April 15

5:14 We both woke up at 3:30. And there's a reason to it. Two open holes/mounds both next to the place where the wall was hot the other day. I almost chocked on my own tonsils while yawning which btw are finally getting smaller. Could it be i didn't use the petrolatum adhesive for a few days. So i took one more augmenting (thought i would give it up last night after one week but i'm not completely cleared). The fan in the window is running with the window opened one inch. First i flattened one mound and came inside. I noticed a vehicle, most likely the red SUV belonging to the two guys who probably run that. Then as the smoke was still on i went and flattened the other mound that was around the corner, almost under that window. I don't believe smoke would get in here if it didn't come from near the ground, and through laminar flow (Coanda effect) would go under the siding creating pressure there and entering the walls. (talking about fractions of psi but it still has an effect). After i flattened the second mound (the soil in both areas is mixed with quikrete, and it's stickier and harder than normal soil, but moles or whatever from underground brought in fresh soil), the smoke was gone and then i started to remember who i am, where i am and what i was doing last night. Angela went to work, i try to gather myself to write down here hoping someone would understand what's going on.

BTW yesterday after i wrote about the AHA song played on radio i think i saw the AHA girl (who now is in her 60s) in an SUV smiling provocative at me. LPN 098 HER. It was one or two hours after the sinking of Moskva, which was finished being retrofitted in that year.

The AHA girl has an one line resume where it shows she works at Eaton, the same company where Angela works. BTW Angela left today before 5, she is doing overtime training for a new position, for two weeks now.

I suspect the AHA girl is one of my grad school colleagues, on of the 7 in my class called Mariana, 2 years younger than me and for the grade like most others. I think some things happened to her while we were were in the last years (grads), she looked sick (or very tired) for a while, it doesn't have anything to do with me except i was in trance every time i saw her. Back then they were exams for going to best HSs in the country and she wanted to go to Bucharest, then she went to Cluj and i deliberately went to Iași instead to end that imaginary relationship. I met with her by chance several times, once or twice in the whole HS, then once or twice at the beginning of college and that was it. But in the end she also became a singer in Hungary. The fact there was in Câmpulung a milk processing factory built by the Swiss, (where her mother worked btw) and me living across the factory which also had a small airfield in the back, where also a furniture factory has been built, were all not by my choices. I was as poor as she was or poorer. Though in 72 i was selected to go in that camp in Germany.

One year before that we both went to some sort if cine competition in Sibiu (for being members of the children cineclub, where instructor was most likely Polanski), where she asked for a cigarette from my mother and when we once danced. She was probably 9 or 10 years old at the time, but posing for 11 or 12.

It could be all these years i am being punished for something that allegedly happened to her which probably was real and traumatizing, for the purpose of dramatism, but it did not have anything to do with me. I would never have harmed her in any way.

6:14 Black Hole Sun...

6:37 They were three mole mound in front of living sliding windows inactive for days. Suddenly the place filled again with some sort of smoke (different from before but still noxious). The smell was not coming from the corner but from somewhere else so i just stepped on those holes (planning on adding water with borax later) and the smoke disappeared. It means somebody passed earlier and put something in those. Or do they have tiny underground robots that go and to that. No the smoke is not gone completely which means all the other holes in the backyard are now smoking...

11:07 After that the apartment filled with dust, i put some wet towels on top of filter, behind the fridge and fell asleep. Woke up with nausea, probably from fresh dog poops, can barely concentrate to write a few lines and add a few links before i take off. Weather was supposed to warm up today, instead temperature is the same as yesterday at this hour. Neverending winter that is.

11:31/9:31 România putea să facă asta și de pe teritoriul ei oriunde lângă Marea Neagră. În plus, tot rușii spun că nava s-a scufundat ca urmare a unui incendiu la bord, urmată de explozia muniției. Nava avea apărare antiaeriană și antirachetă. Eu merg pe ipoteza sabotajului. Nava a fost contruită și îmbunătățită timp de 8 ani în Ucraina.

Fridge started, i started to sneeze. Moved the fridge and found a hole in the thin 3/8 (10 mm) aerated gypsum wall near fridge's fan and filled it. Over the years, i found and fixed many holes like this. As i was fixing them, new ones popped. This one was a tiny hole was within a hole i covered before, i refuse to believe i did such a sloppy job that was ok for a long time and now it popped back. Now the fridge started back up, so far i don't feel like sneezing.

2:04 In the last few days, weeks, i saw a small dog coming around my windows by itself. Today i saw the dog together with a long leash then the dog disappeared in the direction of my door. My first impulse was to open the door to see who was at the other end of the leash, but i hesitated, and then the dog came back in the scene, together with a girl, maybe 15, looking Japanese or Filipino, unusually good looking, dressed in pajamas pants, sitting for a while on a cable box and browsing casually through her phone.

Earlier i realized i fell asleep with the door unblocked (got a wooden blocked), maybe unlocked.

8:32 A weird persistent smell outside and it's not coming from the ground. Closest. Welding or burning a propane torch.

One thing these news can do. Confuse the hell out of me.

Energy, climate change. Just removed the two mate glass bulb covers in the kitchen area that i had on for inspection. They cut about 50% of the light. I know now i got very low consumption LEDs but still.

10:28 Some distraction on the road, a white BMW with a panel under that was intermittently touching the ground, exiting late, almost colliding with another car, i almost touched the left line while watching, when a wide ambulance was passing me. Great cooperation and synchronization, doubling what i said in an email that was not supposed to bee seen except by one person or his colleagues. Later i saw a blond young woman in a red car driving staring absent in front of the car, like she was extremely bored in a self driving car.

The choking smell earlier got me into shortness of breath and then partial heart failure, with coughing and very cold hands.

10:42 There was/is a crack at WinCo Foods facade for more than ten years, i felt the dust coming out of the wall when getting in and out the store, but never raised my head to actually see it.

There was not one single time not to have problems at the bottle drop center at Fred Meyer (Kroeger). Never knew the center closes at 8 PM. Why, since it's all automatic. A Police SUV was surrounding the place.

A little something i saw at Fred Meyer parking lot.

At the checkstands at WinCo i was surrouned by "Mexican" kids from two families while paying and bagging. Other many weird scenes in the store, including the "Code service one". It's a deja vu. Always after some "compromising" scene(s) there, i nearly get into an accident on my way back.