10:00 AM Today Freud is largely dismissed in western psychiatry.
He was was replaced with what i call "bottle psychiatrists" which comes from the little orange (in the US) bottles with prescription pills which is a glorious recognition of failure of any philosophy or generally science in the way too complex field of "psychiatry" still seen today as a collection of socially disconnecting disorders while it probably should be a mixture of advanced neurology and IT.
However, Freud had his major contribution to the field. Much of his work which derives from a vast clinical experience centered on empathy of which observations resulted in revealing the role of associations in memorizing (processes) and his major, forever contribution is the term "transference" which goes beyond the therapist-parent transference observed and documented by him today mostly downplayed probably because of its great strategic value in today's media wars.
10:30 Modern psychiatry started maybe with the introduction, before Freud, of the term schizophrenia, an attempt to conceptualize in one term a broad spectrum of symptoms which today it seems an obvious attempt to reconcile the continuing shift from a normal operating mind to a psychotic one a and back in the same patient.
Psychosis being an altered state of mind operating when protections within the brain try to disconnect it from immediate, extremely traumatic to the patient reality.
The problems begin when the patient can't recognized the psychotic trips, trying to "rationalize them" or integrate them into their lives and decision making processes, which may lead to need of isolation or institutionalization.
While the term itself is a very unhappy marriage of two Greek words which basically mean "split mind", that sounds bad in most languages, the diagnosis becoming a social stigma, the term itself is part of a naive early attempt to categorize mental diseases, though if not for lack of better ideas or advancements is still largely used and recognized today in mainstream in clinical diagnosis and treatment.
As with any vague concept used this time for diagnosing patients, it leaves wide open gates to abuse while modern "medications", discovered as stated above, by chance, do the job of psychosis in schizophrenia and that is partly disconnecting the patient from reality and/or sensorial input, though in a more "controlled" way.
However there may not be other way out for many patients, since their permanent psychological trauma arise from social and financial problems.
However it is way better now than in the past, when such patients were often mistreated and mutilated like performing lobotomies, while electric shock "therapy" (under anesthesia) is still being performed as "treatment".
11:00 AM The shutdown vacation ended which means the not so beautiful ugly bill that raises US debt limit for the second time (the reason for the shutdown, remember) this year must have passed. Anybody by chance knows from news, without googles searches what the amount was? Thinking... Breaking it in two, they made it easier to swallow...
All i remember from news this week was Marjorie Green scandal. BTW Anybody can tell me why was she acting as a bartender at Chinook Winds (where i was tempted, long story) last night, many other nights before that... ().
BTW i think this woman was following me throughout the Casino for at least one hour last night. Tired, was sitting next to Angela, watching the screen and beyond the screen her face would pop up in my line of sight (old trick). A little intrigued, a little burned-out. Was it just because i discovered this song in my database last night in the parking lot and BTW after 2000 the top 100 hundreds list contains mostly soul music i am not familiar with.
And Angela works in a noisy environment and does not hear well at the end of the week so i had to yell at her and was also mad for (a) different may reasons and all the people around us were quick
with turning heads and then the episode with that weirdo at the door last night.
11:20 How about Ludacris, Splash Waterfalls. And yes, Gwen Stefani ruled those years.
And yeah she was a Harajuku Girl since... No Doubt about it.
3:18 I was curious about the etymology of dystopian applied mostly to movies, (with a more less known variant, dystopic).
3:21 Earlier i was thinking. I'm not gonna write anymore about every little thing that's happening to me though are symptomatic But now i have no other choice.
This morning i did the poops. After, i started to do some leaves. While carrying the leaves i ran into people. They produce people in my way any way i move. At the dumpster with the leaves. Then i found 2 more poops while carrying the leaves.
It was kinda awkward as the woman at 4 was like dominating the whole yard, yelling on the phone, throwing tantrums, 9+jumping, cursing. The mystery woman showed as well. Can't remember everything because so many things happened since. But generally, from my point of view is like i am on a stage with a script written on the fly. I move this, they do that.
Then i got in to get some breakfast but was engrossed by the last poops i found. Helped Angela with cooking. Went to bottle drop, Fred Myer ad the liquor store. And the Amazon locker. Got something like a stick with two slots for and SD and microSD card.
Very similar to an old USB stick but it's got USBC connector at one end and you can stick it into the phone and the SD cards are removable. Very cool cause i can transfer easily the pictures from phone to PC.
Yeah this one's even better but i didn't know about. Mine is good but you need the cards. And for the camera, doesn't have an USB port so i can read the pictures from the card. You can do it with share or you can do it with goggle files app.
I saw them entering Fred Meyer in the same time with me. It was like seeing extras in a movie acting by ear prompter instructions. All seem not familiar (awkward) with the clothes they were wearing.
There was another place with 6 or 8 self check stands different from the grocery ones. I stepped in that space, that was not closed as enclosure and saw all the stands were closed and then i heard on the speaker some announcement with the word Security at the end.
Saw a car, Chevrolet Guzman and thought. Could not have been inspired by... Chevrolet logo is some sort of cross, right?
3:50 BTW i remembered something from Chinook Winds yesterday. Got into the elevator to go to the sky bridge (yeah, also when i curse the Japanese in my mind they pump a modified exhaust), They were a couple there, she was counting hundreds (for the camera), they pressed on the S button which is between C (casino) and B (bridge), i don't know what S is, never saw anybody stopping there.
I did not want to complicate the situation which i actually did by not pressing any button. The elevator stopped, they got out, i pressed on B but the LED would not come on. I kept pressing, the elevator went to the casino floor (C), two guys got in and we all went together to the bridge and then the parking lot.
I got back from Fred Meyer, locker, bottledrop and liquor store. Bottle drop is a place where you can take sacks of soda an beer cans for recycling, after applying a label without needing to count them. The only thing is you have to rinse them otherwise they will stink in the sack until you take there. No big deal.
Soon after i started to do leaves again (yes they were ignoring our leaves). Yesterday the build an allegory instead of removing leaves from the ground. Me and Angela were coming from what, Walmart, they were blowing on our alley and i tried to go around and at some point got blocked by piles or leaves, started to back up and i saw 4 of them blowers, with those motors in their back, where advancing, in line, like chasing us, looking like the teenage turtles ninja combined with ghost busters, 4 symbolizing a cross, actually. Should have seen them, but i did not have the phone ready.
Would have done it for a longtime though it was drizzling and got all wet at 56 degrees (13 Celsius).
However last time when i went to take the sack with leaves, a guy passed by and dropped his phone on the asphalt and then he bent to pick it. I looked for mine and saw i don't have it and wanted to go inside to see where it's at. But then i saw a maintenance cart next to building and did not feel like continuing.
Got inside, threw all my clothes and then i looked and saw the guy with the phone coming my way, smiling, using the corridor i made at the right of the yard, as i did it for that purpose. The guys upstairs then left. The reasons i had to write all these. That guy with the phone did not come here. Nobody ever comes here, they all just pass.
Changed clothes, ate what Angela made, but lost momentum with the leaves, after i soaked two rows of clothes, one in the morning, one after noon.
Check the Big Pimpin lyrics to figure his state of mind.
This is bad news. Shaivism is thousands of years older than Buddhism.
9:47 Marylin Monoroe, Robert F Kennedy autopsydoctor. Coroner to the stars. If this picture was dated right (or not done after the war using parts from that factory) she would have been 13 or 14. Still in the realm of possible.
9:50 PM How do you worship Shiva. A bath, a Shiva Linga, sandalwood, bilva leaves, milk and honey and say "Om Namah Shivaya" 108 times.
Shiva is the Hindu Trinity's god of destruction, but his wife, Parvati, in the form of Kali started to destroy everything and could not be stopped until Shiva layed down and Kali stepped on him.
10:45 Novody knows except maybe for painter Jacques-Louis David where the "Roman" who later became Hitler's salute comes from. But do you see a trinity there...
One early "low" version was used by Hitler before he came to power and after.
Since there is no explantions for both version, i propose it may come from Shiva, the lord of destruction.
No i don't believe Germans were woshiping Shiva through Hitler beacause they had no idea though he could have been an incarnation. It was rather unconscious submission.
9:30 Suntem pregătiți? În fiecare an în Parlamentul României se votează două legi ale bugetului. Una este pentru Bugetul de Stat, care cuprinde ministerele și alți "ordonatori de credit" mai mici din care Ministerul Muncii are prevăzut un buget de 96 de miliarde anul acesta și 82 anul trecut. Celălalt buget este cel al Asigurărilor Sociale, pensiile, care are prevăzut 155 miliarde anul acesta. Pensiile pentru oamenii de rând adică.
Pe pagina 33 din bugetul Ministerului Muncii (un ordonator de credit din Legea Bugetului de Stat, deci nu de Asigurări Sociale) din Anexa 3 la Legea Bugetului de Stat sunt prevăzute 20 de miliarde cu titlul Pensii și ajutoare de bătrânețe. Ce sunt acelea decât pensiile speciale?
S-a vorbit mult pe tema asta în presă, până în momentul când am început să arăt cu degetul sumele respective, după care toată lumea a început să tacă.
10:20 Last night i made an audio note on my recorder to myself saying i will research more on the silk road subject. Mainly interested in settlements and advanced posts of the (ancient) Chinese to the edges of Europe and beyond.
Interested to prove if they could have had an outpost at the edge of Roman Empire near the occupied part of Dacia with its reach gold mines, in today's Romania, more precise Bacău and Roman counties where there is to this day there is a culturally distinct "Changu" population (pronounced changu) claimed by Hungarians who speak a language different than Hungarian or Magyar how they call it.
After all, it is only hundreds of miles away from Constantinopole.
What i found so far. The Chinese, at least once sent an envoy to Rome. Interestingly, the Chinese called Rome Daqin, which reminds of Dacia but this can be a true coincidence, as they called the Ionian Greeks Dayuan.
So far there is clear evidence they had settlements built especially for the silk road in the Tarim basin. This way, the distance to Rome suddenly does not seem so great anymore.
In a way, this was true. To this day silk is obtained by feeding leaves of the mulberry tree to the silk larvae. But i could be a myth.
Byzantine (Fu-Lin) embassies in southern China... Spy monks, secret uncovered. However, before the end of 7th century...
But the numbers of the remaining Changu population in today's Romania seem to be too great for an outpost. Could it had been an establishment and they were actually producing silk there? That lost its revenue after 7th century?
This coincide with the beginning of Magyar raids in Europe that lasted until the Holy Roman Empire granted them the territory of Pannonia region, which became what today is known as Hungary, with the capital then called Buda. Magyars could be Buddhist Magars from Nepal who were mercenaries hired to guard the silk producing Chinese population there.
Here is one of the Changu most known folk songs. It is about a yellow snake. Sárig.
12:45 AM According to the diagram and formula of relativistic speed, there is not a clear point of when a speed becomes relativistic or when a virtual particle comes into existence.
The relativistic mass of an electron "falling" to a lower energy level basically begins when the electron starts to be accelerated.
Thing is, due to rotation of an electron around a central charge, the initial and final fall speed are different than zero, on the direction of the fall and they continue to rotate around the charge before and after the fall, thus creating some infinitesimal initial or residual void reactions and those follow the photon in its path and could count for the losses as they may interfere with others, effectively tangling the void, creating the AEther.
Because of this, the process of transfer of energy from one virtual particle to another within the photon is not 100% efficient. This may count for loss of energy during this transfer and the red shifting of distant sources of light. Where does that energy go? possibly in the void?
In fact if i think i realize that even if a photon is not emitted, the orbiting electrons may create signatures in the void which may slow their rotation, possibly falling to a lower energy level from where some other electron is kicked back after acquiring some energy that in the end could come from thermal agitation.
This could be the reason of decaying of some particles or assembles of particles depending on configurations.
9:08 De ce instituțiile de sondaj nu i-au dat lui Georgescu nici o șansă în turul I? Cum a fost posibil ca un candidat de care nu a auzit nimeni, nici măcar eu care urmăresc politica din România mai tot timpul, fiind clasat de sondaje pe locul 6 să iasă pe primul loc?
9:35 According to my theory (Dynamic Strings), AEther is not a medium of propagation for light but a tangle of infinitesimal electrical and gravitational disturbances, filling the void, opposing the motion of anything, possibly causing the limitation to speed of light, red shift of distance sources and "spontaneous" "probabilistic" decaying of particles and elements. Could this be the hypothetical dark matter.
Yes according to this, the "ordinary matter" (or energy whatever) is constantly leaking into dark matter, which in turn it is leaking into something else, but at a much slower rate.
Also the void creates the AEther as a sort of memory for everything that has ever moved in this Universe.
But don't worry, everything, matter, dark matter is cleaned by the black holes, the vacuum cleaners of the Universe. However it will be a long time until all black holes will merge into a single one, and all the disturbances will melt back into the void.
9:40 Within the post with my theory of everything there is a statement saying that strings may swell with motion, especially at relativistic speeds, by accumulating energy. Now imagine an electron, which we now know is a circular closed string made of a negative virtual particle and a graviton chasing each other being accelerated while "falling" to a lower energy level.
Its virtual particle trajectory (and that of the accompanying graviton0 will look pretty much like this, right? So the virtual particle of positive sign generated by the void that continues to replicate self into a negative one etc..
Which may finally explain the 4 laurel leaves of Grinell College Seal most likely symbolically representing a photon. So it's just a bit more complicated that my minimalist representation linked on the right but it may account for the pair production.
11:12 Which may also count for one of the symbols seen on masonic aprons called the behive (here, 42).
It stand for industry and it may also represent a silk cocoon or a lotus petal. However there are many symbols on this apron that may symbolically represent light, like the 4 pillars, the main masonic sign, square and compass, sprig leaves etc.. Too bad we cannot see in the image all the explanations.
2:40 A charged virtual particle on a circular (or helicoidal) trajectory will create a copy of itself, moving in a plane at 90 degrees, of an opposite charge. Pretty much like in this image. Question. How the illustrator knew?
12:50 AM This guy also looks like a colleague from IMU, APT (Atelierul de Proiectare Tehnologică, Technological Design Dept). Mihai something. He probably just went back to Hungary.
In 1986 when i finished college, i had a "government repartition", (like all graduates) at IMU Bacău, because Angela was also in Bacău and i had Bacău residency on my ID card.
But when i went in there, right after, trouble. They did not want to hire me, because "it was too early". Should go in a vacation something, come back in a month. So i got mad and went to Ovidiu, knowing his father was a colonel in Securitate. However, it was what today are Jandarmeria, the equivalent of maybe SWAT in the US. Not the infamous repressive Securitate, or the State Police. Whatever. Maybe it was.
But doing so i got Ovidiu in trouble, cause he was already heading to one of then affordable for everyone Black Sea resorts and his father told him he should to the same as me. Start working. I told his father i would do the same if i was him whatever. That was really awkward. He told me to go back the next day.
The next day i got to talk to the Chief Engineer of the whole Design Department. He asked me, "generously", with a grim on his face, which department i want to work in, and i said, right away, Design, cause i had this experience with the newer computers and some CAD (Computer Aided Design) exposure during my last year in college.
I believe at the time they had 600 engineers and sub engineers in the Design department alone, mostly not doing nothing (no new products, not much need for design).
(No i never been friends with Ovidiu. He was the type... A bit shy, a bit jerk acting towards me like i was stupid or something. Not the kind would carry a long conversation. (Actually, i was pretty awkward, socially, ignoring too many things, a nerd some could say, but now they all respected me because of my computer skills and my position).
I remember when Ioana told us...
It all happened during those crazy days when all the guys in design were taken for a month or so in fall to help gathering the corn from fields. Belonging to the cooperatives as they were called. Manually. Not enough work force or machines at the cooperatives, corn would have been left on fields. Maybe a lesson for us all in the great Machine Tools company.
With sometimes beer at the end of the day at the restaurant at the end of the corn field. With outdoor tables.
One day (later, in a different place, near the airport). Me and Ovidiu were arguing about the concept of up and down in space and she intervened between us and said we should stop fighting. "You should be friends". I believe we looked perplexed at each other and started to laugh. For different reasons though.
And yes we went both to a party with her. Or was that a different guy. No, it was him and another guy Three guys, with the host, 4, two girls, one was picked by husband and i left early. After dancing with her on my shoulders though).
Once i got hired, i started to persuade my boss to create a CAD group. Some other people heard about.
All the machine tools companies in Romania (15 in total i believe, with thousands of personnel each, way too many for our needs) were subordinated to one so called Central of Machine Tools Industry or something.
Over there, there was this guy who had been given this task, implement CAD, so i got to work with him. Buy a mini computer, terminals, find a place in the main office building, things like that, select people which took me a couple of years. The IT department started a war with me, wanted us to become their subordinate.
Because they had an old computer, many people, and mostly because they did not want me to interfere with design and especially time allocated for each product, because... it all comes down to corruption, big bribe money for paying fictitious overtime for thousands of people.
Trouble is, the guy at the Central as i figured recently (last few years) was looking a lot like this guy, while my second boss at IMU (after we the CAD group have been moved to a different department), Preparation of Fabrication, was looking like this one.
I remember when i talked the first time with the Central guy after the Revolution (and last time i saw him). I was excited and stuff and he told me he saw too many of them revolutions. 4 i believe he said.
It was late 89 when i finished a software for generating the so called "technological files" that included the part for time allocation ("the norms") for each operation for a certain part. That meant workmanship. Pay. That day my boss talked to me on a corridor so no one can see and hear and told me to forget about.
Soon after (early 90) i quit and went to work with Angela and do accounting and payroll software because i knew there was no future in that company. They were too many in Romania, with too many people hired and outdated technology. Over there, my boss looked like...
Much better, i recon (how many parties, New Years, etc.). The Chief Financial Officer (contabil șef) looked like... In the IT department, my boss' right hand was...
But when i think today, i believe it was not that bad, the technological state of IMU. However, too many people were against me there. Others were hunting my position (though we haven't done much, with that project canceled) and without the guy from Bucharest i would have been lost soon.
Finding out all these clarified anything to me? At some point i still don't understand why, and especially why me? I believe it all started in college. They wanted me to familiarize with computers. Maye they did not know how the future might look like, but they knew it will be all based on computers. Look at the internet now.
So they wanted me to be able to use a computer and tell all these stories now. Even if i use only a fraction of what i learned, i mean editing a blog post, uploading a picture, do searches?
2:40 I remember that day when we both (me and Ioana) ran away from the corn field, maybe an hour or two earlier. Stopped by a creek and washed our hands, belies and stuff (we were full of dust from hugging piles of dry corn stalks). Went at a table at the restaurant and ordered beer. It was a beautiful September evening i guess. That restaurant was also at the end of a city bus line.
Next day she showed me her belly and i showed her mine. It was full of blisters and stuff. I remembered and told her. That creek in the middle of the corn field smelled funny. Not convincing... I believe next time i saw her she was with a guy even taller than me.
3:00 If anybody is still guessing why i'm up all night? Simple, because it's so much more quiet... Few cars with loud exhaust, no traffic on the nearby freeway, no stepping upstairs. Too nice, i just can't give in to sleeping. Also, still mad about the last walk on the ceiling last night. Mad about the smell. Mad about lots of things.
3:30 I remember we did not have an outside line on the phones. I mean you could make an outside call, but talk first with the company's operator, and she would try the number and put you through. Buy the inter-city lines were clogged. You could wait hours.
When i was in a hurry, i went, like other people, in the Chief Engineer waiting room and ask for a favor to one of his secretaries. Cause he had two.
One was young and cute as hell, the wife of engineer Ionescu, Head of Tools Production Department (who looked a bit like King Charles, when young, with a moustache), could just not get enough to look at her (mostly with my peripheral view, not to get noticed, but i remember, she had dark brown sleepy eyes) and the other old and ugly as hell, and i think she could have been... (link below).
Once there and gotten her approval, i would dial the number once, twice, 20 times. The key was not to hurry, to give some time to those electro-mechanical switches in those ancient centrals to move around between numbers... If i was lucky, i could have made my call within half hour.
One day i went in there right after Ioana and the secretary kept wiping the phone with alcohol after her and i believe it was a message to my subconscious, to stay away from Ioana... which BTW it worked.
3:50 Sunt cel puțin 2 feluri diferite de a te îneca cu mâncare... Spun pentru că le știu bine pe fiecare. Unul este disfagia. Mâncarea se oprește în esofag, nu mai coboară în stomac.
Cauza este un esofag iritat și dureros, ceea ce blochează mișcarea peristaltică care împinge mâncarea în stomac, combinată cu un stomac și intestin plin de gaze. Poate fi combinată cu aerofagie (înghițirea de aer), care este compresibil și "amortizează" acea mișcare de împingere în jos.
E foarte nașpa. Adică, încercați să vă imaginați. Mâncarea începe se circule în sus și în jos în esofag. Se aud zgomote ca și cum îți ghiorăie mațele. Dacă încerci să bei ceva, devine foarte dureros.
Eu odată am stat la urgențe 4 ore în starea asta, și m-au trimis așa acasă și eram foarte obosit și m-am culcat și dimineață m-am trezit ok. Se golise. Esofagul.
Am avut chestia de zeci de ori. Prima dată în 2012 cu măr nemestecat bine pe o plajă plină cu mii de turiști care coborâseră de pe o navă de croazieră, la Astoria, Oregon. Da, eram stresat de niște eșapamente și niște tipi cu detectoare de metal. O japoneză cu rucsac s-a uitat foarte foarte urât la mine chiar înainte de a mânca.
Orez uscat cu ardei iuți la un bar chinezesc la Spirit Mountain sau Thunder Valley Casino. Condusesem sute de mile când am ajuns acolo. Eram stresat și obosit. Orezul ăla stătuse acolo sub un reflector o zi întreagă cred. Am reușit să vomit în parcare.
Cel mai recent, azi. Dimineață. Am mâncat (molfăit) carne de vită cam uscată. Dar a trecut de la sine. Dureros, am simțit mâncarea coborând în stomac. Se întâmplă doar la primele înghițituri. După ce aciditatea din esofag s-a neutralizat cu mâncare, am mâncat ok.
Am înțeles de pe site-uri că poți face atac de inimă de la un asemenea episod. Mai ales dacă nu știi ce se întâmplă și panichezi. Practic, și o spun din foarte multe experiențe, în afară de senzația foarte nașpa, nu e nici un pericol imediat. Da, bine, îți poate crește tensiunea foarte mult, mai ales prin efect psihologic, iar dacă ai ceva cu inima...
Există un remediu, descoperit recent de mine. Faci o soluție foarte concentrată (saturată) de bicarbonat în apă, adică un sfert de pahar de praf și un sfert apă și iei o mică înghițitură. Asta ar trebui să neutralizeze acidul din esofag, fără a-l umple mai tare. Dispare durerea, mișcarea peristaltică funcționează iar.
A și încă un remediu. Două degete presărate cu sare, în fundul gurii. Însă mie îmi este greu să vomit, cred că sunt sub influență de botulinum mai tot timpul. A și este foarte greu să vomiți conținutul esofagului. Ai nevoie de o mișcare peristaltică, nu de presiune prin contractarea stomacului. Este alt tip de vomitat, dar se poate.
Preventiv. Dacă simți că ai acid în esofag (jigăraie) bea câteva înghițituri de apă cu bicarbonat sau simplu apă dacă nu ai bicarbonat, ca să se spele esofagul de acid înainte de a mânca ceva solid.
De asemenea poți să faci atac de inimă, dacă ai inima slabă, sau poți să te îneci, așa cum am pățit eu ultima dată, acum câteva zile, când mai eram și beat și am vomitat. Am fost foarte, foarte aproape.
Deci. Esofag iritat (jigăraie), mâncare uscată și condimentată. Gaze în stomac.
Al doilea tip este refluxul gastric. Se întâmplă numai în somn. Te trezești cu căile respiratorii blocate de mâncare ridicată din stomac. Se întâmplă fiindcă mănânci seara prea mult combinat cu gaze în stomac și intestin. Dacă nu reușești să respiri timp de un minut, normal faci atac de inimă. Stop cardiac. Whatever.
Deci în ambele cazuri diagnosticul poate fi atac de inimă, dacă doctorul care face autopsia omite să spună ca a găsit ceva în esofag sau pe căile respiratorii.
Remediu. Nu te culca cu stomacul plin și capul prea jos. Încarcă să scapi de gazele intestinale de cu seară. Nu mânca fasole seara.
Și într-un caz și în altul suspectez, pe deasupra, vrăji. Aplecatul înainte, cu fundul spre tine, mai ales când ești obosit și stresat. Declanșează un reflex care blochează eliminarea gazelor și în același timp crește aciditatea în esofag, prin stres. Efectul vrăjii durează ore sau până a doua zi.
Faza de la Spirit Mountain. 19 mai 2018. Un tip mătura pe lângă mese și se apleca mereu. Pe atunci nu știam chestia cu aplecatul. Am condus 2 ore până acasă așa. Am vomitat când am ajuns. Orez.
4:30 Atenție la condițiile de mediu. Poate aveți mucegai pe undeva și nu știți. Praf, dacă locuiți lângă un drum sau ați zugrăvit neprofesionist. Sunt o mulțime de situații în mediu care pot conduce la așa ceva. Un cuptor de aragaz sau chiar suprafață, murdar tot timpul. Da știu e greu de curățat.
Un frigider cu radiator ascuns dedesubt, plin de praf. Eu personal nu mai cred în ADD, toate tâmpeniile și nici măcar în anxietate. Este întotdeauna ceva legat de mediu, ceva ignorat de mult timp. O infecție dentară în stare latentă, cronicizată.
Chestia cu cuptorul de la aragaz. Am uitat chiar în seara asta două tăvi de pizza pe afară și mă simțeam anxios dar nu știam de la ce. În cuptor este bine să puneți o farfurie două întinse cu praf de bicarbonat care să absoarbă mirosul la sursă.
5:25 One more story with Ovidiu before Angela leaves and i go to sleep. Only to be awakened at 8 by those guys with the stairs... Don't know how i will survive the next couple of days, with all the health problems and stuff...
So i met with him at Casa Armatei (Army Club) in Bacău, was opened for everyone, not far from where i lived on Energiei St., drinking beer of course. And he told me a story heard from his colonel father from Securitate.
Those live shows with Păunescu. Poetry and folk music. One night, there was a power outage, and dozens of youth died during a stampede... Then Ceaușescu pulled the plug on him.
What else was happening. At some time during every show, Păunescu would ask the Police, Securitate, whatever, to leave the stadium or hall. And the next day the Police (Miliția how it was called) would find plenty of girls' panties in the last rows...
9:50 Slept about one hour or less. At around 8:30 they started outside with the power tools.
Asta indică faptul verificat de mulți ani că pompele de căldură furnizează mai multă energie decât consumă. După cum se precizează în articol, ele de fapt nu furnizează energie, ci mută energie dintr-o zonă a spațiului în alta.
De aceea se și numesc pompe de căldură. Aparatul de aer condiționat, frigiderul sunt tot pompe de căldură, iar ce numim astăzi pompe de căldură sunt de fapt aparate de aer condiționat inversate (cu radiatorul cald înăuntru). De fapt, sunt reversibile din construcție putând funcționa în ambele feluri, în funcție de anotimp.
Eu cred că ele pot fi folosite la construirea unui perpetuum mobile (da, de speța a II-a).
O pompă de căldură, cu un radiator cald și unul rece are total un transfer de energie cald-rece sau rece cald de până la 4 ori mai mare decât energia consumată.
Într-un proces spontan, energia se transferă întotdeauna de la cald la rece, cu creșterea entropiei. Într-o pompă de căldură, construită de ființe inteligente, energia se poate transfera de la rece la cald (răcind și mai mult partea rece, încălzind și mai mult partea caldă), deci cu scăderea entropiei.
Dacă putem capta această energie pentru a mișca un generator electric, s-ar putea obține de aproape 4 ori mai multă energie decât se consumă. Asta se poate face într-un sistem închis cu un motor Stirling, care funcționează cu o sursă rece și una caldă și are o eficiență de până la 45%, deci o astfel de instalație ar furniza un surplus de energie gratuită.
Bine, asta doar pentru a demonstra viabilitatea ideii. Cred că se pot imagina astfel de dispozitive mai simple și mai compacte.
Toate acesta au fost prevăzute într-un articol publicat în 1929 de savantul evreo-maghiar Leo Szilard, "Despre reducerea entropiei în sisteme termodinamice prin intervenția ființelor inteligente". Nu știu exact luna în care a fost publicat articolul, dar e posibil să fie înainte de declanșarea marii crize economice din 1929.
Este ciudată denumirea dată de Maxwell acelei ființe inteligente care separă moleculele calde și cele reci din experimentul său mental numit "Demonul lui Maxwell".
Noi toți am auzit de Maxwell din școala generală de la fizică. Transformarea energiei potențiale în cinetică și invers. Pendulul lui Maxwell.
Această denumire creează o barieră psihologică (de repulsie) pentru oricine aude. Și totuși, pe acest principiu de bazează funcționarea frigiderelor și dispozitivelor de aer condiționat, așa cum le știm de decenii. Rolul demonului lui Maxwell (poartă termică unidirecțională, diodă termică) în pompe de căldură îl preia suprafața de separare lichid-gaz.
În electronică, rolul demonului lui Maxell este preluat de diode care pot rectifica curentul alternativ și regulariza sensul de transport al energiei. Cred că este evident pentru oricine că electronii dintr-un circuit de curent alternativ au mai multă entropie decât cei dintr-un circuit de curent continuu (care circulă într-un singur sens). Posibile, yet not.
Aceste idei și discuții au fost suprimate timp de o sută de ani fiindcă ținta sau țelul actualei conduceri din vârful ordinii mondiale practic dorește distrugerea planetei prin încălzirea ei, pentru a îndeplini o profeție a lui Buda și pentru, conform credinței și filosofiei proprii, a închide ciclul tuturor reîncarnărilor (Nirvana pentru toți).
În continuare o demonizare a numelui Maxwell este făcută într-o melodie Beatles, ce re-prezintă un pata fizician în devenire (nerd) care acționează ca un ucigaș în serie (serial killer).
7:50 Zeroing in on Beatles. From cold to colder. In this song her stands for heroin, right?
Hey dude, refrain... Nothing else could heal your pain... Now go drink some water go and get her. It will only cost you six pence an arm and a leg.
7:05 Ok one more well motivated push (from behind). It looks like i got here the role of saying what everybody thinks but don't wanna say.
If Biden helped (so much) Ukraine then why the red suit and the Republican color if Trump is a putinist? A literally last minute push to save democrats from total humiliation annihilation?
Cause i can't possibly imagine Kabala plotted to oust Biden and kill Trump (whichever came first), especially because i know both attempts were fake(d). Or Biden retired so Kamala alone could be blamed for it. Or Biden retired claiming exhaustion so everybody would not think it was him period.
Nothing happened but with drama queen Trump it's always stormis in a cup of water.
1100 Trying to gain momentum here to start a long entry, thinking maybe it should be a whole post while upstairs the woman is hitting the floor, making more love dust to fall. Which is litter dust from the cats that inevitably falls through tiny cracks here no matter what. And the cats may have toxoplasmosis which means parasites that produce dopamine, lodge in your brain and trigger unwanted sexual desires.
The history is repeating because people have forgotten how this happened previously, last time with the two Ladies of December. It's a cycle. Thing is i actually forgot myself and had to be reminded.
Ok so i'm gonna start with a definition i had an intuition about and just found the standardized form on the web.
Transference in psychology is a transfer of feelings you have for one person onto another. Some say love at first sight is actually transference. It may be all loves in your life are just transfers from one person to another, or they could all instantiations of the same psychological process some call love that is based on primary instincts (nothing to do with the movie).
I mean i could sit here and speculate all night long with no aim or end in sight. But i have a purpose.
Believe it or not, some are using it to their own advantage. Only trouble is i cannot figure if they really know and apply psychology which BTW is in its infancy in this area, which would require an unprecedent sophistication, or they just use mnemonics, like those found in Bansenshukai or some love book written by French 19th century modern writers. Or maybe simply ancient witchcraft. Or one of General Tzu's stratagems.
So what they do. They, through their almost unlimited means and powers produce an attractive woman in your proximity or virtual places (nothing to do with virtue) you go about on the web from time to time until you get it bad. No matter the cost, like in this case, derailing lives, displacing a whole family from Hungary.
Parasites, psychoactive smokes, things like that would help.
And then after you become obsessed with that person they can use it in many ways and one of them is transference. Before that, she was simply here, under a different look (for my eyes only), meeting with me every day, posing as my daughter and... lover?
So you go outside, meet with the person (for the first time though she was here all the time), she lights up her face and then she leaves abruptly and initiate a conversation with a different person. In the meantime, another woman shows. In their barbaric imagination, a transference should have occurred.
But how could possibly transfer feelings from one person you've been in contact for 4 years online you were happy you just met in person, who is kind and fragile and cute to another one that is big and heavy and steps on your ceiling all day long releasing litter dust?
I mean, there should be at least some things in common. I can tell you because it is not the first time they've done it to me.
I remember back at IMU there was this divorced woman that was my subordinate who was cute and everything, and she started to wear clothes like Angela and one day she took me home.
But nothing happened because i was more enamored with the work i was doing than anything else and being married, i did not practice abstinence and isolation like i am for 20 years now. I knew if i touched her i could have said goodbye to the position i was holding. I also had clues cause at times i could read the disgust on her face.
Many other times including once with that actress from Star Wars, who came at my mother pretending she was a poor girl, while i was there. One colleague in HS, again petite and fragile who jumped at my neck at the public Olympic pool in Iași, days before vacation (she broke with me right after vacation, never saw her again). Pat Benatar in the train towards home for vacation from HS etc. etc..
You can imagine towards whom the transference was aimed at.
In a more popular language, they heat you up with one from the top, Hollywood class, and then they bring you another one, usually way less attractive but way more available who has no other use to them.
But for the masses. They have movies and videos and stuff. You see a cute one in a movie while playing with your cat or dog and then you go to your wife and say "let's go upstairs honey". Things like that.
One thing is sure. These guys can't stay put, they are never at rest. It's as sure as hell they are preparing the next trick right now. We right now are closer to Babylon than we can imagine.
I'm sorry i got again carried in this maze that seems so complicated and discouraging and at times disgusting, but this is how they do it and if you are not doing nothing and maybe even are complacent, things could pass onto your children and go like this forever.
11:30 Now that i remember, i started to realize that i feel the finest mineral litter dust loaded with bacteria and possibly parasites on my face, after i took a shower and she started to walk upstairs, with a vengeance.
Many people are saying this year they had it with the song. Motivating it's annoying by repetition and probably outdated as style and genre.
I'd say it's worse than that. Much worse.
I put under the category "gay making songs" in my own classification. And anti-Christian of course.
Last Christmas, like Careless Whisper ("i'll never dance again"), though it's such an upbeat melody featuring an uplifting near perfect soprano voice, it's a very sad song. Beginning with the title. Last Christmas in English can have too meanings.
Of course from the beginning it outlines the promiscuity if not ferocity of the woman. "The very next day"... And then repeating "it doesn't surprise me", "what a fool i've been", "you'd fool me again" "once bitten". "A shoulder to cry on" goes well with "to save me from tears".
Then the weird coincidence of the casting in the video. She becomes the partner of his real life partner, "A face on a lover with a fire in his heart A man under cover", the "someone special"?
Not obvious, full with the cheers of the jingle bells like Mariah Carrey's song (is that a solar symbol) and (again) pizzicato of the synths, very subtle with many double meaning phrases, like many of George Michael creations it induces sadness in your subconscious. I'd say, subversive and holiday detouring and hacking, if only for mood.
9:15 O știre de acum 5 zile. Nici un cuvânt încă despre cum a fost folosit bugetul pe anul acesta.
1:05 How many Teslas do you see in this picture? Four? At Walmart, the cheapest store in town with everything on the shelves. The only empty space in the first row as i entered the parking lot.
BTW there are unused freecharging stations seen in the picture, but no, they chose to park there in my view.
It is not an isolated incident. It happens every minute of the day. They control everything that moves around here and there (including Șoșoaca) as part of the same Truman show.
How many wobbling Santas do you see in this video? I did not pick the moment, i waited for him to start a new song and then some people came and then i took the short video.
I believe today was the last push for the return of Amaterasu at solstice. They woke me up after 6 hours of sleep. Crashed already because of lack of stimulation i was used to for weeks, months or years.
Though there is some stink mostly inside. One hour and a half of squeaks and stomps. One for every thought. The squeaks and stomps stopped and blowers started (they never waste two (re)sources in the same time). Three guys caroling with loud didgeridoos blowing the last of the leaves. Maybe, cause i see some in a tree. By far not so many as the last time.
They caught me at peak or under the window while i was eating. Here is a sample (with cracked window).
I ran outside only to meet with a FedEx van that was smoking badly. Then i could not remember if i shut the burner of the stove after i boiled the eggs. So i returned, taking about 10 minutes more of their dB and exhaust (how themselves can stand it?).
Can't tell how many people or cars interfered with me during the walk. Many. Enough to say all cars, LPNs, people on the streets are all on AI that coordinate their moving. There was even a car with an Oregon LPN saying the word RULE.
Got back home after one hour and a half, by far they're done. So i took the truck and went to Walmart. Came back, it's been three hours, still not done. Too much noise and stink and dust to do anything that involves thinking. Trying to open the sliding window to air, got a good dose of dust falling from walls and attic do to vibration of didgeridoos.
2:00 Times Square and the ball of light. Țeapa. Capisci?
10:00 Got so many things on my mind, don't know what to start with. Ok this one cause it is linked with the above.
I can only write it in Romanian.
Ok deci știe cineva de ce s-a dus Iohannescu al nostru cel puțin în Tanzania?
At Spirit Mountain. Angela had a kilo of change from tickets she cashed in a few months (at the cash machine they give you in there change if the sum has fractional values at the end, in other casinos they give you sub dollar tickets) and we went to the cashier where they have a machine that counts change and got 37 dollars on it.
While staying in line there was this guy in front of us who when he turned i thought he looked like... At the other window there was thig guy who looked like... And even the big T was in there with a MAGA hat playing at a machine (sitting that is, his age), with head bend forward so i could not see his eyes. And probably the big Z too.
Then i had this terrible craving for gummies. I went to the convenience store at the gas station and bought some. Exotic fruits flavor. But they had this extra flavor like the dishwasher detergent i just bought at Walmart yesterday and had an accident with it...
Then we bought burgers, fries for Angela and salad for me but i ate it at home and tasted like... fish?
10:12 One more on pyramids. Anybody read Asimov's book The End of Eternity? As i remember from the Romanian translation. Some guys from the very distant future on planet Earth called Eternals ran out of resources and they were so advanced they figured and time travel. And they started to move back and forth between centuries for trade of course (author was a Jew, LOL, he died in 1992).
Anybody knows that you can't freely go back in time because any action on the past may affect present, including your ability to time travel. The grandfather paradox. Or simply create a flat to the car of a researcher that is about to go to a conference in which he was about to explain something important for the past's future.
Things would go a different way and a different future will be created in which some may not exist or things are different.
And here things start to blur for me at least at this hour at night. Would a parallel Universe be created, with the keeping in existence (or not) of the traveler he did the intervention. Would that change appear in the same Universe but it would take the whole time between intervention and departure which may be eons for the change to propagate?
In Asimov's book i think changes were propagating simultaneously and some times even mistakes were made when time travelers using their hypercomputes calculated the MNC (minimum necessary change to achieve desired reality) needed to go even further back in time to correct that mistake.
Do you remember that scene from Star Trek First Contact (one of the 6 movies) when Data betrayed the Borg Queen who previously tempted him and intentionally miscalculated the trajectory of those three photon torpedoes that were supposed to hit Cochrane's first warp ship?
I bet everybody including Piccard thought it was a gesture of loyalty of the part of Data towards humans, but he would have disappeared too if Cochrane did not succeed, right? Data was born in 2336 on a colony built with he help of warp ships and Cochrane did his first warp flight in 2036). Without warp, there would have never been that level of civilization capable of building such androids with positronic brain (i personally now think photonics is the future).
Ok so i tried to make everybody aware of the paradoxes of time travel before i go further.
If the pyramids with their ability to split photons and wrap themselves in those (when they were working of course) were used for that.
I would think the far advanced humans from the future would again have ran out of resources (just like in the book) and would have sent first a probe or even one of them in a small ship capable of time travel with means of genetic manipulation and instructions convincing the apes it was all for God (didn't want to really teach them anything more because it would have altered the timeline too much i think).
Why so far in the past. Because anything closer would have affected too much their present. And so it started. It worked at first. Then something happened, the device probably wore out, they build a second and a third.
However there was a population on Earth that was isolated from the others and was not brainwashed by the guys from the future. They heard about and came over in Egypt and plundered it and put an end to it. However what they found there allowed them to gain enough knowledge of everything and that started to badly alter the timeline propagating all the way to that distant future.
Another version. As i said before, they might have created two versions of humans. One for work only and one of supervisors. Those are probably those who nowadays call themselves Aryans and try and are almost succeeding in taking over the world.
So they sent some to intervene personally, like Buddha and stuff so people would stop the alterations of history with devastating effects for them. At least until they found a solution.
So it happened the other way around. Left over pyramids and what was found around them brought too much advancement, too fast. Most of it happened after one of them (the isolated savage race) lead the French into Egypt. With all of it may be they don't (won't) even exist anymore (in this timeline or version of Universe).
BTW do you think you would feel anything if your Universe was altered like in an intervention in the past from present or future? No you wouldn't because the intervention would have happened long time ago and everything after followed naturally.
5:35 Miniștrii din România, mereu surprinși de ce se întâmplă în ministerele pe care le conduc.
12:37 Răsturnare de situație. Nu mai e Holanda, acum e iar Osterreich. Iar unul din ei este chiar el. Nu se va supune la vot? Votul este trecut pe ordinea de zi. Singura chestie e că e împreună cu Bulgaria iar România ar trebui să opună veto-ul la ordinea de zi pe chestia asta asta și pe orice problemă până nu se aplică Tratatul de Aderare care spune imediat hă hăăă taman din 2005! Se numește negociere.
Asta o poate face (e împuternicit de Iohannis) doar o singură persoană și anume surprinsul onoratul Cătălin Predoiu. Fără să dea cu ecusonul în masă, rugăm doar votul (veto-ul, whatever)!
Apropo Băsescu, ceilalți europarlamentari, ce dr.Dre fac ei acolo pe lumea cealaltă? De ce nu mai sună Băsescu televiziunile la miezul nopții să ne explice?
3:08 Went to WinCo. Upstairs it's a dance festival. When i left a guy or two speaking Spanish dressed in an uniform climbed upstairs and started to stomp and yell in Spanish with the open door. As i said many times before, their main tool is synchronization. I hope they didn't get in here. One reason could have been me clean installing Windows yesterday on the new computer.
At WinCo one tall guy who i think is a Hungarian politician (tall, blue eyes, moustache) with a small kid who was everywhere around the conveyers. The man kept telling the kid in English not to touch (the stuff on the conveyers) but at a certain time the kid said something in Hungarian. I know because it started with the word mind pronounced meend. I think by the way he was looking he was referring at both conveyers.
Now i hear a power tool upstairs.
I know from lifetime numerous experienced It is best to avoid any contact with Hungarians. The moment they speak they will threat you sometimes with only one word said by a kid. Sometimes it can be just bullying and sometimes it can be real. And then you'd have to comply with their demands.
3:33 Now they came to blow leaves from the alley and parking lot in front of the building where i shall pick them again. Nevermind, they finally decided to take the leaves out of here. (Picture taken through the window).
Daily progress in fixing the stairs. I think the "structural" part of the work is done and the stairs ca already be used. I remember about a week ago there in the morning there was a black truck with some red trims all around. It showed in the street right after that moment when i had to literally run for my life at the 7-11 intersection.
4:47 But who are the frustrated monkey that lost its head?
5:12 If air quality index is 61 right now and i don't feel anything and was 117 earlier and didn't feel much, how bad was last night around the building? It felt like 500.
7:14 I think after i figured who are the occupants upstairs they left and "sublet" the apartment to other, very aggressive persons. One of them is a massive woman with big butt and legs and the other is a thin guy both looking Latinos. Apparently they don't have any idea what they are doing here. They are constantly walking, especially the big woman and never talking to each other so they can't be recognized by their voices.
At first they were walking along the long wall of the living. I found cracks between ceiling and wall in there. Now they moved their walks in other corners of the apartment. They awoke Angela. Did i mention they use the same car with Washington LPN CJS4869 and furniture has never been replaced?
Went outside and again there is smoke above 200 though the index at the nearest monitor is 60.
8:28 Nebunia continuă. De maimulți ani. Mandatul (nu e scris în articol) este din 2017 și e bineînțels numai de palmares. De lăsat l-au lăsat să-și facă treaba în continuare. Repet, dacă e adevărat.
8:30 I think i just saw the new guy from upstairs. Though i think is saw a guy like him in the balcony of the apartment with the German Shepard. Anyways, something in this direction.
