July 3rd

11:54 I have been breathing harder and harder and suddenly got violently sick, mainly shortness of breath, dizziness and the feeling i am about to pass out, and had to leave. Part of it was the ES medium filter that can catch airborne mold spores and bacteria had been inadvertently stopped since yesterday and also because of this. Yes it compares to waterboarding which is a form o torture. Almost daily for almost 28 years.
1:15 As the big fat lady passed the breathing spadce is filled with dog smell and that cannot be filtered fats enough before it fills my lungs and then it passes to the digestive system.

5:35 So far all my ideas i the previous post are philosophical and 3D geometric enunciations and deduction. As Einstein used us to, there are no mathematical formulas, nothing to illustrate those tough there are conclusions that satisfy certain experimental knowledge, like the speed of light is constant and the limit to all speeds in Universe, quantum entanglement etc,,

So i wanted to take a look at Maxwell's equations and all i could find was counter intuitive integrals, differentials and gradient symbols that tell me nothing, So i had to take a look again at things i haven't seen in more than 40 years and started with the basics of calculus from a video narrated in English,

Though i can cross now easily the language barrier, i ran into the same problem i did so many years ago. Though now i can solve that problem, i cannot embedded in my mental processes related to calculus and make it kick start those when i see the symbols. My brain has been wired in a different way back then and stays the same.

And here's the problem. Definitions of a differential starts with an equation though using abstract terms, ds and dt, that can be as small as we can imagine. And all of a sudden in the in the comfort of my  intuitive mind the left term of the equation flys to zero or infinity whatever comes first.

In reality, the term dt that disappears on the right since it can be as small as possible (approaches zero as the narrators states) while in the left side becomes a convention within a notation system, it does not have the value of an equation term anymore. Too bad considering all the resources that video took to make and all the hopes of those who watch it and generally the head scratching of all students that ever had to go through this ordeal.

9:10 Their children are  back in the yard yelling in Japanese. Almost in my balcony and outside is almost dark and i made some fried bread.

9:20 It was silence for a while. Now they came back to the balcony as i'm eating.