November 25

11:15 She thinks...



11:28 She devil... Seinfeld, a show about self deprecation (of Jews) distributed by Sony Entertainment...

12:40


1:07 They always tax us severely at Spirit Mountain, which is closest. The reason. To drive more, especially on freeways. Where things can happen.

Tonight we went to Little Creek which now i realize how small it actually is. Many things happened in there showing the occupants were not casual but all actors and extras. I saw a woman who was clearly a famous model, though i could not see her face. Nobody was in a good mood tonight there. So we went to Red Winds. Ok when i left i saw a helicopter flying above in that very remote area.

As soon as i got inside i saw at a machine a guy who looked like Klaus Iohannis, the President of Romania who just finished a long unannounced trip in several African countries and i think he said he was headed for 2 more days in Dubai at a climate conference.

With a wig showing maybe 4 more inches of (gray) hair and maybe a little makeup addition at the nose.

Yeah i know. He only came to take the credit for what followed. His wig would have been edited out on post processing. Since that didn't happen he can always pretend he wasn't there and they will start posting pictures with Napoleon again. I don't care if they will show a hi-res group pictures with all the world leaders. They are all actors.

Then it went uneventful. Except a couple of Asian guys, a man and a woman bent like bowing to the ground this time facing me, picking a coin from the floor. In all three Casinos we went this holiday and weekend more than half of the people were plain Asians. Not acting Latinos or anything.

We made our money back but didn't know where to stop and then lost 200 bucks in total.

Just before we left i went to the restroom and they were two more guys visible, maybe more in the cubicles. One of them was making a weird rhythmic noise like panting but slowly.

When coming back, at 105 miles left to go, 11:10 i was driving in the speed lane at close to 80 in a 70 limit. A very tall black van or RV started to approach from behind.

With only one headlight in the fog was hard to appreciate the distance looking in the mirror in night position, however it had visible parking lights so when it came too close i started to accelerate and it started to accelerate and i started to honk until i reached close to 100 maybe and then he started to fall behind.

Temperature was 32 degrees, i saw frost when i left, i was afraid to drive at that speed and tried to go on lane right out of his way. However there was a tan car in my blind spot that was matching my speed. So i accelerated again, he accelerated the same, until i cleared that one, switched lanes, he slowed down a bit, i also slowed down and he started to pass me from the right on an exit lane.

But right before the exit lane was separating and after he passed me he changed his mind and wanted to go back in my lane, on a collision course. So i went back in the lane with the black RV which in the meantime has passed me and then the tan car switched again into the exit lane crossing two continues lines and exited in the very last moment.

For a while i tried to follow the big RV, it had Washington or California LP with 7 small letters, unlike Oregon ones with 6. But he now was doing more than 15 over the speed limit that changed from 70 to 60 and Angela would not let me match the speed and i fell behind and the guy disappeared in the fog and probably exited at first exit.

About 40-50 miles and less than an hour later, i met with again some debris on the road, maybe a board 2 inches tall but it was in the middle of the lane.

At least one more similar thing happened later but can't remember right now, maybe tomorrow. Ok i had to go to a restroom and i went to a rest area and got confused in the dark. First i went to cars area, but did not recognize it, went to trucks and then back to cars.

A ok i remember. When i left the rest area a truck bigger than any pickup but smaller than a semi, with nothing on it but many red lights it in the right lane distracted me while i passed a car that was parked on the side of the ramp though there was plenty of spots in the parking. I was telling Angela, that level of synchronization can happen only if that truck with guided with AI.

November 24

10:05 Don't know if i can include the cyclicity of the seasons (given by the Earth's rotation around the Sun) in an explanation about Amaterasu's myth but November 23 is close enough to the winter solstice, at December 21 when daylight time starts to increase again.

But by reading the above linked article i figured other important things.

In the myth, the birth of music and shamanic dance is attributed to the temporary missing of the goddess, when daylight disappeared. In contemporary music, there are numerous examples of songs speaking of that, and comes to mind the verses "she got down but she never got tight/she's gonna make it through the night" from Blinded by the Light by Manfred Man.

Music and dance are now so ubiquitous in media and we never take the time to stop and think. How was life before the century of the lights? When it all started? The Renaissance? One thing we don't recognize. The shamanism of dance and music that surrounds our lives nowadays. And we all seem to ignore the source.

Modern music seems to have taken these days the role of a (shamanic) teacher, instructing us all the time (against the old order) with words repeating obsessively over and over. Having in mind another influential song by Pink Floyd.

Calculated deception and use of force for our good. Taking matters into own hands. Extrajudicial justice. Devine trickery. The Book of  Ninja (Bansenshukai) is full of it. But also comes to mind Maya, the world of illusions or mother of Buddha, which is part of Buddhism. Could it be the reason of the happy marriage in Japan between Buddhism and Shintoism, which seems to be a term linguistically derived from "Hinduism".

Own cave. Could this be the (Devine) model for Hikikomori? There are millions of young Japanese people who retreated in their own room, some for years. They also call it "social withdrawing". Though i suspect some of them are secretly enrolled in ninja training and Japan not having more hikikomori as percentage of the total population than any country.

I did that once. Been in the apartment for months if not one or two years, never going out. Angela had to go alone to buy groceries. In a year or two my body started to atrophy. Gained more and more weight.

One day it snowed a lot (like it happens once or twice a year in Oregon). I mean, one foot of snow and i ran out of cigarettes' and Angela could not drive to 7-11 with the Nissan.

I went outside, i was high all the time during that time though not realizing. I tried to put chains on the rear wheels of the truck, the chain on one wheel got entangled, i broke the truck. So i had to walk the half mile to 7-11. But after walking for like 5 minutes in the snow i realized i cannot walk no more. Me who when i was young i was walking 30 km or more in one day on the trails in the mountains surrounding the city i was born and lived until 14 or during vacations until 18.

In that evening i went outside to take pictures with the snow, again, the same difficulty moving around the complex.

So it cannot be. Those people will atrophy and not be able to do anything anymore in a year or so. I mean, some of them could be real, like in any country, and others using this as an opportunity.

But it has gotten out of control. For decades after the appearance of radio and television people accepted those as carrying new, unheard of before forms of speech and entertainement. More and more allusive, then with more and more sexual content, to the point one simply cannot listen to them anymore. How many curse words in a song by Doja Cat?

They for as long as i can remember used a lot a type of figurative speech when the singer speaks at first person actually casting attributes to another together with obsessively, bullying appellative "baby" that nowadays has turn into "b...h" and "ho" (Doja Cat, Doechii) in extraordinarily offensive songs.

Paint the Town Red has been on tops since release, with of course the help of all DJs in the world cause actually i and probably many others don't find that song so appealing to be played like 20 times a day on a hip-hop local station. Actually i ignored it for a long time though i was listening to it while driving and it came to my attention by chance.

Will people ever start to realize this is not western culture anymore but pieces of Amaterasu's mirror that shattered and covered the whole world?

They own most everything in the US. Though the graphs shows other countries "as well", their are present with finances in those countries as well. .7 trillions direct investment in US in 2021, must have been one trillion in 2023. It's all the money American pay for cars and other goods. Now they are pushing their singers disguised as Latinos and/or Blacks with their media networks in our ears.

11:42 Bullied by Republic Services.

I was writing the above when the thunder of the garbage truck started. I ran to the bin to pull the old garbage sacks from under only to see the bin being set again on top of those. And BTW there is a new one but fortunately was not covered yet.

I tried to talk to the driver and he said "why don't we do this next week" and i told him "i don't know if i can be that fast or even present" and then i asked him kindly "if he could do us all a favor and pull those two bags next week from under the bin (when he lifts it)" and he said "i should talk to the management and have the maintenance team be there to do that".

Then i told him i cannot tell the management what to do (i actually don't believe this is my job) and then he said "i see were you're coming from" and shut the cabin's door and now i feel guilt for even asking him that.

Wondering. Is there any procedure he has to follow or just continue to put the bin over old rotting garbage sacks.

12:08 I was driving yesterday to Grande Ronde on 18 around 5 PM. I think it was just before McMinville on the variant when i saw some flashing lights in the mirror. I was planning to pull as soon as those get closer, however they got closer much sooner than expected. It was dark enough not to see  the outer margin of the shoulder or the beginning of the ditch so like many times before, about one ft of my car remained in the lane.

Right in that fraction of a second i saw 3 State Police cars literally flying by. I think they had more than 100 mph. First one was far enough but second almost shaved my car. I haven't seen those again and haven't seen anything further down the road and i know State Police only have jurisdiction on freeways, or outside cities and towns.

12:22 Before that. Yesterday afternoon i added two more hundred milliliters of ATF in my car. I went for a test drive and yes, that was the case. I was low in ATF and the car was now shifting much better.

But it was like that since i got the car. I remember i saw on the plastic panel under the transmission and engine a pink gel. Is this what ATF turns into after a while?  Though there was no leak, then and later.

Obviously had to bend over to do that. But there was no one behind me.

Soon after i did that went to take the garbage and saw yet another trail of litter dust coming from the same place and going to the bin. I immediately went and grabbed the broom but several cars already passed over, milling those beads. I swept what i could, however i inhaled some of the dust. It was this choice. Let it there and slowly inhaling the dust over several days or sweep it and only inhale some once.

However it was not without consequences. Hours later i started to have weird daydreams, almost hallucinations when i was trying to sleep in the car. (Then i tried to drink from a broken plastic glass and spilled the drink on me. Then i had to rain inside with my pants wet because i had an urge to go out).

Thing is we were both under influence of that dust, for about a week. Angela was really mad these days.

12:32 Yesterday i first drove to Lincoln City. I was planning to hang around while Angela plays there. But i came 5 minutes earlier to the meeting point where i was supposed to pick her at 7:15. Tried to call but like last time her phone (we turned both phones on for a short time) wouldn't work inside  the casino. 2 minutes after, or at 7:12 a Security SUV came by. I was at the very edge of their property and not sure if inside or out.

However i was on the outer side of the street that supposedly is the border. The Security SUV entered the parking lot of the building of the Commission across the street and then left. However i left too and i could finally talk to her as she got out. She had to climb about 100 ft to the place i was cause i did not want to take a chance. Last time i talked to those guys they said i would be arrested if i come again on their property.

Question. Why there are not signs showing that your are on a private property, gates of fences? Is 4th street a public or a private road? How can i find out?

3:02 Ok i found something. I don't believe 4th St. is included in any of the properties. It is a bunch of properties belonging to the Confederation but i don't believe it is even a reservation. Unless the whole Lincoln City is.

But they don't need to be a reservation. Anywhere they act, the tribes are not taxed. Further research. What is the legal definition of a tribe, and how many members are left in Lincoln City and surrounding areas.

4:38 When the came today to empty the bins mold and bacteria from bins spread into the leaves. Because the leaves, in some areas up to 18 inches deep or tall or whatever are wet under. Some have tiny bubbles of bacterial growth.

That's why i found myself out of breath especially after Angela went to Walmart. Cause our digestive enzymes combined spread with opening of the esophagus/stomach or lower esophageal sphincter (the so called hiatal hernia) fight better the spores in the air.

Here came this matured tall guy with a goatee and two dogs (after children yelling like possessed by a mischievous kami) and chose to stop to get a better view of me from behind exactly when i was about to bend to fill a laundry basket. That would be basis for a later retaliation bending over which synced with some other stuff like noises, will make me sick for a half day.

6:33 Yeah i'm almost done with the leaves. I almost filled a whole bin. Yes the bin that sits on top of bags with old garbage, in a position where not many people throw their garbage on (it never gets filled, not even half of it). But the leaves are very loose, if enough people throw garbage over they will give in and pack. No evil done. BTW the person who used to throw blue doggy bags next to the bin now turned to pink.

John 14:6 "I am the truth" vs IN VINO VERITAS. Can a sinner tell the truth, on occasions? Do you have to be a martyr to give a good advise?

In Shintoism and Hinduism "there are no absolutes" like good and evil, each kami or devi is a mixture of them just like humans. Kali (the demon god, the fierce mother, the fury of Durga, the feminine counterpart of Shiva) kills (destroys) all evil doers etc. She was born enraged and even rebelled against her husband, Shiva.

8:10 PM. 817 DEU is the LPN of a GM black SUV that was parked next to the bin tonight. I saw that before but  never made the link. I longtime suspected the old man who dresses like a clown or homeless (suggesting modesty) is some religious figure from Romania.

After i caught my breath and wrote a bit in here i went to finish. They were two big piles that i squeezed in three laundry baskets and i grabbed a round piece of wood the size of a basketball bat to make more room in the bin.

A very thick smoke and the woman at 4 talks again in the balcony.

While i was trying to pack the leaves with the big stick a blond guy who lives with the old man came and threw provocatively from a distance 3 improvised doggy bags and one of them almost landed on my head, one next to the bin, saying something and then he left. BTW some people threw a few bags and now the bin smells like dog poop.

So bad it got into my clothes together in the parking lot.

All these happened after picking leaves for 2 hours with no one around and then spending one hour inside. Which means they were all celebrating their holiday which now i'm sure they believe in and had to call them over. Sorry guys for disrupting.

8:22 Here is a typical example of bending over. In an empty parking lot during a holiday, this woman stopped at a stop sign, got out of the car in a place she was not supposed to, even though there was no traffic, went on the right side and did something for at least a minutes so i had the time and opportunity.

From that distance it is also less offensive to viewers. The stress was provided within a minute by a cop who was patrolling the area, stopping at every shop. Yeah i was at the Mud Bay next to Michaels.

9:18 Mi-am zis eu mie însumi. Cu prima ocazie când gătesc orez fac o poză. Cel mai simplu lucru de gătit. 2 căni și jumătate apă, una cu vârf orez. După ce fierbe apa, pun orezul, amestec o singură dată, dau la foarte mic, pun capacul și urmăresc să bolborosească nu prea tare după care pun timer-ul la 12 minute când opresc aragazul și îl mai las să stea să tragă toată apa dacă mai are.

Se poate adăuga și lapte, zahăr, la sfârșit, când e fiert.

Total timp de lucru, 5 minute, timp total, 20. Da știu capacul e de la altceva, puțin mai mare, are mânerul rupt dar așa cu ele cum le vedeți am făcut eu mult orez.

10:38 I knew the smoke outside does not come from a wildfire, by the smell. It took many hours for the smoke to get here, 13 miles away in the wind's direction.

November 23

3:22 Nu există toxiinfecție alimentară dar și alte intoxicații din care care să nu scapi cu câteva capsule de cărbune medicinal (activat), mai ales în faza inițială când omul e conștient și cooperativ.

Un gram de carbune poate absorbi până la 200 de grame de toxine, fiindcă este foarte poros în interior iar moleculele de toxine, care de obicei sunt mari, dar și bacteriile sunt prinse ca într-o capcană și apoi eliminate cu prima ocazie.

Nu se recomandă consumul regulat fiindcă absoarbe și nutrienți precum vitaminele, dar mai puțin molecule mici ca glucoza, alcoolul, minerale, etc..

De fapt sunt încă discuții despre modul cum funcționează și ce absoarbe, nici specialiștii nu știu foarte sigur, însă sigur funcționează pentru asemenea urgențe.

Oricine trebuie să aibă așa ceva în casă în trusa de prim ajutor. Se administrează în caz de greață cu amețeli și/sau vărsături, până la venirea salvării însă de obicei simptomele trec în 5-10 minute.

12:22 Thanksgiving. Wa Shinto.

2:33 God is an (Arian) woman.

November 22

8:00 Munchies. A snack brand that is built on a common English verb. To munch. Which is familiar for chew. Wanted to double check before posting and i wish i didn't cause i ran into a different trouble than the one i wanted to talk about. Depending on how you ask google, you may get different answers. (Will take some time for me to settle on this one as well).

Nevermind google changed (again) on me. That is while i was writing the above, the search result for "munch" changed. When i first searched for "munch", i got the result i now get with "munch slang".

Ok so i kinda lost momentum and inspiration however now that i already invested two paragraphs into it, i will finish it (also because i wanted many times to do it but i did not have a device ready as i opened most snack bags on the road somewhere).

Munchies by Frito Lay is a mix of several known type of snacks, featuring Doritos, pretzels, Cheetos and a few others. It comes in plain "Cheese fix" or hot spicy version as well. (Don't get too carried, there are only traces of cheese in those).

Doritos is by far the most popular snack in the US and it goes well with pretzels. Pretzels temper the spiciness of Doritos and Doritos bring more flavor to the bland pretzels. Cheetos in munchies don't feel so much like cheating (on your mouth) anymore.

As i said now i don't know how to put this in a more literary way so i will say it plainly.

You have to be real careful when you open a bag of any of these snacks. Ideally use some good sharp scissors. Otherwise the bag will tear very easily all the way to the bottom and every time i did that i asked myself if this is not yet another weird stupid marketing strategy. Cause it accelerates dramatically the munching of the snacks in the torn bag obviously for fear of not spilling them while those tasty little things are mostly empty calories.

8:32 Something i'm made for. A different kinda music that takes my breath away. Literally. Was i made for something else than eating and sleeping or the crazy little thing called love?

1:15 Little thing. Pește de post. Poate într-o zi vă veți da seama cum vă iau ăștia mințile. Cine poate să verifice la Murgeni, Vaslui că e adevărat ce spun ăștia.

1:60 Last night i did laundry and cooked the ham. There was much heat inside. i had to open the patio door. Litter dust came inside (that didn't happen in a long time). Because of it my face, my throat was burning. The doubling, after i complained about spilled litter in front of the building and the trail on the alley. As a result but also because of the noise upstairs Angela could not sleep and she came early from work.

At work they ask her again to train the deaf-mute on a product she didn't do much before (would have meant to follow the documentation and train) and she declined as she was too tired then finishing the work she started yesterday.

The big man, Steve was out in vacation and his replacement was Sergey, the white righteous Russian who treats Angela in similar ways. Together with the "Vietnamese" sisters. How many times i wrote on fb about the "sisters"?

The result. Another screwed up holiday like all holidays and weekends.

Like at all her and my jobs before. These are not jobs, but punishment squads. I would have quit 1000 times if i was her like i did before (i had a total of 23 jobs in the US). But she is a tough little woman.

All because a bunch of lunatics in the US (a few millions or more) think we are Zoia and Nicu Ceaușescu. To keep the loonies on the path started by "Pacepa".

More doubling. They came with the blowers. I measured once 70dB inside with an app on a phone. But will the collect the leaves?

3:27 Every time i get religious (i put a few recipes though i do not fast) they give me the horny dust.

November 21

6:50 Awake since 4:30 when Angela left. Cigarette smoke coming in waves from somewhere made me sneeze and got mad and instantly they started to squeak upstairs. They do that automatically every time i get emotional which makes me think again at free Scientology audit.

7:20 "Save your tears" (for any day) sounds plain stupid. How come i did not realize that earlier?

1:00 Lena Kobor + CGI + optical distorsions = Alexa Crush. Semantic clue: Alexa, lena.

4:00 It was David himself who at 80 with a white goatee did a fast walk and talk on the speaker phone or maybe even video. I was wondering what they gave him to be able to do that.

I myself had trouble breathing in the smoke outside. Especially after the bend over episode yesterday when a woman with black pants bent and that gave me palpitations all morning. More people bent in my way tonight. I noticed every time there's also a loud sound present. (Later editing: Tonight it was a beep from something in the store).

Got at the same intersection and a dark grey pickup, most likely a Toyota, and this time i got a number, 840 LZQ (back to lazy queer theme) drove by an Asian came on a collision course but as i turned my head this time he slowed and let me pass. Considering buying something neon reflecting something to put over my clothes when i go for walks.

5:40 Just got back from Fred Meyer. State Farm keeps sending me emails telling to download an app on my phone otherwise i would loose a 10% discount. Today they said it was the last chance. So i tried but my phone would not work on mobile data.

I turned all wi-fi on routers off in January and forgot how to turn them back on. I could have tried but i remember it was not easy and then i had to turn them back off, was afraid not to miss something, so i figured it would take less time if i go to Fred Meyer to do it on their wi-fi which i did and installed the app on both phones.

When i finished on mine they said they will send me "beacons" for both vehicles. I guess some devices to track every of my move. However, i don't know how it's gonna work cause i don't use the phone.

I could not finish on both phones because i did not have Angela's driver's license to scan so i came back home. When i left at the door there was a woman rather tall, with a weird dark monochrome makeup (like ready for video processing) on her face, grey sweat pants featuring exaggerated bottom, speaking Romanian waving at her husband who was behind me. He was shorter than me with a growing grey beard. Then she spoke English. I stopped and let him pass and leave together. 

Got back home and guess what. Now the phones work on mobile data.

I noticed face, hands, belly, everything hurts less then last time i used the phone. Could this be i'm healing?

6:43 Proof the (broken) sac with litter dust came from the other entrance of this building. BTW the trail still stinks. Can't be the old woman's. The old woman's dog is too small. A dog that size in this building has only the woman at 4.

Varza mea la fiert. Se pot vedea ingredientele puse separat. Varză, țelină, morcov, ceapă. Ele fierb sub capac în aburul generat de acel cm de apă pus inițial și ce mai lasă varza și celelalte. Le amestec doar la urmă, împreună cu condimentele (din lene bineînțeles). Alături fierbe un șold de porc afumat cu os care l-a luat Angela de la WinCo ieri pe un cupon dat de Eaton pentru Thanksgiving (șuncă sau curcan la alegere). Mai în spate nu e nimic, e doar o folie uitată pe acolo.

10 Apt.4 inhabitant. Hiroko (no last name). Closest i could find, in the small world of ninja public celebs in Japan. No she doesn't look so cute without makeup and/or without a smile. "The last ninja in Japan". "What it takes to be a ninja".