September 10

8:00 Trouble with balance and breathing. I had too much cheap wine last night. Woke around 6 after about 3 hours on top of 2 in the car at Spirit Mountain. There i bought some food at 10 Barel and the woman didn't give my card back and i forgot to ask. This is the first time it ever happened to me. Later they paged for me and Angela heard and sent me to get my card from security. How come she didn't realize she had my card while i was eating? I remember i had to wait a lot while a "drunk Mexican" guy was making a big speech in Spanish and then i went and she had the package ready. Angela had to drive from Chinook to Spirit Mountain cause i was too drunk.

Earlier at Chinook Winds. Went at McDonalds, got too Big Macs, one for one dollar, but at the window had to wait like 5 minutes to pay, because the guy was taking a never ending order at the inter-phone.

Never happened to me also, i thought they had to process the cards first which takes no time and then talk to other customers. Wasn't drunk but a bit tired after 2 hours of driving, maybe dizzy because of some exhaust from a white Chevrolet truck during last minutes of driving. Because of that, i got confused, maybe brain-programmed, was still holding the card in my hand at the pickup window. The "Spanish" guy who gave me the food had a back pack and was not dressed as a McDonalds employee. However at that window at McDonalds i saw many weird people, including politicians and celebrities. Once i was in line after one of the singers from Boney M., etc.. Basically always something happens in there.

Couldn't take it no more. At 7 i went and emptied the bin at the door in the garbage bin. 4 big plastic sacks with rubbish, a number of boards. At some point i stopped and counted and my heart beat that was 200. Took a break. Now is 95.

About ten trips to the garbage bin, half hour. On the bottom of the temporary bin (at my door) there was/is sawdust mixed with gypsum dust from a previous usage that ferments when wetted by sprinklers. Tried and scrapped as much as i could of that. A crow was cawing in the rhythm of my breath. Ambulances went off, cars moving around.

Big trouble is someone threw something in the main garbage bin where i took this stuff to, like rotting food that stinks really bad and wind is blowing from that direction.

They also called a firm that yesterday put traps for rats all around the buildings. Eradi-con. What if a rat dies in there and stinks in the heat until Monday.

Sun came up red. There is haze from wildfires. AQI is 108. Temperatures outside is 70 and will be in the 90s today.

12:35 After trying and waking up with apnea accompanied by palpitations (because of the dust i inhaled when i cleaned that bin) about 10 times, finally fell asleep and slept about 2 hours. Heart rate is 72. Temperature outside is 80. Still got alcohol in my system. Again, it happens when stimulated by pain from Pele's hair. You drink and don't get drunk or high because of it, but the next day...

Earlier i hosed the building and the AC. Though there are leaks and smoke gets in here, it's almost acceptable inside. The wet cold radiator acts as a filter (as in any AC, including central) and that is the reason it needs to be washed frequently. The Cheddar Creek fire moves too quickly around the map apparently in the opposite direction of the wind and the winds and air pressure is spreading the plume in a shell like pattern over all Northern Oregon which is weird.

Maybe it's time i mention again the firebirds of Australia. Some resemble species from here and a non specialist could not distinguish them from natives. But there could be also native species that do the same. That could be multiplied and released by some when needed, for setting a fire for psychological purposes.

5:56 Right now closest i can think of the man upstairs is her. She also looks as the woman at 4. Within half hour or so a chocking dust has been released, have trouble breathing.

5:52 Apropo de Illyés. Operator, regizor, mai puțin actor.

6:51 Not sure what that dust was, i think it was litter dust that came through a crack due to vibration while i was drying. I was really tired or "too tired to sleep", felt like i will never drink again. All of a sudden, now i feel energized, like drinking, going out, etc.. Also a bit nauseated.

9:33 Part of the tape o i put on the ceiling above the coach has been remove, litter dust fell from there. That could only have happened if someone went inside. So i got a one more dose. Probably will never be able to free from those.

The strange dogs from Expanse. Created by the builders of the rings, they have the power to revive a human being and turn it into an immortal zombie. With a snake head, and dog or praying mantis like body they may represent the alliance between dogs (Dominican, Hungarians) and snakes (ninja, Japanese). Too bad the series ended, we will never know what would become of those in the future (unless we are willing to read the book which is hard to read because of many words in imaginary languages).

Another instance when this happens may be in the book of Phil Knight, the inventor of sneakers. She Dog that features on the cover a Dog She.

August 21

8:56 Should i apologize to other casino goers for what happened last night? I had no idea this would happen. I thought there would be not so much dust on our clothes. To have this effect on others. Yesterday before we left i tried to wet the activated carbon filters, like i did during wildfires, which was stopping most smoke. Wet filters are the only way to filter particles 10 times smaller than the smallest a HEPA filter can get. Or electrostatic, but that one has not enough capacity.

It's all BeeZee's construction fault. They put all the garbage they extracted from around the windows in one huge open bin right at our door and left it over the weekend. Some of those pieces of wood are full of dust from inside the wall, dust that may contain sharp silica nano-particles. Not talking about trying to seal the exposed holes in the wall with pieces of flashing too short. Noises like from cars with modified exhaust, cars hitting the bump outside the building easily raise that dust. I developed a feel for it in Lake Oswego, when i went several times in the attic to fix exhaust pipes. I know when huge amounts are present in the air.

I think it happened before, but not at this scale. Dust is constantly falling from the roof through the airing vents, again at noises and bump hitting.

We were carrying unknowingly tiny amounts of those particle on our clothes. Once inside, it spread everywhere. I think of the times when they were smoking inside the casino. Cigarette smoke would have trapped that dust.

Never seen so many people so excited in my life. They were swarming frantically in the casino, passing from one machine to another, twice as fast as i've seen usually. A woman won a hand at a table game and was yelling for minutes. More people than usual at that day and our were present, according to google maps. I think they owners made much money that night as people when they get excited tend to play and loose more.

I'm taking big chances in writing this but i think it's an opportunity to prove what that dust does in tiny amounts. Don't bother trying to analyze. You won't see anything in an optical microscope and in an electronic one you won't find the particles among others as they are very few with such dramatic effect.

Try to imagine what's happening to us. Not much to me anymore, cause i know. But Angela awoke and started to yell already.

I am also sitting here at the computer and the guy upstairs is raining contaminated litter dust on me. I smell like coming from a stable, though it's less then 24 hours since last shower.

Because of pain, yesterday i drank in the parking lot there about 500 ml of brandy and fell asleep passed out. Angela didn't want to drive, being too tired (after all the effort it took to loose 600 dollars). So i did it after i slept a couple of hours there, with doors unlocked. At Sheridan a Sheriff's detours took me on a very narrow road with no shoulder.

Pele's hair happens when a strong wind blows during a volcanic eruption. It is the design inspiration for mineral fiber found in most American homes. A good thermal insulator, very cheap to manufacture, all you have to do is heat volcanic lava inside a centrifuge machine, like for making cotton candy. Fibers are irregular and breakage is submicroscopic.

And yes, Rihanna was present dressed as a security guard. I talked to her and wrote Angela's name on a piece of paper in front of her cause i had to page her (got lost, gave up searching, she didn't hear the phone or whatever. The insulation in older homes is loose, the final product presented here is bound and packaged. However, my thoughts go to those the walking dead who work in there, without a breathing apparatus or even masks, especially in pre-binding and cutting areas. Not that it would make a difference, those particles are too small.They phased out and demonized asbestos because this is probably cheaper to manufacture, and no study has tied the effects on human health, which are more psychological than organ damaging, at least at first.

2:03 16 éves Nagy Adrienn

2:57 Dug-in for you. I think it's wrong to say: this guy started the war, or Putin or Rasputin or whatever. These guys live in some sort of collective consciousness they brought with them from Australia called "the dreaming" (yes, i believe now the American dream is just a part of it).

11:04 I think the significance of bowing in Japan is more deep that we all think. First, there is the bowing to the emperor, who is a god. But then the emperor bows back and all people bow to each other, head first (there is another type of bow, reserved to enemies, the other way around and  that also has some weird but negative power  to that person and i have experienced many times, like several times yesterday while driving). I think when the emperor bows back he transmits some of his divine power to the people.  Could it be a form of syncing their brainwaves, a form of deep communication like that of aboriginal Australians based on vibrational communications.

Then they all start to feel a bit part of it. Lesser gods. Their kami in connection to the emperor's kami. This and other supernatural powers, like shin shin shin gan (or maybe the same vibrational comms), other tricks of which some are plainly mundane to modern people, and some that deserve attention, known and used by ninja, all might have started the belief that Japanese are a superior race and also their extreme cultural isolation.

11:43 Hip and knees problems, debilitating pain, trouble standing and walking? Before trying hip replacement surgery i suggest you should try a few servings of bone broth (and removing the offensive pollutants source). Not exactly a fan of the taste, i mix it with noodles soup. Don't know exactly what it is and how it works but it does wonders on inflamed tissues. After being exposed for a whole week to again sharp submicronic possibly electrified silica based, sulfur contaminated mineral dust, i started to have that problem again and got relief after only one serving.

12:00 Scars, the dreaming and other ideas took from me. Their method of killing information and Dugina is not dead since she was not real but a tennis player from Hungary which for some weird reason chose to show in the parking lot at Safeway in Lincoln City tonight, though she ran away and was replaced by a double after i recognized her.

Rușii nu-și doresc hegemonie globală, ci doar Euro-Asiatică. Și ei au toți politicienii fake, provenind din aceeași sursă, adevărata putere mondială, auto-declarată în melodie. Like it's 75 again.