January 25

5:46 Slept 4-5 hours, can't sleep no more and i got an appointment at the dentist for an extraction at 8. Last time when i had one i've been hyperventilating throughout the whole procedure. How many times i went to the dentist like this, or Angela at jobs, with few hours of sleep?

It's not anxiety, yesterday i found another water bottle with hot sauce in one of the spots in the parking lot that have been crushed by a car. I'm also nauseated because i smell dog poo. I put half ounce of chlorine bleach in several gallons of water, soaked a towel and put it on top of one of the filters, the one i moved from bedroom. Had trouble opening the bottle with bleach we just got at WinCo, the cap has been leaking and had salt crystallized on the thread and probably the chlorine has lost some of the concentration. One thing that could have happened is at vibration, like from an exhaust, the chlorine has been released on demand in detectable amounts when someone is outside our door and we had the door open. The other filter that have been mostly in the living room is stopped, saturated with smoke, but we don't smoke. I all came from outside.

6:26 I opened the email from the firm i bought the mount on ebay on 6 with an USPS tracking number. After arriving from Korea at LAX not PDX on 16 with Rincos it traveled to Nevada with Pitney Bowes and it got here with USPS and scheduled for delivery today.

9:32 Drove around twice, the only place i could find was next to a garbage bin though i hate to park there. However until Thursday, got to remove the truck by then. There was one more isolated visitor space in front of the entrance of a building which i also don't like to use. The guy upstairs is not moving today. Total silence. He did that several times when he disappeared for weeks, with or without car in the spot.

At the dentist. He said there was no sign of infection within the tooth itself. Gum around it was sensitive though. But i already made my mind to postpone when i got there. Too many thing going on in the same time. Plan is to catch a day when i can sleep enough before i go there, probably next week.

Ok. He's awake and... squeaking.

12:09 Two versions of this post open in two tabs, just managed to lose an entire paragraph i just wrote. I was saying, after spending one hour in the bedroom watching Fringe and then falling asleep, i got awakened by a loud noise, thought it was USPS with my part, came at the computer, my part has been delivered at the locker, noise could have been from the movie, however, i realized the market went up, exactly like yesterday when i went in the bedroom or daily when i go in the kitchen area and out of direct view from the big living floor to ceiling window. Then i remembered a blog post i wrote about one and a half years ago, however, it was written incoherently, with many mistakes, tried to say too many things, probably missing the point, like so many others at that time. Here's the main thing from that post. The floor plan for this apartment. It is very similar to the one in Lake Oswego, which is weird in itself.

However the closet with water heater, washer and dryer is next to kitchen (there was no washer and dryer there), taking some space, at the other one was outside the balcony. End of lost paragraph.And here's the weird part or the one worth mentioning. The wall between kitchen and bathroom is not the normal thickness, as shown in the floor plan above, but one foot thick. 

I measured it indirectly, and in one occasion i even looked into it through a small hole. One person could easily fit in there. But i didn't look up carefully enough to see if there's an opening to the apartment above or i did and didn't see one.

The confirmation i was onto something. When i started writing, after i was looking for the old post, the man upstairs, who is actually tormenting me while probably pretending he gets here and we might spend time together started to make noises making me so nervous i accidentally deleted it first. Then when i started to rewrite it, he took off, after being here for several days in a row.

And the market is going back down. It's not the market that i'm interested in so much (though Angela has some money in a 401k indexed to market). It's the fact that everything i do and say trying to restore my reputation is being perpetually trashed by these guys, who probably prepared this place and planned this or at least versions of it for for a long long time, and i know this is important enough to some it reflects in the market, dramatically.

Also. If i could get my hands on some money or a job this wouldn't be possible for them anymore, but that is mission impossible. One example. Google, of which platform blogger i use for the current two blogs, is not showing in the statistics of this blog or the other with similarities how many people are reading them. It did once, at one post only in the beginning, a pure DIY thing, when i was showing like 100 hits an hour for several hours, and then it stopped giving me those numbers.

I would imagine everything would be the same if i added a donation button or something. Probably the money would be taken and then never given to me.

As for jobs, all i had was with their actors and the classic example is the software engineer job at Quadramed in 1998, where my boss was local TV star Andy Carson. Nobody but them can get close enough to me. Also, Romania is one of two countries of the whole European Union where people need a visa to travel to the US.

12:57 Just cut a small piece of pear to eat, an older guy with a leather jacket (i haven't seen before as seen from the back only as he was leaving) came promptly with a white i think hound dog at my living sliding door (which screen BTW is glued with silicone, never use it, would take minutes to remove that to open it).

2:59 Was watching Fringe and feeling kinda hyper, like protozoan influence again, got worried and took half Zyrtec (yes, under my tongue, to get to the bulged again parotid glands first). Things started to get better, colors around me not seeming so bright anymore (just like before past psychotic episodes, it is also a gorgeous day outside, still not sleepy after only 4 hours last night) and me not so high for no reason, though i just had a couple of drinks, but after Zyrtec. (Was having not the kinda high alcohol can give you, but the pure protozoan unimaginable dopamine high). Then i just watched a scene in the movie that reminded me of something. While driving to the dentist on 217 close to 99 i got behind a truck with a trailer that had something green, can't remember what, and it was smelling like exhaust or maybe something else. Though i swore in my mind this morning i won't do it again, when i got into the dentist's office i started talking with him without being able to stop for like half hour or so, like giving him a debriefing on what had recently happened to me. I think this has happened so many times, it's more like a rule. When i go there, (i thought until today) because i finally can see a human being who's listening to me, if only for trying figure out what's been going with my teeth. Especially when i drive alone (also in the Elantra we have an activated carbon cabin filter).

4:09 Angela came. Went outside to check to see if the new part fits. Then i saw this. When i got back inside after a few minutes outside, i felt the smoke mixed with dog smell.

10:32 Peaceful easy feeling.

BTW, is this the guy who was singing and playing with Anca Parghel?

11:06 One crazy idea came to me, for the first time tonight (watching too much Fringe?). Could this be possible? But i heard about it too many times: Missing time, suspicion of alien abductions, inserting probes. Could it be they've been stealing genetic material from US and all countries, born and raise and educate them and then bringing them back?

January 24

11:00 I went to the dentist for an emergency extraction, however, first appointment available was tomorrow at 8. I let them my new number (by caller ID calling at 9:30, cause i gave up memorizing my fast changing phone numbers) just in case there's a cancelation.

11:03 Today would be the first time i know of that America's addiction to their idols pushed the market up. Pragmatically on short term looks good but philosophically, this is so weird. I'm going to binge watch Fringe for the rest of the day. But after i figure the source of smoke outside.

11:17 One hole under wall, two under door. Burnt plastic like smell, probably meth. A utility machine from the city making a noise, probably canceling ambiental. After fixing the holes, i went back inside, the smell was so strong, i had to open the door.

It's hard to understand, buth the smoke from holes, though they are outside, go mostly inside, because of laminar thermal flow around building (Coandă effect). So the smell becomes apparent for an observer only when you open the door and the smoke literally comes out of your place, in which moment a siren went off. Hole is almost impossible to see in a 2D image. It's under the horizontal 4 inch pipe, 6 inches right of the joint.
11:25 What would you say if i told the sweetest woman (on screen) is even 3 years older?

12:15 More smoke, one hole just opened back up. I went outside to cover it, a continuous show in the parking lot.

12:25 Lecția pe care trebuie să o învățăm. Cred că o foarte mică minoritate de job-uri în firme strategice ar trebui, prin lege, să nu aibă dreptul la grevă. Dacă vrei să lucrezi acolo, vei ști de la început, va fi o condiție la angajare.

1:36 It is really scary. The way stock market goes up and down with no economical reasons. Stock market of course is not the majority of the capital in the US. Many corporation choose to sell stock, up to a percentage of their total assets or capital. However, many people have their retirement money in funds tied to stock market. But i bet they don't check it regularly to see how their money do.

After an unnatural constant rally since December 2018 (which happened during a so called pandemic) with a "hickup" at the beginning of "pandemic", following again another barely signaled crash back then in December 2018 of more than 20%, breaking record after record, triggering a yet unknown but solid, touchable inflation, with the weirdest part, shortage of... cars in dealerships and raising of prices of second hand cars, stock market crashed this month to a low of aprox. -11.3% at 9:30 PDT this morning which was really scary.

Than it has experienced the biggest rally i saw in one day over many years since i'm watching it, or over 4% until closing time, in two stages, last on Biden declaration of sending more troops, putting troops in allert but especially on him "changing his mind" in this direction which i was expecting cause his first decision on "minor incursions" was a bluff.

Also they never stand up to their decisions, for let's say, more than a while.

It's amazing how the sentiments of americans reflect onto their own money. It's also amazing how main media plays to ignore the most important economical and historical economic phenomena we are experiencing. It was not a crash, most are saying. It's all about Uk reign most will say. However, nobody knows nothing about what's going on in Ukraine. If you asked me, this is what's going on.

After fall of the Soviet Union, many Russians found themselves outside Russia, and some in historical communities where they are/were always majoritary. I don't know exactly, but i would assume some dumbass Ukrainian politicians have irritated those which happened to be on the border with Russia and they were crying for help to their brothers in mainland and Putin is playing on that feeling and masses troops. This is what's happening. Those people don't deserve a war except for their ignorance of what the west is feeling about Putin massing those troops right now. It is, if you like, climbing the ladder of illusions, where each rung disappears after just stepping onto the next (if you look down), like the stock market did today.

If it may lead to war. It would not be the first time when the ladder of illusions lead to hell, not heaven. 

And THEY may need a war right now, like they needed the "pandemic" which was not enough for the world which just started to learn who they are, to forget.

3:21 Ofsaid. A mai căzut o treaptă de sub picioare de pe scara iluziilor. După ce mulți ani media din România, încurajată de declarațiile constante de sprijin ale SUA au purtat un război cu Rusia mult mai intens (și necunoscut în vest) decât "războiul rece" însuși, acum... 4:29
 

9:04 You. Models in trenches. Faites l'amour, pas la guerre!

Look closer. Is she the darling who i think she is?

10:59 Just saw episode 7 season 1 of Fringe. Now i know what it's all about. Dr. Mengele's vindication. See what i'm talking about?

11:09/9:09 Terrra incognita

January 23

10:22 I knew it was going to be bad luck when Angela won 1000 dollars last night. After she just pulled 90 dollars from a card, she played by mistake one hand at 25 dollars and that hand brought her the whole amount. That made it for the last 2 or 3 times, not last 20-30, cause we didn't leave with a positive balance in long time. Also because i took the money in my pocket, leaving her with 100 bucks which she lost. Me too i won 50 bucks catching 4 deuces at poker which didn't happened in years where i lost continuously (except for Indian Head where i was holding even). However, Angela lost last week at the 401k because of market crash more than she lost in a whole year at casinos. The number of guys and girls who bend backwards right when i was looking. The never seen at this level nervous frenzy with many people rubbing with us, trying to create scenes, making me look like the super bad guy. Here, so obvious intentionally "casually" blocking the main alley at Spirit Mt, forcing me to go between machines (and behind a number of people) while they were raising drinks, to make me salivate in my subconscious. I wouldn't dare but since i had the courage and this is the type of scene it repeats so oftenly, here it goes. Here's a link for full quality of this video. Have to use a different player than the one on google drive though.

The woman vacuuming next to my table at the food court were i went to eat some fries i was craving, with me and the two cops from Tribal Police in line, at Spiritus Mountus "Food court". I remembered when i choked (dysphagia) that year after i saw "chew back ah" at the UFO festival, when a guy, again was sweeping there as i ate rice and teriyaki dried all day in those hot trays and i drove like that all the way home (with a break at the hospital parking in McMinnville), where it took some baking soda and  then vomited.

The guy and gal from the truck next to me at Chinook Winds. While Angela was playing, i went back in the car for another drink. I ate all the remaining potato salad not caring about the diabetes. And there they came. First simulating hitting me when arriving, than veering off and parking rear first. After 15 minutes of idling with their modified exhaust diesel, i was drunk enough to go and confront them.

Inside, a little boy with a little girl who came onto me, aggressive. I told them about the law (i read somewhere) that says in Oregon you can't idle for more than 15 minutes at a time in a parking lot on upper level (regardless of how big or small the sound is). He said it was only 12 minutes and they were from Utah. Then when i called security they finally stopped and went inside, wished me a good night while i gave them the finger. From enough distance, she was looking like 2 points on a scale from one to ten better than she should. Super model quality with here extra long legs in leather pants. Then, scared by my own courage of what i've done, i went to move the car, and while driving in the other parking lot the car in front of casino started beeping at me, because i went over 10 mph without seatbelt. I was curious to see what happens if i slow under 10, if it stop, so i hit the brakes, kinda hard, engine was cold, lots of vacuum, car almost stopped only to see an Asian guy jumping in front of my car from between two parked cars, whom i probably would have taken on my hood if i didn't brake, absolutely by chance.

Wondering all night if it was just some AI predicting my behaviour as it happens more and more (obvious to me only) as i believe they keep updating their hardwares and softwares and getting better by the day (probably simulating my whole thinking process). Just others to say. "It was the will of God himself!" (For me not to be arrested and "continue to do what i'm doing", that is deepeng in a bottomless pit of sin). Just a few examples out of many. In fact, it's continuous, from one scene blending into another. All professional actors moving around me.

Smoke at home. As soon we made it home, i guess around 5 AM, a sulfur smell, similar to the smell of landfill area we pass through on Hwy 18 close to McMinnville. (Why they had to make it so close to the town and 18, for anybody who go to Lincoln city to pass right through it?).

January 22

12:50/10:50 Ziua cu cinci lebede. Imaginați-vă cum va fi totuși pe 22 februarie...

Dressed to kill...

1:19 Există o conspirație, există o ocultă dar sunt atât de complicate (și se complică în continuare) și incredibile și sunt implicați atâția încât nu cred că cineva le poate descâlci timp de o viață. De fapt, pe asta se mizează.

2:10 Just figured something. You can climb the stairs and rub your special shoes in a certain way and electrify the dust on the concrete stairs. He climbed up and down at least 4 times today and every time i felt dust, inside. I took a shower and washed my hair three times and in the end was still dusty dry. Even right now, an hour after last climb, i went outside and felt dust in my eyes and throat.

January 21

12:03/10:03 Tous les mêmes... Abia ce am scris despre faptul că în SUA nu poți să ai job fără mașină...

2:29 Many have been written about Pearl Harbor... Here's one more...

9:12/7:12 Pe asta n-am văzut-o... Apropo, credeți că este întâmplătoare cerința lui Putin ca Bulgaria și România să fie retrase din NATO? Tocmai ce am spus care cred că este motivul pentru care românii nu pot călători în SUA fără vize, iar Bulgaria este în aceeași situație. A și o chestie... De ce nu și Ungaria?

10:20 I made a meatloaf and put the picture here, two days ago...

12:30 Soundgarden (Black Hole Sung Band) bassist.

12:53/10:53 A și încă o diferență mare între SUA și România. În SUA nu poți face plângere penală. Poți cel mult să te duci la poliție (locală), cea de stat are jurisdicție numai pe highways și freeways în afara localităților sau la șerif care e pe county (comitat, echivalent județ, sector) și să te plângi, dar nu în scris. 

Și primarul, de care aparține poliția locală și șeriful sunt aleși. Te duci acolo, este un telefon, vorbești cu dispecerul, te așezi pe un scaun și aștepți, dispecerul cheamă un polițist de pe teren, care vorbește cu tine, ia niște notițe, îți dă un număr de caz și cam atât. Sau poți suna la numărul de ne-urgențe și vine polițistul acasă, ceea ce nu e confortabil pentru tine fiindcă dacă el se simte neconfortabil mai duce și mâna la pistol din când în când, în funcție de tonul conversației, (până se convinge că nu ești violent, de obicei la sfârșit). Dacă polițistul nu consideră, plângerea nu merge mai departe.

9:19 About several days ago (when the guy upstairs moved back) i wrote about filling some holes with soil taken from near the hydrant. Apartment just filled with smoke, went outside and saw the holes collapsed again. For moment i just stepped and plugged the holes, but now soil is pushed deeper. It's like someone or something is stealing the soil, from underground. I was thinking of going and taking some soil to fill them, However, the same minivan that have been here for months, several hours a day (i saw it driven by Japanese people, men and women), is there, in the middle of the alley, flashing yellow lights and don't feel like it.

Got a big problem with a tooth, i need an extraction, and like usually, it became apparent at the beginning of the weekend. And i'm mad at myself, because i just discovered that the "not so infected tooth" caused other problems in the last 6 months, like pains in shoulders that started after exercise and never went away completely, knee hurt working on car that never heals, etc.. 

The tooth pain was vague enough for me to decide not to go to the dentist until i realized, yesterday the link. In Romania, they call it rheumatism, but it's actually bacterial infection spread from teeth in most vulnerable or vaguely injured parts of your body. But today. What happened today. After hours of feeling like chocking in here, with my hands cold (heart failure) per cause of some sort of ninja engineered mold, i went outside. Didn't really wanted, but people yelling, moving furniture, at first entrance, handywoman coming from the next entrance made me climb to the other alley, between building and garages. But then i discovered in the mulch 2 dog poos, other items, among them a small bottle with something that could have been medicine. Walk did me good, my hands started to heat up, but now i have an extra bug in my tooth that took off.

9:53 Today i also remembered something. The unusual looking guy, tall though Asian, dressed in an uniform, who was leading the team of guys spreading the redwood chips. Red Bark. Figure. I talked to him asking not to put too much like last time. I'm pretty sure he looked like this guy.

9:54 Just saw a 2006 documentary on Amazon. "Who killed the electric car?". I will summarize it with my own words, but you can read about in Wikipedia or simply see it. Here's the link to the trailer on youtube. EV1. Subliminal for evil?

I didn't know GM, under pressure from a California law, manufactured in 1996 a limited number of electric cars, all leased in California. For the purpose of testing the market, themselves came with the conclusion they weren't worth it. "There was no demand,  too expensive and underperforming" they said in the end when the leases ended and cars were taken back from regretful customers) (not mass produced, everything is more expensive). Other manufacturers including Toyota had similar projects.

With nickel metal hybrid batteries, they had an autonomy of 70 miles and went at California speeds of 80-90 mph. Enough for daily commute, though kinda small when compared to the gigantic SUVs some like to drive. Small trunk.

Enough to say. My own 98 Chevy S10 made in cooperation with Isuzu, had an electric version. For a bad rap?

Thing is they delayed the electric revolution by 20+ years.

One thing. You can see in this movie how real Californians look (or looked like). Not the Hollywood type. Not Tom Hunks or Schwarzenegger no uh-huh.

10:46/8:46 Din cauza terenului. Imaginați-vă cum ar fi tunelul, viaductul și în general o autostradă în zona aceea. Mult mai scump de construit, impact mai mare asupra mediului. Gaura aceea în munte ar fi de zece ori mai mare (ca suprafață secțiune), la fel și viaductul, etc..

Iar am scris de Szijjártó, prietenul rușilor, iar a venit "Predoiu" cu SIIJ. Chestiile astea mă deprimă.

11:13 Simona Halep, ceva mereu de văzut printre alte știri. De ce ne mai trebuie carnaval la Rio dacă avem tenis feminist?

11:31/9:31 Adică o treime din actorii și cântăreții din Ungaria sunt în străinătate, făcând pe politicienii și oamenii de afaceri.