Rhododendron, Oregon

Never knew. Never cared. Today i paid more attention to this https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rhododendron#Toxicology

Here in Portland there are maybe 1 plant for 10 people. "It is the national flower of Nepal."

Hm. Surrounded by coincidences. Today i realized that in every place i lived i had one next to door and/or window. Don't know if it's toxic only by smelling it. Probably in combination with something else, like some building materials, cigarette smoke or exhaust. Maybe just as cover, the main amount coming from somewhere else.


Here is 1122 SW Stephenson, my first address in Portland where i was living at Mladin's house. Here i met Mladin's daughter, a girl that looked like Malin from Ace of Base. I was living in a small room at ground level next to the furnace, under the balcony. 4 months at this address September-December 1995.


At Fox Pointe in Vancouver, 3015 NE 57th as remember from documents. But i don't believe i've been staying next to the laundry room... Anyways, the only rhododendron i could see here was in front of 3017, on the right in the picture. But it's also been 20 years since... The apartment seems very small but actually was bigger than the one i live in right now.


6810 SW Hall Blvd @16, Beaverton. Sussex Village. 14 years at this address. The upper right window is the kitchen. The same 600 sqft living space as before in Vancouver and after in Lake Oswego.






47 Eagle Crest Lake Oswego. Balcony in the upper middle-right of the picture. 2nd level. Here since February 2010.


I've been there the other day and moved the rock (fresh ground upper right corner). There it was smelling like in a restaurant with don't know a dozen people smelling simultaneously additive free cigarettes).

dr.Sigurtson

In September 2004 my wife had cancer surgery. I was in the same hospital at Providence St.Vincent in Barnes Rd. in Portland, Oregon, in the psychiatric ward due to a psychosis. In fact, i was at the 4th floor while she had surgery at the fifth. She came to see me the second day after surgery, while i was laying in bed thinking i was on a different planet. Could this be related to my downstairs neighbour, a person to whom we both refereed to as "the witch", a 300+ pounds woman with a black cat, stars and moons door mat, and a bumper sticker on her car saying "my other car is a broom", who sometimes was laughing on a really high tone, alone in the house? At 6810, SW Hall Blvd, Beaverton, OR, 97035. Later she moved to a different apartment in the same complex, i think i have a picture of the "things" she kept in front of the door. Here it is...

At Sussex Village Apts, Beaverton, OR, 2007/07/23 18:25:27, click to enlarge

At Providence i was in care of dr.Sigurtson. That's all i remember, his last name. In fact he obtained from Washington county some sort of court order to keep me in there because i wanted to get out.

I remember he enumerated some antidepressants and asked me what i wanted. I chose Remeron (Mirtazapin) because it sounded right to me at that time. I've been on Remeron until early 2007. It took me one full year to fight with the withdrawal symptoms. From what i've heard, i am the first person to ever get off of Remeron. But i believe i got the bradycardia because giving it up. (Remeron as a side effect is a cardiotonic and raises your heart rhythm and after a while your body gets used to and your heart rythm gets back to normal. When you get off it, i suppose it goes down. My pulse now is in the low 50s and even in the upper 40s when i lay down.)

But the strangest thing is a few days into my hospital stay (in fact just after signing the document below) dr.Sigurtson dissapeared. He was replaced by a different doctor, dr.Guistwhite. But by that time, i already gave up, i made peace with myself and everybody. Could it have been the phone calls i made from the hospital to different lawyers from yellow pages trying to describe to them my situation and ask for help? The nurses told me he had an accident. Years later i tried and called the hospital asking them about dr.Sigurtson and they told me he moved into a different country.

Nowadays i am reviewing a number of faces i knew and resemble other persons,  mostly celebrities. Dr. Sigurtson's face look a lot like ...Sigurjón Sighvatsson, the Iceland born actor. Can anybody tell me what the hell is going on?

Sigurjón Sighvatsson

Can get most of the resolution with middle click

I had this document for 8 years. I always hesitated to show it so someone. Why? Because the handwritten parts especially the small letters look exactly like my handwriting, with a few differences though.