November 13

12:50 AM This guy also looks like a colleague from IMU, APT (Atelierul de Proiectare Tehnologică, Technological Design Dept). Mihai something. He probably just went back to Hungary.

In 1986 when i finished college, i had a "government repartition", (like all graduates) at IMU Bacău, because Angela was also in Bacău and i had Bacău residency on my ID card.

But when i went in there, right after, trouble. They did not want to hire me, because "it was too early". Should go in a vacation something, come back in a month. So i got mad and went to Ovidiu, knowing his father was a colonel in Securitate. However, it was what today are Jandarmeria, the equivalent of maybe SWAT in the US. Not the infamous repressive Securitate, or the State Police. Whatever. Maybe it was.

But doing so i got Ovidiu in trouble, cause he was already heading to one of then affordable for everyone Black Sea resorts and his father told him he should to the same as me. Start working. I told his father i would do the same if i was him whatever. That was really awkward. He told me to go back the next day.

The next day i got to talk to the Chief Engineer of the whole Design Department. He asked me, "generously", with a grim on his face, which department i want to work in, and i said, right away, Design, cause i had this experience with the newer computers and some CAD (Computer Aided Design) exposure during my last year in college.

I believe at the time they had 600 engineers and sub engineers in the Design department alone, mostly not doing nothing (no new products, not much need for design).

(No i never been friends with Ovidiu. He was the type... A bit shy, a bit jerk acting towards me like i was stupid or something. Not the kind would carry a long conversation. (Actually, i was pretty awkward, socially, ignoring too many things, a nerd some could say, but now they all respected me because of my computer skills and my position).

I remember when Ioana told us...

It all happened during those crazy days when all the guys in design were taken for a month or so in fall to help gathering the corn from fields. Belonging to the cooperatives as they were called. Manually. Not enough work force or machines at the cooperatives, corn would have been left on fields. Maybe a lesson for us all in the great Machine Tools company.

With sometimes beer at the end of the day at the restaurant at the end of the corn field. With outdoor tables.

One day (later, in a different place, near the airport). Me and Ovidiu were arguing about the concept of up and down in space and she intervened between us and said we should stop fighting. "You should be friends". I believe we looked perplexed at each other and started to laugh. For different reasons though.

And yes we went both to a party with her. Or was that a different guy. No, it was him and another guy Three guys, with the host, 4, two girls, one was picked by husband and i left early. After dancing with her on my shoulders though).

Once i got hired, i started to persuade my boss to create a CAD group. Some other people heard about.

All the machine tools companies in Romania (15 in total i believe, with thousands of personnel each, way too many for our needs) were subordinated to one so called Central of Machine Tools Industry or something.

Over there, there was this guy who had been given this task, implement CAD, so i got to work with him. Buy a mini computer, terminals, find a place in the main office building, things like that, select people which took me a couple of years. The IT department started a war with me, wanted us to become their subordinate.

Because they had an old computer, many people, and mostly because they did not want me to interfere with design and especially time allocated for each product, because... it all comes down to corruption, big bribe money for paying fictitious overtime for thousands of people.

Trouble is, the guy at the Central as i figured recently (last few years) was looking a lot like this guy, while my second boss at IMU (after we the CAD group have been moved to a different department), Preparation of Fabrication, was looking like this one.

I remember when i talked the first time with the Central guy after the Revolution (and last time i saw him). I was excited and stuff and he told me he saw too many of them revolutions. 4 i believe he said.

It was late 89 when i finished a software for generating the so called "technological files" that included the part for time allocation ("the norms") for each operation for a certain part. That meant workmanship. Pay. That day my boss talked to me on a corridor so no one can see and hear and told me to forget about.

Soon after (early 90) i quit and went to work with Angela and do accounting and payroll software because i knew there was no future in that company. They were too many in Romania, with too many people hired and outdated technology. Over there, my boss looked like...

Much better, i recon (how many parties, New Years, etc.). The Chief Financial Officer (contabil șef) looked like... In the IT department, my boss' right hand was...

But when i think today, i believe it was not that bad, the technological state of IMU. However, too many people were against me there. Others were hunting my position (though we haven't done much, with that project canceled) and without the guy from Bucharest i would have been lost soon.

Finding out all these clarified anything to me? At some point i still don't understand why, and especially why me? I believe it all started in college. They wanted me to familiarize with computers. Maye they did not know how the future might look like, but they knew it will be all based on computers. Look at the internet now. 

So they wanted me to be able to use a computer and tell all these stories now. Even if i use only a fraction of what i learned, i mean editing a blog post, uploading a picture, do searches?

2:40 I remember that day when we both (me and Ioana) ran away from the corn field, maybe an hour or two earlier. Stopped by a creek and washed our hands, belies and stuff (we were full of dust from hugging piles of dry corn stalks). Went at a table at the restaurant and ordered beer. It was a beautiful September evening i guess. That restaurant was also at the end of a city bus line.

Next day she showed me her belly and i showed her mine. It was full of blisters and stuff. I remembered and told her. That creek in the middle of the corn field smelled funny. Not convincing... I believe next time i saw her she was with a guy even taller than me.

3:00 If anybody is still guessing why i'm up all night? Simple, because it's so much more quiet... Few cars with loud exhaust, no traffic on the nearby freeway, no stepping upstairs. Too nice, i just can't give in to sleeping. Also, still mad about the last walk on the ceiling last night. Mad about the smell. Mad about lots of things.

3:30 I remember we did not have an outside line on the phones. I mean you could make an outside call, but talk first with the company's operator, and she would try the number and put you through. Buy the inter-city lines were clogged. You could wait hours.

When i was in a hurry, i went, like other people, in the Chief Engineer waiting room and ask for a favor to one of  his secretaries. Cause he had two.

One was young and cute as hell, the wife of engineer Ionescu, Head of Tools Production Department (who looked a bit like King Charles, when young, with a moustache), could just not get enough to look at her (mostly with my peripheral view, not to get noticed, but i remember, she had dark brown sleepy eyes) and the other old and ugly as hell, and i think she could have been... (link below).

Once there and gotten her approval, i would dial the number once, twice, 20 times. The key was not to hurry, to give some time to those electro-mechanical switches in those ancient centrals to move around between numbers... If i was lucky, i could have made my call within half hour.

One day i went in there right after Ioana and the secretary kept wiping the phone with alcohol after her and i believe it was a message to my subconscious, to stay away from Ioana... which BTW it worked.

3:50 Sunt cel puțin 2 feluri diferite de a te îneca cu mâncare... Spun pentru că le știu bine pe fiecare. Unul este disfagia. Mâncarea se oprește în esofag, nu mai coboară în stomac.

Cauza este un esofag iritat și dureros, ceea ce blochează mișcarea peristaltică care împinge mâncarea în stomac, combinată cu un stomac și intestin plin de gaze. Poate fi combinată cu aerofagie (înghițirea de aer), care este compresibil și "amortizează" acea mișcare de împingere în jos.

E foarte nașpa. Adică, încercați să vă imaginați. Mâncarea începe se circule în sus și în jos în esofag. Se aud zgomote ca și cum îți ghiorăie mațele. Dacă încerci să bei ceva, devine foarte dureros.

Eu odată am stat la urgențe 4 ore în starea asta, și m-au trimis așa acasă și eram foarte obosit și m-am culcat și dimineață m-am trezit ok. Se golise. Esofagul.

Am avut chestia de zeci de ori. Prima dată în 2012 cu măr nemestecat bine pe o plajă plină cu mii de turiști care coborâseră de pe o navă de croazieră, la Astoria, Oregon. Da, eram stresat de niște eșapamente și niște tipi cu detectoare de metal. O japoneză cu rucsac s-a uitat foarte foarte urât la mine chiar înainte de a mânca.

Orez uscat cu ardei iuți la un bar chinezesc la Spirit Mountain sau Thunder Valley Casino. Condusesem sute de mile când am ajuns acolo. Eram stresat și obosit. Orezul ăla stătuse acolo sub un reflector o zi întreagă cred. Am reușit să vomit în parcare.

Cel mai recent, azi. Dimineață. Am mâncat (molfăit) carne de vită cam uscată. Dar a trecut de la sine. Dureros, am simțit mâncarea coborând în stomac. Se întâmplă doar la primele înghițituri. După ce aciditatea din esofag s-a neutralizat cu mâncare, am mâncat ok.

Am înțeles de pe site-uri că poți face atac de inimă de la un asemenea episod. Mai ales dacă nu știi ce se întâmplă și panichezi. Practic, și o spun din foarte multe experiențe, în afară de senzația foarte nașpa, nu e nici un pericol imediat. Da, bine, îți poate crește tensiunea foarte mult, mai ales prin efect psihologic, iar dacă ai ceva cu inima...

Există un remediu, descoperit recent de mine. Faci o soluție foarte concentrată (saturată) de bicarbonat în apă, adică un sfert de pahar de praf și un sfert apă și iei o mică înghițitură. Asta ar trebui să neutralizeze acidul din esofag, fără a-l umple mai tare. Dispare durerea, mișcarea peristaltică funcționează iar.

A și încă un remediu. Două degete presărate cu sare, în fundul gurii. Însă mie îmi este greu să vomit, cred că sunt sub influență de botulinum mai tot timpul. A și este foarte greu să vomiți conținutul esofagului. Ai nevoie de o mișcare peristaltică, nu de presiune prin contractarea stomacului. Este alt tip de vomitat, dar se poate.

Preventiv. Dacă simți că ai acid în esofag (jigăraie) bea câteva înghițituri de apă cu bicarbonat sau simplu apă dacă nu ai bicarbonat, ca să se spele esofagul de acid înainte de a mânca ceva solid.

De asemenea poți să faci atac de inimă, dacă ai inima slabă, sau poți să te îneci, așa cum am pățit eu ultima dată, acum câteva zile, când mai eram și beat și am vomitat. Am fost foarte, foarte aproape.

Deci. Esofag iritat (jigăraie), mâncare uscată și condimentată. Gaze în stomac.

Al doilea tip este refluxul gastric. Se întâmplă numai în somn. Te trezești cu căile respiratorii blocate de mâncare ridicată din stomac. Se întâmplă fiindcă mănânci seara prea mult combinat cu gaze în stomac și intestin. Dacă nu reușești să respiri timp de un minut, normal faci atac de inimă. Stop cardiac. Whatever.

Deci în ambele cazuri diagnosticul poate fi atac de inimă, dacă doctorul care face autopsia omite să spună ca a găsit ceva în esofag sau pe căile respiratorii.

Remediu. Nu te culca cu stomacul plin și capul prea jos. Încarcă să scapi de gazele intestinale de cu seară. Nu mânca fasole seara.

Și într-un caz și în altul suspectez, pe deasupra, vrăji. Aplecatul înainte, cu fundul spre tine, mai ales când ești obosit și stresat. Declanșează un reflex care blochează eliminarea gazelor și în același timp crește aciditatea în esofag, prin stres. Efectul vrăjii durează ore sau până a doua zi.

Faza de la Spirit Mountain. 19 mai 2018. Un tip mătura pe lângă mese și se apleca mereu. Pe atunci nu știam chestia cu aplecatul. Am condus 2 ore până acasă așa. Am vomitat când am ajuns. Orez.

4:30 Atenție la condițiile de mediu. Poate aveți mucegai pe undeva și nu știți. Praf, dacă locuiți lângă un drum sau ați zugrăvit neprofesionist. Sunt o mulțime de situații în mediu care pot conduce la așa ceva. Un cuptor de aragaz sau chiar suprafață, murdar tot timpul. Da știu e greu de curățat.

Un frigider cu radiator ascuns dedesubt, plin de praf. Eu personal nu mai cred în ADD, toate tâmpeniile și nici măcar în anxietate. Este întotdeauna ceva legat de mediu, ceva ignorat de mult timp. O infecție dentară în stare latentă, cronicizată.

Chestia cu cuptorul de la aragaz. Am uitat chiar în seara asta două tăvi de pizza pe afară și mă simțeam anxios dar nu știam de la ce. În cuptor este bine să puneți o farfurie două întinse cu praf de bicarbonat care să absoarbă mirosul la sursă.

5:05  Faza asta e reală? Transferanță...

5:25 One more story with Ovidiu before Angela leaves and i go to sleep. Only to be awakened at 8 by those guys with the stairs... Don't know how i will survive the next couple of days, with all the health problems and stuff...

So i met with him at Casa Armatei (Army Club) in Bacău, was opened for everyone, not far from where i lived on Energiei St., drinking beer of course. And he told me a story heard from his colonel father from Securitate.

Those live shows with Păunescu. Poetry and folk music. One night, there was a power outage, and dozens of youth died during a stampede... Then Ceaușescu pulled the plug on him.

What else was happening. At some time during every show, Păunescu would ask the Police, Securitate, whatever, to leave the stadium or hall. And the next day the Police (Miliția how it was called) would find plenty of girls' panties in the last rows...

6:05 Autor Ioana Ion?

9:50 Slept about one hour or less. At around 8:30 they started outside with the power tools.

Asta indică faptul verificat de mulți ani că pompele de căldură furnizează mai multă energie decât consumă. După cum se precizează în articol, ele de fapt nu furnizează energie, ci mută energie dintr-o zonă a spațiului în alta.

De aceea se și numesc pompe de căldură. Aparatul de aer condiționat, frigiderul sunt tot pompe de căldură, iar ce numim astăzi pompe de căldură sunt de fapt aparate de aer condiționat inversate (cu radiatorul cald înăuntru). De fapt, sunt reversibile din construcție putând funcționa în ambele feluri, în funcție de anotimp.

Eu cred că ele pot fi folosite la construirea unui perpetuum mobile (da, de speța a II-a).

O pompă de căldură, cu un radiator cald și unul rece are total un transfer de energie cald-rece sau rece cald de până la 4 ori mai mare decât energia consumată.

Într-un proces spontan, energia se transferă întotdeauna de la cald la rece, cu creșterea entropiei. Într-o pompă de căldură, construită de ființe inteligente, energia se poate transfera de la rece la cald (răcind și mai mult partea rece, încălzind și mai mult partea caldă), deci cu scăderea entropiei.

Dacă putem capta această energie pentru a mișca un generator electric, s-ar putea obține de aproape 4 ori mai multă energie decât se consumă. Asta se poate face într-un sistem închis cu un motor Stirling, care funcționează cu o sursă rece și una caldă și are o eficiență de până la 45%, deci o astfel de instalație ar furniza un surplus de energie gratuită.

Bine, asta doar pentru a demonstra viabilitatea ideii. Cred că se pot imagina astfel de dispozitive mai simple și mai compacte.

Toate acesta au fost prevăzute într-un articol publicat în 1929 de savantul evreo-maghiar Leo Szilard, "Despre reducerea entropiei în sisteme termodinamice prin intervenția ființelor inteligente". Nu știu exact luna în care a fost publicat articolul, dar e posibil să fie înainte de declanșarea marii crize economice din 1929.

Este ciudată denumirea dată de Maxwell acelei ființe inteligente care separă moleculele calde și cele reci din experimentul său mental numit "Demonul lui Maxwell".

Noi toți am auzit de Maxwell din școala generală de la fizică. Transformarea energiei potențiale în cinetică și invers. Pendulul lui Maxwell.

Această denumire creează o barieră psihologică (de repulsie) pentru oricine aude. Și totuși, pe acest principiu de bazează funcționarea frigiderelor și dispozitivelor de aer condiționat, așa cum le știm de decenii. Rolul demonului lui Maxwell (poartă termică unidirecțională, diodă termică) în pompe de căldură îl preia suprafața de separare lichid-gaz.

În electronică, rolul demonului lui Maxell este preluat de diode care pot rectifica curentul alternativ și regulariza sensul de transport al energiei. Cred că este evident pentru oricine că electronii dintr-un circuit de curent alternativ au mai multă entropie decât cei dintr-un circuit de curent continuu (care circulă într-un singur sens). Posibile, yet not.

Aceste idei și discuții au fost suprimate timp de o sută de ani fiindcă ținta sau țelul actualei conduceri din vârful ordinii mondiale practic dorește distrugerea planetei prin încălzirea ei, pentru a îndeplini o profeție a lui Buda și pentru, conform credinței și filosofiei proprii, a închide ciclul tuturor reîncarnărilor (Nirvana pentru toți).

În continuare o demonizare a numelui Maxwell este făcută într-o melodie Beatles, ce re-prezintă un pata fizician în devenire (nerd) care acționează ca un ucigaș în serie (serial killer).

7:50 Zeroing in on Beatles. From cold to colder. In this song her stands for heroin, right?

Hey dude, refrain... Nothing else could heal your pain... Now go drink some water go and get her. It will only cost you six pence an arm and a leg.


10:40 Flares.

Maxwell serial killer.

Matrițe și scule (așchietoare).

November 6

1:10 AM What has in common yesterday's Trump's victory with that of 2016? A: In both cases, he won against a woman. And now was helped by another one.

1:30 Let the scandals commence!

5:20 It's already started! Can you keep a secret?

7:05 Ok one more well motivated push (from behind). It looks like i got here the role of saying what everybody thinks but don't wanna say.

If Biden helped (so much) Ukraine then why the red suit and the Republican color if Trump is a putinist? A literally last minute push to save democrats from total humiliation annihilation?

Cause i can't possibly imagine Kabala plotted to oust Biden and kill Trump (whichever came first), especially because i know both attempts were fake(d). Or Biden retired so Kamala alone could be blamed for it. Or Biden retired claiming exhaustion so everybody would not think it was him period.

Nothing happened but with drama queen Trump it's always stormis in a cup of water.

7:15 No, seriously. Read Shogun.

1100 Trying to gain momentum here to start a long entry, thinking maybe it should be a whole post while upstairs the woman is hitting the floor, making more love dust to fall. Which is litter dust from the cats that inevitably falls through tiny cracks here no matter what. And the cats may have toxoplasmosis which means parasites that produce dopamine, lodge in your brain and trigger unwanted sexual desires.

The history is repeating because people have forgotten how this happened previously, last time with the two Ladies of December. It's a cycle. Thing is i actually forgot myself and had to be reminded.

Ok so i'm gonna start with a definition i had an intuition about and just found the standardized form on the web.

Transference in psychology is a transfer of feelings you have for one person onto another. Some say love at first sight is actually transference. It may be all loves in your life are just transfers from one person to another, or they could all instantiations of the same psychological process some call love that is based on primary instincts (nothing to do with the movie).

I mean i could sit here and speculate all night long with no aim or end in sight. But i have a purpose.

Believe it or not, some are using it to their own advantage. Only trouble is i cannot figure if they really know and apply psychology which BTW is in its infancy in this area, which would require an unprecedent sophistication, or they just use mnemonics, like those found in Bansenshukai or some love book written by French 19th century modern writers. Or maybe simply ancient witchcraft. Or one of General Tzu's stratagems.

So what they do. They, through their almost unlimited means and powers produce an attractive woman in your proximity or virtual places (nothing to do with virtue) you go about on the web from time to time until you get it bad. No matter the cost, like in this case, derailing lives, displacing a whole family from Hungary.

Parasites, psychoactive smokes, things like that would help.

And then after you become obsessed with that person they can use it in many ways and one of them is transference. Before that, she was simply here, under a different look (for my eyes only), meeting with me every day, posing as my daughter and... lover?

So you go outside, meet with the person (for the first time though she was here all the time), she lights up her face and then she leaves abruptly and initiate a conversation with a different person. In the meantime, another woman shows. In their barbaric imagination, a transference should have occurred.

But how could possibly transfer feelings from one person you've been in contact for 4 years online you were happy you just met in person, who is kind and fragile and cute to another one that is big and heavy and steps on your ceiling all day long releasing litter dust?

I mean, there should be at least some things in common. I can tell you because it is not the first time they've done it to me.

I remember back at IMU there was this divorced woman that was my subordinate who was cute and everything, and she started to wear clothes like Angela and one day she took me home.

But nothing happened because i was more enamored with the work i was doing than anything else and being married, i did not practice abstinence and isolation like i am for 20 years now. I knew if i touched her i could have said goodbye to the position i was holding. I also had clues cause at times i could read the disgust on her face.

Many other times including once with that actress from Star Wars, who came at my mother pretending she was a poor girl, while i was there. One colleague in HS, again petite and fragile who jumped at my neck at the public Olympic pool in Iași, days before vacation (she broke with me right after vacation, never saw her again). Pat Benatar in the train towards home for vacation from HS etc. etc..

You can imagine towards whom the transference was aimed at. 

In a more popular language, they heat you up with one from the top, Hollywood class, and then they bring you another one, usually way less attractive but way more available who has no other use to them.

But for the masses. They have movies and videos and stuff. You see a cute one in a movie while playing with your cat or dog and then you go to your wife and say "let's go upstairs honey". Things like that.

One thing is sure. These guys can't stay put, they are never at rest. It's as sure as hell they are preparing the next trick right now. We right now are closer to Babylon than we can imagine.

I'm sorry i got again carried in this maze that seems so complicated and discouraging and at times disgusting, but this is how they do it and if you are not doing nothing and maybe even are complacent, things could pass onto your children and go like this forever.

11:30 Now that i remember, i started to realize that i feel the finest mineral litter dust loaded with bacteria and possibly parasites on my face, after i took a shower and she started to walk upstairs, with a vengeance.

December 20

1:30 Last Christmas

Many people are saying this year they had it with the song. Motivating it's annoying by repetition and probably outdated as style and genre.

I'd say it's worse than that. Much worse.

I put under the category "gay making songs" in my own classification. And anti-Christian of course.

Last Christmas, like Careless Whisper ("i'll never dance again"), though it's such an upbeat melody featuring an uplifting near perfect soprano voice, it's a very sad song. Beginning with the title. Last Christmas in English can have too meanings.

Of course from the beginning it outlines the promiscuity if not ferocity of the woman. "The very next day"... And then repeating "it doesn't surprise me", "what a fool i've been", "you'd fool me again" "once bitten". "A shoulder to cry on" goes well with "to save me from tears".

Then the weird coincidence of the casting in the video. She becomes the partner of his real life partner,  "A face on a lover with a fire in his heart A man under cover", the "someone special"?

Not obvious, full with the cheers of the jingle bells like Mariah Carrey's song (is that a solar symbol) and (again) pizzicato of the synths, very subtle with many double meaning phrases, like many of George Michael creations it induces sadness in your subconscious. I'd say, subversive and holiday detouring and hacking, if only for mood.

9:15 O știre de acum 5 zile. Nici un cuvânt încă despre cum a fost folosit bugetul pe anul acesta.

1:05 How many Teslas do you see in this picture? Four? At Walmart, the cheapest store in town with everything on the shelves. The only empty space in the first row as i entered the parking lot.

BTW there are unused free charging stations seen in the picture, but no, they chose to park there in my view.

It is not an isolated incident. It  happens every minute of the day. They control everything that moves around here and there (including Șoșoaca) as part of the same Truman show.

How many wobbling Santas do you see in this video? I did not pick the moment, i waited for him to start a new song and then some people came and then i took the short video.

I believe today was the last push for the return of Amaterasu at solstice. They woke me up after 6 hours of sleep. Crashed already because of lack of stimulation i was used to for weeks, months or years.

Though there is some stink mostly inside. One hour and a half of squeaks and stomps. One for every thought. The squeaks and stomps stopped and blowers started (they never waste two (re)sources in the same time). Three guys caroling with loud didgeridoos blowing the last of the leaves. Maybe, cause i see some in a tree. By far not so many as the last time.

They caught me at peak or under the window while i was eating. Here is a sample (with cracked window).

I ran outside only to meet with a FedEx van that was smoking badly. Then i could not remember if i shut the burner of the stove after i boiled the eggs. So i returned, taking about 10 minutes more of their dB and exhaust (how themselves can stand it?).

Can't tell how many people or cars interfered with me during the walk. Many. Enough to say all cars, LPNs, people on the streets are all on AI that coordinate their moving. There was even a car with an Oregon LPN saying the word RULE.

Got back home after one hour and a half, by far they're done. So i took the truck and went to Walmart. Came back, it's been three hours, still not done. Too much noise and stink and dust to do anything that involves thinking. Trying to open the sliding window to air, got a good dose of dust falling from walls and attic do to vibration of didgeridoos.

2:00 Times Square and the ball of light. Țeapa. Capisci?

10:00 Got so many things on my mind, don't know what to start with. Ok this one cause it is linked with the above.

I can only write it in Romanian.

Ok deci știe cineva de ce s-a dus Iohannescu al nostru cel puțin în Tanzania?

At Spirit Mountain. Angela had a kilo of change from tickets she cashed in a few months (at the cash machine they give you in there change if  the sum has fractional values at the end, in other casinos they give you sub dollar tickets) and we went to the cashier where they have a machine that counts change and got 37 dollars on it.

While staying in line there was this guy in front of us who when he turned i thought he looked like... At the other window there was thig guy who looked like... And even the big T was in there with a MAGA  hat playing at a machine (sitting that is, his age), with head bend forward so i could not see his eyes. And probably the big Z too.

Then i had this terrible craving for gummies. I went to the convenience store at the gas station and bought some. Exotic fruits flavor. But they had this extra flavor like the dishwasher detergent i just bought at Walmart yesterday and had an accident with it...

Then we bought burgers, fries for Angela and salad for me but i ate it at home and tasted like... fish?

10:12 One more on pyramids. Anybody read Asimov's book The End of Eternity? As i remember from the Romanian translation. Some guys from the very distant future on planet Earth called Eternals ran out of resources and they were so advanced they figured and time travel. And  they started to move back and forth between centuries for trade of course (author was a Jew, LOL, he died in 1992).

Anybody knows that you can't freely go back in time because any action on the past may affect present, including your ability to time travel. The grandfather paradox. Or simply create a flat to the car of a researcher that is about to go to a conference in which he was about to explain something important for the past's future.

Things would go a different way and a different future will be created in which some may not exist or things are different.

And here things start to blur for me at least at this hour at night. Would a parallel Universe be created, with the keeping in existence (or not) of the traveler he did the intervention. Would that change appear in the same Universe but it would take the whole time between intervention and departure which may be eons for the change to propagate?

In Asimov's book i think changes were propagating simultaneously and some times even mistakes were made when time travelers using their hypercomputes calculated the MNC (minimum necessary change to achieve desired reality) needed to go even further back in time to correct that mistake.

Do you remember that scene from Star Trek First Contact (one of  the 6 movies) when Data betrayed the Borg Queen who previously tempted him and intentionally miscalculated the trajectory of those three photon torpedoes that were supposed to hit Cochrane's first warp ship?

I bet everybody including Piccard thought it was a gesture of loyalty of the part of Data towards humans, but he would have disappeared too if Cochrane did not succeed, right? Data was born in 2336 on a colony built with he help of warp ships and Cochrane did his first warp flight in 2036). Without warp, there would have never been that level of civilization capable of building such androids with positronic brain (i personally now think photonics is the future).

Ok so i tried to make everybody aware of the paradoxes of time travel before i go further.

If the pyramids with their ability to split photons and wrap themselves in those (when they were working of course) were used for that.

I would think the far advanced humans from the future would again have ran out of resources (just like in the book) and would have sent first a probe or even one of them in a small ship capable of time travel with means of genetic manipulation and instructions convincing the apes it was all for God (didn't want to really teach them anything more because it would have altered the timeline too much i think).

Why so far in the past. Because anything closer would have affected too much their present. And so it started. It worked at first. Then something happened, the device probably wore out, they build a second and a third.

However there was a population on Earth that was isolated from the others and was not brainwashed by the guys from the future. They heard about and came over in Egypt and plundered it and put an end to it. However what they found there allowed them to gain enough knowledge of everything and that started to badly alter the timeline propagating all the way to that distant future.

Another version. As i said before, they might have created two versions of humans. One for work only and one of supervisors. Those are probably those who nowadays call themselves Aryans and try and are almost succeeding in taking over the world.

So they sent some to intervene personally, like Buddha and stuff so people would stop the alterations of history with devastating effects for them. At least until they found a solution.

So it happened the other way around. Left over pyramids and what was found around them brought too much advancement, too fast. Most of it happened after one of them (the isolated savage race) lead the French into Egypt. With all of it may be they don't (won't) even exist anymore (in this timeline or version of Universe).

BTW do you think you would feel anything if your Universe was altered like in an intervention in the past from present or future? No you wouldn't because the intervention would have happened long time ago and everything after followed naturally.

November 29

5:31 Angela went to work, i am awake, upstairs they were squeaking ever since and stopped when i uploaded a file with the sound.

Memele zilei din media oficială românească.

Buletinul lui Cerecheș.

What it is gas.

ATMOS, Atman.

5:35 Miniștrii din România, mereu surprinși de ce se întâmplă în ministerele pe care le conduc.

12:37 Răsturnare de situație. Nu mai e Holanda, acum e iar Osterreich. Iar unul din ei este chiar el. Nu se va supune la vot? Votul este trecut pe ordinea de zi. Singura chestie e că e împreună cu Bulgaria iar România ar trebui să opună veto-ul la ordinea de zi pe chestia asta asta și pe orice problemă până nu se aplică Tratatul de Aderare care spune imediat hă hăăă taman din 2005! Se numește negociere.

Asta o poate face (e împuternicit de Iohannis) doar o singură persoană și anume surprinsul onoratul Cătălin Predoiu. Fără să dea cu ecusonul în masă, rugăm doar votul (veto-ul, whatever)!

Apropo Băsescu, ceilalți europarlamentari, ce dr.Dre fac ei acolo pe lumea cealaltă? De ce nu mai sună Băsescu televiziunile la miezul nopții să ne explice?

3:08 Went to WinCo. Upstairs it's a dance festival. When i left a guy or two speaking Spanish dressed in an uniform climbed upstairs and started to stomp and  yell in Spanish with the open door. As i said many times before, their main tool is synchronization. I hope they didn't get in here. One reason could have been me clean installing Windows yesterday on the new computer.

At WinCo one tall guy who i think is a Hungarian politician (tall, blue eyes, moustache) with a small kid who was everywhere around the conveyers. The man kept telling the kid in English not to touch (the stuff on the conveyers) but at a certain time the kid said something in Hungarian. I know because it started with the word mind pronounced meend. I think by the way he was looking he was referring at both conveyers.

Now i hear a power tool upstairs.

I know from lifetime numerous experienced It is best to avoid any contact with Hungarians. The moment they speak they will threat you sometimes with only one word said by a kid. Sometimes it can be just bullying and sometimes it can be real. And then you'd have to comply with their demands.

3:33 Now they came to blow leaves from the alley and parking lot in front of the building where i shall pick them again. Nevermind, they finally decided to take the leaves out of here. (Picture taken through the window).

Daily progress in fixing the stairs. I think the "structural" part of the work is done and the stairs ca already be used. I remember about a week ago there in the morning there was a black truck with some red trims all around. It showed in the street right after that moment when i had to literally run for my life at the 7-11 intersection.

4:47 But who are the frustrated monkey that lost its head?


Penguins or rats?

5:12 If air quality index is 61 right now and i don't feel anything and was 117 earlier and didn't feel much, how bad was last night around the building? It felt like 500.

7:14 I think after i figured who are the occupants upstairs they left and "sublet" the apartment to other, very aggressive persons. One of them is a massive woman with big butt and legs and the other is a thin guy both looking Latinos. Apparently they don't have any idea what they are doing here. They are constantly walking, especially the big woman and never talking to each other so they can't be recognized by their voices.

At first they were walking along the long wall of the living. I found cracks between ceiling and wall in there. Now they moved their walks in other corners of the apartment. They awoke Angela. Did i mention they use the same car with Washington LPN CJS4869 and furniture has never been replaced?

Went outside and again there is smoke above 200 though the index at the nearest monitor is 60.

7:42 All i want for Christmas...

8:28 Nebunia continuă. De mai mulți ani. Mandatul (nu e scris în articol) este din 2017 și e bineînțels numai de palmares. De lăsat l-au lăsat să-și facă treaba în continuare. Repet, dacă e adevărat.

8:30 I think i just saw the new guy from upstairs. Though i think is saw a guy like him in the balcony of the apartment with the German Shepard. Anyways, something in this direction.

November 27

1:15 Just came from outside. Stupid Windows changed the time i took the picture (that came out blurry, not posting quality i'm used to) to last accessed time so i don't know when i went, maybe 11:30. To pick the rotting leaves.

After the wind shifted from that direction, when we got back tonight the smell in here was unbearable even with ozone generator at a higher setting for hours. After two days ago i picked the ones in the back, i thought i was happily done but today i had to tackle the ones in front. First i grabbed the ones around the hydrant where it stinks like used oil from the leaky Chrysler. I now believe it was meant to cover all the other smells including rotting leaves.

Then i tried next to it and the more i went towards the end of the building the more i picked. They were dried at the surface but wet and stinky under. Stinkier than in the back i thing because wind is blowing more from that direction. I lost count of how many laundry baskets but again i think more than twenty. So i went and picked and picked for almost two hours.

BTW the laundry basket is way stinkier now than after i picked those in the back. Though i washed it. It smells like a swamp.

When i thought i was finally done i glimpsed some more under the laundry vents. So i went there with the basket and when i grabbed a pile with my right hand to push them into the basket (they were 2 ft tall there) what did i touch. The rat bait box. Right under the vent.

And it was warm to the touch. Somebody's been drying laundry all the time i was outside but i went first in other areas and did not inhaled much except at the end.

Being heated by the vapor every time they were doing laundry and most likely releasing bait vapor that i was breathing. And it's been like that for at least six months. God knows if they were refreshing the bait or not but i saw the guys with the green pickup (forgot the name) several different times, last time recently maybe a month ago.

No it's been more than 6 months ago. It's been more than one year ago cause i remember when they first installed them i picked like 6 rats from the back rotting in the hot summer Sun. Nevermind it was in  September. Not long after i complained about seeing rats entering under the other building.

Wondering. But i think i now i know what possessed me i did not recognize the problem with the vents washing those boxes. I was under the influence of smoke coming from mole holes.

The were literally gassing us here since September 2022. Mostly me cause i stay here all the time. Maybe the reasons my hands are nowadays shaky and have palpitations.

The reason the woman at 4 was staying in the balcony talking on the phone for hours, probably while and after drying laundry.

2:09 Wandering. If an inhaled toxin that went into your bloodstream passes through intestinal wall into the intestine. Cause if so, taking activated charcoal could be helpful, by removing the toxin at intestines' level thus attracting more from the blood stream through osmosis/reverse osmosis whatever. BTW could this work for kidney failure? It all depends if activated charcoal can absorb urea or uric acid and of course if those pass the intestinal wall inside the intestine. Yes it can!

2:35 I think it works a little. Feeling better after half hour i took 2400 mg (two 1200 mg capsules) of those. Was  thinking the give Angela some but she fell back asleep until i grabbed one and some water. BTW when i opened bedrooms' window was smelling badly like mold from before and even after i picked the leaves cause the ground is wet and full of it.

Air in the living is much cleaner because of the ozone and the activated carbon filter so i let the door open and can hear her snoring lightly. Don't know what to do, she is supposed to wake up at 4:30 to go to work. What if i wake her and then she cannot fall back asleep? But i was outside and exposed a lot to the "laundry" vapor and inside there is the carbon filter i just replaced the elements and bedroom is less exposed to that stuff being on the other side of the building.

Yeah i'm much better 45 minutes after i took those. I gave her one then she fell back asleep. But i figured something else. The capsules i bought on  Amazon are not created equal. I mean some of them have twice the amount inside than others. Which indicates cheating.

Never saw capsules of something half full except for all charcoal i ever bought. Walmart charcoal capsules are half full but they are 300 something mg. Grocery Outlet capsules are 600 (if i did not switch them in my mind) but have the same degree of fulness (when gently squeezed with two fingers). Of these, only a few are full, most are more than half empty. And the charcoal does not seem so black.

BTW i bought from Amazon spark plugs for Elantra. OEM bla bla. 66 bucks for 4 seemed a good deal. They are packed in the same type of cardboard all Hyundai parts are and have the Hyunda/Kia logos in the ceramic part and cardboard box. However they have so many irregularities in shape and color i'm thinking or returning them.

3:25 Ok the pink discoloration seem to come from the laser welding of iridium tips. Cause it does look like laser welding. However the hook electrode is not aligned with the center one. And i'm afraid to bend it cause i may break the welding. But isn't that iridium layer shorting it? Could there be some are selling parts scrapped by Hyundai?

3:33 Yeah very interesting. They are not squeaking upstairs when/after she dries laundry.

4:57 Ok i woke up this morning after about 5 hours of sleep, really groggy. Though i haven't been drinking much last night and none last two days. They have not come back upstairs until 2 PM. I would think this is what it took for the stuff to clear the walls. But when they came they came with a vengeance.

I say they but i think there's really only one person. Haven't hear so much squeaking or stomping in a long time. While i was trying to figure the exact location of the incident Saturday night. Here's what i did.

I figured the event must have taken place @11:13 since the clock showed 11:11 but the clock was 2-3 minutes slow. I separated data from the gpx file downloaded from the GPS between 11:09 and 11:16 and loaded it into a spreadsheet. Since i was driving North South and had latitudes for every second, i plotted a chart with differences between two adjacent latitudes which gave me the speed in degrees of latitude per second.

There are several spikes in the graph but i think the first is the one. It looks like i slowed down a bit, (never under 70 as i remember), probably because of denser fog or a hill. I know i was on cruise control most of the time, close to 75. Then something made me accelerate, and shutting the cruise control before i slowed down. Then i saw it in the mirror, started to accelerate, at one time i hesitated when Angela started to yell at me not seeing what i was seeing in the mirror, then accelerated again until break out.

And then the other business with the tan car in my blind spot matching speed that exited at first exit after changing mind, twice.

It all happened between Grand Mound and Centralia at 11:09 + 180 seconds that is 11:12 or 36 minutes into the trip. First some event made me shut the cruise control and also accelerate. I think the loss of speed prior to that was due to a sudden increase in elevation without cruse control.

I think the moment was chosen because of a downslope that helped the big vehicle with only one headlight accelerate. The graph shows a period of 7 minutes.

Upstairs. After they squeezed everything they could from the space between mirror and ceiling, they left.

6:15 Last night at Spirit Mountain. I was at one of the entrances (the one closest to the highway) drinking a can of soda i brought from the car and started to talk to a short blond guy dressed funny (something i haven't done in long time). While i was talking to him the woman from Apt.4, though with blue eyes came from inside and stood next to him like they were together, and was staring at me, looking worried and she didn't say a word and they left one minute later.

7:25 About an our ago maybe later i heard a noise like a trailer hitting a bump. I was not worried cause they do it all the time here. But about half hour ago i started to here a noise like a towing truck was picking a car and after i wrote the entry above i said i better look and see. And what did i see. A guy with a truck backed up "not seeing" a smaller Dodge SUV was already parked in that spot.

It pushed the SUV into a pillar of the stairwell of the building and dislodged the stairs. Now the persons at the second floor there are being rescued by firefighters. Could this have anything to do with people gathering two days ago in the evening and watching in that direction. Maybe there was a fight within a couple. The woman with the Dodge is an Asian and i think the guy with the truck looks Latino.

7:40 Just opened the door again and saw a fat woman very excited hugging a firefighter.

8:00 Firefighters left, a towing truck came, two Police SUVs are on the scene, the truck that pushed the Dodge SUV is gone, the Dodge SUV itself is still riding the curb but slid one spot to the left (in the first picture) while was trying to get over the curve by its own power. People that supposedly came out of that building i haven't seen before, like the woman who was hugging the firefighter.

Inside the smell is almost unbearable. After i removed the leaves, the really bad stuff that was under is now stinking even after one (short, late November) sunny day with UV and stuff. I can barely breath after i had the ozone on for the whole day. Upstairs is like a continuous never ending waltz.

10:15 Ok. The soot coming from those Diesel engines calmed the stench from the ground that was under the rotting wet leaves for a month or more.

10:36 Realitatea paralelă. Apropo Dumitru Dragomir și el a încercat la rândul lui să dea cu SUV-ul peste mine (eram în truck parcă) la intersecția de la 7-11 din colț. Prin octombrie 2019, poate.

10:50 Just figured. The Nestle decaf instant coffee i bought last time at WinCo may contain an unusual amount of roasted grain like barley maybe.


11:08 Jurnalism pe cale de apariție. În sfârșit o deplasare a președintelui anunțată în media înainte de a se întâmpla.

Voiam și eu ca tot omul să citesc ceva funny înainte de a mă culca și peste ce dau în Cațavencii. (Da mi-am amintit fiindcă fraza cu jurnalismul le aparține). Cerneala simpatică. Gazul de sub casa scării. Așa-mi trebuie dacă le fur idei (meseria nu se învață, se fură, așa îmi spunea taică-meu întotdeauna).

Apropo conduceam, sâmbătă seara pe I5 spre nord și când am trecut podul acela înalt peste Columbia cu 4 benzi pe sens ce văd în punctul cel mai înalt. Un dulăpior îngust dar înalt care avusese sticlă (sau cristal) de jur împrejur care sticlă acum era spartă și împrăștiată pe porțiunea îngustă de lângă banda din stânga.

Dar de ce în picioare? Ca să se vadă mai bine? Kristallnacht? După multe faze nereușite, erau să ne căsăpească la venire, faza de mai sus.

November 24

10:05 Don't know if i can include the cyclicity of the seasons (given by the Earth's rotation around the Sun) in an explanation about Amaterasu's myth but November 23 is close enough to the winter solstice, at December 21 when daylight time starts to increase again.

But by reading the above linked article i figured other important things.

In the myth, the birth of music and shamanic dance is attributed to the temporary missing of the goddess, when daylight disappeared. In contemporary music, there are numerous examples of songs speaking of that, and comes to mind the verses "she got down but she never got tight/she's gonna make it through the night" from Blinded by the Light by Manfred Man.

Music and dance are now so ubiquitous in media and we never take the time to stop and think. How was life before the century of the lights? When it all started? The Renaissance? One thing we don't recognize. The shamanism of dance and music that surrounds our lives nowadays. And we all seem to ignore the source.

Modern music seems to have taken these days the role of a (shamanic) teacher, instructing us all the time (against the old order) with words repeating obsessively over and over. Having in mind another influential song by Pink Floyd.

Calculated deception and use of force for our good. Taking matters into own hands. Extrajudicial justice. Devine trickery. The Book of  Ninja (Bansenshukai) is full of it. But also comes to mind Maya, the world of illusions or mother of Buddha, which is part of Buddhism. Could it be the reason of the happy marriage in Japan between Buddhism and Shintoism, which seems to be a term linguistically derived from "Hinduism".

Own cave. Could this be the (Devine) model for Hikikomori? There are millions of young Japanese people who retreated in their own room, some for years. They also call it "social withdrawing". Though i suspect some of them are secretly enrolled in ninja training and Japan not having more hikikomori as percentage of the total population than any country.

I did that once. Been in the apartment for months if not one or two years, never going out. Angela had to go alone to buy groceries. In a year or two my body started to atrophy. Gained more and more weight.

One day it snowed a lot (like it happens once or twice a year in Oregon). I mean, one foot of snow and i ran out of cigarettes' and Angela could not drive to 7-11 with the Nissan.

I went outside, i was high all the time during that time though not realizing. I tried to put chains on the rear wheels of the truck, the chain on one wheel got entangled, i broke the truck. So i had to walk the half mile to 7-11. But after walking for like 5 minutes in the snow i realized i cannot walk no more. Me who when i was young i was walking 30 km or more in one day on the trails in the mountains surrounding the city i was born and lived until 14 or during vacations until 18.

In that evening i went outside to take pictures with the snow, again, the same difficulty moving around the complex.

So it cannot be. Those people will atrophy and not be able to do anything anymore in a year or so. I mean, some of them could be real, like in any country, and others using this as an opportunity.

But it has gotten out of control. For decades after the appearance of radio and television people accepted those as carrying new, unheard of before forms of speech and entertainement. More and more allusive, then with more and more sexual content, to the point one simply cannot listen to them anymore. How many curse words in a song by Doja Cat?

They for as long as i can remember used a lot a type of figurative speech when the singer speaks at first person actually casting attributes to another together with obsessively, bullying appellative "baby" that nowadays has turn into "b...h" and "ho" (Doja Cat, Doechii) in extraordinarily offensive songs.

Paint the Town Red has been on tops since release, with of course the help of all DJs in the world cause actually i and probably many others don't find that song so appealing to be played like 20 times a day on a hip-hop local station. Actually i ignored it for a long time though i was listening to it while driving and it came to my attention by chance.

Will people ever start to realize this is not western culture anymore but pieces of Amaterasu's mirror that shattered and covered the whole world?

They own most everything in the US. Though the graphs shows other countries "as well", their are present with finances in those countries as well. .7 trillions direct investment in US in 2021, must have been one trillion in 2023. It's all the money American pay for cars and other goods. Now they are pushing their singers disguised as Latinos and/or Blacks with their media networks in our ears.

11:42 Bullied by Republic Services.

I was writing the above when the thunder of the garbage truck started. I ran to the bin to pull the old garbage sacks from under only to see the bin being set again on top of those. And BTW there is a new one but fortunately was not covered yet.

I tried to talk to the driver and he said "why don't we do this next week" and i told him "i don't know if i can be that fast or even present" and then i asked him kindly "if he could do us all a favor and pull those two bags next week from under the bin (when he lifts it)" and he said "i should talk to the management and have the maintenance team be there to do that".

Then i told him i cannot tell the management what to do (i actually don't believe this is my job) and then he said "i see were you're coming from" and shut the cabin's door and now i feel guilt for even asking him that.

Wondering. Is there any procedure he has to follow or just continue to put the bin over old rotting garbage sacks.

12:08 I was driving yesterday to Grande Ronde on 18 around 5 PM. I think it was just before McMinville on the variant when i saw some flashing lights in the mirror. I was planning to pull as soon as those get closer, however they got closer much sooner than expected. It was dark enough not to see  the outer margin of the shoulder or the beginning of the ditch so like many times before, about one ft of my car remained in the lane.

Right in that fraction of a second i saw 3 State Police cars literally flying by. I think they had more than 100 mph. First one was far enough but second almost shaved my car. I haven't seen those again and haven't seen anything further down the road and i know State Police only have jurisdiction on freeways, or outside cities and towns.

12:22 Before that. Yesterday afternoon i added two more hundred milliliters of ATF in my car. I went for a test drive and yes, that was the case. I was low in ATF and the car was now shifting much better.

But it was like that since i got the car. I remember i saw on the plastic panel under the transmission and engine a pink gel. Is this what ATF turns into after a while?  Though there was no leak, then and later.

Obviously had to bend over to do that. But there was no one behind me.

Soon after i did that went to take the garbage and saw yet another trail of litter dust coming from the same place and going to the bin. I immediately went and grabbed the broom but several cars already passed over, milling those beads. I swept what i could, however i inhaled some of the dust. It was this choice. Let it there and slowly inhaling the dust over several days or sweep it and only inhale some once.

However it was not without consequences. Hours later i started to have weird daydreams, almost hallucinations when i was trying to sleep in the car. (Then i tried to drink from a broken plastic glass and spilled the drink on me. Then i had to rain inside with my pants wet because i had an urge to go out).

Thing is we were both under influence of that dust, for about a week. Angela was really mad these days.

12:32 Yesterday i first drove to Lincoln City. I was planning to hang around while Angela plays there. But i came 5 minutes earlier to the meeting point where i was supposed to pick her at 7:15. Tried to call but like last time her phone (we turned both phones on for a short time) wouldn't work inside  the casino. 2 minutes after, or at 7:12 a Security SUV came by. I was at the very edge of their property and not sure if inside or out.

However i was on the outer side of the street that supposedly is the border. The Security SUV entered the parking lot of the building of the Commission across the street and then left. However i left too and i could finally talk to her as she got out. She had to climb about 100 ft to the place i was cause i did not want to take a chance. Last time i talked to those guys they said i would be arrested if i come again on their property.

Question. Why there are not signs showing that your are on a private property, gates of fences? Is 4th street a public or a private road? How can i find out?

3:02 Ok i found something. I don't believe 4th St. is included in any of the properties. It is a bunch of properties belonging to the Confederation but i don't believe it is even a reservation. Unless the whole Lincoln City is.

But they don't need to be a reservation. Anywhere they act, the tribes are not taxed. Further research. What is the legal definition of a tribe, and how many members are left in Lincoln City and surrounding areas.

4:38 When the came today to empty the bins mold and bacteria from bins spread into the leaves. Because the leaves, in some areas up to 18 inches deep or tall or whatever are wet under. Some have tiny bubbles of bacterial growth.

That's why i found myself out of breath especially after Angela went to Walmart. Cause our digestive enzymes combined spread with opening of the esophagus/stomach or lower esophageal sphincter (the so called hiatal hernia) fight better the spores in the air.

Here came this matured tall guy with a goatee and two dogs (after children yelling like possessed by a mischievous kami) and chose to stop to get a better view of me from behind exactly when i was about to bend to fill a laundry basket. That would be basis for a later retaliation bending over which synced with some other stuff like noises, will make me sick for a half day.

6:33 Yeah i'm almost done with the leaves. I almost filled a whole bin. Yes the bin that sits on top of bags with old garbage, in a position where not many people throw their garbage on (it never gets filled, not even half of it). But the leaves are very loose, if enough people throw garbage over they will give in and pack. No evil done. BTW the person who used to throw blue doggy bags next to the bin now turned to pink.

John 14:6 "I am the truth" vs IN VINO VERITAS. Can a sinner tell the truth, on occasions? Do you have to be a martyr to give a good advise?

In Shintoism and Hinduism "there are no absolutes" like good and evil, each kami or devi is a mixture of them just like humans. Kali (the demon god, the fierce mother, the fury of Durga, the feminine counterpart of Shiva) kills (destroys) all evil doers etc. She was born enraged and even rebelled against her husband, Shiva.

8:10 PM. 817 DEU is the LPN of a GM black SUV that was parked next to the bin tonight. I saw that before but  never made the link. I longtime suspected the old man who dresses like a clown or homeless (suggesting modesty) is some religious figure from Romania.

After i caught my breath and wrote a bit in here i went to finish. They were two big piles that i squeezed in three laundry baskets and i grabbed a round piece of wood the size of a basketball bat to make more room in the bin.

A very thick smoke and the woman at 4 talks again in the balcony.

While i was trying to pack the leaves with the big stick a blond guy who lives with the old man came and threw provocatively from a distance 3 improvised doggy bags and one of them almost landed on my head, one next to the bin, saying something and then he left. BTW some people threw a few bags and now the bin smells like dog poop.

So bad it got into my clothes together in the parking lot.

All these happened after picking leaves for 2 hours with no one around and then spending one hour inside. Which means they were all celebrating their holiday which now i'm sure they believe in and had to call them over. Sorry guys for disrupting.

8:22 Here is a typical example of bending over. In an empty parking lot during a holiday, this woman stopped at a stop sign, got out of the car in a place she was not supposed to, even though there was no traffic, went on the right side and did something for at least a minutes so i had the time and opportunity.

From that distance it is also less offensive to viewers. The stress was provided within a minute by a cop who was patrolling the area, stopping at every shop. Yeah i was at the Mud Bay next to Michaels.

9:18 Mi-am zis eu mie însumi. Cu prima ocazie când gătesc orez fac o poză. Cel mai simplu lucru de gătit. 2 căni și jumătate apă, una cu vârf orez. După ce fierbe apa, pun orezul, amestec o singură dată, dau la foarte mic, pun capacul și urmăresc să bolborosească nu prea tare după care pun timer-ul la 12 minute când opresc aragazul și îl mai las să stea să tragă toată apa dacă mai are.

Se poate adăuga și lapte, zahăr, la sfârșit, când e fiert.

Total timp de lucru, 5 minute, timp total, 20. Da știu capacul e de la altceva, puțin mai mare, are mânerul rupt dar așa cu ele cum le vedeți am făcut eu mult orez.

10:38 I knew the smoke outside does not come from a wildfire, by the smell. It took many hours for the smoke to get here, 13 miles away in the wind's direction.

November 22

8:00 Munchies. A snack brand that is built on a common English verb. To munch. Which is familiar for chew. Wanted to double check before posting and i wish i didn't cause i ran into a different trouble than the one i wanted to talk about. Depending on how you ask google, you may get different answers. (Will take some time for me to settle on this one as well).

Nevermind google changed (again) on me. That is while i was writing the above, the search result for "munch" changed. When i first searched for "munch", i got the result i now get with "munch slang".

Ok so i kinda lost momentum and inspiration however now that i already invested two paragraphs into it, i will finish it (also because i wanted many times to do it but i did not have a device ready as i opened most snack bags on the road somewhere).

Munchies by Frito Lay is a mix of several known type of snacks, featuring Doritos, pretzels, Cheetos and a few others. It comes in plain "Cheese fix" or hot spicy version as well. (Don't get too carried, there are only traces of cheese in those).

Doritos is by far the most popular snack in the US and it goes well with pretzels. Pretzels temper the spiciness of Doritos and Doritos bring more flavor to the bland pretzels. Cheetos in munchies don't feel so much like cheating (on your mouth) anymore.

As i said now i don't know how to put this in a more literary way so i will say it plainly.

You have to be real careful when you open a bag of any of these snacks. Ideally use some good sharp scissors. Otherwise the bag will tear very easily all the way to the bottom and every time i did that i asked myself if this is not yet another weird stupid marketing strategy. Cause it accelerates dramatically the munching of the snacks in the torn bag obviously for fear of not spilling them while those tasty little things are mostly empty calories.

8:32 Something i'm made for. A different kinda music that takes my breath away. Literally. Was i made for something else than eating and sleeping or the crazy little thing called love?

1:15 Little thing. Pește de post. Poate într-o zi vă veți da seama cum vă iau ăștia mințile. Cine poate să verifice la Murgeni, Vaslui că e adevărat ce spun ăștia.

1:60 Last night i did laundry and cooked the ham. There was much heat inside. i had to open the patio door. Litter dust came inside (that didn't happen in a long time). Because of it my face, my throat was burning. The doubling, after i complained about spilled litter in front of the building and the trail on the alley. As a result but also because of the noise upstairs Angela could not sleep and she came early from work.

At work they ask her again to train the deaf-mute on a product she didn't do much before (would have meant to follow the documentation and train) and she declined as she was too tired then finishing the work she started yesterday.

The big man, Steve was out in vacation and his replacement was Sergey, the white righteous Russian who treats Angela in similar ways. Together with the "Vietnamese" sisters. How many times i wrote on fb about the "sisters"?

The result. Another screwed up holiday like all holidays and weekends.

Like at all her and my jobs before. These are not jobs, but punishment squads. I would have quit 1000 times if i was her like i did before (i had a total of 23 jobs in the US). But she is a tough little woman.

All because a bunch of lunatics in the US (a few millions or more) think we are Zoia and Nicu Ceaușescu. To keep the loonies on the path started by "Pacepa".

More doubling. They came with the blowers. I measured once 70dB inside with an app on a phone. But will the collect the leaves?

3:27 Every time i get religious (i put a few recipes though i do not fast) they give me the horny dust.