March 22

At about 1:00 AM i felt an irritating smoke. Then Angela woke up coughing. I had to go outside and plug a little "volcano" right under the door. Lost some of the concentration and inspiration.

2:00 A new wave of smoke. Smaller holes under the door.

12:05 If this was real, "Stormy Daniels" should have been charged with blackmail or extortion as well. But i believe statutes of limitation for both alleged crimes have passed. Trump is an idiot or consistently acts like one.

12:28 There are 4 bins around the building and two can be seen from my windows or door. One across the alley (first picture), one across the yard (on top of the gray car), second. There is one more at the other end of the garages in the second picture and one not visible at the same distance with the one in the first. Only one is overflowing (somebody took the bags yesterday from around it, this is one day only) the other two are not full, and there is one more at about the same distance that is also not full. It is my understanding that Republic garbage services didn't empty the bin across but then i don't understand so many garbage bags next to the first bin. But there is also a smell of burnt garbage in the air that makes me sick.

2:50 Here's the picture with the 3rd bin taken from the parking spot outside the apartment. I took it when i left. The same distance as the first one servicing probably more buildings. I cost me a lot. First i had to return to get the memory card for the camera which i forgot in the reader. Then i forgot to check the sign at the door. After that i walked all the way to the street and then i remembered and came back to check the sign. Now i'm looking for new holes in the windows frame or everywhere else. Can't tell if it smells like dust or not because when i came back they were raising dust from the parking lot with the blowers all the way to the sky. Tried to avoid it but got in bigger trouble. From behind, the school bus came. Now i was caught between the schoolbus and the blower. Only one kid so cute fair who couldn't possibly belong to this place, about 5 years old, was walking alone on the alley probably towards "his apartment" etc..
3:00 Dangerous dreaded stairs. Figured the mystery with the street work. They installed a handicapped passage for crossing the street. Though there is not a signalled crosswalk there. Yet. I have big trouble crossing that street at any point cause cars never stop coming.

As soon as i cross i have to climb the dreaded stairs. Cause there is enough if one guy with bad exhaust passes to fill the "canion" of 65 street next to hospital with smoke. Like it happened today in the all white residential area with that guy who was searching an address.

Never realized until today. Those stairs are dangerous because the rungs are smaller than my ft which is about 11 inches. About 25 rungs of pure adrenaline. Should have awakened me but it didn't.

Entering the residential area on Borland. Was too slow to react when the first KGB car passed. It happens always in the same area, near the cell phone tower. Two more will usually follow on the whole street.

Every time when i pass that school there are kids playing outside.

In the park. After that stinky pickup passed i took the alley by the river. Soon after i met with Ozzy and Sharon, wearing  their well known dark round glasses. But it took me seconds after the encounter to realize who they were. He was wearing a large hat pointing at Martin's hat. I wanted to stop to try and tell him something about the hat and Martin but i changed my mind.

One blond woman was sitting on a bench facing the river bending forward and touching her knees with her head (the reverted bow, again, several times today like yesterday). Usually back pain follows.

The Russian guy talking on his phone. From time to time (every two months or so) i see in the park a Russian guy talking aloud in Russian on his speakerphone. Always. Followed by his wife. Rather short, balancing in a peculiar way from one ft to another, like a penguin or a true ninja in disguise, to occupy more space or look scary or simply impressive. This is all i could do today with my sleepy head.

4:54 I was eating with blinds open and was visible from outside and two persons with three dogs came 1 ft away from my patio and threw a poo in there. Then i asked him why and he said "she can do wherever she wants". It was a gray big fat dog reminding of a pig. I told him he could see me eating and he said i never saw you in my f... life. The shape and size of the poo belonged to a dog that had let numerous poohs around here in the last few months. I think i know who they were. 

5:53 I believe it's an old tactic. Covering s... with more s....

6:50 It's been 18 hours since i'm in smoke continuously. Finally found the source. When i did, i found they had the window open around the corner and making noises like sitting and eating. Just threw some potting soil i had in a bag over  the holes. Can't reach with my ft or anything to step on and stop the smoke. I think this time is marijuana.

8:12 As i was expecting, with the smoke and everything the man upstairst started to yell...

June 16

12:55 They say that narrowing your focus while running or walking will help you run faster, which i believe it is true, but not by reasons of psychology. It's simply because you use less brain power that can range from 25 watts when brain is idling to several times more at peak which is comparable to all your muscle use in that moment. That would count in the balance of using body resources like oxygen and nutrients from bloodstream, liver and gut.

As i'm getting older and as i have been so stressed out and under influence of pollutants and alcohol lately i can feel my brain power is sleeping away. Narrowing arteries, reduced pulmonary capacity, name it. As i walk i have options. Walk very slow minding nothing. This help your brain rest and oxygenate. Walk fast and not think much. As you walk fast, your brain is slowing down, for the same reasons again loading slowly with oxygen.

But when they start with the weird LPN number and scenes all around me i get mad and that's when my brain accelerates. The rush. In a way, is an exercise, pushing myself to physiological limits and that helps for new ideas to set in as soon as the wave of adrenaline slows down, etc..

It's a matter of choice. You can choose to not think much and live happily ever after. If you can afford it. People with a very solid education and discipline need to think less to survive. But what to do when new and exciting technologies like internet and everything that comes with it are starting to challenge what you've learned during your very educated youth? Or when you discover your life has been the exact opposite of what you thought it was? Or what if you lived half of your life in a country where everything has been upside down?

3:23 Ministrul Apărării halucinează. Avioanele F35 sunt invizibile pe radar. Au alte tipuri de armament, radare, comandă a focului. Un singur F35 face cât 20 de F16 chiar dacă nu e integrat cu nimic. O dovedește prezența celor două F35 americane în România. Bani au fost și sunt la buget, cu o mică parte din bugetul pe un singur an al MAPN s-ar putea cumpăra tot necesarul de F35. Banii însă dispar pe tăcute iar la anul se alocă din nou ca într-un deja-vu film sci-fi prost. Anul acesta de exemplu ministerul a avut peste 7 miliarde de euro, din care doar unul și ceva cheltuieli cu salariile (de personal). Un F35 în funcție de opțiuni e maximum 120 milioane, iar noi luăm F16 expirate de la norvegieni, din alea conduse de o bătrână la piață o dată pe săptămână, "nu bate nu troncăne motorul trage foarte bine nu scoate fum", 32 de bucăți cu 450 milioane total, când o mai fi și aia, pentru asta se așteaptă o lege, nu se putea da o ordonanță de urgență ca de obicei.

Guvernul va adopta legea?

Și dacă tot m-am uitat la bugetul MAPN. Ce bunuri și servicii cumpără ei într-un an de 3 miliarde lei? Dar ce știu mai bine miniștrii noștri decât să spună că nu se poate și să se plângă că nu au bani? 4 miliarde asistență socială? Militarii au alt fel de pensii, separate, plătite din bugetul de stat și nu cel de asigurări sociale?

5:05 Tenori, mușchetari, cum vreți. Cu Iohannis, coada lungă de la trident, 4.

9:59 Thomas McNight

10:50 Went to bed at 5 when Angela went to work. The man upstairs has yelled all night. Woke at 10 after five hours. Stomach was hurting from the cheap wine i drank last night. One or two glasses. I think it's better this way. I'm gonna drink less. All i did in one hour was this. The man upstairs woke too. While i was finishing, a girl about the age of the girls supposedly killed by Dincă passed one ft away from my patio with open door, with a dog and a leash entangled around her body and a martyr expression on her face. Thinking the whole case was made up. Need to go to Walmart to return the high mileage oil i bought by mistake last night and buy another type, need to change oil before i go in the 1000 mile trip next week but first i got to get some breakfast. Bone broth, last health craze, with noodles, maybe some eggs. Gotta keep the recording app on, otherwise the man in the balcony, the man upstairs start acting. Thinking at the show they will put at returns at Walmart last time. Thinking if i will find a place for my truck when i get back.

2:10 Teenager day. Today everywhere i went, thin or thick bodied teenagers, at Walmart, when i got back here by example at one time they were like ten of them in two-three groups where i parked. No major events when i walked the 3 miles, or can't remember (my brain was asleep, need more sleep). But some ideas again did come to me. First one.

Dincă, Dîncu, Dinescu.



4:03 Titi Pasnicu?

7:22 Mahabone

Could never figured in any other way were the incredible exotic attractiveness of Boney M music comes from. For the most of this timeless happy song, the "picking" synth that does the job of a rhythm guitar played in the air by the bass singer Bobby Farrell done in black face by a Hungarian opera bass singer is tuned to sound like a didgeridoo. Yes, from were women glow and man thunder plunder.

Everybody knows. "Bobby Farrell" "died" in a hotel in Sankt Petersburg probably after performing this act one last time.

7:49 By chance just saw one more time the face of this guy who looks like the owner of a shop in Beaverton called All Automotive. I used to hang in there for maybe up to a year because again i was choking at home. During winter time he was heating the shop with an (car used) oil burner that looked like a barrel and was somewhere under the roof. There was this Taco Bell right behind the shop where i was buying food during lunch time. However in the summer they tried to set me on fire.

A bit earlier. A number of teens came in the backyard. Two of them, one with a backpack went this side of the building and made some noises like climbing the 7 rungs and touching the rail of the stairs.

8:07 Thou shalt love thyself.

8:18 Ice cream van was here, the teens now are back in the yard where i can see them while working on laptop on the edge of the couch.

10:17 Da viața ar fi ușoară dacă ăștia s-ar lăsa dar continuă să scrie istoria, nestingeriți.

Brain power reaction. Counting down neurons. Am fost la plimbare și m-am focusat cu privirea înainte și nu am văzut nici un neuron pierdut pe stradă. Professor my a...s.

tryadha vyavasthita

May 21

2:15 Fuego

7:55 Marcel Ciolacu Independența

9:40 Fătălăul


A... and them...
10:05 At the car there is at least one quart of a quart of oil on top of what i put. It passes the upper limit (on a leveled parking place), blows through PCV and through the catch can giving the same symptoms as before. Tried to do more investigation and thinking of pulling it out but is next to impossible because so many people are putting up a show outside.

Same yesterday at Indian Head. They gave us 95 dollars in free play and 15 dollars in food but that not justifies the long drive there over the mountains. At two of the poker machines there was a weird message popping on the display ... No comms... And then the machines restarted by themselve. A couple of times...

Very few whites, and "mexicans" and a lot of Japanese dressed and with the haircuts and extra make up made to look like native americans... The only weird thing was they were too short... At the players club they were playing with the microphone, creating lots of static noise before and after announcements... Romanian singer Paul Surugiu acting as a security guard...

4:17 I went to check if i didn't forget anything at the car which i did, because of all distractions and noises. Earlier i went at the street parking lot (too many people moving around here), pulled one quart or oil, put back half clean, it was now at the lower limit, cannot find here a level place to measure it. I spilled a bit of oil, pulled the spark plug coils and forgot to tighten the bolts. There is an empty jug of oil of the exact brand as i used, only 5W30 next to the garbage bin for a few days now. I think it survived Thursday.

Which i did, then then when i closed the hood, i realized for the first time the left headlight was moving. I was thinking. Maybe that is the reason they are blinding me at night. So i went and grabbed the sockets and tightened those bolts a bit and i looked at the other one and saw there was a plastic composite flange that was glued with adhesive before i had the car and the adhesive broke. Both headlights have been replaced, one at the first accident when the car was totaled and one at the second, it was the one i bought and took it to the shop.

In both cases there was no structural damage of the car, just too many panels damaged from denting the car from front to rear, by driving to close to something, on both sides. Both headlights.

So i went inside, cleaned both surfaces from the old adhesive, poured a finger tip amount of Steel Reinforced JB Weld in a water bottle lid, grabbed a napkin with a bit of alcohol, some guy 100 ft away started to cough like they always do, wiped everything and in the moment i started to mix the adhesive here came this blue gray car that stopped next to mine.

I told him that was not a parking spot, the Japanese driver went and took some sort of walking cart from the car and from the right rear seat came my old friend, the owner of the van with many merchandises (rice, barrels of disinfectant, now sacks of empty cans) who was tormenting me for years with his broken exhaust 5 liter Dodge and almost pushed me out of the way. As i wasn't moving because i had to put the adhesive on, and did not understand what he was trying to do, having my mind on what i was doing, he went with the cart over the curb, and slowly moved forward in the grass area.

Then he stopped ft away from me, and i asked him why and he said he needed to rest. Then he told me that is the only way he can get inside, because of the two rungs at the entrance next to his spot. How about the stairs. A few other guys waited and took him on the stairs. He apparently has an amputated leg but my guess is he is just bending it. In that moment i heard a whistling sound and saw an F15 gliding from west to east, about 1000 ft above, at low speed.

4:27 One of the cash machines at the casinos gave me a Maya Angelou silver quarter. I was curious and looked at it and saw a clear symbol of the rising Sun, as seen on Japanese flags or ancient paintings. I further googled away her name and what  i found was...

November 27

3:20 AM Am dormit cam două ore și jumătate și m-am trezit pe la 2 noaptea cu indicații clare că nu mai pot dormi. Am deschis știrile din sertarul de pe măsuță de lângă canapea (am spus acum vreo câteva zile că mi-am pus PC-ul, monitorul și alte chestii într-un sertar, ca să mă pot muta ușor în dormitor și înapoi).

În dormitor pot sta ziua, când Angela nu e acasă, întins la calc. fiindcă am probleme severe de circulație periferică. Bănuiesc capilare distruse de microunde de la wi-fi-ul de la un PC care l-am ținut mulți ani la picioare sub masă. Pun sertarul în pat lângă mine și bobinez. Fiindcă nu mai am un laptop și mi-a fost lene să-mi iau altul.

E ziuă în România, deci multă acțiune. Deschid deci știrile și ce bifez. 

Ok mi-am zis. Poate e coincidență. De unde, au fost prea multe. Cu zecile în fiecare zi și asta doar din cele evidente, că nu stau să le caut. Mai citesc puțin, dau de alta.

Nu e prima dată când ăștia folosesc drapelul pentru a integra mesaje subversive. E îndoit în așa fel încât partea roșie formează o jumătate de cruce. Crucea în sânge din postarea mea de ieri. Care era de fapt un plus și însemna pozitiv la testul Wassermann. (După ce am pus link-ul, au schimbat poza în articol însă a rămas în memoria google cache).

Mai sunt și altele dar trebuie să deschid un alt fir de discuție. Enormitățile din media care sunt prevalente ca de obicei.

ANCOM, care conform altor tovarăși (companioni, ca în filmul acela Sci-Fi, am uitat cum se cheamă) trebuia să fi fost informat de SRI și alte instituții, s-au trezit și ei post factum. Păi unde viețuiau ei înainte de domenica Orbanului?

Marea resetare. După Iohannis, care a părăsit scena nervos, reforme. De câte ori am re-trăit acest deja vu? Vă spun eu de câte ori. De câte ori s-a schimbat guvernul și președintele. Odată pe an, când se îngroșa gluma prea tare, de obicei în jurul începutul anului (care aduce aprobarea bugetului).

Să tragem cu buretele peste ce a fost, să resetăm totul (adică să schimbăm fețele (la masa poporului)). Să uităm de furturile enorme din trecut (din bogatul buget) și să o luăm de la capăt.

Călin Georgescu, un călător în timp venit din viitor? Oricine vine din trecut fără să fi fost în conștiința publicului poate fi suspectat că de fapt vine din viitor. Poate nu el ca persoană dar toate caracteristicile sale, întruchipate de un actor. Prea multe din ce spune se aseamănă cu ce am spus eu în trecut, dar cu un "twist" irațional, adică niște strâmbături menite să distrugă tot ce am spus după multă muncă.

Un exemplu. Eu am spus odată și mențin, că nano particule, adică mici bucăți din suprafața de oxid de crom din instalațiile folosite în procesarea alimentelor ajung în alimente.

Pot fi din compresoarele sau țevile folosite la îmbutelierea bioxidului de carbon care ajunge în băuturile răcoritoare așa zid răcoritoare. Sucuri cum spune el. Soda în engleză. Sau de la tocătoarele de carne folosite la fabricarea salamurilor. Sau chiar de la râșnița dvs. de cafea etc..

Cromul (și aliajele sale ca oțelul așa zis inoxidabil) nu este un material inoxidabil nativ ca aurul dar are proprietatea de a se acoperi instant când este expus la oxigen de un oxid protector foarte dur.

Care totuși se rupe uneori în bucăți de mărimea a câtorva zeci sau sute de molecule (nanometrice deci) și fiind foarte dure și ascuțite după rupere poate distruge mai multe celule trecând in una în alta într-un mod similar cu azbestul înainte de a se descoperi. Aceeași chestie pentru oxidul de aluminiu - corundum.

Fiindcă organismul uman, macrofagele nu îl pot procesa. Bucățile fiind atât de mici, totul durează mult timp până când suprafața cilindrului compresorului se uzează etc.

M-am gândit de multe ori. Se spune că și călătoria în trecut nu e posibilă, fiindcă orice intervenție înseamnă schimbarea viitorului de unde provine călătorul care nici măcar nu sunt observabile fiindcă schimbările au fost făcute de mult. Schimbările pot fi minore, dar dacă sunt brutale, pot însemna dispariția respectivului, care astfel nu mai putea să vină, deci anularea întregii încercări.

Dar dacă ei au descoperit niște reguli, niște legi pe care le aplică în timpul unei călătorii înapoi. Adică dacă se abțin de a face anumite chestii când merg în trecut, atunci viitorul adică ei nu e modificat prea mult și totul devine acceptabil.

Citiți cartea. În carte stăpânii timpului "eternii" folosesc niște hiper computere capabile să calculeze consecințele oricărei intervenții conform principului "schimbarea minimă necesară pentru efectul dorit" (în viitor).

Tema aceasta este fascinantă și a fost preluată de multe filme Sci-Fi.

Asimov, un scriitor everu-american de origină rusă mai este cunoscut și pentru că a inventat cele trei legi ale roboticii din cartea Eu, robot (I robot) care sunt valabile și azi. Cuvântul robot pare să vină din slavonă (rusă) deși aici se spune cehă. Limba slovacă de azi pare să fie cea mai apropiată de slavona veche.

Un film care prezintă multe din aspectele cărții lui Asimov "Sfârșitul eternității" unde eternii sunt înlocuiți de un "Adjustment Buerau".

Întrebare. Sunt aceste intervenții pe care ei le fac mereu în legătură cu ce postez făcute pentru a șterge din memoria publicului ce postez eu făcute din viitor cu intenția de a minimiza impactul a ce postez (sau oricine care ar face ca mine) către un viitor mai mult sau mai puțin îndepărtat?

Cred că toate astea mi se trag de la o olimpiadă de fizică pe județ care s-a ținut la Gura Humorului când eram în clasa a 6-a cred. Venind dintr-o cumplită sărăcie de undeva din fundul provinciei cred că am făcut mai mult de 15 puncte cât mi s-a spus din 20 maxim, dar ei nu cred că au mai avut chef să mă vadă la faza pe țară. Însă unii au văzut și au ținut minte.

La școlile următoare (liceul și facultatea la Iași) profesorii m-au ținut în note mici ca să nu-mi atragă atenția și au ridicat exigența la maximum, uneori deviind de la programă ca să mă învețe bage în mine cât mai multe chestii (adică tot ce scriu eu pe aici) ca de exemplu limba franceză cu un profesor din Franța iar drept colegi și profesori am avut actori cu un exemplu, Marina Krilovici care mi-a fost dirigintă, ok încă unul, Jane Fonda profesoară de chimie și William Shatner, fizică, totul fiind posibil fiindcă ei făceau naveta din apropiata Ungarie, cu Iliescu secretar de partid pe județ.

Ceea ce mie personal mi-a făcut viața de atunci încolo un iad.

Cei care au făcut toate astea nu s-au gândit că EI au metode de a anula orice spus de cineva în media, generând zgomot pe aceleași cuvinte cheie sau concepte. Un exemplu chiar mai jos. Sau la ce tortură fizică și psihică voi fi supus (Acum, vecinii de dus, mizeriile aruncate. Stau frunzele și putrezesc de o lună, iar eu trebuie să stau cu o lampă UV și generator de ozon dacă vreau să respir).

2:10 PM Reactions of the void to my recent post.

Four rungs from an ancient road in Romania have been vandalized.

Lumina aprinsă și tavanul.

Tuneluri în știri, când am vorbit despre wormholes (tuneluri în spațiu timp) generate cu ajutorul piramidelor.

2:24 Nu am văzut nimic în știri înainte de alegeri despre un Călin Georgescu, în afară de niște clasamente făcute de firme de sondaje care îl arătau undeva pe locul 6. Totul a apărut după alegeri. Tiktok, pentru că acolo postează Alexa.

5:00 PM Got to write down a few ideas, will verify them later. Because this idea with virtual particles being created by electrons moving at relativistic speeds came to me while writing that post a few days ago i did not have time to think too much about.

The reaction of the void to movements of charged, massed particles within the relative realm has to be done so the result won't interfere with the cause hence the virtual particle appears only after the movement of the electron exits that realm and gets back to the cloud where the virtual particle can't interfere with it because of the pooling of speeds an momenta due to interactions there..

The second virtual particle in the photon won't interfere with the first because the first disappears the moment the second emerge.

During the relativistic phase an electron gets slowed down by transferring its kinetic energy to the virtual particle while slowing down. However the virtual particle should accelerate because the transfer of energy is done progressive before it suddenly disappears. The opposite happens for the second.

So we have a decelerating electron and an accelerating v. particle and we should have the opposite for the second virtual and so forth. So the 4 virtual particles that make a photon are paired by two opposite ones, which could count for the asymmetry of photon hence polarization.

Gravity has something to do with the reaction of the mass of v. particles at relativistic speeds but can't understand right now why it is omnidirectional.

One very lame idea is because all of them are created from accelerated charged particles that of course repel each other, they do the opposite so they attract each other or maybe they could have... negative mass? That gets attracted by positive? Photon is made of particles with relativist mass yet has no mass. Could it be two of the virtual particles in photon have positive and two negative mass?

Since for light we have curved open strings that imitate the trajectory of a colliding electrons at relativistic speeds, we may very well have strings that are closed upon themselves with virtual particles inside moving at relativistic speed thus they will have a permanent mass.

I think we have first to define the massed particles in the context of void reaction. I always suspected massed particles are made of strings that are somehow trapped withing themselves. Could they have been created by electrons moving in the cloud at relativistic speeds for more extended periods of time with more complicated trajectories?

Could all these mean we can create strings (matter) like by exciting the electrons on the level 6 of gold?

Some phases of those must probably be perpendicular and time delayed on others so the reaction of void to those masses moving there could change direction all the time but some could be uncompensated thus polarized in terms of mass?

Another thing that bothers me is non relativistic speed can never be zero. I mean, look at that formula or diagram. v2/c2 could never be zero, no matter how small v is. Except if it's zero and then nothing moves.

So energy is lost after each transfer which means in time the frequency gets smaller and wavelength bigger and we will have a shift to red. So according to this theory, the expansion of the Universe is an illusion. (So according to Einstein, nothing is perfect in this Universe. Sadly.).

So there will always be "leaks" which could stand for the limited life time of a photon, which is what, a billion billion years roughly?

But where the leaks go? The Universal entropy? Could they stand for the mysterious dark matter?

7:15 Have a nice Thanksgiving everybody!

And here comes the bad joke...