October 31

10:55 Angela and i escaped yesterday to Lincoln City. However, by the time i got there i was really sick because breathing through a congested nose because of smoke because of numerous small or "controlled" wildfires along the route. I realized i got contaminated real bad with T gondii from sick dog poo i picked when i gathered the leaves and/or probably from another source. The trick with almond butter and grapefruit juice didn't work anymore, got just too much in my system already. Then i remembered the trick with Zyrtec, as Zyrtec being studied as best possible treatment for toxoplasmosis, and that probably saved me from going to a hospital, after taking three 10 mg doses. Trouble is, by killing the parasite, Zyrtec makes you feel really low and sleepy. Feels like need to sleep for days. In those moments, some caffeine and even alcohol may help.

As i said many times before, T gondii increases dopamine, the "feel good" neurotransmitter. That keeps you going after infection, like feeling high and breathing through a congested nose until you completely crash, with shortness of breath, low oxygen level, etc..

The newest source could be this. Next door or wall neighbor, apt.2 got this huge fan in the window, a similar one on the other side of the building. The fan increases a bit the pressure inside, enough to push whatever is in the air inside into the (empty) walls and from there into our apartment, probably upstairs too. He's got a dog that goes alone in the yard and i picked droppings several times next to his patio. The mystery of the man upstairs not being here in the last weeks/months. After being back a few days (week before Halloween) he left early Saturday morning. All after staying here for days at at time, since he moved in the spring. The neighbor next door or wall has a dog and smokes. Cigarettes, possibly kratom,  marijuana which with dog smell comes through the walls in here. I opened main door while i'm writing here and got nauseated.

11:28 Ok this is weird. Can't find the article where it says Zyrtec inhibits T gondii though i know for sure it does because i bought it right after i read. Instead i found (again) something about omeprazole (which i took for years) and a number of antipsychotic and antihistamine drugs which makes me think again, what if T gondii causes all these diseases, one of the first responses of your body to infection is to increase stomach acid and omeprazole actually kills or suppresses the parasite. Same with other "psychiatric" diseases, with mood swings being caused by proliferation of parasite after eating, etc..

Strangely enough, Scientology holds a similar belief, that "psychiatric" diseases are caused by... Tethans ("clustering" to human bodies), and antihistamine drugs help suppress those.

12:45 Why from dogs and not from cats (which would be directly from source). For fulfilling the prophecy of St.Dominic's mother? Who made all the fires along Hwy 99 and 18 last night?

Could the current pandemic which is said to be caused by an invisible virus, actually be caused by rapidly mutating strains of T gondii (that cannot be suppressed by the immune system of people that are already old and sick)? It is said that a large percentage of human population is infected with the parasite, ignored by the doctors because of difficulty of diagnosis and not being an emergency because of so many people being positive and asymptomatic, however, what if newer more virulent strains take over?

Could this explain the anecdotal reports which say COVID can be treated with anti-parasitic drugs, some antibiotics? Anybody other than me ever tried antihistamines, omeprazole, combined with calmly breathing on mouth,  maybe getting oxygen for a few hours until your body can breath without difficulty again?

That because to me it happened so many times, many years before COVID. I went to ER maybe up to 100 times in those years with shortness of breath (never got to the point when oxygen was low), and every time all they did was let me wait, while breathing the clean air inside, and in a few occasions when i stayed with "anxiety" or "panic" attacks and not sleeping for a week, they put me in psychiatric wards.

4:29/2:29 Șansele matematice ale guvernului Ciucă.

Știți ce ma atrage pe mine la păcănele? În primul rând, să mai ies de aici, să mai văd și să mai aud altceva. Uneori, Oceanul cel Magic, Mount Hood-ul maiestuos și deșertul misterios. Alte ori, doar râsete și chiuituri, poate artificiale. Un păhărel pe furiș în parcare.

Știu de mult că nu sunt jocuri de noroc. Au poate o cameră pentru fiecare 2-3 mașini cu care capturează și analizează fețele, mișcarea mâinilor. Ceva softuri apoi îți hotărăsc mâna următoare. Când nu ești atent să apeși butonul să oprești defilarea, îți bagă ceva. Când termini banii introduși, îți bagă o mână, două, să mai joci și să mai scoți bani din buzunar. La fel când te hotărăști să pleci de la o mașină. Din când în când (la ore și după algoritmuri prestabilite, când lumea începe să plece masiv) toate mașinile încep să meargă, poate vreo zece minute, ca să formeze adicții. Pe mine mă amuză să încerc să păcălesc aceste softuri, de cele mai multe ori nu reușesc. Sau chiar dacă reușesc o mână, îmi iau înapoi ce am câștigat, la următoarele zece, etc..

7:24 Yeah i know it feels really bad especially at the end of an "anxiety attack" complete with shortness of breath. It takes lots of courage, after you figure out, to wait to normalize while breathing with the open mouth until you forget about. In a sense, breathing through a congested nose for maybe half an hour at the end feels like holding breath for several minutes, but the sense of urgency is much more pronounced and prolonged, feels like your chest is going to get crushed or something. To me it happened so many times, i don't care anymore.

I never thought i had or don't know if, the variety of wine called Sauvignon blanc. One of the best wines i figure. Until last Sunday. (Coincidence with the shootings on the set by Alec Baldwin?). Today i told Angela to look and see if there isn't any at WinCo. (Took her there, went to pick her in an hour, did some stuff in between). She didn't know what i posted today, the only brand she could find was...