I was meandering through searches and ran into something i thought i'll never will. Treman, father and son. From psychology and eugenics (ew_genics) to microwaves, it all ran in family.
Can't help here not to mention the popular Romanian snack. I was eating it in grade school. As popular and similar to Oreo in the US, a sandwich cookie wrapped by two. But why the name? Probably because it emerged during or right after Soviet occupation and named after Russian name Yevgeny (Евгений).
Or the city in Oregon. Also, Eugene being a Jewish name.
How i ran into Treman? I was searching for a definition of intelligence closest to my ideas. The ability to carry out abstract thinking.
To humans most natural way of thinking is abstract thinking. The ability to turn every day situations to abstract models or to fit them into existing ones and then to take decisions using those models. Some would say it may be an overhead, but is the easiest and definitely most efficient and it happens all the time.
At the base of abstract thinking are the abstract concepts we turn everyday objects into. More than that, abstract concepts are hierarchical, corresponding to real live hierarchization of objects which makes them easier to handle.
Talking about concepts. It just occurred to me we build abstract concepts not only about everyday objects but around each type of basic emotions.
Drawbacks of abstract thinking. It has the real possibility of overlooking details when oversimplifying. It may be at the roots of objectification.
Wondering if it is not also at the roots of transference as in Freud's concept. If this is the case it means it can be applied to more areas than parenting or love.
One consequence of this theory is that we only love once in a lifetime. Each subsequent to "first" are just instantiations of the abstract concept (that may be improving or adjusting or simplifying over time).
And yes, personification or deification of concepts are certainly the base of ancient mythologies and polytheistic religions. By example it is said that Japan has 8 million kami of which the list of best known mentions...
Wrote this motivated by the persistent repeating of media practices of hijacking real ideas into theatrical scenes with the purpose of suppression of those ideas. Sabotaging communications. Substitution of persons as seen in my Similarities blog.
Of which the last notable scene is Iohannis turning his back to movie directorOrban but they are ubiquitous in media in setups they make us think are news articles.
Maybe not the best example but close enough...
Any of the Jack Harper. Tet and Titan (though i don't really get the deeper meaning of the symbolism).
7:05 Ok one more well motivated push (from behind). It looks like i got here the role of saying what everybody thinks but don't wanna say.
If Biden helped (so much) Ukraine then why the red suit and the Republican color if Trump is a putinist? A literally last minute push to save democrats from total humiliation annihilation?
Cause i can't possibly imagine Kabala plotted to oust Biden and kill Trump (whichever came first), especially because i know both attempts were fake(d). Or Biden retired so Kamala alone could be blamed for it. Or Biden retired claiming exhaustion so everybody would not think it was him period.
Nothing happened but with drama queen Trump it's always stormis in a cup of water.
1100 Trying to gain momentum here to start a long entry, thinking maybe it should be a whole post while upstairs the woman is hitting the floor, making more love dust to fall. Which is litter dust from the cats that inevitably falls through tiny cracks here no matter what. And the cats may have toxoplasmosis which means parasites that produce dopamine, lodge in your brain and trigger unwanted sexual desires.
The history is repeating because people have forgotten how this happened previously, last time with the two Ladies of December. It's a cycle. Thing is i actually forgot myself and had to be reminded.
Ok so i'm gonna start with a definition i had an intuition about and just found the standardized form on the web.
Transference in psychology is a transfer of feelings you have for one person onto another. Some say love at first sight is actually transference. It may be all loves in your life are just transfers from one person to another, or they could all instantiations of the same psychological process some call love that is based on primary instincts (nothing to do with the movie).
I mean i could sit here and speculate all night long with no aim or end in sight. But i have a purpose.
Believe it or not, some are using it to their own advantage. Only trouble is i cannot figure if they really know and apply psychology which BTW is in its infancy in this area, which would require an unprecedent sophistication, or they just use mnemonics, like those found in Bansenshukai or some love book written by French 19th century modern writers. Or maybe simply ancient witchcraft. Or one of General Tzu's stratagems.
So what they do. They, through their almost unlimited means and powers produce an attractive woman in your proximity or virtual places (nothing to do with virtue) you go about on the web from time to time until you get it bad. No matter the cost, like in this case, derailing lives, displacing a whole family from Hungary.
Parasites, psychoactive smokes, things like that would help.
And then after you become obsessed with that person they can use it in many ways and one of them is transference. Before that, she was simply here, under a different look (for my eyes only), meeting with me every day, posing as my daughter and... lover?
So you go outside, meet with the person (for the first time though she was here all the time), she lights up her face and then she leaves abruptly and initiate a conversation with a different person. In the meantime, another woman shows. In their barbaric imagination, a transference should have occurred.
But how could possibly transfer feelings from one person you've been in contact for 4 years online you were happy you just met in person, who is kind and fragile and cute to another one that is big and heavy and steps on your ceiling all day long releasing litter dust?
I mean, there should be at least some things in common. I can tell you because it is not the first time they've done it to me.
I remember back at IMU there was this divorced woman that was my subordinate who was cute and everything, and she started to wear clothes like Angela and one day she took me home.
But nothing happened because i was more enamored with the work i was doing than anything else and being married, i did not practice abstinence and isolation like i am for 20 years now. I knew if i touched her i could have said goodbye to the position i was holding. I also had clues cause at times i could read the disgust on her face.
Many other times including once with that actress from Star Wars, who came at my mother pretending she was a poor girl, while i was there. One colleague in HS, again petite and fragile who jumped at my neck at the public Olympic pool in Iași, days before vacation (she broke with me right after vacation, never saw her again). Pat Benatar in the train towards home for vacation from HS etc. etc..
You can imagine towards whom the transference was aimed at.
In a more popular language, they heat you up with one from the top, Hollywood class, and then they bring you another one, usually way less attractive but way more available who has no other use to them.
But for the masses. They have movies and videos and stuff. You see a cute one in a movie while playing with your cat or dog and then you go to your wife and say "let's go upstairs honey". Things like that.
One thing is sure. These guys can't stay put, they are never at rest. It's as sure as hell they are preparing the next trick right now. We right now are closer to Babylon than we can imagine.
I'm sorry i got again carried in this maze that seems so complicated and discouraging and at times disgusting, but this is how they do it and if you are not doing nothing and maybe even are complacent, things could pass onto your children and go like this forever.
11:30 Now that i remember, i started to realize that i feel the finest mineral litter dust loaded with bacteria and possibly parasites on my face, after i took a shower and she started to walk upstairs, with a vengeance.
10:20 I went for another cigarette, but did not feel like the first. I was looking in all directions to see who's coming. Nobody came, just the dog from balcony started to bark when i was finished, again raising the heck out of my BP.
Was thinking. Her videos on Tik Tok and elsewhere must have been directed by her husband, right? Hence the total relaxation (and maximum seduction power)...
10:50 I don't believe it really matters who of the two wins. What matters is the total commitment of half of the electorate towards one candidate which will last after elections and most important, the confirmation of democracy. Which is real but has one big contradiction.
The other half of the electorate or the losers have different opinions and have no power to implement them. So. by the strict definition, democracy, which means power (cratos) of people (demos) after such balanced election, is actually half (demi) democracy. So it should be called... demicracy.
Ok i don't know if i'm going to finish this tonight. Last nigh i was tired and dehydrated by drinking and then i crashed and waked up in the middle of the night and got really pissed when i remembered what happened. My face feels like it's swelling though it's not. Hands too. Didn't take antibiotics in three days but got some liver problems now. I think after i been too close again to the sewer behind Chinook Winds.
It is not a secret i have been in the recent past obsessed with an Tik Tok influencer that goes by the name Alexa Crush. Lately i started to believe she is the Hungarian actress Nikolett Krajcsi, a mother of three but not so sure anymore, mostly because of height of which i'm not sure. But can't rule out either, because of name and face resemblance.
She once had a number of posts on Tik Tok dressed as a green fairy that made me buy some absinthe essence online and translate a poem from Baudelaire for her.
In my imagination there was some sort of dialog between us. She was posting on Tik Tok and i on my blog. Didn't care if some of her posts were a bit off with clothing and stuff. But then i became pissed when she started to post about her being protector of dogs. Cause i started to really hate those, for obvious reasons. So i quit following her and soon she stopped posting on all platforms.
From a post on my main blog i referenced numerous times. There was in building D closest entrance from us a Chinese or Japanese woman who was posing as my friend. One night i drove with my truck to Spirit Mountain and she tried to stop me by literally getting in my way a couple of times. When i came back, a cop stopped me in Newberg because the sticker in my rear plate number was missing.
She was driving a small Dodge SUV. One night some guy whom i seen here before (or his truck) but not sure, i think he was a taller guy first, backed up in her SUV, pushed the SUV in the building and ruined the stairwell. Was that the moment of crash or crush? It is odd the guy did not get arrested or anything. That was reckless.
But lately he became shorter and i thought i recognized him as being the husband of... Nilolett the actress, link above. But never saw him at what apartment he goes.
After the crash, the Chinese woman moved with her SUV and in her place came a woman that many times lately i thought it was Alexa Crush herself. However she was certainly looking like Nikolett. (Found out lately, by chance).
But when i looked to her family pictures, i thought i recognized the little girl (age adjusted) who was acting like possessed by the dog kami and acting accordingly that after i wrote about, she was gone.
At that moment i believed Alexa Crush was the Japanese actress Michi Nishijima and i think she did appear during that trip on Lake Tahoe.
One night, last spring, she was walking her dog and she said hi to me. Though i answered, did not want to talk to her further as i thought she wanted. Not knowing who she really was, did not want to complicate my life here at the complex.
But then i saw a woman one night at Spirit Mountain sitting in a corner and doing whatever while the orchestra man on the podium was playing Ode to the Joy. (The weekend of August 18).
It was that night when i started to have doubts Alexa Crush was not Michi Nishijima. Came home, did some more searches and i found for the first time Nikolett. In the next couple of days i did a match (August 22), i forgot to put one of the links that proves it was her (though the name was there, but not clickable), told myself i would keep it in mind, searching for a confirmation, and then i forgot.
But after that i started to look more careful at her. When she was coming home at night in her car she was playing loud music so i knew when she came. At times i was going outside, but i figured she never looked at me because i did not want to talk to her that night. Most of the time i was looking that way she had the door opened and all kinda decorations inside and outside the apartment.
Some of those were "on theme" with what happened to me daily.
Sunday at Road's End came a woman in a green beetle (the green bug) and did a routine in front of us. She then climbed down at the beach. The walk was similar to the red headed woman's (Nikolett), but the hair was dark brown.
Tonight i was drunk and smoking and she went to the mailboxes, passing on the other side of the alley, looking scared (a long white face). Then she turned her head towards me and i said hi and she did not answer. Then at the mailboxes she turned her head, looked at me and then started to browse the phone.
Being here for one year, she must have seen me here about a thousand times, especially when i was going to the bins to knot the bags. She knew i lived here and she saw me smoking many times before but never looked scared or turned her head towards me.
Then she came back on my side of the alley and did not look scared anymore. I said hi again and i apologized for not talking to her that night six month ago. She asked me how my day was going (like she knew me for a longtime) and walked towards me, looking concerned. Being drunk, i started to talk too much and told her how sick i was in the last 4 months and took antibiotics and stuff. Them she said i should have tried garlic.
I was next to the car and she was in the alley. But because of the slope, i was way above her so i stepped closer to be on a similar height. I also tried to take a closer look though it was pretty dark. But now i was kinda in her way to getting back to her apartment.
She said "i'm used to" and "everybody is taller than me" and "i have to climb on my counters" whatever that means and indeed she looked very short or about how Alexa Crush should be. I told her she was ok which she was. Tiny body shape and everything just like Alexa.
And then she started to kinda smile and relax and her face turned cute and we talked for a while. She said how nice is the weather tonight and i told her i am happy is colder because i don't feel the smell of poops that much and i showed her my frustration towards the people who throw bags open in the bins.
The she said the word raccoon and i remembered that night when i last saw her, a few days ago, me going to the N bin N with the trash at 9:30 PM (now it seems odd i never saw her taking the trash or checking the mail) and seeing the three little raccoons with their mother, one of them climbing the bin and stuff. I said to her "a family, a mother with three..." and she took over "babies" and i said "they were more like grown ups...".
During the last minute of our conversation i saw a guy approaching from behind, but he turned right and went and stood on the other side of the alley by some TV box, behind cars. I thought he was Asian or Mexican.
Then she said "You know what? i need to go inside to get my dog and take it for a walk" and i was looking at her in disbelief, how abruptly she wanted to leave the conversation, all of a sudden when she saw that guy. Then she went to him, he seemed like a friend, they talked for a second and she went inside. Didn't give me a chance to introduce myself or anything.
Then in a minute or so the woman from upstairs came home in her Element and did not want to face her and did not want to go with whatever her name was to walk her dog either so i went inside.
There are many other things i remember about her but i'm too tired and need to go to sleep. That night when she showed at Indian Head with Toto Cutugno, one day or after he died. Here in the park the day before she posted this. Ok one more thing; could this possibly have to do anything with a post i wrote 4 years ago?
My post is dated June 2020 (select the white space between title and text). Ok her main video i fell in love with is Published on September 20, 2020. Posing like a girl from California. She got teenage stories from the US on Tik Tok.
They totally knew my taste and categories and stuff. So it was a revenge for what i said. So it is not like they don't care about anything.
And one more. Monday about a week ago i went the first time to Quest Diagnostics in Beaverton, inside Safeway on Tealc St.. Drove with Angela, wanted to go do a TDAP test (Tetanus Diphtheria Pertussis) as a walk in.
The short woman came at 3:10 and put a yellow sticker next to the scanner saying "no walk ins after 3" and i think i was there before. Really frustrating. Then i could do the reservation online, in the same place, on a cancelation but that is another story.
Angela remained inside the store to buy some stuff, i wanted to get in the car and walked the alley when i heard a Sherriff's SUV making a big noise with the siren next on Murray, zigzagging among cars but i had this feeling and looked behind and there was this probably electric SUV making no noise, coming pretty fast for a parking lot, on a collision trajectory with my person.
I stepped aside, he did not slow down, blink or moved his head, holding his head like a robot, he went around the parking lot like he lost direction until i did not look no more. When he passed me first i looked at him and thought i recognized Nikolett's husband with no beard though. In that moment i had the feeling he would have ran me over.
No the result from last Wednesday test did not come back yet. 3 hours to write this post.
