November 27

1:15 Just came from outside. Stupid Windows changed the time i took the picture (that came out blurry, not posting quality i'm used to) to last accessed time so i don't know when i went, maybe 11:30. To pick the rotting leaves.

After the wind shifted from that direction, when we got back tonight the smell in here was unbearable even with ozone generator at a higher setting for hours. After two days ago i picked the ones in the back, i thought i was happily done but today i had to tackle the ones in front. First i grabbed the ones around the hydrant where it stinks like used oil from the leaky Chrysler. I now believe it was meant to cover all the other smells including rotting leaves.

Then i tried next to it and the more i went towards the end of the building the more i picked. They were dried at the surface but wet and stinky under. Stinkier than in the back i thing because wind is blowing more from that direction. I lost count of how many laundry baskets but again i think more than twenty. So i went and picked and picked for almost two hours.

BTW the laundry basket is way stinkier now than after i picked those in the back. Though i washed it. It smells like a swamp.

When i thought i was finally done i glimpsed some more under the laundry vents. So i went there with the basket and when i grabbed a pile with my right hand to push them into the basket (they were 2 ft tall there) what did i touch. The rat bait box. Right under the vent.

And it was warm to the touch. Somebody's been drying laundry all the time i was outside but i went first in other areas and did not inhaled much except at the end.

Being heated by the vapor every time they were doing laundry and most likely releasing bait vapor that i was breathing. And it's been like that for at least six months. God knows if they were refreshing the bait or not but i saw the guys with the green pickup (forgot the name) several different times, last time recently maybe a month ago.

No it's been more than 6 months ago. It's been more than one year ago cause i remember when they first installed them i picked like 6 rats from the back rotting in the hot summer Sun. Nevermind it was in  September. Not long after i complained about seeing rats entering under the other building.

Wondering. But i think i now i know what possessed me i did not recognize the problem with the vents washing those boxes. I was under the influence of smoke coming from mole holes.

The were literally gassing us here since September 2022. Mostly me cause i stay here all the time. Maybe the reasons my hands are nowadays shaky and have palpitations.

The reason the woman at 4 was staying in the balcony talking on the phone for hours, probably while and after drying laundry.

2:09 Wandering. If an inhaled toxin that went into your bloodstream passes through intestinal wall into the intestine. Cause if so, taking activated charcoal could be helpful, by removing the toxin at intestines' level thus attracting more from the blood stream through osmosis/reverse osmosis whatever. BTW could this work for kidney failure? It all depends if activated charcoal can absorb urea or uric acid and of course if those pass the intestinal wall inside the intestine. Yes it can!

2:35 I think it works a little. Feeling better after half hour i took 2400 mg (two 1200 mg capsules) of those. Was  thinking the give Angela some but she fell back asleep until i grabbed one and some water. BTW when i opened bedrooms' window was smelling badly like mold from before and even after i picked the leaves cause the ground is wet and full of it.

Air in the living is much cleaner because of the ozone and the activated carbon filter so i let the door open and can hear her snoring lightly. Don't know what to do, she is supposed to wake up at 4:30 to go to work. What if i wake her and then she cannot fall back asleep? But i was outside and exposed a lot to the "laundry" vapor and inside there is the carbon filter i just replaced the elements and bedroom is less exposed to that stuff being on the other side of the building.

Yeah i'm much better 45 minutes after i took those. I gave her one then she fell back asleep. But i figured something else. The capsules i bought on  Amazon are not created equal. I mean some of them have twice the amount inside than others. Which indicates cheating.

Never saw capsules of something half full except for all charcoal i ever bought. Walmart charcoal capsules are half full but they are 300 something mg. Grocery Outlet capsules are 600 (if i did not switch them in my mind) but have the same degree of fulness (when gently squeezed with two fingers). Of these, only a few are full, most are more than half empty. And the charcoal does not seem so black.

BTW i bought from Amazon spark plugs for Elantra. OEM bla bla. 66 bucks for 4 seemed a good deal. They are packed in the same type of cardboard all Hyundai parts are and have the Hyunda/Kia logos in the ceramic part and cardboard box. However they have so many irregularities in shape and color i'm thinking or returning them.

3:25 Ok the pink discoloration seem to come from the laser welding of iridium tips. Cause it does look like laser welding. However the hook electrode is not aligned with the center one. And i'm afraid to bend it cause i may break the welding. But isn't that iridium layer shorting it? Could there be some are selling parts scrapped by Hyundai?

3:33 Yeah very interesting. They are not squeaking upstairs when/after she dries laundry.

4:57 Ok i woke up this morning after about 5 hours of sleep, really groggy. Though i haven't been drinking much last night and none last two days. They have not come back upstairs until 2 PM. I would think this is what it took for the stuff to clear the walls. But when they came they came with a vengeance.

I say they but i think there's really only one person. Haven't hear so much squeaking or stomping in a long time. While i was trying to figure the exact location of the incident Saturday night. Here's what i did.

I figured the event must have taken place @11:13 since the clock showed 11:11 but the clock was 2-3 minutes slow. I separated data from the gpx file downloaded from the GPS between 11:09 and 11:16 and loaded it into a spreadsheet. Since i was driving North South and had latitudes for every second, i plotted a chart with differences between two adjacent latitudes which gave me the speed in degrees of latitude per second.

There are several spikes in the graph but i think the first is the one. It looks like i slowed down a bit, (never under 70 as i remember), probably because of denser fog or a hill. I know i was on cruise control most of the time, close to 75. Then something made me accelerate, and shutting the cruise control before i slowed down. Then i saw it in the mirror, started to accelerate, at one time i hesitated when Angela started to yell at me not seeing what i was seeing in the mirror, then accelerated again until break out.

And then the other business with the tan car in my blind spot matching speed that exited at first exit after changing mind, twice.

It all happened between Grand Mound and Centralia at 11:09 + 180 seconds that is 11:12 or 36 minutes into the trip. First some event made me shut the cruise control and also accelerate. I think the loss of speed prior to that was due to a sudden increase in elevation without cruse control.

I think the moment was chosen because of a downslope that helped the big vehicle with only one headlight accelerate. The graph shows a period of 7 minutes.

Upstairs. After they squeezed everything they could from the space between mirror and ceiling, they left.

6:15 Last night at Spirit Mountain. I was at one of the entrances (the one closest to the highway) drinking a can of soda i brought from the car and started to talk to a short blond guy dressed funny (something i haven't done in long time). While i was talking to him the woman from Apt.4, though with blue eyes came from inside and stood next to him like they were together, and was staring at me, looking worried and she didn't say a word and they left one minute later.

7:25 About an our ago maybe later i heard a noise like a trailer hitting a bump. I was not worried cause they do it all the time here. But about half hour ago i started to here a noise like a towing truck was picking a car and after i wrote the entry above i said i better look and see. And what did i see. A guy with a truck backed up "not seeing" a smaller Dodge SUV was already parked in that spot.

It pushed the SUV into a pillar of the stairwell of the building and dislodged the stairs. Now the persons at the second floor there are being rescued by firefighters. Could this have anything to do with people gathering two days ago in the evening and watching in that direction. Maybe there was a fight within a couple. The woman with the Dodge is an Asian and i think the guy with the truck looks Latino.

7:40 Just opened the door again and saw a fat woman very excited hugging a firefighter.

8:00 Firefighters left, a towing truck came, two Police SUVs are on the scene, the truck that pushed the Dodge SUV is gone, the Dodge SUV itself is still riding the curb but slid one spot to the left (in the first picture) while was trying to get over the curve by its own power. People that supposedly came out of that building i haven't seen before, like the woman who was hugging the firefighter.

Inside the smell is almost unbearable. After i removed the leaves, the really bad stuff that was under is now stinking even after one (short, late November) sunny day with UV and stuff. I can barely breath after i had the ozone on for the whole day. Upstairs is like a continuous never ending waltz.

10:15 Ok. The soot coming from those Diesel engines calmed the stench from the ground that was under the rotting wet leaves for a month or more.

10:36 Realitatea paralelă. Apropo Dumitru Dragomir și el a încercat la rândul lui să dea cu SUV-ul peste mine (eram în truck parcă) la intersecția de la 7-11 din colț. Prin octombrie 2019, poate.

10:50 Just figured. The Nestle decaf instant coffee i bought last time at WinCo may contain an unusual amount of roasted grain like barley maybe.


11:08 Jurnalism pe cale de apariție. În sfârșit o deplasare a președintelui anunțată în media înainte de a se întâmpla.

Voiam și eu ca tot omul să citesc ceva funny înainte de a mă culca și peste ce dau în Cațavencii. (Da mi-am amintit fiindcă fraza cu jurnalismul le aparține). Cerneala simpatică. Gazul de sub casa scării. Așa-mi trebuie dacă le fur idei (meseria nu se învață, se fură, așa îmi spunea taică-meu întotdeauna).

Apropo conduceam, sâmbătă seara pe I5 spre nord și când am trecut podul acela înalt peste Columbia cu 4 benzi pe sens ce văd în punctul cel mai înalt. Un dulăpior îngust dar înalt care avusese sticlă (sau cristal) de jur împrejur care sticlă acum era spartă și împrăștiată pe porțiunea îngustă de lângă banda din stânga.

Dar de ce în picioare? Ca să se vadă mai bine? Kristallnacht? După multe faze nereușite, erau să ne căsăpească la venire, faza de mai sus.

November 20

12:45 After all these i get the feel he is not in Africa after al... Anybody knows when he's coming back?

I remember from newspapers at the time that even Ceuașescu was announcing his state visits to Mobutu weeks in advance...

I mean, it is all staged to appear that way. That is most people think he's in Africa, the smarter ones think he's in the US chasing me and he is actually taking yet another vacation meditating at his country house in Hungary.

1:07 Got to end a confusion here. În engleză la comandă la restaurant sau pe site-uri online se zice order. Același cuvânt se folosește și pentru comenzi militare.

11:45 Just came back from my walk. I don't know if i am awake or asleep. There is a bag similar to the one under the bin on the hills with the spilled  content of a dog litter box next to the alley bin. A garbage truck came to pick "selectively" the full bins, but they didn't pick this one though it's almost full.

Can't find right now the previous posts with the 7-11 intersection. Again i was coming from Nyberg lane trying to cross 65. At green (actually white from my point of view) i started to cross. A Mercedes coming from 65 stopped kinda short and scared me, providing a solid distraction. When i passed the middle, the light turned from white to red count down and green for a left turn for the traffic coming from Nyberg into 65 or in the same direction i was going.

To this day i don't understand how these lights work. Am i actually crossing on red?

I saw in peripheral view a black pickup with a black trailer coming from Nyberg lane towards me, turned my head completely but this time he pretended he didn't see me to the end and accelerated heavily so to run was the only option. After he barely missed me he slowed down to "apologize" and i ran to his tinted window to take a good look at the driver. All i can say is he reminded me of the guy upstairs.

There is a city surveillance camera on one of the poles of that intersection.

Earlier an Alexa meme with a big nose followed me for about one mile during my walk, providing "motivation" for the action above.

12:15 Put a glove on and went to throw in the bin the broken bag with liter dust sitting next to it. The dust was mixed with numerous dog poops and turned into a mud on the asphalt as it's been rained upon.

Trying to figure when it rained last time in Tualatin. Most likely the main reason i have been so nauseated in the last few days. Most likely coming from Apt.4, the same with the stinking Chrysler. Cause they rarely come with the dog outside.

Litter boxes should be made illegal, at least in apartments. It is dangerous to live with so many poops inside an apartment or small house, even if dried and covered in deodorant, also for the neighbors in a building like this. People should understand that pets especially big dogs are not toys to live with in a tiny apartment. People should be prosecuted for throwing garbage outside bins cause those are biohazards.

I turned on the radio on Z100 Portland and they were playing a (local) top and i again got to listen that monster Doja Cat, actually Miss Universe Japan 2014 (semantic clues: Keiko - cat, Tsuji - doja). What can i say. THEY control financially all radio stations and Billboard and everything. Now they are playing that horrible low low low song which is actually about m...n like so many others.

November 18

1:00 România ar putea încheia acorduri bilaterale și cu alte țări din UE, mai ales cu acelea care și-a manifestat sprijinul, cel mai recent Franța și Germania. Astfel, Austria s-ar rușina.

7:42 This is about what i wrote yesterday about that motel in Florence.

I remember i worked one day only for a guy in Rome who was remodeling and apartment in historic Villa Borghese, carrying marble slabs upstairs for remodeling a 300 years old maybe apartment. The walls were one meter thick and the streets were really narrow. I think i heard them talking. The price tag was one million (euro, dollars, whatever).

This is where i lived in an area for working people. Yeah i know from the pictures you can't tell the difference. But inside, they were comfortable, quiet and had marble on the floors instead of wall to wall carpet nailed to the floor.

Absolutely no smells.

It is nostalgic to go to the same motel after 25 years. But motels in the US are not built with marble or even concrete. They are made of wood like most American buildings with inner "drywall" panels that bend and crack. Some have nail holes or even spaces from initial constructions like behind appliances and the interior communicates with the inside of the wall, which sometimes is better cause if air doesn't get in those insides, then it gets much worse.

In most places is Oregon nothing has been built since 1995 or when i came here. Same old same old everywhere. But Americans aren't worried because they don't want to travel to Europe to see and if they do they go to places like Rome or Paris where the buildings are even older (that was a joke).

But i could never imagine the housing situation in the US. I left everything, sold my concrete made apartment in Bacău, closed by business and i have no way to return, especially when i look at the stunning politicians there. At least here, there is a trace of freedom left. In there all you can do to survive is to get in league with THEM. Especially now after what i wrote on my blogs THEY will probably eat me alive. Like some here too.

Don't get me wrong. The reason i put videos with lyrics is sometimes i cannot understand what these guys are singing, probably because they are not native English speakers. Wake up or make up?

8:27 Yeah i know i spoke freely about all these before i moved here in Tualatin and that was after i fixed a leak in the wall that created mold for 7 years. BTW there is a hole in the siding and wall at the other end of the building told management about years ago and every time i tape it someone comes and removes the tape a bit, just enough for rain to get in. Trying to de-generalize my situation?

After last rains, mold grew inside and now when the crazy ninja at 4 with the stinking Chrysler hits the wall once, the place fills with mold smell.

First i thought this song was for encouraging me, but today i realize it is reverse psychology and bullying and a lesson to all who try to do what i did. And yeah the gyms stink also, mostly like rubber from all the treadmills or chlorine from pools.


8:55 I am really sick. I am wearing a mask and moved the ozone generator from bathroom to the living though my eyes already hurt. Slept five hours, i'm really sleepy but i also feel like fainting. Hungry and nauseated in the same time.

I realized what happens. Weird strains of mold bred inside the wall with sulfur dioxide extraterrestrial atmosphere gets out through that hole ands seeds the wet rotting leaves on the ground and the air is unbreathable as right now. You can't see it but the wall with the hole is on the left.

I sit here at the old PC next to kitchen window and i don't remember seeing any one in the last hour or so. Just a nervous Asian Japanese mailman who was hitting the doors of the mailbox seen in the picture linked above and more mold came inside.

Though yesterday when i was at the car breathing smoke from i don't know where that was getting me high within one hour i saw 100 hundred people and cars all making noises and distracting me. And BTW my oil doesn't smell a bit like the oil under the Chrysler, almost got no smell when compared to that one.

9:18 Yeah it worked this time. The browser didn't crash when i took the code with starting point for the embedded video below (using share under youtube player). And they started to drag furniture and stomp upstairs. Because i said there was no one here.



10:30 Effectively canceling my thoughts with squeaks from upstairs. I switched to html mode but forgot what i wanted to add. One thing i remember. My eyes weren't hurting from ozone, they were hurting from mold and dust. As soon as i started the ozone and ion generator i got much better.

10:55 On a second thought. She was here again yesterday after a few days missing with all that smoke while i was working at the car. Never leaving their balcony, with the two others. Just staring at me. Earlier i heard the boy yelling in an unseen place like a monkey being eating alive by a huge snake in the jungle. And in reality, she is older than Alexa.

4:28 Got a new PC. Yeah i know Bela (Lugosi) Rising. Amazon delivered it in about 12 hours from ordering. Which means they had it in a warehouse in Portland. As big as a small book.

"Overall pick", "best value for money". Got six cores and 12 threads (666). If i saw that @year 2000 would have freaked out and didn't buy it.

For reason of already installed Ethernet cables it ended at Angela's. Already up and running (with a monitor, keyboard and mouse from the closet). LOL one day when i was cleaning i was  thinking of throwing it up LOL. It seems much faster. Can even play games on it. With the newest updates of W11 and Chrome, i can do it with Lenovo. Blogging that is.

Can't work at her desk either. It is much more exposed to the "elements" coming from under the (hidden) door (but she's only there a couple of hours max a day). Here i am downstream from the filter of which carbon elements i just replaced.

I believe this is one of the three orders i've been thinking and talking about for days. Another one is coming, third i never made (did have not time). Now i'm thinking where from to get that game with Sarah Morgan so i cam marry her to se what happens (that was a joke).

November 16

12:30 Upstairs. Marching on the ceiling at half past midnight, smoking, waking Angela. She's on overtime again, from 5 to 3:30, training new people older than her that will probably quit right after. And after the smoke and thunder here comes our own sewage smell pumped from the ample space between ceiling and upstairs elastic floor trampoline.

Me. Trying to recover from the pain given by using again the laptop. With wi-fi and bluetooth off, and meter next to it. Probably puts in my lap something from the motherboard, outside the meter's range (1 to 10 GHz). Shopping for a PC i will keep 2 meters away with long HDMI and USB cables.

Again very low end (under 200 bucks) fanless mini PC, i hate to pop it after 2 years to dust it inside, found one with Intel gen.12 and 512 Gigs or SSD. But i can't find one with Chrome OS installed, those are 2 times more expensive on the same hardware, don't know why, Chrome OS is free, i guess it's the rarity, will try to install it over Windows.

However Chrome (browser) got so good lately it works in Windows like in Chrome (OS).

Earlier. Overslept, became lethargic after a mole hole popped under the long wall of the living. Though people might have seen me walking on the streets, i was not actually awake in the morning.

1:08 I am finished migrating with my blog work on the PC. Here are some pictures from yesterday's walk. Right in this place. Every time i see a car with a number reminding of KGB. Today i got lucky and caught one.

The "community center". Every time i pass by on the other side (the trail parallel with the street next to the river, something happens). I think i met with Alexa once there on the trail. Not long ago i saw for of them in the same place. Nobody answered my question yet. Is that symbol figuring a T an actual sexual symbol.

I saw many nutria (no plural for nutria, like for ninja) in Oregon. Yesterday while walking i told myself. A pretty decent visual replacement for beavers that once populated the whole area. Beaverton, duh! used to be a swamp full of them. So today someone thought of placing for me one in the pond. The real thing. Thinking.

 

Was the real thing what i saw next to the trees while walking on the street? Anyways a good example of women doing memes of Alexa everywhere i go. There was another one in the street doing pirouettes with her dog but dressed with lighter colors. She has not moved from that position all the time i was walking by. Crazy little thing waiting for the king in the jungle?

4:08 This looks like a job for me (Eminem). Cel mai frumos discurs despre drago-stea. Și mai lăsați-mă cu viețile sfinților. Lumea nu știe cele zece porunci din care una până de curând a fost tradusă greșit, prea direct din... slavonă. Iată și traducerea din Biblia catolică al aceluiași verset.


Salome, sister of Mary?

10:50 They finally succeeded in annoying me. The Republic Services with their 20 ton trucks shaking the h...l out of those bins. Literally.

But it was nothing. Compared to what happened two days ago at WinCo. I was at the self stands buttoning that touchscreen when i felt the jolt. The floor moved up and down like one or two inches with no sound. I turned my head, scared, at Gladys (Portugues) and she of course tough as she is didn't even blink an eye (not that she's not Portuguese, that is just her name, she is Japanese, i don't know who). Was expecting more as i thought it was a major earthquake but nope. Nothing more. One jolt and that was it.

But what was it? I remember about 10 years ago i was at home in Lake Oswego high on smoke from the walls as usually and Angela called me from somewhere asking for my social and i gave it to her on the phone and the whole building moved just like that. Could it be connected to this.

11:15 Last night as the gasoline smell slowly faded away it made room for fresh dog poop smell. Not a chance to find it with all the leaves. Which contaminated me real fast. first o got nauseated and then towards morning i started to...

11:45 Ce Salomeia dle. Și Carmen dansează nu-i așa... Oare ce îi va cere lui Iohannis? Capul lui Rareș?

1:01 Went to throw some garbage. At the door an item i ordered last night early morning on Amazon (filters for my Winnex, too big for the locker). Man that was fast. The old man with long beard dressed like a junkie passed by. So i passed on picking the mail. I think he is tricking many people.

5:55 Slept in the afternoon, had an eureka moment. The missing link. Girl With Pearls in Her Hair. God of Hungarian rock, Janos Kobor. Or English and international rock, David Gilmour the same. Honi sois.

Alexa, i wish i could say i feel for you tonight but you seduced me me already :) remember.

7:12 The gasoline smell it's not coming at no cost. My liver is not doing well these days. Especially since i can't drink water because i'm nauseated all the time.

That Chrysler that leaks smelly oil in the parking lot has Mazda Uhura wings and was done by Chrysler after it merged with Daimler. It belongs to the guy who lives with the woman at 4, a ninja that coordinates everything that's happening in the building.

7:40 Le décodeur, spécialement pour vous. În sfârșit m-am prins la ce reprezintă imaginea lui Rareș Bogdan în piață cu Rolex-ul (așa arată un Rolex?). Role_X-ul represintă tiktok, piața reprezintă bursa din SUA iar tipa cu ochelari, Alexa etc..

Dacă nu s-a prins nimeni până acum înseamnă că era subliminală și v-a intrat direct la subconștient. Știți cum o mai scoateți de acolo? De-acum, doar cu post și rugăciune împreună cu toate celelalte pe care vi le-au vârât în cap de decenii. Și să nu vă mai uitați la știri..

E grea și viața lor să știți. Să creeze scenele astea. Dar e posibil ca totul să fi fost CGI. 

November 5th

12:54 Devine plictisitor să mai povestesc pățaniile critice prin care trecem când mai mergem undeva. Angela a vrut să meargă încă o dată anul ăsta la Indian Head. 108 mile, 175 km, nu ar fi așa departe dar după o anumită dată nu se mai poate trece peste munți, la 1200 metri altitudine drumurile îngheață și sunt pline de zăpadă și mai trec pe acolo doar camioane cu lanțuri.

Deci am fost și ploua cu găleata și într-un loc cu o vale s-a adunat apă pe drumul cu două benzi prost construit și exact acolo s-a nimerit să depășesc o camionetă mare cu remorcă, cam la 100 kmh și din roțile lui a ieșit atât de multă apă încât ne-a acoperit și nu mai vedeam nimic. Am frânat fiindcă alternativa era să aștept să mă răsucesc și să intru în roțile remorcii respective. După câteva secunde am început să văd iar și eram ok.

Ploua în deșert. Drumul ăla nu a fost construit în mod evident pentru ploaie. Două șanțuri adânci de cm făceau ca mașina să se legene tot timpul din stânga în dreapta benzii. La un moment dat m-am prins că dacă merg lângă linia întreruptă din centru roțile calcă pe lângă șanțuri, dar dacă veneau mașini trebuia să mă dau la o parte etc. și trebuia să merg cu viteză fiindcă veneau tot felul de SUV-uri puternice cu cauciucuri off road și mă împingeau din spate.

Surpriza plăcută. O floare de deșert, datorită căldurii (15 C) și ploii a înflorit cred încă odată și totul mirosea foarte mișto.

1:15 Nici nu știu ei cât de inspirați au fost jurnaliștii români când au venit cu sintagma "miliardar de carton", acum mai puțin folosită. Vila lui Bezos. Dacă a fost construită în 2000 de acum pereții goi în interior sunt plini de bioxid de sulf emanat de panourile interioare din ghips ale pereților aerat prins între două fâșii de carton, celebrul drywall de 10 sau 13 mm (fășia verticală din dreapta).

Muștele sau țânțarii nu trăiesc în asemenea locuințe și totul în interior are mirosul acela acru de bioxid de sulf. Dominant căci mai sunt și altele.

Miliardari de carton, vile de carton. Tyvek este folosit pentru acoperirea panourilor din lemn presat cu formaldehidă din exterior, până la instalarea sideing-ului, un fel de șindrile.

Se trec sume enorme pe numele unor nimeni pentru a acoperi faptul că aceste corporații gigantice sunt controlate de puteri străine (știm noi cine).

6:45 Cazul Lasconi. Am acceptat toți această ciudățenie lingvistică născută relativ recent, homofob, fără a clipi. Poate la fel de bine însemna frica de om, adică de homo sapiens.

Ciudățenia este însă mai veche. Cuvântul homo are două înțelesuri. Om când vine din latină și același când vine din greacă, și a fost altoit peste englezul sexual (de fapt germanul sexuelle, prima dată cuvântul a apărut într-o corespondență în limba germană).

Dar dacă acceptăm o etimologie pur greacă, unde Φόβος înseamnă frică, ar însemna frica de același iar pentru una hibridă latino-greacă ar fi frica de om.

Un cuvânt împrumutat din engleză. Dacă ne venea din franceză, ar fi fost omosexual, la fel ca omonim.

Cei doi care au născut acest cuvânt care a înlocuit sodomit trebuiau să fi știut toate astea fiindcă pe atunci orice om cu carte știa și greaca veche și latina.

De fapt, pur lingvistic, fără contextul trendului, homosexual înseamnă cel mai direct om sexual, în aceeași direcție cu homo sapiens (om gânditor).

Da cred că acest cuvânt este subversiv și "umanizează" în subconștient această pornire, homo pentru majoritatea însemnând om, prin asocierea mai cunoscută cu homo sapiens.

Dar cazul Lasconi însumează două scandaluri vide de relevanță în unul. Adică ceva să umple știrile. I se retrage sprijinul la europarlamentare. Și? Ce mare cașcaval? Cu ce ne ajută pe noi românii europarlamentarii când se duc ei acolo în afară de cazul lui Băsescu, care a dispărut din știri forever? Ați auzit să fi făcut ei vreodată ceva? Pentru România și/sau alte țări?

Stau acolo și ridică mâinile dacă sunt prezenți, ceea ce eu mă îndoiesc, de câte ori m-am uitat la un video live sau chiar o înregistrare video a unei dezbateri din Parlamentul European am văzut doar câțiva în sală.

Yeah i know they were forcing me to take position (can't stay put) knowing my reactions and thus trying to separate me from a certain recent influnce(r). Which coming from them to me is the exact opposite, that is encouraging.

9:45 As i said before. Coffee accelerates heart rhythm and is a stimulant even in low doses.  Last night when i left Indian Head got some real coffee in a cup just in case i become sleepy on the road which i did and i drank that coffee.

Problem was and still is i also had my nose congested and was breathing on my nose while my heart was being stimulated and compensating but that can only last for so long before heart gets tired and eventually crashes (goes into failure, fibrillation, shortness of breath due to lack of oxygen to heart and body etc..).

So this is the problem with drinking coffee. You may be stimulated while you are not breathing right and then you crash or worse. And every time i drink real coffee my reaction gets worse.

When i got last night in Portland area on 205. There was smoke in the air just like at Spirit Mountain Friday night.

I became disoriented and stayed on an exit lane by mistake in the 45 speed area. When i realized, i tried to get back on the freeway, but there was a vehicle coming so i nearly stopped.

I looked in the mirror and saw some headlights but those were pretty far so i just reentered and and accelerated and found myself in a zone with two lanes and concrete barriers on both side and no shoulder (the reason for reduced speed). But until i got back to 55 (45+10) the lights from behind came really fast and changed lanes and zoomed past me at high speed, way more than 45 which i was already at. 4 SUVs passed me at high speed in that area obviously bullying me as i was one or two ft away from the concrete.

11:03 Went outside to double check. The leaves are back almost to the same level as before. So the gasoline smell. I know when i picked those the smell was coming from the last spot next to hydrant where there were several puddles of oil (where the Chrysler is right now). It is actually a leak of oil contaminated with gasoline. What i don't understand is the position of the puddles cause he always parks rear first.
11:52 So i went outside to pick as many leaves as i could. Garden mold smell was present mostly in the bedroom so i started in that direction.But when i tried to take the leaves to the bin, i saw in there a number of blue doggy bags, one of them right on top of it. I took pictures and when i did the old man's bodyguard came right near the bin, 3 ft away from me, smoking, making me very nervous.I picked 3 or 64 of them, some unknotted, when i found one that was under, they put the bin on top of it Tursday. When i tried to remove it broke and i came to wash hands and some small pieces of it are now in the new sewer that probably has a filter to pick everything from here.From winds's direction. But when i came back i nearly stepped on one, altogether the reason my fa..s were stinking so bad at the casino yesterday. This place is a bio-hazard. But in Lake Oswego or even at Sussex was similar though at Sussex to a less extent.And the mats. When it rains in weekend they will be matts next to the "no dumping" place".

The reason i slept only 4 hours last night. The reason i had congested nose and palpitations this morning.

I went and picked 2 more "bagless" ones and took a picture of the most used bin.

Got on the patio years ago a Homo Depot bucket where i keep most stinking things like pump to change oil, stuff like this. Not long after i bought it the lid broke and was not closing completely. Now i understand his action. And the Chrysler. But why they choose to act allegorically and did not tell me anything?

It's a cascade or escalating thing. They retaliate while keeping in place the reasons and the retaliations may continue indefinitely bringing in new things to retaliate for etc. like my f...s. that come from the poops and the whole apartment stinking because of the poops. And of course you don't feel other smells anymore.

But today i took some more household bottles and spray outside and the lid from that bucket was taken out the bucket altogether.There was a faint smell i recon. It doesn't bother me which i'm closest. Why anybody never said anything?

Went and picked two more blue bags from next to that bin. A tall Asian guy with a Tacoma with cage in front came again very close. But then i saw more behind and can't get in there. Though i did it once when i climbed over the bin and nearly fell.

8:55 Don't know how to start this. Read Shogun (schengen?) to better understand what's happening to me and raise it to the power of 8.

This one is newer than the last time stamp. I was eating the humble hamburger from Spirit Mt. (Angela ate her while i was driving, BTW the heavy rain turned the older parts of the road into car surfing areas with big grooves full of water, the same as yesterday in the desert) and the woman upstairs who BTW is doing laundry, waited us with a cloud of super perfumed detergent at the door and then she hit the floor with an object. I choked with a piece of food, first blocking the airways, which i coughed out and then in the esophagus but it passed within a minute or so.

Earlier. When we got home an Asian woman with a dog let the leash long and the dog almost got under my car but i did break. It was like she was testing my level of alertness.

Earlier. We had to go to Grocery Outlet in Dundee to get water, eggs and other urgent stuff (could not make time this weekend to go to stores and good water is cheaper there). So i did not take the variant at the fork before McMinville but entered the ghost city of McMinville.

It was raining heavy and it was dark and soon we entered the ghost city of Dundee (never seen anybody on the streets there). I noticed they were a number of Police SUVs blinding me with flashing lights in the distance. I was worried more about those and did not realize there was a power outage and the stop lights weren't working.

However i slowed to maybe 20 and was watching carefully when i passed among them (two on the right, apparently they pulled someone, and one on the left. There was no traffic whatsoever. At the next intersection a guy in a huge white pickup jumped from the left but i hit the brakes and i was too slow anyways to meet with it. Would have been on three different videos from three different angles.

We continued until we got at the fork towards Grocery Outlet when i parked and Angela went inside to get the stuff. Soon after i saw three Police SUVs coming from the same direction with flashing lights and sirens. Could have been the same ones. One minute later one of them returned again with flashing lights.

The parking lot at Grocery Outlet was empty however a woman in an SUV looking like a model chose to park behind our car when Angela came with the cart and i opened the trunk. With the lights still on she got out and took a good look in our trunk.

When i got home and opened the email found 2 fresh emails from... Chase. I looked in the manual. Should have stopped at every intersection. In fact google didn't know much else except in Michigan the rule is i should have had the right of way if coming from main direction or something.

Earlier. Two cars with diesel engine were making a big noise and smoke in the parking lot at Spirit Mt. when we were about to leave. I looked at one of them and he gave me an "angry Mexican look". That always happens when i f...t in the casino. I can't help it. It happens every time i eat when there are dog poops outside here.

Earlier. They were wiping the tables at the Court Food with some irritant substance. I tried to stay away while waiting for the burger which BTW took a lot (They were three customers in the whole restaurant, Angela was the only one in line when she ordered). I think that substance played a role in me being numb and dumb and not realizing i had to stop in every dark intersection with no signs no nothing except hard to see in the heavy rain stop lights.

Earlier. Enough to say Angela won in single session most of the money she lost tonight (over 200 dollars). I knew when this happens, something else will happen on the streets. However lately something happens on the streets anyways.

This reminds me of the two angry women who were wiping the machines behind me at Chinook Winds. That substance contributed to me almost getting into a fight with that Japanese movie director and then banned.

Earlier. When i got there i went in the blue room and i saw a guy passing and the floor made a noise. I walked around and found another area with soft or moving parts in the floor. Would have checked anyways in the area where i fell. Right in the exact same place the floor was going down like half inch when i was stepping on it. I wanted to take a picture with the exact place but security guards were patrolling one after another.

Earlier. A few days ago i ordered online some black cherry concentrate. I made some juice to have on the road at Indian Head. Last night when i was about to leave at Indian Head i went into the restroom. A heavy smell spiced with some yeast after someone just left. Today before i went or 24 hours after i had some of it and it was tasting and smelling like some sort of yeast, very similar with the day before in the restroom.

Yesterday when i left i at Indian head or after i exited the restroom started to have shortness of breath like in good old times. It lasted more than half hour into the trip back home. I took a charcoal cap which absorbs gas. and got better. When i got back home i was having palpitations while laying in bed. I remember they were a number of models in there and one of them at a certain time was laying bottom on a side along three chairs, right behind us.

I know when someone bends and shows his bottom right in front of me, some half hour later i get shortness of breath, gas retention.

Today after we left home. I don't remember anybody doing a particular thing just a number of people were doing weird things on the alley in our way out of the complex.

10:33 Upstairs they can't stay put in the bedroom (walking back and forth).

October 30

12:34 Moved the Winix filter that has 4 activated carbon layers and a VOC sensor next to main door or the other side of the room where it was. Main door is next to parking lot and the Chrysler and my car are closest. VOC sensor shows red which it rarely does. (It has three levels, blue orange and red).

12:44 The man upstairs followed me in the bathroom, flushed the toilet while i was there, now he awoke Angela by squeaking and stomping.

8:00 Still stinking like gasoline at 8 AM on Monday. Much better with the filter next to entrance. I think Angela slept less than 3 hours mostly because of the guys upstairs and works ten hours today. Outside it stopped stinking though the car is still on a jack. Gasoline smell kinda mixed and penetrated carpet and everything and now competing with the old dog poop smell in the apartment.

Just remembered something.

8:57 I decided to dedicate some time to clean and organize. Get rid of old junk, make it more livable. I spent so much time for my blogs lately and neglected everything else.

Made some noodles soup with bone broth added and was about to eat it when a young couple, like they don't have anything else to do with their lives, came like they do every day with two dogs in the yard beyond patio sliding door and the dogs started raising legs and stuff.

10:28 My Elantra has Sirius XM receiver which is a satellite broadcast system and has on the roof a shark fin antenna that can connects to either a satellite, or an LTE tower via the Bluelink and thus probable the most connected car of all brands. It also has a microphone that enable voice commands, phone calls via a bluetooth connected phone etc.. So it is doable for a hacker to make the necessary "adjustments" so everything you talk in the car to be heard or streamed via the internet.

11:34 Solved the mystery where the gas smell was coming from. It was not the Chrysler. They where (i think they still are) a couple of puddles of gasoline at the spot belonging to Apt.1. Though it's odd cause the puddles where pretty far apart.

Took one picture, was thinking to take one more when i come back from my walk. Cut my walk short, came back and saw a cop entering the first entrance in the building C east of the mailboxes.

I had my camera in my hand but i knew a Police car should be nearby so i gave up (don't want to take pictures of those while cops are in mission or in general). However i didn't see any Police vehicle, just a white SUV parked next to the mailboxes but i delayed taking the picture and saw the cop getting into that one. White, unmarked, Interceptor, probably Sheriff. Would have been in the direction where i wanted to take the second one.

1:00 I wasn't only drunk, i was out of my mind. Literally. The smell of gasoline for days, lack of quality sleep, stress, the 2 hour drive in smoke, sometimes weird smoke, a few glasses of wine that i think also had a smoke component from wildfires, hurry to get things done, unidentified unsorted things pressing on my mind.

I think my brain got too old to accommodate all these like a young guy. But i've done things like these since i was a kid. Colossal gaffes usually when the unexpected overwhelms me.

In grade school they used to call me "distracted" but in Romanian it has a slightly different meaning than in English. It means having your mind somewhere else.

I think it is a way to cope with sometimes unbearable stress and trauma. Like when i have to drive 50 miles in smoke and  hostile environment from other drivers though is the boredom that kills me most of the time and then i let my mind fly away which brings me a type of fulfillment (feel good neurotransmitters) that allows me to continue.

I do many other routine things this way. Always thinking of something else because it makes me feel better. But yeah, it can happen this way. You think of something else and that else is right in front of you and you can't recognize it however your subconscious does and carries a bit of a conversation that way, with the weirdest effects.

One of the most traumatic things is having to think hypothetically because it consumes a lot of brain power. Like coming to a different country and not knowing the language and culture and having to take in consideration when talking to somebody every possibility. Internet, learning the many expressions should have made it easier to me but yeah in the end i sort of lost drive, and that is mostly because what i discovered and put in my other blog. Keep asking myself if it's worth it.

But that sort of intellectual effort and hypothetical thinking and constant inquiring could have been the reason i discovered the big switcheroo (in the other blog).

1:13 Yiddish ("jüdisch"), a misterious language that until today i thought it was derived from German. So they did themselves and everybody. But today i don't think so anymore.

If the Indo European theory is true and all European (and Indian) languages derive from a single one which is probably Sanskrit it means all those languages have to have some Sanskrit words in them.

But the weirdest part and due to uniqueness of the situation i can't find another example or model throughout history each derived language has kept a different set of recognizable words from the parent language. Yeah i was talking once on the phone with a linguist and he went a bit sarcastic and told me like yeah, you can't understand this.

Unfortunately i don't know any of the two languages though when i was a kid i heard my grandparents, other people speaking German all the time. Could be this behind the drive for me to learn English which is not so far from German, when i had a chance. Could be neural pathways that were dug in my subconscious at the time. German and Jewish culture still present in Bucovina where i lived until 14.

Here is a sample of an English version of the song next to the Yiddish one and i can see Yiddish is not German.

Ok to make a long story short. I saw one word in the first verse that is Dutch and not German.

10:43 In the meantime, getting busy... Thinking... What is the (big) difference between (being) a p...y and (being) a d...k?

10:55 I was so high i did not realize... BTW are Maroon 5 the embodiment of Jewish losers?

11:30 Is Putin dead? We all know the story of Tamás Bujkó, the Hungarian judo champion 165 cm (5'5") tall who died in London and was stabbed in the face so many times and thrown acid so nobody can recognize him after... Ironically, Bujkó is an Ukrainian name...

12:27 Keep thinking. Why do i get so drunk after drinking only one bottle of wine? Is it i am getting old? But if i drink brandy i don't get so numb. Could it be the sulfites that are used to stabilize wine. Could it had been the gasoline vapor in the last days that BTW stopped. Could it be the sex in the air (shoe dog poops in the night, the real warm colitas in the song) etc.. All of the above. Ok i just did the dishes.

BTW yesterday in that parking lot in Lincoln City, just before i nearly died with apnea... I think they hired a model, one of the very few in existence with perfect a...s presented in spandau pants however a bit too tall to my taste (maybe 6) who was literally twerking at my car's window while pretending loading/unloading arranging stuff in her SUV. No i don't think i would have died happy...

Looking pissed like any model on podium i think they tried to show me how an a...s should look like. However she didn't know how to move it and i didn't even look.

I recently realized none of them do. Then they had left in the WA LPN SUV. Still could not figure out yet. White Shinto or simply Wa Shinto.

October 29

 2:40 Slept 2 + 2 hours and woke at midnight. It smells in here like dog poop but can't find the flashlight. I went outside trying to look for it (there's moonlight and some lamps) but couldn't. Noticed the gasoline smell started yesterday when we left for Spirit Mountain coming from the Chrysler that has flats again and a jack under. Inside (when i came from outside) it smells like smoke. An exhaust purring and more smell came in due to vibration of the door of course.

11:12 I think they brought her at Grocery Outlet in Lincoln City as an employee there and i did not recognize her.

Then while Angela entered the casino (i am banned, remember) i was thinking going for a walk on the beach, however i fell asleep in the parking lot next to Sea Gypsy. Woke up a couple of times with severe apnea, gasping for air, because of the smoke (wind was blowing from inland) and this brings me to a few google questions.

How many people in Oregon heat with wood.

Is prostitution legal in the US?

What is prostitution? "the business or practice of engaging in sexual activity in exchange for payment."

In my opinion making and uploading a porn video means sexual activity in exchange for payment.

The big mystery of course is who is paying them for uploading videos on porn sites. Advertisers they will say, like in the case of google, fb, others. I don't believe it for a minute. Nobody buys stuff after seeing it on google, fb, or porn sites but if advertisers indeed pay for the videos, they enter the category of paying for sex period.

11:40 That was no joke. My car like many others has a two way satellite link. I mean all the hardware is in place, all i need is to subscribe. But can it be hacked so people can hear what i'm talking in the car?

Got a 5 dollars flashlight, picked at the check stand at Grocery Outlet, to help me in searching for poops. However it is very strong. It gives on high setting as much light as a 100 watts equivalent bulb or more. I went outside with it trying to troubleshoot the very low mileage (39) during my way back. Immediately a couple of jet planes flew by at low altitude. Then i got distracted and forgot some tools in my pocket.

Went to pick the poops and when i came back i had the tools inside my right back pocket of the jeans when my upstairs neighbor got in my way and stared briefly at me while i was touching the tools in my pocket thinking to put them in the car. Not that i saw him well, it was too dark.

But i think in this case low mpg has a different cause.

The average power used by a car when cruising, depending on drag coefficient, is about 20 hp or 15 KW and probably at my car is lower than that cause it has a good coefficient.

In winter the car's electric radiator fan isn't working and i bet the heat needed to heat up the cabin, and generally all the systems including the engine translates into using more fuel.

However google begs to differ.

BTW it still stinks like gas from the Chrysler here. Last nigh i used a COVID mask to be able to fall asleep and i didn't sleep well.

12:34 Moved the Winix filter that has 4 activated carbon layers and a VOC sensor next to main door or the other side of the room where it was. Main door is next to parking lot and the Chrysler and my car are closest. VOC sensor shows red which it rarely does. (It has three levels, blue orange and red).

October 28

1:05 Smoke in here is beyond any limit, almost unbearable inside, and i've done everything i could as far as plugging holes. The whole space between buildings is filled with it and it got inside due to vibrations from a distant train. As long as they were noises upstairs it was better but i think they left and the smoke level rose. And i lost my flashlight and can't go outside to see more holes.

8:57 Dacă tu instanță îți declini competența într-o cauză nu mai poți să admiți sau să nu admiți o cerere. Nu mai poți să faci nimic în cauza respectivă. Întrebați orice jurist.

După cum am spus de atâtea ori. Începând din 1999 Tratatul Schengen nu mai există ca tratat separat ci a devenit un protocol, parte integrantă din Tratatul de Aderare al României (împreună cu alte 10 țări) aprobat de Consiliu în unanimitate în 2002 și ratificat de toate țările UE până la 1 ianuarie 2007. Cu alte cuvinte, România a devenit membru Schengen din 2007, cu necesitatea îndeplinirii unor condiții care trebuiau constatate de Comisie, care este partea legislativă.

De aceea așa zis-ul vot al Consiliului pentru aderarea Croației nu a fost un vot legislativ și nu are nici o valoare juridică. Dacă vă uitați în agenda cu votul respectiv veți vedea că a fost programat în secțiunea ne-legislativă a întâlnirii. Nu a modificat cu nimic tratatul de aderare și apartența Croației la Schengen, ci și-a abrogat rolul executiv al Comisiei, constatând îndeplinirea condițiilor care în cazul României erau îndeplinite din 2011.

Nu va mai exista niciodată un vot legislativ în Consilu pentru aderarea României fiindcă acest vot a fost exercitat înainte de semnarea Tratatului în 2003.

Tomac nu trebuia să dea în judecată Consiliul pentru acesta și-a făcut treaba. Trebuia să dea în judecată Comisia pentru ne-aplicarea Protocolului Schengen din Tratatul de Aderare ceea ce înseamnă ne-aplicarea aquisului.

În Noiembrie 2022, după 11 ani de ne-aplicare, Comisia și-a declinat compentența aplicării aquis-ului.

Conform acestui șirag de argumente dintr-o pagină a enormului site sau mai bine zis grupul de site-uri ale UE, tratatul din 2003 care a intrat în forță în 2007 după un lung proces de aprobări și ratificări nu putea fi semnat fără votul unanim al Consiliului care trebuia să fi avut loc cândva înainte de semnare în 2003.

Pe atunci agendele Consiliului arătau altfel, nu aveau o secțiune legislativă și ne-legislativă, care pare o invenție recentă menită să ascundă faptul că nu mai era nevoie de un vot în Consiliu în cazul celor 3 țări restante. În general voturile ne-legislative sunt treaba Comisiei și nu a Consiliului.

Nu găsesc, oricât aș încerca, agenda votului Consiliului care trebuia să fi avut loc înainte de semnare în 2003 însă a avut loc căci semnarea Tatatului nu se putea face fără acesta.

12:36 You the book nerd, can you please buy and read this book. I need to buy it too cause i exhausted all attempts to download it for free, like Bansenshukai, though in paper format you cannot do (fast) searches. Maybe i could buy it and downloaded as ebook, should try this first.

The idea (hypothesis) is there are channels that can be opened between people (such as lovers), maybe one to many, maybe one way only (do not look in the eyes) and i think those channels once open like by seeing a video early in the morning, can be hijacked by a third party.

4:00 I could say more on the subject but don't want to get weirder than this for now and i'd like to share with you something i just found out.

Much of the stuff that's happening to us and may throw our lives out of normal is the bacteria and mold that's living inside the empty spaces in the interior walls and between upstairs floor and your ceiling and that can be relatively easily cured with an ozone generator. Need to find a closet or space where there are cracks or openings that are communicating with that space that is usually all linked together because of pipes passages. One good place to look is the space around pipes under the sink and install it there.

But usually there is some space between the fan box in the bathroom and the ceiling and the fanbox itself may leak when the fan works into the space between ceiling and upstairs floor or attic feeding the space with nutrients like your own dead skin flakes present in house dust. Install the ozone generator in the bathroom and close the door. It would be a bit uncomfortable to go in there i know. Leave it on as much as you can.

Careful cause the ozone even in low concentrations is harmful to eyes and lungs but you usually can feel it after a day or so and adjust time and settings. Ozone is very reactive (oxidizing) and combines with everything, killing mold and bacteria, and neutralizes sulfur dioxide that emanates from drywall panels, etc..

Another way is to use the ozone generator on high settings when you leave the house but will need a timer so it would stop at least one hour before you get back home. Usually in all american homes there is space between floor and the wall where you can stick a finger, around plugs etc.. and the ozone will get inside the walls through that space.

Got this one that also has a negative ion generator and let it run for half day in the bathroom, every few days on ozone mode and continuously rest of the time in the living on ion generator mode.

The negative ion generator puts in the air obviously negative ions LOL that are attracted by the dust that is usually positively charged, making dust particles heavier and fall to the ground where they attach to carpet and stuff and never raise back up except when vacuum cleaning. It is so much better to breath cleaner air and have the dust on the carpet. I think it works better than any filter i tried over the years.

However mine doesn't have a timer for ozone like this one and cannot be shipped to California, i think none of them can because of the... ozone LOL.

Will see first results in about a week. Lower bacterial load especially in your guts will give a break to your still young immune system and brain and your mind will be clearer. But when you get older the stuff will start to permanently infect your organs giving you what doctors call arthritis.

But if you see big spaces around pipes under the sink or around plugs on big appliances or between floor and walls, you should know you are in danger because of insulation dust that may come especially from exterior walls that are filled with mineral insulation (rock wool). Try and stick everything you can like rags in those spaces. Insulation dust is irritant and painful and has weird psychological effects, especially when combined with bacteria and other stuff.

Most of the dust is released upon vibrations from big speakers or modified exhausts outside but also steps upstairs.

One good indication you are dealing with environmental issues like these is stomach pain. Dust is being continuously eliminated from your lungs into your stomach and guts.

Many antidepressants work as pain killers, allergy relief etc. and that could be their only benefit (by dealing with the effects of that dust). That's why you become extremely sleepy and lethargic when you start those or when you get out of that environment like going into a much better built hospital. But that could be your normal that is not exciting anymore.

6:22 It's what o clock in the evening on the west coast and finally figured her face since this morning. It was all youtube suggestions and stuff, nothing intended, sorry if you had a good fun out of it. As i said, ima never gonna fit, even introduced to. Not the sharpest tool talking real time.

Soul love. It crossed my mind earlier before i saw her last post. Actually the real(Alexacrush) translation of the title of the movie from Italian Prendimi l'anima is Catch my Soul. "Schtejt a Bocher"...

12:44 The man upstairs followed me in the bathroom, flushed the toilet while i was there, now he awoke Angela by squeaking and stomping.

8:00 Still stinking like gasoline at 8 AM on Monday. Much better with the filter next to entrance. I think Angela slept less than 3 hours mostly because of the guys upstairs and works ten hours today. Outside it stopped stinking though the car is still on a jack. Gasoline smell kinda mixed and penetrated carpet and everything and now competing with the old dog poop smell in the apartment.

Just remembered something.

8:57 I decided to dedicate some time to clean and organize. Get rid of old junk, make it more livable. I spent so much time for my blogs lately and neglected everything else.

Made some noodle soup with bone broth added and was about to eat it when a young couple, like they don't have anything else to do with their lives, came like they do every day with two dogs in the yard beyond patio sliding door and the dogs started raising legs and stuff.

10:28 My Elantra has Sirius XM receiver which is a satellite broadcast system and has on the roof a shark fin antenna that can connects to either a satellite, or an LTE tower via the Bluelink and thus probable the most connected car of all brands. It also has a microphone that enable voice commands, phone calls via a bluetooth connected phone etc.. So it is doable for a hacker to make the necessary "adjustments" so everything you talk in the car to be heard or streamed via the internet.

11:34 Solved the mystery where the gas smell was coming from. It was not the Chrysler. They where (i think they still are) a couple of puddles of gasoline at the spot belonging to Apt.1. Though it's odd cause the puddles where pretty far apart.

Took one picture, was thinking to take one more when i come back from my walk. Cut my walk short, came back and saw a cop entering the first entrance in the building C east of the mailboxes.

I had my camera in my hand but i knew a Police car should be nearby so i gave up (don't want to take pictures of those while cops are in mission or in general). However i didn't see any Police vehicle, just a white SUV parked next to the mailboxes but i delayed taking the picture and saw the cop getting into that one. White, unmarked, Interceptor, probably Sheriff. Would have been in the direction where i wanted to take the second one.

1:00 I wasn't only drunk, i was out of my mind. Literally. The smell of gasoline for days, lack of quality sleep, stress, the 2 hour drive in smoke, sometimes weird smoke, a few glasses of wine that i think also had a smoke component from wildfires, hurry to get things done, too many unsorted things pressing on my mind.

I think my brain got too old to accommodate all these, like a young guy. But i've done things like these since i was a kid. Colossal gaffes usually when the unexpected overwhelms me.
In grade school they used to call me "distracted" but in Romanian it has a slightly different meaning than in English. It means having your mind somewhere else.

I think it is a way to cope with sometimes unbearable stress and trauma. Like when i have to drive 80 miles in smoke and  hostile environment from other drivers though is the boredom that kills me most of the time and then i let my mind fly away which brings me a type of fulfillment (feel good neurotransmitters) that allow me to continue.

I do many other routine things this way. Always thinking of something else because it makes me feel better. But yeah, it can happen this way. You think of something else and that pops right in front of you and you can't recognize it however your subconscious does and carries a bit of a conversation that way, with the weirdest effects.

One of the most traumatic things is having to think hypothetically because it consumes a lot of brain power. Like coming to a different country and not knowing the language and culture and having to take in consideration when talking to somebody every possibility. Internet, learning the many expressions should have made it easier to me but in the end i sort of lost drive, and that is mostly because what i discovered and put in my other blog. Keep asking myself if it's worth it. And then the prize unexpected refreshment.

But that sort of intellectual effort and hypothetical thinking and constant inquiring could have been the reason i discovered the big switcheroo (see the other blog).

1:13 Yiddish ("jüdisch"), a misterious language that until today i thought it was derived from German. So they did themselves and everybody. But today i don't think so anymore.

If the Indo European theory is true and all European (and Indian) languages derive from a single one which is probably Sanskrit it means all those languages have to have some Sanskrit words in them.

But the weirdest part and due to uniqueness of the situation i can't find another example or model throughout history, each derived language kept a different set of recognizable words from it. Yeah i was talking once on the phone with a linguist and he went a bit sarcastic and told me like yeah, you can't understand this.

So here is a major difference between German and Yiddish. Right in the first verse of the folk song.

Unfortunately i don't know any of the two languages though when i was a kid i heard my grandparents, other people speaking German all the time. Could be this behind the drive for me to learn English which is not so far from German, when i had a chance. Could be neural pathways that were dug in my subconscious at the time that helped me with learning it. German and Jewish culture still present in Bucovina where i lived until 14.

However i can recognize some words and phrases, and from a few searches i realized Yiddish is not a very  "cared for" languages, with several types of Latin transliteration. But here is a sample of an English version of the song next to the Yiddish one and i can see Yiddish is not German.

October 16

1:00 Every day for us something new...

(keep wondering what the tall guy has down under).

7:50 Altruism and egoism are inseparable. Every time one does something for the benefit of others expects or at least hopes something in return, it is like an investment.

8:25 Last Thursday someone filled the garbage bin across the alley with furniture right after they picked the garbage, and people put all the garbage bags on the ground. There are 3 more bins around which are usually empty, "people" prefer to use this one.

There are for a few weeks now 2 couch pillows on the balcony accros that are wet from rain, left after the "Latino" kids played outside. When it's sunny, they put them one on top of the other so they won't possibly dry.

There are three wheels of the Chrysler and one black BMW with four flat tires in the spot where the Chrysler with four flat tires used to be, possibly a semantic reaction to this.

I started the ozone but garbage and mold smell coming from outside is stronger and soon my eyes will hurt and won't be able to do more matches and i'm nauseated anyways.

I think someone from upstairs left for the airport at 7 and now the ride is back and started the work on the floor.

10:05 Yes i think it is possible.

5:15 Kaiser Permanente. BTW, the US is the sole country among top 11 civilized countries without universal health insurance. While private health insurances like Kaiser Permanente thrive in the US, you won't see them competing with state insurances in those countries. Wondering why.

How much a dr. visit cost in France, how many people are insured through state.

5:42 On a hunch today i started to search for a woman in the list with Japanese actors, couldn't find her yet but i ran into many other interesting things. BTW. Jucika, Pal Pusztai in 1957 communist Hungary.