Engrams in Neurology and Scientology (Don't worry, be happy)

Do you all know why our brains are so wrinkled and stuff? No, the official explanation does not hold (and that tells us a lot about the state of today's neurology, psychiatry, etc.). "To increase the surface of the gray matter". It is so naive. Gray matter is neurons and neurons work in 3D networks. Why would they need to have an increased surface?

I believe the explanation is to have or keep different concentrations or gradients of neurotransmitters within those curls, and that would also make the specialization of areas of the brain which anatomically are not different from each other. They just hold different (dynamic, gradient or wave like) concentrations of neurotransmitters.

I believe the so called neural networks reside within the lobes which then are interconnected through the white matter with each other. However, the lightening fast processes following the paths of engrams that make the cycles of information through those networks do not leave the boundary of one region (curl of white matter) where they enter as stimuli and leave as a result or shall i say... resolve?

I once tried to make a link between the IT concept of binary processing and transmitting of information (binary being here number 0 or 1, signal or no signal, etc.) and the so called brain's neural networks.

But the analogy ends here, there are no CPUs counting low level instructions at high speed, most of the processes in the brain being fast outputs following inputs (of each both can be internal from another area of the brain or external directly from sensorial stimulation) all done on unique pathways yes according to our past experiences (written gates) we may call engrams.

And yes, the writing of the engrams (gates) is an extremely slow process we call early education, school, life experience, etc.

I do now believe the (overlapping) networks described in that post are actually engrams and there is a unique written network for each engram which holds a written output for every combination of inputs) mediated by the switches and gates at the synapses and the physical links between neurons are mostly blank gates and not "written", pretty much like a flash memory (except for those so called hard wired through birth (ROM) like those described as "somatic mind" by Hubbard.

In fact, i believe the "signal" that can be sensorial input, which is usually pain travels through the switches of a "local" neural network within a brain region (curl) through the path of least resistance, or the closest switches open by the by the instantaneous combination of neurotransmitters present in that instance and region, pretty much in the shape of a lightening bolt (though it may be branched).

If the experience is confirmed by the conscious, other neurotransmitters "consolidate" the pathway that finally becomes an engram which would still need "refreshing" from time to time by the conscious to be kept permanently in ways similar to what flash memory in computers needs.

However the output is also mediated by the combination of neurotransmitters in one curl at the time of the triggering of the engram by a stimuli or a conscious decision so basically we cannot talk about engrams except in a well established or stable neurotransmitter combination, which may include mood.

Though the signal that passes through switches is digital, the direction or the gates which it passes through depends of the neurotransmitters gradients which is anologous and not predictable with a high degree of precision.

Given the fact the engrams are unique for an individual, mainly due to the fact the combination of neurotransmitters which soak a region (curl) varies being analogous (as opposed to digital) thus unpredictable and there is a unique intersection of gradients for each synapse, within each gyrus, you cannot possibly eliminate an engram by recreating the combination of neurotransmitters at every synapse part of the engram.

However i believe you can create parallel engrams that would somehow shortcut the original ones, making them... less painful, in case of traumatic ones by roughly re-creating that combination of neurotransmitters (moods, memories). Or by re-writing an enough number of gates part of a traumatic engram, you can actually destroy it or diminish its output to the point it cannot trigger the opposite of reward anymore (re-triggering a motivational cycle).

I also believe the "physiological" need for engrams which came through evolution for the reason of storing information about events in our past which will increase our experiences and chances for survival in the future in the case we physically survive those events, and the purpose for the "traumatic engrams" which are not ending in a reward, is to store "motivational pain" that can be re-triggered by similar circumstances, or consciously through training in order to eliminate the cause for trauma after analyzing those engrams out of the constraints of real time and extinguish them in a "natural way" and not simply getting rid of them at the level of the "reactive mind" which i believe auditing does.

And yes i believe they can be a burden if stored indefinitely and not dealing with them at the earliest time possible especially for people not trained or not having time to deal with their own mind.

Though it may seem easier to deal with traumatic memories this way as opposed to classic therapy which also depends heavily on the skills of the therapists, it requires lots of weekly time (audit) which in my understanding is costly and it also requires giving up some of yourself if you identify self with your past experiences. Not talking about the fact you give all your secrets to the church.

There are also ethic concerns, since individuals may have triggered that traumatic events themselves and they know they can have their traumatic memories erased or at list dimed, and will keep doing things they did in the past (not learning from the erased experiences).

As for neurotransmitters' modifying drugs, one can understand how barbaric this method is only by reading the above.

There are also ways to disconnect those (traumatic memories) from both the so called reactive mind (subconscious by Freud) and conscious mind and that without the costly auditing sessions. And one way is completely eliminating emotions from one's mind.

June 1st

12:05 AM Știu de ce au băgat acum chestia asta. Ce văd pentru prima dată și nu înțeleg e de ce poartă Becali o cruce brodată pe fes la fel ca un mitropolit.

1:27Many people don't understand. They think artificial intelligence is just for generating shorts on youtube. If people using free tools can generate people that walk, talk, chase bears with brooms and bathe them, then imagine what the pros can do. Or who knows. Not people anymore, just the gods within the machine.

It is/was my perception and that is since i can remember, 31 years ago that all the talking on TV was done with AI and i figured the reason they, unlike in Europe when we had 625 lines on TV when me and Angela left, here they had only 200 lines resolution on TV. Because higher resolution requires higher processing power and that changed when, 2000? I mean, it debuted in 1998 but few or none were broadcasting.

People talking perfectly, making no mistake, having no accents, bullying attitude, name it.

That and the stock market and everything else is being coordinated by AI for decades. Traffic everywhere i go.

I remember i was in Romania before 89 when Japan announced the 5th generation of something. Computers that were suppose to think like humans, only way faster. Then, silence. Nobody said anything anymore like the whole thing froze in time.

No it did not freeze, simply there was nobody anymore to tell us what is happening and this goes to this day. That's why we see a badly wrinkled old man barely climbing the stairs to AFOne and a perfect, joyous, triumphant Trump on the TV screen.

If everything is owned by everybody through cross ownership, stock market is an illusion and a perfect bubble that can float indefinitely until the cylons get angry with us imperfects and sinners.

Yeah i know they came with that ask a question window after i started to use screenshots massively (because of ever changes in google answers) to limit what people can see in that screenshot and to also confuse, some thinking they can actually ask a question and then curse me.

Times passes fast. Last time i looked it was thousands of transaction a second. (buying/selling of stock at the trade market).

I believe the stock market as we know it was designed with brokers on the floor in mind. There is no legislation passed to regulate the high frequency (through automation) trading. 

10:10

12:05 Pe un pretext aproape imposibil de verificat (puteau să fie niște pirotehnice pe blocul acela) Guvernul Interimar (demis) continuă seria încălcărilor Constituției, angajând discuții externe. Mai mult decât atât, Oana Țoiu trebuia să aștepte rezoluția CSAT. Se pare că ne grăbește undeva.

Stau și mă întreb totuși dacă NATO nu are posibilități tehnice (specialiști) să vină să verifice dacă a fost o dronă (nu s-a publicat până acum traseul).

Sau poate Guvernul Interimar ajutat de Nicușor Dan care întârzie numirea altui prim ministru (sau vine cu propuneri neacceptabile) a construit acest incident cu drona într-o încercare disperată de a rămâne la putere.

Drona a zburat mai mulți km peste Galați și nu am auzit de nici o relatare că ar fi fost auzită de cineva. Din singura poză prezentă vedem un motor cu răcire cu aer și probabil fără amortizor de zgomot.

May 22

6:50 Before AI, internet, television or radio, and that is just a bit over 100 years ago most people did not have access to high quality entertainement. Even the rich could not see and hear the greatest stars except a few times in their entire life.

But is it high quality anymore? I personally am appalled by the latest music hits all done with AI. But make no mistake. The artists, as they still are, are all trained musicians, and they never been amateurs as we were told.

7:25 Am o postare mai veche care poate nu are concizia și precizia celor mai recente. Link-urile nu mai funcționează în totalitate așa că voi încerca să scriu aici pe scurt ce știu despre Doicești.

Firma americană avea sediul social în Tigard (zona urbană Portland), un birou închiriat într-o clădire de birouri, nu departe de unde locuiesc eu și pe unde am trecut de multe ori, fiindcă este lângă un magazin de bricolaj (Home Depot) unde mergeam înainte de Amazon. Acum se pare că s-a mutat în Corvallis, un orășel studențesc la sud de Portland. (Da. Corvallis sună vag ungurește.).

Deși există un număr de investitori americani, investitori cheie sunt Doosan și Samsung din Corea precum și Bank of Japan.

Tipul acesta de reactoare este o tehnologie care nu a fost niciodată testată în practică cu un design de reactoare mult simplificat și minimalist care îl face vulnerabil în caz de conflict militar.

Partenerii români sunt un consorțiu între un SRL și Nuclearelectrica.

9:00 La această dată firma se află sub investigația SEC și a unui număr de firme de avocatură.

12:20 PM I once tried to track ownership of a certain local firm and got caught in a maze of cross-ownership of different owners and realized it was impossible. Cause in the end you can track down all corporations to a number of so called "institutional  holders". However, these institutional holders own each other to a certain degree.

So i said to myself, it would be interesting if i could fill a spreadsheet let's say 100x100 with data showing this but back then (could be 5 years ago) both the site chose for data source and my computer were really slow so i gave up (yes it would have meant i had to fill 10k cells with data).

For some reason that now i can explain today i had this idea once again but this time i said to myself i will be smart and asked google AI to do it. AI refused to do it 100x100, however did a 10x10 one though it showed only 7x7 but is still interesting. 

BTW i tried to get rid of chrome side search panel which is probably the cause for narrowing the results using google's own instructions however i could not. Never mind, that changed as of right now, i found new instructions, will try again.

Needless to say, cross ownership is not legal  however they probably found ways to stay aside of the law.

But that was a while ago. Today it's legal though it does not make sense. If i own you and  you own me then where is the love capital?

Let me show you an example from the table below. BackRock owns 8.25 % of Vanguard and Vanguard owns 7.9% of BlacRock. Capisci?

Nevermind there's got to be a mistake here, if BlackRock would own 7.9% of Vanguard, it would be worth much more than 72 billion. 1% of 12 trillion would be 120 billion. Right? Data keeps changing with each search, AI is doing new approximations probably considering new things.

11:20 10000 de forțe de ordine.

11:22 Ne-a servit Dinescu subliminale?... (sau a fost poate o simplă implicare civică). Articolul din Cațavencii e datat iunie 2014, iar Iohannis a venit în Decembrie...

May 19

11:55 AM This is not an attack on Trump or on democracy or on anything. This is a fix on a mistake i've made and a confirmation of a trend (please scroll down), part of an effort to show how deep we're in.

12:20 Just read the lyrics of "there goes my hero" by foo fighters i post the other day that was playing in my head this morning. There is a verse mentioning the hero of the ex-nirvana right extremist "Grohl", Kudos which seems a Japanese name, There is a character in a game which is way newer than the song, Kudo, most likely inspired by...

Another song from the same era that popped in mind probably in association with the previous i probably heard one million times on the radio and getting high on hopes every time (without fully understanding the words) celebrating the lack of social graces (by drinking champagne of someone else glass, bullying, wishing for an hour with his ex on a date with someone), in contrast with how thin and graceful everybody looked back then but the man certainly was not a whiskey drinker. 

35 yeas later



2:50 PM Băsescu, 45 - 10 = 35

3:50 Awoke with nausea, been nauseated all day. Also last night i have decided i have to start going for walks, no matter what. So i dared to go for the first walk since the wound episode started, about 4 months ago. Wound is not totally healed, but can't wait no more.

First thing. My legs don't want to go the way my brain remembers. Steps are shorter, like something is "holding" me. Could be infection in the joints or simply atrofy. So i took the newly built back alley and went all the way to 7/11 and back, a bit less than a mile in total. My goal was to reach the park however when i looked at the clock, it was 2:15 already and Angela was about to come and she did not know. So i just turned around. At the space between two buildings accross the alley from hours, they were a number of poops.

I went later and since my move was predictable, because i took pictures, from PDX they dictated some liners to climb and they were making a big noise. I picked 3 bags from there. More than they were in the battle zone (near the poop tree and the portable toilet). Poops exteneded all the way to near the D5 entrance were the day care are and of course, right in that moment, kids started to pour out, and some adults followed and they all went to the next entrance. Still feel the poop smell in my throat.

When i got back Angela sent me with recycled glass and i ran into veteran's daughter, but not sure if the same actuator. 
 

4:00 A huge base started in the lot. No, it's upstairs.

5:30 Before Y2K bug in 1998 there was Clinton Lewinski scandal, some say the revenge of the Jews for what they did to me in 1996 at Electronic Specialty and at Woodland Park Hospital, Ryles Center, where they blamed and tortured me for that and the dot com crash. Harrison Ford was involved but in the end Carrie Fisher took all the blame.

6:25 Veronica Mart (right), George Hârșovescu, Adelina Mart. I was in  George's house in Salem that was rented to the Marts back then, before or @ year 2000 when Adelina, then 14 or something gave me a footsie and then she asked me in Romanian "are you dead?". I do remember that from time to time, thinking what would have been if i followed upon. I also went with the Marts to Belknap at a Christmas time.

March 27

6:35 PM So they started. I bet most would fall into temptation of the title as i did. And in the end, when you get tired already, they put for a few seconds only a lady with golden rings and very slanted eyes chocked by a giant snake kinda , unexpected, out of  context, reminding of last videos i posted, just to erase memories and change minds.

Cause this is what they do. Create some memories, erase others, definitely sculpt your mind since you can remember to this day.

Also exposing the flaws of conceptual thinking.

January 19

10:00 AM Today Freud is largely dismissed in western psychiatry.

He was was replaced with what i call "bottle psychiatrists" which comes from the little orange (in the US) bottles with prescription pills which is a glorious recognition of failure of any philosophy or generally science in the way too complex field of "psychiatry" still seen today as a collection of socially disconnecting disorders while it probably should be a mixture of advanced neurology and IT.

However, Freud had his major contribution to the field. Much of his work which derives from a vast clinical experience centered on empathy of which observations resulted in revealing the role of associations in memorizing (processes) and his major, forever contribution is the term "transference" which goes beyond the therapist-parent transference observed and documented by him today mostly downplayed probably because of its great strategic value in today's media wars.

10:30 Modern psychiatry started maybe with the introduction, before Freud, of the term schizophrenia, an attempt to conceptualize in one term a broad spectrum of symptoms which today it seems an obvious attempt to reconcile the continuing shift from a normal operating mind to a psychotic one a and back in the same patient.

Psychosis being an altered state of mind operating when protections within the brain try to disconnect it from immediate, extremely traumatic to the patient reality.

The problems begin when the patient can't recognized the psychotic trips, trying to "rationalize them" or integrate them into their lives and decision making processes, which may lead to need of isolation or institutionalization.

While the term itself is a very unhappy marriage of two Greek words which basically mean "split mind", that sounds bad in most languages, the diagnosis becoming a social stigma, the term itself is part of a naive early attempt to categorize mental diseases, though if not for lack of better ideas or advancements is still largely used and recognized today in mainstream in clinical diagnosis and treatment.

As with any vague concept used this time for diagnosing patients, it leaves wide open gates to abuse while modern "medications", discovered as stated above, by chance, do the job of psychosis in schizophrenia and that is partly disconnecting the patient from reality and/or sensorial input, though in a more "controlled" way.

However there may not be other way out for many patients, since their permanent psychological trauma arise from social and financial problems.

However it is way better now than in the past, when such patients were often mistreated and mutilated like performing lobotomies, while electric shock "therapy" (under anesthesia) is still being performed as "treatment".

12:16 PM Transference. Jesus and Buddha. Jurnalist Ana Maria Simion.

January 7th

3:05 AM Hungary's grossest product is not the money though, it's the planetary scale BS.

12:22 PM As i said so many times before. A lie (or "honest" error whatever) has to last only enough to cause enough damage (though sometimes it gets a life (reality) of its own). To this day students are taught in schools that based on Michelson Morley experiment (1887) endorsed by Einstein in 1905 AEther does not exist though Einstein himself changed his mind in 1920.

January 5th

10:20 High flat Monday. This time, on Venezuela.

The Money East.

6:37 Is NATO about to cannibalize self?

10:55 The oil curse.

11:00 It was all given to me. In school, HS, never questioned it. Couldn't even if i wanted cause my mind was flowing on the waistline and hair of the chemistry teacher in HS or legs of chemistry teacher in school (yes it was during the mini period). Would have raised lots of eyebrows of my colleagues also. Cause things were complicated enough the way the were.

Everybody says, education, education but then education is 90% lecturing, never encouraging to doubt, never trying to convince and God forbid, never interactive. They just didn't care what was left of what they threw at us (from books, never fully understanding themselves or being too burned out by repeating those things senselessly for so many years). Except maybe for very few teachers, like the electronics teacher in HS. Enough to save some of the days at school.

Protons have one positive charge and electrons a minus one. Protons are held together in nuclei by the strong force,  "strongest force in Universe", exposing their combined positive  electrostatic charges to the world. Electrons are kept orbiting or better said, clouding around the nucleus by the electrostatic forces between the minuses of electrons and pluses of the photons.

But then you try to combine them into molecules. Let's take for example one molecule with two types of atoms close in size that is also very stable. Al2O3. The humble aluminum oxide, also known as corundum, also known as ruby. A very tough material, ruby.

Same number of protons and electrons before and after the reaction of aluminum and oxygen.

Then let me ask you one question. What holds together the 3x8 protons of oxygen and the 2x13 protons of aluminum after the oxidation reaction (that also releases much energy?) that are naturally repelling each other (by 3 groups of 8 and 2 of 13) being bound by the strong force only inside the 5 nuclei?

Electrons they say. Orbiting electrons which again repel each other while in orbit. How come attraction between protons and electrons is holding protons together which repel each other with the same force are attracting electrons which also repel each other also possessing some kinetic energy (energy levels, remember)?

Ok since the electrons are not pushed aside the nucleus by a centripetal force (used to in the past) then how come they don't fall into the nucleus, being attracted by the protons?

They say quantum physics is not intuitive but this is not even logical.

Infinitesimal Whirls of Prodigious Velocity

Now imagine the space is filled with a superfluid known in the past as AEther, currently as dark matter, made not of Helium atoms like in the video above but of much smaller neutrinos which do not interact with anything except their intrinsic gravity and have a small but non zero mass.

The vortices created in AEther as superfluid could be much smaller and rotate much faster, entering the area of relativity, when the mass increases exponentially with speed and we know in a ideal superfluid the vortices once started they rotate indefinitely.

Could those be what we know as elementary particles and the corresponding interacting forces the known fundamental forces except for gravity? All fundamental particles have quantized mass and spin.

From what we are seeing in sub lambda (superfluid) Helium, the whirls can travel, interact with each other, combine or destroy each other, attach to each other etc., just like particles but obeying the laws of fluid mechanics (applied to superfluids). By example two whirls rotating in the same direction repel each other etc.

Matter energy equivalence would be more obvious than within the known, given, non-intuitive abstract formula.

Also we can sea the reason for quantization. Stable whirls can form only in certain sizes (and speeds).

It is true. For more complicated atoms, it will look like an unmanageable and also possibly impossible to describe tangle. And there is a link with struggling string theory. The rotation of the string like whirls could count for the extra dimensions found necessary by its proponents.

The following image could represent what we currently know as electrons. Though Steven Rado was born and lived in Hungary, the name suggests Serbian or even Romanian origin, like for Nikola Tesla quoted in the title.

Historically the AEther had different conceptualizations. But there is still one type of AEther that at least partly coincides with my theory. The magnetic flux is the literal flow of AEther (but with no vortices).

Within my theory, vortices are the particles and the only field is the AEther pressure gradient corresponding to electric field in mainstream science. 

Magnetic field is nothing but the frictionless flow of AEther. Electric field is the gradient generated by the low pressure near the flow of AEther (Bernoulli). When surrounding an electron it creates a pole of low (static) pressure.

Within my theory light would be a succession of unstable pairs of whirls passing energy from one pair to another (current to next) according to this model in an incredible fast succession. But they will not move at the speed of light, they will only jump from one place to the next at the speed of light.

One of the consequences of particles being made of whirls is if you try to accelerate them there will be an opposition because they are of course rotating (at very high speed), opposition we may call inertia.

But you will never be able to accelerate them at the speed of light of course because they are rotating and parts of them will have to move faster than light. Unless they align with the rotation axe parallel to the direction of motion but you can't do that with solid, macro objects.

Only a small fraction of Helium superfluid turns to whirls in a bowl or rotating sub lambda Helium. On a BIG scale like the Universe, only a small fraction of AEther had turned to vortices.

Some noticed there is very little antimatter in the Universe and i assume because the Universe is turning slowly of course in one direction only. We can also find it in unstable form in every photon. Dark energy of course is the rotating energy of the whole carousel.

Talking about matter anti-matter (symmetry). From the electron donut model proposed above we cannot see any possibility of a symmetrical counterpart because it is completely balanced.

So we need to add an extra movement (we are now in the world of dynamic particles where everything is made of motion) like the one seen in the static image (before clicking) in the first video. In there the spiral around the theroid is not actually part of it.

But a few days ago, just after i found Steven Rado's book linked twice above, i ran into something very interesting. A post doctoral researcher in a Greek University made some animations about 4 years ago, after much reasoning using terms of current accepted theories combined with his own intuition and pseudo science.

All i know it is just a different attempt to theorize dynamic particles and it fits what i have in mind right now. Here it is. He calls it electron geometric magnetic flux dynamic model. In the meantime his email address at the university is gone and he is not answering emails on the other address at gmail.

The whirls show intuitively a... shall i call it a spiral in a circumferential reference frame. It can be left and right.

But i was  thinking. If the magnetic field (flux whatever) is a flow of AEther this means it creates(wraps) a... should i call it, electric current on the circumference of torus, (if we only could speak of electric currents inside an electron) which in turn creates the NS axial magnetic field so in fact we can see now why the magnetic field and electric currents are inseparable. Also defines the spin up and down of an electron.

So in the end this asymmetry does not lead to an anti-electron but just to the spin up spin down electrons. But it could help us to make the next step. That is understanding what is electric charge.

Maybe i should try and finish Rado's book. But from what i've seen so far, he thinks all particles are sinks. Which means we need an extra dimension where the AEther goes (and comes back in positively charged particles).

By looking at the (mind bending) animation below i have the following intuition. Whatever electric current that creates the axial magnetic field inside the torus might radiate in the outside world creating an electric field or maybe a very slow moving widely spread electric current in the opposite direction from the one that creates the magnetic field.

  

But if we go back to fluid mechanics, we may think the electron is actually vacuuming AEther from surroundings an expels it through the axis and the pressure gradient created is the electric field.

When they attract each other, they also align like beads on a string on the high speed flow of AEther possibly relativistic in the center forming clusters, like seen in the first static image above or the second video.