw the guy and told SS and SS did not react they should have taken measures themselves. However they saw SS pointing guns at the shooter, as seen in the picture and maybe they thought the SS are on it so they did nothing.

5:55 Nicolas Maduro. I think i knew the guy on the right personally, he was working at the computer service company (IIRUC) în Bacău before 89 under the name Eugen Mihalcea, then we even became associated (co-owners, with 3 other guys) in a software/hardware firm in Bacău, Mega SRL, which then some other guy forced me to leave (per reason i had my own firm, INSER SRL) and now i understand why.

7:25 Just remembered one more thing. At the meeting where we signed the papers and established the name Mega (as opposed to Micro, it was my "funny" idea, in a restaurant in Bacău) he kept telling us he wanted to emigrate to... Venezuela, and i think he said  he had a relative there.

8:15 I think i saw her face around here too.

10:53 I think i might have figured (the hard way) how many diseases come into our body.

I was looking the other day at my ankles and saw how thin and wrinkled my skin on those is. The part behind i do not step on.

As we get older, we start loosing collagen. The skin becomes thinner. Biggest problem is at the soles of the feet. No matter how good you maintain your floor and carpet, it will remain a place full of bacteria. Unless if you sanitize your carpet as often as you replace your socks. How about the shoes? How clean are your shoes inside?

Can use a piece of towel and some alcohol and rub it and see. Floor, feet, shoes.

Also with age we gain weight.

Thinning skin on the sole of your feet and poor floor hygiene which may be the norm for most people allow bacteria to constantly get into your bloodstream period.

We all have to die of something aren't we.

11:45 How can i not put a link to a search here. Different results by different authors but overall, it is scary. I will not have any collagen by 80? which means i will fall apart and die???

12:10 Was thinking. If the Japanese are the Ancient Egyptians, it could have happened only this way. They went in Egypt to search for the geographic center of the dryland on Earth to build the first pyramid (and not the other way around). As the center of the Earth has moved (reshape of shores), they built the second one etc..

Why the center of the Earth? That is a good question. I think it might have something to do with time or space travel. Alignment of source and destination, maybe?

February 4th

12:50 How much cheaper and smaller a carrier would be if planes would take of and land like this? Any plane with a thrust/weight ratio slightly greater than one and a thrust vectoring system could do it.

With modern fly by wire systems a software could be designed to do the job of landing again vertically (like Musk's rocket that can land vertically).

But they don't even have to land on the bridge. All they need is to fly like this for a few seconds under a capturing crane.

But think of other advantages. You could raise 10 or 20 of these in the same time. That goes for airports as well. No need for bottleneck runways that are vulnerable to rocket attacks. Keep them in holes underground or under ship's deck. Could carry them on platforms on the freeways and launch them from anywhere.

Could even evacuate them if the ship starts to sink.   

Da, și România a avut 24 din astea (fără thrust vectoring, nu știu dacă puteau fi modificate - upgraded). Au fost vândute ca piese de schimb la polonezi care le au și acum.

October 23

11:55 Why i stopped writing with no explanations. It is a form of protest, though to me writing was a form of protest. A protest on top of a protest.

Though i frequently listen music on car's radio during my trips (my fingers do not follow the same way my brain after a 5 days pause), i never realized or payed attention to Doja Cat's song Paint the Town Red (until i heard it on tiktok of course were else, thank you Alexa for this one too).

Maybe because it is has fewer profanities than others. However when i saw the video it was shocking and really underscored the conclusion i already made. The song is about me. And it's currently number one in 15 countries. A way of subliminally counteracting most of my themes of my standing protest.

Then in the same time i discovered yet another possible avatar of Seri Iwahori, other then the ones i already wrote about. And this one is threatening.  And didn't and still don't know how to describe it without triggering the underpromised retaliation.

But i broke ranks of my lone strike to write about only one thing. (Yeah i've been thinking if i had a chance to write about one more thing what would be the most important one to write about).

It is about yawning. Yeah i like to shock people hopefully drawing attention while exposing contradictions. Let me explain.

There are a number of "social quirks" that are contagious. To sympathetically synchronize behavior, some say. Yawning is so inducible you may yawn while reading this. Maybe the reason that long time yawning was considered impolite and unaccepted (semiconscious) behavior. But there are others less obvious. And more others nobody has ever written or spoke about it.

That is how i could explain the unconscious physiological changes that occur to me when i see a person usually with black pants and a considerable butt bowing backwards (the reverted usual social Japanese or Korean bow) at me while calculating or made aware (signaled) of the moment i look. Sometimes all the way to touching ground with hands. Under various pretexts, like grabbing dropped keys, things like that.

I still don't even realize something is happening and it took me a long time to make the link, and only because of the very high frequency they deliberately used it on me, thus making it statistically remarkable. 

Now i know the effects occur instantly with lowering of blood circulation in pelvic area and intestinal gas blockage and it manifests within minutes when pressure starts building up and propagate all the way to the diaphragm muscle that is also part of the breathing apparatus, with lowering of breathing capacity and twisting of the hard which is attached to through connective tissues and there goes your panic attack.

Diminished blood circulation (and intestinal absorption) starting with lower abdomen, pelvic area and legs, for a longer time may get you chronic constipation, weird, persistent, hard to cure urinary infections and possibly leg ulcerations. Other unknown effects.

And of course heart benefits at first of the lowering of blood circulation in some areas of the body and gets used to it making it "addictive" and when the condition lasted a long time and it reverts, you may go into partial heart failure. Easiest to diagnose. Coldness of hands and other extremities by closing blood circulation in non essential areas to compensate.

Also yoga poses done in public, or intimacy, and especially the lotus pose may have also weird, sometimes submissive effects on others. The rubbing fingers gesture.

An area modern western medicine never went to because they don't see any reason to. Spiritual, non contact martial arts, old magic, some would think but it's nothing but an (ancient) exploit of the so vulnerable human nature and physiology.

What scares me the most. It is most likely done also through mass media, during clips, movies and reading the news on TV and with any opportunity THEY through all kinda of poses and postures related to plain words can mass spread all kinda diseases and behaviors.

And BTW i already got one (type of panic attack) because all the time i was writing the above a dog was barking with crying accents and a big engine with small exhaust was revving in the vicinity).

Another one i wanted badly to write every day during my hiatus. Always thought they were saying come down or something... Or maybe they did and the lyrics are wrong. Rema? Rama? Roma?

10:15 About 12% of the Brits have supplemental private insurance, the rest go with NHS. Angela's insurance at Eaton cost the company 500 dollars and she also pays 150-200 her share on the payroll.

11:00 Metsubushi. I think it started after i came from my trip to Canyonville or after i moved the ozone generator in the bathroom (BTW i took it back, there is no more sewage smell coming from the floor space).

Now when i use the bathroom fan huge amounts of insulation dust are blown outside through cracks in the wall and some come back inside from under the door every time i use the fan. Upstairs noises stopped dramatically which means they are affected too. I think dust particles are too big to be quickly neutralized by the negative ions.

Or there is a big hole in a wall somewhere.

Or it's been like that for a long time but only now i feel it because of cessation of the smoke.

11:33 What do you know, they were two major holes in the walls i forgot about because of the smoke of course. As i said before, writing it down makes me remember. BTW, this is what i saw also during my walk on by today...

And the weird fog bank like cloud 20 miles inland (crazy jester followed me, found me in the fog, now you all can panic), and there was this guy looking familiar in a black Nissan that stood in my left blind spot in a passing area and tried to pass me when my lane ended and there was this woman with a dog at the next machine where Angela was playing and i was eating the remaining of the fries i didn't finish in the food court. 

Angela won a little to cover most of Saturday loses and we went to the bank to deposit it so she can pay the bills and next to her there was this Tesla driver with black shorts who dropped his receipt... Yes it works best with black shorts. But now that i know, i meditate a little and i'm fine.

11:58 Fortiter et recte. În premieră guvernul nu va mai face rectificarea bugetară. E greu să rectifici ceva ce nu știm exact cât e, cat a fost, cât a mai rămas.

October 1st

To make a long story very short. I think at Lucky Eagle i spoke to a woman posing in Casino staff or maybe even being a member of the staff in uniform with a dark green and gray shirt (i later saw another woman with that uniform that had an inscription Lucky Eagle Employee) who was actually the woman upstairs. She was showing empathy and even smile in the end but when i asked her who she was so i can tell her later if i see the woman with the T-shirt she kinda ended the conversation.

I was complaining about being bullied on the road all the way there and then i saw a woman with a T-shirt with the name of a football player named Lynch and thought that was part of bullying and/or a threat. Then i spoke with a security guard at the entrance about the same stuff and now when i googled Lynch 24 as saw on her t-shirt i see a face who might have been of that security guard. BTW he told me to tell him about my research (on who was Lynch was) next time when i get there and he looked either sick or scared to death.

No i don't watch football as i didn't watch soccer while i was in Romania. I find both extraordinarily boring. Some guys throwing and/or kicking a ball from one place to another.

3:34 There is more weird stuff i would like i feel like i need to share. An idea that was later in my mind.

I think when a man has sex to a woman and the woman shows/has pleasure there is a channel that opens between the two beyond the initial attraction or desire for sex that may not ever be stopped by either. This probably is embedded in our genes and is ancestral and helps the survival of the species when the two need to stay together to raise children.

That link gives the man an extraordinary attraction and attachment towards that woman and an incredible energy and happiness.

More than that i think the same stuff happens when you see repeatedly a woman on a video on certain sites while pleasuring self but it is one way only cause the woman will never even know who you are. Or who knows.

I don't think women should do this cause it maybe dangerous for the whole lot of people who watch them.

More than that. I think ninja with the help of Buddhism and  Shintoism that both inspired from ancient Hinduism  through special training know how to tap or use or open that channel in order to literally read someone's mind and/or influence that person. But i think should better be a woman to be able to link with a man.

Could they control and finance the whole porn phenomenon. Free sites you can access anonymously with a couple of clicks that may capture your soul. Literally.

But even "lesser" activities like semi-porn tiktok videos may have a similar effect and in the past movies and music clips. I think the keyword is submission and man do they show submission in the newest videos on tiktok.

Amazingly i had an intuition about this before.

10:36 Washington State. You may call it revitalization of supposed old European religions vs Christianity and/or Judaism, i call it ninja manipulation. I think the apprentice magicians are actually succumbing to a higher level of magic.

One of the central cultural pieces in this puzzle is Pink Floyd's the Wall. However i know David Gilmour is a legendary Hungarian rock singer named Janos Kobor of the band Omega and i think Janos is a Jewish name in Hungarian. However in Hungary he did the opposite of what he did with Pink Floyd, a type of ballad romantic rock and probably using a wig presenting himself as gay.

However there are recognizable Pink Flyod accents especially in the guitar solos and pretty plain in early songs.

No i don't believe they were beneficial for the ordinary Hungarians, their greatest hit there, Girl With Pearls in Her Hair is about m...n like many other international hits including Train's Drops of Jupiter.

Wondering how come Klaus Meine (Scorpions) speaks and sings in Hungarian using those hard to pronounce non-european vowels singing with Janos Kobor both transcending in a different cultural space were Kobor is unrecognizable as David Gilmour. Here doing a bit of magic for their own.


10:40 As i was making an effort to remember names and stuff and also got frustrated by my own sloppiness in the blog post with his face while talking with Angela i became "emotionally vulnerable" and she started her ritual dance upstairs. However she took off right away.

BTW they did laundry in the building and pumped vapor in the basement as everything including the floor got colder and the floor is wet and bulged at places. We are being eaten alive by collagen eating bacteria developed in the fiberboard floor that is pressed with collagen based glue.

12:10 By far not the only case. Here is the Hungarian singer Zoran (Ștefanovici) who for us all is known as Eric Clapton. They don't call themselves magic people for nothing. (Nu se prinde nici darcul. What?)



As i was getting ready to fry my bread in two pans (ran out of bread, none of us wants to go to the stores) they showed in the back zooming like pixies from a game we both played last night. There's magic in the air (dog poop smell). 

2:50 St_evie Nicks as Eva Sun (Eva Csepregi) singing late 80s disco in Hungary, however in this clip she kept her traditional scene clothing and dancing style.


All use more upbeat songs and lyrics compared to their counterparts in the US and UK and the reason is they try to keep happiness at home...

 4:15 Words is all i have...

I have started to believe that the US didn't change much since the times of the Wild Wild West. But make no mistake. Nobody should expect the US government to look into this. They just said they passed "a bill" borrowing  more money to pay their bureaucratic axes for 45 more days for crying out loud. I am wondering from whom because everybody knows they are not going to ever pay them back.

5:50 Again i lost a paragraph due to motion and throwing of a heavy object upstairs.

I said that i noticed when i drive from here to near Olympia, that is 116 miles on I5, moslty south north i'm getting about 8% lower mileage than when travelling back on final trip report on dashboard and the another reason could be this.

Same happens when i drive from here to Grande Ronde which is east to west.  One of the reasons could be i always return at night when temperature is lower and tire pressure is lower but but in this case the difference could come from the formula of energy mv2/2 when the energy depends on the square of the speed.

The total speed of your vehicle is 500+/- legal limit made of the speed of the Earth towards east then adding or subtracting your vehicle's speed and the dependence on speed of energy is not linear.

Car's energy due to just rotation of the Earth is 500*500 = 250000. Let' say you move west with 100 mph. The speed's contribution to the energy will be 490*490 = 240100 and when you move east 510*510 = 260100. First difference is 250000-240100=9900 and second 10100. Am i right?

Ok some would say you have to use extra energy only when accelerating at that speed and then you go at constant speed and energy so the difference would be trivial. It is true but a trip is made of numerous accelerations and decelerations and when you get your ft off the pedal the loss of energy is due mostly to friction with air so it is not transmitted back into the ground.

I think one first application would be in athletic competitions LOL. Another one; vehicles could go slowly when moving north and faster back south to compensate for the time and save energy. Different speed limits on freeways.

BTW just remembered something. Last night when i reached exit 88 on I5 and took a left towards Aberdeen the Sun suddenly moved in my face as the car in front of me slowed suddenly. On the radio was singing Stevie Wonder. Can get the symbolism?

All the way there i kept asking myself where are the cops when these guys do what they do on the streets.

I noticed a couple of times earlier that everybody was behaving while passing some stationed flashing Police cars not necessarily slowing down but not bullying by approaching too close from behind, passing on the right where there was no room in front of me, getting dangerously close to my lane, constantly changing speeds, getting in front when about to pass, etc. All drivers i could identify doing those things were Asians except one.

At a moment i saw on the right shoulder a pretty rectangular pile of garbage mostly clothes of the height of a person with a small car near it and that vehicle could not have been the source, several Police cars and a fire truck. It was all about dumping wasn't it and they were busy participating in the show. Then inside the Casino i noticed how the word TRASH on the trash cans resembled TRANS.

9:53 Ideas from the road.

I never thought Asians care much for the truth. At least the ones i encountered.

"Though should not bear false testimony on your neighbor" is the second commandment in Judaism and Christianity. The real important stuff, not the sectarian rituals like fasting or not working on a major saint day or kissing icons.

The main requirements of Shinto are others. 

Nor do they care for causality, long term consequences of their actions. That is replaced with codes and/or loyalty to a master or a group. No matter how the events succeed they will overpass them in order to get the needed results.

It is about Buddha's life. There are large variations between different authors and though they all revere Buddha, many don't agree and that reflect their way of thinking.

That is the reason i could not find with one or two searches what i needed to know. The idea from the road. Was Buddha a Sadhu.

Sadhu is a religious category in India that at the beginning was a privilege for the Brahmin or the highest class. Nowadays all are accepted and are approx 4-5 million Sadhus in India. They are accepted (on the side of the larger society) because people say "they burn bad karma" or in other words, bring good luck.

There is no doubt "the wondering ascetic monks" the biographers say Buddha was associated with but they never say it plainly.

The reason one would become a Sadhu is purely religious. The way to becoming a Sadhu was not an easy one. You needed mainly to give up all your possessions and family, take some vows and have a master (guru).

He would give you a secret name only him and you knows and then you would have to do a job for him, no matter how small. After that  you were expected to live from begging, wondering. 

But there must be some reasons the Sadhu live separately from society and that is they have knowledge of things ordinarily uninitiated humans should not have and would probably get scared by those or abuse them and would not accept their rituals and way of living in the materialistic larger society.

What i think it happened. Buddha who was not Indian nor Brahmin though he was a rich prince (Chinese looking, from Nepal) who indeed gave up everything, became a Sadhu and could not bear that life and after about 6 years broke his vows and turned to what he called the middle way, rebuking both "extremes" as he said, probably the hedonistic-materialistic world and the ascetic Sadhu.

No single Sadhu has all the knowledge and i think Buddha had at least three gurus.

Then the knowledge he gathered from the Sadhu was passed to normal uninitiated unbound by vows and purifies by renouncement people and that ended in the hands of some that weaponized it and this is how ninja appeared and the results are the today's world.

Unless he intentionally penetrated that category in order to gather knowledge for his clan.

I am not writing all these for having fun or for the entertainment of the reader. The ninja posses and use this knowledge as operational means when infiltrating in foreign (to them) territories, of which most important is tapping into one's mind. But there could be more because i started to believe all the people in the world are interconnected in one to one or one to many communications channels we don't understand yet and some have more abilities to influence others.

11:50 Whatever. HBTY.

Septembrie 18

7:06 De SRI auzim numai în contextul "scandalurilor și intrigilor" de show menite să demonstreze că dacă există lupte intestine, totul e real. La bugetul lor de aproape 5 miliarde (din care 1.6 salarii) sau un miliard de euro, nu sunt în stare să urmărească niște bieți traficanți de droguri care au împânzit România.

Apropo, oare ce fac cu restul banilor în afară de salarii, își cumpără echipamente?

1.6 miliarde, la un salariu mediu de 5000 de lei ar ajunge pentru... Chiar la un salariu mediu de 10000 lei pe lună, tot ar fi destul pentru peste 10000 angajați.

7:28 Collect, disseminate. Like most casinos, Chinook Winds has a number of cameras that is comparable with the number of slots and casinos, typically they have 2 slots per camera. I would say, one camera per 10 machines would be an overkill if for security purposes.

I don't know how many people are needed to look at those monitors but i would think one person per 20 cameras would be a hell of a job to do. 25 people per shift would double the personnel expanses and the need to get more money for the players. I never saw, in about 7 years since i go there a single security incident (except mines of course).

And one time when i dropped a 60 dollars ticket and the same short bald guy came to give it me (and made me fill a lot of paperwork). I once maybe 5 years ago i found an over one hundred dollars credit at a machine at Spirit Mountain and they came right over like they knew and told me that was theft and had to fill out paperwork. Angela once forgot a similar credit inside a machine and could not retrieve it.

However there are cards in the machines and cents forgotten in the machines almost everywhere i go. Last week at Spirit Mountain after i sat i pulled a card from the machine and threw it between machines like i sometimes do.

One Japanese looking woman (acting as such) came at the machine next to me, asked the guy next to me but not me, talked on the shoulder walkie talkie like cops to like pressing a button and bending  head and then ceremoniously pulled a 2 cents ticket out that machine and tore it to pieces while looking at me. All to dissemitenate.

They would say, the presence of the cameras prevent those. Whatever.

Obviously the cameras have a different reason and that is watching in real time the faces of the players, feeding the stream from hundreds or thousands of cameras in the AI which calculates the level of emotions and other parameters for each player and generate each hand in the machine, with the purpose of keeping you there the longest time, mostly by giving you something back when you are about to give up, etc..

Things got out of control because most of the people don't go there and don't care and probably say in their mind that the players deserve their fate. That is, most of the people gave up interest in lawlessness in their own country and they collectively don't care for the vulnerable.

Some would say, it's all for a food cause, it finances the tribes and stuff. I would dedicate some of my time in the next days to see if that is the case and i think this would be a good place to start. BTW i wish i could go to a "commercial casino" in Oregon but they only have "tribal casinos". Like the ones Trump lost. Like in Reno or Vegas. All the big casinos in Oregon are tribal on tribal territories with their own jurisdiction and law enforcement.

BTW every time i go to Indian Head i hear on their radio complaints about how they can't arrest white people, because tribes have jurisdiction only over their own. If that is the case, why they told me yesterday at Chinook Winds that if i don't leave their property, which included the parking lots i would get arrested?

But disseminate? This incredible declaration is a blow in the face though typical for what i personally encounter daily and shows the total disrespect for the people who go in there and total dis-concern for privacy and laws. Disseminate where? Leaked on the internet? Probably. And that is because there are no laws on their "territory", only security who does whatever it pleases whenever it pleases serving the political interest and purposes of their foreign investors.

I shall add here the screenshot just in case they think of changing it.

And the Blue Lake incident. There, i did not have to deal with security, i called Police but they asked me if i was on a private property and then the guy left with his van and i hanged up. But i pumped so much adrenaline within that minute, my kidneys were hurting.

And i didn't even get to talk about the biggest problem. Biggest problems is i see in those every time i go a number of Japanese people, some acting as such and some disguised in Mexicans and other latinos, fewer in Native Americans (mostly at Indian Head), either as players or staff.

8:50 I have been thinking for the last hour or so if to write the following or not because it might bring more confusion to the one i already created in may people's mind with the above. Mostly because they do not hear every day this stuff, especially from the official media.

So here it goes. All the people in the casino, starting from whites (fewer and fewer) and ending with very short Japanese old women disguised in Native Americans and playing.

They all move around like driven by an invisible hand and create the most awkward situations like the one with the ticket at Spirit Mountain, others, mostly involving me passing other people. They make me look on cameras like i' m a villain chasing either their open bags or unprotected necks. Nothing ever happens (except the encounter with their own coordinator, the movie director) but the mere seconds where they see the potential is enough for those possibly watching the stream on a dark web site.

They had all summer long at Indian head these huge fans with ice behind to supplement the IC, I haven't see those in other years before, never. My guess is they are supplementing the AC to spare electric power, and with that and more and more machines down they are diverting more power to the upgraded AI. The part of each that control the actors and extras that make for all the people present there when i go.

At 7 Feathers last time i went they simply shut a whole section of the casino and also started the backup generators, to make up for always increasing AI demands.

The actors and extras receive moving and more rarely talking instructions in ear prompters like they do in reality shows.

This is my perception and to me was confirmed hundreds of times, i have no doubts about it but i can't bring any proof other than my testimony.

9:06 Mole mounds popped back after last rain, and there is a couple right at the corner of the building. I keep plugging them and they pop back up in a few hours. But i always have to bring soil from somewhere else cause somehow it disappears under ground, leaving just the hole. Then some smell comes out of it which may be smoke or concentrated mold or whatever stuff from the mole galleries. I already plugged those 3 or 4 times today and it's useless and will just go back to sleep cause i only slept a few hours last night (2 to 6).

9:40 Iar m-am pierdut în versiuni și am pierdut o însemnare destul de lungă.

Playback este un termen din limba engleză folosit în România iar în dicționar se scrie play-back. În SUA se spune lip sync.

Problema era cu versurile. Nu înțelegeam versurile și din cauză că persoanele care cântau nu erau vorbitori nativi de engleză și mai ales nu știam cum să le dansăm. Dar dacă aș fi știut ce știu azi, probabil nu aș fi dansat pe această piesă de Boney M.

Eu am avut mari surprize când, prin 2012 am început să înțeleg masiv cuvintele din melodii, și asta numai după ce am început să scriu în engleză. Multe din versuri sunt de natură religioasă, filosofică și nu sunt intenționate pentru dans cred.

Melodia Funky Town a fost cântată de altcineva. Funk este un jazz syncopat, repetitiv, direct precursor al disco însă melodia de mai jos este 100% și emblematică pentru era disco. Lipps Inc. este un joc de cuvinte (lyp sync) abuziv, de natură sexuală.  




12:40 L-am văzut miercuri seara și ieri seara (8 ora locală 17 septembrie, 6 dimineața ora României 18 Septembrie) jucând poker la o mașină aproape de unde jucam eu). Mi s-a părut curioasă fața lui în contextul unde eram eu, faza cu japoneza care a rupt tichetul de 2 cenți care era în mașina dintre noi. M-a deranjat suficient de mult ca să fac o poză la mașina aia după.

Nu putea să fie în România la ora la care a fost arestat. Sau poate l-au adus după, într-un avion special poate militar care poate ajunge aici în câteva ore, cu realimentare. Sau poate au alte mijloace de transport gen hyperloop-ului lui Musk. Sau poate arestarea a fost fake ca la toți ceilalți iar el a fost aici cel puțin de miercuri. Teleportarea solomonarilor? Genică?

1:42 Over the years i saw in my vicinity people that were officially in jail in Romania but i don't believe i wrote much about beause of risk of become not credible for the other stuff i write. Elena Udrea is one i can remember, i once saw her at the beach.

I remember one thing, i don't remember if i wrote about, At Chinook Winds they once tore the floor apart in the middle of the casino were table games are now and poured some liquid adhesive that was puting out VOC, while people were in there, not at a very late or early hour, on a rather wide surface (about 1/4 od the whole floor) . Can they do that? Or before the ban, or maybe the same day a couple of women rubbing the machines with something that was emanating a very strong smell. I tried to move out of their way, they kept coming in the same driection. Could it be that stuff drove me nuts?

BTW i read on some forums about bannings and stuff, what i did to that Japanese guy and that was after his karate move was i told him he might pick his glasses from the floor. Though faster than me, he was much thinner and less muscular and about the same age. But i didn't do one single gesture towards him and left. For that most casinos would just have kicked me for the night. But they didn't do nothing until i got in the parking lot where they were few people. But in that day i refused to identified. One month later and several times being there, they told me about the ban again in a corner with very few people. Yesterday they again waited for me to clear the areas with people and cameras.

2:27 Or this guy. Why was this guy there dressed as a security officer, for months if not years? I even talked to him once not knowing who he was, complaining about the smoke on the beach. Ok i got it another genie and he left after i recognized him. Got it. Cosplaying.

Or him. I saw him one day before or after his "accident" and arrest in the parking lot at Home Depot. Yes i was mad that day, he was staring at me and i yelled at him.
4:54 I thought i had at least ten more 500 mg tablets amoxicilin and they were just gone. So i asked my doctor and in the same time i went to Beaverton and back and passed three big towers two times each and now i really do feel it on my whole body but mostly the infected areas. No it wasn't the AC, it started before i turned that one on.

I think it's all personalized. Last night at the Grocery Outlet in Lincoln City. This time i had the meter and Angela went inside and thought i would say there and wait for her but as soon as she left the meter was showing me levels in the 20s so i went inside after her.

When i got home i found the prescription.

On my way back i remembered something, i once out of many times had free lodging on a Sunday night at Chinook and was watching TV and saw a younger guy featuring a credible picture with an oval shaped but fluffy like a cloud thinking fitting the description here and searched for it but could not find it though i found something better.

Angela went to sleep (they upstairs didn't let her sleep last night) and the well trained remote controlled Japanese child actors are making a big commotion in the back. Big one this time. To me is continuation from this morning. 24/7. Relentless.

6:28 What a pig. Oink oink. I hate tainted windows too but... He was a real black Latino by the way. Not the ninja i see around. Earlier this year a cop pulled me in Newberg for a missing sticker. Now i think he could have pulled it himself. Or stolen by my neighbor. He kept telling me that i turned into the far lane which i didn't. He let me go with a warning.

Almost two hours after passing by those towers i feel pain almost like i was pepper sprayed.

9:05 Ok. In the video with the UFO there's an actual weather balloon deflated and falling. They were not weather balloons during the time of the story in the link and it seems the peasants knew or heave heard about it.

Another idea. Could it had been a flying dinosaur, or a giant bird, now extinct (in the area)? Something that could actually catch a human?

10:38 Doar un mic exemplu în care apare cuvântul Ottawa, și ceva cu India, precum și cuvântul cheie sikh, subliminal pentru sick. Apropo mi-am amintit de o fază. Bucovina, București.

June 26

9:30 Got awaken after 5 hours of sleep (same like the last two nights) around 8 by big noises (like a garbage truck though it's Monday) and then the woman next door was talking yelling on the phone for one hour (yes in Spanish though she is Japanese, i know ninja can do that. Learn foreign languages so well you wouldn't know).

I started to remember what i've done last night. Last passing area before Chevron on 26 when going west towards Mt Hood. There was this semi i was following for at least 15 minutes that was going uphill under speed limit though i think it was empty. Those guys even if the are well maintained, put a lot of carbon dioxide behind especially when going uphill, that usually makes me sleepy.

There were two more vehicles behind it. Those and myself started to pass the truck which went onto the right lane. However instead of slowing down it sped up like they usually do to maybe 65 or more. (Had 75 or when i last looked at speedometer while trying to pass it but was held by the other two).

I know when i started to pass my speed was about 65 with the shifter on automatic, at about 4500 rpm and probably in 4th gear. I don't know exactly why but the truck accelerated after those two guys ahead of me passed it and when passing area ended i was parallel with it and i continued to accelerate until i finally passed it too though it was ft behind me and flashing lights instead of slowing down and when i looked at the speedometer and i was doing 80, uphill.

I read on sites and forums last night that my car has a rpm soft limiter at 6000 rpm when you are in sequential mode, when it shifts gears down automatically (and you loose power when uphill of course) and one at 6500 when you are in automated mode, like i was, when it cuts power to the engine. If that had happened he would have hit me from behind for sure cause it was only ft behind me until i slowly accelerated to 90 and put some distance in between.

If i panicked when i saw it close behind and then flashing, and hit the gas pedal to the floor the car would have shifted back to 3rd, the rpm increasing maybe over 6500 at 90 and the engine would have stopped at that rpm.

How would a semi do 80 uphill, that is another question.

Have no idea what marks that truck had on it, but i'm sure it was caught on the cameras on the freeway and/or seen by other drivers. Or maybe he veered right towards Hood River before reaching the Government Camp area. It was all done intentionally, like so many times recently in all kind of situations, in cooperation with the two other drivers and these guys are criminals that should spend time behind bars.

Similar things happen to me in almost all my trips.

9:58 Saturday night after passing Newberg going east again i was going uphill at 65, passed one guy (a white SUV) that was slower in the right lane when i saw something crossing the street, from the left.

It would have taken too long to lift my foot from gas pedal and hit the breaks so i just veered left in the median lane trying to get behind it which i did, maybe except for its tail, don't know if the guy right and behind me hit it. Seconds later i realized by the white stripes on its back that imprinted on my retina that it was a skunk, the first time ever i saw one. It was pretty big, about the size of a raccoon, but faster.

I apologize for modifying the gear numbers so many times in this post, it was all based on guessing (can't see the gear you're in on the dashboard, only the letter D when in automatic).

12:00 This video shows 4500 rpm at 85 mph in 3rd but it's a different type of Elantra. However if you press on gas hard enough you can very easily downshift one ore two gears and reach 6500 when the the fuel to the engine is cut off. BTW this guy is crazy, he does 170 mph with a flat tire warning on the dashboard. I personally never went over 100 with any vehicle.

12:37 I know what happened back in August 20 2021. The driver who hit me could have pretended i again lost engine power when accelerating over 6500 or whatever rpm, but in that night i was going with speed limit on cruise control on a flat or even a bit downhill area on I5 in 6th gear (fuel efficiency gear) per reason of driving with a spare (right rear).

Only when i saw him very close behind i might have tried to accelerate but it was too late as it would have taken several seconds to shift from 6th to let's say 2nd and even in the 2nd gear could still go faster than 60 which i was going when he hit me (that Elantra was 1.8 engine but was rated at the same 150 hp).

One more thing. The cop called a towing company that refused to tow us for reason of distance (22 miles, wondering why the cop wouldn't tell them on the phone, when he called them, where to). Could one of those two towing guys i talked to while the cop was skillfully recording it audio and video to have been actually the driver of the truck who hit me, pretending he didn't run after all. So i actually i might have talked without knowing, with the help complicity of the cop with my ex would be killer.

3:10 No i didn't. Only now i know what happened, a walk through the relatively clean air also cleared my mind. BTW when i left i poured some more vinegar in the old rusted dog feces contaminated pan under the new water heater and the child actors came and started to yell like swallowed whole by giant serpents. So they did when i passed the camp (the children camp in the park, less than one mile away from down town Tulatin and Martinazi street) they enact every summer.

The mods at the battery. In that day in August 2021 i had poured from days before some JB weld steel reinforced adhesive on top of the nuts of the connectors to prevent them from getting loose, not on the connectors themselves. In fact, during engine running the vehicle is powered by the alternator (and not the battery that acts only as a filter) of which connectors runs through a series of plates on the positive with the negative doubled directly on the body. There was adhesive on the nut of the plates too, but not on or between the contacting plates under.

In that night after the accident and pulling on a street nearby i was casually talking in front of the open hood to the second cop and the driver of the towing truck that refused towing, about those mods.

The current configuration has modifications too, only there is no adhesive involved but only a second system doubling the stock con_nec_tors, actually a redundancy with bypassing and an extra connection to the ground on the negative and again bypassing the stock connector to the plates on the positive, with bolts soldered on top of poles. It is true, i saw yesterday one of the battery poles was a little bent, i don't know why, there is no extra weight on it.

Besides i never had problems with it, on the opposite, it improved vehicle's operation by increasing driveability, mileage and decreasing vibration. I have digital a voltmeter inserted in one of the plugs. Never lost power in years of experimenting with those, then why in that day?

The taillights on every car are build to reflect light and they would have been very visible in the dark when lit with headlights from behind, even if i lost power which i didn't.

In fact on another recent occasion i used the horn as last defense against an attempt of being again hit from behind and the other driver fell back. Now i know why. Horn was showing i had electric power.

But if i accidentally (mis)maneuvered and hit the gas pedal to the floor and hit the 6500 rev limit in 1st gear uphill, it could have looked like i lost electric power. I'm wondering what would have happened if i was wounded in an accident near Mt.Hood, far away from any hospital and ambulance services.

August 23 was only 2 days away and in that day at Les Schwab in Lake Owego i was assisted by a Les Schwab employee that looked like a right wing minister from one of the numerous Iohannis governments, Dan Vilceanu. It is rumored Iohannis has ties with the extreme right in Romania. He told me the tire with the flat i had earlier that day before the accident was unfixable as per a previous defective installation (done at the same shop). He insisted he took the tire in the trunk, where i was hit in that night.

What happens is though they are doing symbolic gestures trying to take credit of what followed that night in front of their right wing audience while the others don't care.

I think it was on May 2020 when driving with the same car, the first day a casino ever opened (Little Creek) after pandemics closure, when i went over a wheel (whole wheel, not shredded tire) exactly in that area, in the middle of the lane. Thing is i did not panic and hit the brakes, the car would have lowered its front (nose dive) and hit it and it barely touched it with some part (cross member i think).

After, i pulled from freeway in the area where she was missing from (not knowing at the time) to check for damages under the car.

In that night at the casino i went to the car several times (to drink of course) and last time i sat in line behind a woman, not unattractive but looking vulnerable, thin and not tall, who kept telling everybody she lost her purse and kept getting out and back in line (for temperature checking) to get in, and she didn't know why. I saw her later in the casino talking with two cops, then why the search that kept going for days?

4:49 This 2019 Elantra is closer to mine. You can realize it's a decent car. As for style, Koreans have a sense for a an elegant minimalism, beating classical Japanese basic pragmatism though lately they all started to look the same.

I think the man was doing 110 on a German autobahn in 5th gear at 6500 rpm (minute 1:58) right before car automatically shifted to 6th. In the US you can see this road quality only on recently paved freeways. Never seen continuous or interrupted lines so straight though confusing at 3:00 due to construction work. Crooked lane lines get you tired, fast. Good thing they also keep you challenged (and alert).

This, at 4:00. They do this to me a lot, slower cars changing lanes when i'm about to pass them. Good thing they didn't do it when he was passing them going 120 mph (193 kmh). And a stinking classic that fills your cabin (and filter) with smoke for the next 5 minutes. I see they're universal.

5:00 Christmass 2019 and 2020. It always happens around anniversaries and holidays. Today was my birthday.

6:30 Never new what steemit was until today when i was searching for his face.

No Contact Martial Arts

Martial Arts is a phrase that has a bit of GNotUnix, a bit of semantic redundancy in it don't you think. mArtial.

Martial is when our fight instinct gets channeled into a highly organized activity, maybe one at the apexes of human civilization. Cause most of us nowadays survive or do think so due to the highly organized, trained and endowed armies or all nations. Countries like US spend most of their (enormous) budget for defence of mostly other countries.

A balance of powers that brings prosperity.

But can it exist. As an unmediated link between our fight instinct (as in fight or flight) and fighting like a trained soldier. No i believe not. I think we delegate the power of our martial instincts to the politicians who control the armies. I think those who chose the path to let themselves be trained into soldiers, like in any trade, in the end are just applying their skills under the coordination of their generals.

During a war your unhinged fight instinct will get you killed immediately. Martial arts is above all discipline, but in the end war is an art governed maybe by the 36 stratagems of General Tsu.

Fighting by instinct is also an illusion that professional wrestlers, boxers, other entertainers are trying to maintain. The reason for its attractiveness. But everyone who ever looked into it knows it's all script and skills, more like acrobatics than fighting.

Did not really want to write the two paragraphs above until i saw the two words written together. Has little do to with what follows.

I've been wrestling with myself since this morning about writing this post. Literally. A persistent sharp middle back pain. Could not raise from bed to take the keyboard. Changed title in my mind several times (my mind, another little semantic trap, is our minds everything that's really us). Did some searches, only to get deeper in trouble.

Also an infinite feel of uselessness of an ant fighting the cosmic Godzilla. But i shall try cause you will see in the end, i have no choice. (This is definitely not one of those days when writing on the blog is fun).

There is a group in Bali, Indonesia that claim that can use no contact martial arts to knock an opponent unconscious. Yellow Bamboo. Others, all squeezed on a small Wikipedia page. From the category "self ridiculing". That sooner or later got debunked. The immediate question is, why and how to live a lifetime, like the "Kiai master" in the videos, ridiculing self? Could it be other things they are trying to cover? Now i vaguely remember is not the first time i saw the last video. Was searching for the same thing, from time to time. If there was something on the web documented, no matter how little, about the possibility of psychic martial arts. Or should i call it psychophysiological. Cause me personally i am more than convinced it exists and i spent a great deal of my life in this environment. Being remotely manipulated by such techniques, that are far from lethal, however, toxic (sometimes literally), debilitating and effective in manipulating (influencing) me and through me, others who happen to watch.

Most martial arts as we know them from competitions come from Japan. All so called competitive, recognized as sports, sometimes olympic "disciplines" that happen on a tatami start with a bow... Sumo wrestling which happens on clay and sand, also start with a bow, though somewhat more... complex (the purpose of a sumo match is to make your opponent touch the ground with things other than soles and/or push him out of the circle).

So we shall start (and probably end) with the bow. But what is the bow and where does it come from in Japan? The bow is so important in Japan that every newcomer knows that he started to be assimilated into the culture when he involuntarily bows during a phone conversation.

To me it looks like an unparalleled type of body language that is unique to Japan and lost its traces in history though it is a very important element of the culture, one more layer of ...overhead that makes it so hard to understand for the rest of the world. And since i took the picture and already posted it i will start again with it because i just realized i should have never posted it cause i may contribute to spread of toxic subliminal ideas as i did not understand from the beginning all of its elements.

Cause the two shores closing together by an apple or a sun or whatever may represent two people whose heads or minds are merging in a bow...

Cause i believe this is what it represents. A mind merge or melt that comes all the way from the corroborees of Australia... Towards a type of collective consciousness, maybe? Excluding the rest of the world maybe?

Like everything in Japan, the bow is taken to the extreme. There is a 15 degrees bow, 30, 45 and all the way to 90 and beyond...
But to me the most important part is just beginning. It is not only the muscles of the back that are involved in the bow. Holding of breath ensures some pressure in abdomen that helps with the posture. It is then where your organism becomes vulnerable. I do believe for the short time of the bow some psychophysiological synchronization occurs between the two. Something that would help mediate and place into the hierarchy the rest of the conversation.

However i came lately to discover that they also have what i call the "reverse bow". Available probably through oral tradition within ninjutsu, the trick is part of what i call the true no contact martial arts. One gets on the street in the way of the subject, catches him in a moment of stress, like crossing the street or a busy parking lot etc.., or in other busy place, like inside a casino, and  then bends... the other way, under a pretext, like tying shoelaces, searching for something in a car etc. while probably saying a mantra in his mind. Subject will be annoyed for a second maybe and then forget.

It happened to me for the second time within a week, for a dozen times in the last few months. I don't know exactly what happens, but your body has an urge to block back muscles and/or intestinal transit. The pain comes the second day and if not debilitating, it's scary because at this age you start thinking. Organ damaging diabetes, kidneys, pancreas, etc.. It may come with a true blockage of the bile.

To me, statistically proven enough. Don't have direct evidence and probably never will because it's all in their "national" oral tradition of a few. A tradition and a culture defended with the mighty power of US military and paid for the American people.

There is also shin shin shin gan. God's eye and mind. An area of ninjutsu training where they literally learn how to read to you mind (for what's worth it), through awakening of the ancient vibrational communication, common to all vertebrates, an atavism to humans. The bow may be based on that one as well, but just at the beginning of a conversation.

Based on that that may interfere with the subject, guess his next actions, force him to synchronize or out of his thinking cycles like through annoying sound, some coming constantly from as far as the apartment above. The squeaks. Slammed doors in the parking lot. Loading/unloading junk in pickups with unnecessary noise, kids specially trained in yelling for hours, etc.. Unnecessary noise during emptying the bins on Thursdays, with the 20 ton trucks. Blowing the parking lot for hours on Wednesdays with power blowers. Modified exhausts. Trailers going around the complex and hitting all 20 bumps etc..

Basically all activity in the complex is exaggerated, coordinated and targeted towards one single person with the purpose of constantly knocking him out, like in contactless martial arts.

January 13

1:30 Done it. In a couple of weeks i figured how to wire all devices in the apartment and get rid of wi-fi, buying only cables, ethernet to USB adapters (for the laptop and PC that doesn't have an ethernet ports) and using two old routers. One of them is the Netgear cable modem/router wi-fi that i used for the current provider. The other is only a Fios wi-fi/router i wasn't using right now with 4 ethernet output ports and one input. With the first on the right i supply ethernet to the second which has 4 ethernet, 2 USB output ports and acts as only as a switch. I don't mind using them both now in winter cause all the heat adds up to the electric heaters i use right now.

It doesn't look pretty, it will after i hide them under some furniture and reroute the cables. I got 3 devices and 5 useful ports with two to spare.

System monitoring on the Fios router (192.168.1.1 or 192.168.0.1) showing wi-fi disabled. On the other router there is a hardware switch. By clicking on the links you will open your own router page were you can change settings (disable wi-fi or radio etc..) like below. Factory password is either written on the router or is Password, password, pass, etc.. Can change it for better protection. If you changed it and forgot it, can reset the router to factory defaults by pressing the reset button which sometimes is hidden, for a number of seconds. Be careful not to mess with other settings or you will have to be on the... phone with customer service of your provider. Sometimes it takes a while for the cable router to scan channels after a reset.

I invite everybody to get rid of wi-fi (this is easy) and cell phones if possible. At home can use cell phones in a far corner of the room with bluetooth. Can use an app like google voice that comes with a free real phone number that can be called from any phone or fb messenger or anything you want on your wireless disabled laptop.

Most will shut down wi-fi (to save energy) by simply plugging in the ethernet cable or ethernet USB adapter but better check settings.

Switching to wired has an unexpected bonus. Notable speed increase.

Shut the phones down when you put them in your pocket or purse and do the same (use bluetooth) at work. Or at least make an experiment for a month. But full recovery from exposure takes a long time.

Get a landline (with a chorded set). They must be cheaper now.

2:18 Lloyd James Austin III (if  you have doubts look at the tip of the ears, also James - Yoshimitsu)

10:50 Yellen. Based on what. They didn't show us a spending report for the (fiscal) year 2022.

11:33 The bigger picture that includes the laptop with the ethernet/USB adapter (white in the picture) and the hub i used to turn the laptop into a PC with ports for mouse, keyboard and HDMI for the old PC monitor. The two routers and laptop used to be wi-fi emitters, not anymore. There's two more devices attached to the routers still left out of the picture, a 4K TV (with ethernet port) and a all in one PC also with ethernet/USB adapter identical with the one in the picture that also have been quieted down (a total of 5 emitters) and also the monitor. Two routers because the old Netgear cable/modem router only has 2 ethernet ports.

The speed and reliability have increased on all connections. Can attach anything to ethernet, such as tablets for kids using longer heavy duty flexible cables.

Plus the two phones that had both wi-fi and cellular (higher power needed to reach the towers) emitters. A total of 7 + 2 = 9 or a total of up to 5 watts of 2.4 GHz microwave emitters in the tiny apartment. I still take the phone with me everywhere I go for an emergency but is shut down. Plus the 1 watt leak at the "oven".

No there is no such thing as receiving only. The TV emits back continuously to keep a channel open for searches, buffering info etc.. I checked with the meter.

11:55 There is an electric box embedded in the water heater lid on top that gets filled with (possibly dirty) water every time i leave. Otherwise it stays dry for days. I tried to pour water in it and it doesn't go anywhere, there's only foam insulation under that sits pretty tight under the lid that has been poured in the space under the lid during assembly.

I think they figured ways to get in here after i leave. The two bottle sign, two empty bottles attached to the door with fishing line that fall into a different position every time i close the door can be beat. Two guys can do it. One in the back watching through the window and one opening and closing the door as many times as it takes to get them in the same position. It takes a few minutes i guess. Should look odd but who else is here to see but them.

Why would the ninja go through all the trouble to do this. For me to stink everywhere i go. To keep me sick and low key and looking and acting crazy.

1:45 As i was finishing here and getting ready for a walk, having a bit of halva, a desert snack popular in countries like Romania, made of sunflower seeds flour (usually leftovers after pressing out the oil) and sugar, rich in protein, fiber and minerals, very similar to protein bars), the tall blond guy that wasn't here in months, with a dog dressed with a jacket and with green boots came and walked like for 10 minutes around the yard, at one point getting real close to the door.

3:00 When i left i noticed the van had an orange sticker, like my truck used to have many times, though it was parked on a numbered spot. When i got back i felt the smell of heavy smoke from a few buildings away. I  think this time was cocaine, not kratom as usual. There were many holes around the building including one under the door. As i stepped outside, i saw one of the guys with the van in a rare apparition during daytime, possibly playing victim, threatening or both.

As i did my routine, like enlarging the holes a bit with a stick to add borax, there was this guy in an orange hoodie playing loud music and working on a car, giving "probably cause" to the management. Ran out of borax and went inside to get some more, i noticed a cart from the office again passing by in a rare move with two women talking aggressively.

Cart was passing when i got at the door and didn't see much except one of them was dressed in white, like i saw the other day (Monday?) (their uniform used to be black). Didn't have a chance to get some soil from other mounds and cover the slightly enlarged holes filled with borax yet, so the smoke is still around. (How come they didn't feel it?). Will get some more until they leave the area.

3:32 As i am a bit woozy from the smoke, i finished those and the smoke is only remnants that filters are slowly eliminating. Saw a guy passing and putting on the ground an aluminum tubular crotch, like to show me how it's done. I think over the years i have complained of smoke coming from the ground at least one hundred times.

4:00 But if you really really want to have a chance of understanding all my (miss)adventures into the wild wild west i recommend to first read Kafka's books. Kafka was born and his source of inspiration was the infinite Austro-Hungarian ethicless almost inhuman Asian style bureaucracy and attitude towards small and insignificant persons. Or the same, Clavell's Shogun with the infinite labyrinth-like narrative. A bonus of reading these books will be life will look to you so much more beautiful after.

6:30 Apropo de pozele de mai sus.

6:42 Pat Benatar effect or why i broke up with shy, sensitive, defenseless, vulnerable Maria. She said (early 1982): "Yesterday i met and had sex with my ex boyfriend, do you want to take his place?".

10:50 Cineva poate să-mi spună dacă tipul ăsta e Țiriac? Arată ca el, vorbește ca el, trebuie că e el.

11:20 Alte reacții subliminale la îndemnul meu de a trece pe cablu sau cine vă mai vrea binele.

11:42 See what i'm talking about? (alegoriile războiului).

You ain't nothin' but a hound dog
Cryin' all the time
Well, you ain't never caught a rabbit
And you ain't no friend of mine.

11:46 Living is easy with eyes closed.

11:48 Ok mi-am făcut curaj să scriu (niște paragrafe mai lungi) despre ce am mai pățit în seara asta. În timp ce făceam mâncare am băut și am adormit și m-am trezit pe la zece. După ce m-am hidratat cu mult ceai (de frunze de afine pentru diabet) mi-a venit chef de o plimbare (aveam ceea ce eu numesc o mahmureală plăcută, sunt și dintr-astea).

Am deschis ușa iar în parcare a venit cu un viraj rapid și cu farurile de Xenon în ochii mei tipul de sus. Am închis ușa fiindcă nu vreau să dau față cu el, că mă tem să nu-i spun ceva ce voi regreta după, fiindcă mă înnebunește cu mersul pe tavan (noaptea trecută la 4). Am așteptat să-l aud pe scări și sus scârțâind ca să știu că a urcat, dar după zece minute, nimic. Am rugat-o pe Angela să deschidă ușa și a văzut că nu-i în mașină. Un scârțâit scurt a confirmat. Deci se poate și fără zgomot.

De ce m-a păcălit. Ca să aibă timp nebunii să se pregătească. Am pornit, două mașini m-au chiorât în parcare, cu faruri albe modificate (cu LED aftermarket) și/sau defecte, fază mare, etc.. Când am trecut de clădirea a doua, dintr-un balcon, un câine (părea un ogar cenușiu dar cu capul mai mare și mai rotund) a lătrat doar o dată. Atât de tare încât nu am auzit în viața mea un asemenea lătrat. Peste 100 dB. Ok, nu am făcut atac de inimă, dar aveam o senzație ciudată, în tot corpul care m-a ținut 5 minute după.

Când am ajuns în stradă (după 5 minute de mers în complex) deja se adunaseră. Un SUV uriaș cu faruri și roți cât butoaiele a demarat show-ul în zgomot de eșapament modificat. Nu știu dacă aveți prin România asemenea chestii, părea ca de la monster jam, cu eșapament modificat la motor de 7 litri și roți cât butoaiele care se bălăngăneau puțin ca niște baloane moi.

Jocul se numește enervați-l de moarte pe jidanul Dracula dictatorul galactic Xenu.

Și au mai venit după, cu zecile la ora aia pustie (10:30 seara) mașini mai de stradă dar au făcut cam la fel. Zgomot, fum și lumini orbitoare în ochi. M-am enervat normal, mi s-a inflamat mucoasa nazală și am început să respir greu, dar stimulat de nervi. Când am ajuns în casă și m-am calmat, am constatat că am o greutate în respirație și am deschis gura ca să respir pe gură, dar mi-a trebuit cam jumătate de oră să mă recuperez.

Cine sunt. De câte ori m-am căznit și am reușit să-i zăresc în asemenea situații, când de obicei au geamuri fumurii, tot ce am putut să deslușesc a fost fețe de hikikomori urâți din Japonia, uneori cu mustețe din alea ridicole cum nu le stă bine la japonezi, încercând să pară nu știu, poate mexicani. De aceea nici nu mai încerc să întorc capul, sunt greu de văzut dar știu cine sunt. Însă mașinile sunt aranjate să pară ca de americani mai de la țară așa.

12:34 Vreți să știți toate fazele cu Pat Benatar? Eram în anul II și plecam de la Câmpulung la Iași. Pe tren (acceleratul Iași Timișoara Iași) era de servici chiar nașul și vecinul meu (Jean Constantin) deci nu aveam bilet (cred că de aici a început expresia și poate din păcate obiceiul). Stăteam în compartiment față în față cu ea, era dintr-o gașcă ce veneau din Ardeal. Micuță și nu prea, "studentă la Farmacie" îmbrăcată într-un palton maro destul de ponosit, nu prea vorbea și părea cam supărată (de fapt așa pare ea de obicei nici în video-uri nu prea zâmbește).

La un moment dat s-au ridicat toți și au plecat la vagonul restaurant și au lăsat-o în compartiment ca un bagaj (bine acum știu de ce). La care eu, gentleman, am invitat-o la vagonul restaurant unde am cheltuit banii de bilet normal iar nașul a trecut și pe acolo, cu o privire dojenitoare.

Stăteam în gazdă în Păcurari 33, la demisol, în casa unui fost coleg de liceu (ce semăna cu Ron Lauder, dar mult mai tânăr, nu se putea). Eram în pat și ascultam cu ea muzică grecească (făcusem o pasiune pe atunci) și a venit Cătălin colegul meu de gazdă (un balerin din Pecs care semăna cu Paul McCartney) și a aprins lumina, nu a zis nimic, era încruntat, a luat ceva și a plecat. Ea s-a dus și a stins lumina înapoi dar eu mă enervasem deja. Pe atunci aveam într-adevăr minte de copil. După câteva zile s-a întâmplat faza cu fostul ei prieten.

Acu vreo lună două în Lincoln City. Eram cu Angela în parcare la Roads End și mâncam salată de cartofi (un fel de salată orientală cu puțin zahăr) cu salam italian (o tradiție) și beam vin, toate de la Grocery Outlet și admiram apusul în ocean. La radio începe să cânte o melodie cu ea (că altfel nu mă prindeam). Vine o tipă cu o bicicletă cu pantaloni mulați ca în video și chiar o geacă neon verde, se pune în fața mașinii noastre să vadă și ea apusul.

(Nu știu de ce aici am un deja vu, parcă am mai scris sau gândit sau văzut odată chestia asta, poate în urmă cu 40 de ani).

Era însă bicicletă ca de bărbați cu bară și la un moment dat și-a băgat bara între picioarele care încă arată de la distanță cam la fel ca în video (73 de ani reali). A apus soarele și a plecat. Faza s-a mai repetat și în altă ocazie. Cred că încerca să-mi amintească faza cu lumina stinsă și aprinsă din 82 de la Iași. Ceea ce m-a provocat să scriu acum.

Dar atunci în tren nu e prima dată când am dat nas în nas cu ea. Tot în tren, veneam în vacanță de la Iași, eram prin ultimul an de liceu cred. O tipă tot așa, mai micuță, serioasă, stătea pe culoar lâng mine și la moment dat m-a întrebat unde cobor. La Câmpulung. "Nu vrei să mă ajuți, am acasă o sobă cu motorină și nu știu s-o pornesc". Era o iarnă frumoasă cu multă zăpadă. Teoretic, puteam să-mi las bagajul cu rufe murdare la bagaje de mână și să merg. Însă părea puțin speriată, mai în vârstă (Maria Zempleni e cu 11 ani mai în vârstă decât mine), expresia de pe fața ei nu coincidea cu intenția declarată și arunca priviri ca pentru consultare către un alt tip mai încolo pe culoar. Am refuzat politicos și cu regret.

Azi am pomenit-o prima dată fiindcă scriam ceva și au pus o melodie de-a ei la radio ce avea legătură ciudată cu ce scriam și m-am enervat.

Dacă regret ceva de atunci. Promisiunile vieții din anii 70 în România și cum a devenit totul un coșmar după 83.

Știu acum. Trapped  by your love. Chained to your side. Zempleni. "Xenu also spelled Xemu". Zamolxes, Zymase etc.