Travelling EM oscillations

All science describing light is weird. Never knew photons' mass which do not have a resting mass (do they ever rest?) depends on their frequency. According to the formula, when their frequency is zero, their energy is zero and mass is zero.

The EM radiation from a source propagates in all directions and they say is made of two fields, electric and magnetic that constantly recreate each other with each front wave, when any moving electric field creates a magnetic field etc. which fields are said to be perpendicular on each other and on the direction of propagation like in this image.

But the symmetry of propagation is broken as soon as we're away from the equator and at poles we don't have any fields at all. According to this demonstration EM field cannot propagate spherically. Or at least not symmetrically spherically.

The reason we see a light bulb similarly bright when observed from all directions is because we don't see only one front wave, but many, that each has its own (random) direction.

Can't find right now with google a satisfactory answer to the question. Does each photon has its own unique front wave or more than one photon can travel on the same wave front.

The reason we can not have spherical EM fields is EM field is not continuous but quantic in nature. Quantum means is made of discrete values or packets of energy called photons.

In lasers we can have photons traveling in synchronized front waves but they are still discrete. It is only a coincidence of our choice.

I came to believe that light is a collection of photons each with its own front wave that does only exist  around the photons.

I always believed polarization is rather an alignment of the electric and magnetic vectors of many photons rather than an intrinsic property of one photon. However, things have changed and now they are talking about the spin of a photon, that can be left, right, aligned with the direction of propagation and even transverse and the polarization is related to that spin and the spin can carry energy.

Maybe we shall soon come to believe that photon is a magnetically polar particle and its rotation generate the electric and magnetic field associated with it. My head is spinning.

Saleh Theory adds an extra motion to the photon besides linear and spin we know of already again carying extra energy but where is the balance to the centripetal force. Could it be the interaction of a magnetically or electrically polarized photon with its own front wave? If photon had a electric charge, the helical motion would create of course a variable electric field also calling for a magnetic one etc..

Or maybe there's no photon at all but just a (singled out, orphaned) EM disturbance that maintains self, a bubble that propagates on a straight line in vacuum in the same way disturbances propagate in elastic media though like spheres of pressure waves, that have a life of their own after the source ceases to exist.

One single front wave made of an one alternating electric and one alternating magnetic field in motion that recreate each other in time while advancing in space in steps, one after another, with nothing behind and nothing ahead. There is a phase difference between the electric and magnetic field that propel each other through space as both lag to each other at the speed of light and the lag time is the wavelength of the disturbance divided by the speed of light.

All the transfers between electric and magnetic fields within the bubbles that make the quanta of light of the same frequency and same direction in the whole Universe are in phase due to resonance and the space itself is divided in planes of resonance or slices where electric and magnetic field can turn into each other and those would be stationary and at equal distance and time of transfer between fields which is the same at each frequency and that makes for the speed of light being constant and generally greatest in Universe.

Quantum because there is only one value for the intensity of magnetic and one value for the intensity of electric field for the phenomenon to occur when in resonance with the others.

The energy carried by a quantum of light would be E = hc/λ, with h = 6.625 × 10–34 Js (Plank's constant) and c is the velocity of light and is dependent only by frequency. However there is not one single collection of parallel and equidistant planes but separate collections on all frequencies and all directions.

All disturbances on the same frequency (quanta of light) of the same direction resonate across the Universe however there can be as little as a few in one direction and that can be observed as what we call quantum entanglement.

It is not the space that is bent in the vicinity of big masses but the slices that channel light.

Polarization. Yes, a disturbance, depending on how it was created can have a spin without being a particle.

Interference. At short distances planar front waves of many disturbances combine through interference into quasi spherical hence all the classical experiments. Double slit experiment etc..

So far all my ideas are philosophical deductions, 3D geometric enunciations and verbal description. As There are no mathematical formulas, as Einstein used us to, nothing to illustrate those though there are conclusions that satisfy certain experimental knowledge, like the speed of light is constant and the limit to all speeds in Universe, quantum entanglement etc..

So i wanted to take a look at Maxwell's equations to see if i can grab something meaningful to my demonstration and all i could find was counter intuitive integrals, differentials and gradient symbols that tell me nothing. So i had to take a look again at things i haven't seen in more than 40 years and started with the basics of calculus from a video narrated in English,

Though i can cross now easily the language barrier, i ran into the same problem i did so many years ago.

Definitions of a differential starts with an equation using abstract terms, ds and dt, that can be as small as we can imagine. And all of a sudden in the in the comfort of my intuitive mind the left term of the equation flys to zero or infinity whatever comes first when those entities approach zero.

In reality, the term dt that disappears on the right since it can be as small as possible (approaches zero as the narrators states) in the left side becomes a convention within a notation system, it does not have the value of an equation or division term anymore. Too bad considering all the resources that video took to make and all the hopes of those who watch it and generally the head scratching of all students that ever had to go through this ordeal.

Nevermind i just ran into an animation with two simple equations i can understand hopefully deriving from that symbolism that show the two fields are in phase though the em field is continuously fed from behind which is not possible since the "photons" are emitted by single electrons while decaying orbit or changing energy level. But what happens to the traveling photons when we turn off the light, what pushes them from behind in a non elastic medium (air which for this purpose of this mental experiment can be considered vacuum).

Nevermind an idea just came to me. In the animation above the E field is at 180 degrees on the perpendicular B field and vice-versa. And if i think now, i realize this is how they create each other.

However i believe they propagate in a different way than shown in the animation since in the case of a single photon coming out of a single electron there is no spherical front wave to push it from behind since there cannot be spherical magnetic fields and that would be also an enormous waste of energy of a single electron changing level and would not explain the indefinite travel of a "photon" at the same speed of light through space to the infinity and that field would cease to exist anyways after the electron has changed level.

The whole energy is carried in one in a traveling complete oscillation of both fields instead or EM pulsating quantum instead of being potentially dissipated on a sphere with the radius of the distance the photon travels and i bet that is the mass of the moving photon per Einstein's fundamental equation.

I also believe the best way to describe those in words would be "traveling standing waves". One electric standing wave transfers all of its energy to a magnetic one and then disappears while the bubble or EM pulsating quantum travels 180 degrees on y as time axis while it turns 90 degrees on y as direction axis like a corkscrew for the sake of symmetry.

This is what the electric (or magnetic) component of the cycle should look like for one electric period only. The magnetic component would oscillate in similar ways but in horizontal plane (unseen in the video) and at 180 degrees in the direction of moving of the EM field. During the next period the first component will be moved in space a full 360 degrees etc..

Moving mass of a photon. It's simply the oscillating energy of a fast moving EM quantum transferred through a collision with a "solid" surface or particle. Same for photoelectric effect. An "electron" gets knocked out of orbit by a "photon" that was created by an electron decaying to a lower orbit.

Gravity. They have been talking so much of it, after Tesla, Einstein, others. Whole mathematics have been invented for trying to explain those (string theory in the 11th dimensions space) but so far no one has come (in public) with a verifiable solution.

I will try to make a few steps over the normal ones on such a complex theory and state that gravity may be simply a (dynamic) residual attraction between EM pulsating stationary quanta of energy, or disturbances that do not travel or resonate like light quanta, but instead are caught, due to interaction with others, figuring dynamic dipoles that happen to be in phase or close to, naturally reorienting for or close to attraction.

By not travelling, through analogy with light those could generate their own space and time.

Mass (inertial) in general would be the resistance of moving the stationary EM quanta through the resonance planes of light. In the case of fast constant speed moving quanta like "photons" if you add energy to the photon you change only frequency, in the case of slow moving or stationary disturbances (quanta), like "heavier particles", if you add energy to those you will change speed.

Once acquired a certain amount of energy (speed) they will simply jump through the planes at constant speed, the resistance will appear only when adding speed.

No electrons do not create EM dipoles by moving around. Smaller particles EM pulsating quanta have mass and interact with gravity.

It is said Einstein didn't like the name photon. I submit the whole class of particles we know today as bosons should be called gozons.