January 24

12:05 At least it's not Crescent Bay. Now i got to go searching for the other (bad) guy. So i finally figured when i saw her coming out of that cabin, it was her all alone. Those days, maybe a week, maybe more i spent at a year colleague's ship farm in the mountains near Breaza, Suceava county in 81 i think, she was the only mulata there among maybe 7 guys, one of them presumably her partner resembling...

What i found so far...

12:40 I've been waiting to say this for a longtime, never had an opportunity, not sure if this is the right time, but so far i figured all Japanese women (i know to many all Asians look the same, it did so to me for a long time) do look indeed similar at a certain age. I think it's the cultural expression taking over the individual traits, the combination between being raised as innocent kids and the stupor of discovering what their world is about to become...

7:56 After days of keeping an UV ozone lamp on top of that pan under the water heater, wrapping of the whole thing in aluminum foil so none of the UV would get lost, with increasing of the ozone concentration in that enclosure, i don't feel much coming from it any more. However there is a lot left in the carpet, couch, clothes, which amount flared up in the day they removed it. But smoke coming from outside (today smoke index is close to 100) and the Zyrtec (that was found in some studies to inhibit bacteria and parasites) i took it seems it brought down the concentration in my system.

There was visible litter dust in the pan when i moved. Litter dust can absorb water and fluids many times its weight. Water in the fluid will eventually evaporate and what remains is porous silica saturated with concentrated animal droppings. T.Gondii from a sick cat can turn into a cyst form and be dormant for years and can be activated by water from the leaking heater, heat and nutrients coming as vapor from the nearby kitchen.

And i suddenly realized. I read numerous times about T.Gondii, the symbiont in many predatory animals that infects their prey by being spread during the so called "marking of the territory". It does not kill them cause it would mean lowering the population with no good use, but will make them much easier to hunt, to be eaten freshly, by numbing their fear.

It is no secret that i spend much of my time doing searchings, a lot less composing posts and writing. But today for the first time i started to feel... fear by simply looking at their faces. Like in the old times when having to deal with them back in Romania.

But why human faces will inspire fear to another human? Normally it shouldn't happen, there must be something else here and i think i know what it is.

I once wrote about the possibility of the existence of what i called "residual expressions" on some people's faces.

We all know primates use facial expressions among other things to communicate or even for defence purposes. But could there be a population that was isolated in Eastern Australia for tens of thousands of years from the rest of us to acquire through a mutation a so called residual face expression that manifests all the time, even when the individual do not wishes, consciously to express anything. Something themselves would be immune to it or possibly culturally accepted in that population. Something hidden beyond conscious perception, even to themselves.

However when they came in contact with other populations, will render them an advantage, like obedience. The known sudden spread of the Pama Nyungan languages in all Australia some 4000 BC.

Add to it a parallel charisma component to their residual face expressions and will get the whole picture. We are addicted and in awe with our gods.

The other hypothesis will be the residual expressions are purely cultural, with strengthening of certain facial muscles, by mimetism at early ages, that happens only inside that population since i see faces in the actor army list that could not have a single trace of their original, noongar/magar genetic make up.

And of course they somehow learned  how to enhance these advantages, through all kinda tricks.

Could this be the reasons why so many people choose to ignore what i found so far and posted in my blog.

In my case T Gondii rendered me immune, or fearless and able to continue my similarities blog.

11:40

11:50 Pentru prima dată am sesizat o componentă anti-românească în subliminalele lor de la distanță.