November 7th

7:00 I woke up about one hour ago with big pains in the areas close to where i kept the laptop last night. That is because there is no smoke in the air like in any other day. I have this digital microwave meter that i think they figured a way to beat it.

Because the digital meter works probably with samples taken at time intervals, they probably figured a way to put out microwaves from laptop's wi-fi in the intervals between sampling.

And this W11 computer has so much lag while typing it drives me nuts. And it's got wi-fi too like any device nowadays though it works on ethernet right now like the laptop but at least it is some one meter away. [fixed by deleting the google account in chrome and then re-adding it and syncing]

8:34 "Candidatura la spațiul Schengen", "aderarea României la Schengen" au devenit termeni incorecți cel puțin după 1 ianuarie 2007. Nu poți să aderi la un tratat care nu mai există separat din 1999 când Tratatul Schengen a fost inclus în Tratatul de Aderare la UE din care România face parte de la 1 ianuarie 2007.

În Tratatul de Aderare la UE din 2005, așa cum a fost semnat de negociatorii români este scris că România (și Bulgaria) intră imediat în Schengen, adică dispozițiile acquis-ului (deschiderea frontierelor) sunt obligatorii dar se aplică doar după aprobarea verificării de către Consiliu. Consiliul face verificarea și tot el o aprobă.

În SUA se spune că există o limbă (jargon) al avocaților și juriștilor pe care o înțeleg numai ei, numită legaleză. Însă un tratat care a fost supus referendumurilor în toate țările UE trebuia să respecte o logică pe înțelesul tuturor.

"Dispoziţiile acquis-ului Schengen care au fost integrate în cadrul Uniunii Europene şi actele care se întemeiază pe acestea sau care sunt conexe acestuia şi care nu sunt prevăzute la alineatul (1), deşi sunt obligatorii pentru Bulgaria şi România de la data aderării, se aplică pe teritoriul fiecăruia dintre aceste state membre numai în temeiul unei decizii adoptate de Consiliu în acest sens, după verificarea...".

Cred că această frază va rămâne în istoria tratatelor ca cea mai ciudată și contradictorie de sine.

Au fost obligatorii timp de 16 ani și Consiliul a a votat prima dată pe această problemă în decembrie trecut, luând o decizie negativă și ne-legislativă.

Acel articol 4 din Tratatul de Aderare a fost re-înnoit la Lisabona, la mai puțin de un an de la aderare, care tratat nu a adus multe noutăți în legislatura UE. România prin veto-ul său putea să blocheze acel tratat și să negocieze în intervalul dintre 1 ianuarie 2007 când a intrat în forță tratatul de aderare din 2005 și decembrie 2007 când a fost semnat Tratatul de la Lisabona sau chiar până când a fost ratificat de Parlamentul României.

Consiliul Uniunii Europene are mai multe configurații din care cel mai important e Consiliul plin sau al șefilor de state care poate hotărî în orice domeniu, și apoi cele ale miniștrilor, pe specialități.

Din acestea, două sunt mai importante. JHA (Justice and Home Affaris), JAI (Justiție și Afaceri Interne) pe românește, al miniștrilor de interne și GAC (General Affairs), al miniștrilor europeni din fiecare țară.

Este însă Coreper II (the Committee of Permanent Representatives) cel care pregătește agenda întâlnirilor JHA (JAI) adică ordinea de zi, iar la rândul lui acesta este influențat de alte instituții ca Antici. Iar agenda nu se cunoaște mai devreme de o săptămână înainte de întâlnire.

Este greșit a spune că țara care deține președinția simbolică prin rotație adică Spania are ceva de a face cu agenda (ordinea de zi) a întâlnirilor JAI.

România a avut și ea 6 luni președenția UE pe vrema premierului Dăncilă, remember, și nu a putut făcut nimic pe tema asta.

Reprezentanții permamenți ai României. Coreper II, Iulia Matei. Antici (și acceptați), Florina Sava. Ați auzit de ele?

10:15 May the space opera continue...

3:00 Do i have to explain this one too? About a week ago i went with Angela at WinCo and bought a bunch of stuff and in the end when we were about to live i saw the key machine and made an extra key and ended making two by mistake.

The reason is i waste too much time, sometimes up to 10 minutes or more to find my keys and one day i actually went for my walk without locking the door (now i cleaned a bit the place). I had an extra Elantra key since i lost it last time and they made two keys at the key shop, had another for the truck and now i have two and a half sets.

Socializing. GRIMMY, SAVORY (cultural) where two special LPN i saw today besides the two with different LPN types with KEY. Everybody in the cars on Borland St. gave me sad looks and some actually turned their  head away from me...

Does that mean... Yes she last posted yesterday a weird Barista Babe video but now that post is gone and last one is since 3 days ago. And a weird entry on X since yesterday that is still there.

3:33 The weird optical phenomenon i was talking about the other day. Something i haven't seen before. In fact i haven't seen before lots of things. Light coming at a certain angle from sky or reflecting from windows on the asphalt appear white from one angle and purple from another one. I know it has to do with polarized light but never knew the human eye or camera can catch that.

4:30 Dilemmas. I know i am not supposed to eat with blinds open. Nobody came but in the end after i ate the cheesecake and came at the laptop i saw the thin guy or girl with a big black curly dog and a small one and that was enough to make me sick. I saw him picking but now where the smell comes from? Maybe he didn't pick it all, maybe from somewhere else.

7:52 Nevermind. She was busy getting busy on manyvids.

11:23 The young one, is she cute Lady Gaga Germanotta?


11:40 Hamass. O cascadă mortală. Right or wrong, they have to keep up with my keywords.

11:53 Now she eyes me... BTW i made delicious brisket...

November 6th

7:00 But maybe it was only me who i was surrounded by a bunch of people that had "missions" in screwing me up. Influencing, mostly making me saying things, making a fool out of me as i grew up in a bubble created by those.

That's why i'm saying, maybe my life was completely different then otters'.

I wanted to say a few words about how my previous life was. The one before "del mezzo di camin" when i crossed the ocean.

Everything was calm and predictable. For decades all people had jobs and a cheap quality place to live in. However in the end, sadly, nothing much to do.

The industrialization that took place after WWII was reaching the end of its life cycle in the bubble created by the iron curtain. Everything in the world has evolved but we were stagnating. Many of the numerous production factories were creating gigantic backlogs of stocked products.

Everything was dictated by the party but the party and the party members were just a bunch of ambitious idiots and their only care was to get dwellings, food and everything better than others. They had no knowledge on how the world has evolved and didn't need or wanted to know. They thought everything would stay the same forever.

Nowhere to sell our outdated products and nobody from the outside world didn't want to buy nothing from us except for food. So we went in a food crisis.

Most of us has beaten that by getting food from their relatives left in villages. They didn't have much land, which was all caught in the cooperatives and state farms that were selling for very cheap prices, and it was all going to export to make currency to pay the debt created by the last wave of imports of machinery in the 70s. Just a little around the houses that they couldn't take away. With that they were able to raise a few animals.

But above all there was the boredom. Nothing was on TV except old movies and HIM, a couple of hours a day. They stopped bringing in new movies after Star Wars. The domestic movies where plainly stupid. And then the video players started to be smuggled in but the smugglers were bringing only the stupid stuff like sex comedies.

So we the men of communist Romania were spending lots of times in bars and restaurants. Restaurants didn't have any food but beer and liquor. But me again i had a special entourage.

They were so many engineers at the production factories that they didn't have anything to do. Me out of curiosity have managed to bring in from Bucharest some computers that weren't far from the ones in the west. However nobody knew what to do with them and how to use them. So i voluntarily out of curiosity and boredom dived for 8 hours a day into the universe of computer languages and operating systems and stuff and i even succeeded in making some useful programs (apps).

By doing so i managed to scare a lot of people who were thinking they will lose their privileges of abusing their position of getting more money to the workers by falsifying documents and getting bribes for it and to me that was kinda fun LOL.

As i said we (me) was spending most afternoons and evenings in the so called restaurants, drinking barrels of beer and talking non sense. Not knowing what the world has become, or what we have become we were imagining things and talking hypothetically, mixing casual with important and facts with fiction.

But it seems the world i came in is not much better. There is freedom and access to knowledge but most people don't really know what to do with it and there is no time for it and they are living with the constant fear of losing jobs and not having money for mortgages and cars. Most of them that is. And the housing is terrible.

So this is who i am. When talking with me you will never know when i speak hypothetically and when i can really grasp some of the surrounding reality or just guessing but i became good at it because that is all i've done all my life. I am a broken person coming from a broken world surrounded again by people with missions trying to make a fool out of me. Everything i put here are just reactions to it and first hand "insider" testimonies. The obvious contradictions and things did not match my dreams.

8:02 Reply to @. Not everything in this world is related to (sex and) money. For that i was waiting for 12 hours? Is she part of the same making fool entourage?

BTW i used again some of the decongestant i bought at WinCo but they beat that by pumping in here cigarette smoke. Though i miraculously slept 6  hours, waking with no palpitations, they managed to create some right now after i watched a video and cigarette smoke was pumped in here with vibrations from an exhaust.

BTW i was thinking these days. The Pacepa myth. Theoretically "Pacepa" "defected" in the 70s coming here with all the big secrets of Soviet Union and communist block and wrote a book. But he is nowhere to be seen or heard. The second book was co-authored with a casino lawyer which made me believe he wrote the first one also.

Nobody in Romania (except for English teachers who were also outdated and teaching basics from a version of English from England (maybe) as we were only taught stupid outdated things in schools) was speaking English, especially the idiots from the party. How about writing. Impossible. You have to be immersed in a culture for a long time to be able to write like that.

The Soviet Union was not beaten by Pacepa. The Soviet Union was scheduled to be put down as non-functional. Probably as functional as North Korea. When you are looking at ridiculous images with minimalist command posts of Kim in the fields you should imagine all those big screens and rockets shown at parades are coming from a well established economy with a matching infrastructure.

Why they opened up China for world trade and millionaires party members? Because they didn't want it to have the fate of Soviet Union.

11:03

12:00 There's been what i thought cigarette smoke from upstairs in here all morning, however smoke slowed my reactions to almost none and i was eating my noodles soup in that moment and it still stinks in here and never finished cleaning the apartment. But definitely not 5'3" and not seen before as i thought. Black hair? Looks a bit like Ayesha which sends me back guessing.

3:20

6:52 Ok. Let's try this one more time.

10:50 Oana Lasconi este o față...

11:12 Another groundhog day has passed.'

11:22 Ok so the holes at the roots of the little trees next to the closest garages are actually rat burrows, not moles...? Never seen the first door open... Can't remember now... Smoke from number 4 and gas smell cover some other stuff, right?

1:00 Cu câteva minute înainte de a posta eu video-ul de mai sus. Oare de unde au știut? Homo sapiens de seară.

November 5th

12:54 Devine plictisitor să mai povestesc pățaniile critice prin care trecem când mai mergem undeva. Angela a vrut să meargă încă o dată anul ăsta la Indian Head. 108 mile, 175 km, nu ar fi așa departe dar după o anumită dată nu se mai poate trece peste munți, la 1200 metri altitudine drumurile îngheață și sunt pline de zăpadă și mai trec pe acolo doar camioane cu lanțuri.

Deci am fost și ploua cu găleata și într-un loc cu o vale s-a adunat apă pe drumul cu două benzi prost construit și exact acolo s-a nimerit să depășesc o camionetă mare cu remorcă, cam la 100 kmh și din roțile lui a ieșit atât de multă apă încât ne-a acoperit și nu mai vedeam nimic. Am frânat fiindcă alternativa era să aștept să mă răsucesc și să intru în roțile remorcii respective. După câteva secunde am început să văd iar și eram ok.

Ploua în deșert. Drumul ăla nu a fost construit în mod evident pentru ploaie. Două șanțuri adânci de cm făceau ca mașina să se legene tot timpul din stânga în dreapta benzii. La un moment dat m-am prins că dacă merg lângă linia întreruptă din centru roțile calcă pe lângă șanțuri, dar dacă veneau mașini trebuia să mă dau la o parte etc. și trebuia să merg cu viteză fiindcă veneau tot felul de SUV-uri puternice cu cauciucuri off road și mă împingeau din spate.

Surpriza plăcută. O floare de deșert, datorită căldurii (15 C) și ploii a înflorit cred încă odată și totul mirosea foarte mișto.

1:15 Nici nu știu ei cât de inspirați au fost jurnaliștii români când au venit cu sintagma "miliardar de carton", acum mai puțin folosită. Vila lui Bezos. Dacă a fost construită în 2000 de acum pereții goi în interior sunt plini de bioxid de sulf emanat de panourile interioare din ghips ale pereților aerat prins între două fâșii de carton, celebrul drywall de 10 sau 13 mm (fășia verticală din dreapta).

Muștele sau țânțarii nu trăiesc în asemenea locuințe și totul în interior are mirosul acela acru de bioxid de sulf. Dominant căci mai sunt și altele.

Miliardari de carton, vile de carton. Tyvek este folosit pentru acoperirea panourilor din lemn presat cu formaldehidă din exterior, până la instalarea sideing-ului, un fel de șindrile.

Se trec sume enorme pe numele unor nimeni pentru a acoperi faptul că aceste corporații gigantice sunt controlate de puteri străine (știm noi cine).

6:45 Cazul Lasconi. Am acceptat toți această ciudățenie lingvistică născută relativ recent, homofob, fără a clipi. Poate la fel de bine însemna frica de om, adică de homo sapiens.

Ciudățenia este însă mai veche. Cuvântul homo are două înțelesuri. Om când vine din latină și același când vine din greacă, și a fost altoit peste englezul sexual (de fapt germanul sexuelle, prima dată cuvântul a apărut într-o corespondență în limba germană).

Dar dacă acceptăm o etimologie pur greacă, unde Φόβος înseamnă frică, ar însemna frica de același iar pentru una hibridă latino-greacă ar fi frica de om.

Un cuvânt împrumutat din engleză. Dacă ne venea din franceză, ar fi fost omosexual, la fel ca omonim.

Cei doi care au născut acest cuvânt care a înlocuit sodomit trebuiau să fi știut toate astea fiindcă pe atunci orice om cu carte știa și greaca veche și latina.

De fapt, pur lingvistic, fără contextul trendului, homosexual înseamnă cel mai direct om sexual, în aceeași direcție cu homo sapiens (om gânditor).

Da cred că acest cuvânt este subversiv și "umanizează" în subconștient această pornire, homo pentru majoritatea însemnând om, prin asocierea mai cunoscută cu homo sapiens.

Dar cazul Lasconi însumează două scandaluri vide de relevanță în unul. Adică ceva să umple știrile. I se retrage sprijinul la europarlamentare. Și? Ce mare cașcaval? Cu ce ne ajută pe noi românii europarlamentarii când se duc ei acolo în afară de cazul lui Băsescu, care a dispărut din știri forever? Ați auzit să fi făcut ei vreodată ceva? Pentru România și/sau alte țări?

Stau acolo și ridică mâinile dacă sunt prezenți, ceea ce eu mă îndoiesc, de câte ori m-am uitat la un video live sau chiar o înregistrare video a unei dezbateri din Parlamentul European am văzut doar câțiva în sală.

Yeah i know they were forcing me to take position (can't stay put) knowing my reactions and thus trying to separate me from a certain recent influnce(r). Which coming from them to me is the exact opposite, that is encouraging.

9:45 As i said before. Coffee accelerates heart rhythm and is a stimulant even in low doses.  Last night when i left Indian Head got some real coffee in a cup just in case i become sleepy on the road which i did and i drank that coffee.

Problem was and still is i also had my nose congested and was breathing on my nose while my heart was being stimulated and compensating but that can only last for so long before heart gets tired and eventually crashes (goes into failure, fibrillation, shortness of breath due to lack of oxygen to heart and body etc..).

So this is the problem with drinking coffee. You may be stimulated while you are not breathing right and then you crash or worse. And every time i drink real coffee my reaction gets worse.

When i got last night in Portland area on 205. There was smoke in the air just like at Spirit Mountain Friday night.

I became disoriented and stayed on an exit lane by mistake in the 45 speed area. When i realized, i tried to get back on the freeway, but there was a vehicle coming so i nearly stopped.

I looked in the mirror and saw some headlights but those were pretty far so i just reentered and and accelerated and found myself in a zone with two lanes and concrete barriers on both side and no shoulder (the reason for reduced speed). But until i got back to 55 (45+10) the lights from behind came really fast and changed lanes and zoomed past me at high speed, way more than 45 which i was already at. 4 SUVs passed me at high speed in that area obviously bullying me as i was one or two ft away from the concrete.

11:03 Went outside to double check. The leaves are back almost to the same level as before. So the gasoline smell. I know when i picked those the smell was coming from the last spot next to hydrant where there were several puddles of oil (where the Chrysler is right now). It is actually a leak of oil contaminated with gasoline. What i don't understand is the position of the puddles cause he always parks rear first.
11:52 So i went outside to pick as many leaves as i could. Garden mold smell was present mostly in the bedroom so i started in that direction.But when i tried to take the leaves to the bin, i saw in there a number of blue doggy bags, one of them right on top of it. I took pictures and when i did the old man's bodyguard came right near the bin, 3 ft away from me, smoking, making me very nervous.I picked 3 or 64 of them, some unknotted, when i found one that was under, they put the bin on top of it Tursday. When i tried to remove it broke and i came to wash hands and some small pieces of it are now in the new sewer that probably has a filter to pick everything from here.From winds's direction. But when i came back i nearly stepped on one, altogether the reason my fa..s were stinking so bad at the casino yesterday. This place is a bio-hazard. But in Lake Oswego or even at Sussex was similar though at Sussex to a less extent.And the mats. When it rains in weekend they will be matts next to the "no dumping" place".

The reason i slept only 4 hours last night. The reason i had congested nose and palpitations this morning.

I went and picked 2 more "bagless" ones and took a picture of the most used bin.

Got on the patio years ago a Homo Depot bucket where i keep most stinking things like pump to change oil, stuff like this. Not long after i bought it the lid broke and was not closing completely. Now i understand his action. And the Chrysler. But why they choose to act allegorically and did not tell me anything?

It's a cascade or escalating thing. They retaliate while keeping in place the reasons and the retaliations may continue indefinitely bringing in new things to retaliate for etc. like my f...s. that come from the poops and the whole apartment stinking because of the poops. And of course you don't feel other smells anymore.

But today i took some more household bottles and spray outside and the lid from that bucket was taken out the bucket altogether.There was a faint smell i recon. It doesn't bother me which i'm closest. Why anybody never said anything?

Went and picked two more blue bags from next to that bin. A tall Asian guy with a Tacoma with cage in front came again very close. But then i saw more behind and can't get in there. Though i did it once when i climbed over the bin and nearly fell.

8:55 Don't know how to start this. Read Shogun (schengen?) to better understand what's happening to me and raise it to the power of 8.

This one is newer than the last time stamp. I was eating the humble hamburger from Spirit Mt. (Angela ate her while i was driving, BTW the heavy rain turned the older parts of the road into car surfing areas with big grooves full of water, the same as yesterday in the desert) and the woman upstairs who BTW is doing laundry, waited us with a cloud of super perfumed detergent at the door and then she hit the floor with an object. I choked with a piece of food, first blocking the airways, which i coughed out and then in the esophagus but it passed within a minute or so.

Earlier. When we got home an Asian woman with a dog let the leash long and the dog almost got under my car but i did break. It was like she was testing my level of alertness.

Earlier. We had to go to Grocery Outlet in Dundee to get water, eggs and other urgent stuff (could not make time this weekend to go to stores and good water is cheaper there). So i did not take the variant at the fork before McMinville but entered the ghost city of McMinville.

It was raining heavy and it was dark and soon we entered the ghost city of Dundee (never seen anybody on the streets there). I noticed they were a number of Police SUVs blinding me with flashing lights in the distance. I was worried more about those and did not realize there was a power outage and the stop lights weren't working.

However i slowed to maybe 20 and was watching carefully when i passed among them (two on the right, apparently they pulled someone, and one on the left. There was no traffic whatsoever. At the next intersection a guy in a huge white pickup jumped from the left but i hit the brakes and i was too slow anyways to meet with it. Would have been on three different videos from three different angles.

We continued until we got at the fork towards Grocery Outlet when i parked and Angela went inside to get the stuff. Soon after i saw three Police SUVs coming from the same direction with flashing lights and sirens. Could have been the same ones. One minute later one of them returned again with flashing lights.

The parking lot at Grocery Outlet was empty however a woman in an SUV looking like a model chose to park behind our car when Angela came with the cart and i opened the trunk. With the lights still on she got out and took a good look in our trunk.

When i got home and opened the email found 2 fresh emails from... Chase. I looked in the manual. Should have stopped at every intersection. In fact google didn't know much else except in Michigan the rule is i should have had the right of way if coming from main direction or something.

Earlier. Two cars with diesel engine were making a big noise and smoke in the parking lot at Spirit Mt. when we were about to leave. I looked at one of them and he gave me an "angry Mexican look". That always happens when i f...t in the casino. I can't help it. It happens every time i eat when there are dog poops outside here.

Earlier. They were wiping the tables at the Court Food with some irritant substance. I tried to stay away while waiting for the burger which BTW took a lot (They were three customers in the whole restaurant, Angela was the only one in line when she ordered). I think that substance played a role in me being numb and dumb and not realizing i had to stop in every dark intersection with no signs no nothing except hard to see in the heavy rain stop lights.

Earlier. Enough to say Angela won in single session most of the money she lost tonight (over 200 dollars). I knew when this happens, something else will happen on the streets. However lately something happens on the streets anyways.

This reminds me of the two angry women who were wiping the machines behind me at Chinook Winds. That substance contributed to me almost getting into a fight with that Japanese movie director and then banned.

Earlier. When i got there i went in the blue room and i saw a guy passing and the floor made a noise. I walked around and found another area with soft or moving parts in the floor. Would have checked anyways in the area where i fell. Right in the exact same place the floor was going down like half inch when i was stepping on it. I wanted to take a picture with the exact place but security guards were patrolling one after another.

Earlier. A few days ago i ordered online some black cherry concentrate. I made some juice to have on the road at Indian Head. Last night when i was about to leave at Indian Head i went into the restroom. A heavy smell spiced with some yeast after someone just left. Today before i went or 24 hours after i had some of it and it was tasting and smelling like some sort of yeast, very similar with the day before in the restroom.

Yesterday when i left i at Indian head or after i exited the restroom started to have shortness of breath like in good old times. It lasted more than half hour into the trip back home. I took a charcoal cap which absorbs gas. and got better. When i got back home i was having palpitations while laying in bed. I remember they were a number of models in there and one of them at a certain time was laying bottom on a side along three chairs, right behind us.

I know when someone bends and shows his bottom right in front of me, some half hour later i get shortness of breath, gas retention.

Today after we left home. I don't remember anybody doing a particular thing just a number of people were doing weird things on the alley in our way out of the complex.

10:33 Upstairs they can't stay put in the bedroom (walking back and forth).

November 4th

12:00 Hostile. We just came home and i opened the sliding glass door to air cause there is a mixture of ozone and dog s...t smell in here. Or Dimethyl sulfide the same. Within seconds an exhaust started to purr, just to shake dust from walls and attic. Like they always do lately. I remember the Thule Roof Box on the truck that passed me on 125 when we left.

Basically all the people around, in the complex, on the roads are involved. But i won't try to remember and write down everything that happened on the road on my way to Spirit Mountain. We left early under Angela's protest cause at those hours the machines were very tight. Had some fish and chips and in there i have to mention a few people that were making noises to the point i almost chocked. A short episode of dysphagia though it's hard with freshly deep fried fish and chips. Then we spent all the money and left.

But about half hour before that. We went back to the old non smoking area (now the whole casino is non smoking) and tonight wildfire smoke entered the heating and cooling system and there was a live band made of three people on the podium there. A Black guy with some Asian was singing Green Green Grass of Home. At which point i "half sat on a chair" and fell together with the chair on the floor in slow motion.

I thought it was the same old reflex from practicing Judo falls learned from a book when i was a kid. I think i stopped at the throws when i fell from a tree and tried to do a fall and hit a rock with my left elbow and that got me into two surgeries, a screw attached and only 60% percent mobility left in that elbow which i believe was done in purpose by the surgeon so when i sit or even sometimes when i walk i keep my hand bent and sort of like in front of my pants if you know what i mean.

And yes we were practicing the falls (me and other kids and even a couple of mature people) in the grass on top of soft soil. Without much confidence because we didn't know if we got it right just by using that book. I remembered that right before i hit the floor however it came out more like an Aikido half roll, unextended right arm first. Something i learned subcontiously while watching a video? Nothing broken, despite my age and weight (over 200 lbs).

Within seconds an Asian guy with blue shirt came and aggressively offered to call medical help which i declined until i got so pissed i forgot to look closer at that chair.

I know those chairs well (i've been there for years, remember) and i sat on them in every imaginable way. A few minutes later i went to look but that particular chair was taken and no matter how much i tried with another similar one, i could not loose balance or "tip the center of gravity".

When about to leave, Angela stopped at the restroom next to smoker's room entrance and i was waiting and saw a group of about 1000 people passing on that hall coming from the hotel towards the casino. Of which some of them i saw earlier inside the playing area.

Somehow Angela got outside and didn't see her and we met there. But then when i tried to leave, the warning sign for the lights came back on (it was on this morning when Angela went to work, then off when she came back and when i drive in there), so she bought a bulb from NAPA on her way home.

When we left the casino i was feeling "stoned" and i remember i felt earlier vaping smell in the main non smoking area and i wonder if that smoke present inside was not mixed with something.

So tried to replace the bulb it in the parking lot (and security came promptly offering a jump start) but when i tried to pull the old bulb from the connector, the light came on (yes it was on).

Trying to drive back home. Had trouble seeing the lane marks under the rain, both of us. Even on newly paved areas. In the two intersections in McMinville near the hospital he lights are always red though there is no traffic in the crossing direction. Trying to get used of the car's new way of shifting after i added 200 ml fluid in the transmission (after let all the surplus flow out last summer).

Getting better while closer but in Tualatin there is an area on Tualatin Sherwood near downtown where there are no lane lines or reflecting pads or nothing) and now i'm almost cleared of whatever i drank (soda from the soda machines) and breathed (wildfire smoke mixed with something). Nothing hurts in the orthopedics line. Congested nose like most of the times, trying to breath on mouth.

1:24 I know what happened. It was not the chair, it was the floor. When i sit on a chair in the casino many times the chair moves under me on the soft floor when people pass buy. Must have been an irregularity or weakening of the floor. But given the synchronization with what the band was playing, i don't believe it was random.

First or second row of machines on the left after passing the new women's restroom after coming from main entrance.

I remember minutes earlier i sat at a machine, got up and did not set the chair back in position (because of being tired, high and a bit confused). They were two attendants that ran at the chair and put it right, again within seconds.

2:00 I was sipping some tea (after i ate) and a door got slammed in the distance and i chocked... on tea, and now can't stop coughing.

It's 1:25 AM and the robot upstairs is squeaking in the rhythm of my thoughts when i curse the Jeeps in my mind.

November 3rd

12:25 Asta ar trebui introdus pentru vot pe agenda (ordinea de zi) a Consiliului plin (de șefi de state), sau configurația JAI (a miniștrilor de interne) care agendă este făcută de configurația GAC (al miniștrilor europeni) care... nu se va întâmpla, ca să nu se vadă cine se împotrivește cu veto (este nevoie de unanimitate pentru a se renunța la unanimitate).

Și noi știm cine, Austria și Ungaria, fostele mari puteri europene care pot folosi acest veto ca să controleze toată Uniunea cu exemplul, lamentarea Germaniei care nu poate face nimic din ce vrea, de atâția ani.

Este ușor de înțeles că o țară ca România poate fi ușor bully de aceste două țări, dar nu înțeleg de ce Germania nu blochează pur și simplu la schimb anumite decizii dragi austro-ungarilor pentru a negocia renunțarea la unanimitate.

De fapt orice țară din Consiliu inclusiv România poate începe un protest prin blocarea prin veto a oricăror decizii până la rezolvarea acestei probleme.

Căci din comportamentul Austriei față de România oricine poate înțelege că ei nu cred decât în argumente forte.

Iată agenda ultimei întâlniri și următoarele. Cum ar fi dacă România ar bloca prin veto toate aceste rezoluții la care participă câte unul din miniștrii noștri în funcție de configurație, fiecare cu drept de veto? Însă vedeți dvs.. Agenda (ordinea de zi) apare doar cu o săptămână înainte.

6:00 Got to get one of these. No! Not Emilia Clarke! Can't you all see? Sara looks like Seri. And Alexa.

6:56 I just started to think. About half hour ago, not long after i posted the entry above somebody from upstairs made some noises and then i heard a car starting and then it went all quiet.

7:52 What a dramatic tenor voice and what an awkward video.

11:00 Și mi-ai lăsat jurnalul dar aștept semnalul...

2:41 Just got rid of the last small bottles and sprays in here because they stank and don't want to tolerate any unwanted smells and found out about this. DMDS which is used as food additive, also to give gasoline the easy to spot unpleasant smell that passes to motor oil during normal operation (otherwise gasoline is odorless), is also a sex attractant.

2:55 În 28 de ani de cânt trăiesc în SUA nu am plătit niciodată comision la vreo bancă iar cash am folosit arareori (în afară de păcănele, mai recent)..