10:20 I went for another cigarette, but did not feel like the first. I was looking in all directions to see who's coming. Nobody came, just the dog from balcony started to bark when i was finished, again raising the heck out of my BP.
Was thinking. Her videos on Tik Tok and elsewhere must have been directed by her husband, right? Hence the total relaxation (and maximum seduction power)...
10:50 I don't believe it really matters who of the two wins. What matters is the total commitment of half of the electorate towards one candidate which will last after elections and most important, the confirmation of democracy. Which is real but has one big contradiction.
The other half of the electorate or the losers have different opinions and have no power to implement them. So. by the strict definition, democracy, which means power (cratos) of people (demos) after such balanced election, is actually half (demi) democracy. So it should be called... demicracy.
Ok i don't know if i'm going to finish this tonight. Last nigh i was tired and dehydrated by drinking and then i crashed and waked up in the middle of the night and got really pissed when i remembered what happened. My face feels like it's swelling though it's not. Hands too. Didn't take antibiotics in three days but got some liver problems now. I think after i been too close again to the sewer behind Chinook Winds.
It is not a secret i have been in the recent past obsessed with an Tik Tok influencer that goes by the name Alexa Crush. Lately i started to believe she is the Hungarian actress Nikolett Krajcsi, a mother of three but not so sure anymore, mostly because of height of which i'm not sure. But can't rule out either, because of name and face resemblance.
She once had a number of posts on Tik Tok dressed as a green fairy that made me buy some absinthe essence online and translate a poem from Baudelaire for her.
In my imagination there was some sort of dialog between us. She was posting on Tik Tok and i on my blog. Didn't care if some of her posts were a bit off with clothing and stuff. But then i became pissed when she started to post about her being protector of dogs. Cause i started to really hate those, for obvious reasons. So i quit following her and soon she stopped posting on all platforms.
From a post on my main blog i referenced numerous times. There was in building D closest entrance from us a Chinese or Japanese woman who was posing as my friend. One night i drove with my truck to Spirit Mountain and she tried to stop me by literally getting in my way a couple of times. When i came back, a cop stopped me in Newberg because the sticker in my rear plate number was missing.
She was driving a small Dodge SUV. One night some guy whom i seen here before (or his truck) but not sure, i think he was a taller guy first, backed up in her SUV, pushed the SUV in the building and ruined the stairwell. Was that the moment of crash or crush? It is odd the guy did not get arrested or anything. That was reckless.
But lately he became shorter and i thought i recognized him as being the husband of... Nilolett the actress, link above. But never saw him at what apartment he goes.
After the crash, the Chinese woman moved with her SUV and in her place came a woman that many times lately i thought it was Alexa Crush herself. However she was certainly looking like Nikolett. (Found out lately, by chance).
But when i looked to her family pictures, i thought i recognized the little girl (age adjusted) who was acting like possessed by the dog kami and acting accordingly that after i wrote about, she was gone.
At that moment i believed Alexa Crush was the Japanese actress Michi Nishijima and i think she did appear during that trip on Lake Tahoe.
One night, last spring, she was walking her dog and she said hi to me. Though i answered, did not want to talk to her further as i thought she wanted. Not knowing who she really was, did not want to complicate my life here at the complex.
But then i saw a woman one night at Spirit Mountain sitting in a corner and doing whatever while the orchestra man on the podium was playing Ode to the Joy. (The weekend of August 18).
It was that night when i started to have doubts Alexa Crush was not Michi Nishijima. Came home, did some more searches and i found for the first time Nikolett. In the next couple of days i did a match (August 22), i forgot to put one of the links that proves it was her (though the name was there, but not clickable), told myself i would keep it in mind, searching for a confirmation, and then i forgot.
But after that i started to look more careful at her. When she was coming home at night in her car she was playing loud music so i knew when she came. At times i was going outside, but i figured she never looked at me because i did not want to talk to her that night. Most of the time i was looking that way she had the door opened and all kinda decorations inside and outside the apartment.
Some of those were "on theme" with what happened to me daily.
Sunday at Road's End came a woman in a green beetle (the green bug) and did a routine in front of us. She then climbed down at the beach. The walk was similar to the red headed woman's (Nikolett), but the hair was dark brown.
Tonight i was drunk and smoking and she went to the mailboxes, passing on the other side of the alley, looking scared (a long white face). Then she turned her head towards me and i said hi and she did not answer. Then at the mailboxes she turned her head, looked at me and then started to browse the phone.
Being here for one year, she must have seen me here about a thousand times, especially when i was going to the bins to knot the bags. She knew i lived here and she saw me smoking many times before but never looked scared or turned her head towards me.
Then she came back on my side of the alley and did not look scared anymore. I said hi again and i apologized for not talking to her that night six month ago. She asked me how my day was going (like she knew me for a longtime) and walked towards me, looking concerned. Being drunk, i started to talk too much and told her how sick i was in the last 4 months and took antibiotics and stuff. Them she said i should have tried garlic.
I was next to the car and she was in the alley. But because of the slope, i was way above her so i stepped closer to be on a similar height. I also tried to take a closer look though it was pretty dark. But now i was kinda in her way to getting back to her apartment.
She said "i'm used to" and "everybody is taller than me" and "i have to climb on my counters" whatever that means and indeed she looked very short or about how Alexa Crush should be. I told her she was ok which she was. Tiny body shape and everything just like Alexa.
And then she started to kinda smile and relax and her face turned cute and we talked for a while. She said how nice is the weather tonight and i told her i am happy is colder because i don't feel the smell of poops that much and i showed her my frustration towards the people who throw bags open in the bins.
The she said the word raccoon and i remembered that night when i last saw her, a few days ago, me going to the N bin N with the trash at 9:30 PM (now it seems odd i never saw her taking the trash or checking the mail) and seeing the three little raccoons with their mother, one of them climbing the bin and stuff. I said to her "a family, a mother with three..." and she took over "babies" and i said "they were more like grown ups...".
During the last minute of our conversation i saw a guy approaching from behind, but he turned right and went and stood on the other side of the alley by some TV box, behind cars. I thought he was Asian or Mexican.
Then she said "You know what? i need to go inside to get my dog and take it for a walk" and i was looking at her in disbelief, how abruptly she wanted to leave the conversation, all of a sudden when she saw that guy. Then she went to him, he seemed like a friend, they talked for a second and she went inside. Didn't give me a chance to introduce myself or anything.
Then in a minute or so the woman from upstairs came home in her Element and did not want to face her and did not want to go with whatever her name was to walk her dog either so i went inside.
There are many other things i remember about her but i'm too tired and need to go to sleep. That night when she showed at Indian Head with Toto Cutugno, one day or after he died. Here in the park the day before she posted this. Ok one more thing; could this possibly have to do anything with a post i wrote 4 years ago?
My post is dated June 2020 (select the white space between title and text). Ok her main video i fell in love with is Published on September 20, 2020. Posing like a girl from California. She got teenage stories from the US on Tik Tok.
They totally knew my taste and categories and stuff. So it was a revenge for what i said. So it is not like they don't care about anything.
And one more. Monday about a week ago i went the first time to Quest Diagnostics in Beaverton, inside Safeway on Tealc St.. Drove with Angela, wanted to go do a TDAP test (Tetanus Diphtheria Pertussis) as a walk in.
The short woman came at 3:10 and put a yellow sticker next to the scanner saying "no walk ins after 3" and i think i was there before. Really frustrating. Then i could do the reservation online, in the same place, on a cancelation but that is another story.
Angela remained inside the store to buy some stuff, i wanted to get in the car and walked the alley when i heard a Sherriff's SUV making a big noise with the siren next on Murray, zigzagging among cars but i had this feeling and looked behind and there was this probably electric SUV making no noise, coming pretty fast for a parking lot, on a collision trajectory with my person.
I stepped aside, he did not slow down, blink or moved his head, holding his head like a robot, he went around the parking lot like he lost direction until i did not look no more. When he passed me first i looked at him and thought i recognized Nikolett's husband with no beard though. In that moment i had the feeling he would have ran me over.
No the result from last Wednesday test did not come back yet. 3 hours to write this post.
12:05 AM Trump: Make America Great, Yet Again. Kamala: An American Woman. Anybody knows were the reset button (for these elections) is?
2:00 Anybody, what these three cars have in common? A: The lotus shapes embedded in them.
12:00 Can heart valves regenerate? Imagine that. Stretched pieces of collagen flapping there passively to prevent backflow when heart is contracting, upper and lower part separately, for your whole life. How strong that material is. But it can get eaten by bacteria.
Anybody can easily figure a valve problem with a stethoscope. Maybe not if it's just started.
3:00 PM Heart valves degrade also from losing collagen in your body. It is age related in the sense that with age you accumulate more infection time in your body.
You can figure your are loosing collagen by looking at old scars. When they shrink and soften you know you lost the collagen in those and probably in all the organs.
I believe a true anti-ageing drug would be a collagenase inhibitor. You think it's a coincidence that in top of the list are antibiotics, a class of medicines that are available in half of the other countries without a prescription? Or they made some mistakes and those are not collagenase inhibitors but simply kill bacteria that make the collagenase?
6:42 Câștigi nu câștigi, candidat te numești și poți să-ți diseminezei ideile.
6:45 Prea târziu, nu mai este liberă nici o funcție din cele pe care le dețin compartioții lor, actorii școliți la Universitatea Loránd Eötvös. Adică de la primar în sus.
2:20 AM Why does Van Gogh's Starry Night painting look so much like Jupiter's surface?
2:44 Egyptians (like so many others including Romans) associated different gods with planets. By example the god Amun was associated with Jupiter. But Amun is also associated with ammonia while Jupiter's clouds, or the most visible part of it are made of ammonia. Amun came down all the way to Christianity, because all the prayers end with the word Amen.
It was one of the most important gods in the New Kingdom (1550–1070 BCE). TutAnkhAmun, initially Aten, was named after him. Egypt was ruled by Greeks during Ptolemaicperiod (Right after Alexander the Great).
They are saying the word ending every Christian prayer, Amen, does not come from Amun, sometimes spelled Amen, but from the Greek or Hebrew word amin/amen which means truth or faithfulness (could not find such a word in Greek with Google Translate and amin is said to be an interjection).
But who can tell the god Amun was not associated with faithfulness in the same way in the New Testament Jesus is associated with truth.
11:22 Da dar cine numește Guvernul (și îl poate demite sau schimba) fiind responsabil și solidar cu acțiunile acestuia? Deși la ultimul Președinte s-a observat un fel de detașare senină față de cele 9 guverne numite timp de zece ani, anul și guvernul adică, o tradiție românească post revoluționară.
În SUA e altă chestie. Acolo Președintele este și Prim Ministru.
11:00 PM Did you know the White House was completely renovated in 1948? Though there are currently several oval rooms in the main building, the actual oval office (a rare and unusual design) is not in that building but in the East wing. It makes sense, since it's lotus inspired. Or maybe by the Jupiter "storm".
All that was kept from the main building after the 1948 renovation was the outer walls though they look kinda frail to me.
