October 31

10:55 Angela and i escaped yesterday to Lincoln City. However, by the time i got there i was really sick because breathing through a congested nose because of smoke because of numerous small or "controlled" wildfires along the route. I realized i got contaminated real bad with T gondii from sick dog poo i picked when i gathered the leaves and/or probably from another source. The trick with almond butter and grapefruit juice didn't work anymore, got just too much in my system already. Then i remembered the trick with Zyrtec, as Zyrtec being studied as best possible treatment for toxoplasmosis, and that probably saved me from going to a hospital, after taking three 10 mg doses. Trouble is, by killing the parasite, Zyrtec makes you feel really low and sleepy. Feels like need to sleep for days. In those moments, some caffeine and even alcohol may help.

As i said many times before, T gondii increases dopamine, the "feel good" neurotransmitter. That keeps you going after infection, like feeling high and breathing through a congested nose until you completely crash, with shortness of breath, low oxygen level, etc..

The newest source could be this. Next door or wall neighbor, apt.2 got this huge fan in the window, a similar one on the other side of the building. The fan increases a bit the pressure inside, enough to push whatever is in the air inside into the (empty) walls and from there into our apartment, probably upstairs too. He's got a dog that goes alone in the yard and i picked droppings several times next to his patio. The mystery of the man upstairs not being here in the last weeks/months. After being back a few days (week before Halloween) he left early Saturday morning. All after staying here for days at at time, since he moved in the spring. The neighbor next door or wall has a dog and smokes. Cigarettes, possibly kratom,  marijuana which with dog smell comes through the walls in here. I opened main door while i'm writing here and got nauseated.

11:28 Ok this is weird. Can't find the article where it says Zyrtec inhibits T gondii though i know for sure it does because i bought it right after i read. Instead i found (again) something about omeprazole (which i took for years) and a number of antipsychotic and antihistamine drugs which makes me think again, what if T gondii causes all these diseases, one of the first responses of your body to infection is to increase stomach acid and omeprazole actually kills or suppresses the parasite. Same with other "psychiatric" diseases, with mood swings being caused by proliferation of parasite after eating, etc..

Strangely enough, Scientology holds a similar belief, that "psychiatric" diseases are caused by... Tethans ("clustering" to human bodies), and antihistamine drugs help suppress those.

12:45 Why from dogs and not from cats (which would be directly from source). For fulfilling the prophecy of St.Dominic's mother? Who made all the fires along Hwy 99 and 18 last night?

Could the current pandemic which is said to be caused by an invisible virus, actually be caused by rapidly mutating strains of T gondii (that cannot be suppressed by the immune system of people that are already old and sick)? It is said that a large percentage of human population is infected with the parasite, ignored by the doctors because of difficulty of diagnosis and not being an emergency because of so many people being positive and asymptomatic, however, what if newer more virulent strains take over?

Could this explain the anecdotal reports which say COVID can be treated with anti-parasitic drugs, some antibiotics? Anybody other than me ever tried antihistamines, omeprazole, combined with calmly breathing on mouth,  maybe getting oxygen for a few hours until your body can breath without difficulty again?

That because to me it happened so many times, many years before COVID. I went to ER maybe up to 100 times in those years with shortness of breath (never got to the point when oxygen was low), and every time all they did was let me wait, while breathing the clean air inside, and in a few occasions when i stayed with "anxiety" or "panic" attacks and not sleeping for a week, they put me in psychiatric wards.

4:29/2:29 Șansele matematice ale guvernului Ciucă.

Știți ce ma atrage pe mine la păcănele? În primul rând, să mai ies de aici, să mai văd și să mai aud altceva. Uneori, Oceanul cel Magic, Mount Hood-ul maiestuos și deșertul misterios. Alte ori, doar râsete și chiuituri, poate artificiale. Un păhărel pe furiș în parcare.

Știu de mult că nu sunt jocuri de noroc. Au poate o cameră pentru fiecare 2-3 mașini cu care capturează și analizează fețele, mișcarea mâinilor. Ceva softuri apoi îți hotărăsc mâna următoare. Când nu ești atent să apeși butonul să oprești defilarea, îți bagă ceva. Când termini banii introduși, îți bagă o mână, două, să mai joci și să mai scoți bani din buzunar. La fel când te hotărăști să pleci de la o mașină. Din când în când (la ore și după algoritmuri prestabilite, când lumea începe să plece masiv) toate mașinile încep să meargă, poate vreo zece minute, ca să formeze adicții. Pe mine mă amuză să încerc să păcălesc aceste softuri, de cele mai multe ori nu reușesc. Sau chiar dacă reușesc o mână, îmi iau înapoi ce am câștigat, la următoarele zece, etc..

7:24 Yeah i know it feels really bad especially at the end of an "anxiety attack" complete with shortness of breath. It takes lots of courage, after you figure out, to wait to normalize while breathing with the open mouth until you forget about. In a sense, breathing through a congested nose for maybe half an hour at the end feels like holding breath for several minutes, but the sense of urgency is much more pronounced and prolonged, feels like your chest is going to get crushed or something. To me it happened so many times, i don't care anymore.

I never thought i had or don't know if, the variety of wine called Sauvignon blanc. One of the best wines i figure. Until last Sunday. (Coincidence with the shootings on the set by Alec Baldwin?). Today i told Angela to look and see if there isn't any at WinCo. (Took her there, went to pick her in an hour, did some stuff in between). She didn't know what i posted today, the only brand she could find was...

A Walk in the Neighborhood

October 30

5:28 Came from a walk in the park cut short by smoke. Earlier. When returning from Eaton, being entrained by the rush on the way there (only had 5 minutes to take Angela), on empty streets, i "rushed" a yellow light i think at Boones Ferry though now i had enough time (fridge had started, blew some dust in the air, made me sneeze, put a wet towel behind the fridge) and guess what. The car that triggered the sensor for a green light request was... a Police car. One fraction of a second after i entered the intersection (i think it was Boones Ferry) the light turned red. Could still smell like alcohol after 4 and a half hours of sleep? This could have easily turn into something else, given the context.

5:43 Last night i was intrigued by a video similar to this one.

I woke up early, maybe by the guy upstairs who could have left just before that, came at the computer, remembered what i've done last night and started to search. I told Angela, if i went to a body shop to fix that dent on the truck, it would have cost hundreds of dollars, with the 50 dollar kit and half hour i fixed it myself (pending painting it with the spray can, cause the cheap paint i used before in that area came out pulled by the glue before the dent came out). So i searched some more and found a cheaper version of the same kit as in the video, at Walmart (arriving 15) and on ebay for 30 bucks, arriving at least one week earlier. If it works as in the video and the car is not done by then, then i can fix my car anywhere, without needing the glue gun (and a power source) and without needing to wait a couple minutes for the hot glue to set every pull.

I think the man also mentioned Cola Fria, that is an European (German) brand. Man, i think this is the greatest invention in car body work since flubber.

6:10 First smoke smell today. I don't know what it its, could be untreated tobacco, could be kratom. Got to go check for holes under siding.

And of course the subtle manipulation (ingannare). One of the 85 vehicle Joe Biden's motorcade in Rome was hit by a Romanian driver. How do we know that guy was Romanian. No name, no face. In Rome, President Joe Biden met with Italian President Mata-rrella.

6:59 Went outside to check for new moles galleries, again saw the light on and the huge fan in the window at the apartment next to hours, running day and night, no matter the temperature outside. There is a similar one at the same apartment in the window on the other side of the building. If those fans blow inwards, they can create pressure in the empty walls, enough to push whatever stuff in ours. If they blow outwards, they create low pressure in the walls which makes it easy for anything outside to get inside ours. This happened a lot at the apartment in Lake Oswego. People with huge fan in windows can indeed manipulate the airflow in other apartments.

10:20 Slept a lot, no more smoke today. Just found out the great news, he started to work on my car. From now on, it will be days.

10:37 No, there is some smoke i think i got used to. Goto go for a walk, will tell when i'm back.

October 29

9:14 I wrapped a plied wet towel around vacuum hose to make for the diameter and applied it on the dryer's vent while he was drying upstairs. Though the flow increased a lot when vacuum was on, it went back down when i removed it which leads me to the conclusion that he simply never cleaned the dryer's filter, which explains why after a month since he moved, the drying process started to last longer and longer. The vacuum sucked the flap which came out of its place (don't really understand how, don't think there was enough force, unless if it was already out of one of the two retainers). Went to put the flap back but turned around to grab a mirror (the vent is covered by some sort of rain cover and can't see unless you bend down really low) when a car came at high speed and stopped in the spot right next to the vent, but i was already inside when he came. A gray Honda with a guy i saw around here before, looking Japanese, dressed in a red hoodie pulled over his head inside the car. He left in about 5 minutes and i went to put back the flap.

5:14 Last night i applied online for a trip permit for the car however it could not be done online sooner than 4 days, so it starts on Tuesday. When i went to pick the mail they were a variety of different shows going on, really crowded, one that caught my eye was a vehicle with a trip permit. Only because i was thinking i could have that one in the mail already? Or because i wish one? Both? I mean, it would not be impossible, if they ship it automatically right away, but i guess the reason for the 7 days delay is the mail.

Picked from the locker the two dent pulling kits. Though i canceled them, Amazon shiped them. Today i decided to keep them just in case they don't start on my car real soon, and that is before i get the trip permit. With the kits, i could easily pull the dents here. I mean, i apply a pad with hot glue and use the handle to pull it. No noise, no nothing. In the end, i could go in a parking lot and paint the side of the car with spray cans like i did with the Nissan. Use some clear coat this time, to make it last. Trouble is, there is peeled paint on the hood, which looks replaced from the first accident, and need to paint that one as well.

7:43 About 15 minutes ago. Was anxious about trying the dent pulling kit and went to try it on a dent on my old truck. Hot glue smells real nice like pine resin. Some guy with a diesel engine came and started maneuvering in the empty spot next to mine (guy upstairs left at 9:30 and came at 7:30 in the evening). Then another car came and started to honk at the first one though it was obvious he was about to leave. I went real loud. WTF? Then it turned the car that just came was the guy upstairs. I took my tools, including  the glue gun inside. He is now upset? Not even squeaking? How can he manage one time not to squeak while he does it all the other times?

8:12 Pulled the dent out, in about half hour with the 48 dollars kit. Dent was smooth, about  5-7 mm deep on a 10x10 cm area. From pressing my hand when closing the hood? Doesn't need anything else before painting (maybe sanding the edges of the old paint), the edges of the paint that i applied myself a while ago from a can went first, primer is still there). Tricks. You have to apply the hot glue on the dent, not on the pad and then apply the pad real quick. You have to let it cool for at least one minute. Don't need to clean the pad, can go layer after layer, glue sticks to previous layer on the pad which accelerates the process dramatically. BTW. Can't clean it with alcohol from the pad as they say, from the car it just pops if you pull that handle real hard. I don't think it's much slower than "classical method" with welded sticks and a slide hammer, but a lot less messy (no need to clip the metal sticks and sand the area). I think it would have worked in an area with original paint, without damaging it, if it wasn't already damaged.

8:35 Still no squeaks from upstairs, just some real loud cursing in Sanish. OK, a bit of squeaks and he started the drier.

10:39 Spuneam că România poate funcționa la fel de bine cu sau fără guverne. Au venit să mă contrazică, aruncând în joc o nouă linie de metrou, de 5,4 km, decizie la nivel de secretar de stat. 

Analizând sumele și comparând cu alții nu pot decât să mă mir de costul lucrării. La ei, 40 milioane euro pe km, la noi 2900/5 milioane euro împărțit la 5,4 adică 107. Oricum, cele 2.9 miliarde lei, după cum spune și articolul, nu sunt în totalitate din bugetul de stat care totalizează 400 miliarde lei pe an sau 32 miliarde numai la Ministerul Transporturilor, etc.. Poate cineva să spună ce se întâmplă cu cele 32 miliarde de lei, bugetul pe un an al Ministerului Transporturilor?

October 28

6:18 After taking Angela to work i went for a short walk in the park (to help eliminate some of the alcohol in my my sytem). In the dark parking lot there was something moving and waited until she came under light and i saw there was a woman with a dog. They were two cars i met on the street, and both at the stop sign, when they slow down. When i came back i picked a few items from the red chips, i know there is a dog poo somewhere but just can't find it within the leaves and inside is smelling like dog and mold.

6:38 Curious to see how Hungarian women look like, seen by one of their painters?

6:45 Searching for a face. Here's a preview. First walk upstairs. I feel nauseated by the dog smell. Did i tell i found last night another mat in the "no dumping" place and took it next to the garbage bin?

6:49 Ce mai fac politicienii când nu sunt în știri? Astăzi, Crin Antonescu. Altădată cap de afiș, președinte interimar pentru o lună în locul lui Băse, astăzi mai știe cineva de el? Tulcea, my (dog smelling) a...

8:05 He went once to the car before he left. A mixture of cigarette smoke and dust came in. Got to hose the stairs.

8:42 Hosed the stairs, lots of dust already got inside, contaminated the fridge. Used the rack and gathered the leaves in suspected areas. Found at least one piece of dog poo, as the leaves where smelling. More nausea. Threw away three 13 gallons sacks of wet leaves (about 50 pounds in total). Got to go in Hillsboro Auto Wrecking need to check with google maps first.

8:44 Divele și politicienii ce (se) mai pozează așa. Looks clear.

6:13 Good news. I was able to pick the wheel at Hillsboro Auto Wrecking. For that, i did a total of 78 miles, accompanied, as usually by all kinda crazy drivers, which made it much more difficult, though there was no wind and the truck was not drifting any more.

The wheel looked intact but it had some abrasions around the rim in the area of contact with the tire from removing the tire with a tool at a "slightly different" angle. I borrowed some fine 400 sandpaper from the shop and sanded those out, otherwise i think it could have leaked. Used a water hose and some toilet paper to clean the dust i made and any dirt inside as it could damage the valve.

Here next to the old one. I also used coarser sandpaper to remove the cutting edges of the damaged area (forget to take a picture before, still got some visible cracks) so the tire won't be damaged in the transfer process. At the tire shop i was watching the process of transferring the tire when a delivery van or something backed up in my direction (after an Asian woman came to watch as well her vehicle) but i got pulled out of the way by one of those (Russian) guys from the shop, that was conveniently located 2 buildings away from where my car is.

Good news. They will bring the car inside and start working at by the end of the week (as promised). I also was directed to move the car out of the puddle on a dry area.

Bad news. Crashed with hunger and instead of using google maps i just used google (keep forgetting) and it took me to a Carl's Jr about 10 miles away. The jack i used to lift the car had a "blocked" piston, and had to interrupt the work of the man to have it unblocked. After replacing the wheel (had the spare in its place) i took the borrowed tools inside, including the compressed air hose for the impact wrench. While doing so i touched with the dirty hose that was in the puddle a freshly clear coated car. It did not damage the paint but after wiping it out with a rag, it lost the "freshly painted" shine. I showed it to the man, he said that area will be buffed anyways because right on top of it they were drops of clear coat that "tricked" during the coating job, that need to be sanded and buffed out, which they did right after. I also saw a very small dent under the shiny coat some 2 feet to the right of that area.

The short 1 ft 1/2 inch wrench that i borrowed, with a pipe as extension to torque the lug nuts that yesterday was working, today it looked damaged, looks like the spring in the clicking mechanism was broken.

Just remembered something. I tried to torque the lug nuts on the right front (where i did the axle that BTW is again not fully torqued, didn't have the tool) with the same improvisation, wrench/pipe, the ones i torqued again with the only short wrench but they seemed over torqued. Need to check those again tomorrow, borrow a torque wrench from O'Reilly's.

Good news. I slept about one hour right before i wrote here, on top of the 5 last night. Bad news. Got awakened by the TV upstairs.

7:28 I thought alcohol in bread is the reason for this Jewish ritual. Alcohol in bread is bad news for recovering alcoholics. 200 gr of bread may contain up to 3.8 grams of alcohol or the equivalent of 1/3 of a liquor shot or 100 ml of light beer. How about children, drivers?

8:30 Las' că vine generalul Nicolae Ciucescu și pune armata pe ei. Cum care armată? Aia de mercenari profesioniști (ca a lui Mihai Viteazu) (or fi și ăia tot actori?).

9:19 This guy looks familiar. Pretty much like this one.

1015 Unknown Hungarian actress seen through the lens of one of their own photographers. What man? Is there a man in the picture as well? Can't see any man.
11:09 Since driving the car in the shop's lot seems to be a big issue, i just applied for a trip permit, effective seven days from now (November 4), though i don't know when the car is going to be ready.

11:38 Cu sau fără "guvern" în România, nici o diferență. Românii plătesc în continuare impozite pe salarii, TVA, taxă pe profit (cel mai mare act al guvernelor), iar bugetul (aceste taxe adunate plus ceva împrumuturi, în total 400 miliarde lei/anual) curge în continuare liniștit pe apa sâmbetei.