November 12

4:10 Wipe-outs. Banksy vs Bankman and now Batman. AJR.

4:21 It is true. They can also heal. But how. Like any trick, it's only temporary, by boosting your hormones.

Everybody remembers. After puberty, after all the pains of growing follows the magic period of a hormonal storm that naturally lasts up until 40s in average people and almost indefinitely in people that have an ideal nutrition and not so much stress. It is similar to salmon's run, though people live past that.

However when this overdrive period ends, your body starts to fail, from being over-stressed for so long.

And here comes the dog of Gula, the goddess of healing in ancient Mesopotamia.

To this day they use dogs as therapy. It is known they sometimes bring dogs for petting sessions in psychiatric wards.

Don't know exactly how it works, but they may boost hormones or enzymes to levels like at the beginning of your youth. Or T Gondii, the parasite that produces dopamine. No wonder they thought and still believe to this day dogs are magic.

But again like many times before, one search threw me way off course and my mind wondered so much i simply forgot why i opened this thread. I think i found something i was looking for a longtime. The origin of the symbol of the City of Lake Oswego. The symbol of the rainbow serpent (which became Nut in Egpt) in Ancient Mesopotamia. Nungal. It's just too much for now.

One thing everybody has to realize. There is too much ancient magic in public and private life and media nowadays, we got to shake some of it before we totally choke.



5:06 Yesterday i finally washed the comforter in the bedroom. 3 times washing with hot water, 2 times rinse with hot water, one with cold. Could not realy turn the spindle of the washer because comforter was too big, i kept pushing downwards until i got tired. Worked on that one, drying and washing, intermittently the whole day.

Was still stinking after one wash, two washes, etc.. I think got re-contaminated from that one (that got contaminated after months or years of dog poop smell from outside, can't remember when i did it last time, thing is hard to dry). Thing is now i got again the magic in me, my gut smells like it, i'm nauseated, took a charcoal, went outside to search for the magic but couldn't smell or find any (the grass is also covered by leaves). Which is good cause i don't like to handle those.

However what i found was a kid's bike next to curb in front of our entrance. A newer more expensive one than in the past. I know from experience that nobody comes to pick those of which i saw several in the past and i just took it next to the bin.

5:40 Cuțuvencii. I think their AI got so good by now they can predict what i'm going to say and do for hours or days. Here in his current poem posted 4 days ago Dinescu writes metaphorically about two breads that of course represent Ancient Egypt and Mesopotamia. Don't even want to think who's the drunk priest uh huh.

6:07 Anii 70. Ascultam Phoenix la radio dar nu am știut niciodată că cel care cânta, Baniciu, era colegul meu de bancă, Mihai. My bad. Nu cred că mă voi recupera vreodată din asta pentru că știu acum că fața aceea întunecată a lui care apărea câteodată e de fapt cea reală.

Însă melodia asta nu am deslușit-o sau poate nu am auzit-o niciodată până recent. Prima dată mi-a atras atenția cuvântarea "zei peste zei". Azi tot așa din nostalgie am vrut s-o mai ascult odată și mi s-a părut că aud în primele versuri cuvântul draci. Dar nu am fost sigur până nu am gugălit versurile. Da, așa e. Oare ce vrea să spună?

7:37 Cel mai greu îmi este (psihologic, pentru că mă înfurie la culme, practic nu durează prea mult) este să descâlcesc subliminalele pe care ei le aruncă din cele mai neașteptate direcții. Gaura din colon. Numele lui Cristofor Columb în spaniolă era Cristobal Colon. (Un nume predestinat sau prefabricat, fiindcă are inițiale duble). Pentru cine nu știe, colon în engleză înseamnă...

Însă un gând mă dărâmă. Dacă ei îi culeg selectiv sub pretext de COVID pe toți cei care se prind de ce scriu eu aici?

8:08 Was about to fall asleep when from next door they hit the wall. Exactly in that moment, not very loud, but loud enough prevent me from falling asleep. They did it twice. They used to in the past, not recently. Also i figured it is not only the guy upstairs who dries dirty laundry. I think they dried unwashed dog's laundry and the vent is not far from ours and under the siding as well. There are dog's hair on the grill of the vent.

12:54 ICR în sus ICR în jos, ICR la Londra plătea 6500 mii de lire pe lună pentru un apartament adică 7500 de euro adică 36000 mii lei pe lună adică 430000 lei pe an (aproape jumătate de milion). 

De ce au apărut ăștia în știri zilele astea nu știu, dar am fost mereu curios să le aflu bugetul, de când am citit despre un email care circula prin SUA întrebând cine mai vrea bani pentru activități culturale, prea târziu pentru a aplica, și nici măcar nu m-am ostenit să mă uit pe propriul blog în lista bugetelor pe ministere ("ordonatori de credit", dreapta sus), unde ICR se găsește ca și ordonator de credit separat față de Ministerul Culturii.

Mișto mi-am zi eu (putem afla), are un buget de 32 milioane lei, din care aproximativ jumătate cheltuieli salariale. Aproape jumătate de milion pe un apartament. Ce se știe despre clădirea însăși unde este găzduit ICR-ul în Londra. Dar cele din Paris, New York etc.. Pe site-ul lor (link mai sus, tab-ul rețeaua) se află lista orașelor unde sunt prezenți. Dintr-o simplă căutătură ne dăm seama că bugetul lor (fără partea de salarii) se duce pe chirii, care sunt pentru clădirile principale și chiriile angajaților.

Stau și mă întreb ce ar trebui să-i facem să publice lista clădirilor, angajaților, salariile. Că doar sunt banii noștri.

Am fost curios și m-am uitat puțin și pe bugetul Ministerului Culturii. Dublu număr de angajați, însă bugetul e respectabil. 1300 milioane lei (1,3 miliarde). Și am fost curios mai departe, oare ce fac ei cu banii. M-am uitat puțin mai jos în pdf și am văzut o chestie familiară (o văd mereu, cu sume mai mici sau mai mari, în general mai mari decât asta, la ministerele mai mari). În jur de 1000 milioane pe partea cheltuieli pe contul "Transferuri intre unități ale administrației publice". Deci acolo se duce grosul bugetului Ministerului Culturii. 

Chestia apare de la începutul anului, de la facerea bugetului prin legile lui. Un transfer programatic misterios care papă cheltuielile multor ministere. Unde se duc acești bani?

Ok un search pe cuvântul transfer în același pdf a lămurit doar o mică o parte (114 milioane împărțit la 4, deci vreo 30 milioane) din mister. Dar asta nici măcar nu face o mică zgârietură în transferurile lor de 1000 milioane. Deci unde se duc banii când se duc? Plătim cu ei show-ul (cultural) pe care îl vedem zilnic în media, căci oamenii se străduiesc să ne dea ceva în schimb.

"Totodata, OUG 42/2019 [care urgență dom'le] și Legea de aprobare 198/2019 prevede alocarea de la bugetul de stat a sumelor aferente categoriilor de cheltuieli pentru obiectivele de investiții prevazute în anexele care fac parte integranta din prezenta ordonanță de urgență, în valoare totală de 114.658,8 mii lei se realizează, anual, în perioada 2019-2022, prin bugetul Ministerului Culturii, în limita sumei aprobate cu această destinație. Sumele aferente categoriilor de cheltuieli pentru obiectivele de investiții, alocate de la bugetul de stat, se cuprind în bugetul Ministerului Culturii la titlul "Transferuri intre unități ale administrației publice" și se acorda de către acesta sub forma de transfer către bugetele locale ale municipiului Timișoara, respectiv județului Timiș, după caz".

După cum spuneam de atâta timp. Fiind bani publici, nu ar trebui să existe la sfârșitul anului (bugetului anual) o dare de seamă cât de cât cu sumele cheltuite sau oricând pe site-ul Ministerului Economiei sau al Guvernului bla bla?

Însă lipsa dărilor de seamă a guvernelor e o boală globală, nu le-am văzut la nici o țară de care știu eu.

2:50 O melodie tot așa de AUR (sau AIR) care mă enerva ușor la radio (categoria insuportabile, sper să plece repede din top-uri). Dar când am văzut ieri video-ul pentru prima dată m-am îngrozit. Căciulă rusească, îmbrăcați în roșu, un candelabru uriaș etc.. Oare să fie aluzii la activitățile mele?

2:52 These days i kept telling Angela how satisfied i was with the Chromebook "don't know how an Apple laptop is but this one is probably comparable, certainly an alternative for the expensive Apple" etc. while Angela's Windows based Lenovo all in one (computer in a monitor) was going slower and slower though i used all the trick i knew to fix it.

BTW i gave up the monitor and keyboard and mouse i initially (after my old PC went out) i attached to it and now i do it all on my lap as i got used to the keyboard and pad. Angela said she wanted a Chromebook like mine but if possible with 100 dollars on Black Friday. But guess what. Today Lenovo gave up the ghost (won't power anymore). And she does on it all the banking and bill pay. But guess what. I'm not fretting about. Other than checking the power supply. I hope she will decide to get a chromebook this weekend. I hope Windows and Microsoft will disappear soon from the face of this Earth.

5:55 Never mind that. Angela convinced me to fix the Lenovo. It took me a while to figure how to open it since they were not visible screws. Found a video (good thing people do keep up with figuring how to open the innumerable devices made in China), did slide a panel and voila. The thing was exposed to me. What i found. The board with the on/off switch have fallen inside. Because the screws that were holding the frame inside were loose with some completely fallen.

It was back in 2018 in my first or second trip to SW. Didn't have a laptop back then so i put the Lenovo in its box and in the trunk. Then i hit a 10 cm pot hole (asphalt stripped by construction work with a small hand written panel as signal) at 80 mph on I5 somewhere in NoCal. One ore two sockets of the screws holding the frame broke (they were rattling inside when i was moving the thing). Rest of them got loose probably from vibration after?

Heat sink's radiator was completely clogged with dust. The processor (variable speed) was throttling down while the fan was making that annoying wind like sound. But it happened sudden, after one trip. Computer was only 1 or 2 years old. Do i have any excuse for not fixing it for so long? Yes, dog poop and smoke from outside. But there's one thing i don't understand. Why didn't they make a sliding panel on top of the fan so you can remove it and clean the radiator. They never do. You wanna know why? Yes because they wanna sell more, not having us clean them.

I cleaned it, tightened all the screws and voila. It works like new. The present for Angela's birthday. So it wasn't a Windows thing but i don't apologize, i still hate them.

About 2-3 weeks ago i gave up the monitor, mouse and keyboard and started working directly on the laptop and my abdominal pain intensified to the point i couldn't take it no more. It is obvious this laptop though performant, puts out microwaves.

10:06 Hai sus pe cai! Și totuși regret că regia de montaj nu pune focus (aproape) niciodată când trebuie pe el, care face cel mai meseriaș metalic sunet în tot concertul, accentuând (dublând) pe alocuri vioara și eclipsându-l pe chitaristul oficial, Covaci chiar și la power chords, cea ce propagă obiceiul: Bate șeaua să priceapă tinerii. Bătrânii, care au avantajul imensei celebrități nu mai puteau să se prezinte cu ce aveau și au apelat la ei.

November 11

11/11 2022 You know it's true!


I knew her since 84 i guess since Angela started to work at CPL Bacău where she was acting as head of the IT department. They were other celebs there like Frida from ABBA, Boy George, etc.. Went to parties, New Years celebrations with her. In early 90 i quit the job as head of CAD department at IMU and went to work in the IT there and she was my boss for about a year LOL. Nothing scary like the video above without make up, uh uh. Yes some of it happened during Ceaușescu.

Would have been there for a long time if some other opera singer who worked (reading newspapers all day) there (the third one in the office) (trying to help himself or her out) didn't trick me in a plot against her. While she was in vacation i started an app for salaries (probably the first and only real time salary app on a mini in Romania) and implemented it while the other guy claimed her place as head of the IT. The man quit, i quit also and went to work independently and she probably went back to Hungary.

I finished that app, sold it to a state firm, then moved it on PC at another state firm, went to work in Italy, for two months and made an extra 1000 dollars, bought a PC, started to do accounting at home but was too burned out (drinking or maybe smoke from neighbors, dog poop like here) and could not learn object oriented or Windows (PC was a 286 anyways) which i finally did at Quadramed but was to sick (probably from dust falling from the false ceiling in there or ceiling at home) and quit after 8 months. However many of my colleagues there were also actors and other celebrities. Probably never had any real school or job in my whole life.

2:08 Bad smoke is back.

5:45 Sam? Bankman? Fried?

7:08 Where women glow and men plunder.

7:11 I started to believe cancer happens when you lose your ever thinning collagen matrix holding cells together in organs and your organism tries to fix it with immortal cells. It's evolutionary survival cause you could have lived longer in times with no surgeries and antibiotics with a cancer than with a hole in your colon. Not easy if not impossible to treat even with this theory because you can't build back your collagen matrix, only replace it with scars and that is if you find the source of collagen eating bacteria in your house made with collagen glue.

November 10

12:26 Adrienn Zsédenyi

2:35 A fost melodia lui Buggles din 1980 inpsirată la greu din melodia Mica Țiganiadă a lui Phoenix din 1974?

8:55 Went to Lowes to buy something. When i went to the car there was so much smoke i felt like i was about to choke. Not wildfire smoke, smelled like coal smoke. I opened the window later a few hundred ft away near the office and there was no smoke. In the parking lot at Lowes there was smoke, wildfire mixed with something else.

In the store i thought i was high. I pulled my pants that were falling in front of other people like i didn't care. My mind was absent. At the paint department, there was this guy on one of those elevator for the shelves and though he blocked the area, his thing was beeping at 100 dB or something. Among other things, i bought dishwasher detergent that is not antibacterial and regular laundry detergent together with a roll of duck tape.

When i grabbed the detergent there was this Russian looking guy pushing a cart, taking on the phone, like a drug dealer from the movies on CRIME channel (Kokaj, Rockford) i watch these days.

They were no regular checkstands open so i went to the self checkstands. One of the items had a wiped out code and wouldn't scan. A woman taller and bigger than me came and wanted to grab my detergent and asked me to come to the checkstand at the end of the self checking which had no counter. She grabbed my detergent like to scan it, put it down, out of my sight and then she checked everything asking me how my evening was. Didn't feel like much talking. She said: It's about to end? Truth is, i think i was stoned by the smoke at home and in their parking lot.

I went to put my items in the trunk and drove back home. When exiting the lot, almost hit a curb that was in the place where the lane line should have been, unpainted or anything (hard to see, they added lots of them lately). On the freeway i met with a Jackson cistern that pulled on the same exit and then went to the Shell Station on 65th. A black SUV with a guy who was staring at me dead worried at with a regular (out of sequence) LPN saying MPL (Military Police?) kept driving next to the cistern, like protecting it from me.

When i got back home, smoke again. Went to the mailboxes, my pants kept falling. Not much smoke near the mailboxes though. A couple of kids got in my way close to the door.

Ir's so deja vu it makes me sad. It happened so many times before. I call it virtual events. They design around me scenes that are about to happen (but they never did in so many years). Who knows who they contact and what they obtain until those pass.

10:33 Since temperature went down they started to so laundry in the building in a week like they didn't do all summer long. Because the floor gets wet underneath.

I'm so stoned i can't speak, i can hardly type. 

Went outside and plugged a large number of mole holes, because they have to use those to accomplish the prophecy. However the smoke now comes from somewhere else. I went past the south dumpster on the hill where the houses are but the smoke does not come from there. There was this used paper plate in the leaves and threw it in the dumpster and disturbed a raccoon that was probably high like that squirrel at the door that day,

Keep remembering the song i heard on the radio on my way to Lowes. World's smallest violent. Is it supposed to be happy and funny? Never heard a song more stupid before. Wait a minute. The guy in the middle looks like the one driving that MLP SUV.

11:18 Just went outside with my air quality monitor and measured 12 micrograms, which it 4 times better than the AQI site is showing for Tualatin. That coal or sulfur like component i think makes me dizzy is gone now but will take some time for me to recover (if it's not coming back). However i don't understand this map. Where the smoke is coming from? Looking at the weather at KOIN 6 and they won't say a word about the smoke.

11:42 In the year 2000... Was staring daily at this page that hasn't change for almost 3 days now until i read this. It all deep ends on George isn't it. I hope they will make the infrastructure project irreversible by then.

November 9

3:05 I guess they call it Grand Ole Opry for a reason. Olé!

3:33 Tomorrow's homework. Supermodel she is, but not from Slovenia.

4:07 Angela needed some groceries i forgot to grab yesterday at WinCo. When she came about 15 minutes ago she called me to come with a bag to pick them from the trunk. They were also two one gallon water bottles and was too lazy to raise them to close the trunk. But when i went to close the trunk, from around the stair's wall and the bush came a girl with an appearance of a 12 years old, who looked like her and started to stare at me, looking surprised and somehow offended.

"Veteran's daughter", a woman in her 30 with the appearance of a kid did this for years. Last time she crossed my way coming after me at the mail. The "veteran" possibly the rapper Pitbull was at the end of the alley and started yelling at me "quit following my daughter". A woman whom i thought was Tom Cruise disguised with a wig was coming again with his hands hidden behind the cars when i went inside again without trying to confront them.

Around the same position i saw in the last couple of days a guy strong build with goatee smoking or checking his phone. Could he be the father of the "new kid in the complex"?

There's a 10 minute walk from the bus station to the "cul de sac" here and "confident" kids in this "otherwise safe Latino complex" walk alone, with rarely an adult accompanying them.

5:15 dr.Oz

6:30 Came about an hour ago, squeaking senseless back and forth on top of my head ever since.

7:20 After a 50 minutes break he's back at the job.

10:46 I slept a little, woke up, went to take the garbage and realize outside there's a thick coal like smoke. Plugged as many holes as i could but there's just too many. The whole yard is nothing like mole tunnels that collapse if you step upon and the're full of smoke.

November 8

2:25 Dedată la diete și mai severe (atenție la coate) și un dinte puțin pilit.

7:44 Mda am postat-o pe Lia Georgina, azi au venit cu o știre despre Olguța Lia. Da e adevărat am avut-o în blogul asemănărilor din era pe care eu o numesc "asemănări romantice" când mergeam mai mult pe intuiție și am avut din păcate prea multe greșeli iar azi trebuie să o caut iar. 

Dar un lucru aș vrea să adaug. În afară de faptul că dacă cineva caută multe fotografii ale aceluiași politician rămâne mirat de numărul de fotografii pozate, unde există o colaborare clară între subiect și fotograf, și nu surprinse, cum ar trebui să fie la niște politicieni veșnic muncitori, am descoperit mai multe ciudățenii (peculiarities) la fețele șerpilor. Mulți din ei au gropiță în bărbie ca Becali (bine la el e ditamai șanțul), dar poate și mai mulți au o gropiță în... vârful nasului, care se manifestă la anumite vârste.

10:05 Unfortunately i had to go out tonight to buy stuff for the hungry fridge. 50 different people messed with me including blinding me, squeezing me at every bay and yelling after me in the store, the pepper nazi following me, a code service 1 when i turned around (like any time when i do that) cause i forgot an item that was at the beginning, and a fast moving light category warming up at the check stand first blocking the convener with a case of bear (they went back cause they forgot something) then humiliating me by handling one item (out of 100) i forgot on the cart because they distracted me, still i remained calm,

What i wanted to say. Biden waited 2 years to finally start his main campaign promise. This way, nobody can say he didn't but if Republicans win tonight, will they stop the 1 trillion infrastructure bill?

Though im afraid when i think what they did in t he last 10 years in Oregon. Showing good intentions, they messed lots of things. Smooth but wavy highways. Modern looking badly aligned medians and shoulder lines and intersections. Unseen unmarked curbs when least expected where shoulder lines should be. Still unsynced red lights leading to many stops and more fuel consumption and time wasted. In other words they can mess further the well done since 50 years ago American interstate system. Simply because the heroes and dreamers and generally America who built them don't exist anymore.

BTW just remembered something. Anybody ever calculated how many miles heating planet and how many hours Oregonians have to waste in a year having to drive to liquor stores instead of getting their liquor in grocery stores that also sell alcohol in the form of wine and beer? If they are so concerned about minors why not having locked bays in superstores like in Washington State?