December 03

6:25 The amount of smoke during last days but especially yesterday here in the apartment was incredible. I worked at the car for several hours and every time i was coming back inside i smelled it. Don't know what it was, most likely kratom. When i finished i got back in here and i knew we will not be able to sleep with that smoke then i checked in a place i haven't checked in a long time. Under the siding next to bedroom floor. All the area alongside concrete foundation under bedroom window was caved. I stepped on it, it remained like a small ditch. My suspicion for a long time is people are passing by with their dogs and stick something self burning (containing an oxygen releasing chemical like saltpeter) in the ground. Due to thermal flow around the building, the smoke is getting under siding and inside walls.

One of the the stupid things i've done yesterday. I had the car's wheel inside, and i accidentally released it on the stairs. I tried to grab it but started moving towards my neighbor's car and hit the front bumper, perpendicularly (given the direction of the stairs). It wasn't going that fast and i wasn't expecting any damage, but when i looked closer i saw exactly in the impact point an abrasion, that was done earlier, because it had horizontal grooves most likely by hitting a curb. I don't want to speculate on how they actually programed my brain to do this, but i know how they did it and sadly it's not the first time. If it would have happen if i wasn't on that whatever it's coming from the ground. No i don't think it would but that was only a factor.
As for my car. One of the problems is i got a -2 degrees camber misalignment on left or where the car was hit in the last accident. The strut is bent and cracked. The right strut is cracked as well, but the cracks in both struts are due to fatigue, not shock during accident. So i first ordered two on the right, by mistake, on a site, which are arriving tomorrow, and the one on the left on Amazon that came two days ago. Monroe. They are for Elantra SE not SEL but on different sites i found they are compatible. On the site i ordered first two they are theoretically 77 dollars + shiping, on Hyundai OEM sites they are listed between 150 and 280, for different part numbers that are actully compatible. I would expect here in Portland at the dealers they will be around 400 a piece, all with no spring. But i suspect they have a design problem that makes them prone to cracking. Which brings me to my failure yesterday of transfering the spring on the left strut because i could not take the nut on top (after succesfully compressing the string with a tool i ordered) because i didn't have an impact wrench. So i just put the bent strut back before i came in and dealt with the smoke. Here in t his image you can see how the strut is bent. 6:44 But before i gave up i went to O'Reilly's, Home Depot and Lowes searching for a tool to hold on the weird looking metal part that's under the top nut on the strut. It's got two indentations which i assume you could get with a tool resembling a fan clutch tool or a tool for a flange. I found both of them but not the right size. Impact wrenches work with inertia of the strut rod instead, no need to counter torque on a stationary part while trying to get the stuck nut at over 100 ft lbs. I don't know if electric impact wrenches are as good as pneumatics, especially the ones i can afford which run for about 50 bucks on Amazon, but i think i'll order one. When i went and especially when i came back i realized i'm high (which i still am after at least 6 hours being smoke free now) and i saw on the alley two Police SUVs. As i could not find a spot, i went back with the truck at Meridian, and came back walking and when i passed the first Police car (closest to intersection, worried sick because my car was sitting there on jacks laid on a side) the engine started by itself and then it stopped several seconds later. I thought is for refreshing the battery for having all the computers in there running, but i also believe it was what made me let the wheel going down on the stairs by itself. It has all been predicted, so they also made the dent on the bumper of my neighbor's car in the exact spot where the wheel hit it.

I remember when i was in high school, i think it was during the fall of 77 one of my roommates, the one who looked like Travolta, told me that the brain can be programmed in such ways that they could make you open a book at a certain page.

7:38 The way it happens, is it increases concentration gradually and actually don't feel it. I just went outside, there was heavy smoke around the building, looked and stepped on soft areas in known spots, from alley's curb to the bushes, all around  the building, the smoke started to subside, got used to cleaner air, when i got back inside it was then when i realized how much it was.

1:22 Just figured how it all started. A few days ago i wrote about smoke from an unknown source flooding  the whole area on December 1st. Smelling like wildfire smoke. While i couldn't figure where it came from, the smoke persisted the next days by turning into a very local, around this building only smoke, but now i was too high to realize. Earlier. A Niagara like sound started through the pipes. Could it be a shower, a washer.  Didn't happen in a while. Which means they are using that so rarely (guy upstairs is not home).

8:10 I was quietly reading the news and making comments in my mind when i heard this commotion upstairs, right on top of me, other then the "normal" squeaks that accompany every my move and thought, for hours at a time. Trying to imagine what it was. Jumping from a chair or the coach on the floor of a short but muscular guy. Scaring the hell out of me. Followed by yells. What is the guy pretending he's doing? It must be this title i was looking at, thinking of clicking on it. The truth is he keeps me on being mad for hours at the time. Can this be categorized as some type of torture? I bet it does but there's nobody here except me and them. "I'm the only real one among the hundreds of thousands of demented actors".

11:44 How many wolves in a pack?