02-04-2024

3:25 AM

10:00 Three cons and paraboloid whatever shapes on a single page at Bloomberg, and it's everywhere the same. Every news site i looked contains at least one allusion to what i'm posting recently but i decided not to bother anymore. If nobody cares, why should i?

10:30 What delivery. It hasn't shipped yet. I know what is this for. I keep calling them Amazen.

10:37 I keep talking about Tesla and pyramids and ancient history. But here in the present. Check this one out. Every time i drive towards Lincoln City they mess with the clouds in the sky. Last time it was three pointing down triangular shaped clouds figuring whirls covering the whole western horizon i was driving to. It was in my face for about an hour.

I mean, i understand, they can cause cyclones and rain and wind and stuff. But painting the sky with clouds? What kinda f...up "technology" is this? And then in the last 25 miles or so they dispatch in front of me a 40 years old Nissan pickup, others, doing 40 in a 55, on a continuous line to make it last, feel my cabin with exhaust even after i stop the fan?

Two families with two kids each, one entering and one exiting  Dollar Tree store where i bough water bottles?

And then JD Vance dressed as a cop, tailgating to make me speed, then pulling me over?

Right now a car alarm honking in the parking lot in the tenth of a second i curse them? BTW they started my day with two big engines with modified exhaust shaking dust and stuff for about 15 minutes. And everybody is going about their bureaucratic business pretending not to know about all these?

11:10 Please bow down to the alien person. (Another curse, another honk).


11:45 Sume uriașe, dar numai în procente.

6:50 PM I was intrigued by some images and was curious about Bose-Einstein condensate. What happens when cooling a gas near zero where there is no thermal agitation of atoms sounds and is extremely complicated and hard to explain by quantum mechanics (like any phenomena in quantum mechanics), though not extreme.

If my theory was true, the particles will start to combine into one single whirl, which is equivalent to them basically merging together as stated in quantum. My question is what  happens after re-heating that gas, will the atoms regain their initial coherence or all the information regarding that was lost, by emitting maybe... Hawking radiation?

Cause if the gas (molecules, atoms, particles) cannot be re-created, it means all the particles, or, according to my theory, whirls, would merge into one and by re-heating that thing something else would be created, that might or might not recombine into something recognizable, maybe different particles and atoms or radiation.

It's more like the whirls, loosing their relative motion to each other would start to combine which creates another interesting idea. It's thermal agitation that keeps particles alive or everything apart or together?

However no one could ever prove this since a temperature of zero absolute or total motionless could never be achieved and i guess in the experiments of which last one was done in space, no one thought to check what happened with the condensate after reheating.

But i guess at least some of the whirls would merge into larger ones and some information of the initial state or coherence in quantum would be lost.

BTW wondering how they obtained the space energy distribution images above if the gas was in or close to ground state thus not emitting any radiation (like a black hole) but i'm glad they did.

7:50 Some of the worst deaths in history where suffered under Hungarian (or shall i say Magar) rule of Transylvania. Gyorgy Dosza by name and birth place seem to be Romanized Székely.

I wrote this because today is the anniversary of the execution of the Serbian soldier of fortune Baba Novac who also fought against Hungary rule alongside Michael the Brave, the first who briefly unified the three Romanian principates that currently form Romania in 1600.

Though less known (i vaguely remember i heard something in history class in grade school) Serbian soldier of fortune Baba Novac and his priest confessor execution was equally gruesome. They were burnt not at the stake but partly skinned and then roasted alive on a fire, for hours while sprinkling them with water from time to time to keep them alive for as long as possible. He was @80 years old at the time of  his execution.

Another one is using the more known method, which was in the Austro-Hungarian penal code, breaking at the wheel of three Romanian peasants heads of a great rebellion of the overly exploited peasants in today's Transylvania. The wheel of course had 8 spokes, probably inspired from Dharma wheel they brough over in Europe from Nepal.

This level of cruelty was never heard of not only in Europe but the whole world and history.

Different nationalities because the Austria-Hungary empire was made of many nations, including Székelies, Romanians, Serbians, Czecks, Ukrainians, Italians etc.. and at times they extended their influence all the way to Holland and ; Spain.

In fact WWI which got most of Europe (and Japan and US) involved because a complicated system of alliances that got activated, which resulted in death of... and breaking to pieces of the empire, started with the killing of the crown prince...

At this point i am wondering if Tesla, a Serbo-Croatian, had anything to do with defeating the empire.

7:35 At times, google gives different results depending...

January 3rd

10:40 AM I believe the key to a better health is the study of normal physiology or the parameters of a healthy body. Catching the moment when a person's physiological parameters are starting to go off and figuring the cause.

Our body is designed to take some blows or overcome temporary pushing of the physiology out of limits and then safely revert to normal but when these situations become more permanent, this could push it in the realm of irreversible chronic conditions.

Imagine if i could know when exactly my diabetes or my heart disease started and what was the reason.

But there might be conditioning factors that are under our control and we prefer to stay under those influences per reasons of... feeling well.

I will not talk about alcohol, tobacco and other drugs as this subject is completely exhausted and everybody agrees those will sooner or letter get to you.

There are other more subtle vices we agree to practice that do not involve nothing except our own body and mind.

Everybody of course remembers short scenes from martial arts movies where the "masters" emphasize the importance of breath. Not talking about the sarcasm of the scene breath in breath out in the Karate Kid movie where the masters seem to teach the kid to breath in dust.

Trouble is our bodies have two major different ways of functioning, depending on the way we breath, both called metabolism. Which comes of course from Ancient Greek. One, the more common involves burning fat and glucose in our cells using oxygen.

It's of course a slow burn, does not usually destroy the cells in the process, except of course if it's so intense the heat does not have time to be evacuated from tissues, causing the so called muscular breakdown.

There are two types of metabolisms, and we are talking here mostly about muscles but the other major energy user of our body, the brain, also have the two types of metabolism. Aerobic and anaerobic.

Ok so let's end the confusion and name a number of exercises that promote both types of metabolisms. Basically all the exercises that are slow and constant are aerobic and those who are short and intense are anaerobic, but they can also coexist.

Have yo ever seen a lion chasing and antelope and then giving up? The reason is the lion can do short bursts of high intensity effort that can last a bit over one minute but then it crashes. It has to stop following. So with other predators.

In other words, aerobic type of metabolism is more sustainable and anaerobic is something extra we need on short time basis when necessary.

And now let's get down to the reason i am writing all these. Anybody remembers David Carradine? I was still in Romania when i saw the series and was impressed as with many other new things that came in our TV after the "revolution" of 1989.

Today i googled more about him and i saw he actually started to study those during the third series of the movie, mostly per reasons to do some of the stunts as it was probably too complicated and inefficient to use doubles.

There is even a video of  him and Chuck Norris fighting in a movie, where Carradine of course gets humiliated. But that proves Chuck who was a real karate fighter some time in his early life thought he was a "worthy (movie scene) opponent".

Then the news about his death shocked me (i was a bit of a fan). Autoerotic suffocation they said. A risky practice of self strangulating to enhance sexual arousal and final pleasure.

Yeah i saw that during some videos on certain sites. Women change dramatically breath rate when approaching climax, with some holding, some accelerating, or combinations (sequences) and changes in metabolism made obvious by blushes.

So i would assume some during sex in anticipation change from one type of metabolism to other or combinations etc. mostly meant for enhancing pleasure in experienced practitioners.

So i tried to of course due some searches about.

Why is this important? Cause i believe some people, as they get older and have less sex, they start to mimic pleasure causing habits during non sexual activities and that of course is subconsciously changing breath rhythms in order to get... satisfaction.

(Have you ever wrote a paragraph in less than a minute typing 60 wpm in one breath and then took a moment to relax and enjoy the result?)

I was talking the other day about the cycle of motivation/satisfaction as being the carrying vehicle of our thoughts processes. Both can be purely mental like getting mad seeing a stupid manipulative news and getting a feeling of accomplishment after "nailing" or "debunking" it in a few short paragraphs.

Everybody heard about the expression "holding one's breath" while expecting some result either by our actions or other's. I believe is a method of kicking your extra anaerobic reserve for the moment the result is being releases, which can be either ways, to better deal with it.

Truth is we can, using the control over this semi-conscient part of physiology that is breathing, alter our own physiology, consciously or not, with some control over releasing some of the neurotransmitters that come with both types of metabolism.

However this is just the beginning of what i'm about to write. The intro part.

It is well known the cascading effect of yawning. Again semi-conscious synchronizing of human activities. I believe it was acquired during evolution when cave men/women needed to synch some of the activities, like sleeping.

But breathing or simultaneously entering aerobic anaerobic states of a group of people? What cold that help with? I don't know, maybe when synching efforts do cooperate on something. Chasing an animal doing hunt? Pushing a rock uphill by a group of people?

And being a synched social behavior, it must be based on triggers. Some conscious, some not. Vibrational communications based, maybe. And if it's based on signals, it can be hacked.

How many times it happened to me like when holding breath to faster write a paragraph the human upstairs made of noise to either interrupt that thought or to get me out of it, before reaching the satisfaction linked to finishing that paragraph that was actually based on a host of mental processes, all interrupted, generating a feeling of total dissatisfaction with first consequences, the impulse to drop everything and getting mad and remaining in anaerobic for minutes or hours after.

But this case is very singular or can be understood by a tiny minority only. Those who do what i do.

There are other things being directed to masses and that is modern music. Have you seen how much they repeat some of the newest released junk on the airways? Yeah i know they would say i should shut the damn radio and not listen to.

But what to do when you have to drive like one more hundred miles at night and feel like falling asleep and turn on the radio? Until not long ago i used to enjoy it but now that i start to see more and more into it i came to hate it but i can't without it either because i'm addicted or too lonely especially in these long morning winters when i'm stuck along in the apartment.

And talking about apartment. How many times am i supposed to hear this song over and over? After i deciphered some of the symbolism in it, i discovered in the last few days there's so much more to it. APT which seems to be the abbreviated name of a popular Korean drinking game, suggests ATP as most people heard about this chemical crucial in cellular metabolism both aerobic and anaerobic.

The woman sin_ger at times seems to announce. I'm on my way! Is this song among others an invitation to enter anaerobic for your own pleasure? Make it an addiction?

Then this morning i heard another one, right next to this. (BTW, we have here in Portland this radio station like no other that pumps continuously the hottest hits on Billboard hip hop chart like no other i saw in other states).

Equally annoying one ore two notes most of time time, it seems to... "So hot it hurts!"

12:53 PM This morning i did my insulin on my inner thigh as it seemed i have more fat in there. They were big thundering noises coming from the garbage truck moving the bins and was not very careful when i chose the place and a drop of blood came after i pulled the tiny needle. Then i realized i did it next to a big dilated varicose vein and started to panic. I even googled. What happens when you do an insulin shot into a vein?

I started to heat up really fast (my feet were kinda cold before). About 15 minutes later i took again my blood sugar and saw it was dropping fast (not like i'm used to when doing insulin with a pen). So it dropped from 340 before the injection to 260 in about half hour and i was feeling kinda light headed.

I said to myself if it drops at the same rate, within an hour i would probably go under 200 and more. So i grabbed my clothes, dressed up just in case and took it one more time. It turns that the panic and moving around made my blood sugar to raise again to 290 and the light headedness disappeared.

So i would assume i entered anaerobic because of panic and my cells stopped using glucose so much.

During my searches today i saw there are devices that can actually tell what kinda metabolism you're in. I think it is very important to me to buy one those and watch the link with blood sugar level.

1:04 PM Market, first winning day of the year. Based on  Tesla, Nvidia, oil (energy).

BTW yesterday i went to buy cigarettes and tried again Albertson's on Boone Ferry. No Nat's there. No you can't get cigarettes on Amazon. The giant doesn't want to save climate change fuel burning trips for smokers.

When i came back i found myself driving behind a Tesla Cybertruck (why they call it cyber). I knew some sort of trouble was going to follow but was too lazy to do something (like breaking up). Or maybe i was in some sort of trance it happens when i meet weird people doing (non)random things in stores.

It was going ahead of me and when i stopped at the lights on the ramp there was a woman driving a van or something who "missed" her green lights holding the wheel nervously on the top, bent over, in order to make me appear like i'm following the damn thing as a cop car was stopped on the freeway flashing red and blue lights and probably filming.

1:45 Lately every time i went to smoke a cigarette (usually in the back) some vehicle comes to pick or leave a kid at the daycare in an apartment across the alley, within my line of site. Right now there was no exception but i came bac in to write it down as it's still there.

2:10 Nu am încontro, trebuie să scriu despre "știrile" de azi care sunt împănate cu ceea ce scriu. Majoritatea sunt invenții media.

Tortul bugetar.

Trebuie să fim recunoscători, nu să căutăm noduri în papura bugetară sau pe site-ul Ministerului Finanțelor. Un deficit de 9% este un record, chiar pentru România, chiar raportat la PIB. ANAF să colecteze mai bine.

TVA este ușor de colectat. După cum arată tortul, impozitul pe profit și pe salarii este infim în comparație cu TVA sau contribuția pentru pensie. Dar impozitul pe salariu ar trebuie să fie doar de două ori și jumătate mai mic decât contribuția CAS (conform fluturașilor). Asta arată că firmele nu virează impozitul pe salariu sau profit iar ANAF se face că nu vede.

Să fim recunoscători și nu ne uităm la miliardele cheltuite aiurea prin ministere. Cam jumătate din buget dispare din contabilitatea ministerelor. O scurtă privire la bugetul Ministerului Educației, care plătește 33 miliarde salarii, fiind cel mai mare angajator din România, arată o sumă egală sau mai mare care nu se știe la ce a folosită. Și nu iese nici un politician la rampă să ne spună.

Alexa Crush and the Three Little Racoons.

Ok i don't know if i'm going to finish this tonight. Last nigh i was tired and dehydrated by drinking and then i crashed and waked up in the middle of the night and got really pissed when i remembered what happened. My face feels like it's swelling though it's not. Hands too. Didn't take antibiotics in three days but got some liver problems now. I think after i been too close again to the sewer behind Chinook Winds.

It is not a secret i have been in the recent past obsessed with an Tik Tok influencer that goes by the name Alexa Crush. Lately i started to believe she is the Hungarian actress Nikolett Krajcsi, a mother of three but not so sure anymore, mostly because of height of which i'm not sure. But can't rule out either, because of name and face resemblance.

She once had a number of posts on Tik Tok dressed as a green fairy that made me buy some absinthe essence online and translate a poem from Baudelaire for her.

In my imagination there was some sort of dialog between us. She was posting on Tik Tok and i on my blog. Didn't care if some of her posts were a bit off with clothing and stuff. But then i became pissed when she started to post about her being protector of dogs. Cause i started to really hate those, for obvious reasons. So i quit following her and soon she stopped posting on all platforms.

From a post on my main blog i referenced numerous times. There was in building D closest entrance from us a Chinese or Japanese woman who was posing as my friend. One night i drove with my truck to Spirit Mountain and she tried to stop me by literally getting in my way a couple of times. When i came back, a cop stopped me in Newberg because the sticker in my rear plate number was missing.

She was driving a small Dodge SUV. One night some guy whom i seen here before (or his truck) but not sure, i think he was a taller guy first, backed up in her SUV, pushed the SUV in the building and ruined the stairwell. Was that the moment of crash or crush? It is odd the guy did not get arrested or anything. That was reckless.

But lately he became shorter and i thought i recognized him as being the husband of... Nilolett the actress, link above. But never saw him at what apartment he goes.

After the crash, the Chinese woman moved with her SUV and in her place came a woman that many times lately i thought it was Alexa Crush herself. However she was certainly looking like Nikolett. (Found out lately, by chance).

But when i looked to her family pictures, i thought i recognized the little girl (age adjusted) who was acting like possessed by the dog kami and acting accordingly that after i wrote about, she was gone.

At that moment i believed Alexa Crush was the Japanese actress Michi Nishijima and i think she did appear during that trip on Lake Tahoe.

One night, last spring, she was walking her dog and she said hi to me. Though i answered, did not want to talk to her further as i thought she wanted. Not knowing who she really was, did not want to complicate my life here at the complex.

But then i saw a woman one night at Spirit Mountain sitting in a corner and doing whatever while the orchestra man on the podium was playing Ode to the Joy. (The weekend of August 18).

It was that night when i started to have doubts Alexa Crush was not Michi Nishijima. Came home, did some more searches and i found for the first time Nikolett. In the next couple of days i did a match (August 22), i forgot to put one of the links that proves it was her (though the name was there, but not clickable), told myself i would keep it in mind, searching for a confirmation, and then i forgot.

But after that i started to look more careful at her. When she was coming home at night in her car she was playing loud music so i knew when she came. At times i was going outside, but i figured she never looked at me because i did not want to talk to her that night. Most of the time i was looking that way she had the door opened and all kinda decorations inside and outside the apartment.

Some of those were "on theme" with what happened to me daily.

Sunday at Road's End came a woman in a green beetle (the green bug) and did a routine in front of us. She then climbed down at the beach. The walk was similar to the red headed woman's (Nikolett), but the hair was dark brown.

Tonight i was drunk and smoking and she went to the mailboxes, passing on the other side of the alley, looking scared (a long white face). Then she turned her head towards me and i said hi and she did not answer. Then at the mailboxes she turned her head, looked at me and then started to browse the phone.

Being here for one year, she must have seen me here about a thousand times, especially when i was going to the bins to knot the bags. She knew i lived here and she saw me smoking many times before but never looked scared or turned her head towards me.

Then she came back on my side of the alley and did not look scared anymore. I said hi again and i apologized for not talking to her that night six month ago. She asked me how my day was going (like she knew me for a longtime) and walked towards me, looking concerned. Being drunk, i started to talk too much and told her how sick i was in the last 4 months and took antibiotics and stuff. Them she said i should have tried garlic.

I was next to the car and she was in the alley. But because of the slope, i was way above her so i stepped closer to be on a similar height. I also tried to take a closer look though it was pretty dark. But now i was kinda in her way to getting back to her apartment.

She said "i'm used to" and "everybody is taller than me" and "i have to climb on my counters" whatever that means and indeed she looked very short or about how Alexa Crush should be. I told her she was ok which she was. Tiny body shape and everything just like Alexa.

And then she started to kinda smile and relax and her face turned cute and we talked for a while. She said how nice is the weather tonight and i told her i am happy is colder because i don't feel the smell of poops that much and i showed her my frustration towards the people who throw bags open in the bins.

The she said the word raccoon and i remembered that night when i last saw her, a few days ago, me going to the  N bin N with the trash at 9:30 PM (now it seems odd i never saw her taking the trash or checking the mail) and seeing the three little raccoons with their mother, one of them climbing the bin and stuff. I said to her "a family, a mother with three..." and she took over "babies" and i said "they were more like grown ups...".

During the last minute of our conversation i saw a guy approaching from behind, but he turned right and went and stood on the other side of the alley by some TV box, behind cars. I thought he was Asian or Mexican.

Then she said "You know what? i need to go inside to get my dog and take it for a walk" and i was looking at her in disbelief, how abruptly she wanted to leave the conversation, all of a sudden when she saw that guy. Then she went to him, he seemed like a friend, they talked for a second and she went inside. Didn't give me a chance to introduce myself or anything.

Then in a minute or so the woman from upstairs came home in her Element and did not want to face her and did not want to go with whatever her name was to walk her dog either so i went inside.

There are many other things i remember about her but i'm too tired and need to go to sleep. That night when she showed at Indian Head with Toto Cutugno, one day or after he died. Here in the park the day before she posted this. Ok one more thing; could this possibly have to do anything with a post i wrote 4 years ago?

My post is dated June 2020 (select the white space between title and text). Ok her main video i fell in love with is Published on September 20, 2020. Posing like a girl from California. She got teenage stories from the US on Tik Tok.

They totally knew my taste and categories and stuff. So it was a revenge for what i said. So it is not like they don't care about anything.

And one more. Monday about a week ago i went the first time to Quest Diagnostics in Beaverton, inside Safeway on Tealc St.. Drove with Angela, wanted to go do a TDAP test  (Tetanus Diphtheria Pertussis) as a walk in.

The short woman came at 3:10 and put a yellow sticker next to the scanner saying "no walk ins after 3" and i think i was there before. Really frustrating. Then i could do the reservation online, in the same place, on a cancelation but that is another story.

Angela remained inside the store to buy some stuff, i wanted to get in the car and walked the alley when i heard a Sherriff's SUV making a big noise with the siren next on Murray, zigzagging among cars but i had this feeling and looked behind and there was this probably electric SUV making no noise, coming pretty fast for a parking lot, on a collision trajectory with my person.

I stepped aside, he did not slow down, blink or moved his head, holding his head like a robot, he went around the parking lot like he lost direction until i did not look no more. When he passed me first i looked at him and thought i recognized Nikolett's husband with no beard though. In that moment i had the feeling he would have ran me over.

No the result from last Wednesday test did not come back yet. 3 hours to write this post.

January 19

4:50 PM Over the last ten years i have identified a number of ninja from Japan living in my proximity. From Jinichi Kawakmi at Apt 2, 47 Eagle Crest dr. Lake Oswego, Oregon to Yuji Yamada, a ninja and professor at MIE University in Iga prefecture, Japan, at Apt.6 (above. 2021-2023) who used to be the stronghold of medieval ninja.

Recently i identified two more, one living again upstairs (sub-renter) and one at Apt.4, both members of Ashura group ment to attract new members in the dark craft. Could it had been all part of a promotion to recruit new ninja in Japan, trying to show them how easy is to work in the US and manipulate people there and pay everybody a lesson. In which the Emperor itself who is a ninja participated.

To me it has been about 13 years of torture and confusion and exposure to all kinda substances as smoke and mold, ruining my health. And probably the guys upstairs are now moving and are getting away. But what can i say. Fake cops are acting on cameras like the one at Walmart yesterday.

It has been almost 10 years since i wrote this page. I didn't know how to put my suspicions in writing and i used this formula. A fantastic novella that in the end proved a nightmare came true.

But then i remembered the August 20-21 experience where the cop was Solovyov himself. Iohannis showing at a casino right before i almost got into another one. So i'm thinking all that's happening to me, among other things, is promoted in Russia as an example "of how corrupt the west has become".

One more event i should not overlook. A few weeks ago a guy with a big truck backed up and pushed the small Dodge SUV into the building. That SUV belonged to a Japanese woman that was posing as a Chinese, supposedly the mole in the area. In fact i am positive it is nothing but them in the area.

November 24

10:05 Don't know if i can include the cyclicity of the seasons (given by the Earth's rotation around the Sun) in an explanation about Amaterasu's myth but November 23 is close enough to the winter solstice, at December 21 when daylight time starts to increase again.

But by reading the above linked article i figured other important things.

In the myth, the birth of music and shamanic dance is attributed to the temporary missing of the goddess, when daylight disappeared. In contemporary music, there are numerous examples of songs speaking of that, and comes to mind the verses "she got down but she never got tight/she's gonna make it through the night" from Blinded by the Light by Manfred Man.

Music and dance are now so ubiquitous in media and we never take the time to stop and think. How was life before the century of the lights? When it all started? The Renaissance? One thing we don't recognize. The shamanism of dance and music that surrounds our lives nowadays. And we all seem to ignore the source.

Modern music seems to have taken these days the role of a (shamanic) teacher, instructing us all the time (against the old order) with words repeating obsessively over and over. Having in mind another influential song by Pink Floyd.

Calculated deception and use of force for our good. Taking matters into own hands. Extrajudicial justice. Devine trickery. The Book of  Ninja (Bansenshukai) is full of it. But also comes to mind Maya, the world of illusions or mother of Buddha, which is part of Buddhism. Could it be the reason of the happy marriage in Japan between Buddhism and Shintoism, which seems to be a term linguistically derived from "Hinduism".

Own cave. Could this be the (Devine) model for Hikikomori? There are millions of young Japanese people who retreated in their own room, some for years. They also call it "social withdrawing". Though i suspect some of them are secretly enrolled in ninja training and Japan not having more hikikomori as percentage of the total population than any country.

I did that once. Been in the apartment for months if not one or two years, never going out. Angela had to go alone to buy groceries. In a year or two my body started to atrophy. Gained more and more weight.

One day it snowed a lot (like it happens once or twice a year in Oregon). I mean, one foot of snow and i ran out of cigarettes' and Angela could not drive to 7-11 with the Nissan.

I went outside, i was high all the time during that time though not realizing. I tried to put chains on the rear wheels of the truck, the chain on one wheel got entangled, i broke the truck. So i had to walk the half mile to 7-11. But after walking for like 5 minutes in the snow i realized i cannot walk no more. Me who when i was young i was walking 30 km or more in one day on the trails in the mountains surrounding the city i was born and lived until 14 or during vacations until 18.

In that evening i went outside to take pictures with the snow, again, the same difficulty moving around the complex.

So it cannot be. Those people will atrophy and not be able to do anything anymore in a year or so. I mean, some of them could be real, like in any country, and others using this as an opportunity.

But it has gotten out of control. For decades after the appearance of radio and television people accepted those as carrying new, unheard of before forms of speech and entertainement. More and more allusive, then with more and more sexual content, to the point one simply cannot listen to them anymore. How many curse words in a song by Doja Cat?

They for as long as i can remember used a lot a type of figurative speech when the singer speaks at first person actually casting attributes to another together with obsessively, bullying appellative "baby" that nowadays has turn into "b...h" and "ho" (Doja Cat, Doechii) in extraordinarily offensive songs.

Paint the Town Red has been on tops since release, with of course the help of all DJs in the world cause actually i and probably many others don't find that song so appealing to be played like 20 times a day on a hip-hop local station. Actually i ignored it for a long time though i was listening to it while driving and it came to my attention by chance.

Will people ever start to realize this is not western culture anymore but pieces of Amaterasu's mirror that shattered and covered the whole world?

They own most everything in the US. Though the graphs shows other countries "as well", their are present with finances in those countries as well. .7 trillions direct investment in US in 2021, must have been one trillion in 2023. It's all the money American pay for cars and other goods. Now they are pushing their singers disguised as Latinos and/or Blacks with their media networks in our ears.

11:42 Bullied by Republic Services.

I was writing the above when the thunder of the garbage truck started. I ran to the bin to pull the old garbage sacks from under only to see the bin being set again on top of those. And BTW there is a new one but fortunately was not covered yet.

I tried to talk to the driver and he said "why don't we do this next week" and i told him "i don't know if i can be that fast or even present" and then i asked him kindly "if he could do us all a favor and pull those two bags next week from under the bin (when he lifts it)" and he said "i should talk to the management and have the maintenance team be there to do that".

Then i told him i cannot tell the management what to do (i actually don't believe this is my job) and then he said "i see were you're coming from" and shut the cabin's door and now i feel guilt for even asking him that.

Wondering. Is there any procedure he has to follow or just continue to put the bin over old rotting garbage sacks.

12:08 I was driving yesterday to Grande Ronde on 18 around 5 PM. I think it was just before McMinville on the variant when i saw some flashing lights in the mirror. I was planning to pull as soon as those get closer, however they got closer much sooner than expected. It was dark enough not to see  the outer margin of the shoulder or the beginning of the ditch so like many times before, about one ft of my car remained in the lane.

Right in that fraction of a second i saw 3 State Police cars literally flying by. I think they had more than 100 mph. First one was far enough but second almost shaved my car. I haven't seen those again and haven't seen anything further down the road and i know State Police only have jurisdiction on freeways, or outside cities and towns.

12:22 Before that. Yesterday afternoon i added two more hundred milliliters of ATF in my car. I went for a test drive and yes, that was the case. I was low in ATF and the car was now shifting much better.

But it was like that since i got the car. I remember i saw on the plastic panel under the transmission and engine a pink gel. Is this what ATF turns into after a while?  Though there was no leak, then and later.

Obviously had to bend over to do that. But there was no one behind me.

Soon after i did that went to take the garbage and saw yet another trail of litter dust coming from the same place and going to the bin. I immediately went and grabbed the broom but several cars already passed over, milling those beads. I swept what i could, however i inhaled some of the dust. It was this choice. Let it there and slowly inhaling the dust over several days or sweep it and only inhale some once.

However it was not without consequences. Hours later i started to have weird daydreams, almost hallucinations when i was trying to sleep in the car. (Then i tried to drink from a broken plastic glass and spilled the drink on me. Then i had to rain inside with my pants wet because i had an urge to go out).

Thing is we were both under influence of that dust, for about a week. Angela was really mad these days.

12:32 Yesterday i first drove to Lincoln City. I was planning to hang around while Angela plays there. But i came 5 minutes earlier to the meeting point where i was supposed to pick her at 7:15. Tried to call but like last time her phone (we turned both phones on for a short time) wouldn't work inside  the casino. 2 minutes after, or at 7:12 a Security SUV came by. I was at the very edge of their property and not sure if inside or out.

However i was on the outer side of the street that supposedly is the border. The Security SUV entered the parking lot of the building of the Commission across the street and then left. However i left too and i could finally talk to her as she got out. She had to climb about 100 ft to the place i was cause i did not want to take a chance. Last time i talked to those guys they said i would be arrested if i come again on their property.

Question. Why there are not signs showing that your are on a private property, gates of fences? Is 4th street a public or a private road? How can i find out?

3:02 Ok i found something. I don't believe 4th St. is included in any of the properties. It is a bunch of properties belonging to the Confederation but i don't believe it is even a reservation. Unless the whole Lincoln City is.

But they don't need to be a reservation. Anywhere they act, the tribes are not taxed. Further research. What is the legal definition of a tribe, and how many members are left in Lincoln City and surrounding areas.

4:38 When the came today to empty the bins mold and bacteria from bins spread into the leaves. Because the leaves, in some areas up to 18 inches deep or tall or whatever are wet under. Some have tiny bubbles of bacterial growth.

That's why i found myself out of breath especially after Angela went to Walmart. Cause our digestive enzymes combined spread with opening of the esophagus/stomach or lower esophageal sphincter (the so called hiatal hernia) fight better the spores in the air.

Here came this matured tall guy with a goatee and two dogs (after children yelling like possessed by a mischievous kami) and chose to stop to get a better view of me from behind exactly when i was about to bend to fill a laundry basket. That would be basis for a later retaliation bending over which synced with some other stuff like noises, will make me sick for a half day.

6:33 Yeah i'm almost done with the leaves. I almost filled a whole bin. Yes the bin that sits on top of bags with old garbage, in a position where not many people throw their garbage on (it never gets filled, not even half of it). But the leaves are very loose, if enough people throw garbage over they will give in and pack. No evil done. BTW the person who used to throw blue doggy bags next to the bin now turned to pink.

John 14:6 "I am the truth" vs IN VINO VERITAS. Can a sinner tell the truth, on occasions? Do you have to be a martyr to give a good advise?

In Shintoism and Hinduism "there are no absolutes" like good and evil, each kami or devi is a mixture of them just like humans. Kali (the demon god, the fierce mother, the fury of Durga, the feminine counterpart of Shiva) kills (destroys) all evil doers etc. She was born enraged and even rebelled against her husband, Shiva.

8:10 PM. 817 DEU is the LPN of a GM black SUV that was parked next to the bin tonight. I saw that before but  never made the link. I longtime suspected the old man who dresses like a clown or homeless (suggesting modesty) is some religious figure from Romania.

After i caught my breath and wrote a bit in here i went to finish. They were two big piles that i squeezed in three laundry baskets and i grabbed a round piece of wood the size of a basketball bat to make more room in the bin.

A very thick smoke and the woman at 4 talks again in the balcony.

While i was trying to pack the leaves with the big stick a blond guy who lives with the old man came and threw provocatively from a distance 3 improvised doggy bags and one of them almost landed on my head, one next to the bin, saying something and then he left. BTW some people threw a few bags and now the bin smells like dog poop.

So bad it got into my clothes together in the parking lot.

All these happened after picking leaves for 2 hours with no one around and then spending one hour inside. Which means they were all celebrating their holiday which now i'm sure they believe in and had to call them over. Sorry guys for disrupting.

8:22 Here is a typical example of bending over. In an empty parking lot during a holiday, this woman stopped at a stop sign, got out of the car in a place she was not supposed to, even though there was no traffic, went on the right side and did something for at least a minutes so i had the time and opportunity.

From that distance it is also less offensive to viewers. The stress was provided within a minute by a cop who was patrolling the area, stopping at every shop. Yeah i was at the Mud Bay next to Michaels.

9:18 Mi-am zis eu mie însumi. Cu prima ocazie când gătesc orez fac o poză. Cel mai simplu lucru de gătit. 2 căni și jumătate apă, una cu vârf orez. După ce fierbe apa, pun orezul, amestec o singură dată, dau la foarte mic, pun capacul și urmăresc să bolborosească nu prea tare după care pun timer-ul la 12 minute când opresc aragazul și îl mai las să stea să tragă toată apa dacă mai are.

Se poate adăuga și lapte, zahăr, la sfârșit, când e fiert.

Total timp de lucru, 5 minute, timp total, 20. Da știu capacul e de la altceva, puțin mai mare, are mânerul rupt dar așa cu ele cum le vedeți am făcut eu mult orez.

10:38 I knew the smoke outside does not come from a wildfire, by the smell. It took many hours for the smoke to get here, 13 miles away in the wind's direction.

November 19

5:14 I was at Little Creek fast food. After driving two hours in heavy rain with freeway grooves full of water. Man those freeways (I5, local 101) is in bad shape. I must have hit at least ten big puddles with water and skidded every time.

One semi with a logo "LEGEND" on it passed me on the right doing more than 75 when i hit one of those. Like always about 20 minutes before getting there a pickup gave me unburnt fuel type of exhaust. When i exited, a guy with lights off almost hit me from the right. The filter smelled hours after.

So i took a few drink in the parking lot and went inside. After about one hour i got hungry as i knew i would because of those drinks and entered the small fast food area and sat on the only empty table.

At next table they were a couple of old guys drunk or high talking very loudly and doing a live conversation with one of those guys' wife or girlfriend, talking a high English (like an Irish or a Scotsman would) there are, supposedly, a lot in the area).

One the reasons i still go there (they are fun to listen to and look contagiously happy). I am positive they caught me in the stream several times , the way they were waving that phone around. So i pulled my camera and phone from my pocket and set it on the table.

Especially because i saw across the tables area a girl that resembled a girl from a story in Romanian news. To me she looks more than 13 years old. Most actors (on the right side of my matches) are up to 4 years older than characters.

At a certain moment one of them asked the woman on the phone to show them her bee bee and she raised her t-shirt showing her belly.

When i ordered i talked to a girl that hours later i figured she looked like Alexa. She was speaking very softly so i had to turn my ear and get closer. I was a bit... buzzed. Because of that i apparently ordered one extra serving of fries.

Then she gave me a number. I went a bit to the gaming area and then returned with the number in my hand and put it on the table. Now i remember i saw earlier a bunch of cops and some were dressed civilian, with badges some hidden under loose clothes.

So the only table i found was in a corner next to the two disturbingly loud old guys. Right when i was about to take a picture of that girl the woman resembling London Breed (or a disguised cop) came and brought me the food. She was acting like a security person asking me if i took a bunch of pictures in the area and i said no, but those two guys are live streaming.

She asked me if i wanted her to talk to them. But she didn't need any permission to ask me if i took any pictures. But all i said was "all i want right now is my food" and then she left. Soon Angela came and we saw a table in the other corner and moved to get away from the crazy filming guys.

But as we crossed a bunch of cops came and took a short haired blond woman sitting at a table as we went by, rather tall, with jeans and a visible belly, to the restroom and then i never saw her again. Then we went to Red Winds, Angela made her money back and a little extra, and then she fell asleep in the car as we came back. No more rain, thou they were some puddles left (man, is that an interstate freeway).

At a certain time i barely avoided a rock or a piece of concrete, white, about 3x10 inches while i was doing 80 (70 limit+10) on a wet pavement.

I think the real Alexa drove or was in a self driving car and caught with me right before 405 and then she went into that direction, and that was about an hour ago. The car in front of me slowed and i slowed and then i saw in the mirror that car approaching kinda uncomfortably close from behind and then passed me on the right and left to 405.

My new PC. Though it was working when we left, the screen now goes blank after i input the pin. So i stay busy and don't write here about what happened? And especially don't search for a match for London Breed.

Cause i know who Alexa is. She is the 16 years old  daughter of Hungarian singer, now deceased, Janos Kobor, the most famous rock singer of Hungary who in turn looks very much like David Gilmour from Pink Floyd. So he is not actually dead.

Yeah i know she looks thin in the pictures linked above. This video is since November 2022. Which means she was under 16 when she uploaded videos on all major porn sites. But that was after his father "died" in 2021. To the better man of Hungary, remember Oswigo.

But who is the guy sitting next to her. He reminds me of one of the initial kids since we moved here now grown up, who dresses in black and recently threatened me.

6:01 Apparently i was able to fix the PC by resetting BIOS to default because i saw it was written on the back of the box how to open it (it has been many years since i messed with a BIOS, and forgot). But how it got messed up, we shut it down when we left. I think it has a wake on LAN option and was connected to the router via ethernet and the router to the internet. Got to see if i can disable that one from again BIOS.

12:15 Last night i slept four hours and a half and was awakened by smoke. Went to check, made a few steps towards my truck and there was no more smoke, came back and apparently only this building is surrounded by it. The crazy woman ninja at apt.9 living with the guy with stinking Chrylser was in the balcony talking yelling on the phone again.

Though there are no fireplaces or anything. Could not find Wake on LAN function in BIOS so i wrote an email to support. I am so tired and ready to sleep but this smoke is keeping me awake.

4:25 Now that i slept i started to believe that one of the "two crazy filming men" was David Gilmour himself with bit of hair on his face. Too bad they are allowed to film while i an not allowed to take pictures of them. BTW now it smells like gasoline in here again.

4:53 Got one more 5 minutes job at the car, two small Japanese children came and one was symbolically rodeo riding the yellow hydrant.

11:20 Just figured something. When i ordered the food she left her fingerprints on my card. Should i have hit that white rock on the street and spun out of control...

BTW i remember three more episodes on my way back from a Washington Casino. One, the accident itself. One, that day when they first open a casino after pandemics. A woman was declared disappeared from Minnehaha area, Vancouver, WA, the same were the accident happened.

She appeared at the casino and was standing in line next to me after i went for a drink at the car. She kept telling she was confused, lost her purse, keep going outside and then back inline. For a while i was tempted to talk to her. Inside, cops i think "found her". Yeah i think she looked a bit like petite Pat Benatar.

When i got back, there was this semi, in about the same area, on the shoulder of the freeway which was absolutely empty of vehicles. It had red lights all around it (it was close to Christmas) and it distracted me long enough until i saw a wheel right in front of my car, i was probably doing limit + 10 and was too late to do anything.

Not a tire. A whole damn wheel lying horizontally in the middle of the lane and i passed over it and it touched something beneath the car but no damage was done. Good think i didn't hit the breaks, would have lowered the front of the car and then...

The short "Mexican" driver was talking on the phone next to the semi being part of the distraction. I would have probably been able to go around it if i kept my eyes on the road. He should have tried to pick it first. That's what i would have done.

The security incident with the senator. The skidding on a frosted bridge while blinded by flashing Police cars. Etc. Etc..

October 30

12:34 Moved the Winix filter that has 4 activated carbon layers and a VOC sensor next to main door or the other side of the room where it was. Main door is next to parking lot and the Chrysler and my car are closest. VOC sensor shows red which it rarely does. (It has three levels, blue orange and red).

12:44 The man upstairs followed me in the bathroom, flushed the toilet while i was there, now he awoke Angela by squeaking and stomping.

8:00 Still stinking like gasoline at 8 AM on Monday. Much better with the filter next to entrance. I think Angela slept less than 3 hours mostly because of the guys upstairs and works ten hours today. Outside it stopped stinking though the car is still on a jack. Gasoline smell kinda mixed and penetrated carpet and everything and now competing with the old dog poop smell in the apartment.

Just remembered something.

8:57 I decided to dedicate some time to clean and organize. Get rid of old junk, make it more livable. I spent so much time for my blogs lately and neglected everything else.

Made some noodles soup with bone broth added and was about to eat it when a young couple, like they don't have anything else to do with their lives, came like they do every day with two dogs in the yard beyond patio sliding door and the dogs started raising legs and stuff.

10:28 My Elantra has Sirius XM receiver which is a satellite broadcast system and has on the roof a shark fin antenna that can connects to either a satellite, or an LTE tower via the Bluelink and thus probable the most connected car of all brands. It also has a microphone that enable voice commands, phone calls via a bluetooth connected phone etc.. So it is doable for a hacker to make the necessary "adjustments" so everything you talk in the car to be heard or streamed via the internet.

11:34 Solved the mystery where the gas smell was coming from. It was not the Chrysler. They where (i think they still are) a couple of puddles of gasoline at the spot belonging to Apt.1. Though it's odd cause the puddles where pretty far apart.

Took one picture, was thinking to take one more when i come back from my walk. Cut my walk short, came back and saw a cop entering the first entrance in the building C east of the mailboxes.

I had my camera in my hand but i knew a Police car should be nearby so i gave up (don't want to take pictures of those while cops are in mission or in general). However i didn't see any Police vehicle, just a white SUV parked next to the mailboxes but i delayed taking the picture and saw the cop getting into that one. White, unmarked, Interceptor, probably Sheriff. Would have been in the direction where i wanted to take the second one.

1:00 I wasn't only drunk, i was out of my mind. Literally. The smell of gasoline for days, lack of quality sleep, stress, the 2 hour drive in smoke, sometimes weird smoke, a few glasses of wine that i think also had a smoke component from wildfires, hurry to get things done, unidentified unsorted things pressing on my mind.

I think my brain got too old to accommodate all these like a young guy. But i've done things like these since i was a kid. Colossal gaffes usually when the unexpected overwhelms me.

In grade school they used to call me "distracted" but in Romanian it has a slightly different meaning than in English. It means having your mind somewhere else.

I think it is a way to cope with sometimes unbearable stress and trauma. Like when i have to drive 50 miles in smoke and  hostile environment from other drivers though is the boredom that kills me most of the time and then i let my mind fly away which brings me a type of fulfillment (feel good neurotransmitters) that allows me to continue.

I do many other routine things this way. Always thinking of something else because it makes me feel better. But yeah, it can happen this way. You think of something else and that else is right in front of you and you can't recognize it however your subconscious does and carries a bit of a conversation that way, with the weirdest effects.

One of the most traumatic things is having to think hypothetically because it consumes a lot of brain power. Like coming to a different country and not knowing the language and culture and having to take in consideration when talking to somebody every possibility. Internet, learning the many expressions should have made it easier to me but yeah in the end i sort of lost drive, and that is mostly because what i discovered and put in my other blog. Keep asking myself if it's worth it.

But that sort of intellectual effort and hypothetical thinking and constant inquiring could have been the reason i discovered the big switcheroo (in the other blog).

1:13 Yiddish ("jüdisch"), a misterious language that until today i thought it was derived from German. So they did themselves and everybody. But today i don't think so anymore.

If the Indo European theory is true and all European (and Indian) languages derive from a single one which is probably Sanskrit it means all those languages have to have some Sanskrit words in them.

But the weirdest part and due to uniqueness of the situation i can't find another example or model throughout history each derived language has kept a different set of recognizable words from the parent language. Yeah i was talking once on the phone with a linguist and he went a bit sarcastic and told me like yeah, you can't understand this.

Unfortunately i don't know any of the two languages though when i was a kid i heard my grandparents, other people speaking German all the time. Could be this behind the drive for me to learn English which is not so far from German, when i had a chance. Could be neural pathways that were dug in my subconscious at the time. German and Jewish culture still present in Bucovina where i lived until 14.

Here is a sample of an English version of the song next to the Yiddish one and i can see Yiddish is not German.

Ok to make a long story short. I saw one word in the first verse that is Dutch and not German.

10:43 In the meantime, getting busy... Thinking... What is the (big) difference between (being) a p...y and (being) a d...k?

10:55 I was so high i did not realize... BTW are Maroon 5 the embodiment of Jewish losers?

11:30 Is Putin dead? We all know the story of Tamás Bujkó, the Hungarian judo champion 165 cm (5'5") tall who died in London and was stabbed in the face so many times and thrown acid so nobody can recognize him after... Ironically, Bujkó is an Ukrainian name...

12:27 Keep thinking. Why do i get so drunk after drinking only one bottle of wine? Is it i am getting old? But if i drink brandy i don't get so numb. Could it be the sulfites that are used to stabilize wine. Could it had been the gasoline vapor in the last days that BTW stopped. Could it be the sex in the air (shoe dog poops in the night, the real warm colitas in the song) etc.. All of the above. Ok i just did the dishes.

BTW yesterday in that parking lot in Lincoln City, just before i nearly died with apnea... I think they hired a model, one of the very few in existence with perfect a...s presented in spandau pants however a bit too tall to my taste (maybe 6) who was literally twerking at my car's window while pretending loading/unloading arranging stuff in her SUV. No i don't think i would have died happy...

Looking pissed like any model on podium i think they tried to show me how an a...s should look like. However she didn't know how to move it and i didn't even look.

I recently realized none of them do. Then they had left in the WA LPN SUV. Still could not figure out yet. White Shinto or simply Wa Shinto.

October 28

1:05 Smoke in here is beyond any limit, almost unbearable inside, and i've done everything i could as far as plugging holes. The whole space between buildings is filled with it and it got inside due to vibrations from a distant train. As long as they were noises upstairs it was better but i think they left and the smoke level rose. And i lost my flashlight and can't go outside to see more holes.

8:57 Dacă tu instanță îți declini competența într-o cauză nu mai poți să admiți sau să nu admiți o cerere. Nu mai poți să faci nimic în cauza respectivă. Întrebați orice jurist.

După cum am spus de atâtea ori. Începând din 1999 Tratatul Schengen nu mai există ca tratat separat ci a devenit un protocol, parte integrantă din Tratatul de Aderare al României (împreună cu alte 10 țări) aprobat de Consiliu în unanimitate în 2002 și ratificat de toate țările UE până la 1 ianuarie 2007. Cu alte cuvinte, România a devenit membru Schengen din 2007, cu necesitatea îndeplinirii unor condiții care trebuiau constatate de Comisie, care este partea legislativă.

De aceea așa zis-ul vot al Consiliului pentru aderarea Croației nu a fost un vot legislativ și nu are nici o valoare juridică. Dacă vă uitați în agenda cu votul respectiv veți vedea că a fost programat în secțiunea ne-legislativă a întâlnirii. Nu a modificat cu nimic tratatul de aderare și apartența Croației la Schengen, ci și-a abrogat rolul executiv al Comisiei, constatând îndeplinirea condițiilor care în cazul României erau îndeplinite din 2011.

Nu va mai exista niciodată un vot legislativ în Consilu pentru aderarea României fiindcă acest vot a fost exercitat înainte de semnarea Tratatului în 2003.

Tomac nu trebuia să dea în judecată Consiliul pentru acesta și-a făcut treaba. Trebuia să dea în judecată Comisia pentru ne-aplicarea Protocolului Schengen din Tratatul de Aderare ceea ce înseamnă ne-aplicarea aquisului.

În Noiembrie 2022, după 11 ani de ne-aplicare, Comisia și-a declinat compentența aplicării aquis-ului.

Conform acestui șirag de argumente dintr-o pagină a enormului site sau mai bine zis grupul de site-uri ale UE, tratatul din 2003 care a intrat în forță în 2007 după un lung proces de aprobări și ratificări nu putea fi semnat fără votul unanim al Consiliului care trebuia să fi avut loc cândva înainte de semnare în 2003.

Pe atunci agendele Consiliului arătau altfel, nu aveau o secțiune legislativă și ne-legislativă, care pare o invenție recentă menită să ascundă faptul că nu mai era nevoie de un vot în Consiliu în cazul celor 3 țări restante. În general voturile ne-legislative sunt treaba Comisiei și nu a Consiliului.

Nu găsesc, oricât aș încerca, agenda votului Consiliului care trebuia să fi avut loc înainte de semnare în 2003 însă a avut loc căci semnarea Tatatului nu se putea face fără acesta.

12:36 You the book nerd, can you please buy and read this book. I need to buy it too cause i exhausted all attempts to download it for free, like Bansenshukai, though in paper format you cannot do (fast) searches. Maybe i could buy it and downloaded as ebook, should try this first.

The idea (hypothesis) is there are channels that can be opened between people (such as lovers), maybe one to many, maybe one way only (do not look in the eyes) and i think those channels once open like by seeing a video early in the morning, can be hijacked by a third party.

4:00 I could say more on the subject but don't want to get weirder than this for now and i'd like to share with you something i just found out.

Much of the stuff that's happening to us and may throw our lives out of normal is the bacteria and mold that's living inside the empty spaces in the interior walls and between upstairs floor and your ceiling and that can be relatively easily cured with an ozone generator. Need to find a closet or space where there are cracks or openings that are communicating with that space that is usually all linked together because of pipes passages. One good place to look is the space around pipes under the sink and install it there.

But usually there is some space between the fan box in the bathroom and the ceiling and the fanbox itself may leak when the fan works into the space between ceiling and upstairs floor or attic feeding the space with nutrients like your own dead skin flakes present in house dust. Install the ozone generator in the bathroom and close the door. It would be a bit uncomfortable to go in there i know. Leave it on as much as you can.

Careful cause the ozone even in low concentrations is harmful to eyes and lungs but you usually can feel it after a day or so and adjust time and settings. Ozone is very reactive (oxidizing) and combines with everything, killing mold and bacteria, and neutralizes sulfur dioxide that emanates from drywall panels, etc..

Another way is to use the ozone generator on high settings when you leave the house but will need a timer so it would stop at least one hour before you get back home. Usually in all american homes there is space between floor and the wall where you can stick a finger, around plugs etc.. and the ozone will get inside the walls through that space.

Got this one that also has a negative ion generator and let it run for half day in the bathroom, every few days on ozone mode and continuously rest of the time in the living on ion generator mode.

The negative ion generator puts in the air obviously negative ions LOL that are attracted by the dust that is usually positively charged, making dust particles heavier and fall to the ground where they attach to carpet and stuff and never raise back up except when vacuum cleaning. It is so much better to breath cleaner air and have the dust on the carpet. I think it works better than any filter i tried over the years.

However mine doesn't have a timer for ozone like this one and cannot be shipped to California, i think none of them can because of the... ozone LOL.

Will see first results in about a week. Lower bacterial load especially in your guts will give a break to your still young immune system and brain and your mind will be clearer. But when you get older the stuff will start to permanently infect your organs giving you what doctors call arthritis.

But if you see big spaces around pipes under the sink or around plugs on big appliances or between floor and walls, you should know you are in danger because of insulation dust that may come especially from exterior walls that are filled with mineral insulation (rock wool). Try and stick everything you can like rags in those spaces. Insulation dust is irritant and painful and has weird psychological effects, especially when combined with bacteria and other stuff.

Most of the dust is released upon vibrations from big speakers or modified exhausts outside but also steps upstairs.

One good indication you are dealing with environmental issues like these is stomach pain. Dust is being continuously eliminated from your lungs into your stomach and guts.

Many antidepressants work as pain killers, allergy relief etc. and that could be their only benefit (by dealing with the effects of that dust). That's why you become extremely sleepy and lethargic when you start those or when you get out of that environment like going into a much better built hospital. But that could be your normal that is not exciting anymore.

6:22 It's what o clock in the evening on the west coast and finally figured her face since this morning. It was all youtube suggestions and stuff, nothing intended, sorry if you had a good fun out of it. As i said, ima never gonna fit, even introduced to. Not the sharpest tool talking real time.

Soul love. It crossed my mind earlier before i saw her last post. Actually the real(Alexacrush) translation of the title of the movie from Italian Prendimi l'anima is Catch my Soul. "Schtejt a Bocher"...

12:44 The man upstairs followed me in the bathroom, flushed the toilet while i was there, now he awoke Angela by squeaking and stomping.

8:00 Still stinking like gasoline at 8 AM on Monday. Much better with the filter next to entrance. I think Angela slept less than 3 hours mostly because of the guys upstairs and works ten hours today. Outside it stopped stinking though the car is still on a jack. Gasoline smell kinda mixed and penetrated carpet and everything and now competing with the old dog poop smell in the apartment.

Just remembered something.

8:57 I decided to dedicate some time to clean and organize. Get rid of old junk, make it more livable. I spent so much time for my blogs lately and neglected everything else.

Made some noodle soup with bone broth added and was about to eat it when a young couple, like they don't have anything else to do with their lives, came like they do every day with two dogs in the yard beyond patio sliding door and the dogs started raising legs and stuff.

10:28 My Elantra has Sirius XM receiver which is a satellite broadcast system and has on the roof a shark fin antenna that can connects to either a satellite, or an LTE tower via the Bluelink and thus probable the most connected car of all brands. It also has a microphone that enable voice commands, phone calls via a bluetooth connected phone etc.. So it is doable for a hacker to make the necessary "adjustments" so everything you talk in the car to be heard or streamed via the internet.

11:34 Solved the mystery where the gas smell was coming from. It was not the Chrysler. They where (i think they still are) a couple of puddles of gasoline at the spot belonging to Apt.1. Though it's odd cause the puddles where pretty far apart.

Took one picture, was thinking to take one more when i come back from my walk. Cut my walk short, came back and saw a cop entering the first entrance in the building C east of the mailboxes.

I had my camera in my hand but i knew a Police car should be nearby so i gave up (don't want to take pictures of those while cops are in mission or in general). However i didn't see any Police vehicle, just a white SUV parked next to the mailboxes but i delayed taking the picture and saw the cop getting into that one. White, unmarked, Interceptor, probably Sheriff. Would have been in the direction where i wanted to take the second one.

1:00 I wasn't only drunk, i was out of my mind. Literally. The smell of gasoline for days, lack of quality sleep, stress, the 2 hour drive in smoke, sometimes weird smoke, a few glasses of wine that i think also had a smoke component from wildfires, hurry to get things done, too many unsorted things pressing on my mind.

I think my brain got too old to accommodate all these, like a young guy. But i've done things like these since i was a kid. Colossal gaffes usually when the unexpected overwhelms me.
In grade school they used to call me "distracted" but in Romanian it has a slightly different meaning than in English. It means having your mind somewhere else.

I think it is a way to cope with sometimes unbearable stress and trauma. Like when i have to drive 80 miles in smoke and  hostile environment from other drivers though is the boredom that kills me most of the time and then i let my mind fly away which brings me a type of fulfillment (feel good neurotransmitters) that allow me to continue.

I do many other routine things this way. Always thinking of something else because it makes me feel better. But yeah, it can happen this way. You think of something else and that pops right in front of you and you can't recognize it however your subconscious does and carries a bit of a conversation that way, with the weirdest effects.

One of the most traumatic things is having to think hypothetically because it consumes a lot of brain power. Like coming to a different country and not knowing the language and culture and having to take in consideration when talking to somebody every possibility. Internet, learning the many expressions should have made it easier to me but in the end i sort of lost drive, and that is mostly because what i discovered and put in my other blog. Keep asking myself if it's worth it. And then the prize unexpected refreshment.

But that sort of intellectual effort and hypothetical thinking and constant inquiring could have been the reason i discovered the big switcheroo (see the other blog).

1:13 Yiddish ("jüdisch"), a misterious language that until today i thought it was derived from German. So they did themselves and everybody. But today i don't think so anymore.

If the Indo European theory is true and all European (and Indian) languages derive from a single one which is probably Sanskrit it means all those languages have to have some Sanskrit words in them.

But the weirdest part and due to uniqueness of the situation i can't find another example or model throughout history, each derived language kept a different set of recognizable words from it. Yeah i was talking once on the phone with a linguist and he went a bit sarcastic and told me like yeah, you can't understand this.

So here is a major difference between German and Yiddish. Right in the first verse of the folk song.

Unfortunately i don't know any of the two languages though when i was a kid i heard my grandparents, other people speaking German all the time. Could be this behind the drive for me to learn English which is not so far from German, when i had a chance. Could be neural pathways that were dug in my subconscious at the time that helped me with learning it. German and Jewish culture still present in Bucovina where i lived until 14.

However i can recognize some words and phrases, and from a few searches i realized Yiddish is not a very  "cared for" languages, with several types of Latin transliteration. But here is a sample of an English version of the song next to the Yiddish one and i can see Yiddish is not German.