March 14

1:12 There is a continuous dialog between my mind and the guy upstairs. Any change of emotions and the man squeaks in unspeakable ways. Also there is a guy in one of the balconies who yells in the phone for hours (i think in Spanish). Other noises outside. I was eating, standing and moving around, thinking of what i just posed or will, getting mad, and one more squeak blocked my esophagus and got me into another episode.

3:25 Many many things happened during my walk. There is a portable toilet at one place forgotten one a street, for months. On most quiet residential road, at every corners cars with women drivers come out of nowhere, stopping at signs, real close to me. Agricultural fires smoke everywhere. But here in the complex. They began digging deep (right after i left) next to a foundation of a building, reminding me of what i said about burying reactors cores under ground for safety.

5:10 Newest trend. If i don't let him squeak (i sit here with a voice recording app on my phone, ready to record) he starts the TV real loud, while Angela is trying to get more sleep, like he did the last few days. Useless to say, he is staying here all the time, with his other car at the Meridian parking lot.

6:02 One last squeak and then total silence, like someone pulled a plug. In the same moment i heard steps on the stairs, like he went away, though the car is still here. There was no time after the squeak above and the steps on the stairs. However he drove me nuts for the day.

Fukushima and Wormwood

12:19 On March 11 2022 it was exactly 11 years since March 11 2011 when after an earthquake and subsequent tsunami, 3 of the 6 reactors each in a separate building (Nr.4, 5 and 6 were shutdown for maintenance) at Fukushima power plant first exploded and their core melted down. Reactor Nr.4 spent rods pool exploded 4 days later but core did not melt down.

As power for cooling the reactor ceased because of emergency shutdown due to earthquake, and backup generators were flooded by tsunami, the coolant boiled end evaporated, exposing the rods to air and the high temperature generated steam and hydrogen was generated and exploded. Spent fuel rods on top are much more radioactive than new ones and contain elements that are daughters of uranium created during their useful service period, like plutonium, cesium, strontium, iodine. Because of explosions, those were spread contaminating a large area. Over one hundred thousand people were evacuated and some cannot return even today. Not a good idea to store spent fuel rods on top of reactors, for sure, per GE design.

However even the worst looking reactor, nr.3, image above does not look as bad as the damaged (3000 MW thermal, 1000 MW electric, for comparison one wind turbine is about 1 MW) Chernobyl Nr.4 (of 4 built next to each other, picture below) reactor were they were not spent fuel rods in pools on top. Apparently only one of the walls, the structure in front and the roof were blown. And they were two explosions heard by witnesses, in other words the reactor having the graphite moderators jammed because of a bad maneuver during an test boiled and exploded in two stages.  The man in the video tries to explain that the reactor was brought in a state of low power (200 MW) with all rods pulled out?, that did not allowed the turbine to produce enough electricity to power the pumps to cool the reactor when the rods were inserted and removed some of the water. Whatever.

Weirdest part. Did you know that one of the other reactors was shut down in 96 and another in 2000 after being restarted and at least one of the reactors still ran hours after explosion (i can swear i read that on the Wikipedia page, and not it's gone)? So there was enough power to the cooling pumps from the other reactors.

Now that i first examine these things keep asking myself. Why don't they build these reactors or at least the core part of the reactors underground deep enough not to cause such disasters if they fail? (This picture must have been taken the next day or something, cause other subsequent pictures show a much greater damage, due to burning of the core).

Searching for that phrase with google (first they wanted to shut it down but an engineer kept running nr.3 (or 1 or 2, or maybe all of them, can't remember until morning), i found this. On August 20 2004 London based New Scientist published an interview with a then 24 years old engineer who was working inside Chernobyl when disaster happened. Article is by subscription only but there is a transcript on a different site. From the picture above and  the interview one can consider the hypothesis Chernobyl reactor was hit by a missile.

March 13

10:00 I am awake for more than an hour but the second i came to the computer, two things happened. Place filled with an identified smoke and the man upstairs started to squeak. I went outside, found a few rather shallow pockets under grass, let the door open to air, but the man climbed down and up the stairs and then i lit a candle, to deal with eventual dust. Thing is, i can't read the news because i am too distracted by what's happening around me.

So i'm just going to write what came to mind before i came at the computer and my thoughts were only mine. For the first time i remember in this war, casualties numbers are given. One more military base have been hit and 35 people died. 30 missiles fired from over Black and Azov sea. At first, last night, were including "foreign military advisors" but that has changed according to... what? People's perception and will?

Back in the day before the advent of media kings and elites where ruling the world. Now peoples themselves. We live in a democracy. Back in the day kings and elites were ruling the world taking decisions based on the informations they had and sometimes taking people's will more or less into account. How many times they screwed up? Most times.

Nowadays we the people rule the world according to information given (volunteered) by this and that madia outlet. However news are very incomplete and fluid (changing all the time).

So i had to come at the computer and look at the map to see where that still untouched military base was sitting. Training camp, western most, near "NATO frontline", weapons and refugees convoys. Again today without dead foreign advisors that were mentioned last night. I didn't know until now there was a NATO frontline which implies NATO is at war, by their only rule, if one is hit, everyone is hit. I didn't know until now they were weapons convoys entering Ukraine (though it is kinda obvious, those Javelines must got there somehow). Or maybe they were keeping it quiet so the Russians won't know. Not their leaders, but the people. Or maybe Putin who is "constantly misinformed" and "is told what he wants to hear". One day Ukraine's military infrastructure is destroyed (without given casualties) and they need Javelins. Last day, a Russian Su-34 is hit by an Ukrainian air defense unit and another military base part of the still existing critical infrastructure is hit by Russians. This time only, with precise casualties list. I had to look to see what military bases have been hit before. But the only coherent thing i could find as timeline and locations was this animated Wikipedia time line (again done by volunteers, like Android - best things are free).

Yes it is true that people rule the world, but not the way they think. Or maybe in a way, the way they think. It's not like they are given information and then they take decisions that are executed. It's more like they approve or not what their leaders are doing. And the leaders are doing what the're doing based on polls, official or secret, and a little something more, which is always a surprise for the people. Pleasant or not, they have to go with what the leaders are doing cause weekend is short and Monday should go back to work. But what exactly are they doing? Leave it to them leaders politicians, they know what they're doing.

No in Russia there is no democracy, but politicians (sorry for the plural, there is only one, used it for consistency of style) are still doing what they can within limits of what people think (shadows always point north), again always with a twist or a flavor which is the unpredictability of a mad man's will combined with the fluidity and uncertainty of the whole situation. Or again, a fake madman hijacking and misdirecting the will of the people (hijacking and misdirecting happens in all countries), which is my favorite theory.

What exactly is happening in Ukraine, and generally with the world? Take a guess. Or read the news.

Yes we are safe, they are only taking our will into account, among with many other things (whatever serves them best). It's our minds that aren't.

1:03 A year has passed, got to switch back to xfinity by Comacast. Got the same modem i unplugged a year ago, but wait to see the fuss.

1:38 OK CNN changed an article, or replaced it with a summary, at the same link taken from my browser's history, can't find anymore the search terms "weapon convoys", "foreign military" etc.. NATO frontline is ubiquitous though again disappeared from this article. Or they just tricked me. I'm sorry i didn't put the link right away, as i always do, but i'm quite tired of putting links.

March 12

5:20 You can't stay in your apartment because of smoke and dust and noise and dog poop. Can't wait to leave for a wonderland like a 1000 or 2000 machines casino where you get lost. Get tired driving, by the exhaust of cars in front driving under speed limit. Do weird things to the car (because they messed with it at Ilany), probably under influence from smoke at home that last hours, after 5 days mostly inside and then getting really upset. Play a little, get more tired in a place with mind and alertness analyzing capabilities.

And then they pop in front of you. With slightly different looks, ages older then you know them from videos, just to prove you don't have any reaction. Zelenskyiv with a mask. Who knows  how many others. At Spirit Mountain, they cut the free internet so "i can get tipped" (I payed for unlimited data about a week ago, but to my surprise, the new plan will start on... 18). It's in their reach. It's what they do, calculate and trick everybody on this planet. I don't think we will ever get rid of them, how could it be possible cause we leave in their simulation. But what is their purpose? Just in case i die in an accident on my way home, to claim they did it, magically? Truth is they have some. Magic. Postures, gestures that just like true yogi, if you look at them could get your intestinal transit blocked. But only if under some influence, like dog poop that already does things to your body. Got palpitations for a week now. If i have a heart attack or stroke they will say they did it.

5:27/3:27 M-am gândit și așteptat aprox 12 ore cum să scriu fraza asta când ajung acasă. România a avut garanții de securitate mult mai serioase decât o discuție în doi. Tratate semnate și evident respectate după, încă înainte ca România să existe ca stat independent. Bine pe atunci statele erau altceva, lumea, diplomații din toate țările erau din elite (nobilime) școlite la Paris, exista noțiunea de onoare și în general toată lumea a fost altceva înainte de 1908 sau când s-a întâmplat fenomenul numit Tunguska, și invenția radio-ului și mult mai târziu, după al doilea război, a televiziunii, creatoarea de gură cască ce suntem. Pe scurt. Fără Rusia creștină și războiul ei cu turcii, România nu exista.

România, un stat încă tânăr, deși provinciile au existat de milenii, românii nu au experiența politică a altora și de asta ei cred în tot ce se spune.

5:51/3:51 Doi pași pe pasarelă (Két lépés a függőhídon) este titlul cărții cu copertă albastră a lui Imre Babics, un scriitor ungur de origine ucraineană (da, cu cercel, într-o ureche). Și astfel se explică felul cum arată domnul președinte. Dacă nu aveți altceva mai bun de făcut, alegeți-l, închinați-vă, credeți-l.

11:10 Maybe because of this?

11:38 Upstairs. Coming back home when i opened the news. Squeaking when i read certain news or when i decide to post something.  Heavily influencing. Yeah, it worked. I forgot what i wanted to write. Truth is, i got really, really sick, a bit more than a week after he came back. He disappeared mysteriously, for more than a month, with car left in the parking lot (he did it several times in the last few months). They even started to pop in front of me on the streets cars with his letters part of his LPN, like wanted to say, i have something to do with his "disappearance". But he came back. Actually i believe he was still around, in a different apartment, using a gray window tinted window Toyota. Electrifying and raising dust with his shoes when he climbs the stairs above my door and then agitating the electrified dust with audible and ultrasonic squeaks, by ancient ninja techniques. It could be him. But if i re-open the news, i will certainly find something to write about. Cause it's all a big mess.

Yeah, another face i saw yesterday at one of the casinos, can't remember in which. It's all like a dream (nightmare) to me (slept 4 hours, me i can't sleep in weekends and Angela only can sleep after going there). Heaven's Gate and Hell's Flames... not sure, was the name of a program at the Beaverton Nazarene Church meant to bring in more members, where pastor Dennis Swift was singer Meat Loaf and where i befriended Shawn Parker (later General Petraeus) and auto mechanic Dave Diggins (Tom Cruise).

My glucometer quit working. Also, wanted (thought of) to get at the car to get the voltmeter to find a couple of batteries for the weather station sensor that quit working, but they promptly brought kids.

12:54 Putain!

1:18 Cooked some food. I just bought a chef's knife on Amazon, i knew the brand cause Angela had an utility knife for years that never needed sharpening. But the thing is so sharp i'm afraid to use it. Went at the car to fix some stupid things i've done myself. When i was under the influence of the smoke. Within 10 minutes all kids and teens passed by. Came back inside to let another group pass. Here he's waiting with squeaks.

3:35 "President Putin claims in the .midst of war, the entire military infrastructure has been destroyed"

March 11

10:00 What took them so long and how long will it take? According to this article, they (eventually, in the future) will do something about the guided (non-ballistic) phase of their flight by frying their electronics.

10:03 Sacred Heart. Dumuzi and Ishtar in Sumer/Babylon. Isten.

10:19 Never care...  (I bet you think this song is about you)

1:40/11:40 Hours before Kamala Harris visit to Romania, an old type soviet drone coming from Ukraine apparently on a ballistic trajectory (according to a tweet post), passed over Romania, (23 minutes after midnight, on March 11 or visit day), Hungary, and ended near Zagreb, Croatia, all three being NATO countries. It would made sense that during a US presidential visit to a country like Romania, especially during a war at the border, security is taken over by the US part, as having far more means and being far more advanced like in air space surveillance.

I tried to put the link in the picture above to a comment that says the drone passed near Csenger. Should they have raised a Grippen, could have intercepted the missile, as Grippen flies at least 2.5 faster than Tu141.