August 17

3:03 Was Haydn linked to the occult?

As i said yesterday morning when i went to the dumpster there was a woman most likely at Apt.4 crying and yelling, and at some point she yelled: "But i don't wanna live!". But i am so convinced i am immersed into a huge allegory i did not react.

Besides, i saw her one minute later climbing down the stairs at the other entrance where Apt.3 and 4 are upstairs, crying, and she was a short, chubby, Latina looking woman with no shoes and a tattoo on her shoulder and she went and entered building next to E.

Earlier i saw what i thought it was an Alexa meme with two dogs bending, picking a poop, i did not see her face very well, she was only showing one side, carefully. Then i closed the hood of the car and went back inside, and then she passed really close to the door, talking on the phone, i thought with a slight accent. We left soon after.

But when i saw the news late last night i also thought it was her and when i looked i saw at AlexaCrush tiktok account something like a warning posted Sunday morning at 8 local time (should not miss those anymore).

How weird was that, on the road, they poured asphalt south of Tacoma and exit 88, (i complained a o lot about that road), and there was a traffic jam that lasted more than half hour (on a Sunday) holding us on top of that fresh asphalt which i know is not good for wounds.

4:15 Angela said she slept very little last night because of the guys upstairs. I know at least him awakes when Angela leaves and that is he sleeps a little more than her. I was talking to Angela about how we should go to the office and complained, and they started even more upstairs, dragging furniture this time.

They also poured fresh asphalt around the sign where Home Depot delivered two items for me about a week ago. Double down.

3:40 Undeclared, unrecognized but steady work at the apartment upstairs.

In the last years i was always intrigued with synchronous events in my life. Lately i am literally chocked by the number of allegories that are unfolding around me since the moment i open the door.

I knew Hindu goddess Kali is a goddess that is explicitly said to be of time. At some point i was convinced the Latin word calendarium (and a bunch of others) come from Kali. But Inanna/Ishtar is also linked to time through the octostar and later pentagram, but so far could not find any connection between the two.

4:16 I was thinking about this a lot and in the past i even wrote a post about. Somewhere i said i should write about how Ishtar became such a great goddess, cause i don't believe calculating new years' days, which again, was a great deal during those years was enough for her to last millennia and rule over the occult and thus to the whole planet to this day.

Let's think about the pair production (of positron and electron). According to current theory, energy of the photons creates two particles with mass. According to my theory that says photons are unstable pairs of whirls in EAther, photon splits into an electron and a positron, two stable whirls. But what if the electron and positron resulted from that split (pair production) are literally or physically entangled?

In the real world made of matter, the positron won't survive much but other entanglements do survive indefinitely unless they hit specific obstacles. My hypothesis is in case of entanglement the particles are literally linked together through a very narrow "funnel". If the AEther was indeed made of very fine particles, the "funnel" should get thinner and thinner and then break with the distance between entangled particles, but i wonder how would they know this.

Besides particles are not isolated but in continuous interaction with other particles. Even with current theories entangled particles should be created together thus in the same point in space. How could you move one entangled particle away from its pair meters or galaxies away without applying momentum or fields or something, without interacting with it which would break the entanglement.

The idea is since according to both theories there should be entangled particles all around us and we are literally swimming in this tangle like a spider web, maybe breaking some, maybe attaching to some of those strings. Parts of our bodies with maybe specialized organs, like deep inside the brain could attach to those "funnels" creating weird connections?

I am looking, in my mind again at the clay tablet or bass relief or something (terracotta) representing Inanna/Ishtar and i see the two owls and other symmetrical things like maybe ankhs in her hands which makes pairs but i am not sure as of right now what they represent in Sumer mythology.

Yeah ok it may point to the better sight of owls which may be linked to the observing of phases of Venus as it passes from one side of the Sun to another. Ok just realized something, the lions seem to have a common rear body. As for the wings, well, we all know. She came from the sky.

The idea also based on my observations (the way the guys upstairs torture me by reacting to my thoughts) is they may be (rituallically) master some sort of telepathy and demonstrations of it to new recruits is what it really keeps this otherwise forgotten religion still strong and still going on.

There are some similarities between Hindu goddess Kali and Ishtar. Hairdo - diademe, hair - wings, stepping on Shiva - lion, some tools and weapons may be similar (in different representations).

7:27 Saw this image on a Romanian site and i thought it might want to subliminally represent a black triangle on the sky and my mind flew to a mason's apron i once saw. Never heard of the word unidentfied (aerial) object used to describe a drone. One thing is sure. The more i write about meaningful things, the more drones wonder in Romania. Or so they say (the authorities).

Then i searched for the eye of god on a masonic apron and what did i find. It makes sense. Shiva is the god of destruction as opposed to building (freemasons) and Kali, his wife, stepped on him. Not unique to Salamanca.
 

Did some more searches and i ran invariably into the same phrase i know well. Freemasonry is not a religion.

Here are the two snake brothers Fuxi and Nuwa, post flood creationist gods from Chinese mythology carrying a square and a compass (with which they rebuilt the world). Nuwa also seems to be at the origin of the world Noah in the Bible.

10:00 Though the casino was full, the line at the food court got suddenly short and i asked Angela to order fish and chips for me (because she has more points on the card). There was no more line behind me but it took like half and hour. They finally gave it to me and went in the car to eat it. I opened the tray to see if there was tartar sauce and there was. I could not seal back the tray no matter how much i tried.

Went in the car, grabbed the tray from the big brown bag and put it on my lap only to realize the little trays with tartar sauce that were not sealed properly overturned and all tartar sauce fell on the tray and outside the tray and into my lap. I was full of tartar sauce on my pants that is. Was it then when i think i saw this guy again in the lot climbing in an SUV close to my car?

Got problems with the car, i added again a bit of trans fluid, measured temperature, it is not too much or overheating, it runs fine, no more jerking or hesitating, however the mileage at the car went down like 10% and cannot find the cause.

I know i wrote recently about the mishap with the rear brakes (and they have the tendency to double down everything) and went to check, raised the car on jack left and right, the left rear wheel is turning fine but i thought i felt a resistance at the right. However is too dark and they releases smoke in the parking lot (that smells like coal smoke) and came back inside. Tomorrow, but during day time is too hot outside (up to 90 today).

Got to check brakes all around anyways, they have over 100k (mostly outside city), yesterday i felt (all of a sudden) they do not hold that well anymore, i was in this stop and go traffic near Centralia for more than half hour, also very tired, behind a black Mercedes that was really hard to spot. they have over 100k (mostly outside city).

Could have some air in the front, i did purge the system not long ago. I remember i checked the plates and saw i have enough brakes left for this year.

Latest trick. They stopped the sprinklers about a month ago, the grass got almost dried, i was happy to see they started them ago, however, when the dry grass gets wet it stinks like mold. But i don't thin i heard them tonight. Have to go and check.

August 8

6:50 AM

He said it "entered Bulgaria's airspace from the north" (Romania) but "he did not specify where the drone came from". "Neither of the two neighboring countries had detected the drone".  

If it was not detected how they know it came from Romania?  

8:30 Eu harta asta n-o înțeleg, e desenată foarte prost. Poate doar ei între ei știu ce înseamnă.

1:10 PM Just got back from Walmart. When we arrived at the sign, Angela said it looked different from the image on Home Depot site. When i looked last night on google maps i saw it was different but i thought the picture was old. However, i looked on the other side, not seen from the alley but only from Meridican parking and guess what. The items where there. Now i have to go to Home Depot to return those gifted last night but Sam Elliott.


At Walmart. Just before i left i saw in the parking lot Kim and his sister. I was sitting there in the car (done my share of shopping, came early at the car) in disbelief, half paralyzed because of mole gas last night, and was not capable to pull the phone to take a picture.

It crossed my mind right before he climbed into his mini-van. His sister lingered in the parking lot (to take the cart bla bla) but she looked so nervous to me i was afraid to take a picture even from the car. And i don't think it would have mattered, she had i think sunglasses and a western style hairdo. Even him had sunglasses but his face is so unique.

Yeah don't ask me why he was there. Right next to the 4 career centers or US Armed Forces. Maybe closed for the weekend? No cameras, nothing? Maybe he's got diplomatic immunity?

3:30 Bought again oil at Walmart. Quaker State mineral. After i bragged about how good it is, the price went up from 17 to 25 dollars 5 quarts. On the shelf, i first grabbed a 10W30, i put it back and got my 5W20. But when i put it on the conveyor belt at the stand, it again had oil on the jug, like last time.

Wanted to change the oil but the filter now got 6.3 k, changed it 3 times (early) without changing the filter and i anticipate i will have problems taking the old filter out. So i got to order one.

BTW the box with cement that was given to me by the assistant manager at Home Depot last night was really dirty with something on the outside, that was smelly too (like mineral sulfur, maybe).

5:00 I have been mole free for years until recently. But then again i started to feel disconnected from reality, not carrying about anything, sleeping a lot and not getting rested, etc.. Currently fighting with new stubborn moles that keep drilling under the door. Once i plug one hole with cement mixed with soil, another one is popping next to it etc. and in the morning, the same problem.

Last night i have been watching again these videos with idiots again not with much passion this time and suddenly got hit by the familiarity of their (idiots) attitudes for everything. I mean, construction workers that drop tools, fall from ladders and then laugh etc. and started wondering if all of the poor guys in the videos have been under the influence of low concentration mole venom coming as aerosols from holes near their houses or where they live.

And another one. Coincidentally, right after i wrote about, Bulgarian Prime Minister came back and said the drone was an Ukrainian Maya type. I know maya means illusion in Sanskrit. Is this a doubling about my recent post about the illusion of cyclicity at Nietzsche and Eliade. But then again he first said it had substantial amounts of explosive, because of the noise and black smoke it put out.

Have to dig more into these two things, but it's weekend and i'm taking off to anywhere.

March 20

1:10 AM And i still hear the echoes (echoes).

Thinking of starting a new blog, called just like that, echoes, only for the replies from media to my posts and entries. But i'm afraid i will confuse lots of people for whom the three i already have are a bit too much already.

5:00 Mutând firele dintr-o cameră în alta se produc și îndoiri ale firelor, care oricât de cristaline ar fi, cedează la un număr de cicluri. Apar frecări între fire și "mosoarele" care le mișcă și tensionează/detensionează. În articol nu se spune despre numărul de cicluri la care aceste fire rezistă.

Chestia îmi amintește despre transmisiile continue, cu un fel de curea ca un lanț care transmite mișcare între două perechi de conuri, prin frecare, producând și zgomot, însă e vorba de puteri mult mai mari. O parte a "curelei" este tensionată, alta detensionată.

Apare aceeași întrebare și acum știu de ce a apărut articolul acum. Singura chestie e că eu nu am atacat pe nimeni, în afară de vechea ordine ierarhică centralizată, corporatist stagnantă și care nu poate funcționa fără corupție. (Da știu articolul e un exemplu de progres, împreună cu roboții de la Mercedes însă și acolo câștigă corporațiile, oamenii pierzându-și și mai mult independența financiară prin pierderea job-urilor (corporatiste)).

(Apropo nu cred că mai e mult timp până când roboții vor deveni suficient de ieftini și inteligenți și produși în masă ca să ocupe toate muncile manuale).

Deci între bare. Dacă la o pompă de căldură cu refrigerant eficiența este 3-3.5 căldură produsă (mă rog, mutată dintr-o cameră în alta) vs energie electrică folosită, numai la partea caldă și la acestea noi aici pur mecanice este de până la 5, prin absorbția și mutarea căldurii în spațiu dintr-un loc în altul apare o inversare locală a entropiei (demonul lui Maxwell) iar diferența de temperatură dintre camera caldă și cea rece teoretic poate alimenta un motor Stirling (cuplat cu un generator) a cărui eficiență este de până la 50% care motor captează această diferență de temperatură și o transformă în energie, de (5 + 5)/2 ori mai multă decât cea cu care se alimentează motorul care mișcă firele sau compresorul. Greșesc?


Wait a minute. Was this episode with a cat pooping under my door an allegory of what i said numerous times about Maxwell's demon? So it was all just a scientific argument? With who, the (Filipino) Inquisition? The KKK and the CIA? Karl Nehammer?

So James Maxwell was all good and then suddenly got mad and proposed the thought experiment? I believe he used the word demon because at that time he could not say a small intelligent being.

7:05 James Maxwell was good for his time. I know i criticized numerous times his EM field theory. He was not insane or possessed, just erroneous (heretic), like all others after him. However he was right about the demon!

Yeah i did a little search on Inquisition. Amazing how a little grammar error brings more complete answers with google. Anyways. Inquisition is not totally dead. I mean, it is no longer a tribunal. And the KKK conical hats. Inquisition were burning witches and KKK crosses. Is this an edelweiss, baby Kal-El ship? Ok i got it the cones represent the petals of the edelweiss. Or lotus whatever.

Wait a minute. Edelweiss looks so much like a lotus!

8:20 I wanted to go outside and take another picture of the door upstairs but i remembered i already took one. There is catnip, an iron heart and a little nazi skull on top of that beware sign. Catnip disappeared after i put the picture, but i know she feeds the cat or cats with catnip cause they run like crazy from one room to another.

3:05 US Schengen Visa Waiver

3:30 KKK

3:35 I climbed the stairs which are common areas and took a better photo. I can't remember how many times i swept or hosed the stairs in the years i have lived here, can't remember if during the last occupant, but i do know they fixed them after my complaint during the current occupant. The middle deck leaned because of the hits of numerous unauthorized heavy vehicles passing through the complex in great numbers.

There is a black and white skull on the welcoming sign at the door and a tiny cross on a piece of wood.

It reminds me of the head of the X president of Romania. Could had be involved, i once saw him at Red Winds casino, just before i nearly got into another accident on I5.

 I believe the wood itself is a symbol of beheading. There is a piece of forged iron reminding of...

Could it have anything to do with this post? After all, the main street in Tualatin is called Martinazzi.

I remember not until far ago, she was visited by a guy in a gigantic white truck that always has a chainsaw and a few one meter diameter three trunks in the bed though with different drivers. Some looked blond, some Asians. At one time i saw a woman pretending to be her though much younger, with short blond hair.

Over the last year, they have been several persons upstairs using the same car, pretending to be the same person. This has happened with previous occupants. Lately the car has changed several times. The current one, a black Hyundai is similar to the one i had before the accident. Black to contrast with mine, to give a message.

3:45 There must be at least one hundred complaints i made here on my blogs about bullying noise upstairs. Somehow they can pick the infrared signature of my head and body and to it when my brain activity and temperature of the skull increases. The sound level of on single stomp is usually above 60 db and they are doing in for hours.

But it's not only the noise. The commotion caused by the big woman usually comes with gas pumped from the space between floor and my ceiling and dust raised from every bit of undusted area that create nose congestion that may give choking symptoms.

There was a large chunk of solid deodorant buried in the wood dust under the door and a constant number of cat poops i gradually found buried in the dust and removed  within the last few days. Can't tell how much better i started to feel after.

There is a growing mountain of gravel and a huge hole i can see from the door and windows.

Continuous construction noise.

4:00 PM To make things worse, Cynthia Kantner, daugher of Grace Slick, moved here accross the alley early last year and she has a lot more (opposite) symbols at the door, but i can't go there to take a picture, there is a day care at that entrance and too many people can see me on the alley.

Almost every time scores of different people are pouring out of that entrance usually when i step outside.

4:15 Can't remember how many times i've been bullied while walking in the white neighborhood between Borland and Nyberg by a pickup with the sign Rev'it (suggesting Leave it). One of the last times i went to Fred Meyer (that is now owned by Kroger, a spelling variant for warrior in German) some guy came and parked next to me in a mostly empty lot. When he left (German looking, thin, brunet with glasses) he gave me a clueless look.

5:18 Just because i have spoken of tree trunks... There is a bucket with offensive rotting materials next to a tree in direct view from my patio. Probably the reason i have been sick today... Swollen legs and face. Two jets, one after another, flying at very low altitude when i took this picture.

Catholics, Grand Wizard?

November 24

10:05 Don't know if i can include the cyclicity of the seasons (given by the Earth's rotation around the Sun) in an explanation about Amaterasu's myth but November 23 is close enough to the winter solstice, at December 21 when daylight time starts to increase again.

But by reading the above linked article i figured other important things.

In the myth, the birth of music and shamanic dance is attributed to the temporary missing of the goddess, when daylight disappeared. In contemporary music, there are numerous examples of songs speaking of that, and comes to mind the verses "she got down but she never got tight/she's gonna make it through the night" from Blinded by the Light by Manfred Man.

Music and dance are now so ubiquitous in media and we never take the time to stop and think. How was life before the century of the lights? When it all started? The Renaissance? One thing we don't recognize. The shamanism of dance and music that surrounds our lives nowadays. And we all seem to ignore the source.

Modern music seems to have taken these days the role of a (shamanic) teacher, instructing us all the time (against the old order) with words repeating obsessively over and over. Having in mind another influential song by Pink Floyd.

Calculated deception and use of force for our good. Taking matters into own hands. Extrajudicial justice. Devine trickery. The Book of  Ninja (Bansenshukai) is full of it. But also comes to mind Maya, the world of illusions or mother of Buddha, which is part of Buddhism. Could it be the reason of the happy marriage in Japan between Buddhism and Shintoism, which seems to be a term linguistically derived from "Hinduism".

Own cave. Could this be the (Devine) model for Hikikomori? There are millions of young Japanese people who retreated in their own room, some for years. They also call it "social withdrawing". Though i suspect some of them are secretly enrolled in ninja training and Japan not having more hikikomori as percentage of the total population than any country.

I did that once. Been in the apartment for months if not one or two years, never going out. Angela had to go alone to buy groceries. In a year or two my body started to atrophy. Gained more and more weight.

One day it snowed a lot (like it happens once or twice a year in Oregon). I mean, one foot of snow and i ran out of cigarettes' and Angela could not drive to 7-11 with the Nissan.

I went outside, i was high all the time during that time though not realizing. I tried to put chains on the rear wheels of the truck, the chain on one wheel got entangled, i broke the truck. So i had to walk the half mile to 7-11. But after walking for like 5 minutes in the snow i realized i cannot walk no more. Me who when i was young i was walking 30 km or more in one day on the trails in the mountains surrounding the city i was born and lived until 14 or during vacations until 18.

In that evening i went outside to take pictures with the snow, again, the same difficulty moving around the complex.

So it cannot be. Those people will atrophy and not be able to do anything anymore in a year or so. I mean, some of them could be real, like in any country, and others using this as an opportunity.

But it has gotten out of control. For decades after the appearance of radio and television people accepted those as carrying new, unheard of before forms of speech and entertainement. More and more allusive, then with more and more sexual content, to the point one simply cannot listen to them anymore. How many curse words in a song by Doja Cat?

They for as long as i can remember used a lot a type of figurative speech when the singer speaks at first person actually casting attributes to another together with obsessively, bullying appellative "baby" that nowadays has turn into "b...h" and "ho" (Doja Cat, Doechii) in extraordinarily offensive songs.

Paint the Town Red has been on tops since release, with of course the help of all DJs in the world cause actually i and probably many others don't find that song so appealing to be played like 20 times a day on a hip-hop local station. Actually i ignored it for a long time though i was listening to it while driving and it came to my attention by chance.

Will people ever start to realize this is not western culture anymore but pieces of Amaterasu's mirror that shattered and covered the whole world?

They own most everything in the US. Though the graphs shows other countries "as well", their are present with finances in those countries as well. .7 trillions direct investment in US in 2021, must have been one trillion in 2023. It's all the money American pay for cars and other goods. Now they are pushing their singers disguised as Latinos and/or Blacks with their media networks in our ears.

11:42 Bullied by Republic Services.

I was writing the above when the thunder of the garbage truck started. I ran to the bin to pull the old garbage sacks from under only to see the bin being set again on top of those. And BTW there is a new one but fortunately was not covered yet.

I tried to talk to the driver and he said "why don't we do this next week" and i told him "i don't know if i can be that fast or even present" and then i asked him kindly "if he could do us all a favor and pull those two bags next week from under the bin (when he lifts it)" and he said "i should talk to the management and have the maintenance team be there to do that".

Then i told him i cannot tell the management what to do (i actually don't believe this is my job) and then he said "i see were you're coming from" and shut the cabin's door and now i feel guilt for even asking him that.

Wondering. Is there any procedure he has to follow or just continue to put the bin over old rotting garbage sacks.

12:08 I was driving yesterday to Grande Ronde on 18 around 5 PM. I think it was just before McMinville on the variant when i saw some flashing lights in the mirror. I was planning to pull as soon as those get closer, however they got closer much sooner than expected. It was dark enough not to see  the outer margin of the shoulder or the beginning of the ditch so like many times before, about one ft of my car remained in the lane.

Right in that fraction of a second i saw 3 State Police cars literally flying by. I think they had more than 100 mph. First one was far enough but second almost shaved my car. I haven't seen those again and haven't seen anything further down the road and i know State Police only have jurisdiction on freeways, or outside cities and towns.

12:22 Before that. Yesterday afternoon i added two more hundred milliliters of ATF in my car. I went for a test drive and yes, that was the case. I was low in ATF and the car was now shifting much better.

But it was like that since i got the car. I remember i saw on the plastic panel under the transmission and engine a pink gel. Is this what ATF turns into after a while?  Though there was no leak, then and later.

Obviously had to bend over to do that. But there was no one behind me.

Soon after i did that went to take the garbage and saw yet another trail of litter dust coming from the same place and going to the bin. I immediately went and grabbed the broom but several cars already passed over, milling those beads. I swept what i could, however i inhaled some of the dust. It was this choice. Let it there and slowly inhaling the dust over several days or sweep it and only inhale some once.

However it was not without consequences. Hours later i started to have weird daydreams, almost hallucinations when i was trying to sleep in the car. (Then i tried to drink from a broken plastic glass and spilled the drink on me. Then i had to rain inside with my pants wet because i had an urge to go out).

Thing is we were both under influence of that dust, for about a week. Angela was really mad these days.

12:32 Yesterday i first drove to Lincoln City. I was planning to hang around while Angela plays there. But i came 5 minutes earlier to the meeting point where i was supposed to pick her at 7:15. Tried to call but like last time her phone (we turned both phones on for a short time) wouldn't work inside  the casino. 2 minutes after, or at 7:12 a Security SUV came by. I was at the very edge of their property and not sure if inside or out.

However i was on the outer side of the street that supposedly is the border. The Security SUV entered the parking lot of the building of the Commission across the street and then left. However i left too and i could finally talk to her as she got out. She had to climb about 100 ft to the place i was cause i did not want to take a chance. Last time i talked to those guys they said i would be arrested if i come again on their property.

Question. Why there are not signs showing that your are on a private property, gates of fences? Is 4th street a public or a private road? How can i find out?

3:02 Ok i found something. I don't believe 4th St. is included in any of the properties. It is a bunch of properties belonging to the Confederation but i don't believe it is even a reservation. Unless the whole Lincoln City is.

But they don't need to be a reservation. Anywhere they act, the tribes are not taxed. Further research. What is the legal definition of a tribe, and how many members are left in Lincoln City and surrounding areas.

4:38 When the came today to empty the bins mold and bacteria from bins spread into the leaves. Because the leaves, in some areas up to 18 inches deep or tall or whatever are wet under. Some have tiny bubbles of bacterial growth.

That's why i found myself out of breath especially after Angela went to Walmart. Cause our digestive enzymes combined spread with opening of the esophagus/stomach or lower esophageal sphincter (the so called hiatal hernia) fight better the spores in the air.

Here came this matured tall guy with a goatee and two dogs (after children yelling like possessed by a mischievous kami) and chose to stop to get a better view of me from behind exactly when i was about to bend to fill a laundry basket. That would be basis for a later retaliation bending over which synced with some other stuff like noises, will make me sick for a half day.

6:33 Yeah i'm almost done with the leaves. I almost filled a whole bin. Yes the bin that sits on top of bags with old garbage, in a position where not many people throw their garbage on (it never gets filled, not even half of it). But the leaves are very loose, if enough people throw garbage over they will give in and pack. No evil done. BTW the person who used to throw blue doggy bags next to the bin now turned to pink.

John 14:6 "I am the truth" vs IN VINO VERITAS. Can a sinner tell the truth, on occasions? Do you have to be a martyr to give a good advise?

In Shintoism and Hinduism "there are no absolutes" like good and evil, each kami or devi is a mixture of them just like humans. Kali (the demon god, the fierce mother, the fury of Durga, the feminine counterpart of Shiva) kills (destroys) all evil doers etc. She was born enraged and even rebelled against her husband, Shiva.

8:10 PM. 817 DEU is the LPN of a GM black SUV that was parked next to the bin tonight. I saw that before but  never made the link. I longtime suspected the old man who dresses like a clown or homeless (suggesting modesty) is some religious figure from Romania.

After i caught my breath and wrote a bit in here i went to finish. They were two big piles that i squeezed in three laundry baskets and i grabbed a round piece of wood the size of a basketball bat to make more room in the bin.

A very thick smoke and the woman at 4 talks again in the balcony.

While i was trying to pack the leaves with the big stick a blond guy who lives with the old man came and threw provocatively from a distance 3 improvised doggy bags and one of them almost landed on my head, one next to the bin, saying something and then he left. BTW some people threw a few bags and now the bin smells like dog poop.

So bad it got into my clothes together in the parking lot.

All these happened after picking leaves for 2 hours with no one around and then spending one hour inside. Which means they were all celebrating their holiday which now i'm sure they believe in and had to call them over. Sorry guys for disrupting.

8:22 Here is a typical example of bending over. In an empty parking lot during a holiday, this woman stopped at a stop sign, got out of the car in a place she was not supposed to, even though there was no traffic, went on the right side and did something for at least a minutes so i had the time and opportunity.

From that distance it is also less offensive to viewers. The stress was provided within a minute by a cop who was patrolling the area, stopping at every shop. Yeah i was at the Mud Bay next to Michaels.

9:18 Mi-am zis eu mie însumi. Cu prima ocazie când gătesc orez fac o poză. Cel mai simplu lucru de gătit. 2 căni și jumătate apă, una cu vârf orez. După ce fierbe apa, pun orezul, amestec o singură dată, dau la foarte mic, pun capacul și urmăresc să bolborosească nu prea tare după care pun timer-ul la 12 minute când opresc aragazul și îl mai las să stea să tragă toată apa dacă mai are.

Se poate adăuga și lapte, zahăr, la sfârșit, când e fiert.

Total timp de lucru, 5 minute, timp total, 20. Da știu capacul e de la altceva, puțin mai mare, are mânerul rupt dar așa cu ele cum le vedeți am făcut eu mult orez.

10:38 I knew the smoke outside does not come from a wildfire, by the smell. It took many hours for the smoke to get here, 13 miles away in the wind's direction.

November 4th

12:00 Hostile. We just came home and i opened the sliding glass door to air cause there is a mixture of ozone and dog s...t smell in here. Or Dimethyl sulfide the same. Within seconds an exhaust started to purr, just to shake dust from walls and attic. Like they always do lately. I remember the Thule Roof Box on the truck that passed me on 125 when we left.

Basically all the people around, in the complex, on the roads are involved. But i won't try to remember and write down everything that happened on the road on my way to Spirit Mountain. We left early under Angela's protest cause at those hours the machines were very tight. Had some fish and chips and in there i have to mention a few people that were making noises to the point i almost chocked. A short episode of dysphagia though it's hard with freshly deep fried fish and chips. Then we spent all the money and left.

But about half hour before that. We went back to the old non smoking area (now the whole casino is non smoking) and tonight wildfire smoke entered the heating and cooling system and there was a live band made of three people on the podium there. A Black guy with some Asian was singing Green Green Grass of Home. At which point i "half sat on a chair" and fell together with the chair on the floor in slow motion.

I thought it was the same old reflex from practicing Judo falls learned from a book when i was a kid. I think i stopped at the throws when i fell from a tree and tried to do a fall and hit a rock with my left elbow and that got me into two surgeries, a screw attached and only 60% percent mobility left in that elbow which i believe was done in purpose by the surgeon so when i sit or even sometimes when i walk i keep my hand bent and sort of like in front of my pants if you know what i mean.

And yes we were practicing the falls (me and other kids and even a couple of mature people) in the grass on top of soft soil. Without much confidence because we didn't know if we got it right just by using that book. I remembered that right before i hit the floor however it came out more like an Aikido half roll, unextended right arm first. Something i learned subcontiously while watching a video? Nothing broken, despite my age and weight (over 200 lbs).

Within seconds an Asian guy with blue shirt came and aggressively offered to call medical help which i declined until i got so pissed i forgot to look closer at that chair.

I know those chairs well (i've been there for years, remember) and i sat on them in every imaginable way. A few minutes later i went to look but that particular chair was taken and no matter how much i tried with another similar one, i could not loose balance or "tip the center of gravity".

When about to leave, Angela stopped at the restroom next to smoker's room entrance and i was waiting and saw a group of about 1000 people passing on that hall coming from the hotel towards the casino. Of which some of them i saw earlier inside the playing area.

Somehow Angela got outside and didn't see her and we met there. But then when i tried to leave, the warning sign for the lights came back on (it was on this morning when Angela went to work, then off when she came back and when i drive in there), so she bought a bulb from NAPA on her way home.

When we left the casino i was feeling "stoned" and i remember i felt earlier vaping smell in the main non smoking area and i wonder if that smoke present inside was not mixed with something.

So tried to replace the bulb it in the parking lot (and security came promptly offering a jump start) but when i tried to pull the old bulb from the connector, the light came on (yes it was on).

Trying to drive back home. Had trouble seeing the lane marks under the rain, both of us. Even on newly paved areas. In the two intersections in McMinville near the hospital he lights are always red though there is no traffic in the crossing direction. Trying to get used of the car's new way of shifting after i added 200 ml fluid in the transmission (after let all the surplus flow out last summer).

Getting better while closer but in Tualatin there is an area on Tualatin Sherwood near downtown where there are no lane lines or reflecting pads or nothing) and now i'm almost cleared of whatever i drank (soda from the soda machines) and breathed (wildfire smoke mixed with something). Nothing hurts in the orthopedics line. Congested nose like most of the times, trying to breath on mouth.

1:24 I know what happened. It was not the chair, it was the floor. When i sit on a chair in the casino many times the chair moves under me on the soft floor when people pass buy. Must have been an irregularity or weakening of the floor. But given the synchronization with what the band was playing, i don't believe it was random.

First or second row of machines on the left after passing the new women's restroom after coming from main entrance.

I remember minutes earlier i sat at a machine, got up and did not set the chair back in position (because of being tired, high and a bit confused). They were two attendants that ran at the chair and put it right, again within seconds.

2:00 I was sipping some tea (after i ate) and a door got slammed in the distance and i chocked... on tea, and now can't stop coughing.

It's 1:25 AM and the robot upstairs is squeaking in the rhythm of my thoughts when i curse the Jeeps in my mind.

September 29

 2:40 Can't find right now but i'm sure i wrote somewhere before about this. Should have put this before what i wrote yesterday about my trip to Romania cause it occurred first. It's all a mess. Both in my mind and in reality.

On an early morning in January 12 2004, just before i went to Romania i was smoking in the balcony in the dark, they were these landscape maintenance guys making a big noise and all of a sudden i started to feel an almost unbearable pain in both my hands. I called Angela who was at work and she took me to the ER at Providence St.Vincent..

There came the doctor. A guy who looked like Dan McCafferty. Under the pretext of doing a physical examination he stretched both my sexual organs to the point i think he broke some blood vessels or even performed a crude non surgical vasectomy.

For months after that i had to wear several undies because the area was getting very cold due to poor circulation. In the same night i was taken to Woodland Park Hospital which was empty. I slept one night in there. I was the only patient in the hospital period. They were only a couple of therapists there i knew since 2002/2003 stay. One of them took me on a different area of the hospital that was empty as well except for an X-ray technician where i was asked to raise hands above head while they took an X-ray of my torso.

Soon after it was lunch time and that they gave me to eat some pasta and after that i had the most terrible episode of diarrhea of my life. The whole hospital floor was smelling for one hour like hell after that. Then they discharged me saying they do not treat medical conditions, only psychiatric

Even after i went to Romania i was cold in that area as it lasted for several month but a vague pain that at times gets worse remain to this day (love hurts) and the infections i get nowadays may be related to that because circulation getting poorer with age and the area being damaged.

3:23 However. To make a long story short. it is possible they reverted some of that damage during my stay at the Bichat hospital in Paris later that year where i checked due to intense legs pain following riding a bus for days. But that pain was sciatic in nature and got fixed after only one chiropractic manipulation back in the US i think in 2006.

There, i slept about 4 hours with an IV in my hand and i suspected they did at least a laser procedure on my eyes without telling me because i had trouble reading the next couple of days. Though i do well with glasses for reading (1.25, no prescription), to this day i never needed glasses for long distance.

That, following an encounter with then future President Sarkozy, acting as a doctor at the military hospital in Metz where i checked after i got off the bus (Atlasib) due to both leg pains and ear pains i developed during the same bus trip. From there i took the train to Paris, which was stopped on a field for about half hour when close to Paris. When i got in Paris, there was this freaky wind on the streets around Gare du Nord.

I would not lie about the purpose of my trip. I knew medical insurance was mandatory for any travel to France so i paid for one together with my ticket, thinking i would check into a hospital there for some reason so they could check me up entirely. Decent doctors and hospitals that is. I also had my Cigna insurance from the US that had some coverage for travels abroad. It was what they call nowadays a "medical tourism".

I met with him again while i was working at that gas station in Beaverton, when he came with a big black SUV to fill up and i heard him speaking French on the phone and spoke with him a little, not knowing who he was.

4:00 Though is 55 degrees outside and 72 inside, with no heating, there is a fan inside the apartment next to ours that runs at night and vibrates everything pretty badly, probably to jam the possible environmental listening further in the building.

10:15 Woke up, changed my patches which BTW, worked really well, i'm almost out of it, i get faint squeaks only from upstairs, like someone gently pressing the floor with one foot than another. Why is so different every day?

The confirmation antibiotics patches, even improvised, without "needles", work. The closer to affected area, the better. My both legs that turned almost black in some areas get whiter and whiter with now almost normal after every course of which i did several this year. Pains localized in almost all bursae areas are now finally almost gone. One or two more days and it's over. For a while until they came back with this environment with wet fiberboard floor.

I also took a very hot bath last night in the very small tub, that could work only for children, i can either fit my legs or my torso with legs on the wall in there, (LOL, i remember what Jane Fonda said each time i do this, though i can't put them behind my neck, never could), the water in the heating tank gets cold by the time they tub is filled, it's very tricky i heated before one more big pot on the stove, and my big fat belly never fits in the water, but i did it and heated up my bum and that helped a lot.

At a certain time i managed to submerge my head in the water with legs way up high on the opposite wall and i heard my heart beating though the water and i thought it sounded weird and gathered all my courage and put the stethoscope on my chest after getting out of there which i didn't in quite a while and could not hear any murmur or split sound however it was beating fast and lately i get high blood pressure because of constant squeaks upstairs that seem to follow my brainwaves. The pressure goes down almost to normal like if i stay half hour or one hour inside ER when it's almost perfect silence (except for sometimes slammed door and voiced there).

But imagine this. After 28 years and all that happened Angela still has to work 9 to 5 5 to 4 like she does today sometimes Saturdays or up to 60 hours a week like last week. But in the mean time i do my homework too.

After i wrote the above entry and my brain got in "full gear" though i'm not fully awake (diabetes) the squeaks upstairs intensify, especially when i get emotional just by remembering stuff.

I don't have any specialized software, i don't have "diddly squat", it took me a minute to save and upload the last squeaks that really got me mad, one more minute time to grab the link and put it here in which "she" took off, like they often do. Now i'm finally all alone here in this part of the building. However, mad, cause she squared me in the kitchen area when i was eating.

11:40 Yeah i went to pick some "colitas" and when i was done the short woman with the huge gray dog with white spots came while i was leaving and she put an arrogant, intrigued though pitiful face (building D), like "what i was doing" while the huge hound raised a leg and started peeing on a fence. Now i got to get back to see if she picked.

So it was him the guy who passed dressed in full military suit and saluted one of the two therapists (the blond one) while i was discharged in January 2003 after the second stay at Woodland Park. From there i was taken to Ryles Center, now closed.

1:47 While i was using my walk on the streets, a number of women with dogs doing memes of Alexa made me smile.

These flowers are supposed to be blue, right? No, it's not the camera, this is how i saw them in reality too. Could it be the 500 shades of gray of the Oregon autumn clouds? High altitude haze?

Today i saw the sign. But i had to wait until a sassy quite hot blond woman with a dog cleared the area.

September 24

10:44 To those who tried to help me last night. It worked a little, thank you. But it's not a permanent fix. Still got a number of questions on the subject. I was determined to find a site that offers free fish eye transformations, i found one but i have to sign up and put a card number and it's free only three days. And then my motivation got softened and then nullified by the entities upstairs.

One thing is sure. This summer encounter had an intense positive effect on me especially during last few weeks. I started to communicate better on the blog, focus, to figure things at a much higher rate, even try to defend myself from the bully. It feels like i'm coming back to life after a long hibernation. In fact, i forgot i can feel that way. That's why i'm so afraid of loosing it.


Upstairs. Ever since i woke up it just sits in there in one place and do little squeaks. I don't know how to describe it but best would be it somehow it taps into my brain and do that every time a tiny emotion is being released. Or better said, when i have this urge to communicate with someone about those subjects. But why i also have the urge not to talk about. Like a little secret. Is my subconscious happy to at least  communicate with someone no matter how.

Their reaction is almost instantaneous and i tend to believe is not human. But they have to do it while humans are present otherwise it would be really weird.

Of course i get all kinda of emotional reactions in my mind when i read news. It is what triggers to write back. The more intense the reactions the more intense the squeaks. And if i go over a certain limit then it starts walking and marching etc. making sounds comparable with thunder or stronger, matching my emotions. 

In the end i get into a state of total dissatisfaction. Like if somebody would try and deny you a physiological urge.

Anybody can please tell me what is this?

Over the years i tried to guess. Shin shin shin gan, vibrational electric or primordial impulse form of telepathy turned into bullying that manifests only emotionally, name it. Or simply some type technologically assisted bullying. But why somebody can afford to do this as a permanent job (in this case, two persons of which one is here all the time) and most important. Who are these guys and why are doing this.

Punishment or suppression of using this atavism, this ancient form of communication that somehow got awakened in me through yoga during high school?

I remember this when it first happened, in February 1996 i ended up been awake, not eating or drinking water for a week and then in the ER at the hospital in Vancouver they put me in an curtain enclosure next to a woman's enclosure who gave birth. They brought me some food but no water and then in the psychiatric ward at the other end of the town they gave me an ativan with a little water and i slept 12 hours. I continued drinking too little water in the hospital. It took weeks to re hydrate time in which i was feeling like paralyzed.

All described above are clearly true crimes, torture is not affected by statutes of limitations, Hilary Clinton acting as attorney Janet Anderson, Chris Mathews acting as attorney James Mayhew, Christiane Amanpour acting as a police officer, ER doctor, dr.Augusto Pro_ano, Dan Costan, Nelu Ciorba, Vlaicu, John Mladin, others are all involved, they all saw me during the time i was not sleeping and also hallucinating.

The whole story repeated while i was working at Epson in 1997.

As for invasion of privacy, sleep deprivation as a form of torture, polluting, coercing, that are continuing to the present, are also crimes. Any low enforcement agency, can they read this?

11:23 They left as i was writing about them. That happened before. That functionality has been taken over by other less convenient ways from their part. Slamming doors in the parking lot. Slamming the garbage bin. Car alarms and beeps. Soon there will be modified exhausts, etc.. Short or longer bursts of water in pipes. Now feeling the tiny bathroom tub or something. Something that didn't happen in months.

Now all i have to do is go and explore my environment for pollutants.

11:32 First reaction to a reaction. Amidst everything that happened here this morning and all the stuff i got to read before i got pissed off, one thing got stuck in my brain that is annoyingly related to what i wrote a few days ago. A form of suppressing information through superseding. Yeah i know the term brutărie for bakery is a linguistic accident in Romania. Pretty much like grocery in English.

(And the fact that every person who learned several languages becomes involuntarily a linguist and every person who is permanently bullied becomes a psychologist.)

11:45 Now it's all quiet. It happens when i successfully turn the attention to them.

11:54 But when i opened the back sliding door first thing i saw was this 19 year old Japanese actress posing as a 13 years wearing shorts and flashing me in a model position in her balcony and then walking in the yard like on a catwalk.

12:04 Now i hear the first exhaust of the day. Many will follow. Yeah i just listened to it. Nothing came out in the recording, frequency is too low for these mics.

12:18 I opened the door again, i felt smoke smell and saw the familiar mound on the right of my patio while i also feel dog poop smell. Her balcony is on the right.

I intentionally raised the camera to catch the balcony where she shows (on the left). Yes i've been thinking many times of taking a picture of her but i usually don't as it could get very complicated. However one day day this guy came and threatened me. "If you take a picture of my little sister i will kill you!" he said. Yes she looks like her too. Then they both died and later they both got back to life.

i don't know the exact moment when my day started to turn into something else but i feel like it's already been screwed up and it's only noon. BTW, i think i can have a drink now though my stomach, esophagus, pancreas, whatever it's hurting down there they all beg to differ and are opting out.

Also there is one week of dark weather again. It Oregon when it rains clouds get very low and it gets this dark. 

1:25 I am not trying to seduce you Nicu Ceaușesu. Is that a sued leather jacket? I had one like that just before i started college. A rare item in those days in Romania in a store in Câmpulung, like waiting for me in the day i got payed and didn't even really liked it but it seemed the only choice. Had boots to mach.

That summer i worked at the factory across the street and bought a few things. Got my first Levis jeans but when i washed them first time in the dorm in college they turned purple. I payed a one month salary for those from a guy who worked on a ship or something. Either counterfeit or someone added something in the detergent.

All Asians look the same. In this video Sir Elton looked a bit like him.

3:15 When you start becoming a minority. Yesterday at Spirit Mountain. About 20% of the people there were whites. Rest, a mixture of South Americans and Asians. All bumping into me like not seeing me (felt like i was transparent). But who knows which were which.

There was a band and a quite good old guitarist. Got to know who they were as he seemed familiar like from a recent post. Bassist seemed Japanese.

3:24 And BTW. The last time we left with a positive balance from a casino was when i last time wrote something similar before we went. Keep forgetting on writing it before i go and we keep loosing.

4:33 BTW i think i just saw her in the yard. Double of nothing.

The cycle is starting over. They came back with thunders upstairs.

5:10 So it is true. I was in the process of ordering some essence on Amazon as the time required for the recipes measures in weeks.

6:05 Angela went to the stores and i fell asleep with the door unlocked. Anybody could have entered here. Woke up with shortness of breath due to thick smoke outside.

Went to take the garbage and saw two women furthering away on foot one looking like her from behind and the other one wearing a neon green jacket...

9:20 This entry disappeared so i'm gonna write it again with original time stamp (aprox). I had a feeling those women are still in the complex as i heard a weird sound upstairs in the dining area. Went outside to look and the blinds were on and two people were talking in a balcony next to our building (other than the one in the picture). Also Angela bought some natural juice from the store to mix with water, "drink instead of soda" șhe said. I mixed some with grain alcohol and water to make liquor.