Sunday, September 16, 2012

I Felt It

It's been a while since nobody called me crazy in direct reference to the number of my hospitalizations in psychiatric wards. Maybe because i haven't talked to many people lately... Maybe because there's no one to talk around... Anyways, passing over the peculiarity of me having to quote my own blog, there are two posts directly related that i will try to bring to your attention.

http://georgesblogforfriends.blogspot.com/2012/08/matter-over-mind_21.html

And

http://georgesblogforfriends.blogspot.com/2012/06/synchronization-in-human_03.html

It is probably obvious i would have never have written the two posts above if it didn't happen to me. Usually when i'm alone, i start feeling sick, dizzy, paralyzed, to have palpitations and i usually then have trouble walking to the door and outside. I know if i can make it inside the car, start the engine and drive away then i'm better. I know because i drove so many times to the nearest hospital or urgent care facility only to find out on my way that i was getting better. That after i called the ambulance so many times, but that was many years ago. And then i tried to think. What is really going on? But usually i'm so violently sick that after i get better i tend to forget everything. Then recently, before i left, i noticed, every time there was some kind of noise outside, usually a car engine or even train humming but not at constant speed. And usually combined with some sort of bad smelling smoke much stronger outside that i didn't even realized inside. And if i paid enough attention, i realized the noise modulation was synchronized either with my breath, my heartbeat or both. And that's why i started thinking that maybe i'm target of some weird sound and physiology based atacks. Why and who? I woundn't try and speculate about it right now. But it is happening, last time, not earlier than today.

Probably based on remote measuring EEG, EKG and breath. Probably by hooking a car's computer or more than one car's computer to a system that's doing this or remotely hacking them through unknown means. One thing i'm 99% sure of. It is happening and probably if not recognized and not reacting it can severely disturb your activity and ultimately make you very sick. Why when you're alone? Probably because it's easy to remotely measure your vital signs.

In the softer version, it can even roughly analyze your EEG and if combined to a huge database containing what you've been doing lately, seriously disturb and influence your thought process, at the price of feeling very uncomfortable most of the time.

In my particular situation the noise is even associated with emissions of toxic substances let's say mineral dust from under the bathtub through a crack in the bathtub caulking i discovered later that comes out when vibrating the whole tub at resonance, or from all the bottles from under the sink with different cleaners and detergents that i found ALL with the cap loose and each having a different resonance frequency thus allowing a remotely controlled release and even controlled mixture of substances that can have a very annoying effect.

And if you are going to the hospital or doctor he's not going to find anything through conventional means. It is not detectable let's say after one hour after it's happening. And even when it's happening, it's just a disturbance of breath and heart rhythm, or electrolyte imbalance. That can be also severe on a short therm. Or you can have a fibrillation on the EKG like i had a couple of times.

Repeated, on long term, it can easily qualify as torture. But these are things worth of another post.

My place, under the bath tube, before

My place, under the bath tube, after

5 comments:

George Ion said...

Today, with base from my neigbhour's. Until... now!

George Ion said...

Woke up from a nightmare just before 6 AM. I remembered yesterday i thought i say a new crack in the new caulking. I found actually two of them and partially recaulked the sliding doors' frame. Then vacuumed the whole place, the "wet method" but didn't gather much mineral dust this time. But it was stinking all night long, a metallic smell. And that after i heard the train in down town LO humming for a half hour in the middle of the night.

George Ion said...

Or the green older Jeep i used to see around in Beaverton with a big yellow inscription on the rear bumper saying "WE'RE DOING IT WITH WAVES"

George Ion said...

For what's worth, today is more discrete. A lower volume hum. Just a few heavy engines climbing the hill. The daily USPS at the neighbor's building delivering something. Only one plane so far. A few slammed doors. A difference. For the unaware, just normal urban noise. But that doesn't mean it's not there, modulated, 90% of the time.

George Ion said...

This evening i found at the lower side of the bath tub a crack in the new caulking about 1 ft long. It is impossible since first i filled the space between the tub and the floor with the best silicon caulk then i put the L shaped plastic wrap with one more layer of caulking for aesthetical purpose. It looks like the floor itself has been beaten and lowered a few mm at the side behind the toilet seat where it's harder to reach and see. It's not that hard since the floor uper layer of the floor is made of 1/2 inch plywood. The whole apartment has been filled again with fine mineral dust and the bathroom was stinking, In top of the smell from the padding. After working near the tub and temporarily redoing the caulking i fill nauseated. My hands sting a bit. To me there is no doubt someone has been in here and did it. And i know why, while i was in the park there was this younger guy that did anything possible to talk to me and make me say things that can be interpreted. They always do it this way, they have to have a "reason" first. It is a form of justice.

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