October 27

10:17 Skim this. It has been refreshing through motivation, thank you, but when stressed out the society fell back on easy to handle stereotypes as their culture has been built of those. As for me, i don't know anything anymore except i will never try to seduce you fit in. Don't assume i'm even trying just because i've learned to some extent English or i exhibit some human reactions.

As for coffee, i use (decaf) coffee in the morning together with a charcoal cap so i cleanse my guts from bacteria and protozoa that fell from ceiling and came from constantly calculated dog piles outside so i feel less nauseated and can eat something. In fact i just smelled one right now so my daily cycle can begin like in Ground Dog Day.

And BTW i don't believe stereotypes are true generalizations uh huh but a way of manipulating the whole society by making believing so.

BTW do you think concept is a type of generalization? (My head is spinning just trying to read a little about those because of the endless mess of always failing western philosophy and of course of the psychology that derives from it).

BTW i couple of days ago i fell again victim of yet another attempt to fit in. That is trying not to think of every detail of what i'm doing but rather trying to do everything in a hurry based on experiences and learning by mistakes.

Years ago when i was under the heavy influence of smokes from around the building i did an oil change and spilled some oil on a couple of connectors on top of the transmission.

These newer automatic transmissions are head spinners because the control of shifting gears is done by a computer that is hooked to it by some fragile connectors instead of having everything inside like during old times where all the governing was inside. So a simple failure of those connectors would mean your car will severely malfunction.

So i was troubleshooting a rare intermittent malfunction and first thing that came to mind was i should try to clean those inside and out with some WD40 contact solvent i bought a while ago for this purpose which is tricky because you can contaminate them more by bringing dirt from outside the connectors inside.

So i gathered courage and momentum all day two days ago and when time came it started to rain. So i postponed it until rain stopped and went outside and did it with a flashlight in the dark trying not to blind the pilots of the low flying planes that started pouring (they always do that when i go with a flashlight at night outside).

It took me one hour only to unstuck one of those, then one more to clean them while exposed to smoke in smoke and also been breathing lots of that solvent and then when about to finish i got drunk out of frustration. So the next day and even today i was numbed and dumbed by the three influencers combined, much more than usual.

So i spent all day yesterday like oh so many times before trying to remember exactly what i've done at the car and that influenced my whole "moode of thinking" on top of everything (i was quite mad). And BTW i feel smoke coming from outside again 12:15.

So i came to the conclusion i didn't break anything but the problem went away after i added a bit of fluid cause i believe it was under the lower limit which is almost impossible to figure at a transmission without a dipstick.

BTW a few days ago i was driving through Beaver-ton (the city where i lived before, at Sus Sex Village Apts.) and entered the dealership to buy 2 more quarts to attempt the third partial drain and fill, you cannot drain the whole fluid and you do 2 or 3 partial drains (in my case of three quarts every time) to change up to 75% percent, as opposed to going to the dealer and paying 500 dollars and have changed about the same percentage or less (when they flush it by pumping some will still mix with the old one) and then wonder if they didn't break anything else.

So i went in at the same dealer where i bought 2+5=7 quarts a year ago, talked to the parts guy and he was not satisfied with year make and model and went outside and wrote the VIN from the car and then he gave me the two quarts but when i got home i saw it was a different type than the quart i had left from those 7 i bought a year ago (and used 6 for two partial drains).

And had to wait like 15-30 minutes until they brought the fluid "from the other shop cause they were out of it".

So before i did anything i checked and found on a site and the type of fluid which BTW was 32 dollars a quart was not compatible with the other i already poured in. Notice, bottom of the first page here.

12:44 I believe in cognitive therapy which i think is the logical replacement of more "esoteric" Freudian psychoanalysis. Simply remembering and reinterpreting traumatic events in the light of newer acquired friendlier (now stereotyping) experiences (i think it can only work for the lucky ones though).

2:00 Again deleted a whole entry by mistake. These two invoices do not show the last qualifiers (letters) of the type of fluid. Last one has an odd account number, 9999. Though the different part numbers are there. BTW i love Americans because of the freedom you can see in their eyes kind and candid nature even when they are "legitimately" or openly trying to conspire against me, however putting that recognizable fearful "evil" or mad look on their faces.

11:00 When we started to yell at each other i knew there was too much smoke in here. Found three sets of holes releasing unprecedented amounts of smoke, one was just around the corner under their AC, one under a bush and one next to our patio. Smoke subsided suddenly when i covered those. Angela does not believe me when i say smoke is coming from the ground. Now it's coming back but not so much anymore.

11:01. Tonight there was another drawing at Spirit Mountain. I was surprised and in a way, mad by the fact that the car was running much better. Smoother shifting at the transmission, more response to the pedal. But i think it has potential for more. Slightly better mileage going there (430 but when i came back the temperature was 20 degrees less, pressure at the tires 4 psi less and the mileage was like 42 but i had to stop a few times and it dropped to 40.

In my way there i was thinking to add some more fluid but when coming back i decided to do more research.

The method of measuring recommended in the service manual says. With the check plug open, engine on, a steady flow of fluid must come out and if you measure it should be no more than 900 cc every too minutes.

I believe it's ridiculous, if you remove 900 cc just to measure you will be one quart short, right? What if it only drips? That does not count for a steady flow, right? So i figure it you let it flow until you have just a drip and then add like 200 ml or something, right? Which i did but now i'm not sure if i should add some more.

I think it is obvious for everyone, they built it in such a way you cannot do it by yourself, you must go to the dealer and they themselves don't know what to do except hooking a machine to it and let it do the job. So nobody knows how to measure fluid level in a dipstickless transmission period. I mean, you can go to the dealer and pay 180 for a diagnostic and they will tell you to change fluid which can go up to 500 more.

This can't be right. I've done so and then after i added 200 ml the car runs much better. I think this guy has overfilled but since no bubbles are coming out... So maybe i should go under the car one more time to check.

In our way there. At the Safeway at Tualatin Sherwood and 99 (yes i think there is a Starbucks there) there was a vehicle (car or van) upside down on the other side of 99. Kept asking myself how could it have ended like that in an area with 35 speed limit but then Angela told me it probably fell off of a towing truck that was parked further down the road.

One annoyingly noisy motorcycle with a guy with very thin ankles (though around 5' 10") in front of us in the slow moving traffic, for minutes, and then he was gone and i was staring at the "accident" when traffic in front of me stopped suddenly and almost got into the next vehicle and they were like at least 8 Police and Sheriff's cars on the road on an "accident" with no driver involved.

I think they were there to witness to my arrest if i hit that black SUV or van in front of me.

11: 24 No hit, seriously!

October 26

11:12 Can't believe what i just heard at Z100 about 3D printed houses. "First project of the kind, built by students at a university in 13 months ... 425 sqft". Asking myself is they use text to speech software and there's nobody in that studio. Then they play Doja Cat Paint the Town Red for the 100000 time... Ugh. Feel like vomiting.

11:52 No google answer can confirm right now my strong suspicion that all music listened on the radio is made or processed (broken down and recreated) with AI.

Some of them songs even have breathing sounds like Eilish latest or finger rubbing guitar string sounds. Listening right now to Running From the Daylight, all tremolo and vibrato periods that fit entirely within in a note seem inhumanly perfect, with fabulous inexistent instruments in the background.

But i believe all it takes is listening with much attention for small too perfect imperfections like no breathing time for the singer between notes or overlapped notes where there shouldn't with voices that are as fresh at the end of of a phrase as at the beginning.

Second voice in the chorus of Paint the Town red follows mathematically precise the main one.

2:04 Wicked.

6:07 Let me make one thing clear. I never ordered or paid no one ever for any reason except i paid commission a couple of times in Romania to get programming work 30 years ago but it was small and legitimate. If someone chooses to cosplay in areas where i go (Tualatin, Oregon) should know some other entities are paying them and stop doing it.

All hypothetical red riding hoods and their supposed relatives wearing red Safeway aprons should stay home and safe and film barista videos and stop doing porn and playing victims and should get satisfied with the enormous amounts of money for clicks on links on my blogs (judging by the dozens or hundreds of live memes i see around me like when i go to a store or something) and if they don't want them should give them to charities. I got carried away and i put those links because i thought it was funny as intended and now i'm sorry about it.

Though i think they started coming before discovering their tiktok accounts or before i put those links. But who knows. It could be they don't count or pay for clicks on links coming from my blogs like they don't count the real number of visits on my stats page.

BTW last time when i went and ordered food at Spirit Mountain they applied an old trick from Chinook Winds and put the receipt for me to sing on top of another soft piece of paper "because the counter surface was so hard".

8:04 BTW remembered something else. I was making some pizza and doing dishes and stuff and went in the bedroom to ask Angela who's binge watching TV at this hour something and got hit by a smoke smell that seemed familiar. Went outside and plugged too holes in the ground under bedroom window and remembered where i smelled that smell.

8:38 Ok i pulled the second and last pizza from the oven (i put it in the fridge and then heat it in the mw for the next 2-3 days) and came here to finish the idea.

Spirit Mountain has 3 entrances, and one of them is between the casino and the hotel, closest to the big and more quiet parking lot in front of the hotel. Many times i ate, slept and drank in the car in that parking lot though recently the security is patrolling a lot (in some days, depending).

They have recently done some remodeling, built a new smokers section between the hotel and the casino, and the entrance has a double glass doors and walls, like the others, and they put of course a new plastic of course carpet in there that stinks (out-gases VOCs) and always thought that was the normal smell of a new carpet that is closed between doors but now after many months i start do doubt it. Like when you just enter the casino everybody who used other entrances can smell that smell coming out of you.

Could they have done it on purpose tonight so i write here so they can ban me from that casino as well. Cause tomorrow there is a drawing and during drawings is the only time we can win a little some machines are loose during drawings, when there are more people in there, to get them addicted, if you can find one of them, last time (Monday this week) i won 250 dollars playing over Angela's shoulder who was tired anyways of pressing buttons after i caught a free games sessions.

October 25

1:12 Nehammer. Schengen. Xi Jinping. Bottom.

1:30 Tom Emmer abruptly.

10:50 I wish it was weekend cause this entry would fit into that horizon. Was that or two days ago when i put a link to a song from 7 years ago where some were still trying to make a mark in music with AI.

I bet its stridency raised lots of eyebrows (or better said pricked ears) at the time but we were already used or at least openly introduced to the phenomenon by Alex da Kidd.

Soon it became obvious to anyone that AI cannot be used extensively or excessively or even distinctively in music, but only as adjuvant in "sculpting" artists' own voices and combining it with instruments that sometimes seem all too perfect, but never too far from recognizable and indistinguishable to the most.

However i think people deserve to know that everything they hear today on their radio comes from "the box" which means nothing is "direct" or natural no more, especially the re-synthesized voices. It became very possible the "artists" don't even sing their songs anymore, but just offer samples of their voices or simply sing the disclaimer  and then lip sync to the machine when performing live.

1:15 There is bullying and there is smart bullying. The need for some to bully someone weaker physically it's obscure and i don't have the time to analyze it.

But there is organized bullying (and yes since bullying is a crime, organized bullying through its vast consequences should be treated as organized crime). It is usually smart bullying not the kind met in classrooms and school corridors or workplaces.

There is an effect on the target, but in cases like me, who i am so accustomed to it and worn out emotionally it doesn't matter. The target is usually a larger audience that may "learn" the lesson through sympathizing.

Let me give you an example. This morning i couldn't wait to get outside because of the vague smells in here. Which turned real, when i got back though there was smoke throughout all my walk in the range of 50 or slightly above normal. Perceivable.

First think i saw outside was a dead squished fat rat. Right in front of the building. With its guts and tiny liver spilled on the pavement. I had to pick it and throw it before it got flattened completely and rot in front of the building for weeks to come.

Note the link with the squished lifter i just wrote about. Immediately a badly smoking FedEx passed followed by an even worse smoking noisy BMW with black windows, non Oregon LPN something like 5B8 that filled the alley with exhaust that lasted for the next 5 minutes or until i got at the street.

After i crossed the street there was the classic Sriracha prepared bottle. A water bottle filled with water mixed with Sriracha left to trickle on the ground in the wind direction. I am familiar with this treat because they did it many times when i was very tired or even sick. It wakes from the dead everybody on a few hundred feet, inside and outside in the wind's direction.

Trying to compensate for the lack of sharp insulation dust that was doing the job before i closed those holes in the walls a couple of days ago.

So it was the nose congestion followed by a stimulant so i will hopefully crash or have heart failure after breathing through congested nose while being stimulated with pain. I can confirm chest discomfort right now and forcing myself to breath on the nose.

After spending all night trying to figure the next speaker, after i had a few drinks and was already tired, drinking caffeinated soda and staying up until i found it and then until i got sleepy, which translates 6 AM, i was half past dead when i got out of the building and now i feel like jumping to summon the Halloween ghosts.

Can't possibly recollect right now everything that happened during my walk, though i saw again the Rev'it pickup passing in the neighborhood, which i perceive as a threat in the same time with an almost bold, threatening guy by the breaking pillar.

I was like walking on a cloud though it was raining from above, not able to think much except of what i already got obsessively in mind. Not much aware of the surroundings that is. Ok i remember one.

Back in August when they did the pavement someone came with a truck (possibly the one with snorkel and WA LPN associated with the people upstairs) and drew some eights on the fresh asphalt though they were not perfect eights, looking more like leaves and could not remember where i saw that sign except on some logo from Hungary that i can't remember who it belonged to but today i saw it again on a transportation van.

1:54 Got back home, smoke inside, filled a couple of mole holes by the concrete patio, found in the grass a flattened tiny poop just by the smell, etc.. Finally at the laptop. Only to see the adapter died again (the third this year). So i will take another break until i can get one.

And on Z100 right now thet are playing Fire to the Rain. Which is not on their Recently played as at 2:10 or right now.

10:00 In case you didn't know

10:30 I really hope we all will meet with the day when all work, physical and spiritual will be treated seen as fitness workout and meditation.

October 24

4:02 I wrote something on Bob is The Oil Guy forum. That starts with the words "they can prevent a sticky valve situation with oil squishing out of the lifter". Talking about catch cans. Then some guy on the forum comes and trolls me saying words like "conspiracy theories" and "fruitless imagination".

Then i called upon a moderator and after a couple of days one comes and trolls me more saying "There is not one technically accurate thing in your entire first post" and then closes the thread before i can answer calling me "hopelessly ignorant". You don't call hopeless ignorant someone who posts a couple of question, no matter how ignorant that person may be. Except of courser if he/she bothers the whole auto industry establishment.

Truth is the issue is at least controversial and many people indeed use too much imagination and non technical terms when describing the issue. The reason i can't find an exact description no matter how much i search.

But them are being simply abusive by closing the thread like this. Because they can and because i adventured on their forum seeking people with more technical knowledge and hoping for answers and in the end founding some with more rhetoric. It is known people with mechanical inclination have a "tough guys" reputation.

It is also very possible they retaliated for what i write on blog or payed for by the industry to hush things out. It looks like it is not the moment to contact anybody with any kinda a question because the answer might include more than expected.

Valves stick only because of oil deposits combined with soot from EGR system and dust that passes the filter and there is only one place oil is coming in the intake and that is badly designed PCV system that hasn't changed since the 40s allowing oil from blow by gas to enter in the intake and get burned in the cylinder to get rid of it and that is the only reason for installing a catch can.

The same goes for battery connector, a design that hasn't change much since Ford Model T, except for marine type batteries.

Situation is much worse with diesel or GDI engines because the fuel is not sprayed on the valves which help clean them but "directly" inside the cylinder.

When a valve sticks it causes the lifter to be partly collapsed and not make continuous contact with the lobe of the camshaft and when it does, due to the valve being stuck and moving harder, oil pressure inside lifter may briefly exceed the oil pressure coming from the pump, with back flow and/or leak under valve cover, in the same way as if the lifter was badly worn out, keeping the lifter collapsed or with little oil in it and foaming of the oil while making the universally annoying ticking sound.

If the valve gets too stuck the lifter may not be able to close it and then at first would make another noise when pushed closed by the compression cycle, than the combustion mixture will back flow in the intake and in the end which rarely happens if ever with newer engines, burning gases inside the cylinder will burn the open valve out.

But in most cases, and that happens a lot, a stuck valve means a "missfire" which means that cylinder is not operating at full capacity, creating a dynamic imbalance of the engine, with loss of efficiency, vibration and driveability problems at high speed due to sub harmonics of that vibration, a condition that may start early in the car's life and last to the end making it unsafe to drive on the freeways.

You basically got two system that return something in the intake, PCV for blowby and EGR, one is for emissions and the other for cooling, the equivalent of enhancing fuel octane grade, protecting the engine that in the end compromise the efficiency of the engine and smoothness of ride and drive.

5:15 Been up all night, got so mad after what they did to me on that forum, had to explain. Slept about 5 hours but only after i used some decongestant, the amounts of insulation dust in here were over any limit, woke up at noon, tried to make a match, a welcome gift for the new speaker, then i was so tired i barely completed my walk. Then a new hole popped in front of the patio, the place got filled with mold and maybe smoke, the reason i could not get more sleep which i'm trying right now.

11:24 Crazy like Rambow.

Ok i slept most of the evening, found a bit of grain alcohol from the liquor store on the bottom of a half gallon bottle, mixed with water to 35%, had a drink, was doing the dishes and eating pretzels when a couple of crazy Asians came with a car and played the base for about 45 minutes, from 10:30 to 11:45 some 300 ft away from here, south of the complex or north of Stoneridge City park (yes where Latinos meet on Saturdays and Sundays).

It was so loud was annoying me while doing the dishes, grabbed an umbrella and went outside to see where exactly and what car and i saw some agitated people next to a car parked on 68. My ears kinda hurt. How many normal people in the area should have been bothered, at half to midnight, no one called the cops like they never do. I think it's a conspiracy of neighbors to annoy me.

I was telling Angela i should to call the cops but i gave up because of possible complications (i had a drink).

Then when they were done the guy upstairs awoke and started to stump and squeak. Short bursts of a few seconds coming from faucets, rare toilet flushings (once every few days).

October 23

11:55 Why i stopped writing with no explanations. It is a form of protest, though to me writing was a form of protest. A protest on top of a protest.

Though i frequently listen music on car's radio during my trips (my fingers do not follow the same way my brain after a 5 days pause), i never realized or payed attention to Doja Cat's song Paint the Town Red (until i heard it on tiktok of course were else, thank you Alexa for this one too).

Maybe because it is has fewer profanities than others. However when i saw the video it was shocking and really underscored the conclusion i already made. The song is about me. And it's currently number one in 15 countries. A way of subliminally counteracting most of my themes of my standing protest.

Then in the same time i discovered yet another possible avatar of Seri Iwahori, other then the ones i already wrote about. And this one is threatening.  And didn't and still don't know how to describe it without triggering the underpromised retaliation.

But i broke ranks of my lone strike to write about only one thing. (Yeah i've been thinking if i had a chance to write about one more thing what would be the most important one to write about).

It is about yawning. Yeah i like to shock people hopefully drawing attention while exposing contradictions. Let me explain.

There are a number of "social quirks" that are contagious. To sympathetically synchronize behavior, some say. Yawning is so inducible you may yawn while reading this. Maybe the reason that long time yawning was considered impolite and unaccepted (semiconscious) behavior. But there are others less obvious. And more others nobody has ever written or spoke about it.

That is how i could explain the unconscious physiological changes that occur to me when i see a person usually with black pants and a considerable butt bowing backwards (the reverted usual social Japanese or Korean bow) at me while calculating or made aware (signaled) of the moment i look. Sometimes all the way to touching ground with hands. Under various pretexts, like grabbing dropped keys, things like that.

I still don't even realize something is happening and it took me a long time to make the link, and only because of the very high frequency they deliberately used it on me, thus making it statistically remarkable. 

Now i know the effects occur instantly with lowering of blood circulation in pelvic area and intestinal gas blockage and it manifests within minutes when pressure starts building up and propagate all the way to the diaphragm muscle that is also part of the breathing apparatus, with lowering of breathing capacity and twisting of the hard which is attached to through connective tissues and there goes your panic attack.

Diminished blood circulation (and intestinal absorption) starting with lower abdomen, pelvic area and legs, for a longer time may get you chronic constipation, weird, persistent, hard to cure urinary infections and possibly leg ulcerations. Other unknown effects.

And of course heart benefits at first of the lowering of blood circulation in some areas of the body and gets used to it making it "addictive" and when the condition lasted a long time and it reverts, you may go into partial heart failure. Easiest to diagnose. Coldness of hands and other extremities by closing blood circulation in non essential areas to compensate.

Also yoga poses done in public, or intimacy, and especially the lotus pose may have also weird, sometimes submissive effects on others. The rubbing fingers gesture.

An area modern western medicine never went to because they don't see any reason to. Spiritual, non contact martial arts, old magic, some would think but it's nothing but an (ancient) exploit of the so vulnerable human nature and physiology.

What scares me the most. It is most likely done also through mass media, during clips, movies and reading the news on TV and with any opportunity THEY through all kinda of poses and postures related to plain words can mass spread all kinda diseases and behaviors.

And BTW i already got one (type of panic attack) because all the time i was writing the above a dog was barking with crying accents and a big engine with small exhaust was revving in the vicinity).

Another one i wanted badly to write every day during my hiatus. Always thought they were saying come down or something... Or maybe they did and the lyrics are wrong. Rema? Rama? Roma?

10:15 About 12% of the Brits have supplemental private insurance, the rest go with NHS. Angela's insurance at Eaton cost the company 500 dollars and she also pays 150-200 her share on the payroll.

11:00 Metsubushi. I think it started after i came from my trip to Canyonville or after i moved the ozone generator in the bathroom (BTW i took it back, there is no more sewage smell coming from the floor space).

Now when i use the bathroom fan huge amounts of insulation dust are blown outside through cracks in the wall and some come back inside from under the door every time i use the fan. Upstairs noises stopped dramatically which means they are affected too. I think dust particles are too big to be quickly neutralized by the negative ions.

Or there is a big hole in a wall somewhere.

Or it's been like that for a long time but only now i feel it because of cessation of the smoke.

11:33 What do you know, they were two major holes in the walls i forgot about because of the smoke of course. As i said before, writing it down makes me remember. BTW, this is what i saw also during my walk on by today...

And the weird fog bank like cloud 20 miles inland (crazy jester followed me, found me in the fog, now you all can panic), and there was this guy looking familiar in a black Nissan that stood in my left blind spot in a passing area and tried to pass me when my lane ended and there was this woman with a dog at the next machine where Angela was playing and i was eating the remaining of the fries i didn't finish in the food court. 

Angela won a little to cover most of Saturday loses and we went to the bank to deposit it so she can pay the bills and next to her there was this Tesla driver with black shorts who dropped his receipt... Yes it works best with black shorts. But now that i know, i meditate a little and i'm fine.

11:58 Fortiter et recte. În premieră guvernul nu va mai face rectificarea bugetară. E greu să rectifici ceva ce nu știm exact cât e, cat a fost, cât a mai rămas.