December 03

6:25 The amount of smoke during last days but especially yesterday here in the apartment was incredible. I worked at the car for several hours and every time i was coming back inside i smelled it. Don't know what it was, most likely kratom. When i finished i got back in here and i knew we will not be able to sleep with that smoke then i checked in a place i haven't checked in a long time. Under the siding next to bedroom floor. All the area alongside concrete foundation under bedroom window was caved. I stepped on it, it remained like a small ditch. My suspicion for a long time is people are passing by with their dogs and stick something self burning (containing an oxygen releasing chemical like saltpeter) in the ground. Due to thermal flow around the building, the smoke is getting under siding and inside walls.

One of the the stupid things i've done yesterday. I had the car's wheel inside, and i accidentally released it on the stairs. I tried to grab it but started moving towards my neighbor's car and hit the front bumper, perpendicularly (given the direction of the stairs). It wasn't going that fast and i wasn't expecting any damage, but when i looked closer i saw exactly in the impact point an abrasion, that was done earlier, because it had horizontal grooves most likely by hitting a curb. I don't want to speculate on how they actually programed my brain to do this, but i know how they did it and sadly it's not the first time. If it would have happen if i wasn't on that whatever it's coming from the ground. No i don't think it would but that was only a factor.
As for my car. One of the problems is i got a -2 degrees camber misalignment on left or where the car was hit in the last accident. The strut is bent and cracked. The right strut is cracked as well, but the cracks in both struts are due to fatigue, not shock during accident. So i first ordered two on the right, by mistake, on a site, which are arriving tomorrow, and the one on the left on Amazon that came two days ago. Monroe. They are for Elantra SE not SEL but on different sites i found they are compatible. On the site i ordered first two they are theoretically 77 dollars + shiping, on Hyundai OEM sites they are listed between 150 and 280, for different part numbers that are actully compatible. I would expect here in Portland at the dealers they will be around 400 a piece, all with no spring. But i suspect they have a design problem that makes them prone to cracking. Which brings me to my failure yesterday of transfering the spring on the left strut because i could not take the nut on top (after succesfully compressing the string with a tool i ordered) because i didn't have an impact wrench. So i just put the bent strut back before i came in and dealt with the smoke. Here in t his image you can see how the strut is bent. 6:44 But before i gave up i went to O'Reilly's, Home Depot and Lowes searching for a tool to hold on the weird looking metal part that's under the top nut on the strut. It's got two indentations which i assume you could get with a tool resembling a fan clutch tool or a tool for a flange. I found both of them but not the right size. Impact wrenches work with inertia of the strut rod instead, no need to counter torque on a stationary part while trying to get the stuck nut at over 100 ft lbs. I don't know if electric impact wrenches are as good as pneumatics, especially the ones i can afford which run for about 50 bucks on Amazon, but i think i'll order one. When i went and especially when i came back i realized i'm high (which i still am after at least 6 hours being smoke free now) and i saw on the alley two Police SUVs. As i could not find a spot, i went back with the truck at Meridian, and came back walking and when i passed the first Police car (closest to intersection, worried sick because my car was sitting there on jacks laid on a side) the engine started by itself and then it stopped several seconds later. I thought is for refreshing the battery for having all the computers in there running, but i also believe it was what made me let the wheel going down on the stairs by itself. It has all been predicted, so they also made the dent on the bumper of my neighbor's car in the exact spot where the wheel hit it.

I remember when i was in high school, i think it was during the fall of 77 one of my roommates, the one who looked like Travolta, told me that the brain can be programmed in such ways that they could make you open a book at a certain page.

7:38 The way it happens, is it increases concentration gradually and actually don't feel it. I just went outside, there was heavy smoke around the building, looked and stepped on soft areas in known spots, from alley's curb to the bushes, all around  the building, the smoke started to subside, got used to cleaner air, when i got back inside it was then when i realized how much it was.

1:22 Just figured how it all started. A few days ago i wrote about smoke from an unknown source flooding  the whole area on December 1st. Smelling like wildfire smoke. While i couldn't figure where it came from, the smoke persisted the next days by turning into a very local, around this building only smoke, but now i was too high to realize. Earlier. A Niagara like sound started through the pipes. Could it be a shower, a washer.  Didn't happen in a while. Which means they are using that so rarely (guy upstairs is not home).

8:10 I was quietly reading the news and making comments in my mind when i heard this commotion upstairs, right on top of me, other then the "normal" squeaks that accompany every my move and thought, for hours at a time. Trying to imagine what it was. Jumping from a chair or the coach on the floor of a short but muscular guy. Scaring the hell out of me. Followed by yells. What is the guy pretending he's doing? It must be this title i was looking at, thinking of clicking on it. The truth is he keeps me on being mad for hours at the time. Can this be categorized as some type of torture? I bet it does but there's nobody here except me and them. "I'm the only real one among the hundreds of thousands of demented actors".

11:44 How many wolves in a pack?

December 02

7:40 Last night i finally got the part i needed for my car (was delayed, then it came on time, surprising me), went outside, pulled the wheel and checked to see if it fits, thinking, maybe replacing it (could be 2-3 hours work, mostly inside) just when i went with the part, smoke started, big time in about the same time where they were putting a big show in the parking lot (it was quiet but all of a sudden, everyone i saw before and some i didn't, came outside and started to make a pass, a conversation, a yell). At first it resembled grilled hot peppers,  then it turned into something like a building burning somewhere.

Last night i also realized something. The electrostatic "Ionic pro" filter was due for a cleaning, was contaminated itself with dog smelling stuff, was spreading it in the room. So i cleaned it with the showerhead, careful not to flood the electronics compartments (if i couldn't do it that way, the filter was junk anyways, these are very good but they should design it with more ease to clean in their minds), this morning was still wet, dried it and cleaned it some more with a wet towel, hair drier, finally works, but the room was filled with smoke big time (the two activated carbon + HEPA filters where not enough) and i had this bitter taste in my mouth and got some fluid in my lungs that make me feel like i choke and want to cough all the time. Can't see anything in the news today, air quality is still bad on monitors, there is no trace of fire on the IR satellite, don't know where the smoke came from. My only guess. The ninja are playing again.

7:48 Is Kroger so high this morning climbing defying gravity because of what happen to me at Fred Meyer last night (a local chain that have been brought by Kroger a few years ago). Around 9 i ran out of everything to drink except beer and was mad because of the smoke and show and everything and went there to get some wine (< 1 mile), at first couldn't find it, this store is becoming more surrealistically posh every time i go there, they re-arranged wines by categories, and i had to look like 5 minutes to find the isle with "1.5 liter California wines", that is the cheap ones, got my Gallo Pinot Grigio for 7 bucks (not the cheapest), different quality this time, sweeter, they were all these Aryan fast moving constantly working guys, moving stuff on carts and almost running me over, this colossal good looking guy at the self checkers, a skinhead with a black mask figuring a German beard (no moustache) next to me (when i looked more carefully, he wast just a Gipsy from Hungary), a guy with a black German beard (no moustache) outside and when i went at the self checkstands, at the next free one they were in the printers, forgotten or ignored these 10% OFF JEWels tickets.

8:05 Finally went and checked outside, there where these tiny "volcanoes" right under siding.

9:00 A few minutes ago, after me mentioning above the word ninja. Ninjutsu is rooted in Buddhism and Buddhism in Hinduism. Who knows what vedic principle they apply when they double everything like this. One thing is sure. They replace a short term memory, an event that is still being processing in people's mind with something else, usually fake, emotional and misleading. Real, not movies ninja, get very rare into confrontations.

December 1

3:34

7:29 Down beside that red fire light...

November 29

9:07/7:07

10:17 No type would be better...

November 28

6:14 Having a civilian as defence minister is generally considered a trait of democracy.

6:23 It was the best of times, it was the worst of times

6:30 Size of a slice of a corona virion, zero (point one) micron. I guess we just assumed.