December 25

10:39 Andy did you hear about this one?

5:26 White Christmas for Midwest. Every time i say: This is the weirdest weather pattern i saw so far. Here, jet stream encompassing a cyclone, with clouds trying realy hard to form with too high atmospheric pressure above Pacific, turning into a real winter storm further in the middle of US. I saw the forecasts, weather was supposed to be "warmer than usual for most major US cities"? The only thing i'm afraid is after snow they're going to throw gravel on the alleys and leave it here for another year, to turn to granite dust and be blown up in the air every Wednesday.

5:29/2:29. Numbers seem to poured out of nowhere to double real info. Did i just say that the social unrest that started in 1968 in France ended in a pandemic?

5:31 My healing pod. Years ago i bought at Home Depot or Lowes polystyrene insulation for i can't remember what. To replace the dusty stinky insulation around a dishwasher. Recently, one day when i was realy sick, with pain in pancreatic area, i wrapped myself in some of that. Pains where gone within hours. So i built myself a sleeping bag like pod of that material. Flexible polystyrene with aluminum on boths sides. Today i almost could not walk because of pain in my right knee area. Especially after i go and flatten all mounds around foundation of this corner of the building to stop pain killing and numbing smoke. So i jumped into that one, together with a heating electric pad. Within a few hours i started to actually feel what happens to me. My hands and legs started to hurt like after being exposed to cold. I think my whole body is trying to shut down, by lowering metabolism. Not feeling it because of the smoke. Extreme bullying with squeaking from above. Some exposure to cold yesterday by working a bit at the car and staying outside for a couple of hours. Went in the kitchen area to grab some food. Same pattern. After squeaking, discretely on top of me in the bedroom, he now came in the kitchen area, moved some furniture, squeaked some more. Not leaving on Christmas day, not leaving on weekends, not leaving ever. Last week he was missing i think one day and one half in total.

6:20/4:20 Recitind primele pagini din Omul Dedublat. Un milion de detalii despre viața nesuferită a unor neadaptabili formând o nou creată clasă burgheză. Imposibilitatea unei vieți normale într-o birocrație kafkiană. O dublare în sine. Posibil creată pentru a anula unele suspiciuni apărute în societatea rusă. Rasputin avea să se nască 23 de ani după publicarea cărții.

8:36 Two songs, both sad, multiplied billions of times, what did i say about media pressure, still make (or brake) our Christmases. While voices and arrangements are ok perfect, hard to come with something better, it is suspicious they have not been overcome by others in so many years. Like oh so many other old antique Christmas songs on several temporarily dedicated local stations impossilbe to break from, including the one with the bright nose Rude elf going down through the chimney, others with almost explicit sexual content, pretty much like a non-Christmas song by Rihanna, "come into me!". Last Christmass, oficially recognized as a break up song, it is actually a subliminally gay making song, and i'll expain why. Hetero loving a whore it doesn't pay of, one year later George aka (to me) as Sorin Mihalea, Ioan Luchian Mihalea, becomes wiser and he finds the "special love" of

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man undercover, but you tore me apart
Ooh-hoo
Now I've found a real love, you'll never fool me again

Is that the same diamond broche from the video?
As for Mariah, aka to me as Rimi, it is true, for Christmas they want us all. The demons


9:32 Newest

11:30 And they started right away the game of doubling, ingannare.

Also. If it was possible. The "man" upstairs (i believe they are several, going and coming through attic, taking turns) was crazier today than ever. Yelling and hitting the floor. Until i rebooted my old phone and put it in stand by to record (I saw at the new one the battery lasted for about a week, not anymore, so it was not the apps i installed in the old one). A couple a month ago, or the last time i talked to him, he said he is moving, but didn't say when. About an hour ago, he went down the stairs, pretending needing something from the car. Then all hell broke loose. The place filled with painful dust. I went and cleaned the deck, the rails that were covered with a whitish stuff. While doing so, smoke came in. Put a wet towel on the filter, went and found some soft areas (not even bulged) and stepped on and the smoke disappeared. While doing so, fresh smell of laundry (perfumed, stinky) nauseated me. Thinking. They totally control the area.

11:40 Arianii albi sunt în pericol.

11:43 Pentru mulți ani, demențial, bestial, au fost cuvinte folosite în media cu sens pozitiv.

11:50 Dublarea Giga. Oare se dublează și Mega?

11:53 Născut în Franța, de unde știe el cum e Africa, și mai ales unde se uită?

Acestea au fost câteva exemple, nu pot să stau toată ziua și să postez, peste subiectele mele, toate contrele, mai subliminale sau mai directe care apar în media, adică mai toate articolele. (A mai murit și teologul Demond Tutu).

December 24

12:05/10:05 Poate ar trebui să citesc din nou povestea omului dedublat sau cel puțin sumarul. Dostoevsky mai are o chestie, profeția din Demonii, însă eu aș merge mai departe și generaliza, nu e vorba doar de comunismul care a urmat, ci de ceea ce se întâmplă și acum, adică noua ordine corporatistă.

Omul dedublat, s-ar putea să conțină cheia sau cel puțin informații utile despre ceea ce se întâmplă acum. Citeam știrile, nu văd altceva decât dublări ale unor evenimente prin știri selectate sau inventate. Ceva ce la un moment dat am numit ingannare (un cuvânt latin), ceva cu care pur și simplu nu pot să țin pasul. Hai să dau un exemplu, intervenția lui Gorbaciov după ce am postat asemănarea dintre George Michael și Ioan Luchian Mihalea, alte chestii. Știm cu toții, Gorbaciov are pe frunte harta Italiei care se oprește la Roma, iar eu mai știu că de-a lungul vieții același actor (cântăreț de operă) l-a mai jucat pe Elvis Presley, precum și pe liderul revoluției din 1958 din Ungaria, Attila Jánoki.

Probabil că se poate construi o teorie matematică care să explice folosirea dublării. Este foarte simplu deși se aplică într-un sistem extrem de complex, societatea umană multinațională. Dacă se introduce în circuitul informațional social un eveniment asemănător cu primul, se crează suficientă confuzie pentru ca nimeni să nu poată trage nici o concluzie constructivă din primul (se introduce dubiul asupra primului eveniment, de obicei nu există nici un indiciu - track back - către primul, pentru persoanele care nu suspectează nimic). Însă mai e și chestia cu substituția, care este de fapt opusul dedublării. Persoanele substituite nu au nici un fel de răspundere pentru ceea ce crează, fiindcă de fapt nu există. Exemplul lui lui Cîțu. În tupeul său infinit, sau mai bine zis inexistent, fiindcă el face ce face la comanda unui dirijor, sau al unui ansamblu de dirijori aflat în starea de dreaming, sau comuniune hai să zicem spirituală, a venit și a postat niște poze cu el însuși, în ipostaze detectabil diferite. Sau mă rog, cineva i le-a postat.

Asta nu face decât să-mi amintească faza cu bugetul, această scrisoare a lui Poe ascunsă în văzul tuturor. Pe pagina lui de fb se găsește un grafic cu execuția  bugetară la 6 luni. 80% clamează el, în Monitorul oficial am găsit 70. Mă rog. Hai să mergem la Ministerul Transporturilor. (Nu știu exact când, cel puțin cu 5 ani în urmă, au venit și au inventat chestia cu "credite de angajament", adică bugetul e și el în formă dublă, adică bugetul propriu zis lângă care mai apare o sumă, credite de angajament, care bănuiesc că e o formă de transfer al unor sume de la un an la altul, imposibil de verificat). Deci în versiunea cu credite de angajament, bugetul Ministerului Transporturilor pe anul care a trecut a fost de 32 miliarde. "Executat" 70 sau 80 la sută, dacă acest procent să menține până la sfârșitul anului (probabil vom vedea sumele în Monitorul Oficial la începutul anului) tot avem o sumă enormă, pe care nu ne-a explicat-o nici un om politic.

De ce demonii lui Dostoievski ne aplică aceste teorii și de ce ei sunt altfel decât noi? Pur și simplu pentru că au trăit în Australia, pe singurul continent izolat, separat de restul lumii, timp de zeci de mii de ani, și astfel și-au format toate aceste idei pe care noi, restul, majoritatea, nu le vom înțelege niciodată. Poate că nici nu sunt idei conștiente, dar ceea ce ei numesc "the dreaming".

1:41 After my last trip at the Spirit Mountain, got a clunk at the suspension on the left front. Could have happened earlier cause it can only be heard when i do the right turn at the entrance of the complex, which is more elevated. Tried the upper strut connection, lug nuts. Got to jack the car, remove the wheel to see. First, stepped on a few mounds, killed the smoke. Every time i tried to do it so far, they come with bags, gifts, all the good people of the complex on Christmas eve, only me working on car. The guy upstairs yells profanities for real every time i get depressed or mad (in my mind), almost caused me another dysphagia.

2:10 I turned the wheel, without jacking, again in heavy rain, tried sway bar to strut linkage, turned the other way and found one caliper slider bolt (14 mm hex head) loose about one quart of a turn (yes the one i worked on last time, but i always torque them twice, yes by hand). Laundry perfume flooding the space around car, hiding something else. Got nauseated. Every time i go outside there is one person ready and passes by.

4:34 All four bolts on both calipers were loose. Went for an Amazon return, UPS store was closed, searching for a fresh Christmas tree in two places, both closed, some stuff at NAPA, got there at 3:00, the guy just closed door in front of me. Went through several red light cameras. When i got back i stopped on red at Tualatin Sherwood and 99, and can't remember if i left on green or it was just the green left arrow (first light out of three in front of me, done that before). Saw a flash or two right after i left, but they were kinda faint. One guy going through intersection the other way, kinda fast. Got one car in front of me, could have been both green arrows were on when he came from left, one guy at my right. Had my mask on but under the nose. Got a trip permit, which is visible from behind. Now i start having fun searching for situations like this. First thing i found. Where is this world going to? (Not that i'm drunk but i love this song, (still) following on youtube). "Stevie Nicks" is a genius. And despite everything they say, the guitar sounds extraordinary.

11:25 I can't believe i've done it again. I was very nervous because of the car and all the ninja in the world that ruined (again) my Christmas eve. Made a big mess in the kitchen. However, i've done some of the best "cozonacs" in my entire life. Isn't this a pity, the older you get, the better your cozonacs?

Another favorite of mine. For some "reason", associated with this time of the year...

December 23

1:01 GNU Not Unix. I always believed. Huns could not have been that numerous. They knew they couldn't openly dominate the Romans and stopped at the gates of Rome in exchange for Panonia. Romans were at the peak of their might, with probably millions of soldiers (records show 300 thousands). The only way they could have brought the Roman Empire to its knees was secret, unconventional warfare. One sack of cannabis burnt from the direction of wind towards enemy's camp, just before the attack. But with current religious leaders, after infiltrating the Catholic Church with their people - the Dominicans, others, many records have been suppressed and under unprecedented pressure of media in the past century, contemporary people got used not to (know what to) think anymore.

9:41 Media dezlănțuită a demenților. Ishto-dor.

December 22

7:50 Nihil sine transitu. Înapoi, la tranziție. 2009.

8:29 Place filled with smoke. Every time is different. I think they're rotating kratom, cocaine, meth, others. I went and leveled the bulges, one under deck, one under bedroom window, one under the bush in front, now airing. By doing so i got to breath more next to those. Temporarily stopped thinking, can't do what i wanted this morning. My brain just froze.

9:25 Still sick from the smoke. I made some tee, mint and chamomile, i asked Angela why it tasted like soup. Because it has tarragon in it she said. Read on the label. Mint with tarragon. Wanted to go and grab something from the trunk of the car. A delivery van flashing yellow lights next to red curb, 10 ft away from my trunk. A guy with a white beard and a big white dog peeing copious amounts in front of the car. Feels like i'm going to puke.

9:52 Finally got to my trunk. Trying to clean the apartment, big dilemma, got the parts i replaced (pulled from the car) that could prove what kinda cascade failures the car had and whose fault was, but have no room to store them.

2:09 Apparently DNA sequencing (and RNA by generalization) doesn't work for samples preserved in formalin (an aqueous solution of formaldehyde) for more than 30 years. Formaldehyde also denatures proteins (changes their structure) so spike protein of a certain virus variant cannot be recognized after a sample being kept in formaldehyde for 100 years. RNA sequencing is the other method of determining a COVID variant. Then how do they know.

7:35/5:35 Oamenii de știință britanici au descoperit. Dar e posibil?

8:40/5:40 A pandemic  never comes alone. Did Hong Kong flu had a contribution to ending of the 1968 social unrest that started in France? Not in the US. Also could not find any references as being more than one variant. To me, one thing is sure. If not for the current pandemic, the global elite would have been screwed by now. But if that stop working, they will come up with something.

9:50 Ok the reason my immune system can't fight with the current T gondii infection is because the red wood dust that i breath which contains antimicrobial tanine, mutates the protozoa in my gut faster than my immune system can keep up.

December 21

6:26 Winter solstice. Sun "stays". Which means it's not going down south no more (angle with horizon at noon). Starting today, will go back up until June 21 when it will reach maximum, another solstice, with an equinox (night equals day) on March 21.

Started again to search for a face, a guy with slanted eyes and narrow forehead with lots of hair for his age, again room filled with smoke. Probably some guy passing with a dog stuck again something in two different places, one next to the wall where i'm at, one under deck. I went and stepped on the bulges, but lately i realized it's not really helping a lot, they added something in the formula that makes it keep burning. I think of a short bald smiling guy (blonde Buddha as i call him) that i once saw with the dog very close to that wall and my door.

9:55

11:34